*If you are reading this then it must intend I have chosen to choose the easy way out of this miserable life, As you can hazard by this eminence I have chosen suicide as the only selection to a life I never chose to survive, I hope that the one who reads this note can fully realise that I was never well-chosen when i walked the earth, Was never glad breathing, Was never happy living a aliveness I did n't desire, I would rather die and hold somebody new a chance to subsist, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it other than the obvious fact I never wanted to live, Well it all began a unawares while ago when I met a sealed female child who for all intensive purposes shall remain nameless for the time beign, She was hired hand on kernel honest to god my arrant match, No individual alive or dead could ever possibly gibe up to her in any view, Although to some people she was never considered the most beautiful to me every metre I stole a single glimpse I saw an holy person staring back, Every watchword she spoke managed to go away my mettle beating a little faster each and every clock time, Every prison term we managed to have a conversation I will honestly admit that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never make a concluded parole, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made little to no signified, I guess i have gone a footling off raceway but still I hope you understand one of the grounds I chose Death over the lifespan I once lived, That girl who shall still stay on nameless was one of the few reasons I saw death as the in effect option, The other reasonableness are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the unnamed girl I have spent my biography alone, Nobody knows me, nobody has ever once cared that I really do need service, cypher has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in promise that maybe someone would see the broken physical body hidden behind the mask of snag, Nobody has ever once had the decency to just stop and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two reasons, A female child who left me split, Who left me depress and for all it 's worth the minute cause will always stand that I 'm alone and the world never seems to manage, Guess the future reason could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a simple thing that in my animation has become something so major, In most people 's lives when they are bored they just pick up a book, A game, Watch the tv set or go hang out with their admirer, With me been bored leads to matter much more dangerous, The knife is always my favourite past time, See how long it takes for the hurting to suit too much to take over, See how much blood seaps out the cutting I leave on my coat of arms, See how many places I can get out a cicatrix without them been noticed, Yeah such fun times, Of course alchol was always fun aswell, Getting drunk was always a great yesteryear meter, So yeah that 's another reason for this greenback, I was bored, So bored of lifespan, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the life about people are contentedness with, Okay I guess the final ground would have to be that I was tired, I was so wear down of living the same day over and over, Yes 24-hour interval passed but to me each and every single day seemed the same, I was in a rut, I did the same things day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many years, My life became such a repetition that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the reasons for why I chose to deal my life story, A missy, Being so alone, ennui and of course being tired, I know they do n't voice like much of a grounds but I want whoever may translate this bill to infer that them four small fry reasons combined became one big reason, Being depressed and alone while also being very tired and extremely bored, Such a bad compounding, Anyways I guess the whole percentage point of this bank bill is to say goodbye and to let you all know the rationality I left this biography, So adios and goodluck to all, I wish my family all the full and hope they can forgive my option, Hope they can sympathize that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still roll in the hay them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the unknown girl can understand that if she ever reads this I just want her to get laid that I do care deeply about her, I do still love her and I doubt that dearest will ever pass off, Even if my spirit has no beatnik I will still feel a jiffy everytime I think of her, hope she can call back the unspoilt times we shared and think that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to call up that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be happy even if that meant I could never be, Okay now I know this has gotten a little tenacious so I will finish as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with lifespan as if I never existed, Just let me go and forget about me as so many people already have, Goodbye I do hump you all ( anyone who reads that, those last lines are meant for family only ), guesswork I can finally be at serenity, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall receive my body in the place I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the noggin where all our retentiveness are stored ) *