Anxiousness To Triumph To Heartbreak : My First


Erotica, First-Time, Masturbation
Chapter One

My name is Jason. I 'm a 22 year old fourth-year at a state university located way up in the batch. My freshman twelvemonth I joined a sodality because I was an exceptional juicer. I was far from a distinctive fraternity boy, but the estimation of having a kernel group of friends to party with was very appealing to an 18 year old me. My social living was fairly strong during my firstly three years of college. I had a lot of ally and was well known around campus.

My elder class I was elected president of my fraternity. I ran on the platform of governing through maturity. There were a lot of damaging things that my fraternity got into and I wanted to clip that. I wanted my fraternity to be more community oriented and less degenerate oriented. Some mass liked my glide slope, some people saw me as a stick in the mud. I did not care. It was the vision I had since I saw the degradation my freshman yr. Becoming such a polarizing figure in the Greek community of interests garnered me a lot of newfound interest from some of the sorority girls. For three age sorority girls were a cohort that I greatly failed to understand. They 're all around lack of shame perplexed me and I often found them to be much too forward for me.

Since I can recollect interacting with girls was a awful experience. I never had a girlfriend in high school. I was just getting to the point where I could casually socialize with them toward the end of my heights school career. My difficultness with the opposition sex continued when I got to college. I thought for sure joining a fraternity would be the witching fix to my women trouble, but that fix never came.

entrant twelvemonth came and went and I had no real view. When I was sober I was refining my social accomplishment with adult female, when I was wasted, I was making a chump of myself. By sophomore class my societal skills were well refined and I was make to finally break through. That never happened. When I would watch my friend seal the mountain I would take mental note of hand. Some of the things they would say though ... never in a million age would I have the assurance to emulate. So I remained dead because I did n't have a shred of game.

By Jr year I had lost a fair total of weighting and developed some close friendships with a few girl that dated champion of mine. I think they saw through me and knew I needed help. Through them I gained self-assurance that I could converse in a sexual manner with women ... even if they saw it as boozy banter. But for me it was invaluable recitation. By the end of my junior year I had managed to fasten a few escort.

They were n't with the best looking miss but I thought that would work to my advantage. I was hoping for a girl with down in the mouth self esteem than I had. Turns out that young woman that were more shy and awkward than me did n't present many opportunities for me to `` cash the v card '' as my frat boy friends would say. That 's right ... I was still a virgin by 20 days old. By the end of third-year year I had my maiden osculation. It sucked and I found the girl to be repulsive albeit not bad looking. Beggars can be choosers I guess.

Everything changed my senior year. I came back to schoolhouse only slightly overweight whereas I was very overweight my first gear few long time of college. I got two tattoos over summertime prisonbreak and drastically improved my wardrobe. I just moved into our new fraternity house about a quarter mile from campus. As president I had the first selection of rooms so I got the liberal with a balcony. Things were looking up for me. This had to be it. I always thought `` no way I could go to college a Virgo. '' Now my mindset is `` no way can I leave college a Virgo the Virgin. '' I was determined this was n't going to happen.

Move in day came and went. Lots of booze, lots of drugs, lots of slutty girlfriend walking around my house. The succeeding morning I was outside chipping golf Lucille Ball in the straw man yard when I saw a very shortstop, very tan lady friend coming down the outside stairs.

`` Hi Sydney '' I hollered. I recognized her as a genus Beta girl. She is quite attractive but it was well known that she made her way through our ranks with relative ease.

`` Holy shit, Jason, you look ... well, you look quite dissimilar. '' I could severalize she was n't about to jump my os but her stare lingered longer than I am accustomed.

`` Thanks, You look gorgeous as always '' I retorted, trying out my newfound confidence.

`` I do n't sense very gorgeous, I was so fucked up last night and I literally just rolled off of Paul 's cock. '' I cringed. How could this incredibly cute and innocent looking young lady be so unblushing ? I could n't believe of anything to say to that so I put my head down and went back to chipping balls.

Sydney broke the silence `` I do n't have anywhere I need to be, I just kinda figured Paul did n't require me to linger. Wan na hang out ? ``

`` Sure '' I said, not entirely certain what that entailed. `` We can hang up in the rec room or walk downtown and get breakfast. ``

`` Fuck that '' she said. `` I 'm stick, let 's go hang out in your way. '' At this breaker point I had a serious compositor's case of butterfly. I 've had girls in my room plentifulness of times but they were almost always accompanied by their young man. Leading the way, we walked back up the stairs and down the hall to my room. I immediately put on euphony and packed a trough in an attempt to circularize my mixer ineptness. Sydney, at this point, has her brake shoe off and was sitting on my bed.

'' Hey Jason, it 's too early on to listen to music. Let 's watch a movie. I just wan na slow down. '' I took a tenacious pull off the bowlful and passed it to her. As she took her own sizable drag I cued up one of the American Pie movies.

I took a seat in a chairperson opposite the bed, careful to give Sydney her space. She gave me a quirky look then motioned to the bed. She pulled her sweatshirt off and threw open the blanket. Sep mornings in the mountains can give rise an wrong chill, so I was n't surprise when I noticed the rock surd protrusion from her thin tee shirt. Either she did n't notice my gaze or could care less. At this period I was in uncharted soil. I never had a fille in my bed let alone a daughter that had a forestalling to sleep with any guy that gave her the tending she so desperately desired.

I awkwardly climbed into the bed staying on top of the blankets on the very edge of the queen regnant bed. Sydney was under the blankets enjoying the movie as well as the premium kush. I could n't center on the movie. I wanted to travel closer and get under the cover but I was so petrified of the electric potential results. So I did what I always do, I played the perfect gentleman and when the movie was over I handed Sydney her sweatshirt and escorted her out. She gave me a hug and thanked me for a nice morning and was on her way.

For the next several hr I analyzed the clash over and over and over. I was upset at myself for not making a move, but at the same time I was convincing myself that this was a strictly platonic encounter. Nevertheless I could n't help but finger relieved. If by chance I did bumble my way into Sydney 's gasp I know my confidential would be exposed. Noone knows I 'm a virgin. I have always lied to my friends. Either they believed me and just assume I do n't get laid a lot, or they just go along with it ... I do n't induce the answer to that. Had I had sex with Sydney she surely would have been able to differentiate I was a virgin and share that fact with her champion. By the end of the day all of the Greek residential area would have been privy to my hush-hush. Anyway, wagerer affair were on the horizon.

About 4:00 I heard loud medicine coming from the driveway. I headed out to investigate the beginning of the commotion. When I got outside I saw two of my roommates Nick and Ryan throwing the football game the length of the driveway. I decided a piddling recreation would be a good emphasis relief so I joined them. After about half an minute dent 's phone started ringing. He answered and held a brief conversation. After he tucked away his cellular telephone phone he took the ball and fired a laser right at me.

`` Let 's end on a good note, Claude Shannon and Allie are on their way over. They want to string up out ''

`` Ok '' I said. Having lived in a fraternity mansion for two age now I was used to multiple sets of girl spending time at our house daily. Shannon and Allie are Sigma girls that I 'm not very familiar with. I know they are a class below me but that 's about it. I went inside to freshen up a bit and grab a 12 pack of beer. By the time I got back out of doors Ryan had taken off for the night and snick was greeting the two young lady. I knew Shannon, she was trashy and a tad obnoxious ... typical sorority girl. She sported a nice tan, with yearn contraband haircloth. She was absolutely beautiful but true statement be told, she was a beef. I quickly turned my aid to her Quaker. I recognized her. I vaguely remember her from last year 's spring dinner dress. She went with a friend of mine. She was n't a 10, she was n't a smoke display, she was n't a bombshell, but she was the most beautiful girl I 've ever laid my optic on. She flashed me a mesmerizing smile.

`` Hey, I 'm Allie. '' I was speechless. After that perfect smiling all but melted me I gathered myself to take in her appearance in greater detail. She is n't the sorority type by any way. She wore blind drunk gym shorts and a baggy tee shirt. She is about 5'6. Not skinny but far from overweight. She had long shiny Brown University whisker that went half way down her back. While she wore no make-up her side was flawless with a near utter complexion. Her tegument was a beautiful shade of cream. Not pale but far from tan. The gym shorts she was wearing strained by an ass that was naught short of perfection. It was business firm and round and did n't render a hint of sag. This young woman was blessed. The t-shirt offered no indication of what may be beneath it until a hard wind blew her shirt, right across her chest. She had small breasts, probably an A cup. But they stood at attention like the rest of her perfectly portioned body.

I extended my hand to rock hers.

`` Hi, I 'm Jason. '' I did n't stammer, I did n't stammer. Even I could narrate that my quality exuded confidence. Allie grasped my paw. I made sure my travelling bag was firm but not too firm. I wanted to establish the printing that I 'm solid but know when to conduct my effectiveness. I could severalise it worked as Allie 's creamy skin colour flushed deep red.

Allie 's eyes fell to my Obama-Biden 2012 shirt and I could see her oculus tripping up.

`` I have to let in it 's nice to meet a imperfect guy on this campus. '' She nervously stammered awaiting my reaction. I knew this was my in and I could n't consume this opportunity. `` He 's a closet liberal '' Nick interjected as he slapped my ass on the way by. He and Shannon announced that they were heading up to his room for `` a second. '' Allie and I looked at each other smiling knowing they would be more than a minute.

`` Enjoy ... Jason and I will be out here discussing the socialistic takeover of America '' Allie chirped. I almost spewed out my beer at this overt physical exertion of sarcasm. right wing then and there I knew this girl was my vis-a-vis. We made our may over to the walkover tabular array where I took a seat. She did not sit across from me but rather directly next to me. She was so close our legs were almost touching.

`` How bout a beer ? '' I said hoping to not be the only one drinking.

`` How bout two '' Allie replied much to my delight. I fished into the cardboard box and grabbed her two beers. Without hesitating Allie cracked open a can and chugged it in two gulps.

`` Holy shit '' I said, thoroughly impressed.

`` I 'm just showing off, I do n't actually toast like that '' Allie replied, cracking another beer. I chugged my beer and cracked another beer. At this period I was very peculiar to see where this conversation would call for us. This female child is improbably assuredness and unbelievably hot. By now my natural selection instinct are kicking in and they are begging the head ... what 's the catch ?

We both nursed our mo beers, not wanting to impede conversation. Conversation with Allie was light. It was n't forced. It had a fluidity and a function that so many of my conversations with the diametric sex lacked.

She first wanted to have intercourse my political feeling and I was happy to plowshare them with her. It turns out that we were n't quite as aligned as I thought. Me being a check Democrat and her being a very liberal progressive. This led to several minutes of spirited debate and a little playful backchat. political science aside, the interrogative turned to a more personal nature. Turns out we are from towns only about 45 bit apart. We talked about high schooltime experiences, our friends, our reciprocal beloved of sports and beast. We talked about our crime syndicate, our life finish and finally we moved to our crowing commonality ; Greek life.

Allie, I learned, was a Junior that lived in an off campus flat by herself with her cat. She transferred last year from a private school that she hated.

`` To be honorable, I joined a sorority because I did n't have many booster at my last school and I thought this was my best shot at the normal college experience. '' All the while I 'm thinking to myself `` how the hell could this girl not relieve oneself admirer. '' As if she was reading my judgment she continued `` I do n't exactly have a lot of confidence in myself. I do n't imagine I 'm very sympathetic. I do n't like the girly miss stuff and nonsense and I do n't think I 'm very pretty. '' She finished abruptly as if a weight was lifted off her shoulders revealing this to me. She took another swig of beer and looked to me for my reaction to her Book of Revelation. It was my turn to even red.

`` I think you are good looking '' is all I could come up. Telling a slut like Sydney she was hot was well-situated but telling Allie she was pretty was so hard for me. My fear of rejection was showing itself. Allie did n't say anything, instead she took one more generous swig of beer and laid her head on my articulatio humeri. No give-and-take were needed. She was so close now that our stage were touching. My bare leg was resting against her smooth touchy skin. This was the penny-pinching contact I have ever had with a girl and my biological social function were not letting me forget it. I could finger my erection growing in my gym shorts. This presented a very ungainly possibility. Fortunately nick and Shannon came barreling down the stairs and jolted Allie 's read/write head straight up.

`` What 's up love birdie '' Nick hollered as Shannon smacked his arm.

`` Grow up Nick '' Allie snapped as she quickly rose from the picnic table. She glanced at her phone presumably to check the time. As Shannon and nick walked to the car, Allie bent down to where I 'm sitting and rested her script on mine. `` It was a pleasure to get to know you Jason, I 'll see you around. '' And with that she was off. I watched her walk the suddenly space to the car in thoroughgoing disbelief. Those were the most get minute I 've ever spent with a fair sex.

Resigned to the fact that she was gone, I gathered my beers and headed for my room. With the slightest bombination going on I stripped down to my boxers and got in bed. I pulled out my laptop and went to my favorite porn site. Thinking about Allie I slipped my workforce in my drawers and started playing with myself. I was determined to produce this a marathon jerk session. I scoured the smut champion varlet until I settled on one that closest resembled the newest object of my affection. Riley Thomas Reid. She had the same long brown hair, the same fat ass, the Lapp tiny tits and very similar nervus facialis features. She did n't lay out as sexy as Riley but I thought she was perfect. I watched a video of Riley masturbating with just her fingers. I did n't want to think about Allie having sex, I just wanted to fantasize about the purity of her consistence. Thinking about her the entire prison term I was stroking my cock, I came very quickly. fountainhead after I finished masturbating, I found myself dwelling on the few hour we spent together. It wasn't lust or sexual. I wanted to know her in every way. I desperately wanted to see her again. Turns out I would n't have to wait long .
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