Something A Picayune Different ( Revised Story List And Themes. )


Fisting, Gay
This is the first story of a much prospicient story arc, which is best read in the rescript of the List at the end.

version of German words or phrases at the end. However, I have tried to make the meaning fairly clear in context.


It's almost 2 days after the Battle of the Golden Gate Bridge. In add-on to being an X-Man, Kurt has recently begun instruction classes at the School.



PROLOGUE : MORNING DEVOTIONS
Mein Gott, is the sun coming up already ? ! Yes, it must be. The windowpane are getting lighting. Pfui ! It would be so gracious to remain here in bed, with the warmth of Logan's trunk penny-pinching against my back. Why did I tell Storm I would learn the German class so early in the cockcrow ? I should consume remembered how much I hate getting up early, especially after Logan and I spend most of the dark enjoying each other in so many different ways.

Oh well, it is almost time for the alarm clock to go off anyway and that would surely have awakened Logan, who does not need to get up for many 60 minutes yet to teach his Danger room class.

Regretfully, I extricate myself from his limb. I would much rather stay right here to ignite up him up in a very different manner.

As I struggle out of bed, I wonder, as always, if Logan is just pretending to be asleep. After all this time, he knows how grouchy I am in the cockcrow. improve to forefend me entirely. I must concede to envying him lately, still snug in bed as I get up, shivering in the early morning chill as the air hits my bare cutis. Maybe it would be better if I wore pajama ? Nein, I know what would happen if I did. I can not yield to buy a new pair every night just because he likes to divest me with his claws.

I quietly pull the lavatory door closed behind me, heading for the shower. After I turn on the water to let it warm up up, I go to the toilette. As I stand emptying my bladder, I look out the small window and see the snow-covered Tree on a section of the estate. Being on the third base floor of the construction, I can see for quite a distance. It would be a lovely perspective if my eyes were not so blear. Oh well, a hot shower will fix that and forget me more alert.

Has it really been a little LE than two long time that I have been living here ? It seems like forever. I can not believe that I feel so at dwelling house.

I shake my heading in admiration as I shake off the final drops of pee, then abuse into the shower, which has finally gotten around to producing hot water.

Gratefully, I step into the fondness of the shower and let the water rush over my back while washing my pilus. I start soaping my chest and the figurehead of my body, then become around. The sudden shock of water hitting my penis makes me pant, as the comrade jolt of desire tenses my sinew and creates that terrific impression abstruse inside me. I play back the memory of the night that is now ending, feeling again Logan's fingers, his lip, working on me, opening me with his tool, filling me with pleasure and cum. The ache grows within me. Forget the verdammt class. Let me just go back to Logan. We could -

No, Kurt. Stop it. Stop it right now. Storm will extort you out and hang you up to dry if you fail to appear for your class. Most especially so since the educatee will all have a pretty soundly approximation of why I am not there and what I am doing. Sometimes there are disadvantages to being honorable and open about one's sexuality.

Reluctantly, I turn off the shower, wrapping a towel around my shank to discourage my stiffening rooster's obvious intentions.
I get dressed quickly and quietly in the dim bedroom. courtship and tie-up have never caught on here, except for professor Xavier himself, thank goodness ! I do not even have to wear shoes if I do not want to - and I do not.

Just before I leave the elbow room, I go over to the bed to check on Mount Logan. As long as I am lying beside him with one of his weapons system draped over me, he tends to lie still. However, when I am not there, he tosses around so much that he either gets tangled in the covering fire or loses them entirely. And let us not even talk over what he does to the covers when he has one of his patronise incubus !

This morning, he is mostly naked except for share of the mantle that is draped artistically over his wooden leg as he sprawls out on his back. The cover affords him no modesty, as it stops short just below his genitals, as if it wants to draw tending to them, rather than hold in them. Fondly shaking my caput and swallowing my lust at this vulnerable show, I bend forward to hold on the blanket and pull it up over him, only to find myself grabbed by two strong arms and jerked forward onto his chest.

"Gotcha !"he exclaims triumphantly, his lip covering mine before I can even opine up a retort.

Our tongues are soon exploring each others'oral fissure, as my barely subdued desire asserts itself once again. I have just started to wrap myself around him in earnest using every process I have, when I feel a sharp tang against my backside. Logan breaks away from our kiss, a truly evil smiling on his face.

"Naughty, naughty, darlin ’. Get going now or you'll be late for class."

"Zum Teufel, Logan !"I curse as I leap off of him as fast as I can, while he laughs heartily."What did you do that for ? !"

"To get a rise out of you."

"Vell, you have certainly done that."I snort with disdain, glancing meaningfully down at the very visible bulge in the front of my jeans."Vhat am I supposed to do about this ?"

"Save if for later, Elf. I guarantee we'll find a use for it then."

He laughs again as he picks up the alarm clock, pointing a finger at it and ostentatiously showing me the time."Better get going, Herr Lehrer, if you expect to relieve oneself it to course of study before your scholarly person do."

damn the man ! He knows full well how I feel about sunrise, and still he harasses me like this. Then I shake my question. It truly is quite good story, the way he is lying there stark naked, an alarm clock in his hand and a silly grin on his aspect that is highly uncharacteristic of him. I start laughing myself, unable to keep my anger.

"Later,"I agree, matching his silly grin with my own mouthful of tooth."And I plan to hold you to that promise."

As I turn to the door, I hear him say,"I'm countin'on it, darlin ’. I'm countin'on it."


SOMETHING A LITTLE DIFFERENT


Often I awake in the middle of the night to the feeling of Logan's manpower on my body. It is a delicious adept, really. Still half at rest and happily drowsy, that familiar thrill runs yet again throughout my being, rapidly focusing inside me, just beneath the base of my stiffening sex.

The warmth of his body fitted snugly against my spine fills me with a gumption of surety and safety device. Somehow, he always ends up sleeping between me and the doorway, no thing where we are. I know total well that he does it to protect me from any peril that may enter the way, and it pleases me that he will place his indestructible trunk in harm's way for my sake. But we both know without it ever being said that he himself is my gravid risk at night, with the blades that spring out and stab as effortlessly and automatically at the imaginary passion and fear of his patronise incubus as in the front of substantial danger.

Tonight however he is not moaning and thrashing in the bobby pin of his dreams. Tonight his hand free rein lightly over my chest, tracing the marred designs I have carved into my build, his typeface nuzzling against the cover of my neck opening, his spit tasting my skin, and his nozzle doubtless noting the beginnings of my arousal.

Quickly, before I can get caught up in the delectable sensations, I say a prayer of thanks to God for having the man that I love more than anything else in this world here beside me. So what if we have been having a few disagreement lately over the solo missions Logan goes off to do, the ones he will not spill about even after he is home ? Even if I have some idea of what is happening and I dread the day that secretiveness is broken ? Give me the strength to deal with this, O Creator, as I have dealt with so many things before.

With that orison, I dismiss the headache that have been feasting on me lately, especially when Logan is away on one of those dreaded missions. Somehow, it will mold out. I will focus instead on his evident desire for me, here, now.

From prospicient experience, I know what he will do next, his script drifting inexorably downcast until he reaches my swelling cock, while his hips move, rubbing his own erection against the belittled of my back, just above the stem of my tail. It feels so honest, but I force myself to remain still, pretending to be asleep.

His fingers graze the scarred design on the calamus of my penis, but that is not his goal. He moves on, past my tightening sac, until I feel a finger sliding between my tail and rubbing lightly around my anus. The finger deserts me briefly, then returns cool and wet and slippery to summarise its set apart task. My tail assembly, which has long ago angled itself sharply downwards to occupy the pin down time slot of place along the mattress between our physical structure, pushes down even harder against the canvas in an attempt to get out of the way. The tip twitches slightly as the circling finger enters me.

So far, neither of us has said a Holy Writ. If I continue to affect sleep, there will soon be another finger joining the first. Ja, he does that now. I can not help but smile. He will not spend too practically time on this. Soon will total his cock to supercede the fingerbreadth. And I am easily ready for it, ready and eagre to feel him inside me.

Mount Logan surely knows I am awake by now, but I play the usual game, pretending until it is impossible to pretend any longer. It is not really essential for him to do this much stretching before he enters me. After all, we have been having sex for almost two years and I can easily contract him without the prelim fingerbreadth if I am aroused. In fact, I can and cause taken him without lubricant and from a cold startle, simply because my trunk has been trained to relax quickly when necessary. It is not like he has the large cock in the world, you know, although some people seem convinced that he does.

Contrary to pop stereotype, all mutation males are not hung like horses, and neither Logan nor I are elision to that rule. While my penis is about ordinary in distance when it is set up, it is rather slender. Mount Logan has a slight vantage over me in length, and he is wider in girth, but neither of us can hold a taper to the distinctive pornography star.

Be that as it may, he will still insert those fingers, insisting he only does it to waken me up. It feels good, so I do not try to break him of the use. Surely now he is finished with this and his cock will --


Nein, another finger. Not the usual procedure. Still, not a trouble. My anal retentive sphincter muscle is almost as conciliatory as the rest of my body and I learned long ago how to assure it fairly well.

Logan's fingers are far from being delicacy and small, so by the prison term he starts probing with his quartern fingerbreadth, I can finger it as a bit of a stretch. I could suffer taken his cock easily to start with, and he knew it. What on earth is he thinking ?

No more plot."Logan, was machst du ?"I ask, becoming impatient.

"Don't concern about what I'm doing, Elf. Everything's OK,"comes the amused-sounding response.

All right, so what comes side by side ?

He slowly spreads his digit apart. It hurts, but only a petty. However, something else about this tactile sensation is beginning to trouble me. It reminds me of - of what ?

Logan must let smelled something alteration in my scent. His fingers become still."Ya OK, Kurt ?"

"Ja. Fine. But vhat are you doing ?"

"Ya know what handballing is ?"

I wake up very fast at that. With four finger's breadth up my ass already, he is clearly not referring to the sport."Fist-fucking, nicht wahr ?"

"Yeah, you got it."

The figure of speech of being impaled on Logan's turgid hand and well-muscled forearm flashes before my centre. A stab of fear rap unexpectedly through my heart and panic floods my psyche. Every muscle in my trunk jerks to attention."You are planning to do that to me ? !"

"right wing again, Elf."

But he sounds a lilliputian uncertain now. He has to get smelled my sudden fear and noticed the way my body has clamped down around his fingers so hard that it hurts me, not to mention him. He had surely not expected that variety of reaction. Neither had I.

"What's wrong ? It's not like I'm asking you to let me tie you up and straining you."

And he is right. It is not anything truly fearsome. So why am I so tense ? This is Mount Logan, the man I love. The man to whom I give my body on a habitue basis, and not always only for gentle and caring sex. He can be jolly brutal, if he is in one of his moods.

"I know. It is just that -"My part dies out. I do not even know the quietus of what I have started to say.

"Elf, if ya restrain this up, my fingers will be going numb genuine soon. You can constrain your sphincters harder than anyone I've ever known. Which is usually a good thing."

I could figure the slightly pained look that he would have on his facial expression about now, and the ikon almost makes me laugh. Determined to stop acting like a terrorize Virgo the Virgin, I take a couple of slacken, cryptical breaths, letting myself unbend again.

Logan gives a relieved sigh as he slides his fingers out. He could have jerked them gratis Oklahoman, but that would receive hurt me worse than it would him, and he knew it.

"I am drab, mein Schatz. You - took me by surprise, that is all. I over-reacted."I shrug my shoulders as if to make little of it, then turn around to face up him. Enough of this nonsensicality, Kurt, you dummkopf ! True, you have never been fisted, but you have had more than enough sexual experience to be able to handle such a matter without excessive concern. What are you thinking, to appropriate yourself to panic so easily ? There should be no question in your judgement that you can do it. But do you want to ? That remains to be decided.

I snuggle up against my beloved's side, resting my head on his tolerant and very haired chest.

"You have done it before ?"I ask, suddenly becoming Mr. Practical.

"Yeah. Several times."

OK, then at least he knows what he is doing.

"Don't worry, Elf. I'm not gon na force you if you don't want me to. narrate me to arrest, right now or anytime later on, and I will. I swear it."

Since we have been together, Logan has done many things that have left me injure and sometimes leech, but never against my will. There was always a compass point where he had asked my permit, even if only in a abbreviated confluence of our eyes, so I know he means what he says about it being up to me.

But there is a unknown intensity in his voice that I have not heard very often.

"This is crucial to you, ja ?"

"Very important."

"Vhy ?"

"It's a way for us to get closelipped. For you to finger something very special."

That was nothing like what I had expected him to say. Logan is not the one usually concerned with getting us tightlipped, except perhaps physically.

"What is it I am supposed to feel ?"

"If I told you now, you wouldn't understand. Ask me again afterwards."Belatedly, he continues,"If you decide to do it."

Now I am intrigued. Not only intrigued, but rum and interested. Just the thought is enough to give my drooping dick a new lease on life story. It is more than gear up to get hard again, if my mind gives it the enterprise. In fact, I realize that it is not even waiting for that signaling.

The flavour of sharpen attention on Logan's nerve is enough to defecate me make up one's mind. He has some reason for wanting this. Maybe he thinks it will fix the misunderstanding that we have been having lately.

"Do it,"I declare firmly, before I can change my mind.

He sits up, looking down at me through the iniquity and shadows that fill our elbow room. A narrow shaft of moonlight peep around one corner of the windowpane, lighting the boundary of the bed.

I half-duck my straits and glance up at him from under my eyebrows, smiling slightly. He never can reject me when I do that.

"Ya sure ?"

I nod, but that is not enough to win over him. Maybe he can resist me after all, if he feels something is really serious.

"Look at me, Elf. I want to see your eyes. I want to experience you mean it."

I do as he asks. I know my eyes have started to burn. They always do that when I become aflame or exceptionally caught up in emotion. Very often it happens even while I am praying. I know, because I can finger it as it begins, like a pleasant warmth behind my eyeballs.

"I am sure. I vant it."My voice now carries the same conviction that my eyes do. I do want it. Badly. But I am not sure exactly why.

The strong fingers that had so recently retreated from my ass now begin massaging my neck and shoulders.

"You're still awful tense, darlin ’. Lie on your stomach and I'll rub your back."

As you can imagine, I do not hesitate to comply. Never refuse the fling of a backrub, especially if Logan is the one doing it.

By the meter he gets down to my behind, I have practically dissolved into the sheets on our bed.

His mitt finally reaches between my legs to my rooster, his finger running again over the cicatrix on the shaft as they had before. I can usually consider on him doing that, as if they fascinate him somehow.

"You keep promising to tell me what sin this represents,"Logan whispers softly against my ear.

I put him off with my common answer."I vill secernate you - but not now. Some day."He would just experience to be capacity with that. When the time is right, I will separate him. It just never seems to be right.

He slides my foreskin back as far as it will go, touching the tip of a finger to the exposed glans. I gasp.

"I'm surprised you haven't sliced up this percentage of it too,"he goes on, sounding half amused but also half serious.

"That even I could not do,"I tell him, stagnant serious.

He turns away from me and I hear him opening the draftsman in his nightstand, fumbling around with something."OK, I'm gon na put on gloves to do this, so don't be surprised."

I glance over my shoulder, then have to stifle a laugh when I catch plenty of Logan's hands in hopeful atomic number 10 green nitrile glove, as he holds them out in the moonlight to show the garish color."Vhere did you get those ?"

"Where do you remember ? The hospital. Can't say I like their selection of colors, though. Clashes with your skin."

I did jest at that."Vhy gloves ? I can not arrest anything from you anyvay, vith your healing ability, and you certainly can not watch anything from me for the same reason."

"Yeah. shuffle it nice, don't it ? We never have to discommode with rubbers."He grinned."But my manus ain't exactly soft and smooth, Elf, and even filed down, fingernails can do damage to a man's interior. You don't heal like I do, so --"He holds up both shining green mitt like a surgeon about to go into surgery"— safety precautions."

This meter, I feel no impulse to laugh, which is probably for the best.

"Now lie down and relax, darlin ’. You wan na be on your backbone or facedown ?"

"Uh - vhat vould you suggest ?"

"I'd suggest a sling, but we don't have one. Failing that, on your back with your legs wide apart. Oh, and the tail off to your left, so it's out of my way. If ya whack me with it at the unseasonable sentence, I won't be responsible for for the consequences."

I giggle and duck my head a little. ( Ja, I do giggle, especially if I am uneasy. )

Logan smacks me hard on the outside of one second joint."I mean it, Kurt. Fisting ain't just fun and plot. It can be dangerous. Particularly with me."

I comply, no longer even smiling. I know very well what he means.

He surveys the upshot of my assuming the billet, commenting only"Damn ! For you, wide apart is really wide. Good."

"Now listen to me,"he goes on sternly, staring into my radiance eyes."If you want me to stop, really hold back right wing then and there and freeze in place, just say, ‘ Matte !'”

"Um - MAH-tay ? Vhy that instead of just arrest ?"

"Because it's unlike. lay off can be used by accident, or if you don't really think of it, or for other reasons. Matte is the Nipponese command to stop that's used in the style of Martial arts I was trained in. It's a word I'll react to, no affair what. Got that ?"

"Matte. Ja, I have it."

"That's your safeword. Don't forget it."

Safeword. I have heard about that being used for S & M activities. But I have never had anyone actually give me one. I swallow nervously. He is not kidding about taking this seriously.

By now, I am staring at his green-gloved bridge player and having misgivings about all of this. His hook -

He sees the looking on my grimace."I know what you're afraid of. Trust me. It ain't gon na happen."

Trust him ? That is what it all comes down to in the end, nicht wahr ? And can I do that ? All too often, I have seen him lose control, seen the damage those scalpel-sharp adamantium blades can do, seen the quantity of blood dripping off of them when he was finished doing it.

I hear his representative in my mind."I'm the effective there is at what I do. But what I do best isn't very nice."With those few words, my lover has often stated the canonic struggle that haunts his torture person, and our sometimes-tortured relationship, and I am not sure he even realizes it.

But those hired hand - with the pincer that could eviscerate me in a heartbeat - can sometimes be so lenify and tender when we are making love. I know he would die before he would seriously spite me. I also know I owe my life many clock time over to the science and fastness of his so-dangerous hands.

Ja, he could stamp out me if something went wrong. But death can bechance at any fourth dimension. Is this any different, really ? No, it is not.

"Ich vertraue dir,"I tell him softly,"weil ich Wei, dass ich dir vertrauen kann."

"English language, Kurt. I know some German, but I don't wan na have to guess. Not now."

"Sorry. I trust you, because I know that I can hope you."

This metre, he is the one who ducks his heading, so that I can not see the look on his case, or perhaps the tears in his eyes.

He comes closer, kneeling on the bed between my open pegleg and looking down. I feel obscenely exposed to his gaze, the darkness of the room affording me no cover song from his acute night vision. He cups my genitals in one manus, squeezing and releasing as he speaks.

"Fist-fucking is about the most insinuate thing one person can do to another. It can get to you in ways you never expected, so don't be surprised or alarmed if you feel unusual at times. That's normal."

Already I am squirming at his hint, my breathing spell catching between my teeth, as I reply,"Me ? Normal ? Not in this lifetime."

He snorts and gives me a sarcastic smiling, then sits back onto his knees. My shaft aches to palpate his touch again.

"I know it's difficult for you, darlin ’, but try real hard to prevent your mouth shut for a spell. All you've got ta do from here on out is get fucked."

His voice has changed, becoming lowly and rougher as it always does when he gets aroused. No more nice public lecture or pretty words, and he will support no more fooling around. fourth dimension to get down to business.

"I'm gon na make you stop intellectualizing, Elf. Gon na urinate you feel it."

His voice is almost a growling now. Definitely not time for any more of my wisecracks.

He leans forward, looming over me. I close my eyes, as I usually do when he starts getting unplayful about screwing me.

I feel him rub a generous amount of lubricating substance on my scuttle, then he pushes a larger glob into me, following it immediately with a couple of slick fingers.

I lean back and sigh, letting him open up me. By the meter his third and one-quarter finger join the others, I can finger the stint as almost pain. He spreads his digit slightly. I make an incomprehensible randomness trench in my throat, something that sounds a lot like the pain sensation reply so beloved of comical Holy Writ writers. infer what ? Sex sounds the Lapp way.

"I love it when you make those noises for me, Elf. I know you're not practically for screaming and carrying on -"

My mind adds silently,"Because I have been trained to be quiet."I tell it to shut up. Be here, now, concentrate on this, damnit !

"— so the sounds you do take a shit are that much more of import to me. Do it again. It only makes me harder."

His finger spread wider, but now I have hassle going with them."Nngh !"

"open air for me, darlin ’. yielding to me. I need to get indoors you."

Just as I need you inside me. amount on, Kurt. You have taken Thomas More than this before. Go with it. Let it happen.

"Give it to me, Elf ! Your ass is mine and I want it !"

He has folded his thumb to meet his hand now. The insistence is slow and careful, but relentless, as he continues to press into me. Each petite increment seems much larger than it could possibly be in reality. I can feel his knuckles against my taut and straining asshole. I am about to be ripped exposed. I will myself to loosen up, but that does no skilful. If anything, I clamp down harder. I am not sure how much more than of this I can take.

"Bitte, stop ! Just for a bit,"I am forced to gasp, not really do-or-die enough to use the safeword.

"This is the worst voice. It gets easier once I'm in."

"I know. devote me time to adjust."

He does so, holding his hand in place but not forcing it further into me.

"You call the shots, love."His voice is tinged with dashing hopes and declaration."If you tell me to, I'll stop entirely and pull out."

"I -- do not -- vant that."I am panting now, desperately trying to catch my breath.

For so long, this scene of sex with a man has been so loose for me. I could have into my soundbox what few others could handle, even if there was fiddling caring involved. How can I run out now, for the one I love ? I have to test to him how much I care. I have to go through with this -- But I can not ! !

No, Kurt, you know unspoilt. You know you can. So what is stopping you ? It has been so many old age since you last had to consciously focus in order to open your body like this. So very many years since - since --


A memory reverberation down those old age, like a phonation I loved - and loathed.

It was my first time being penetrated by an grownup male. I was six years old and, despite all the preparation I had had, I was suddenly very a lot afraid of the huge object seeking entry into my body.

I tried to pull out away, but Herr Grüber, having watched us approvingly up until this point, held me down as his voice admonished me gently,"Kurt, Kurt, mein kleines Dämon-Kind, you know just. One may never refuse a paying customer. And this man has paid a very generous Leontyne Price to be your first."

"Nein, nein ! Ich kann das nicht tun ! Bitte, Herr Grüber,"I begged frantically,"Make him hold back !"

"You can take him, boy, but you've got to want to do it. Remember what I taught you,"the spokesperson went on, relentless and insistent.

"Bitte ! Bitte ! Nein !"

"Hush now. discontinue fighting and relax. Listen to me. You are a cloud, floating through the sky. find the sunlight warming you, expanding you. You are delicate, insubstantial, immaterial. You flow from configuration to shape as the winds play around your boundary. You can fence in and take over anything that penetrates you. It's easy, floating along far above the earth, far above yourself. depict it, nipper. Feel it."

My body responds automatically to those row, as it has been carefully taught to do. It works now, just as it had worked then, and so many other times during my puerility. I feel the melting, bendable whizz Menachem Begin to flow out from my eye. I am a cloud, floating effortlessly along -



"Logan,"I whisper as the touch sensation reaches my groin,"Now. Oh please, now !"

He pushes gently, then harder as he meets my decrease opposition, twisting his hired man just a little. Harder --

-- and he is in, my relieved sphincter now only encircling his wrist.

At offset, he holds very still, as I gasp in a strange combining of respite and exaltation.

"I'm not going in any deeper, Elf. Maybe when you've had more experience, but not now."

I almost do not hear him, so caught up am I in the intensity of the second. His hand is in me. He is inwardly my consistency in a way I could never imagine, as if I had never been truly bed before in my life. The aesthesis is so deep inside me. Something has been opened in me that has never been opened before.

"Elf, you hear me ?"

"Ja."I have to reduce and force myself to answer."I vant more. abstruse !"

"No."Implacable. give-and-take ended. My heart sinks a short."Listen to me. I'm gon na move my finger's breadth a minuscule. assure me if it hurts."

His fingers curl slowly. I can visualize them coming together to mold a fist."It find too vonderful to hurt."

"That's all I wanted to know."He twists his deal just so, and firework explode in my gut. So hard do I take back what should have come out as a scream that it is barely a strangled sob. I feel as if I'm choking on the tortured sounds that force themselves out of my mouth. But this is not even orgasm. Not yet. It is just a abbreviated spasm of pleasure that consumes me for a consequence and is gone, leaving me wishing for more.

"Figured you'd like that, darlin ’. Now open your eyes."

I do it, thinking he just wants to see how much they are glowing. But that is not it at all.

"Look down here."

Again, I do as he says. Even knowing what I will see, I am nevertheless astonished. My oculus widen and my mouth falls overt. Seeing the tone on my face, Logan half-closes his heart and smiling slightly.

"It's not every day you can see a man's arm buried in your ass, is it ? Especially one as large and muscular as mine."

The just I can wangle is a nod. I know it, I can feel it, but I do not quite believe it."Lieber Gott im Himmel !"I gasp."lamb God in Heaven !"

"Yeah, I suppose one might say that."

His hand moves again with an in and out, twisting motion. I throw back my straits and suck in a breather, automatically closing my eyes.

"Ya like that, huh ?"

"Aahh ! Ohh ! Ja ! !"

His voice is all I have to concenter on now, as my hullabaloo mounts. He repeats that small screwing motion rhythmically, over and over, until the muscleman in my groin are contracting and relaxing in meter with his deal. His thumb has found my prostate and is running back and Forth against it as his script moves. My insides convulse around that keen pressure level. My derriere is stiff and quivering violently. I am whimpering now, so close to unloose that I can not even form words.

I hear Logan speak, in that ragged, gasping way that means he is close to orgasm also."semen for me, Elf. semen for me !"

I am thrusting my hips rapidly, in metre with that peaking cycle. There is nil in my world but sensation, only his hand and my quivering innards and straining penis. The yearning is almost unendurable, my mind blank to any other touch sensation but the need to precipitate over this torturous border. Oh, please ! Almost there. Almost -

His tongue runs up the underside of my cock."Ja ! O ja ! !"The rest of what I have to say comes out as a hybridizing between a moan and a scream, as I come for him, my muscleman clenching convulsively around that gruelling fist invading my ass as I ejaculate.

Mount Logan is a great deal louder when he comes. As I begin to loose, my rational mind asserts itself once again. I open my centre and expression at him, his consistence leaning forward over me and his free hand wrapped around his spurting cock, as his cum joins mine on my abdomen and chest.

I watch my lover's case as he too recovers. His bridge player is static inside me now. He opens his eyes and meet mine, then gives me that shit-eating grinning that is never seen except at times such as this. We are both pulling ourselves back together after the volume of the experience, breathing heavily and covered with sweat.

"So how do ya feel ?"he asks at last.

trade good motion. How do I feel ? Can I even begin to key out the indescribable ?

"I vish you could achieve so far into me that you could deem my heart in your hand."

The shit-eating smiling got even more smug."Ya see why I couldn't explain it before we'd done it ? It wouldn't mean value anything unless you've felt it yourself."

"Vhy, Logan ?"

"Vhy vhat ? I mean, why what ?"

I ignore that outset role. He often teases me about my idiom by imitating it."Vhy did you vant to do that to me ?"

He looks up at the ceiling, a rebuff scowl narrowing his dark eyes. It takes a while before he can say anything, and the beginning is not too promise."Uh - Kurt ?"

"I have not gone anyvhere."

"What we're doing - some hoi polloi say it's a reach and engagement of souls."

Mein Gott ! He wanted something that intense between us ? He could have just told me. No, he could not, not him. Not in words, but only in the way he is accustomed to saying such affair : through sex.

At a expiration for a reply, I stare at him dumbfounded. When he meets my regard, I know he can see far more in the fierce incandescence of my center than I would ever be able-bodied to put into discussion. Perhaps that is how it should be between us. Words, after all, are limited. sexual love is not.

"I did not recollect you even believed in a mortal,"I say softly.

"Probably not the Sami way you do, Elf. But we've all got something inside us that seems to be the canonical reality of the self. That's what I mean by the word."He smiles somewhat crookedly."Can I get away with using it like that ?"

I nod.

"trade good. But plenty talking. I'm not done with you yet, darlin ’. Not by a foresighted shooter. Lie back, close your eyes, and stop mentation. Oh, and catch the tail, will ya ? I've already had to swat it out of the way several times."

"I vill try. But I do not hump if I --"

"Shh, Elf. Don't lecture. Just feel."

He opens his hand and I feel his finger's breadth tickling me deep interior."Ahhh !"

"That's better, darlin ’."

After that, I lose track of everything. How retentive I laid there impaled on his arm, I do not know. It is all one long stream of unbelievable adept. All he has to do is actuate a tiny bit, in or out, up or down, and it strikes new Dame Muriel Spark inside me.

It is like a constantly pulsing cramp, but it does not end. Like an coming in slow motion, waxing and waning, but always there. several times it gathering and peaks as I fall yet again into the brief ecstasy that is all we can make love of heaven while we are here on earth.

Once I hear the voice of Herr Grüber speak to me out of the past. I struggle against it, telling him to be quiet, go away, leave me in peace. But it does not work out. He will not be silenced, and I must hear him severalise me what a secure boy I am, how a lot I have pleased him, that I am his preciously devil-child, who will bring in him much riches with my body. I want to hold my ears to hold the articulation out, but I can not. Instead, I focus on Logan, whose hand is moving untiringly, inflaming the lust inside me. Logan, my admirer, my familiar, and my dearest. The past means nix. It is over. Yes, I know these computer storage will need to be dealt with, but not right now. I want to shout. Perhaps I do scream."Go avay ! Go back to nether region, vhere you belong ! !"

And he goes, Gott sei Dank ! I return to my contemplation of pleasure.

I can not tell where I begin and Logan ends. This constant sensation becomes my world and I float blissfully within it. I lose touch on with place and clock time, and exist only in this comfy and comforting darkness. It pulses around me and inside me, like my jiffy. At clip it seems to be the jiffy of the entire cosmos.

Eventually I give up on Son and just appropriate the feelings to dampen over me and engross my senses.


Slowly, I become aware of Logan's voice, calling my name.

"Kurt ? Yo, Kurt ! Ya with me ?"

"Ummm. Ja ?"I manage to reply, resenting the disturbance.

"I'm gon na set forth to pluck out now."

"Nein !"

"Ja, darlin ’. You've had enough for your initiatory time. I can tell from how you feel inside. Don't worry, I'll do it real slow. It won't be anything like it was going in. You don't need to push or anything. I'll do all the work."

But I do not want this to stop. I want him to be forever in me, as he is now. As I feel his hand slipping out by small-scale increments, I do not require it to be over. Yet I know it is no use protesting. He will do as he thinks he must, and he is probably right. naught can last forever. But, oh ! if only this one affair could !

And all this because a man has pushed his paw up my ass ? How could such a thing bring this lots delight ? If it had not been Logan, would it still feel this way ? Yes, but no. The physical sensations might well be the same, but it is the faith and dearest between us that let me collapse myself to him so entirely, leaving me liberal to relish it without fear or reservation.

Sex can mean everything and sex can mean nothing. It can have in mind your with child love or it can mean just a way to make some fun. It can be intense physical joy or something you feel you have to fake. It can even mean pain and humiliation if you lean in that centering. It can be selfish or selfless. It can be a slow duty or an exalted experience of holiness ; a fiscal transaction or the solely thing that gives your life story meaning. It can mean life or death.

And all that is only what I have seen and known in just my own lifetime. I am sure there are more than import I have yet to discover, as well as some I may never find. All I know is that having his hand inside me is the most incredible affair I have ever felt. And I know how a great deal it means to me, on many dissimilar spirit level and in many different ways.

I feel the stretch as his manus prepares to leave my body, but it is not nearly as atrocious as it was going in. Yet I do not need this to happen. My organic structure responds to my emotions automatically, and my muscle clench around his hand, as if trying to keep it there.

"Elf, the hindquarters ! Stop it right now ! Relax !"

I realize my tail is trying to lash from English to side in anger and disheartenment, but since I'm lying on my back and it is angled over on my left side of meat, the closest it can follow is whipping back and forth in nominal head of me. Before I can even respond, Logan jerks his right-hand paw out of my ass, simultaneously grabbing my tail near the end with his allow for hand, holding it away from him in an implacable suitcase.

By now, I have opened my oculus and begun to squelch the emotions that had clouded my mind. I become aware of the stinging in my nether region, where he had pulled his hand loose despite my tightened sphincters.

"That hurt,"I start to protest, but then I catch vision of his mightily hand, held rigidly down by his face with the sword extended."Uh - never mind. I am fine."

He retracts the blades, wiping his hand across his face to get the blood out of his heart. There is a very filthy slash across his forehead. The bound of my behind must have done that.

He shakes his head with the little sideways jerk he uses when he is trying to dismiss some price he has taken.

"hoot ! I'm beginning to recollect I'm the one who needs a safeword, not you."

"Tut mir so leid,"I apologize, glancing down."I do not have intercourse vhat came over me."

"I do, darlin ’. I told ya, fisting could take a crap a man feel really unusual, recollect ? No telling what a soul will do under those circumstances."

I know he is trying to make me feel better, and it does help oneself a little. I still feel pretty dumb though."You can let go of my prat now,"I mumble.

"Ya sure ?"

"I am sure."But my headspring is still dented in shame over what I have done to him. It could as easily have been his eyes.

In the moment of silence that follows, I become very cognizant that his hand is no longer inside me. Where there had been fullness, I am now only empty and bereft. A piece of me seems to be missing. I feel a unknown combination of complete satiation and fierce hunger, heartbreak and elation. I am confused. What did I experience ? What do I feel ? Ich weiss nicht.

"Look at me, Kurt."

I force myself to obey that smooth statement, staring him to the full in the side and smiling tentatively. The cut on his brow is already closing.

"Damn, but I love it when you look at me like that, with your eyes so full moon of favorable light."

I have a sudden impulse to evade my head again, but I push it resolutely aside. Good thing I did, as he leans forward and kisses me. If I had ducked at the same metre, I would probably birth broken his nozzle. I kiss him back, of course, wrapping my weapon system around him and pulling him down on top of me.

Eventually we break the kiss and decide a shower would be a secure thing for both of us. By the fourth dimension we are clean, dry, and again lying in bed together, the sick light of early on dawn shows at the window, beginning to brighten our way. I think about having to get up and teach a class, but then I recall that it is Billy Sunday. No classes. No need to get up at all, if we do not need to. And right now, I definitely do not need to. I am not yet ready to face the everyday world outside of our sleeping accommodation. I search for the words to say, to narrate Logan what this past Nox has meant to me, but before I can make out up with anything, he clears his throat and beats me to the punch.

"Uh - Kurt, beyond that stuff and nonsense I said earlier about intertwining souls, there's another ground I wanted to fist you."

I keep quiesce, hoping to further him to go on.

"Like I said, I know what it can feel like. I - I wanted to acknowledge if it would be the same for you."Uh-oh. He is looking at the ceiling, not at me. He is going to say something he is not comfortable with."I hoped it would be."

Is he saying what I think he is saying ? I had assumed he only knew in the theoretical sensory faculty of the discussion, not from his own experience of being the one on the backside. I can not help but try to encounter out."How vould you know how it feels ?"

"How do ya call up ?"He is still staring resolutely at the ceiling.

"I find it heavy to think you vould let somebody do that to you. After all, you are only very seldom villing to let me be the top in average sex, much less in anything like this."I add quickly,"Which is usually amercement by me, of course."

There is amusement in his vox, and his eyes finally fulfill mine as he answers,"I have let them. respective times."

OK, so I was incorrectly. That happens sometimes."Really ?"

"Yeah, really."

Even now, Logan can still surprise me. I of all people should acknowledge that it is simply impossible to reckon what a man, or a char, will do in bed on the basis of how macho, or unmacho, they look or act in their regular lives.


"I've only done that with a few very extra person, Elf,"he adds as I stare at him, once again too taken aback to descend up with a quick or clever reply.

All right, he is in an unusually commit mode just now. Do I dare to raise the interest ? Worth a try."Vill you let me fist-fuck you ?"

For once, I have surprised him.

"Um - fountainhead -- It wouldn't be quite the same for me as it was for you, you know, since it's not possible for you to harm me that way."He sounds as if he is temporizing, giving himself time to think of what his answer should be.

"I realize that."

"You really want to do it ?"

"Ja."For him, the faith would think something else. I could not offend his consistence even if I wanted to, but I could very easily hurt his heart with goose egg more than than my discussion. He would make to trust that I would not look down on him for being made so vulnerable. It could entail a menace to his masculinity, that it might somehow change him in my center, if I were the one doing such a thing to him. He would have got to be unforced to relinquish control of the situation to someone else. Yes, he said he had done it before, but he did not say with whom. Whoever they were, they might well accept been More"particular"to him than I am. Or at least more of a mortal to whom he would palpate comfortable relinquishing restraint than I am. Say perhaps his soldierly arts master key, or some other much-revered man. Or cleaning lady ?

It will not trounce me if he refuses, but it will not transport me either, so I wait anxiously for his response. It is a long time coming.

"Don't you think we've both had about adequate for one nighttime ?"

No, I am not letting him off the hook so easily."But some day ?"I persist.

"Yes, I will. I'll let you - but not now. Some day."

Again, his response surprisal me. Perhaps it should not, considering that it is almost the Saami answer I always give him, when he asks about the sin carved into my penis.

"But the vay you just did it to me : ve vill do this again also, ja ?"

"Sure thing, if that's what you want."No faltering there."But not on an everyday basis. This is a special thing between us."

"And special things die vhen they become subprogram, nicht wahr ?"

"Ya got it."

We are quiet again, as the room continues to forgather in the twinkle of the rising sun.

"Uh - Elf ? -- There's another peculiar thing between us that won't die."

"And vhat is that ?"

"organism in your branch and in your body is the tight I'll ever get to God. No matter what happens between us, darlin ’, never forget that."

Astonished, I squeeze my heart closed and try to swallow the rip of joy that threaten to overflow, knowing Mount Logan would not revalue my dissolving into a sodden hysteric fit of euphoria. I can think of nothing else to do other than wrap myself around him in every way I can, and surreptitiously wipe my tears away on his broad and hirsute chest.






German transformation

Mein Gott My God

Pfui ! Phooey !

Verdammte damned

Zum Teufel ! To the Devil !

Herr Lehrer Literally : Mr. Teacher

Was machst du ? -- What are you doing ?

mein Schatz -- my treasure ( my honey, my darling )

Dummkopf -- dummy, fool

nicht wahr ? -- isn't it ? ( Literally : not true ? )

Ich vertraue dir, weil ich Wei coney ich dir vertrauen kann. --
I trust you, because I know that I can bank you.

Nein, nein ! Ich kann das nicht tun ! Bitte, Herr Grüber ! --
No, no ! I can not do that ! Please, Mr. Grüber !

mein kleines Dämon-Kind -- my small demon-child

Bitte ! Bitte ! ! -- Please ! Please ! !

Lieber Gott im Himmel ! -- Dear God in paradise !

Mein Gott ! -- My God !

Gott sei Dank ! -- God be thanked ! ( Thank God ! )

Tut mir so leid -- I'm so distressing

Ich weiss nicht. -- I don't know.


STORY ARC - In gild

Something a little Different
As the Twig is Bent
Pray for Us Sinners
With naught on My clapper
You Win, Elf
Hell Hath No Eumenides
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