My commencement dearest


Part 1


I was starting my first semester of college in 1985 and was frightened and lonely. All my friends had gone to other schools or started working and they all were chasing girls like crazy. I was n't. I had tried desperately to have a girlfriend in senior high school but I knew I was living a lie. I just was n't attracted to young woman they way my friends were. I thought some lady friend were pretty, but once I look beyond the face I just was n't interested. I was too scared to approach any guys and went to a very small rural district. I did not think any other cat were like me.


I knew I was gay when my booster and I decided to camp down one weekend. I was changing into a bathing suit and my ally entered the tent and started to change also. He was my most attractive champion and I tried desperately not to look but being in that tent naked with him for a few seconds drive me loony. I did n't do or say anything. But I thought about that moment a lot.


Spanish people was my first category and I sat in the back row. I petite Cy Young man sat beside me and I glance over. He had dark black whisker and slightly blench skin. He still wore couple on his teeth and when he caught my eye he smiled and said `` hi. ``


I said how-do-you-do and teacher started attendance. He answered to salvia Conner. I had never met a boy named sage before. His articulation was higher pitched than mine and it sounded lovely. The course of instruction went well and when I was walking out I heard a voice behind me.


'' What did you reckon ? '' It was sage and he moved up beside me and we walked together. I told him my epithet was Jimmy and this was my number one class.


'' Do you hold up on campus ? '' He asked and kept grinning at me. I was starting to think he was flirting with me but that could not be dead on target. I lived at household and commuted to school. I got to the end of the base on balls and was hoping he would bide with me, but he had a class and move around the other way. The succeeding class was in two Day and I counted down the time to see him again. We chatted a niggling before category and when the professor told us to split in partners we joined up. He sat across from me and we practice pronunciation. I stared into his eyes and was getting a big crush on him. He was so cute. He had died a very minor plot of land of his tomentum a very dark purple so it was barely noticeable. I notice it. I notice everything about him. How he rolled he eyes after making a misunderstanding and how he held his hired hand in front of his mouthpiece like he was embarrassed of his duo.


when course of study was over he asked for a drive to his student residence room. I could n't believe my luck. He climbed into my car and i drove him the few occlusion to the campus houses.


'' Thanks, Jimbo '' he said and tapped my articulatio genus with my hand, then got out of the car. It was the weekend and the view of not seeing him for three years made me sick. He stopped, came back to the car and leaned in


'' Hey you want to hangout this Sat night ? ``


I could n't think it. `` sure as shooting that 'd be cool off '' I said not trying to sound overly anxious.


'' filling me up at 7:00 sharp '' he said and winked at me.


'' okey I 'll be here. '' He walked up the sidewalk and then call on to wait at me. We waved and smile and I think he winked again. I was I love.


When I drove up to the dorm he was waiting outside for me. He had a inkiness crownwork on and black jeans. He got into the car and I felt underdressed. I could reek his cologne and he had styled his hair with some moose. He looked a bit effeminate but that turned me on. It made me think we were thinking the Saame thing. We first went to a movie and I felt lofty having this beautiful boy by my side. We set in the dark and our weapon system touched a few times. God I wish he aim my hand. When the movie was over we are at a food for thought royal court in theater. We talked a little about the moving picture and out Spanish division. His groundwork suddenly tapped mine under the table and I blushed.


'' Let 's get out of here. ``


We got to the car and sat in the darkness. I did n't have sex what to say.


'' You okay ? '' He asked and looked at me.


'' Yea I 'm fine. I. ``. I stopped and Sage moved a little closer. `` I not for sure what this is ? ``


Sage knew what I was talking about. He looked at me and told me it was whatever I wanted it to be.


'' I 've never done, ''. He stopped me with a kiss. It happened so loyal I was in jar. He backed away and my heart raced. He look gorgeous sitting there and I still tasted him on my backtalk. I think we wore a little lip color.


'' Was that okay ? '' He asked.


I nodded. So that what this was. I drove back to the residence hall and we car a second.


'' I want to kiss you again, but soul might see. '' I understood and nodded. He placed his hand on my leg and scratch me a little. I grew excited.


'' I 'll see you Mon ``. I smiled and said goodbye.


I hated Billy Sunday. I was so miserable I could n't stomach it. I had to see sage. I drove to the hall and asked the dorm attendant for his room number. salvia answered the doorway and smiled. He was all. alone. His dorm roommate had a girlfriend and was n't around much. I sat on the bed beside him and he locked the door. I reached out to hold his paw but he kissed me first. This time I kissed back. I could n't believe how much I liked it. We kept kissing with short diffuse ghost and then he finally kept his mouth against mine and opened his lips. His spit touched mine and I push it back a little. Daniel Chester French caressing was new to me so I was doing my best. I opened my mouth further and let his unanimous lingua in my mouth. I could feet his braces on my spit and that made me giggle. He then grabbed my chief and he started to make out like teenager after the prom. Our heads moved, our back talk touched and our spit wrestled. I could n't believe the passion. My erection embarrassed me but Sage look at my swollen-headed bloomers and smile. He rubbed my leg then our sass parted.


'' Let 's get out of here ''. We left the dorm and went to my car. I asked him where he wanted to go and he said somewhere private.


'' Stop by a convenience computer memory first so I can get something. '' I obeyed and he ran into the store quickly and came out with a pack of gum. He then asked me to go to hamburger drive through so we could get something to eat. We got cheeseburgers and nose candy and ate while I drove. I headed out of town toward the res publica common close to the lake I lived by. sage finished his burger and actually rested his head in my lap. I could believe it. I looked down and his beautiful typeface stared up at me.


When we got to the parkland I parked on the most secluded area and pushed the sit back a bit. He continued to lay there then finally spoke.


'' Let 's get in the back nates ''


We did and sat close to each other. The spirit of oleaginous food was strong and it unify with Sages cologne. He looked at me and kiss me softly. We were parked under some large cottonwood trees and it felt very private.


He kissed me again, this clip on the neck. I ran my digit through his rough-cut shameful hair as he continued to kiss my neck My erection was intolerable. He stopped and looked at me.


'' Do you want to go further, or waiting till another day ? '' I did n't answer but reached out and unbuttoned his shirt. He did the same with me. I could n't believe we were undressing each other. We placed our shirts on the front end tail end and continued to kiss. Out bare chests touching each other drove me mad. Sage scooted down and lay down on his back. I was on top of him and continued to kiss him. He reached down and unbuttoned his pants. I looked into his eyes with Passion of Christ. I pulled on his pants and stared at his blue brief. I could n't breath. He reached down and pushed his Jockey shorts down. His penis was erect and i could n't demand my optic off of it. I did n't know if he was big or average, I had n't seen any other beside my own. I lowered my head and put it in my mouth. It was salty and exciting. sage moaned as I started to breastfeed and fellate it. He place his hand on my psyche and I continued. It was amazing. He pushed my question up and told me to take my pant down. I sat up and pushed my pant down. Sage lowered his header and took me in his mouth. I could n't believe. This was what life was about. Sharing pleasance with someone you loved. He continued for a few minutes then stopped. He sat up and took my chin in my handwriting. Neither one of us had ejaculated so I did n't get laid why he stopped. He pushed his jeans all the way off and sat there completely naked. He put his paw on my cheek and whisper.


'' Do you want to go all the way ? '' I kissed his cheek and answered. I want to do everything you want. I pushed my pants off and Sage lay on his back. He reached down into his bloomers pocket and produced the secondly affair he had purchased. A small bottleful of Lube. He unscrewed the top and tuned the lubricator on my erection. Then he rubbed his bottom.


'' Do we need rubber ? '' I asked. He looked at me with a sober glare. He asked if I had ever been with anyone else. Of course of instruction I had not.


'' jimmy we have to be totally honest about this. '' I told him about the two daughter I had kissed in high school but that was all. He had only been with a girl but had never had sex with her. He lay there raw and his erection had softened. I stared at his naked body and soft member surrounded by a hillock of hair. It was so incredible, but I really did n't know what to do. prize grabbed his wearing apparel and pushed them under his bottom. He spread his pegleg and raised them. I got on top of him and tried to guide my erection into him. He rolled back further but we could connect.


'' Hold on '' he said and kissed me again. He tossed the clothes down and rolled over. His bottom was inviting me. I got on top and push. salvia moaned a little but slowly accepted it. My tip penetrated the seal then I felt fully connected. I could n't believe I was one with sage. I started to move slowly and he moaned a little more. I knew it would n't take long and i was right. I ejaculated fully inside him. I felt like my inside had left my trunk and entered his. We breathed deeply together and I lay on top of him. I kissed his ear and he turned and kissed me. I whispered in his ear that I loved him and and he replied the same. I sucked on his ear and could n't believe the joy we had together. We sat up naked beside each early and kissed. Our penises were both limp and our physical structure moist but I could n't take my eyes off him. We got dressed but substitution underwear. He wanted to keep back mine for secure lot. We kissed some more than decided it was time to get back. He laid his question on my lap again and actually feel asleep. I woke him two blocks from the dorm and gave him a candy kiss. I flicked my clapper on his and told him I loved him again. I was in love for the first off clip.


The succeeding day after class we drove to the closest Warren Earl Burger articulation and ate a lunch. Sage told me he had to get out of the dormitory because other we 're starting to card him for being fag. He wanted us to impress into an apartment together but we could n't yield that. Sage lived too far away to convert but I told him I had a idea. Maybe he could live at my house and pay a modest rent defrayment. I spoke with my mom that evening.


'' Why is he leaving the dorms ? '' He asked.


'' He does n't like it there. He 's kind of shy and he does n't fit in. He 's my friend, I want to aid him for awhile. '' Mom was loth at first but I told her he would leave if it did n't work out. We moved salvia the side by side day and I told Sage to act as heterosexual as possible. I was a longsighted way from telling mom the verity.


He wore a t shirt and jean and was polite and kind to my parents and immature sister Sarah who was 12. My dad did n't say much to Sage and I was worried he may cause suspected something, but I may have been paranoiac. We were tired from moving but played gymnastic horse with my sis before dinner. We lived in a cattle ranch nation home on the border of a small lake. We were only minutes from where sage and I fell in lovemaking. Sarah kept looking at sage when we played and he teased her when she missed a slam. I was almost fully subject. My new boyfriend was befriending my baby. I only wish we could be truthful about everything. We we finished sage grabbed Sarah 's shoulders as we went inside and she giggled. During dinner my parents were silence but Sarah did all the talking. She asked him about his living and girlfriends. Sage was truthful as potential without giving away the obvious. She kept looking at sage and I realized my sis Sarah had the same taste in boys and that made me laugh.


Sage took a shower after dinner and was standing in his room In a towel. Iwalked in and exclude the threshold behind me. I could take my eyes off his wet body. His pilus was wet also and looked amazing. I was worried that having him around might be toughened than I imagined. Sage removed the towel and started to dry his hair. I was watching his tush and he turned and he was slightly firmly. The door opened and Sarah entered abruptly. Her middle widened as she stared at Sage 's penis.


'' Sarah ! '' I yelled and she screamed"I 'm good-for-nothing"three times as she ran out.


'' I 'll go talk to her ''. I told Sage and I followed Sarah down the hall


She was standing alone and started crying. She was so chagrined. `` Sarah break off crying you did n't do anything wrong. ''


I told her to always pink before entering my room or Sages because she needed to respect our privacy.


Sage had the room two doors down from mine and it locked from the exterior. That would be Handy. He could forget the room, lock it and mistake into my elbow room and no one could check. That starting time night that 's exactly what he did. Thirty minutes after every went to bed I heard salvia shut his door and curl it. My door then opened slowly and he walked into the darkness. He was wearing only a t shirt and briefs. He carefully shut the door and locked it. He put his elbow room key in my dresser. I was lying in bed bare. I pulled off the plane but he motioned for me to get out of the bed. I did so and he took off his shirt and briefs. We both sat naked on the carpet in my room in the darkness. I could believe how aphrodisiacal it was. We did n't speak. I had my back to the bed and he had his binding resting against my desk. We were both hard and just stared at each other. His foot was resting on top of mine. That 's the only affair that trace. He reach up and started to stroke his erection. I did what he did. He then licked his mitt and strtoked it more. I imitated his every motility. We sat there in the night masturbating in sync. The moonlight shone in and created erotic shadows of our delight. I was about to arrive and punt off just in time. Sage then laid down on the floor on his side. I Maneuvered myself over to him so we could take away each other in our mouths. We sucked gently as quietly trivial auditory sensation of pleasure emanated from our oral cavity.
Sage then moved onto his back and I got on my limb and legs and we continues you suck each other. Then sage surprised me. His let go of my penis and moved up past tense my testicles. He licked them on the way to his objective and started licking my anus. I could n't conceive it. I had never heard of doing that. I moaned loudly and Sage paused. He waited while me then started again. I was trying to work up the nerve to regress the favor. I did jump to lick his testicles and he seemed to like that. I just could n't get past the taboo of going promote. He stopped and stood up. We still did n't utter. He gripped my pillows and tossed them on the floor. He layed down and placed his hind end on the pillows. This helped arch his ass up. I reached under the bed and pulled out a bottle of Lube. I rubbed some in my hand then on on penis. Sage arched further up and I rubbed some on his bottom. The intimacy was unbelievable. I got between his legs and put my hands under both legs. I pushed the tip of my erection into him. He moaned and my tip moved past the rim. We were engaged. I started to move carefully and he moaned. I developed a calendar method and we seemed synced. It lasted a little while then I ejaculated inside him. I lowered myself and Sage put the pillows under our heads. We feel asleep on the floor without faces looking at each former.


When I awoke it was already light out and Sage was still beside me. I pushed him awake and we both stood up naked. We dressed quickly and I cracked the room access. No one was awake and Sage slipped back into his room. I went into the bathroom and cleaned up. When I came out Sarah was standing outdoors looking at me in my underwear. They were sage briefs. enthusiast than mine. She laughed and I went back to bed.


This became our normal routine. He would infix my room and we would prosecute in erotic sex. I could not think my fortune. The third nighttime sage got on his hand and stifle and I took him behind. I liked that. It was more comfortable for me. Sometimes we came more than once, but I never pulled out.


The fourth night I finally got the heart to lick his anus. He whispered to me that he was unclouded and I gently touched his rim with my tongue. I enjoyed the intimacy of the act and sage moaned.


The next aurora my female parent cornered me when we were alone.


'' Jimmy. I know what 's going on. ``


'' What do you mean. ``


'' Mothers sleep illumination, honey. It 's in our DNA. I hear the quiet room access closing. The soft interference, the voicelessness. '' She had a tear in her eye. `` I always suspected it. But I should have known sound than to let him in the business firm. I do n't want you to get grim. I do your laundry. Do n't you mean I do n't see and sense it ''


I was so abash. I did n't know what to say. `` It 's only the two of us mom. We wo n't get sick. ''


'' Do you need us to leave. '' I made sure I said us.


She shook her head. `` Do n't let your Fatherhood find out."


That night Sage entered my room and I wanted to try something dissimilar. We kissed each other with our mouths wide open and tongues dancing on early. I lowered myself to his lap and suck him until he came. I swallow most of the semen but still had the perceptiveness of him in my rima oris. I raised up to kiss him, but he resisted. I stared at him in the moonshine and leaned in a again and whispered
'' Just a appreciation dear '' and he let me kiss him gently at first, then deeper.


I probed his lip with his smell in my tongue and he seemed to enjoy it. He laid down and started to raise his ass but I pushed him aside. I laid down in his convention position and I offered my ass to him. He reached down and gently spread the warm tingly lube on me and I realized i was in for something extra. He brought his penis to my ass I moaned much too loudly. He crossed the sphincter muscle and I knew we were engaged tightly. and he made love to me gently. I was surprised how much I liked it. When he ejacualted I could finger the warm semen leak from my anus as Sage held me from behind. I did n't need to leave my room so we slept together in my bed. I woke him up with a buss and we started to kiss deeply again. We moved to the floor and he got on his work force and legs and I took him behind. He moaned deeply and I filled him with my succus. We opened the door and Sarah stood there and giggled at us. I could still smell out the semen and enquire what she thought. I reached out and tousled her hairsbreadth and Sage leaned down and kissed her cheek.


'' It 's a mysterious honey ''. And Sarah blushed. I trusted my sister. We had a deep adhesiveness and she would never betray me.


The next morning before leaving for school Sarah sat on the sofa and salvia and I sat close because my parents had left. She watched us in enchantment.


She blushed then asked"What 's it like ? ``


'' What do you mean,"salvia asked


'' To be in love, what 's it kind. I bet it 's grand ''. We smiled and I grabbed salvia helping hand.


'' It is honey and thanks for not telling ``


"I want to hang in bang some day. '' she said.


"You will honey."I replied and touch her cheek.


salvia leaned over and kiss me and she blushed again. I was totally happy and also worried. How long can this type of happiness last ?