So um little warning, this part of my uh tale ? I guess taradiddle is right discussion, um is a slight darker. Sorry but it's rightful, not too dark just, I was going through many emotions the day after.

I awoke the morning after feeling like I had slept for years. At commencement the Night before with my mother felt like a dream, that was until I vastly became cognisant of my nakedness. I grinded my teeth as I do when I am trying to hide how nervous I am, so I guess I was trying to hide it from myself ? After though my initial awe of what happened passed, I realized I heard the shower bath on, quickly I rolled onto my back, impression with my hand the edges of the bed.

My mother had already slipped out of the bed. I sat up, cover falling down and my breast just out and exposed. I remember looking down at them and blushing, scratching the position of my face, but the embarrassment quickly became sweep over as I looked around for my shirt. It wasn't in the room so I just fell back into the bed, curling up this time and making surely I was wrapped from substructure to make out. I pretty much just laid there silently looking at my hand, caressing my finger with my thumb, lol like as if I was trying to make certainly I was real or something…

The haphazardness of the work H2O had long stopped, I had to begin to wonder what was taking my mom so long, but didn't honestly put too lots thought into it, just paused every now and then to listen. Oh correctly ! You should cognise she has her own bath connected to her bedchamber, so ya lol. So ya I just sorta laid there until the sound of the bathroom door opening made me jump. I got up with a smile on my face…but sadly it was quickly gone and I was holding back tears once again as I saw my mom fixing her arm for work. .

You know, now that I am a bit honest-to-goodness, I'd like to think a tad wiser : P hehe. I realize now that one of the major matter that change as you grow up, is you are truly teach the moral that lifespan simply goes on. It isn't that the Night before wasn't as important to her as it was to me, simply that I was younger and had yet learn that fact, I was a kid and something Major had happened to me, so in the distinctive child response, I had expected the entire world to cease and sense as if it had changed also. So ya unaware of that living moral, I was insanely hurt by the fact that she was going to wreak so easily.

Hurt and pissed, I looked at her with the most annoyed cheek I could make. eyes squinted arduous and mouth closed harshly. Once my mom noticed my blaze at her, she huffed and her work force hit the side of her thigh. ( that was her, what's up ? What's wrongly motion that I had became very use to ). And you should love I hated that, she knew I hated that, it's like kinda rude in my eyes ? Just say the words. Well I like breathed out through my nose pissed that she did that, but instead of her usual reaction of going"Oh what is it ?"Instead this sentence she gently asked."Kim, baby, what's wrong ?"I sharply looked back at her, and simply said nil !

My mom, I guess trying to be patient role, sat at the edge of the bed, and said the very LITERALLY the perfect thing I thought she should of said."beloved, do you require me to stay home ? We can talk about, well, anything you want."Heh…she said the words, she even looked like she truly meant it, so even till today, I ask myself, why didn't I just accept her offering ? Why did I have to be a bitch. *sigh* So ya instead of saying, yes please ! I need you to detain ! No instead of I just got out of bed, keeping the cover tightly held to my chest, responding to her without even looking at her."No I'm fine, go to work."Was all I had to say. Oh fiddling funny English note haha was actually unvoiced shuffling with my feet over the blanket ( im not improbable LOL ! )

I guess trying to be a good mom, she cut me off at the door*sigh* It's like, you know when you are just so angry, but you want to like…you need to just halt being mad you want to just say"hey I'm sorry."But you don't….well that was this case. She cut me off asking me, pleading with me to delight talk to her. But being the refractory brat that I was AND YES I ADMIT IT I WAS…key word is was…anyways ! I just told her in a very low but buttocks whole step"Please just let me go to my room, I want to be left alone, okay ? !"

My mom simply put her fountainhead down, I remember this legal action very well cuz, well…cuz I just wanted to grab her and…yes kiss her. But as you may tell, this day was just becoming a normal of matter I wish I did differently cuz well, I just nodded for her to open the door, and left as she did.

Now in my room, I dropped the mantle, crying quietly to myself, but my hand shook it's self into a fist as I grabbed my fuzz, I hated myself in that here and now, but I wasn't sure what I hated myself for, the sex, or giving her the cold shoulder after. I know sex is never what we want it to be our commencement times, but my trouble wasn't this, it was the opposition damn it. I was furious that, she was unadulterated she wasn't this monster I partly wanted her to be, she was gentle and loving the entire time, and it was amazing, dare I say sodding for me ?

But It was with my mother and I was upset, upset how much I had enjoyed myself.
wellspring feeling really eldritch just being naked, I had decided to retrieve some wearing apparel. I walked to my closet, but stopped as I heard the figurehead door give and close…I remembering just, I dunno, snickering ? in disappointment that she actually left, and just shrugging it off, telling myself…fuck her.

So ya, feeling too many emotions to look at with, I decided to …well subscribe a rain shower to relax/erm…clean up ya…So ya..there I was in the shower, hands against the bulwark, center closed and me just trying to slow down, trying to just commit on the hot H2O running down my body, I had it so hot my skin was turning garden pink lol. Sadly, the deception of a nice hot shower bath, did not sour this prison term as I, well began once again playing back the events of last night, though this clip was different, my mom drifted not to what she had done to me, but to her body, how ….how awe-inspiring she looked, and I found myself starting to become very turned on.

I remember my hand, drifting down my thorax and cupping my left breast. I massaged myself gently, blushing, pretending it was my mom's mitt on me. For a minute I think I just stood there massaging my breast, rubbing my stomach with my early hired man, avoiding actually touching my slit. Then, heh it's Wyrd where our minds go sometimes…or well mine at least, I thought of my father…I thought of my brothers and I began to mean of what they would think…then of how my friends would judge me, what they would say of me if they knew and I just 100 % immediately stopped…no farseeing did I even have the Energy to fight the air mile in my stomach or even cry, so instead I simply sat down in the shower, slouching myself up against the recess, just sitting there for not certainly how long, but felt like 15 min+.
I guess just simply the heat had became too much, or just sitting on the hard shower floor for so long my bum was going benumbed : P So I had decided to finally get out, I poured somebody dry wash on my manus and just gave myself a quick cleaning, you know, shampoo ect ect hehe.

So ya this is sorta when I lost it…lol. When I exited the shower, I didn't even grab a towel, I just felt kinda like a zombie, drained…mentally exhausted. Then…I don't know…I looked at the mirror which now was extremely foggy, I leaned over jumping from the coolness I felt as my tegument touched the bound of the sink. I wiped away as much as I could ( im short ! ) and ya I mean I just stepped back and looked at myself.
I was just, I was confused. I looked at myself thinking, what, I mean what could she possible see me in me that was so great ? I examined myself from head to waist. I thought, my heart are kind of pretty…maybe she liked them ? Then I looked at my breast, I…I never really looked at them like this before I always thought they where kinda skillful, I developed early, but…never really saw them as physical object of desire before. I looked at them, remembering like, like how a good deal my mom just seemed to…erm savour them. I…just, I became quickly embarrassed tbh, and even felt a little unintelligent, trying to think of what my own mother found best about me…haha*sigh*

Well…needless to say embarrassment quickly turned into dishonor *Sigh* and pity quickly became anger. I was angry…angry at myself but wanting to put all the rap on her…I foolishly did and I just became filled with rage, so often rage it was like I woke up, my body just got all this energy and ire and I just I didn't know where to place it like I needed to physically put it somewhere and I just looked at myself and I just was thinking how, like god how could I set aside this happen, how could she do this to me, how just how. It just all built up too fast till finally I just grabbed the hired hand max pump, fully prepared to throw at the mirror.

So…there I was looking at myself, my hand up in throwing question, but I just I guess I stopped cuz I haha thought of how mad my mom would be, how it would cost money to recompense it, and well it sounds dumb but I liked the mirror so that factored into it too. But…but then I erm…I thought again how much my mom use to get perturbation when my brother broke stuff when he got angry and how vexed she gets even when we break stuff on accident and I …I just SCREAMED I mean I JUST SCREAMED and threw it with all my might at the mirror breaking the Georgia home boy bottle thingy ( it was a nice like methamphetamine thingy my marvellous ma bought me ) And it just broke and the mirror had 2 giant whirl with a like huge gash where I threw it.

I stood there, looking at my handy body of work, and just I was just still so mad that I just grabbed my tomentum as tight as I could and pulled it back, still screaming, falling to my genu and once again, crying but this clip just wide blown weeping, shivering and all…It got so bad that I started to hic up and almost threw up. I even found myself over the toilet, but I didn't.

So, ya… that happened lol. But after I calmed down finally, I got up and got dressed ( slipped over a long black HBK jersey, and a couplet of pink step-in ) To hell with matching ! I didn't forethought ... My promontory was killing me and I was top-notch freakin hungry…but didn't feel exactly like cooking…lol. So I called my preferred pizza space ! Deep looker blimp paddy with extra cheese..mmmmm : P Well while I was waiting…I was just like sorta bored and trying not to guess of last nighttime, so I decided to rent a movie on demand ( Iron man in slip any of you care. ) Oh ya, not, that it's important but I am a pretty big D/C fan ! Im a hardcore amusing girl…so let's all hope man of steel rock ! Cuz I am tired of wonder wtfpwnig the comic book movie globe ! I mean…ya batman is nerveless but really heath daybook's joker made that trilogy special, the first one was ok, third base one good, only the shadow knight was a master piece.

Anyways…lol sorry now that that is out of my system…I will continue hehe…oh ya vernal justice rules ! Ok ok I'm done : P So there I was watching branding iron man, till finally I heard the threshold knocking. I quickly jumped up thinking THANK GOD ! Lol…but to my dismay…lol disheartenment look at me being all partiality, anyways to my dismay ! It wasn't the pizza pie guy…

It's like of all the people in the world I really didn't want to see ( former than my mom, or maybe I did want to see her who knows, surely not me ) My dad…was at the doorway UGH. Ya…needless to say I was just taken back, I immediately was like…DAD ? ! I think if I recall correctly, my voice even crackled lol. Ya, so like I just..haha I stood there blocking him from entering cashbox finally he knocked me back to realism. He was like"Uh…Move ?"lol ya…that's my dad for ya : P As he walked in he took a flying flavour around. Becoming oddly nervous as if somehow he had physic power and make love what had happened here finally night, I questioned him as to why he was here.

Well he saw my pants on the flooring, I watched him just stare at them. I just…my heart began to wash like a thousand multiplication faster than it should, I just all I could do from panicking was I just stabbed my inner hand with my nails telling myself SHUT UP in my fountainhead saying it's not like it's not normal to just have my pants laying around he has no idea your being an idiot ! Then, it was like as if god was just messing with me, to take things unfit my dad picked up my jeans, squeezing them feeling them. I was like"What are you doing ?"Then..my trunk just lol, just let out a big sigh of substitute as he went in my pocket and grabbed out my phone, his look giving me that…tisk tisk feeling hehe. He saw how like…panicy I was or how just calm I had become all of a sudden not sure, but he is not one to let something go. Soooo my dad being who he is quickly began to grill me asking me."What's wrong ? Scared I was gon na witness something else in your pants, and also keep your shit phone charged Kimberly ! ( he calls me replete public figure when he is lecturing. )

Apparently he was disquieted all day because shoemaker's last he heard I was going by Ruben's…and he had tried to scream me to check up, but I guess I just let my phone die out and then he had been ineffective to reach my mom. ( I found out years later that she actually felt too awkward to mouth to him that day.

I told him no to his questions, but he was suspicious so he had begun to flick through my pants pouch, which quite frankly pissed me off and I was already sour that day. So well haha honestly I just raged. I was like DAD STOP WTH. He just…typically laughed off my reaction telling me to tranquillize down, which just made it so very much worse so I walked up to him and snatched my pants, telling him not touch my things. He then went. HEY ! You know in that way fathers do implying showing them esteem, but I just rolled my eyes and said, dad Ruben dumped me, I am not in the modality.

You should know my dad has never been howling with the play position so his reaction haha was like"Ah fuck you okay ?"lol. So ya I just was like"I'm fine."But honestly I just wanted him to entrust, nothing against him I just wanted to be left alone ya know ? And also well like Ruben literally meant zip to me haha being dumped really was soooo nipper to me now. well anyways, he wasn't seeming to get the word picture that I wanted to be left alone as he sat down on the couch. But quickly after he sat down, the pizza guy finally knocked.

My dad asked who that was. I told him I had ordered pizza, he haha said"Oh nice, from genoz ?"I was like…yes…how we like it. I gave a faint smile as he got up to go pay for it, but honestly I just was thinking…o god he isn't gon na go lol. So ya…my dad paid, placed the pizza on the table, opening it and taking a big sniff as if he had never smelled it before haha. I was like…"Dad I ordered that for myself !"And he looked at me and said"A with child pizza for yourself ? Also I paid !"I was like…well it's not like I asked you too I was going to…You just sorta got to the door first, besides ! I was gon na eat it over the path of 2 or 3 Clarence Day ! My dad though just went"Bah I'll get ya another one if you want it so bad in 3 days."I …ugh panicking I just…honestly I just figured I'd play the trueness circuit board ( half verity ).

I simply just, half whispered to my dad, telling him that I love him and thanks for checking on me, but I really just want to be alone right now. I was hoping for a simple okeh, maybe he takes a piece or two of pizza with him lol, but nope, nothing is ever that simple. He just grabbed a opus and sat down, pointing across from him, asking me to take a nates. I think I just like sighed and like made that motor phone with my back talk haha.

So I did as he asked and sat down, but I just crossed my weapons system as I sat down, giving him a pretty undeservingly cold"What ?"He just well went on to tell me he was worried about me, he was worried about how I have been acting lately. He told me that he gets everyone has to go through a rocky patch where they need to act out, but he specifically told me he was very unpleased in how I had been treating my mother…haha you could only reckon how just, tight my head teacher got as I tried not to bust out in anger, and at Lapplander fourth dimension had to begin fighting back the binge that was forming. It was like he just couldn't of said anything worse as he had told me how he talked to my mom. And how she told him I just needed time I I JUST I JUST WANTED HIM TO SHUT UP. He was praising her like she was the best freakin female parent ever. He was telling me how she told him to be patient role that it's a phase it will give-up the ghost. He was telling me how a lot my mother loves me and how she would do anything for me….heh all I could conceive was he should bang what she has fucking done TO me.

Anyways, I guess he misread my tears, but then again, what sane father would see his daughter in weeping and go, oh hey you must be stressed over the sex with your mother LOL ! So ya, misreading em, my dad just was all like, I am not saying this stuff to take a leak you feel bad, I just want you to know your mother loves you, I love you blah blah blah. It's like thanks but…you just don't know.

Well needless to say lol tbh, my reaction as ummm less then positive as I just told him to please stop over, that he has no musical theme what I am going through. My words where kind, but my spirit was totally, hey piss off lol. Well you know how kids and parents are, we never think they understand, but they usually do, though in this case I truly don't think he did. Though it did not break him from giving me the old"Kim, listen I have been contrive stuff in my life."He even gave me the you think your ma and I breaking up was easy on me speech - -. Honestly though the funny matter happen, I was watching my dad talk to me, being you know…a father…a parent and I just, well I melted as dumb as that may go, I just melted and completely instantly relaxed.

I just ha, I almost laughed but I just smiled and said thanks dad. He haha my dad is a pretty funny guy : P
So my dad was just like"No prob…so we honorable ? Did I fix ya ?"I just glared at him and was like um I wasn't broke and you were doing outstanding till then you jerk. So lol anyways after that it was pretty normal we talked about how big of a dork Ruben is ( I lied a little ) And we both knew it was me who was the gripe but it was really relaxing bashing the guy who dumped me with my dad haha. Oh also I am a horrifying sister : P BUT HE IS A BAD Dad cuz we both had a good laugh at my brother who apparently had got mugged ? I think mugged, what is it called when you fall asleep in the and soul takes your haversack lol.

So ya the rest of the day more or less was easy, we restarted the movie, I got a mini lecturing of how I only ate 1 firearm of pizza and how wasteful it was to club a enceinte haha, you know just pattern stuff..and god was it what I needed just some convention clock time with a parent. I think about half way through the last engagement scene of iron man I just fell asleep, snuggle up against my dad, smiling and just not even thinking about her or the dark before.

So, I guess despite having a well Night of practiced slumber, I think I was just emotionally drained. I slept for a few hour apparently and my dad had seem to fallen asleep as well holding me hehe. Everything was just, a close to hone as it could have been considering. But then…she came base. I was woken up by the door closing, and my mom going"Henry M. Robert ? ? ?"My mom ha just seemed so thrown that my dad was over. I remember her cracking her neck ( which she sometimes does when she is caught off guard ).

My dad quickly jumped up, which kinda made me sad, I even….grabbed onto him trying to proceed him for just a moment longer, I loved the feeling of his chest, his flavour, NOT IN A SEXUAL WAY AT ALL I never have ever had tactile sensation for my begetter, just…I was that father feel, like I was safety with him and I just didn't want to him to go. Sadly though, my little attempt to harbour onto him failed as he just laughed me off and got up, resting my hands back onto the couch.

There was a quick conversation between the two, my mom asking why he was there and my dad asking why she wasn't picking up her speech sound. I am not sure enough if my mom lied or just happen to have a good reason, but the reason she gave was, she was in a meeting with a client and had her earphone muted. I remember my dad like, blowing out like his sass got big as he blew out and that's simply his typical"im tired im out guys."tell. He even stretched, yawning, looking at me. It took everything in me to not cry, it literally took my complete effort to just, not cry.

He asked if I felt better, if I was alright now. Heh it's Weird. I remember feeling like, trapped like plz don't leave me alone with her ! But there was nada keeping me there ? There was nothing stopping me but myself from leaving, from not being alone with her, simply me, weird huh ? Too tone trapped but only to be trapped by yourself lol.

My mom walked my dad out the door, I think they talked for a moment or two, not indisputable what about but I didn't spirit like waiting for my mom to arrive in and say or do something, so I simply got up off the couch and glided half dazed to my room, locking the door and just falling on my bed, and rolling up into the mall. I laid there, just waiting for her, finally I heard her walking down the manor hall, stopping in front of my threshold. There wasn't even a endorsement of muteness, the s she reached my doorway she immediately knocked, turning the handle, unsuccessfully trying to embark my room.

I didn't say a employment I just sat up and looked at the door, my sum began to feel as if it was sinking down into my stomach. I was expecting her to say spread the door, or something, ask how I was ? Ask to talk, I don't know, all I know is she did none of those. Instead she merely asked if I needed anything. I told her I just wanted to be left alone right now. And with a simple alright, I heard her walking away.

So I pretty much laid there for just awhile, not sure how long wasn't even sure what prison term it was I am guessing pass 6, considering my mom gets home around 5:30-6 usually. Anyways I got up, bored ? But unwilling to will my room, so I went to my shelf and finally gave in haha. My supporter Amy had been trying to get me to find out Buffy the vampire killer for like EVER, so I figured what the Inferno I grabbed the season 1 and figured I will finally give it a shooter, she did buy me all 7 season after all lol…sorta lame b-day gift when you wanted so many other thing, but oh well lol.

OK I got to say, did not click with me at all the only reason I even got through 4 sequence was because I had naught ELSE TO DO…you know alone…cuz see, I didn't just not want to leave my room, I really did want to be left alone at that moment. So I just so you all know, it wasn't for like another year+ Did I finally watch all of Buffy haha. So it was like 11 and I was annoyingly wide awake, it was a Sat night too so all my supporter that didn't hate me lol where asking me to go out with them. And a few sentence I will let in I almost just called one or two and told em to arrive receive up with me but I just never got to it cuz, well…well I had started to wonder what my mom was doing heh.

I hadn't heard from her and I wonder if she had gone to kip. But as I wondered if she was sleeping my mind started to remember of many early things. What was she thinking all day ? Was she really just okay with everything ? I thought to myself it makes horse sense I mean she had wanted this longer then I right ? And well I still wasn't trusted if I wanted it even after it had happened. As I walked back and forth in my room, I started to birth an impulse to go talk to her, to just verbalise to her but had no idea about what. And unwisely I walked back and forth in my room thinking how to speak to her, do I go hey mom, how was your day ? Or do I just gah I don't even know I actually thought that I just it was stressful wanting, needing to do something and having no idea why, or even exactly what you wanted.

Finally I gave up and told my friends I was going to slumber for the night I wasn't feeling practiced which was a lie cuz I was just I had slept a lot that day so I was simply just too alive, despite really wanting nothing more than to just close my eyes and sleep. Eventually, it wasn't even the need that had me to see my mom tbh lol it was simply ennui, I was bored out of my thinker and nix seemed to be able to keep my interest, so I finally left my room, and slowly very slowly, taking each step to make certain I was ready for…w/e…and well …heh It was that walk to my way that, my dead body had begun to tingle.

I was taking my time and getting knots in my belly, wondering now that if I came to her room at night, would she get the wrong idea ? Would she recall I wanted a repetition of last night ? And then as I was outside her door, It was as if that walk from room to room was enough to just go back and forth 100000000 times on what I wanted, and now that I was in front of her door, I was no closer to knowing. All I knew was my consistence was tingling, my breast were…feeling delicate ? Haha like minuscule fingers were crawling all over them and my stomach was all in greyback. I ten asked myself in my mind, had I come here for something ? Am I that messed up in the fountainhead that I was bored so I went to my mom to…um what ? entertain me ? *sigh*

I had decided that I was already there and I was going to at least just, talk of the town to her, but honestly I was so spooky that my shoulder joint were shaking and I literally no joke was so nervous also that I debated on if I should just walk in or knock for like 3 minutes. I went with the little but spry whang on the door ( you know the forte 1 you make that are light but degraded and when you want to wake person up or get them out of the bath like ASAP ) : P.

About like half a 2nd went by without a answer lol, so I gave it another ready smash. Then I heard my mom going"Hold on ! 1 Second !"My manus clutched loose and closed when I heard her articulation, I was skittish, but I think, I don't know maybe it's just how I feel today, but I think I might have been a petty excited. Anyways ! The doorway opened and my mom was wearing only a robe, that she had tightly closed. She was clearly benumbed as she was rubbing her eyes, yawning a little. I remember looking at her and smiling a little, she was…so cute. I stood lol oddly tranquility, not for sure why but I just wanted her to greet me or something, I just didn't want to ask to get in, I just didn't. After she gathered herself a niggling, she looked at me and with a smile asked me what's up haha…I just, awkwardly responded, telling her I couldn't sleep, gulping heavy and scratching my principal, annoyingly aware of what I was doing and screaming at myself to stop being like such a freakin idiot lol.

fountainhead, as I raged at myself in my head, my mom finally gave me the greeting I wanted lol. She just asked, so gently and welcoming, almost like she sounded younger if that makes sense."Kim, want to come in ?"I just nodded a trivial and said certainly. So I came in…and haha god I was so lame back then, I sorta just stood in the room looking around as if I never been in it ... haha…Ya…lol. My mom made me climb up so much when she put her hands gently but VERY unexpectedly on my articulatio humeri, massaging them for probably half a sec, cuz when I jumped I must of startled her because she quickly let go and apologized.
I lol was like, sorry ! Back to her sorry ? Haha I know odd but w/e…So like was maybe 2-5 seconds of just awkward silence before my mom just sat on the bed and placed her hired man on her lick, gave me a very well what felt like a very sincere motherly grin and asked me what's up. I sorta just walked around the bed looking at it, thinking how odd it was that that is where it happened, while I just wondered how it must of looked from this stage of view. I had heard her, but I had yet to respond so my mom just again asked me
What's up but this clock time adding a"Are you okay sweetie ?"

My gaze quickly shifted from the bed back to her, I just I didn't know what to say so I nodded my brain no…I nodded my no in response to"What do you need"only issue is…she didn't ask that haha. So I guess there was a little mess up in communication, it's like I knew what she said I just was having egress forming Word of God, and she just looked at me very concern and asked me what was wrong. I finally stopped, and with a intemperately draught that made my spike popped a little, I said I was fine. My mom asked if I was sure, and I went back to nodding as a response.

spirit weak in the knees, I sat on the boundary of the bed antonym of my mom, but for some reason I felt really really like fluttered and I stood back up, apologizing and asking if it was alright for me to sit down. My mom just haha she laughed at me = ( Not like a crazy mean HAHAHA IDIOT FAIL laugh just a slight chuckle, giggle ? She laughed and I just sighed feeling stupid, I guess causing her to put her hand over her mouth in a very VERY bad try in trying to stop herself from laughing.

Okay so this is probably where you are gon na call up im a full child/brat but I was thinking of the day I had…the mirror..I broke and how mad I had been earlier, now I didn't tone angry at all in that moment but I stupidly wanted to…So I tried to muster up up some wrath and I snapped at her laughing and shouted"It's not comical ! God what is improper with you !"…My mom immediately then stopped laughing, and she just sighed her point tilted and her eyes mistrustful. She just took a oceanic abyss breath and said"Baby please, let's not fight, let's just talk okay ? How was your day ?"She asked…

I dunno, maybe I was spent, I had let out all my anger, but when she asked I tried to act upset, I tried to frown my brows and be pissed, but honestly I just the discussion that came out came out filled with tears as I told her about the mirror I broke…I think I told you earlier how my mom is about breaking material its really one of her release, like it hits a nerve. So I sorta cried expecting her to storm but she …haha clearly wanted to cuz she started getting worked up, her poke flared open. But haha she let out a longsighted whistle nose candy ? Not sure what to yell it lol. I apologized, I said that I would pay for it ( not sure how lol ). She just looked at me though and just said its amercement. But after I guess it was really annoying her cuz she got up and I was like"wait it's really bad I haven't cleaned it yet"( no idea what I would of done tom ake it look better ) I was just talking out of scare. But she got up and just walked out, I quickly followed to my can where she entered first, I stood at the room access as she was in the eye of the room, hands on her hips as she looked at the mirror and the tattered trash hand pump thingy all over the sink.

"I'm sorry"I said again. She, unclutter as day trying very hard to constrain herself, asked why. I…I told her I didn't know. And I started to cry again and this time bad I just slouched my side against the doorway and slid down the threshold and asked"Mom I am so fucked up what do I do ?"I surmise thinking about it, it's probably messed up to ask the person who is sorta the problem, but I just wanted my mommy. *sigh*My mom I remember mitt shook hysterically at the mirror, telling me not to even worry about that, that its nothing, she quickly was on the level with me, her hands again on my shoulder joint, rubbing them, trying to slack up me as she said"Kimmy listen to me, there is nothing haywire with you, I just, I am stupe O.K. ? I put too much on you baby, this is me not you, alright ?"

I heard her Bible, and I could separate she meant it, but I just shook my head word no, cuz despite how sincere she was, I knew the truth. I reply licking my teeth and biting my natural language, shaking my heading in disagreement money box finally the language just came pouring out."I made you mom, it's me, I…I made you, I made you"And then I just became a broken track record repeating those words, until my own ignominy became too great and I covered my face with my hands, and just wept into them hardcore.

My mom now was rubbing the slope's of my shoulder furiously, telling me to please block up, to please listen to her. I heard her but I just wanted to just burst in that mo, I just wanted to draw in up in a ball and became small-scale, I felt torn and I just kept on yell, heaving now extremely bad into my hands. I just kept on boulder clay my mom said something that just shocked me out of it. She said"Kimberly ! Listen to me I wanted finish nighttime to happen, I played as if you were forcing me so you felt in control, but the Sojourner Truth is."Then she paused and her custody went on mine, pulling my deal away from my case. I was shaking still from crying so hard, but I looked directly into her now lachrymose cheek, tears running down each side. She then said it again"Listen to me"She asked if I was and I weakly nodded up and down."Listen to me, I wanted to be with you I was selfish, I was wrong, you want to be mad babe, be mad at me I am a monster. When I heard you broke up with Ruben, good to god I was just hoping in my fucked up mind, that you'd run into my arms."

I searched her eyes to see if she meant it, or was just saying what I needed to hear, but as I saw her eyes squint in….in shame ? I saw she meant it, she had got what she wanted. She continued though."I am so dark, I truly just want you well-chosen Thomas More than anything, but Kim I am in love with you."And that was it…I have heard her tell me over months now that she had fallen in love with the someone I have grown into, but it's different, masses can say the Bible a 100 different agency, but zippo is like hearing mortal say they are IN passion WITH YOU, just 4 words simple as that, yet far more, revealing than any other words. I mean it, for anyone who disagrees well exquisitely, but if she had said Kim I am in love with my daughter, or kim I am in love with who you have become or anything else, I wouldn't of done what I did next. I placed my hands on the incline of her boldness and kissed her. I was caught up in the buss, her lip on mine again, still at this percentage point it felt so incorrect but so expert. I now miss that notion as I have grown use to my mother's backtalk on mine.

Sadly the feeling did not stay as anger, actually did imprint again in me, I broke the candy kiss remembering, playing back what she had just told me. I was furious at the thought and I asked straight out, almost yelling it"Are you just using me now ? Hoping I just give you what you want again cuz you severalize me you loved me ?"My mom put her workforce on my articulatio genus and shook her head no and told me."I never used you Kim and I never will I swear to god I won't, but I won't lie to you about anything like this. I love you and I don't think I ever will stop being in love with you. Okay ? But that said. I am your female parent and I will protect you from anything even myself, and if you want this to end it will end. I just won't lie to you and pretend that I am not aspirant that you may come back my love."

I sat there, taking in every word but honestly just blushed, my mom was telling me she was in erotic love with me over and over and she was telling me she wanted me. I liked the percentage where she said she was still my female parent, but I just…I could really only think about the theatrical role where she said she loved me, the part of returning her love. So I just sat there intellection, my mom patiently staying silent just rubbing my knees gently, not rushing me at all, it was nice.

Heh to be fair I knew my answer to the query she hadn't technically asked, the second she was done speaking, I knew I was going to kiss her and I knew I wanted to be with her again, but I stood there, scared, trying to find a way to be strong and resist, but I was weak lol and thank god for it. Finally I looked at her and…in my precious sorta kiddy voice I asked her if maybe we can um….go back to her room. My mom let out a minuscule chuckle and winked at me saying of course.

So ya…lol we went to her room and as we entered I lol figured better use this a fiddling to my advantage and was like"So you aren't mad about the mirror right ?"She…haha okay honestly I swear I am not an idiot but her response still so watch me off guard. She just went"Na you will make up for it."And she winked at me and….undid her gown, letting it just devolve open………I I just felt so pudding head I was like"Mom..that isn't funny don't say that."My mom just curled her backtalk and nodded, walking to me and putting her weapon system on my shoulders, her hands resting well pass my head as she just said"Ok, im sorry"ina very none serious tint, and she even immediately after leaned in and kissed me. This buss I think, was our first snog where I actually was moaning quite a bit, I wasn't so uneasy this fourth dimension but still was plenty, but I was enjoying myself much more, really kissing her back with everything I had….I even for inaugural time was bold a piffling and put both my hands on her shank ...

She was the one to break the kiss as she took a footfall back, slipping her robe off and letting it fall to the floor. I just stood there looking at her, almost biting my lip but it was as if I lost control of my body and my lip wouldn't move correctly haha. She then said"How about we give old shawn a break."( okay for you hoi polloi who don't know HBK=Shawn Michaels the sheik on my tee shirt ). So ya my mom came to me and I think she was gon na help me take my shirt off but I just nodded my nous and said"ok"and quickly slipped it off…I think she was gon na help me cuz she went"oh"and let out a little giggle like..okay then that works kind of laugh.

My mom then smiled and just reached over and gave my nipple a quick pinch *sigh* haha. I twitched and she just lifted her school principal forward for a sec saying"how about you get fully comfortable."I ..only took a indorsement to get what she meant as I grabbed my step-in to bring em down, but she told me wait. Then she told me to"Take them off slowly baby, please."So…remembering the Nox before I, leaned forward and stuck my bum out, and began to sneak them slowly but honestly I felt WAY TO EMBARASSED I just haha strip teasing my mom I so was not up for that yet, so I just went"Na I'm salutary"And just yanked back up straightaway and pulled em down fast, stepping out of them and just kicking em off to the trading floor.

My mom rolled her eyes and told me I was no fun lol ! But what she did succeeding made me find so unintelligent she, leaned down and grab my panties, she held em stretched out for me to see…She then brought it to her face and just inhaled them. Then after…o god haha I actually don't even want to type this constituent, she lowered them, keeping both of her center sharply on mine as she bit down on the sharpness of my step-in, pulling them with her teeth and letting them snap out of her mouth. I just..lol I felt so just GAH I just sat down for a sec before rolling to the center of the bed….taking the Same spot as I did the night before. She laughed at me, making me feel stupidly and for some reason I covered my breast, whining and asking her"WHAT ? !"My mom just started laughing actually kinda gruelling and it was upsetting me. But I felt so dumb that I didn't even rage I was just the likes of"Mom please stop."

She could totally tell apart how I said it that she really was hurting my feelings but she seemed to bear a hard prison term stopping she just said"Baby I'm sorry you just are too adorable, you just."Then she started laughing again…but I was like MOM ! And she was like"I am so sorry just ( while laughing ) I am just, you are just so cute my sister female child, only you would just get into position like that."I…ugh I felt like my face was on fire I quickly jumped up and was like"I'm sorry I just…please stop laughing ! I just thought you wanted to…do um what…what we did…sorry."And my mom just was comparable awww sister you are TOO CUTE. And she crawled on the bed, finally thankfully stopped laughing more or less, she came up to me and gave me a agile kiss. Raising her brows though she than went, sorta of asking but not really."So you liked what I did last night huh ?"

I just I had never felt more retarded in my life, I was just like"No I just, thought you wanted to do that…stuff again."I swear the second the words left my mouth I was like REALLY KIM ? REALLY ? ! She just snapped her fingers and pointed at me going"riiight"Honestly I was just pass embarrassed so I was just like"Can we delight just move on."My mom just smile, biting her lips and letting the her lip pop out as she said"Sure we can."She then…told me to go back lay down, get comfortable she said…then teased me and said"take your stead !"I was like MOM ! She was like"Okay O.K., I'm done."So ya…I…as she put it…took the position and laid back at the centre of the bed. So..I laid there now feeling kinda dumb after that unit ordeal…lol.

My mom…looked at me up and down, making me rosiness *sigh* She then stroked her chin and said"I changed my mind, rollover…"I was like …um…no ? lol. Then she…uhhh lol she placed her hand on my stomach and rubbed it over my stomach playfully telling me to come on and not be shy. . I just..I TOLD her FINE and I got up just to arrest her from doing the deal thing on my tum, she use to do that to me when I was little trying to get me to stop throwing a fit but …ya it was kinda creeping me out now tbh. So I got up and…I rolled over to my belly, feeling really off setting, I mean I of course laid my font monotonic and turned it, to see at her but it just…I felt very just like I said off.

Anyways, so there I was, on my stomach and my mom just, lol did something VERY unexpected, she put her hands on each of my sides and pushed down semi grueling on my spine. I remember grunting but moaning I was like holy crap that feels fucking amazing ! She was like"See, just listen to your mother ! Relax okay ?"And I just placed my face forward and nodded ( assuming she saw me ) Cuz she went up my binding and pushed again. I, even till today I love having her push on my back it feels bang-up, I have tried to deliver others do it and I dunno maybe cuz I have only ever had guys do it other than her and it's usually they hurt, but it felt really good that dark having her do it. So haha she did that for about 5 min and she punched my back also, rubbed it really dear, all add together probably like 10 min hehe. And then she stopped.

After helping me unlax hehe, my mom gave me a quick kiss on my back, asking me if I felt a little better…I …I just honestly felt so much more relax but she gives such groovy massages that I said, trying to be adorable but half sober"5 to a greater extent minutes and I'll be great ! Please and ty !"She hates when I say plz and ty : P But I guess she really wanted me to just feel relaxed, cuz she said o.k. steady and kissed my backbone again and rub my back some more, my neck opening and she finished by rubbing my head, I WAS IN promised land, honestly I never had anyone give me a massage before, and I had…been stressed lately and I guess she just knew what I needed heh…

Anyways we chatted also during it was actually …nice I am so happy she did that cuz it did completely relax me, and it just, I needed that not just the massage but the conversation, we talked about my friend Lisa, body of work, and my dad's crazy obsession with Genoz pizza. So…I guess after my mom was done, she got close to my ear and said, well asked …um"So ready to really unbend now babe ?"…God after the massage and stuff I dunno I just loved when she called me baby now : P

I just, I knew what she meant so I was a piffling hesitant, also I sorta just wanted her to keep rubbing me : P but I just nodded yes. And I began to flap over. But my mom stopped me going"No no Kimmy, just relax stay down."I just…I was similar erm OK, kinda just assuming she was gon na rub me some more haha ! Maybe my legs ? I dunno all I know was I loved being spoiled like this !

Little pause for a bit, my mom totally must of wanted me for awhile cuz I remember thinking how the hell is this charwoman exclusive, she is only 18 years sr. then I ( yep that's right 36 ) She highly above average, she is no role model but she looks 28 ish, and I just I don't get how the hell mortal else didn't grab her up lol, I guess SHE IS PICKY.

Okay back to the serious parts : P sorry. So like I was laying there expecting some more rearward rubbing but instead she said…very um cute yet seductively."Do me a favour baby young woman, delight lift your beautiful ass for me."Haha I …god I remember my reaction I just was 100 % like"WHAT ? ! NO ?"I even tried lfiting my head but she playfully pushed my foreland back down and went"Come on, contain playing the shy circuit card hun, just ask yourself this, approve ?"I just…whispered okay in response."Just ask yourself if you want mom to build you cum really hard, if so then do I say !"I …lol I was like…ma…don't like public lecture like that. She then asked if I really didn't like when she does. I just shrugged and told her maybe I just need time to get use to it, I am just so use to hearing her talk a certain way it's crazy to listen her talk of the town like this now…to me.

So my mom…being the smartass she is, grabbed my cheek and started massaging them going"Ok then."Her voice…changed like she was telling me to do my homework and she simply said"Kimberly blank shell Blank ( no offense don't want to get my center and last public figure ) bring up your ass right now offspring lady."I…haha I am not sure if that is exactly what I had in thinker im 99.9 % sure it wasn't but I sorta liked it so I obeyed, besides she was already…um spreading my cheeks and poppycock so that also kinda helped in the sense that it would get been stupid to register off to her what she was already …playing with ?

So I did as she said, lifting my butt in the air, my knees sliding up the bed into the cover. My mom placed her hand on my waist, aid me in raising my cigarette in presentation for her…*sigh* So ya…there I was, my arms up and crossed, forehead resting on them with my knees up on the bed, my rump up in the air, breast simply nipples touching barely the bed. She wasted no time…I just I didn't even get a minute to be embarrassed of the pose I was in as she just got behind me and dove right in…
It caught me so off guard that I jumped a fiddling yelping"wait delay hold on !"But she did not even slow down, she gliding her hands up and down my buttock while she licked my pussy in up and down in circles…I, felt so much more juicy being in this position…I felt…degraded, and…more on showing I suppose. Which may not make sense but it is what it is. I moaned and shivered and a part of me truly displeased the billet I was in but anytime I would try to protest, all that would escape my lips was the tidings mom between the moans I could not help but release.

After about if I had to approximate 5 hour, I had my low coming of the Night, but as my body tightened and my mind just exploded, my mom did not slow at all, instead she rewarded my climax with a finger's breadth inside me…It was…too practically never had I had something truly inside me other then myself, and now my mother, it was my mother that was inside. I felt her finger wiggle around inside me and I felt violated, not …erm not bad just I felt like, like I was truly being touched, like a part of me that wasn't supposed to be touched by her was just hers to do with as she pleased. It was crazy how very much my body my intact consistence just focused on this 1 small finger in me that seemed to verify my integral body with every motion it did.

My mom now removing her oral cavity from my ass, she now adjusted herself to the side of me…keeping her middle digit inside me, the rest of her helping hand squeezing my can. With her early hand she glidded over my back, calling me a well girl and how beautiful I was, but it was when she said"God I love you Kim."that just sent me over the edge, I came again, and this time I could feel my trunk constrain its grip on her finger as if it didn't want to let it go I felt so……so..just silly to feature something in me moving around so much I somehow wanted to enshroud my insides from it, but at the Lapp time…I wanted more…so much more.
As she continued to just thumb me…her finger rubbing me inside, with her free hand she was now gently flicking at my mammilla, she continued to do this, asking me how it felt, asking me if I loved it. I never gave her an answer…I just moaned and yelped as I came for the third time, and with my thirdly orgasm she seemed to almost jump by how it felt back behind her, diving her aspect back in, and making…very very loud slurping noises which just….made me feel so GAH it was like she was literally pushing how much my judgement could take as I nearly caused my back talk to bleed I bit them so hard.

Finally and I mean finally after 3 major climax and many little single that followed after, she stopped, but only for abbreviated of instant as she placed her hand on my waistline, and roughly and forcefully turned me over. My arm even hurt as it was stuck for a 2d before I popped it out from one-half underneath me. I looked at her and she just had this smile, this grin like she….she was having the fourth dimension of her life, I just…what could I do but smile back. My legs I kept all-embracing as I was so tire, gasping for air. But she was not done with me yet. No…she now crawled over me, keeping herself hovering above me with her hands on the English of me, I shivered though as I looked at her tit, and felt her thigh touch my own.
My middle were half shut as she kissed me, but they shot capable with surprise as I ..I tasted…I tasted me on her lips…and it was…different. My mom broke the kiss raising herself, smiling and telling me again that she loves me. I just…I think I cried a little, but my heart also looked down as I saw and felt her hand see its way to my pussycat again…inserting it's self back in, her thumb rubbing my clit as her eye fingerbreadth twirled and thrust its way around and in me. My head jerked back as I had a wavelet of picayune orgasms shoot through my body…my mom leaned down ( sorta telling imo considering she was holding herself up with 1 arm pretty much did a 1 arm push up, well I mean she was half egg laying on me but not the spot ! ) And she lowered herself taking my breast into her mouth…and that right there was my first o god second, where I just came screaming the words oh god.

As I came my mom bit on my nipple and pushed on my clit, and her digit picked up much speed, and she just kept on and kept on forcing my physical structure to rise. She took her oral fissure off my breast as my eubstance rised, she just wouldn't stop her finger jabbing its self in and out of me so fast and I just it was too much I was so medium all I was doing now was going"mom mom mom mom"I wanted to say mom enough plz but only mom kept coming out as I just had the most powerful by far orgasm ever and she just wouldn't I even started to push for her to get off me, but that only seemed to ready her try to go faster though impossible I think. I started to wiggle now, the sensation becoming intolerable I pleaded now"Mom plz stoppage mom !"but instead of stopping she latched back to my titty, sucking and making popping strait as I wiggled out of her lip uncontrollably. Finally and god do I mean finally she slowed down, I am guessing her manus got tired….lol. She didn't off her digit though…simply stopped leaving her finger resting in me and letting her trunk just relax on top of me.

My breathing was so fast it was actually hurting a minuscule haha. My hands where now on my mother's back, just feeling her back and holding her in..I think appreciativeness ? I think it's normal to just be grateful when someone makes you feel like that. My mom's breast were smashed against me half on mine half below them, my mom looking up at me, swearing haha I guess she really gave it her all, and I just looked down at her and around the elbow room thinking what the Scheol just happened that, beyond words.

After just laying there for many transactions, my extremely sensible trunk jumped entirely as my mom finally removed her finger, pushing up and getting off me. I…I was hot and sticky it wasn't like the night before where I got a with child coming this was…more and my organic structure had felt like it just had been through a huge ordeal ( I guess it was ). I was hot…really hot…like I felt like just spent and on flaming. My mom sat up, and looked at me, giving me another New York minute and about to say something but I said"No mom large job."And she just laughed like a quick laughter and then made a very lovely boldness, her brows up as she said"Well thanks."I just…I…then asked if I may ask for 1 more thing. And..her response brought split to my center."Anything Kim, I'm yours."I…I asked her if maybe…if she didn't nous and keep in psyche I was still breathing quite hard so it took 10 seconds extra to get the words out, but I was like mom…maybe even If you wake up first, you can quell in bed till I wake up please.

My mom looked at me, binge now formed in her eyes and she said"Kim I am sorry about this morning…"She seemed like she was gon na go on but I just didder my fountainhead and said plz don't, just lets think about tonight, just predict me when I wake up you will be there. She tilted her chief down and said"I promise, I will never leave you."She then got up and went and got a blanket again, I watched her for just a moment but then I just laid back with the bountiful grin on my face, thinking how dopey I had been today for not be okay with this, for being so tempestuous. My mom came back to bed with the mantle, and two pillows, she helped my headway up and placed 1 under me, and tossing the blanket over me. She then proceeded to slip under the blanket and putting her arm around my tummy, kissing my cheek and saying she loved me, and finally before I closed for my eyes for the night, I said it back."I love you…Lesley."Although she gave me this really take aback look cuz I used her public figure and we both just laughed a little well more her I more just weakly giggled, I was exhausted : P. Anyways she held me and I asked for TV on and fell asleep to something and my mom holding me hehe.

So ya that's the um fib of the day after, I truly hope you enjoyed and I would fuck feedback, this was very much harder to return seeing as I had to try to remember a day specifically but I tried my hardest to do well.

Oh ya P.S. Since I had started sharing my mom and I family relationship, I have been met with expected but I feel stupefied anger and insults towards us. You know what to all you haters out there, I simply have this to say. I am not the wise or the wises somebody out there, but I have learned this in my sprightliness meter. love is washy and fragile. get it on conquers nix. making love is something that must be protected, and more importantly fought for. That's what I did throughout my life that's what we did, we fought for love and happiness, can you say the like ?