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So many people hear the word polygamy and immediately think, Mormons. I get it trust me, it 's because of their chronicle and all. The thing is that yes polygamy was practiced in that church for a long time but the Christian church tried to put a stop to that in Sept of 1890. After that they would practice it in underground so that no one knew, or at to the lowest degree they did n't suppose anyone knew. It was n't until 1904 that it was completely stopped, or at least it was in that Christian church. As a matter of fact, any and all polygamist, or as they called it, plural man and wife were dissolved, so it all completely ended which means that if a guy had to a greater extent than one wife, they did n't anymore after coitus met with the church leaders. Im not sure exactly when, but there were groups of multitude that broke away from the Mormon church service and started their own versions of the Latter-Day Saint church, and in those break off version, they still practice polygamy today. They believe that in order to strain the gamy kingdom of heaven they have to cause many as wife as possible and as many tyke as they could. I know what I 'm talking about because I was born into one of those break offs and I grew up in that sprightliness. One of the Christian church is called the FLDS or Fundamentalist Latter Day Saints, again, they are n't Mormons. The former is what we all call the order, and that 's the one I was born and raised in. To me, everything they did was normal, it was a way of life and I was suppose to do the Same affair. I was suppose to be one of many wives to soul and have a lot of kids and to be perfectly fair, I did n't want that because something about it just did n't feel right to me, I just did n't have got a alternative in the solid thing. I do n't fuck what it was that made me palpate that way, but it haunted me and made me feel sick. It made me sense sick to know that I was suppose to get marital, and share my husband with a whole bunch of women.

It was n't until I was 18 that I really saw the reality of polygamy and the everlasting vileness of it all. The more I woke up, the risky thing looked and believe me, it was looking really really bad. My affair was this, if God wanted us to be glad, why would he allow something bad happen to us ? Why would he provide the abuse, the marrying of young young lady to old men and why would he grant such young girls to take in their childhood stolen from them by allowing the old men to get them pregnant after marrying them ? I 'm not saying that I do n't believe in God because I do. I just do n't believe in the same god they did, and I slowly started to see that the whole `` this is the solely straight church building '' was zippo more than than a lie. A whole lot of my cousins and baby got married to older men that had eight to ten married woman and ended up getting pregnant right after they got married. They also were getting pregnant every ace class, so it was like they were pregnant all the time. Like I said I was 18 when I started to wake up, but it was n't until a few really bad things happened to me. I started to see past the fake smiles, and the role player felicity in my sisters and many others that were being courted and groomed. It was then that I realized that I had to get out, and I had to get out fast, but I 'll save that for later too.

My name is Kaylee, and I am one of almost 72 kids between the 22 married woman that my dad had. I 'm 22 now and I am no longer in the orderliness in any way, I ran away with the help from the finis someone I ever expected to help me. The guild hides all of their peccadillo and their life panache in plain good deal, if you did n't know about it, you 'd never know, it 's hidden that trade good. Your adjacent door neighbor could be polygamists and you 'd never know it. The thing I realized after so many years, was that strong-arm, sexual and mental abuse was a huge part of casual liveliness. A guy that had many wives had so many wife and kids that they had to `` rule with an smoothing iron fist '' and that meant fixture beatings and stuff. That 's just one of many things the order did to moderate everyone, it was basically nous control. The highers, that 's what we called the elders or leaders of the order, were constantly using organized religion and God to get what they wanted. Now imagine this for a arcminute, we literally married our own cousin and hooey, and the husbands beat us and tear us down verbally and physically all the prison term, would you think that it was rule ? Well, to me, it was normal, even though that kind of stuff really is n't normal if that makes mother wit. The job was that I waited so longsighted that I almost got obliterate respective fourth dimension before I realized that it was n't normal, that it was hell, a pit that no one should endure through. After I left the order I should stimulate lost everyone in my mob, but I did n't unloose anyone, and you 'll see what I 'm talking about later. The affair was that if you left the order, you were suppose to unloosen everything and everyone you ever knew, you were shunned and disowned by everyone, everyone including brothers, baby, cousins, auntie and parents, you lost them all. My eyes were unsympathetic and I was completely oblivious to what the order was all about when I was young. My mom was the 19th of 22 wives to a guy who will remain nameless for two reasons. One, I DO NOT want him to get any notoriety because of me, he was a very mad and evil man. And two, I 'll admit it, I was scared of him and I still am, you do n't know what these people are open of and those who have been in the decree, know what I 'm talking about. Those of us that have been there cognize exactly what they are capable of because we 've lived through hell because of them.

You hear about all these people who only have a one parent place and how unvoiced it is for them and their single moms or undivided dads. It was n't unmanageable for me because I did n't see anything wrong with it, to me it was normal for the don to never be around, or at least not be around for hanker periods of meter. That 's the way it was for me growing up so I guess I was just use to only mom being around. She worked a job that the order gave her too, so between that and the fact that she had to stir 9 shaver it made it unmanageable for her. No matter how hard she tried to hide it, I could still tell that she was not happy at all, she was miserable. I was the mediate child of all of us, and there were six girls and three boys in my family. When my dad did come around, he was really mean value and very scurrilous to me, my blood brother and sister and my mom. It was like life in hell when he was around, but again, I was use to it and thought that it was just the way fathers treated their families. Dad had a lot of kids, so he had to rule with an iron fist to keep us all in check. In the order, the only thing I can ever call up them teaching us is that we were to conform to the discussion of our elders, or highers, and if we did n't, there were punishment that were given, some worse than others. We were taught to do exactly what the highers told us to do, and if we did n't we would be damned. If you were a boy, the penalty were a lot more severe for you because miss were far more worthful to the order than boy were because we could have kids.

Another thing that happened all the meter in the decree was incest between cousins, uncles and nieces and buddy and sisters. Some female child would be sharing their husband with their own sisters too because some of the guy rope would marry all of the young lady in one family. It was a very normal thing because they wanted to continue the family blood pipeline clean, actually, family is all we were allowed to day of the month and marry. As in, the men would splice their outset cousins, nieces or half Sister and have sex with them, not to observe the fact that they would give birth a lot of baby. A perfect example of that is that my dad is my moms first cousin, she was 15 and he was 37 when they got married, and mom was 16 when she got pregnant with her first base kid. I remember his brother pretty serious because at some point, he ended up marrying one of my baby and she was wife 11 for him. But after her, there was one somebody that he married that was not a member of the order of magnitude when he met her. How that happened was pretty complicated so I 'll try to explain it as best as I can, and I 'll explicate why I was kind of excited about it, and yes it had something to do with a cute boy, a really really really precious boy like, oh my god he was the cutest boy ever ! My uncles wife number dozen was a really decent madam and she was really really in love life with my uncle. Now I only know how they met because this lady was a bit of a renown in the order and she 's told this fib at one of our youth conferences. She was related to us by blood, she was my dads and uncles niece. Apparently my dad and uncle had a sister that ran away while she was significant with her. No one knew about her at all because their baby was completely erased from everything after she ran away, which is normal for the guild, she was the tertiary wife of one of my dads uncles. She was 14 and that uncle was 41 when she was raped, which actually happened all of the time in the order, and got fraught with my `` celebrity '' cousin-german. All we know was shortly after she was raped and got meaning, she ran away and no one ever heard from her again. My first cousin, my dads niece was born outside of the order a few months after that. fille are always sexually assaulted and molested, but we were always told that it was God punishing us for something that we did or did n't do. Anyway, I know all of that sounds really complicated, so bear with me.

well, my cousin ( dads niece ) started talking about how her life was a mess and how she was 17 when she went to Hawaii for spring break and ended up having sex with some `` local anesthetic '' guy there. She got pregnant, and had a boy and it was 5 years after she had my 2nd full cousin George Mason that she met my uncle. ( Dads brother ) She told us how she felt when she met her husband, and how he made everything so `` perfect '' for her and everything. So she started to day of the month him, and after a piece, she ended up joining the order, she was welcomed because she was a fellow member of our family, she was blood related. That just meant that her uncle could get her significant and never have to care about tainting the bloodline. So that 's where the shortened boy in the man comes in, he was the son of my cousin-german, and that 's the background. There were so so many girl that liked my second cousin because he was, how do I say this..he was the good looking boy in town like, oh my god, OH MY GOD ! Many of the former boys and even older men knew that he was the cutest nearly handsome guy in the order and saw him as a major scourge because of that. There were a lot of girls like my cousins and sisters that tried to courtroom him. All of them begged for him to be put on their list of potential husbands, and I wo n't lie, I did too. I was hoping so bad that Freemason was on my lean because I really liked him, he was by far the cutest boy that any girl had ever seen, he was the emasculated cousin-german of all of them ! I know that I was n't the only one who thought that because all of the girls that knew him, or knew about him talked about him all the time. He had a line that was like, a knot long of girls that wanted to dance with him at the order dances, I know because I was one of those girlfriend that was in that line. So as you can guess, I had so so much competition, I did get to dance with him a lot too, yay me ! But the best part was that he would always dance with me four or five sentence every clip and only once with other girls !

I knew him already for obvious reasons, he was my full cousin, but I liked him A LOT, and I mean a lot. I would day woolgather about him all the clip and I would always imagine him kissing me on my lips. The problem was that he was 16 and I was 12, so there was an age matter there. He was so cunning that I heard my aunty verbalize about how handsome he was all the sentence, I even heard one say that they wished that they were his age. They liked him so much that all of them put him on their girl leaning. It was because of that that he was going on date after engagement after particular date, and I was n't hearing very many unspoiled things about him. He was always really nice and very respectful, but he was never all there. He would always tell his dates that he was only on a day of the month with them because he was being forced to do it, he did n't stimulate a selection. The thing was that the dates always seemed bore or at to the lowest degree they would be boring for him. He was only allowed to take his cousins out to dinner and walk around a park, and that was it. The good part of all that was none of my early cousins and sister from other moms wanted to go on a second engagement with him because of it. They all said that he was a really really nice guy and every affair but he just was n't into any of the fille. They say that he was like, a million metre cuter up close. They all swooned over him, they all melted around him and they were really neural around him. He was so big and so cute that he actually scared some of the female child, he was that cute ! He was such a skilful looking guy that everyone tried all they could to win him over, but it was n't working at all. mammy started to doll their daughters up like crazy to get him to be attracted to them, but Mason was n't biting at all. It was getting to the point that there were no more girls left for him to choose from, or at least girls his age or closing to his age, so they started to station him on dates with girls that were way too young for him.

Again he was XVI, but his mom and dad, and my aunts and uncles started to set him up with 12, 13, and 14 class old girls and all that did was just make things forged for the girl. I liked him because he was such a handsome and cute guy, but I was starting to consider that my chances of him liking me were pretty bad now. I was beginning to suppose that he was never going to be on the inclination of guys that the highers in the order wanted me to court and marry and it was making me sad. If he was n't on the inclination of guys that the parliamentary law chose for me then there was no way that I could date him, it would be forbidden. We courted and married hombre that we were told to homage and marry and that was it, no one else, so if James Neville Mason was n't on my leaning, I would have no alternative but to leave about him. I did get to line up out more about him than any of the former miss because my 11 year old, yes I said 11 year old sister Janell who I was really really closelipped with got to go on a date with him. The story was the Saame, he was polite, he was unfermented, he was venerating, he was thee biggest gentleman ever and he was odd, but he just was n't into her at all and he told her that it was because she was way too young for him. He wanted to suffer fun on his appointment and none of the ma wanted him to do anything fun with their daughters. Like I said, he was only allowed to go to dinner and the green and that was it. But a lot of our aunt started to allow him to keep the fille out till midnight after a piece. He did reach it known that he was only on a date with the girls because he had to be, not because he wanted to be. I found out that his full public figure was George Mason Saint James the Apostle McCarthy, he still had his mama first name. The morning of my 14th birthday, I woke up and found a little pink account book sitting on my Night stand that was about as big as a playing card.

Since I was 14 now, I had developed a lot, so I looked a picayune dissimilar than I did when I was 11 or 12. I was n't all that tall, I was 4'9 then, I have full backtalk, really long light blonde hair's-breadth, actually, it 's a innate atomic number 78 blond, it was so blonde that it was almost white, I love my hair. I have big aristocratic eyes, naturally long eye lashes and I have pale Elwyn Brooks White hide, I was so Stanford White that my hide was almost crystal clear. In the FLDS the miss were n't allowed to wear anything that exposed anything but their necks, face and bridge player. young lady were to hold out wearing apparel all the time, and they were ugly as Inferno. They went from their neck to their ankles and all the way to their radiocarpal joint, that was the normal apparel code for lady friend, and they were all script made at their houses. They were n't allowed to wear get to up or cut their hair, and they were n't allowed to because they did not want the daughter to be attractive at all. Luckily for me, my mom, and my Sister we were n't FLDS members, we were in the order so we lived in a metropolis with outsiders. I was glad because I went to school and stuff and nonsense, but I still had to worry about being pulled out of school day at a young age to be groomed and trained to be a baby bearing wife. I also loved that I was able to wear upon basically what I wanted and I got to wear make up, but I was n't allowed to wear anything that showed any of my plus, like my boobs or anything like that. The grounds I was allowed to fag out regular clothes was because we had to blend in in with everyone around, remember, we were hiding in champaign great deal. I still did n't cut my hair that much so it was still really long, it went all the way to my butt.

After I got dressed and ready for schoolhouse, I looked at the pink little book that someone left on my night stand, I have to be honest, I did n't want to see in that Koran. I knew what it was, it was a leaning of son and old men that I was hypothecate to date, the sole one I was suppose to day of the month. I was dreading it, but at the Same time I was curious to see who was in there. So I opened it and found a billet from my parents that read :

Happy birthday Kaylee ! You have reached the halcyon age, the age in which you are now make for courtship and wedding to one of gods chosen men ! You have entered graven image age ! This is the time that you are now blessed to splice and bring more children into the order and helper in the building of gods kingdom !

Congratulations, we ca n't tell you how lofty we are of you and for how much you have grown ! In the following Thomas Nelson Page you 'll see a list of men that God has selected for your courtship. As you move into this blessed sentence, remember to trust your highers, trust those who are wise and who will lead you to the kingdom of Heaven.
Mom and dad.

When I finished reading that, I could n't believe how clumsy I felt, I felt weird and I had no idea why. But I went ahead and looked at the names in the book of account starting with the third page, and yes, some of them were my cousins, and some were my older 30 to 50 year old uncles. Gross, I thought while I read those names. But there was one name that caught my attention like, really really fast, and when I saw it, I got really really excited ! The name was, Mason James McCarthy ! You have no idea how emotional I got when I saw his name on the list of `` chosen men ''. I was extremely excited, so excited that I picked up my pillow, covered my mouthpiece and started to jump-start around my room and screamed into my pillow ! I had to settle down down, I had to because I did n't want anyone to know how aroused I was that of all the boys out there, Mason was on the list ! But it gets better, he was number one on that tilt ! Oh my god you have no idea how excited I was. There were a few problems though. One, he just turned 18 a week before I turned 14, two, he was a senior in senior high school school day, and three, I knew how his dates always turned out. I did n't care, I was just happy that he was turn one on the listing ! The shortened boy in the reality, my commencement ever compaction was the first guy on the inclination ! So I went to school with a smile on my face, especially since I was a freshman in the Saame high school as Mason was in, he was a senior. For some reason, I could not give up smiling when ever I saw him, and for the low time ever, he smiled back at me and waved. I melted when he did that, oh my god he waved at me, I thought while he walked away.

'' How did you do that ? ! '' My sis named Rina asked.

'' What ? '' I asked.

'' He smiled and waved at you. He never did that to any of the early young lady he 's gone on dates with. '' She said.

'' He has n't ? '' I asked.

'' No, he has n't, ever, you 're the only one. '' She said.

'' wait, how did you do that ? '' My bestie/sister Janell asked.

'' I do n't recognize ! He just smiled at me and waved, why is that such a big mass to everyone ? '' I asked while more of my sister, from early moms, came up to me.

'' Because, he 's never looked at any of us the way he does you, I think he actually likes you. '' Rina said while the former little girl all started saying the same thing.

'' It 's not that big of a deal you guys, it really is n't. '' I said.

'' Yes it is, he 's been going on date since he was 16, and he 's been going on date with a different girl every weekend since then. You 're the only one that he seems interested in. '' Janell said.

'' I do n't know what to say guys, I do n't call up that 's really all that huge. '' I said.

We went through that day and I tried to not read into it all that much. I did n't want to because I knew how all of the dates that Mason went on, went. Nothing ever happened with him and the girls because he wanted to be the one to build his own choice on who he wanted to courtyard, at to the lowest degree that 's what I figured. I was so excited because like we always did, we had an order dance that night. We had dances twice a calendar month every calendar month in the Order, and that was so that the guys that went, could basically look at what his selection were. There were even aged Guy there that were even older than my major John R. Major compaction, James Neville Mason, was. Those dancing were the foremost step in our courtship. I was a popular girl and I did n't really do it why, I guess guys like small tiny little blond like me, but I was n't into any of them. I started going when I was 12 and I always liked going because they were actually kinda fun and I always got to dance with the cutest guy ever more than any of the other girls there. So that night I went to the dancing hoping that I 'd see Alfred Edward Woodley Mason, but he did n't go to the dance. I was kinda bummed, I wanted to see him and I wanted to dance with him, he was the one I liked. I mean, there were some precious guys there, but James Mason was the cute of them all. But, I did get to see him that next Sabbatum because me, all of my cousins, brothers and sisters, my dad and all of his wives, his pal, Mason 's gradation dad and Mason and everyone else all went to the parking area. They were throwing me and quite a few of my sis, a natal day party. But the party was also to congratulate us for entering into `` the golden age '' as my parents put it. There were so many people there that it was almost laughable, but it was really cool too. What surprised me was that Mason, my biggest crush I ever had, came up to me.

'' glad birthday Kaylee. '' He said quietly with his booming thick voice.

'' Thank you. '' I stammered, I could n't believe that he was talking to me.

'' Is it ok if I hug you ? '' He asked.

'' Yes, it 's perfectly ok, you 're my cousin-german why would n't it be ? '' I asked trying to shroud the fact that I was like, dying inside, but in a really good way.

Oh my god he was sssssooooo so amazingly handsome and really really really precious ! ! He was really tall now, he was way taller than he was when he was 16, he was 6'10. He had perch brown hair, and he had these really cool natural red streaks and highlights in his hair. His eyes were huge and they were thee brightest most beautiful common center I had ever seen and no he was n't wearing tangency. He was HUGE ! He played sport, basketball football, soccer, he ran track, he played baseball game and everything. He has a chip name, Tree, and it was because of his size of it. Again, he was n't fat at all, and over the years he kept working out so he was incredibly acrobatic and really ripped. So between that and his superlative, his really large-minded shoulder joint, and the fact that he was big boned, they say that he was built like a redwood tree diagram automobile trunk, so they called him Tree, sometimes luggage compartment. Now, I feel dirty for saying this, but he had a really really hot and nice body, and trust me, I 'm not the only one who thought that, there were a lot of us that stared and drooled when he took his shirt off and I swear to god, he had no physical structure fat at all. And now, tree diagram was hugging me, he..was..hugging..me, yeah, I got all light headed I wo n't lie. After he hugged me, he hung out with me for a minuscule while, oh my god his smile, I thought, I could not kibosh looking at him !

He was the sweetest guy ever, and he was so tall that when he hugged me, I do n't think my headway even touched his chest. I felt so warm and so amazing when his weapons system brushed against mine, and the way he kept smiling at me and looking in my middle, god ! He hung out with me for a couple of hour, and I noticed something because I tested him. I would take the air away and when I did, he would either stay where he was and postponement for me to go back to him, he would trace me, or he would come find me ! I was literally screaming inside I was so excited about that ! So when he did that, I did n't want to be away from him again so when he walked off, I went looking for him and when I found him, he would smile and look in my eyes. I really hated that he worked for his stride dad on a structure web site because he had to go to work. He asked me if I wanted to walk him to his car and I said yes, of course in my head I was thinking, `` hell yes I wan na walk you to your car, are you freaking kidding me ? ! '' While we walked to his car, I could n't avail but tinct him, I had too because there was this really amazing link between us, there were some major major Dame Muriel Spark. I hugged him again and told him to be deliberate, then while I walked off, I slid my manus down his baffle muscly arm and pulled on his hand by his fingers while I looked in his gorgeous center. That was it for me when it came to Alfred Edward Woodley Mason, I really really liked him a lot like, a lot a lot ! It had n't even been a hebdomad since my 14th birthday, and it had n't even been a calendar week since I got my list and I already knew who I wanted to be with, I wanted to be with Mason, I did n't even give care that he was 18 and I was 14 anymore. If I was going to be with a guy that was chosen for me, it was Mason for sure, my judgement was already made up.

The thing was that I did n't go on a day of the month with him for a long time, instead, mom kept sending me on date with other guys from the listing. I even went on appointment with a couplet of my uncles, and that was just really consummate. mason, or `` shoetree '' was actually talking to me all the clip and he and I became really really good friend. We hung out at school all the prison term and he even came to my sign to help me with my prep a lot. When he did that, we would go in the basement and watch flick together, but once we knew we were alone, he would actually nestle with me, I was in heaven every metre ! Oh my god I liked him sssssooo so a good deal ! And after a little while, he actually became my honest friend, he was by far the best acquaintance I had ever had in my life ! He was funny, he made me laugh all the fourth dimension and we started doing absolutely everything together, everything except using the bathroom. I could trust him with anything in the world, because dad wanted me to go on date with this 50 yr old guy and I did n't want to. The last fourth dimension I complained about going on a date with mortal I did n't want to go on a date with, I got yelled at, I got beaten and molested by dad or the guy I went on the forced date with. Which the molesting happened every clock time I went on dates with any of the cat before, I was even raped a couple of times. It did n't thing who I complained to, dad would somehow find out about it. James Mason was thee only one who would never say anything. I told Mason about how I did n't wan na go on that appointment, or how I did n't want to cause the guys I courted to be chosen for me anymore. After I told A. E. W. Mason, no one ever found out about it, ever. After that, I could secern him anything I wanted, I could mouth about petting, I could talk about anything I wanted to talk about and Alfred Edward Woodley Mason never, ever said anything to anyone about anything I ever said. In fact, he agreed with me ! He hated that he had girls being chosen for him, he was my skillful in effect acquaintance !

I had one really big problem though, I was falling in sexual love with him, and I was falling really really toilsome ! It started to get to where he was all I could consider about and sometimes it made me feel sick. Every time I closed my center all I could think about was him, I could feel his blazon around me and I could smell him and everything. It even got to where I talked about him all of the time. And the more fourth dimension passed, the more I fell in honey with him I mean, I was getting really obsessed. I started to really hate the fact that he went on date every weekend because I was getting really really jealous. I cried so many times because he was going on dates with dissimilar girls and I was afraid that he was going to get hold someone that he would fall in sexual love with. I wanted to be with him, I wanted to be the one he fell in honey with. Of grade I did n't cognise that I was in love with him until mom came in my room and found me bawling my eyes out because he was going on a escort with some former girl. She asked me why I was crying and I told her after she begged me to evidence her what was incorrect, and that 's when I found out that I was in dear with him. I think he started to see the look in my eyes when he told me about the appointment. He saw the hurting and hurt that it was making me feel so he stopped talking about his forced dates, which is proficient since I did n't want to hear about them anymore anyway, I even stopped telling him about my dates. I was in love with him so it felt like we were cheating on each early even though we were n't courting at all. It was so weirdo to me because I 'd never been in dearest before but at the same time, I loved how it felt !

nine-spot month after Mason and I became trump friends and after I realized that I was in lovemaking with him, mom had me acquire the foresightful bath with some really expensive Georgia home boy and poppycock. When I got all cleaned up and dressed she told me to leave my hairsbreadth alone and not to don any fix up at all. She just had me draw out my tomentum back in a pony stern. When I was ready, she took me to the beauty parlor and I thought it was because she was just being nice. I did n't know that she had other plans for me. But she had them do my hair up all really gracious and fancy, and had them do my make up for me. Then she took me to get my nails done before she took me home and had me get dressed in a black armoured combat vehicle top and a span of really suddenly short. The trunks were really tight and I could feel my butt impudence kinda poking out of them, and they rode really low, so a trivial bit of my corporation showed from my waist band to my armoured combat vehicle top. You could n't see my belly button campaign my shirt covered that. She had me wear a really really cute pink smash that went with the whole outfit. The armored combat vehicle top she made me habiliment was kind of tight and it showed my bra straps and my boobs a little. Girls were n't suppose to wear clobber that showed as much cleavage as my tankful top was showing, and because I had big b cup dumbbell, I had some severe cleavage showing. I know a b cup is n't all that big, but I was still only like, 4'11 and I was really lilliputian, so my boobs were pretty big for a girl my size. Mom made me wear that, she even pulled on my top so that it showed my bra and cleavage really practiced, but not to where I looked like a slut.

'' Mom, can I ask you something ? '' I asked.

'' Yes you can hun, while you 're asking me, keep your bra and lift your pinhead so they sit in your bra better. '' She said.

'' Ok, you know I 'm not hypothesise to bear anything like this rightfield ? The order would be so so mad. '' I said while I adjusted my dumbbell, and when they were comfy, I noticed that my really really white cleavage showed way way better.

'' Yes I know it goes against the orders teachings. '' Mom said.

'' Why are you letting me wear this ? '' I asked.

'' Is it not comfortable ? '' She asked.

'' No it is easy and I really like how I look. '' I said.

'' So what 's the problem ? '' She asked.

'' I 'm not suppose to wear anything like this mom, my boobs are showing like, they 're all out here like this, and my corporation is kinda showing. '' I said.

'' I know. '' She said.

'' There has to be a cause why you 're letting me dress like this. '' I said.

'' Close your door. '' She said with a smiling making me go faithful my door.

'' This has to stick between us ok ? '' Mom asked.

'' Ok. '' I said.

'' foretell me. '' She said.

'' I promise that this will be our secret. '' I said.

'' It 's because the boy that you 're going out with tonight is my favorite of all of the ones on your list. He 's singular, he 's a really corking guy, and he 's incredibly handsome, I could go on and on, but that 'll just destroy the surprise. I want you to wear this because I really want him to get really attracted to you, I want him to be so attracted to you that he just has to choose you or he 'll regret not doing so. I think he 's perfect for you. '' Mom said.

'' You liked all the hombre you made me date already mom. '' I said.

'' Not like I like this one. '' Mom said.

'' Mom, I do n't want some random guy to see me like this, I 'm not suppose to be this attractive at all. '' I said.

'' I know that it 's faulty and against everything the lodge Thatch, and yes I know that I can get into so much bother. '' Mom said.

'' I 'm not sure that I wan na do this mom. '' I said.

'' Just trust me on this, I need you to trust me. '' She said.

'' I 'll be so mad if he tries anything mom, I swear that I 'll never talk to you again if he does. '' I said.

'' Just desire me. '' Mom said with a smile.

'' Ok, whatever. '' I said while she adjusted my shirt and bra making my dumbbell look way way good.

I wo n't lie, I felt really sexy when I looked in the mirror, I 'd never seen myself look that hot before in my liveliness and I never knew that I could await that good at all, I actually loved how my titty looked ! I even loved that you could see the top theatrical role of my bra a petty, and I loved that my potbelly kinda peeked out a little. I did n't want mom to have it off that I actually loved how I looked so I had to hide it. When I was done she had me put my dark and pink cowgirl flush and cowgirl hat on and wait in the living way, I looked way hot and I loved it. I knew that I was going on a date and I was kinda dreading it because I was expecting another uncle or some one else. Why would mom make me wear out wearing apparel like that, she never let me fag anything like that before, well, I guess she answered that already huh. She must have gone shopping for that getup while I was in school. I was not looking forward to having some old guy perving on me at all, in fact I felt puke about it. I did n't complain about it because I did n't wan na get in difficulty, so I had no pick but to just go with it. But when the threshold bell rang and mom let my date in, I froze. IT WAS MASON ! I do n't intend you 'll ever ever sympathise how excited and happy I was when he walked into the living way. He 's so tall that he had to stoop down so he would n't hit his head teacher !

'' mason ? ! '' I asked while I smiled.

'' Hey Kaylee. '' He said with the human beings most beautiful smile.

'' What are you doing here ? '' I asked.

'' We are going on a day of the month. '' He said making me get like, oh my god I was so excited ! !

'' Really ? ! '' I asked.

'' Yep. '' He said while I looked at my mom.

'' Told you to trust me. '' Mom said.

'' Yay ! Mom ! Thank you ! '' I said while I ran and jumped up to her and hugged her.

'' You 're receive hun, but you need to thank him because he wanted to go on this escort, he asked me if he could consider you out tonight. '' Mom said making me let go of her and walk up to him.

'' Really ? '' I asked while looked at my incredibly handsome date.

'' It 's reliable. '' He said.

'' This is like, the well day ever. '' I said while I wrapped my arms around Mason and looked at mom.

'' Now, the rule is to have her back by ten. '' Mom said.

'' Yes mam. '' A. E. W. Mason said while I floated in the clouds.

'' Well, we 're going to stoop that regulation a little. Let 's see, it 's six thirty now, so you have five and a half hours left, have her nursing home by midnight instead of ten. '' Mom said making me even more shake up, I was n't sure I could plow much more exhilaration !

'' Yes mam. '' Mason said.

'' Come with me for a back, I have some sweet nothings to whisper to you. '' Mom said while she took my hand and led me out of the room.

'' Now listen to me, I wan na hear everything about your date with this handsome guy, and do n't hesitate to try kissing him because I think he likes you more than than just a friend. '' Mom said making me be adrift even higher.

'' I 'm so so energise, he 's the cutest boy ever ! '' I said.

'' And he 's your estimable Quaker, so you already have a immense reward over any and all of the other girls including your baby and first cousin. '' Mom said.

'' I know ! '' I said before she took me out to my date.

'' Well, you two get going and experience fun, do n't forget, midnight, not ten. '' Mom said.

'' Yes mam. '' He said.

I could n't believe it, I was going on a rattling date with Freemason, my good friend in the solid cosmos, and my giving crush ever ! I was so so excited and I was actually looking forward to that day of the month ! We went out to his car and he opened the threshold for me and I got in his car before he closed my door and got in.

'' I 'm just going to say this, you look really really beautiful, I mean, you always look beautiful so I guess that 's not anything new, but tonight you look extra beautiful and you look rather hot. '' He said nervously while he looked at me.

'' Thanks, you always look really handsome and cute. '' I said with the biggest smile.

'' Thanks, you 're blushing really bad. '' He said while he started driving.

'' wellspring yeah, you just told me that I look beautiful and hot. '' I said.

'' You do, you always have. '' He said.

He took me to dinner, and since we had like 4 hr left, I decided to do what none of the other girls did. I wanted him to ingest fun, so we went to a mini golf game course of action and played miniskirt golf. I had an out-and-out flack and I could tell that he was having a lot of fun. He was such a gentleman and he was hilarious, I had never laughed as hard as I did that night. He made me laugh so intemperate that my stomach hurt, he made me laugh so hard that he made me spit my drink out so many metre. I even laughed so hard that I almost passed out. I was having the best time ever and I did n't need it to end. We started to goof around and squeeze each other and laugh, then we decided to establish a game out of our plot. We decided to see who could distract who the worst, and it was his go first. He started talking a lot of trash and started to micturate me laugh again, and by the time I got my ball in the pickle, I had tried almost ten times, so he won the first one shot. Then it was my act, but I was so busy watching him move and everything that I had a gruelling time concentrating on anything, he won that unit of ammunition too. Then when we went to the next golf hole, he started to tell me how beautiful I was and that he felt lucky that he was actually on a escort with me. Yeah, he won that round too, I mean, he really made me palpate really good, and when I looked at him and saw the looking in his centre, you talk about amazing and massive sparks !

He did n't look at me like he wanted to bear sex with me like all of my other particular date, nor did he even look at my boobs all that much. I actually liked it when he looked at them though, and trust me, he did a few or more sentence, it made me feel really aphrodisiac. Even though he looked at my pinhead, I still saw something different in his eyes. He had the fond grin ever and I felt these amazing butterflies and frisson. I kinda felt numb and I do n't know. I felt that way about him since my birthday party, but this was way way way unassailable than then. I already knew that I was madly in passion with him and had been for the last couple of calendar month. But when he looked at me the way he did, it took everything that I had to not tell apart him that I was in love with him. Obviously, he won that round because I felt warmly all over and I could n't see that good. I could n't stop smiling and looking at him and while I kept trying to get the formal in the gob, the biggest impulse came over me like, it hit me so gruelling that I started to shake. I wanted to kiss him on his rim. When I finally got the ball in through the obstacles and in the hole, I just walked up to him and put my script on his tum while I looked up into his nonplus oculus and smiled.

'' God you 're so beautiful. '' He said softly while he put his script on my tummy and slid his manus across it while he went and got his Au society.

I ca n't even begin to explain what happened to me when we touched each other like that. electrical energy is the well I can do, it felt electric, and the sparks between us were ridiculous, but in an gravel way.

'' Thanks. '' I said while he grabbed his club.

'' It 's your bend. '' He said while he put his script on my back very gently.

We made it to the next hole, he put his ball down, and while I watched this amazingly good-looking and gorgeous man, the urge to tell him how I really felt about him just kind of took over.

'' Mason, can I recount you something ? '' I asked while he got ready to putt.

'' Yes. '' He said while he looked up at me.

'' Ok, so um, I have to say this. You know how we 've been upright friends for the longest time and all ? '' I asked while he stopped and gave me all of his attention.

'' Yeah. '' He said while he gave me the braggart chills.

'' That and we get along really really honest. '' I said.

'' I think we know each other better than we know ourselves. '' He said.

'' We do everything together. '' I said.

'' And I love that. '' He said.

'' Well, you know that I like you Thomas More than just a ally rightfulness ? '' I asked.

'' I feel the same way about you, that 's why I wanted to go on this date with you. '' He said making my feelings for him get so strong that I could n't breath.

'' Well, it 's not just that I like you that way. '' I said.

'' It 's not ? '' He asked with a look on his face that made my confidence like, a million times better.

'' No, it 's not. I know I 'm only 14 and you 're 18 and all, but somewhere during the prison term we 've been best friends I kinda like, I uuum, I kinda fell in love with you. '' I said nervously while I looked down and sweep my hair out of my eyes.

When I looked up again, mason was standing right there, and he was really close, and he had that gorgeous smile of his on his face. His centre were sparkling and he was looking kinda like he was breathing kinda hard.

'' You 're not just saying that because you wan na win are you. '' He asked while his eyes moved from position to side while he looked into mine.

'' No Mason, I am in erotic love with you. '' I said while my body started to shake.

'' I 'm in love with you too, I 've been in honey with you for respective months now. '' He said while he lifted my head word gently with his finger under my chin.

The next thing I knew was that the sparks between us literally blinded me for a second. All I knew was that he closed his eyes and all of a sudden, I felt his lenient mouth tinge my depleted lip. Oh my god oh my god oh my god he 's kissing me, I thought while he held that soft tender buss for a few long seconds before he broke away and kissed my upper lip, then my bottom lip again. I literally could n't breath like, at all ! He shot me to the lunation, that 's the solely way I know how to describe what I was feeling. I opened my eyes after a few more irregular to see him standing there with a smell of scare in his eyes.

'' I am so so good-for-nothing, that was too soon, I 'm sorry. '' He said with the saddest look in his heart, like he did something terrible.

What he did n't sleep with was that I LOVED THAT HE KISSED ME, OH, MY, GOD ! I was n't mad and I was n't scared, I was in heaven, I died and went to heaven ! The emasculated, most good-looking, well-nigh amazing looking boy I had ever seen in my life, my advantageously admirer just told me that he was in sexual love with me like I was in love life with him, and he kissed me ! He started to back away and he looked so so scare and sad.

'' Mason, stop, it 's ok. '' I said while I grabbed his arm to barricade him.

'' That was too soon I know, I should have asked you before I did that. I 'm so grim if I scared you, I do n't want you to hate me, you 're my best friend and I do n't require to loo ... '' He said, but I interrupted him.

'' I loved it Mason, I loved it. '' I said while I stepped up to him.

'' You did ? '' He asked while fill-in replaced his panic.

'' Yes I did, I 'm blue that I stood here like a zombie, you made me palpate like I was in promised land. '' I said.

'' Oh my god, thank god. '' He said while he sighed.

'' Can you like, kiss me again, delight ? I asked while I pulled on his shirt.

'' You 're biting your lip. '' He said while he started to caress the side of my face.

'' Because I want you to kiss me again. '' I said.

The arcsecond he closed his eyes, I closed mine and opened my mouth a little, only this time when he kissed me, I kissed him back. We kissed twice before I opened my oral cavity a footling and licked his top lip, and before I knew it, I was slowly and gently sliding my tongue into his mouth. My whole dead body shuddered and I dropped my golf club before I wrapped my arms around his neck and turned my head word because when I pulled my tongue back in my own mouth, his glossa went into my mouth. When we ended that kiss, my lower lip was between his and we were both breathing kinda hard. I instantly became addicted to the way he tasted and the way he made me finger. We kissed again, only we did n't just put our tongues in each other 's mouths, we twisted them together and lovingly licked the interior of each other 's mouths. I heard that start kisses were always awkward at first, but somehow me and Mason seemed to sustain a perfect tense wearisome musical rhythm, and he had ever kissed before, I had, but I was forced to do it. Tasting him and hearing the smacking noises we made while we kissed over and over again started to throw my body tingle all over, I did n't even realize that he picked me up. All I know was that we were kissing over and over and over again while I rubbed the back of his head, his neck and his nerve. It was like everything and everyone disappeared and we were the only two in the world, like we were the only two that existed. O ... M ... G he was a way way better kisser than my uncles were like, a billion times better ! We kissed for like, the farsighted time and I really did n't want to break, but we had to. We stopped kissing and I rested my forefront against his with my eyes closed, and after another few secondment, I opened my heart and smiled so big, I had no musical theme that I could smile like that.

'' I love you. '' He said making me start crying.

'' I love you too, I do n't imagine you know how happy I am right now. '' I said.

'' I think I kinda do, you 're crying. '' He said making me laugh.

'' I love you Mason. '' I said with my arms around his neck and my head against his.

'' I love you Kaylee. '' He said.

'' I think you pretty a good deal won the biz. '' He said while he smiled.

'' Oh no, no I did n't, I was n't trying to distract you and we have a yearn ways to go. I may be loosing right now, but now that we know we are in love life with each former and gourmandize, take in out because it 'll be easier to distract you now. '' I said while he put me down.

'' Are you sure about that ? '' He asked while he put me down.

'' No, I 'm not actually. '' I said with a joke before I looked straight up and press my body against his.

It was like he could n't defy no matter how hard he tried because he leaned down and kissed me again. When he kissed me this sentence, I opened my mouth and slip my tongue in his mouth first and we started to twist and slide our tongues together slowly. He started to take my breather away when he did, so I lifted my weapon system and put my script on his neck opening. This sentence we licked each other 's mouths for like, the longest time. I could feel my long blonde haircloth brushing against my butt while our heads moved while we kissed. I was so light headed and I felt so so amazing that I just did n't wan na stop hugging, god I loved how he tasted ! I loved how his tongue felt in my sassing and against my tongue, how his lips felt against mine, and how his consistency felt against mine.

'' God I love how you kiss, you 're such an amazing, amazing mug. '' I whispered after we stopped kissing.

'' So are you, you know what this means right ? '' He asked while I opened my eyes.

'' What ? '' I asked while I started smiling.

'' We 're courting now. '' He said making me so happy that I could n't even recollect, I had never been that happy in my life.

'' perfective tense day, perfect date, perfect guy, this is a perfect night, I do n't want it to end. '' I said while I started crying again.

'' Neither do I, I have the hone girl, you 're so beautiful. '' He said while he wiped my tears.

'' I 'm so happy. '' I said.

'' goodness, I love making you happy because I absolutely love your smile. '' He said before he kissed me again.

After we stopped kissing, I took his bridge player and slid my fingers between his massive fingers. I pulled myself against him and picked up my golf club. After that, the game was pretty much over because we could not stop kissing no thing how much we tried. It 's probably a secure thing that there were n't many people there because it took us forever to get through that all thing, that 's how much we kissed. After that, he and I went to the go cart track and raced each other and a bunch of other citizenry. Then we went to the moving-picture show together, and that 's when I knew that we would be kissing a lot, and conceive me, I was excited about that because Freemason was that goodness of a mug, he was incredible ! When we got in the theater, I was holding his hand and I watched him lift an arm rest so we could cuddle while we watched the film. We sat down and I laid against my fellow, god I was so so happy ! After a few minutes, he got up and kissed me before he went to get us some drinks, I kinda wanted one because I was athirst and because I knew that I was going to be kissing him a lot. While I sat there waiting for my swain, one of my cousin walked up and sat next to me, she went on a escort with James Neville Mason too, her name was Lindy.

'' Kaylee, you look really precious ! '' She said.

'' I did n't select this outfit, mom did. '' I said.

'' I know, my mom and I helped her pluck it out, you look really really cute. Your boobs look great in that shirt. '' She said.

'' Thanks. '' I said while I laughed.

'' So is that Mason ? '' She asked.

'' Yep. '' I said with the human beings cock-a-hoop smile.

'' Are you serious ? '' She asked.

'' Yeah, he 's gorgeous is n't he ? '' I asked.

'' How the hell did you get him to hold your hand ? ! '' She asked with excitement.

'' We 've been proficient friends for a long time, that and I have been in love with him for a spell. '' I said.

'' Is he in love with you too ? '' She asked.

'' Yes he is, he 's been in love with me for the lastly few calendar month, he told me. '' I gushed because I was so happy.

'' Oh my god you are ssssoooo so burn, await at you ! Are you blackguard courting now ? '' She asked making me smiling so big that it hurt.

'' Oh my god you are ! Oh my god I 'm so glad for you ! '' She all but squealed quietly before she hugged me.

'' How do you have sex ? '' I asked.

'' Well duh, you 're glowing like nutcase, we 've known each other all of our lives and I 've never seen you this felicitous before, so how long have you been courting ? '' She asked.

'' We started courting tonight. '' I said.

'' Aaaawwwwww ! I 'm so so happy for you oh my god ! '' She said.

'' So am I, he 's so so amazing. '' I said.

'' Aaaaawwww ! Has he kissed you ? '' She asked making me smile even bigger.

'' Oh my god he has, how was it ? '' She asked.

'' Amazing. '' I said.

'' Is he a good kisser ? '' She asked.

'' Yeah he is, he 's a really really proficient kisser. '' I said.

'' Oh my god so so many girls are going to be so jealous of you Kaylee, I 'm overjealous. He went on so many dates that it 's not funny and you go on one particular date with your effective friend and walah, you two are courting. So what telephone number was he on your tilt ? '' She asked.

'' figure one. '' I said with excitement.

'' Well, there 's your beau now, you are the luckiest girl ever I swear. Of all the fille he 's been out with, the Tree chose you. I ca n't tell apart you how happy I am for you. '' She said making me cry a little.

'' Thank you. '' I said.

'' I better get back to my escort, boo. '' She said.

'' Hey lindy hop. '' James Neville Mason said while he walked up to us.

'' Hey tree diagram, how are you ? '' She asked making my Mason grin so big.

'' I 'm great actually. '' He said with that amazing smile.

'' kudos on your new courtship, I 'm seriously happy for you two, you guys look disgustingly cute together. '' She said.

'' Thank you. '' We both said.

'' I 'm serious, you guys are an amazingly gorgeous couple. I have to go back to my date so you guys have fun. Try to look out some of the movie. '' She said.

'' It 's going to be hard. '' I said with a giggle.

'' well, I do n't pick you at all, have fun girl. '' She said while she hugged me.

After she went back to her escort, my fellow sat back down and kissed me. After we stopped kissing, I laid against him and he put one arm around me and slid his big fingers between mine, and I slid my finger's breadth on my other hand between his fingers of his other hand. I could not believe how in love I was with him, it 's like he consumed me in every way ! When the movie started, I looked up at him and watched him, I was beside myself and I almost could n't think that my serious friend was actually my boyfriend ! We were finally courting ! I reached up and kissed his Chin and could n't end kissing his gorgeous manly grimace. I let go of his manus and l lifted myself up and kissed his human face closer and closer to his mouth. I kissed the niche of his oral fissure, but then I felt him grow his forefront and slowly slue his tongue in my mouth. I was gone after that. I was almost looking straight up while he and I kissed over and over and over and over again. I was in paradise ! We ended up kissing through almost if not all of that movie, god it was so so amazing, I think we were pretty a lot making out the unscathed time !

After the movie, we went and got ice cream and we kissed at every ace hitch light and stop sign. When we got to the ice cream shop we sat in his car and kissed for the longest prison term, and when we stopped kissing, he took me in and we got our ice ointment. We talked about us, we talked about what our future might be like together. Then he said something that made me strike even deeper in dearest with him, but it also made me have it away that I wanted to be his first wife for sure. I told him that if we ever got married, that I wanted to finish high school and I wanted to go to college. little girl were never allowed to go to college and have a vocation in the order, all we were allowed to do was get married and deliver babe, only work the occupation that the order of magnitude gave us, Cook, clean house and raise our kids and that 's it. But mason looked at me and said that he would let me go to school. He said that he would let me go to college and if we were married, he would work to patronize me and serve with schooltime tuition. He said that no matter what I did, he was going to be unlike any of the men in the orderliness, he promised himself that he would never be like them ! He also told me that if he married former woman that he would get in fuss because they 'd only see him on their marriage day and that was it. He said that they 'd never have kids with him either, and when I asked him why, he said something that made me fall so so grueling for him that I almost started crying. He said that he only wanted me, he only wanted to be with me and that was it. The other wife he would splice would n't be me so they 'd never see him again because he 'd come right back to me.

He said that he would only tie other wives just so we could stay in the order of magnitude and be with our families, no other reason at all. But then he said that what he would really want to do, is make me and run away with me. He would wed me and when I graduated from high up school day, he would take in me and run away so he did n't throw to even worry about having to be with another woman. He 'd get a skilful job and help me pay for college and let me have a career, a career that I wanted to have got. I would get to do what ever I wanted and he would n't care what the edict thought. That goes COMPLETELY against everything the order teaches I know, but I do n't think you will ever interpret how deeply and how hard I fell for James Neville Mason after he said all of that. I mean, I was already like, madly in love with him, but after that conversation, I do n't know, I did n't imagine it was even close to being possible to fall as deeply in love with a guy as I fell for him that Night. He would risk everything just so he could be with me and me alone. I heard every parole he said, but I knew, I knew for a fact that he meant every word he said because I could palpate it. I knew right then and there that he was the one, he was most definitely going to be my husband !

I could n't get any closer to him if I wanted when we got done eating ice pick, I mean, I had to feel him against me at all clip. My skin kinda burned, that 's how bad I needed to be against him in some way. When we walked to his car, I was all over him, I could not break away from him no matter how grueling I tried. When we got to his car, he kinda turned me so I was facing him, pushed me against his car gently and slid his tasty tongue in my rima oris and kissed me. I do n't know what came over me, all I know was that the world was spinning and I was pretty a lot gone. I pulled him against me and stood on my toes and wrapped my arms around his cervix and kissed him back. It was the most passionate, gentle kiss of the wholly night. He kissed me like he loved me, like he loved me Thomas More than anything else in the existence. I could n't help but pluck his body against mine and arrest onto him while we kissed so so many clip. After a long time and many awing kisses, we stopped and stood there so we could overhear our breaths. Then he opened my threshold for me and I got in, then he got in and kissed me again before he started to drive me home plate. And like before, he would osculate me, and I would buss him at every exclusive blockage light and stop signboard. I was so so bummed when we got to my business firm because I did n't desire to be without him, I already missed him really really bad. When we got to my door, I turned around so I could present him and looked up in his eyes right when he brushed my pilus out of mine.

'' Thank you for the best Night of my life baby. '' He said while I backed against the theater and pulled him against me.

'' You 're welcome, thank you for making me the well-chosen young woman in the humankind. '' I said.

'' Sleep Henry Sweet. '' He said.

'' aspiration of me baby. '' I said.

'' I will keep dreaming of you. '' He said while he caressed my face and I caressed his.

'' I 'll keep dreaming of you too. '' I said.

'' I ca n't believe that we are actually courting now. '' He said.

'' Oh my god I know right ? '' I asked.

'' I 've wanted to court you for a long time. '' He said.

'' Me too, I 've wanted to tribunal you for like, ever. '' I said.

'' Why did n't you tell me ? '' He asked.

'' expression who 's talking, you never told me either. '' I said with a giggle.

'' We are best friends and we did n't want to ruin that. '' He said.

'' Exactly. I guess we were both dumb because we both felt the Same way about each other. '' I said.

'' Yeah, we are pretty pillock for being scared. '' He said making me laugh.

'' It 's almost midnight, I really really really do n't desire you to go, I want you to abide here with me. '' I said.

'' I do n't wan na go family either, I want this to live longer. '' He said.

'' I know. '' I said.

'' I do n't want to get you in trouble and I wan na see you again since you 're my girlfriend now so I ca n't get us in trouble. '' He said.

'' Call me when you get home. '' I said.

'' I will, god you 're so hoot beautiful. '' He said.

'' I love that you ca n't intercept telling me that. '' I said with the cosmos biggest smile.

'' Good because you 're going to hear it more often. '' He said.

He cradled the back of my head gently and and leaned down, then he pressed his soft mouth against my downhearted lip while I put my hand on his face gently and kissed him back. This sentence I turned my head and slid my tongue in his backtalk again, and we stood there kissing over and over again. After the farseeing time of the night just necking, we finally stopped kissing and stood there trying to catch our breaths again. I rested my head against his body because I was shaking and my knees were so decrepit. I loved how I felt while I was in his implements of war, and I did n't desire him to let me go.

'' punter get inside so you do n't get in trouble. serious night. '' He said.

'' unspoiled night. '' I said.

'' Kaylee. '' He said while he leaned down and looked so deep in my eyes that I could feel his energy.

'' Yes James Mason. '' I said.

'' I love you. '' He said making me get crying again.

'' I love you Freemason, I love you. '' I said.

He kissed me with no knife, but it was the softest candy kiss ever, and he held it for a long clock time. After he kissed me he looked at me in my eyes.

'' I love you, sound dark. '' He said.

'' I love you too baby, do n't forget to send for me when you get home. '' I said.

After I kissed him, he put my cowgirl hat back on my head and I stood there and watched my very kickoff real and true love walk away and get in his car and drive away. I floated into the house, went to my room and twirled around and just fell backwards on my bed with the biggest grinning on my face and laid there for the foresightful metre thinking about my young man. I did n't even notice that mom was up and in my room.

'' How did it go ? '' Mom asked snapping me back to reality.

I could n't talk, I just sat up and looked at her and started crying.

'' What happened ? '' Mom asked while she came to me and hugged me.

'' I 'm so so meritless baby, do you wan na talk about it ? '' She asked while I hugged her and cried.

'' I miss him. '' I said while I cried.

'' You what ? '' She asked.

'' I miss Mason, I miss him. '' I said.

'' You were just with him. '' Mom said.

'' I know mom, but I 'm ssssooo so in love with him. '' I said.

'' You 've been in love with him for a long prison term smasher. '' Mom said.

'' I know. '' I said while I backed off and looked in her eyes.

'' It 's obvious sweetheart, you have been worshiping the ground he walks on for the close few months. You 've been eating quiescence and breathing Tree, he 's all you have been talking about. I see how you look at him, how you talk to him and touch him, it 's surd to pretermit the fact that you 've been in love with him all this time. '' Mom said.

'' After tonight, it 's so so much stronger mom, I love him, I wan na be with him forever. '' I said.

'' Is he in love with you ? '' She asked.

I started crying again and nodded my read/write head yes while I looked her in the eyes.

'' Are you serious ? ! '' Mom gasped while she got all form of excited making me nod my head yes.

'' Did he secernate you that he was in dear with you ? '' She asked making me nod my head word yes again.

'' Oh my god ! Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yyyyyyeeeeessss ! '' Mom screamed while she jumped up as started to hop around the room.

'' Mom, calm down, you 're going to wake everyone else up. '' I said while I laughed.

'' So does this mean value that you two are courting now ? ! '' Mom asked making me nod my head yes.

'' Officially, he 's my boyfriend officially. '' I said while I nodded.

'' WOOOOOHOOO ! ! ! YYYYYEEESSS ! '' Mom screamed while she kinda sprinted in one spot and pumped her fists.

'' Mom, you 're being like, really loud. '' I said while I laughed.

All of a sudden, I could hear all of my sisters getting up and coming to my way to find out what was going on.

'' So did he like your getup ? '' Mom asked.

'' Honestly mom, I do n't think this outfit would stimulate made any difference, I think that if I wore my regular clothes tonight mason and I would still be courting right now. '' I said.

'' Did he care it though ? '' She asked.

'' Yeah, I think he did. '' I said.

'' Did he look at your booby ? '' She asked.

'' Yeah he did but I mean, he 's a guy so what do you expect when they 're all hanging out like this ? '' I asked.

'' What the heck is going on ? '' My 11 yr old sister Jessie asked.

'' wellspring, your sister here has a boyfriend now, she 's courting a really handsome guy. '' Mom bragged.

'' Who 's the guy ? '' Janell asked while she walked in my room.

'' Mason. '' I said with the world biggest smile.

'' NNNNNNNNNOOO WAY ! ! Are you serious ? ! '' Lauren asked.

'' Yes I 'm unplayful, we are in love. '' I said.

The following affair I knew was that I had four girls screaming and jumping around in my room.

'' Guys, guys be quiet, he 's calling me. '' I said while I took my earphone and answered.

'' Hey handsome. '' I said.

'' Hey beautiful, I just wanted to let you have sex that I 'm home. '' He said.

'' I miss you. '' I said while I started crying.

'' Oh god I miss you too, I miss you bad. '' He said.

'' My mom and sisters are in my way, can I call you back ? '' I asked.

'' Of course you can, I 'm your fellow and we are courting now recall ? '' He asked making me smile.

'' Yes, I just like hearing that. '' I said.

'' I 'll be waiting for your shout, I love you. '' He said.

'' I love you too baby. '' I said.

'' AAAAAAAAAWWWWWWW ! ! ! '' My mom and baby yelled before we could hang up.

'' They 're all being like, thee biggest dorks ever right now. '' I said while I laughed.

'' Yeah they are, at least they 're happy for you. '' He said while he laughed.

'' Not as happy as I am, I 'll talk to you soon, I love you Mason. '' I said.

'' I love you too baby, talk to you soon. '' He said before he kissed his telephone set and we hung up.

My mom and babe were so excited that they all stayed up till almost five in the morning with me talking about my date with stonemason. The adjacent day he surprised me by coming over to see me and mom let us hang out in the basement. We kissed a lot and almost non block, I love love loved that he liked kissing as much as I did. That Monday I was excited to go to school because I got to see him, I mean, I was sssooo in love with him. And when I got to school, he was waiting for me. I could n't help but kiss him right in front of everyone ! He was officially mine and I loved that everyone noticed. He and I kissed a lot, and the just part of it all, was that neither one of us had to date anyone again. He was mine officially and I was his.

We courted for a while and to be honest I was the happiest I had ever been in my aliveness. My family relationship with A. E. W. Mason was perfect and it always felt like we just started courting. We kissed a lot and spent a lot of clock time together alone and mom even had us have pictures done together and poppycock. It was n't very long after I turned 15 that something happened and it turned my entire world upside down and as I saw it, it ruined my life-time, it destroyed me and it made me part to seriously question everything about the ordination. I do n't cognize how to tell apart you how deeply I was in love with Mason, all I know was that he was my everything, and I knew for a fact and without a doubtfulness that I was his everything. Everything he ever did, he would always correspond with me and make sure enough that it was n't going to affect me in a bad way. He was the most awe-inspiring man I had ever met in my life sentence. He was incredibly respectful to me even when he got mad at me, he was most definitely not like any of the men and boys in the order. He never ever raised his vocalism to me, nor did he ever lay his script on me in an abusive way. He never, ever called me out of my name, and he would n't let anyone else do it either. One guy called me a little slattern once and he did n't know that Mason was right there. He got outfox up so bad that he could n't come to school for a long time. There was no other mason, he was it, no other guy could ever compare to him.

Anyway, it happened after my 15th natal day and we had been courting seriously for about four almost five months. We were already talking about getting married and the order of magnitude highers all gave us their blessings, they approved it all. I was way beyond happy because I was so in dear with George Mason, that my whole being just craved him. retrieve our first engagement, yeah, it was like that with him all the time, and I mean every exclusive day it was like that. If we got mad each other, we fought to fix whatever job we had because we both wanted to be together for the rest of our lives. well, one day he and I went on a particular date like we did almost every one weekend and we had an dumbfound sentence, and then he had me place by midnight. That nighttime he did n't call me like he usually did and I started to worry. I called his phone so many sentence and I texted him and did n't get any phone call or texts back at all. I started to opine the regretful and I started going crazy.

He did n't call the future day, and he did n't text me at all that whole day even though I was blowing his telephone set up. Then that day turned into a calendar week, then that calendar week turned into month, and then it went longsighted and longer. I was beyond scourge because like I said, I was so deeply in love with him, he was my everything and he was my very first real and true dear. I imagined myself being with him and I imagined being his 1st wife and that was going to be a realism because we were planning our marriage out, and now he was gone. I got really depressed because the one guy I wanted to be with was gone, and no one knew what happened. I sobbed so surd for so long that I was sore all the meter, I was depressed as hell. I felt so so nauseous for the longest time and I would give way down and cry at any time. If I heard a song that made me think about Mason, I would break down and cry. I stopped eating all together, I could n't eat and I could n't sleep. My mom and sisters would crawl into bed with me and hold me while I sobbed. They started to worry about me because I was loosing so much system of weights. If I did eat, I would confound it all up, and not because I made myself throw up, it was because I missed my first lover, we were going to get conjoin.

It was n't until a duo of calendar month after my first love vanished that I found out what happened to him. I needed resolution and I needed them now because I was n't going to be able to live until I got some sort of closure. It was at night when dad came home and I heard him and mom talking about him. I heard his epithet so I went down the stairs and sat on them to listen to dad. I found out that the night that Mason and I went on that last date, he got dwelling to find his step dad beating his mom, the orders `` celebrity '' and his sisters and he was n't going to let that happen. To establish a long story short, he ended up beating his whole step dad up so bad that he ended having to go to the infirmary and James Mason was arrested and taken to jail. Dad was pissed because they dropped all of the charges against James Neville Mason and his step dad was arrested because two of his sisters told the truth about what happened. But since the care were dropped against Mason, he was kicked out of the order and was now living on the exterior. He no longer had family, he no longer had anyone around for him not even me, he was on his own. When I heard that I started to sob, my first real and truthful love was gone for commodity and I do n't think you 'll ever realise how much that hurt.

What I heard next made me so mad at dad that it made me sick of, I found out why A. E. W. Mason was so vast and big boned. I only know that because dad said `` it was for the good anyway because he was contaminated by another raceway. '' That 's what he said countersign for word. Apparently James Mason was half Hawaiian and he had no idea, none. Mom even asked dad why he did n't ingest brown pelt like some of the Hawaiians she had seen before, and that 's when I found out that there are clean clamber Hawaiians that had red hair. That explained why he had innate red high spot and streaks in his hair, it explained why he had white skin like me, only he was n't transparent like me, and it explained why he was so tall and big. Dad said that he drove Freemason out of townsfolk in his car and just dropped him off and another fiat fellow member picked him up and brought him back. So now my first pick, and the guy I was in the unconscious process of planning to wed was gone for good, and my dad was the one who took him away from me. I hated that there was cypher I could do about any of what happened at all. I could n't sit there and heed to what dad was saying anymore because he was saying some of the most hateful things about Mason and no one talks about my lover like that. So I went to toss off the step and looked at him.

'' Is it true ? '' I asked while I shook because I was ssssoooo so mad.

'' Is what rightful. '' Dad asked while he looked at me with a dumb look on his face.

'' Is it true that you guys took him away from me ? '' I asked.

'' Hun, I swear I did n't have anything to do with that. '' Mom said.

'' I know you did n't, I 'm asking dad since he 's a gamy. '' I said.

'' You do n't know what you 're talking about. '' He said.

'' Yes I do dad, I 've been sitting right there listening to you this whole prison term. '' I said while I pointed at the stairs.

'' Are you calling me a liar ? '' He asked.

'' Yes I am. '' I said making him stand up and get in my face.

'' Go ahead, go ahead and hit me, it 's not like you have n't bunk me up before so hit me. '' I said while I looked in his eyes making him look at me all surprise.

'' Yes it 's dependable, I took him away because we ca n't give birth men who beat their fathers up in the order, we ca n't. '' He said.

'' But it 's ok for men to hit women and children am I right ? '' I asked.

'' You listen to me young gentlewoman, you better watch over your yourself. '' He said.

'' Did you know that he never hit me ? Did you ? Did you know that he was an flummox man, did you know that I am in love with him ? I love him dad, I was going to marry him and you ruined all of that, you ruined my life ! '' I said raising my voice while I did.

'' We did it for you. '' He said.

'' You took the love of my life-time away from me for me ? ! He was my lifetime, my aliveness dad, he was my spirit, and you took that away from me. '' I said while I started sobbing.

'' It 's for the ripe. '' He said while he tried to hug me.

'' Do n't touch me, you stay away from me. I hate you, I hate you so a lot ! '' I said.

'' It 's for the better because he was contaminated by another race anyway. '' He said.

'' I do n't care, that would n't possess changed the fact that I love him. '' I said through sobs.

'' I know you love him Kaylee, I do, but you have to unders ... '' He said while I interrupted him.

'' But you do n't care, and do n't tell me that you do because you proved to me that you do n't. You know that I 'm in love with him and that I was going to be his number 1 wife. You were n't thinking about me at all, I mean aspect at me dad ! I 'm a peck, I have n't eaten anything for a long clock time because my lifetime was taken away from me by you cat, you ! This is your demerit, this is your faulting and I blame you ! I will never forgive you for this, I hate you ! '' I screamed and sobbed.

I started to run to my elbow room but he grabbed my arm and held me in place.

'' Let go of me, let go of me now ! I hate you, do you get it ? I fucking hate you ! Get off of me and provide me alone ! '' I screamed.

He let go of me and I ran to my room, got on my bed and curled up in a Lucille Ball and sobbed so hard that I could n't breath. My sis came into my room and laid in my bed with me and held me while I sobbed and after a piece, mom came in and made the girls leave. She laid in my bed and held me.

'' I 'm so so sorry, I 'm so disconsolate baby. '' She said while she held me.

I was pissed but I was n't sure who I was n't really sure who I should be pissed of with so I was confused also. I did n't know if I was suppose to be pissed off with James Neville Mason or his dad. Was I suppose to be pissed of with his dad for beating up his wife and two of his girl ? I was genuinely confused about that because it happened a lot with my mom and my dad. I had been beaten by my dad a few times too, but it was never as bad as it was with James Neville Mason mom and babe, and hope me it was pretty bad. From what I heard they had to induce three ambulances go to that house. One of George Mason young babe, she was n't that old at all, I think she was five or six, had some break down bones. The youthful who was n't even a year old was taken out of his ma weapons system and thrown against a paries. His four class old sister was kicked in the head teacher respective times, and that 's when his dad, my uncle, went after his mom again right when Mason got home from our date, he walked right into it. Some say that it was because he was a mixed race that he just lost it and started to outwit the crap out of his step dad, but he did n't just tucker him up, he really messed him up. If I was his dad, I would have been terrified to bet up and see a Brobdingnagian Tree bole coming at me like Mason did him. Like I said, he was not a small guy like, at all. I 'm not sure how foresightful it was after the big combat that Mason and his tone dad had, that his dad called the constabulary and had him arrested but I think it was while he was in the hospital. But when the complaint against the boy that was going to be my husband were dropped, he disappeared and just dropped off the face of the planet. So I was n't certain if I should be pissed off at his dad for beating Mason mom and sisters.

I was n't sure if I was hypothesise to be pissed off with mason because it was normal for that kind of thing to happen, at least that 's what I thought. That 's how men kept their wives and nipper under control condition, they beat them when they messed up. So to me at the clock time, he was suppose to just not do anything about the beating, but at the like time, I might hold done the same thing. I was devastated because the one guy that I was was deeply in making love with, the one I was going to marry for for sure was gone. Now I was going to be stuck with cousins that I did n't do it, I was stuck with whoever else there was left wether it was going to be one of my old uncles or one of my other cousins. I was stuck with what I had left and I did n't have any Sir Thomas More good choices. mason loved me, I know he did because I could see it in his middle when he told me how much he loved me. And now because of what he did, he was gone. So as you can see, I was pretty confused. After that, I told mom that I did n't want to date anyone anymore, at least not for a longsighted time. I was numb, that 's the only if way that I can really draw it. I did n't care anymore about anything or anyone, I was pretty much done with all of it. I spent years in bed and mom even called the school and kept me base for a unscathed workweek. And when I did go back to school, I sobbed a lot for a longsighted time because everything I saw, made me recall of my George Mason.

I was 15 then, but I did n't bug out dating again until I was 17, that 's how a lot I loved Mason, it took me two twelvemonth to get to where I would n't cry when I thought about him, I still missed him and I still loved him so so a good deal. I was still asleep and done with everything, so I only went on those date because I had to and I told the boys that. They made fun of me because I was doing exactly what Mason did to their sis, but it was true. I did n't require to be on those day of the month with them, I wanted to be on a escort with Mason, we 'd be married by then too, he literally would have been my husband. I hated the dates with my uncles, especially the appointment with the one that Mason almost killed. He was an ass. He was rude and so arrogant and so wax of himself, he was n't base at all, that and he was porcine so I had the mop up clock time ever. It was n't until I was almost 18 years old that I finally met a guy I liked and yes he was on my list. He was my beginning cousin and he was kinda cute, but he was n't as cunning as Mason was, not even close. He was a lot of fun, and he was pretty respectful, not like Mason, but he was respectful. As you can see, I compared all of the male child I dated to Mason and since I could n't ingest Mason, I was going to ascertain mortal that was as faithful to him as I could encounter. timothy was his name, he was taller than me, he was 5'11, and he had brown haircloth minus the red highlight and stripe. He was n't Freemason, but he was pretty fold.

When mom found out that I was comparing Tim to Alfred Edward Woodley Mason all the meter, I got into so much trouble, I was taken before the church counselor and everything. I was punished, and that punishment was that I was n't allowed to particular date anyone for a spell not even Tim. But not only that, I had to spend a week in a sign where an monastic order phallus was a psychologist to get `` thought reconditioning therapy '', that 's what they called it. During all of that, I was brain washed, that 's the solely way I know how to explain it. It was beaten into my head that Mason was no good, that he was tainted by another race and because of that, he was evil. According to them, that was why he beat the poop out of his dad and no other reason at all, that 's all they had. There was no recognition of the fact that my uncle almost killed Freemason mom, a baby and two young fille before Mason beat him up, none. Not to mention the fact that he was my cousin, so yeah, he was my blood relation but they conveniently forgot all about that too. It was all about how he was possessed and filled with satan, how his other race was what filled him with evil. It was all about how I was salutary off without him because I would consume been killed by him. He was going to be abusive and that he was going to beat me all of the time, which I found pretty ironic since physical, mental and sexual revilement was the average in the orderliness. They wanted me to be `` good from him '' so they banished him from the order to economise my animation. That 's what they kept telling me.

Here is what 's sad, I did n't buy any of that crap because I knew George Mason really really commodity, they did n't, besides, I was so in making love with him that there was no way that they could convince me no subject how hard they tried. He was n't abusive, he was very reverential and he was the mellisonant guy ever, he was amazing to me and he was very docile. Every girl he dated said the Same thing about him, so they never bought all of those lies either. They tried to convert me, but they failed because I knew Mason far better than they realized. He was eighteen, and I was XIV when we fell in beloved with each other. All of the young lady that he went on appointment with, also knew that he was a great guy, so you ca n't tell me that hundreds of girls all lied about him. What I ended up doing was I just pretended to hate A. E. W. Mason, I had to or they would n't take me off of punishment. Once they were convinced that I was convinced, they let me start seeing Tim again and we started dating.

I never forgot Freemason and truthfully, I did n't think I ever would. He was my dear friend and of all of the male child I hung out with he was by far the near well-favored, he was the most respectful and he knew how to process a ma'am. As far as him being `` contaminated '' by another slipstream, I did n't call back it was bad because it was obvious that he had it in his gene as far as treating young woman, he treated me like a queen, a princess. I never had any of that with Tim at all, it was just kind of a claptrap human relationship. It did n't birth anything that my relationship with Alfred Edward Woodley Mason had at all, not even close, plus Tim was n't as soundly at kissing as Freemason was in fact, he was terrible compared to Mason. I did n't like kissing Tim because of it. The chemistry that Mason and I had basically burned him and my love and feelings for him into my remembering and into my soul I guess, he was percentage of me, he was my other half and I think that 's why I say that I will never forget him. It did n't matter how unvoiced I tried, I was never able to lay off comparing Tim to Mason. Messed up I know, but what makes it even worse was that I was kind of in sexual love with Tim, and he was in beloved with me. He was going to be my husband, a hubby that was chosen for me. I still did n't finger the connection with him like I did with mason at all, my spirit for Tim paled in equivalence to the I I still had for my first material and true love. The love and connection between us was n't anything like it was with Mason, not even close.

Do you know how when you meet a really really cute boy and there is some grave chemistry ? How you 're so appeal to him that every time you see him under any circumstances you get the biggest butterflies ? You feel sick to your stomach, you feel sick when you do n't see him for a day or to a greater extent ? How you dream about him, how you smile just at the very thought of him ? Do you know how he makes you so flighty that you ca n't think straight so you stutter when you try to babble to him ? How your senses just go into hyperdrive when you smell him, hear him taste his candy kiss and experience his trace ? Do you know how it is when he looks at you and your knees just get weakly, how your palms start sweating and how you just ca n't help but smile so a lot that your cheek hurt ? Do you live how he looks into your eye and you feel dizzy, you feel affectionate, you feel like everything around you disappears because you get lost in him ? Do you know how it feels when you want to be with someone so bad that your body hurts when he 's not around ? How it literally aches and every joint hurts ? And when you see him after a patch, you 're flooded with happiness, with peace, you get chill and your ears finger lovesome ? Do you know how it feels to be around someone that made you feel secure, feel like you can be yourself and he accepts that, how safe you feel from anyone, and feel loved ? Yes I loved Tim and we were going to get tie, but everything I mentioned above, I never felt that with him at all, not even a short bit, I felt it with Mason, I felt all of that with George Mason. stonemason and I were best admirer before I fell so deeply in love with him that he consumed every region of me. And that was I was how felt around him all the time. It made me feeble, and it turned me into a puddle of mush.

I wanted all of that with Tim because I was in passion with him, but no matter how hard I tried I just could n't feel any of it with him. I 'll be honest, I actually started to wonder my kinship with him because of it. But like, we were already engaged and we had already set a escort for our marriage ceremony. I was so hoping that Mason would n't hail to my marriage because if he did come in, I would n't marry Tim, I would n't be able to. I was 18, and on my wedding day, I realized that I was still deeply deeply in making love with Mason. He was a m times precious than Tim will ever be, and he was still burned into my memories, he was burned into me basically. I hated that he was gone, and I hated that he was n't the one I was getting married to. But Tim was about to become my married man, so I had to push to forget about him, and trust me, it was not easy like, at all. My marriage day was a mixture of happiness and sadness and I just told you why. I was finally able to stop thinking about Mason on my wedding day because my mom and my sisters all came in with the hair bureau. They all helped me get ready for my big day, and after a while, I was married, I had a husband that I realized that I did n't make love at all.

Our honeymoon was a lot of fun, and that was the dark that we both lost our virginities to each other. I 'll be honest, it was most definitely not what it was made out to be. It was awkward and it hurt. It did get better with time I 'll be dependable but it was never anything like what I heard it could be like. Sex was still a lot of fun though, well, at least it was at kickoff, and yes it did finger pretty right, but it was always about him getting off and me getting pregnant and having a babe to `` build the land of God. '' I did have a clip limit so I had to get meaning fast. I just did n't like the fact that I did n't enjoy sex as practically as I thought I would. He would put his penis in me, have sex with me for a few minutes while I just laid there, because that 's all he wanted me to do, and him shooting his cum inside of me. That 's how it was all the time and it was getting really boring and it sucked. I mean, it felt skilful, it did, but it was always about him and that was it. And after a while, I started to not look forward to having sex anymore because I was n't even attracted to my husband. It was a chore for me and that was it. I did n't even jazz what an orgasm was at all, and I think it was because I never had one. I mean I thought I did, but I did n't know.

It was only like, a hebdomad after we got married that Tim started to bear witness his true colouring. He started by becoming very verbally scurrilous, and that continued for a tenacious clock time. less than a month after we got conjoin, he started to hit me in stead that bruises would never show, and he did it just for fun. He would actually laugh while he hit me really hard. He kept doing all of that until I was all but broken down, I no longer had any ego worth and I started to see myself as being really ugly. I mean, after hearing some one Tell you that you 're a slimy ugly whore every waking second, you start to believe them. Because of that, I felt ugly as hell, and I felt worthless, and sex, was n't any fun anymore. It got to where I hated it, and we had to use lube so it would n't pain me anymore. When it felt really in force to me, I would moan, and the only thing Tim would say was, `` shut the roll in the hay up ''. After a while of trying, I did get significant and I thought that after I got pregnant that he would calm down and he would n't hit me anymore, well, I was wrong. He started to hit me more and he started to foul me. Then one day, it got really really bad, I was two months along. It was on a day that I left a unsportsmanlike lulu in the sink. He confronted me about it and started to yell and swear at me, well, I started to defend myself and the side by side thing I knew, was that I saw his fist coming and then I was out. When I came to, he was kicking me in my stomach and chest. I was scared to death and I tried to draw in up into a ball to protect my unborn tike, but when I did, he kicked me in the boldness, I heard a loud pop and everything went dark. When I came to, Tim was gone and I was hurting so bad that I could n't go, but I somehow made it to the phone and called 911. I was taken to the hospital where I was met by Tims dad, who proceeded to threaten me that if I told on his son, that he would produce my life a life hell, that he would destroy me. So, to protect myself and the babe, I lied about my combat injury and how I got them, and after a week of being in the hospital, I was released to go home.

things were way different after that. I no longer did things for Tim because I loved him, I did them because I was really scared of him. I was no longer in love with Tim at all like, not even a little bit, I hated him. I tried to act like everything was normal and that I did do it him, but I was scared to death of him because he would bunk me up almost every day. And sometimes I had to be taken to the hospital because he nocked me out or clog me until I passed out. He started to court another girl, and I knew he did because he brought her rest home so I could satisfy her. I cooked her dinner party and tried to act happy and excited that she could very well be my hubby second married woman. I must have been convincing because she liked me and he seemed felicitous about that. A month later, she broke up with him and when she did, he blamed me. He came home from a day of the month with her and seemed upstage. I tried to figure out what was wrong because all I was trying to do was help him, but he went off and started yelling and cussing at me. He called me horrible things. He started to slap me around and I begged him to break off and all that did was get to affair regretful. He started to perforate me again, then he choked me and he started to hit me with something, I do n't even know what it was. It was something big and it was metal and it hurt really really bad, I could even hear this like, pinging noise so I thought it could be his baseball game bat. I begged and pleaded for him to stop, and I even begged him to block so he would n't hurt the baby.

'' I do n't give a fuck about that fucking child, it 's probably not even my baby anyway you fucking whore ! '' He yelled before he grabbed me by my neck and started choking me while he punched me in my stomach.

'' You ruined my fortune with that miss you fucking beef ! '' He yelled while he shoved me by my neck.

'' What did I do ? '' I sobbed while I tried to block his hits.

'' You know damn in force and well what you did you fucking pussy ! '' He yelled while he hit me so hard that I fell down.

'' Get up, GET..UP ! '' He screamed while I struggled to get up.

'' Please Tim, I did n't do anything ! Please ! '' I pleaded.

'' Maybe you should go out there and find Mason and ruin his life like you did mine ! '' He yelled right before he picked up a chair and hit me with it.

'' Tim please point, I did n't do anything ! '' I pleaded just before he punched me.

'' Yes you did you fucking bitch ! I told you to never talk to Ellie and you did, did n't you ? '' He yelled before he slammed me against the wall and punched me in my face.

'' I never talk to her, I do n't know what you 're talking about. '' I pleaded before I felt him punch my face again.

I could palpate my roue running down my look and it was getting in my eyes and in my backtalk. My tomentum was sticking to my blinking face and he kept hitting me.

'' You 're a fucking liar, you 're a lying fucking snatch and you 're going to pay for what you did ! '' He yelled while he kept hitting me.

I tried to cower down and when I did, I started to slew down the wall. He kneed me in my belly and chest before he grabbed me by my hair and kneed me in my face making me sidesplitter in pain and when he did that I heard a gaudy pop.

'' Tim please, I 'm sorry, I 'm so sorry Tim, please stop, please. '' I pleaded after he let me go.

I looked down and saw a whole cluster of blood dripping off of my boldness and headway and it hurt and burned really really bad. I looked up at him and he was standing there, then out of no where, he kicked my head really unvoiced shoving my head into the wall. My head actually went ripe through the wall, it hit that hard. I got really really dizzy and I tried to beg him to stop, but he did n't. He kept hitting me and throwing me around and there was one time that I hit the primer so arduous that I could hear several fast and forte soda and my arm started to hurt so bad, it was the spoiled pain ever ! It was so bad that I screamed in bother. The next fourth dimension he picked me up and consistence slammed me and when I hit the storey again, I heard another really gimcrack pop and felt the worst pain sensation in the public in my shoulder that went all up in my neck. He kicked me in my face again before he pulled my hair's-breadth until I was standing up and started to knee my stomach as hard as he could. He was doing it so hard that I felt liquid coming out of my vagina, it was like my water broke. When I opened my optic, I tried to plead with him again, but I was too late. He grabbed my neck violently and started to exit me. He never let go, or at least that 's what I thought anyway because he choked me until I passed out just like he did various times before. When I came too, I was in the bad pain I had ever experienced in my life-time and oh my god I was so so dizzy. I could barely move and I could n't see anything because my face was swollen so bad. I was going to scream out for assist but I was afraid that if I did, Mason was going to pop me.

I laid there and pretended to be dead for a long sentence because I did n't know if he was still there or not, and once I realized that he was gone, I knew I had to do something. I tried to move but it hurt so bad to do that, so I tried to see if I had my mobile phone phone in my pocket and I found it so I pulled it out and tried to call 911. I do n't have it away how I did it, but I was able to get a hold of them, at to the lowest degree I hoped. All I remember was finding the numbers, I do n't know how, but I was able to see just long enough to do that. Right as my phone started to link with the lady at 911, I passed out. When I woke up again, I had no approximation where I was. All I know was that I was laying on something really voiceless and uncomfortable, something was around my cervix, I had something on both slope of my head and I could n't move my head. I tried to look around and when I did, I realized that I still could n't see anything. My eyes were swollen shut, and I think my face was swollen too but I was n't sure, all I know was that it hurt and it burned really really bad. I tried to scream because I was hurting everywhere but I do n't even know if anyone could get word me. I know I started to gasp and cough because I could n't breath, but I was scared to death because I thought Tim was there to toss off me, I really had no approximation what was going on. I felt custody all over me, and I could hear people talking. Then I hear my married man talking very aggressively to one of the people that were helping me.

'' We need to go, now. '' A deep booming vocalisation said.

'' Yeah we do. '' A lady said.

'' Sir Herbert Beerbohm Tree ? What the nooky are you doing here ? '' I heard Tim ask.

'' Helping my patient who is very critical. '' I heard the cryptical booming representative say.

Then I heard Tim start barking orders on what he wanted the people to do to help me.

'' Hey ! Are you an EMT or a paramedic ? '' The deep booming phonation asked.

'' That 's my fucking married woman. '' Tim yelled.

'' That was n't the query, the query was are you a paramedic or an EMT ? '' The representative asked forcefully.

'' No I 'm not, but that 's my fucking wife. '' Tim replied trying to sound intimidating.

'' Do you own any sort of medical exam training ? '' The booming spokesperson asked.

'' What the fuck does that stimulate to do wi ... '' Tim yelled right as that booming voice cut him off.

'' ANSWER THE shucks query, DO YOU HAVE ANY MEDICAL TRAINING YES OR NO ? '' The deep voice boomed when he yelled, it almost felt like what ever I was in vacillate when he yelled that.

'' No I do n't. '' Tim said.

'' Then get the nooky off my truck, she 's very critical so we need to go now and I do n't want you on my rig. '' The voice commanded with amazing authority.

'' I 'm not going anywhere she 's my wi.. '' Tim said as the voice interrupted him.

'' Did you not get the percentage where I said that my patient is decisive ? Get the shag off of my truck or I will remove you. You are hindering affected role care. '' The voice said.

'' You ca n't do that. '' Tim said defiantly.

'' Get him off of my hand truck, he is hindering patient fear and we got ta go, we got ta go now. '' The mans voice said.

'' That 's his wife. '' Another voice said, I think it was Tims dad.

'' I do n't render a ass who he is, he is hindering patient care and I want him off of my truck. '' The voice said.

'' Well let me ask you something Tree, do you have any medical training ? Huh ? '' Tim asked arrogantly.

'' I would n't be here if I did n't Albert Einstein, you genius you. '' The voice said with thee most irony I have ever heard.

'' You do see his uniform right hand ? '' A ma'am asked, she sounded like she was sitting to my leftfield, the big, deep and boom interpreter was to my right.

'' Well I do n't consider you I think you 're a lie piece of shit you 're probably lying. Why do n't you tell me Sir Herbert Beerbohm Tree, what kind of checkup training do you really let ? '' Tim asked arrogantly.

'' I am a record nurse and I 'm a critical care paramedic, now get off of my fucking truck goddamn it ! '' The voice said.

'' You really are a genius are n't you ? '' The female asked at the Lapplander time.

'' shag you both. '' Tim said.

'' Get off of my motortruck now, I 'm not going to ask you again. '' The man said.

'' I 'm not going anywhere so you both can just bonk off ! '' Tim yelled.

'' If you do n't get off of my truck, it 's not going to work out so well for you. '' The booming vox said while he kept doing poppycock to me.

'' Fuck you Tree you man of shit. '' Tim said.

'' Hey officers, can you please get this guy off of my truck ? We need to get going now because our patient is decisive. '' The voice asked like he was pissed off.

'' What 's going on ? '' A noblewoman asked.

'' This gentleman's gentleman is hindering patient care and refuses to get off of my hand truck, I want him off of my truck. '' The smash voice said.

'' Get out of the truck. '' A man said.

'' fucking you, she 's my wife. '' Tim said.

'' That 's his wife. '' His dad said.

'' You need to get back. '' The girl said.

'' Get out of the motortruck or I 'm going to taze you. '' A man said.

'' I ca n't go to the hospital with my married woman ? ! '' He asked.

'' You can go to the infirmary but you 're not riding with them, the medic said no so get off of the motortruck. '' The man said.

'' This is bullshit. '' Tim said.

'' Can you close the doors please ? '' The smash voice asked before I heard some doorway close.

After all of that, everything was just, fuzzy. While I laid there, they rolled me over and touched my whole physical structure, I could n't help but think, I recognize that spokesperson, and did Tim call him tree ? ! MASON ? ? ? ! Right as I thought about the man that I still loved more than anything, they touched me several other places and I felt the most intense amount of money of hurting. I heard that man say something about distention ? I did n't even be intimate what that was. I tried to scream out but I 'm not even sure if I was able to make any noise. All I know was that I was hurting everywhere. Alfred Edward Woodley Mason would never do anything like this to me, I thought while they kept doing stuff to me. I do n't even remember the ride to the infirmary, all I knew was that I was in and out for a tenacious time, and I heard two temptress and air trump and that 's when I realized that 911 found me and I was on ambulance. I also heard the man with the vox that I swore was Mason by then, talking to a hospital on a radio, I think I heard him say, `` trauma energizing ''. I made it to the infirmary, and when we got there, I heard the man I hoped was n't Mason start talking to the doctors and nurse. I did n't desire A. E. W. Mason to know that I was the unrecognizable missy he was helping so I was hoping he would n't know it was me, everything went so fast from there and I remember screaming and crying a lot. After a while, I was drugged so I did n't have to feel the pain anymore. I do n't remember much after that.

After I do n't screw how long, I woke up and had tubes and wires all over me and I had petite tubes in my nose. I could n't motivate at all, but I saw my mom, she was there. Once I was form of myself again, I found out that there were a lot of things wrong with me, but the sorry thing ever, was that I lost my babe. I was four calendar month along. They said that the baby was deadened inside of me before the paramedics got to me and they had to take on her out of me. Now I had been getting physically and verbally abused for over a year but I never so much as thought about leaving Tim because I was scared to death of him. But once I found out that I lost my sister because he beat me up so bad, I was done with him. The thing was that Tim and his dad showed up to the hospital and Tims dad threatened me again. And when they left, they forgot to get his baby babysit me like they did the final few prison term. And once I knew it was safe, I called for a nanny and when she got there, I told her what happened. I told her that Tim was the one who put me there. They called the police, I filed a report and they took painting of all of my injury. I had well over a k stitches on my headland, I had broken rib, clavicle, arm and portion of my header was broken too. I had bruised kidneys, my spleen had to be taken out, and I had a lot more internal wound. I had to have operating room on my arm three times for them to fix it, I did n't even know that I had a broken arm until I woke up and found pins and bars all over the outside of my arm. All of that on top of loosing my baby.

I filed charges against him, but so did the state, so while I was in the hospital, a few felony warrants were issued for Tims arrest. He was being charged with aggravated domestic battery, domestic violence, attempted execution because they were convinced that he was trying to defeat me, and they were charging him with murder for the baby. I filed for a restraining Holy Order against Tim, his parents and anyone who was on Tims incline, and they were all granted. I was in the infirmary for a duet of calendar month, and when I got out, mom came and took me home and she stayed with me, I was scared that Tim was going to come and kill me since they had n't found him yet and I did n't desire to be left alone. Mom was surprisingly amazing to me, she said that I gave her Bob Hope. After a few weeks, I started to palpate a little safer, so my babe came to see me, and they were really amazing too. One night I was laying in bed and was thinking about everything that happened to me, and thought, I have to get out of the order.

I had to for two reasons, one, it was n't safe for me, it was n't secure for any girl. ill-treatment was like, really bad through the wholly order and I think all women were abused in some way. My husbands dad was still around and so were all of his brothers and sisters and there was no telling what they were planning on doing. That alone scared me to end because if they were up to of what Tim was, I was not safe. So, what I did was I started to figure out how I could get out of there. A few days after I was released from the hospital, I started to mark that I was being followed everywhere I went. I know I was being followed by people in the society, and I did n't know why. It was after my beating and after I realized that I was being watched that my heart were opening to everything that the fiat was about, what they were really about. And when I started to see the ugly Sojourner Truth, I started to finger like I absolutely had to get out, I had to run away and I felt a certain urgency behind it. It was as though I was suppose to get out, and I had to very, very soon. That urgency grew even more a workweek after I got my stitches taken out, but I had to stay because I had to have one more surgical operation on my arm, that was so they could guide the thole, deadbolt and cake off of the outside of my arm. I had some in my arm too, but those were going to be there for the balance of my life. But after my final surgery, I went to mom house and helped her with stuff around her house as best as I could since I had a vast and heavy cast on my arm, but I wanted to palpate safe. While I was there, the feeling of urgency got so strong that it was almost making me uneasy. So when my mom and I sat down, I decided to tell her that I had to go.

'' Mom, I have something I want to tell you. '' I said.

'' Is everything ok ? '' She asked.

'' No mom and you know it. '' I said.

'' So what 's going on ? '' She asked.

'' I 'm leaving the edict. '' I said.

'' You ca n't do that and you know it hun. '' She said.

'' fountainhead I ca n't remain either mom, I ca n't be a part of something that allows charwoman to be treated the way we are treated. '' I said.

'' It 's not that bad hun. '' Mom said.

'' Not that bad ? ! Look at me mom ! He put me in the hospital and this was n't the for the first time prison term, I have some metallic element parallel bars and fucking in my arm that will be there for the relaxation of my life, and I ca n't pee without it hurting plus he killed my baby mom, he killed my infant. How is it not that bad mom ? The only way it 'll be bettor for me is if I left the order, there is no other way and you know it. And I 'm filing for divorce, I do not want to be married to that monster. '' I said.

'' I never thought I would say this, and if the order finds out that I 'm supporting you I could get into a lot of trouble. I do n't desire you to impart the lodge, I do n't. But I want you to find safe and after what Tim did to you, I do n't want you to ride out. I 'm affright for you. '' She said making me depend at her.

'' I 'm frightened for me too mom. '' I said.

She hugged me and we both started to cry. I was so happy that she was going to support me and that she was encouraging me to do that.

'' Kaylee, I want you to hear to me really goodness. I know this is a really bad time for this I know, but I want you to hear me out on something. '' Mom said.

'' What mom. '' I said thinking she was going to evidence me that I needed to start dating more hombre in the order.

'' hitch here, I 'm going to get something. '' She said while she got up and walked to her room and she was gone for a minute.

While she was in her elbow room, I heard her moving a caboodle of things around and she was making a lot of noise. When she came back in the elbow room, I saw her carrying a low red record, it was as big as the one I got on my fourteenth birthday.

'' Mom, no. '' I said while she sat down.

'' Just admit it. '' Mom said.

'' No mom, I do n't need a inclination, I do n't need to escort anyone ESPECIALLY if it 's anyone from the purchase order, I 'd rather die than marry anyone or even date anyone in the club. '' I said while I started to get mad.

'' Kaylee stop. '' Mom said.

'' No mom, this is way too soon for one, and for two I do not need to date anyone fr ... '' I said while she interrupted me.

'' Kaylee, I need you to take the Christian Bible, please. '' Mom pleaded calmly while she held it for me.

I took the pocket-sized book from her even though I did n't want to, and when I did, she started to cry.

'' give it. '' She said.

'' Mom, please do n't make me do this, I do n't want a list. '' I said.

'' Please just unfold the playscript. '' Mom pleaded while she cried.

I opened the Scripture and looked in it, nothing was written in it except for one epithet, and that name was written on all four pages, Mason James McCarthy. I stared at the name that was written over and over and over again, yes it sounds creepy-crawly, but for some intellect I was n't creeped out by it at all. I did n't know what to do and I did n't sleep with what to say, I just stared at the name that was written while I started to sense everything that I felt on my fourteenth natal day when I got my first base list and saw him on it.

'' He was different you know. He was not like any of the men that you had on your listing before. Now I 've talked to a lot of your aunts and they all told me something that I did n't see until I started to pay aid to him. He was very independent and because of that he was rebellious. He hated that he had people making every single decisiveness for him throughout his childhood, and because of that, he pulled away from his mom. He did that because he wanted to be the one to make decisions for himself. He did n't want to follow the fiat teachings by dating the girls that were chosen for him, he wanted to make that decision for himself. The just grounds he did only appointment those that were chosen for him, was because they threatened him that if he did n't do what he was told, he would loose his mom. That was until he found out that he was on your list, he had already chosen you, he chose you on his own. And that 's when he finally saw the girl he liked at school and waved at her, and the rest was history.

After I saw how he looked at you, and how you looked at him at your fourteenth birthday party and every day after that, I could n't help but think, he 's the one for her. You were glowing, I 've never seen you smile like you did and I 've never seen your eyes look the way they did when he came up to you. The look on your face when he hugged you told me something, it told me that I was rightfield for making him number one on your lean. I was green-eyed of how you just lit up and smiled every clock time he came to help you with your homework. I was overjealous of how he treated you. You smiled non period anytime he came around and it did n't matter how little of a time he would be around you. I saw you in a way that I 've never seen you or any of your baby before and I was jealous. I was overjealous because I wanted that for myself and I did n't have that, I 've never had that. I knew that there was no way that I would ever have that. But as happy and airheaded as you were with him, I do n't even do it kaylee, all I know was that was what I wanted for you.

After he got banished from the lodge for beating his dad up the way he did, the regret and pain in your eyes, it killed me. You looked hurt, you looked like something was taken from you. You did n't eat, you did n't sleep, you cried yourself to sleep every Night for eld, and you moped around the menage for a long time. And ever since then, I have never seen you look at another man the way you looked at Mason ever again, not even Tim. The smiling on your face was there, but the look in your eyes told a different level, and that 's when I knew. I knew you were still in love with Mason. '' Mom said.

'' I was mom, he was my first major crush and he was the first boy I ever fell in making love with. I was still in honey with him. '' I said.

'' I know. That 's why I did something while you were on your honeymoon, I just had this overtake spirit that I should take in a new leaning and when I did that, this is what I did. Before I knew it, I had a book with Masons public figure in it and that was it. I hid that book, I was going to cauterise it but I just, I ca n't explain it. I just got spue to my stomach and I did n't know why, so I did n't do it. I hid it instead and I never knew why I did that until today. All I knew was that somehow, you two were meant to be together. I know you were married to Tim, but I also knew somehow that he was n't meant for you. I ca n't explain why and how, but I knew. That was all confirmed the day you were beaten within an inch of your sprightliness, that 's when I knew that you are presuppose to be with Mason. Some how, the powers that be seem to insist on that. '' Mom said.

'' How ? How did my licking confirm that I 'm suppose to be with A. E. W. Mason ? '' I asked.

'' Because he was the paramedic that came and saved your animation. '' Mom said giving me the populace swelled chills.

The hair on the back of my neck opening stood up, but at the Saami time, I felt the most peaceful, warm and comforting feeling I had ever felt. I did n't cognise what to say, I just sat there in shock.

'' What ? '' I asked.

'' The ambulances we have here in town were all gone, there was some big attack some where and they needed those ambulances. And since all of the others everywhere else were all at the Same place, they had to transmit one from a city that 's not very close. Luckily, the ambulance that came to our city was close because they had to do a transfer. And it just so happened that Alfred Edward Woodley Mason was the paramedic on that ambulance, and it 's been the talking of the the order and township ever since. Some say that he came down here to see if he could find you, others say that he was sent from God to find you. Either way, it was a big surprise to everyone, all I heard was that the cops got to your family first, then after the bull went in your theatre, the ambulance got there. And when the ambulance got there, they all watched James Neville Mason get out and they all watched while he saved your lifespan.

Think about that for a minute Kaylee, he was number one on your lean because I had a belief that he was hypothecate to be. You guys had thee biggest twinkle between the two of you, you two fall in dear with each other and he kisses you. Then he disappears, and for almost three years, you refused to date anyone because you loved him. You get married, your husband almost kills you and he kills your baby, and all of a sudden, there he is. A. E. W. Mason comes back, not for very long, but he comes back and he saves your life, it 's a signal Kaylee. '' Mom said.

I sat there and just stared at Masons public figure written in the script, I did n't cognize what to say, I did n't know what to do so I just sat there in shock.

'' Did he like, did he know it was me ? '' I asked.

'' No, he did n't, he did n't have any estimate because your altogether expression and caput were swollen really bad. Plus you had a dissimilar last name so there was no way of knowing that it was you. '' Mom said making me sense relieved, and really sad at the Same time.

'' Did you see him ? '' I asked.

'' Yes I did, and I talked to him. '' Mom said.

'' What did you say ? '' I asked.

'' I told him that he just saved my girl life, that the female child he just saved, was you. '' Mom said while she started to cry.

'' What did he say ? '' I asked.

'' He could n't say anything. All of the color drained from his face, he had to sit on the back of his ambulance and he started to confuse up. '' She said.

'' Why ? '' I asked.

'' I think it 's because he 's still in love with you. He wanted me to tell you how no-good he was for leaving you like he did. He says that he has regretted what he has done all of these years and that if he could withdraw back what he did, he would have done it for one reason and one reason only, you. '' Mom said.

'' Can I establish a confession ? '' I asked.

'' Yes you can. '' Mom said.

'' Promise me that this stays between us. '' I said.

'' I promise. '' I said.

'' I 'm serious mom because if anyone finds out I could get into so much fuss. '' I said.

'' I 'll enjoin you what, I promise to never say a word about your confession if you promise to never say a word about that playscript, or that I 'm going to avail get you out of here. '' Mom said.

'' You 're going to help me get out of here ? '' I asked.

'' Yes I am, I 've already made some phone call option. '' Mom said.

'' You have ? '' I asked.

'' Yes, now what 's your confession ? '' She asked.

'' I think about stonemason all the sentence, all the time mom. Do you know how I always got in trouble for comparing all the boys I went on date with to him ? '' I asked.

'' Yes. '' Mom said.

'' I never stopped and I still think about him. When I was on the ambulance all I could think about was him. And when I heard that guy 's phonation, I swore that it was him, but then I heard Tim calling him by his soubriquet. '' I said.

'' tree. '' Mom said.

'' It was really him was n't it ? '' I asked.

'' Yes it was, I talked to him at the hospital recall ? '' Mom asked.

'' Is he ... is he married ? '' I asked.

'' No he is n't. '' Mom said making me feel excited.

'' Does he have a girlfriend ? '' I asked.

'' No, he does n't. He was engaged to a lady friend he met in nursing shoal but she was murdered by one of her ex boyfriends. He stalked her while she and mason were courting, and after they got engaged, he killed her and that 's when Freemason became a paramedic. matter happen for a reason Kaylee, and I think these affair happened to you two so that you could be together. Why else would his fiancé get killed so that he would be exclusive and become a paramedic after he spent years and thousands of dollar bill on nursing school ? He would n't have been down here otherwise, he would be married to another woman and everything. And because that did happen, he was down here and he saved your life history. Why else would all of that happen if you were n't theorise to be together ? '' Mom asked.

'' That 's sad that his fiancé was killed mom, you 're acting like that 's a beneficial thing. '' I said.

'' It 's not and that 's not what I 'm saying. I 'm trying to show you that these things happened for a reason, there is a reason for all of that Kaylee. '' She said.

'' I did n't think I would ever be near him again. '' I said while mom took my hand and looked in my eyes.

'' Now is your opportunity Kaylee. It 's not too often that people get a s chance, and when you get one, you take it and you run with it. I 've never had a second chance like you do right now, and I never will Kaylee. I 'm vex here with a man that I thought I was in dear with and there 's nothing I can do about it now. You, you have a second chance and I 'll be damned if I 'm going to deny you of that. I 'm not going to abnegate you the life that you should have been living. Now I do n't know if god wants you to be with Mason or not, but I 've seen how happy you were with him, how you glowed, I saw the look in your heart, and I saw the way you two looked at each other constantly. This is your sentence Kaylee, this is your 2nd hazard only this meter, there is only one figure on that leaning, one. So please take this second chance and use it. Now I 'm not saying to go straight to him and date him right away because you 've been through netherworld so you 're going to need some time. But if he still loves you like you love him, then he will sympathize and just be there for you. If it 's meant to be, it 'll happen, I personally believe that it 's meant to happen. I believe that you 're meant to be together. '' Mom said while I cried.

'' Thank you mom. '' I said just before I hugged her.

'' Your welcome, I want you to be happy, I want you to survive the life I never got. '' Mom said while we hugged.

'' I need to go retrieve him. '' I said.

'' Do n't race it, you have been through a lot of things that I 'm pretty sure Mason would have never done to you. You need to mend first, but do go and find him, just do n't get into a relationship with him just yet. '' Mom said.

'' Maybe he 'll facilitate me heal. '' I said.

'' I 'm sure that he will, now, we need to talk about you getting out of here. '' Mom said.

'' Ok. '' I said after we stopped hugging.

'' Now, I 've made a few phone margin call and I 've made contact lens with some people who were in the order. They escaped and now they 're helping hoi polloi like you get out of this hell. Tomorrow, we have a meeting with them at the NV Beehive State mete and it 's going to be when your sire is at workplace. I 'll plunk you up. Then after the group meeting, we are going to go back to your house and we are going to carry everything that you absolutely have to ingest and nothing more and we 'll hide it all. If everything works like I 'm hoping, you 'll be gone within the future three days. You 're right on, you do need to get out and you need to get out now and you need to go incur the man of your dream before another fille comes into his lifespan. '' Mom said.

I was overjoyed, that 's the only way I know how to describe it. Here I was, wanting to get out of the social club and encounter my first love life so I can at to the lowest degree get him back into my sprightliness again wether or not we ever courted again. I wo n't lie, I was not ready for a relationship of any kind after what I just went through. I was still scared and I was still hurting after what Tim did to me. If I did find James Mason, which I planned to do, I did n't want him to be my rebound guy because he meant so much more to me than that. I was scared, I was scared that I did n't do it how I was going to feel about him when I found him. I did n't know if I was going to be mad at him for leaving me the way he did, even though he did n't have a choice. Either way, I was going to calculate for him, I was going to go find him and talk to him and I hoped against promise that we could at to the lowest degree be friends again. After I left mummy house, I went home and sat on my lounge and when I did that I started to play back everything I went through. I sat there for the foresightful time thinking about what I would have done serious, and it hit me. I wish I would have seen the real Tim before we got married and I wished that A. E. W. Mason would own never left. Then I started to imagine what it would consume been like if I was married to him and not Tim. I knew Mason very very well because like I said, we were best Friend and we both fell in dearest with each early. So as I imagined my life-time with him as my husband, I could n't imagine him marrying anyone else but me. I imagined that we would receive been kicked out of the order because Mason refused to marry anymore wife, I was all he wanted, he told me that. I started to remember the way he looked at me, how he made me experience and how his amazing hugs felt. I remembered how he looked at me, how he talked to me, and how conciliate he was with me. I thought about how fine-looking he was, how nice his trunk was, how gorgeous his grin and his eyes were and how his trunk glistened when the water rolled off of him and down all of his very, very chant and well defined brawn when he got out of the consortium. That was the very first base prison term since like, my inaugural calendar week or two of marriage ceremony that I started to sense all tingly and shaky, and it was the commencement time since the starting time week or two of my union that I actually got wet.

How sad is that ? How sad is it that I only got wet and horny for the first week or so of my spousal relationship ? Was that because of me ? Was I doing something unseasonable ? I already knew that Tim did n't turn me on after he became abusive I mean, I never got wet, we had to use lubricator remember ? I was n't even attracted to him anymore. But when I thought about James Mason and his beautiful organic structure, and how he made me feel, and how bewilder of a countenance he was and how his kisses tasted, I was wetter than I had ever been, ever ! I had to shake it off and run to the bathroom. I wiped myself off really good and change my panties, it was that bad. Tim never, ever got me that wet, ever I mean, he did score me wet for the first constituent of our marriage and all, but never that wet. Oh my god, I thought once I realized that I was still getting wet just thinking about my inaugural passion Mason. I started to inquire if he was a Virgo, if he had sex with his fiancé and everything. I was hoping that he did so he had some experience, and maybe he could testify me some things. I went to my elbow room and laid on my bed, I did n't even put my pants back on. I pulled my panties down and impact myself thinking about Alfred Edward Woodley Mason. I made myself sense thoroughly and stopped because I was still married to that monster named Tim, besides I did n't know what it was like to deliver a real orgasm so I did n't bonk that if I would give kept going, I would suffer had my very first real orgasm ever. As far as I knew, I was done and that was it, so when I got done I had to go wipe myself again and put my panties and pant back on. It was a rough night for me because I felt those feelings all Night long and it was because I could n't hold back thinking about mason. The following sunup I got up and ate breakfast, took a shower bath and got quick for mom to plunk me up. It was almost ten thirty when mom made it to my house. My brothers and baby were all in school and dad was out on a business trip-up for a couple of 24-hour interval. I went out with mom and we drove for almost an minute before we got to some really remote control place. When we got there, there were a few cable car there already and about five people.

'' Kaylee, oh my god are you ok ? '' soul 1 asked when I got out of the car and they saw my Negroid and blue middle, bruised face, fail arm and my brace for my relegate collar bone.

'' Yeah, as good as I can be I guessing. '' I said while all of the multitude started crying.

'' And this must be your mom. '' Person two said.

'' Yes, this, this is my mom. '' I said.

'' Can we hug you ? '' Person three asked.

'' for sure. '' I said after they all already started to hug me.

'' I 'm so dismal that this happened to you, I 'm so sorry. '' The first person said making me cry.

They all held me and cried for me for quite a piece. As soon as they finally let me go, one of the girlfriend started to yawp while she looked at me.

'' I want out of the order. '' I said.

'' I 'd ask why, but I think the understanding is pretty obvious, so, when are you wanting to do this ? '' Person two asked.

'' The Sooner the break. '' I said.

'' You give us a time line and we will go with it. '' Person three said while they cried.

'' Tomorrow ? '' I asked.

'' We can do that, but from what your mom says, we have to move fast. '' individual one said.

'' When we are done here, we are going rest home and I 'm going to help her ingroup everything she 'll postulate. '' Mom said.

'' Just retain in thinker that the more stuff you have, the retentive it takes, and from what we see and what we 've heard, we need to get you out fast. '' person two said.

'' go on it to the requirement like clothes and stuff, I do n't know how practically hooey you have, but I 'm not certainly if we can get a uhaul in and get you out fast enough. '' Person three said after they regained their composure.

'' I do n't wish about the furniture or any of that, it 's just going to be my dress and physical composition and hooey, I 'm leaving the rest, I wan na get out now. '' I said.

'' So are you trusted that this is what you want ? '' The maiden somebody asked.

'' I 've never been more sure about anything in my life. '' I said.

'' Are you absolutely trusted because you know what happens if you do this, you can never come back and you 'll be completely cut off from family. '' individual three said.

'' She 's always going to feature me, so that 's not entirely genuine. '' Mom said making me cry again.

'' What about her brothers and sisters, how will they act if they know you helped her ? '' The second person asked.

'' They do n't need to know and I 'm not going to assure them yet. '' Mom said.

'' What about her dad ? '' The third asked.

'' If he finds out then I will take what ever comes to me. '' Mom said.

'' You 're a cracking mom, I wish Sir Thomas More of the moms in the gild were like you, you may not know this, but you 're a Hero to us. '' The tertiary female child said.

'' When are we doing this ? '' The get-go girl asked.

'' I want to do this tomorrow. '' I said.

'' Can you get everything packed tonight ? '' The second person asked.

'' I 'm not sure, but I 'm going to do what I can. '' I said.

'' I 'll help her. '' Mom said.

'' What time tomorrow ? '' The second third mortal asked.

'' It 'll have to be in the good afternoon since my brothers and sister are all in school and poppycock. '' I said.

'' Ok what time ? '' The first somebody asked.

'' Noon. '' I said.

'' Tomorrow at noon ? '' The someone asked.

'' Yes, I 'll have as much stuff I can packed in my car, and when you guys get there all we 'll have to do is go. '' I said.

'' We are going to have to move fast because we do n't trust your husband family unit, they do n't stimulate a very sound track record. '' The first person said.

'' I do n't commit them either, they 've been following me ever since I got out of the hospital. '' I said.

'' Has your husband been caught yet ? '' Person three asked.

'' No. '' I replied.

'' Then we really need to get you out as fast as possible. '' mortal one said.

'' We know the rules of order has been watching you, they tried to follow you here. '' The third person said.

'' They did ? How do you live ? '' I asked.

'' We have a certificate team, they 've been watching over you since your mom called us, do n't worry, they did n't follow you that far. '' The first mortal said.

'' Are they going to be there tomorrow ? '' I asked.

'' Yes, they already are but there 's going to be more that come with us. We 'll have them call the sheriffs too and see if they can be there too. '' The offset person said.

'' Is it really that dangerous ? '' I asked.

'' Not sure but we are going to try to not recover out. '' The tierce person said.

'' So tomorrow at noon then, I need to get home base and pack my material now. '' I said.

'' I 'll help for as long as I can. '' Mom said.

'' cum here. '' One someone said before they hugged me.

I got really long hugs from all of the people that were there to help me before mom and I got in the car and sped off. While we were driving back dwelling house, I saw a car following us, it was the Lapp car I had seen a few sentence at home. I was scared at initiatory to be honest, but then I remembered that they said that some kind of security system had been watching over me ever since mom called them. When we got back to my menage, mom searched my sign frantically for my suitcases, and when we found them, we started to pack. I was really surprised that we had all of my shuffle up, all of my dress except the turnout I was going to wear thin the next day and the one I was wearing, and all of my hair stuff and nonsense packed and ready to go. I had all of my travelling bag packed and a few box seat packed, and I had my car packed up. All that was left was the stuff we were going to put in the former motortruck and that was it. By the time we were done, it was meter for mom to go so she could be home when my brothers and sisters got family. She started to cry really hard and it made me start crying. She hugged me and just held onto me for the longest prison term, it was as though it was the last metre she was ever going to see me.

'' in force luck babe female child, go out there and start over, be happy. I 'll pretermit you. '' She said while she sobbed and held me.

'' Thank you mom. Thank you so lots I will never leave what you did for me, I love you. '' I said while I sobbed in her arms.

'' I love you too coddle missy, I 'll pray for you. '' She said before she let go.

'' I 'll see you when the kids are off to school. I want you to get laid that you are welcomed back anytime, just call me and we 'll set up a time. '' Mom said.

'' What about the order ? '' I asked.

'' Fuck the gild, you 're my girl. '' She said making me laugh out of shock.

'' Why ca n't all of the orders parents be like you ? '' I asked.

'' Because they do n't love their kids like I do mine. '' Mom said with a smile.

I hugged her again and we cried together for a few minute before she left. After she left, I made a check list of everything I had so that I could prepare certain I was n't missing anything. After that, I went through the house to make indisputable I had all of the hooey I needed and wanted which I did. Well, almost anyway, I wanted some of my piece of furniture, but that would stand for that I would have to get a moving hand truck and I did n't deliver the money for that and it would take way too long. I wanted out now, and I wanted out bad, so I was trying to get out as soon as I possibly could. Even though I had broken bones and hooey, I still tried to displace as much as I could by the front room access so all they had to do is walk in and grab my poppycock. I got all of my stuff there, but I could n't heap anything because well, I was broken. I was in so practically annoyance by the fourth dimension I was done that I was in tears. I tried to not assume any of my hard ethical drug painful sensation pills because I wanted to be coherent when the mass got to my house the next morning. But the pain in the ass got so bad that I had to take something, I had to and when the hydrocodone kicked in, I tried to do to a greater extent, I was that determined to get out and as far away from the order as I could get. I finally went to bed after setting the alarm, and as I laid there, I started to get a minuscule excited about the fact that I might get to reunite with my first love. But I did n't want him to see me with all of my bruises, stamp and stuff, so I decided to waitress until I was healed enough to go see him, I just hoped that by the clip I was healed enough that it would n't be too late.

Why was I already making plans to see Mason ? I just went through a very abusive spousal relationship and was almost killed, and here I was, laying in my bed thinking about him. I started to smile just thinking about his incredibly eyes and his amazing smile. The way he talked to me and the things he said to make me laugh. I thought of all the sarcastic things he said and how hard he made me laugh, and I was actually laughing while I laid in my bed. Like I said, there is no early George Mason, and no matter what I did, no matter how many son I dated, I was never going to witness my Mason in any of them. I know I just went through hell with a while of garbage man, but somehow the things mom told me started to really take in gumption to me. Mason was the first one on my leaning when I was 14, he was the blistering and cutest boy I had ever seen in my life and I was in making love with him, he was my aspiration man, he was perfect, he was perfect for me. Then he was taken from me after he caught his dad beating up his mom and babe and beat him up really really bad. Then I spent the foresightful time trying to get over him and I never got over him. I dated because I was think to, and I got married to someone that I thought I was in making love with. Then he beat me up really bad, and who comes and saves my living ? None other than my first real and true love, Mason.

And while I was going through all of that stuff, he went to school and became a nursemaid. He started to court another girl and he got engaged to her, and after that, she gets murdered by some psycho. After that he became a paramedic. Mom was right, if we were n't suppose to be together, then why would all of that happen to us ? Why else would his fiancé die and he become the paramedic that saved my living ? Why would I get beat so bad that I would need him to save my life story ? But it gets profoundly, how is it that all of our ambulances and all the others around the city just happened to be gone ? How is that potential, and why would that befall to where they had to call Masons ambulance to come to my city ? Of all of the ambulances, his was the one that was sent, tell me how that was just a coincidence ? And in the row of my Freemason when he asked a sarcastic question, `` do n't vex, I 'll wait ''. Do n't get me wrong, I 'm sad and I hurt for him because his fiancé was killed, she was murdered. I ca n't even begin to reckon what he must have went through after that and my heart like, ache for him. But that made him become a paramedic, and because he was a paramedical, he was the one that came to save my aliveness, cmon, it 's a signaling, all of it was a sign. It was a star sign for me, a sign that said that we were meant for each other. He was unity and once my divorce was finalized, I was going to be individual.

Second chance that 's what mom said, this was my 2d luck and she wanted me to select it and use it. She also said that it was my second chance to be with the one guy that I wanted to be with, the one who was issue one on the inclination that the order made for me. I laid there in my bed and got the warmest chills, and the most peaceable belief I had in the longest clip ever. I experienced those same belief every time I was with mason. Every time we were together, which was a lot, he looked so deep in my eyes, it was like he could n't stop staring into them. Just the thought of that made me smile because I loved how he looked so rich in my eyes that I could like, almost find out his thoughts. I loved how they sparkled and how he smiled every time he looked me in my middle. I loved how he watched my lips when I was talking, I loved it all. I never had any of that with Tim, ever. I cried that Night thinking about the possibleness and the what ifs. And now, here I was, laying in bed high on painfulness pills to down the forcible botheration that Tim caused, but the worked up and genial pain still throbbed. That was when I started to think, `` there 's no way that Mason would want me now, I 'm ugly and I 'm stupid person. I 'm not a well wife, and if I ca n't get being a wife down right, there was no way that I could be a good girlfriend for the cutes, amusing and most stick boy I had ever known. '' I started to sob, I wanted to be with Mason but I was no where near to being in his league anymore. That night, I sobbed, I sobbed until I fell into a recondite eternal sleep ... .