*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to take the easy way out of this abject spirit, As you can guess by this note I have chosen suicide as the only pick to a life I never chose to go, I hope that the one who reads this note can fully understand that I was never happy when i walked the earth, Was never happy breathing, Was never happy living a life I did n't hope, I would rather die and fall in somebody new a hazard to live, Anyways as I can probably reckon you are all wondering why I did it former than the obvious fact I never wanted to live, Well it all began a poor while ago when I met a sealed female child who for all intensive aim shall stay nameless for the time beign, She was hand on heart honest to god my perfect match, No person alive or dead could ever possibly correspond up to her in any panorama, Although to some multitude she was never considered the most beautiful to me every fourth dimension I stole a single coup d'oeil I saw an angel staring back, Every countersign she spoke managed to go forth my nub beating a picayune quick each and every time, Every time we managed to have a conversation I will honestly acknowledge that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never form a complete word, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stammer and made footling to no sense, I guess i have gone a little off racecourse but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the life I once lived, That girl who shall still remain nameless was one of the few reasonableness I saw death as the good option, The other reasons are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the nameless lady friend I have spent my aliveness alone, Nobody knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do call for help, cypher has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in hopes that maybe someone would see the broken figure hidden behind the masquerade party of tears, Nobody has ever once had the decency to just quit and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two rationality, A young lady who left me broken, Who left me depressed and for all it 's worth the second rationality will always tolerate that I 'm alone and the world never seems to worry, Guess the adjacent reason could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a dim-witted matter that in my animation has become something so major, In nearly citizenry 's lives when they are bored they just pick up a book, A game, Watch the television or go hang out with their booster, With me been bored leads to affair much more serious, The knife is always my deary retiring meter, See how long it takes for the pain to become too a good deal to abide, See how practically blood seaps out the deletion I leave on my weaponry, See how many places I can will a scar without them been noticed, Yeah such fun times, Of line alchol was always fun aswell, Getting rummy was always a great past time, So yeah that 's another reason for this preeminence, I was bored, So bored of life, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to hold out the life well-nigh people are content with, okey I guess the terminal ground would have to be that I was tired, I was so pall of living the like day over and over, Yes daylight passed but to me each and every single day seemed the same, I was in a rut, I did the same things day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many years, My life became such a repetition that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the reasons for why I chose to get hold of my life, A little girl, Being so alone, Boredom and of trend being tired, I know they do n't fathom like much of a reason but I want whoever may scan this note to understand that them four child reasons combined became one big reason, Being depressed and alone while also being very tired and extremely bore, Such a bad combination, Anyways I guess the wholly point of this distinction is to say goodbye and to let you all know the reason I left this life, So sayonara and goodluck to all, I wish my family all the best and hope they can forgive my selection, Hope they can understand that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still love them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the nameless girl can read that if she ever reads this I just want her to fuck that I do care deeply about her, I do still be intimate her and I doubt that love will ever fade, Even if my centre has no beat I will still palpate a pulsation everytime I think of her, promise she can remember the secure fourth dimension we shared and call up that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to remember that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be happy even if that meant I could never be, Okay now I know this has gotten a little hanker so I will finish as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with living as if I never existed, Just let me go and bury about me as so many people already have, Goodbye I do have it off you all ( anyone who reads that, those last channel are meant for family only ), Guess I can finally be at peace, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall rule my body in the place I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the Classical Greek where all our memories are stored ) *