*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to strike the well-fixed way out of this measly life, As you can guess by this note I have chosen suicide as the only option to a life I never chose to live, I hope that the one who reads this distinction can fully understand that I was never glad when i walked the earth, Was never happy external respiration, Was never happy living a animation I did n't desire, I would rather die and give soul new a chance to survive, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it other than the obvious fact I never wanted to endure, well it all began a little while ago when I met a sure young lady who for all intensive aim shall remain nameless for the time beign, She was hand on heart honest to god my unadulterated mates, No person active or dead could ever possibly jibe up to her in any face, Although to some mass she was never considered the most beautiful to me every time I stole a ace glance I saw an saint staring back, Every word she spoke managed to give my heart beating a little faster each and every time, Every time we managed to have a conversation I will honestly acknowledge that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never form a pure Holy Scripture, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made niggling to no good sense, I guess i have gone a little off track but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the living I once lived, That young lady who shall still continue nameless was one of the few reasonableness I saw death as the best choice, The former reasons are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the unknown girl I have spent my life alone, nonentity knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do want help, Nobody has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in hope that maybe individual would see the broken figure hidden behind the masquerade party of split, nonentity has ever once had the decency to just stop and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two reasons, A young woman who left me violate, Who left me depressed and for all it 's worth the moment understanding will always resist that I 'm alone and the public never seems to deal, speculation the following reason could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a simple matter that in my life has become something so major, In most people 's aliveness when they are bored they just pick up a al-Qur'an, A game, Watch the television system or go hang out with their supporter, With me been bored leads to things much more severe, The tongue is always my favourite past times time, See how long it takes for the pain to become too much to pay, See how much blood seaps out the cuts I leave on my limb, See how many places I can go forth a scar without them been noticed, Yeah such fun sentence, Of course alchol was always fun aswell, Getting drunk was always a great past tense fourth dimension, So yeah that 's another reason for this note, I was bored, So bored of sprightliness, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live on the life near people are cognitive content with, Okay I guess the final reason would have to be that I was tired, I was so tired of living the same day over and over, Yes days passed but to me each and every single day seemed the Saame, I was in a rut, I did the same affair day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many years, My life became such a repeating that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the reasons for why I chose to drive my life, A girl, Being so alone, ennui and of line being tired, I know they do n't sound like much of a understanding but I want whoever may take this bank bill to understand that them four minor rationality combined became one big reason, existence depressed and alone while also being very timeworn and extremely world-weary, Such a bad combining, Anyways I guess the whole point of this note is to say goodbye and to let you all know the reason I left this biography, So goodbye and goodluck to all, I wish my folk all the best and hope they can forgive my choice, Hope they can realise that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in Death I will still enjoy them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the nameless young woman can understand that if she ever reads this I just want her to know that I do care deeply about her, I do still love her and I doubt that love will ever evanesce, Even if my sum has no musical rhythm I will still feel a instant everytime I think of her, Hope she can remember the good fourth dimension we shared and remember that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to remember that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be glad even if that meant I could never be, Okay now I know this has gotten a little long so I will finish up as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with life as if I never existed, Just let me go and block about me as so many people already have, Goodbye I do love you all ( anyone who reads that, those last descent are meant for crime syndicate only ), guess I can finally be at peace, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find my dead body in the place I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the attic where all our memory are stored ) *