Old Friend ( 7 )
LesbianI sat in my home place trying workplace, although could n't focalize. I tried to vex with my standard routine. Coffee, gym, shower, work ... but that day I just could n't get motivated because I could n't get her out of my head. Like always my view were filled of my undecomposed acquaintance from high school. She was actually my initiative love and even though I tried to date other women they just could n't compare. When we both bloomed into young cleaning woman, I immediately knew the order of magnitude of my feelings for her but was too scared of losing my dependable friend and therefore was silently tortured. We slowly drifted apart from each other when we went to two unlike colleges. But today, I just could n't stop wondering if her hazel eyes could still cut right to my core.
I tried to exonerate my head with an extra vigorous exercise but it did n't employment. Being self employed provided the time to train really good precaution of myself. I was proud of being 32 but not looking it. I am 5'6 '' toned body, European olive tree skin and farsighted nighttime brown whisker that framed my thin cheek that was complimented with high-pitched buttock bone. Although right now it was Eva 's body that was clouding my every thought.
A few twenty-four hour period ago I ran into her mom and was happy to observe out that she was planning a head trip back home for a kin reunion. That evening my memories quickly turned into a sultry fantasy. The sentiment of her eyes gave me chills and an all too knowing warmheartedness mysterious interior. Before I knew it my hands went from lightly caressing my full 34C tit to frantically grabbing for my vibrator. My step-in were soaked more than ever.
Waking up the next morning I realized that I was hoping for too much. My admirer is straight and I 'm sure married with child by now.
None the LE an old friend would still be comforting. I decided to reach out and see if we could hit it off like old times.That evening I opened a bottle of vino to calm down my mettle and dialed her issue. After a few rings the same soft, gentle voice that I remembered answered `` Hello ? '' With a brief hesitation I said `` Hi Eva, it 's Cassie ! How the hell are you ? ``
We ended up talking for over an hour about nothing impaticular. I was relieved that she seemed happy to talk to me as well and we went right back to being friends. While we talked, I noticed that she dodged some doubtfulness and would always find a way to turn the conversation back to me. Which was n't unusual, she always had an overpower kindness about her.
I was delighted when she said she wanted to get together for coffee the upcoming week while she was in town. As we said our good adieu I was already looking forward to our upcoming date ... after two-bagger checking that I hit `` end call option '' I scolded myself out loud, `` A engagement ? Oh, you are brainsick, she does n't even know you 're a lesbian ! '' And repeated to myself, `` It 's not a date ! ``
During the following duet of days my view would roll off, imagining Eva 's tan cutis, long strawberry blonde haircloth, oh and those center ! Then I would have to snap myself out of it. `` Damn it, stop with the fancy ! ``, I would tell myself. I was so afraid of messing up a rekindled friendship, due to my over combat-ready hormone. `` Oh god, did she drift away BECAUSE she realized that I was a lesbian ? ``, I ask myself ! My intellect was my tough enemy, always going a thousand miles a minute.
One morning I was running late and planned on getting a burnt umber on the way to the gym. I hurried into the local coffee workshop, swinging the doorway unresolved in a Eumenides and there she was ... beautiful as ever ! She wore a light green sun dress and my eyes drifted down her perfect body to her exposed tanned ramification. Immediately I was snapped back to reality when she said, `` scented wattle, you have n't changed a bit, always going total speed ! ``, as she threw her arms around my cervix in a warm hug. Enjoying the light scent of her lotion during our embrace, I could n't serve noticing the feeling our chest pressing together as my arms held her around her inflect waist. There goes my judgment again, `` Stop it ! '' I yelled inside my head.
I quickly apologized for not realizing that she was already in township, a unharmed two twenty-four hours before the weekend. She said, `` Well, it 's a long story ... I just needed to get back to something fellow. '' She smiles at me as her cushy warmly hand trace my arm and with that, my thoughts started drifting. `` Wait ... '' I tell myself, `` Did that just happen or did I just WANT it to ? ''
After talking a few minutes, Eva reminds me of my mad entrance into the deep brown shop and says that she substantially let me get back to my day. I assure her that I was just headed to the gym and it would n't toss off me if I missed one day. Once hearing this Eva asked if she could tag along and that it might do her some good to vent some frustrations. I say, `` Of course ! It will give us even more time to catch up ! '' But already my mind is racing down a dangerous path. I could n't blockade, all I thought about was how good she would await in stiff workout capris, that would show off her perfect instruct ass ... yes, I could n't help from grazing it with my forearm as I released her from our hug ! A tank top that would inevitably be stretched across those perfectly shaped breasts which were bountiful than mine or better yet, a more revealing sportswoman bra which would let me lift a few peep at her toned stomach.
'' Cassie ? land to Cassie ? '' My eyes snap back up to Eva 's fount. She giggles lightly and repeated, `` What gym do you go to ? ``
'' Oh yeah, um the one over by the old bank. '' I answered.
'' Cool, I 'll meet you there after I run by the hotel and blame up my workout clothes ! '' She said with a smiling and was gone. Driving to the gym my nous went into overdrive asking myself all variety of questions, `` Why IS she in town early and what 's the long story ? '' `` Why was she staying at a hotel and not her moms ? '' `` Would n't her mom be something familiar ? Her pinch is in force than I remembered, wait or did I just ambition that ? ``
I get to the gym and depart stretching, when my phone rings. To my dissapointment Eva explains that her mom is freaking out about all of the approaching arrangements and will bear to cancle. Although she would sleep together to go to dinner. I accepted excitedly and planned to meet her at a skillful eating place down the street at 7 that dark.
The rest of the day was shot, I could n't centre. AlI I could think about was her. Wishing that I got to see her tegument with a weak shininess of sweat during a exercising and with my devious mind, how a lambency from sex would only make her more radiant.
7 o'clock finally arrive. Entering the restaurant I nervously scan looking for the adult female that has captured my every persuasion, soon my mind starts torturing me with scenarios of doubt, `` Did I get stood up ? ``, `` Did she see me and leave after noticing I was wearing a shapely dress with a little extra cleavage showing ? '' When suddenly she appeared. She wore a berm revealing grey dress, her haircloth was up with a few cushy curls cascading down her backbone, my heart skipped when she smiled and walked towards me.
As we talked, I was finally honest with her about being a lesbian although held back telling her how I felt about her. She seemed a piffling surprised but also a bit relate which was confusing. However I did noticed that as we chatted she would only refer to past lover as `` them or they '' never by name or sex specific as `` he ''. What did that mean value ? I tried to remind myself, not to screw up a perfectly estimable friendship and not learn into anything too much ! Was I reaching again ? I 'm certain that it was my own resourcefulness and wanting when I thought I caught her stealing a glimpse.
I made it through dinner party without hitting on her too many times as I tried to stay away from any commentary that were too obvious. Listening to her talking, I was transfixed on her eyes, entire pouty lips ... everything ! My mind was enjoying having her right in front of me. I was soon feeling a wonderful warmth brewing deep inside ... it took the end bit of will powerfulness to not kiss her.
I will admit through dinner we both enjoyed a little too a great deal wine and decided to share a taxi at the end of the evening.The first and closest stop was her hotel and shiver went up my spine when she asked if I wanted to come and continue catching up.
'' This IS happening ! ``, my thinker raced.
As we exited the elevator, her way was the very first one and I took my luck. While she fumbled with her way card, I gently pulled her arm to whirl her to face me. I leaned, brushed a few Robert Curl of haircloth off of her cheek and gently kissed her.
Her center got big and she pulled away ! `` Oh my god, this is n't happening ! `` I thought. I quickly apologized and ducked back into the elevator, and only heard a faint attempt from her `` Cass ... .wait ... ? ``
My hack ride to retrive my car and the drive home was horrible, I cursed and screamed at myself for trying such a stupid motion. When I got dwelling, I knew I could n't catch some Z's so I changed into an old pair of spicy blue jean, put on my favotite tee shirt. I typically liked the way the filmy material hangs but still clingstone to my braless breasts but tonight I was too upset to believe about that. I walked into my kitchen barefoot and grabbed another drinking glass of wine.
With more wine, I got up the gumption and decided to holler her to explain my apology. With my glass of bravery, I did n't care if I woke her. I had to try and put this behind me. She quickly answered and I started rambling out my rehearsed opening before she could say too much. She finally said with a firm enough voice to get my attention, `` sweet acacia, point ! I 'm not mad at you, I 'm a tribade too, ! '' A boot of reliever came over me. But since she pulled away, I was still terribly embarrassed that the attraction was n't mutual and continued to ramble nervously. I slowly calmed down and finally started talking in a more rational number mannor although was too humiliated to broach the subject of me kissing her. Luckily we quickly went back to being considerably friends.
We continued talking ... Soon our conversation revolved around old flames, what went right, what went faulty, what we desired mentally and physically. As I listened to Eva 's unwind voice describe what she wanted and needed, my mind found the motivation to fantasize ... showing her some of my sexual secrets and desires. I noticed, ooohh that grand warm feeling again. The passion progressed into a tickling whiz and then I got gooseflesh when I feel my moistness moving past my ignite sheep pen to dowse into my pantie. I could n't facilitate but let my hand rove down and slowly rub my snatch. I continued listening to her soft voice and noticed that the tone was steadily getting more sultry. That 's when my helping hand went inside the figurehead of my dungaree.
My middle finger slid easily and character my labia. `` Oh my god '', I thought to myself ! I ca n't believe that just listening to her made me that wet ! I lightly slide my finger in and out of my wet plica when I accidentally let out a slight moan, `` Oh no, tell apart me she did n't hear that ! '' I pray to myself. In a low vocalism that 's almost a whisper I hear, `` calcium, are you touching yourself ? ``
Too paralyzed to say anything, I held my breath. Even though it was only a few mo, it felt like an timeless existence. Eva broke the silence by saying, '' Does it experience honest ? ``
I still could n't babble out although my once frozen hand slowing starts to make a motion again. I slowly work my hand lower, my middle finger teases the entrance to my love hole and hungrily accepts two fingers in with easiness and my palm gently works my clitoris. Eva breaks the silence once again saying, `` Does that piddle you feel good, sweetheart ? ``. Remaining discharge from words I let out a `` Mmhhmm '' strait for an answer.
The sense experience that I was on the cusp of earlier is now rushing through my body. I try to speak and can not. With a little curl of my finger, I release another audible gasp. Eva interrupted me with a playful but tail tone, `` Do you want me to do that for you ... .to you ? ''. I could n't help but let out a halfway response between a `` yes '' and a mellow pitch moan through my slightly parted lips.
She ushers me penny-pinching to a overtake sensation of lustfulness when she entices me with the password `` Do you desire my hired man on you ... .thrusting in you ? ``
I tease, wishing her into an unspoken dare, `` Oh Eva, do n't lead off something you ca n't finish ! ``
With a sealed expiation in her voice I hear the countersign I so long for, `` Well, you know where I am. ``
I did n't require More of an invite than that and certainly was n't going to allow any prison term for her to change her mind.
I remove my hand, licking the juice off of my finger. The taste gives me a tantalizing tingle up my spur ! I am suddenly sober and determined, I grab my keys and rush out the door.
Sliding through the lift doors before they were fully assailable I hurry to Eva 's room access but before I could ping, the door baseball swing open. Our body collide and I feel her wonderful body through her thin cotton wool pj's. Our brim desperatly crash together and our lingua are exploring each former 's raw taste buds. She pulls away from me and my centre stops until she gives me a devilish smiling and asks, `` Oohhh, what DO I taste on your tongue fille Cassidy ? '' I shiver at the use of my full name and being scolded. I then receive the most lustful kiss ever. Her lip grazing mine, her tongue dancing around my lip trying to steal any left wing over juice that I might still have lingering from when I sucked my fingerbreadth clean.
My center widen, `` Would n't you rather taste me ? '' she asks. Instantly, I get the most wonderful ache that spreads across my whole pelvis. How did she know for me talking dirty was like adding gasoline to an already raging fire ? ! I can only respond with a moan in her oral cavity when she resumes with another kiss. She pulls me into her room letting the doorway
shut behind us. Turning our eubstance in unison, she pushes me until my back thuds against the wall. My manus move from her barren lower on to her hips, when she suddenly grabs my wrist and pins them on the wall above my head. Another but more potent ache rushes through my consistence. In past experiences I was usually the forward one during sex, although was fully enjoying letting Eva claim control of me. She ghosts her lips from mine over to nip at my earlobe playfully and then flicks her knife against my neck.
Eva pulls back slightly, her eyes stare at me and take me relentlessly. One manus remains ahold of my wrists while the other hand lightly traces down my cheek and neck opening, down my tummy and finds the hem of my shirt. The heat radiates between my bare shape and her hand as she travels up until my right knocker is resting on the dorsum of her hand and she gives me a possessive squeeze on my rib. I bite my lip trying control a groan and try to look that I have control of my hormones even though I am now completely submissive for this stupefy woman.
Leaning in again her lips gently touch mine when her tongue grazes my lower lip. I part my backtalk slightly and want her to explore more with another buss but she pulls away. My eye trained on her beautiful lip, she runs her spit across her lips to entice me encourage.
For a quick arcsecond my eyes flutter as a whimper of desire escape cock my mouth, '' Please '', I whisper.
Her eyebrow raised slightly, `` Please, what ? '' She responds with a cocky grin.
'' Please do n't tease me '', I pout. Although so thankful that she knew I did n't truly have in mind it. Again she ghosts her backtalk across mine gently nipping at my lip. I wet my sass in prediction when I feel her motion down my jaw to my neck opening, planting wet buss down to my collar bone. My head leaning back when her left knee push in between my legs, I pull my rightfulness leg up to wrap around her. Eva 's script moves to grab my tense buttocks when I instinctively wrapped both of my peg around her waist, locking my ankles behind her rachis. Her clapper now lashing at my sensative cutis. She had me pinned against the wall and I could n't help but wail when she starts tempting me further with a series of pelvic knife thrust.
Just when I thought I could n't take any more ribbing and was going to plead for her to learn me ! My eyes open with excitement by her Book, `` Do you desire me to be intimate you ? ``
My throaty growl of a reply indicates my need. Eva supports my thighs and carries me further into her room and with surprise simpleness throws me on to the bed.
My heart is now beating with a savage pace as she straddles my rosehip and pulls my jersey over my nous. Our lips finally forgather once again, her hand motility behind my neck opening and wrench me in harder to our kiss. We both moan in reception to the love we are sharing. Her hands moving to cup my face briefly, finger crown moving down both sides of my neck and to my shoulders gently pushing me down on to the bed. She also quickly removes her tank top, I ca n't facilitate but blink my eyes slowly and sigh in awe of her beauty when her breasts bounce slightly once they are justify from being restrained.
Her will power is astonishing and gives me a rollercoaster feeling because after she rips my jeans from my hips and thighs, her script slow down to a front crawl to absent my panties.
I am so lost in my neediness and need for her I did n't realize that she stripped off her heights cut packer shortstop, only to be hung up on one of her ankles.
'' My god cleaning lady, you are killing me ! '' I beg her to kibosh teasing me !
Eva does not heed my dire tonus and kisses up the interior of my second joint but stops short of my throbbing pussy. I whimper with anticipation and gasp for air when I feel the sense impression of her strong breath on my glistening cunt.
I held my breath until I felt her warm sassing lightly kiss my mound but unexpectedly yelp with joy when she rams her tongue oceanic abyss in my folds and just as quickly withdraws. Her unpredictable rythm leaves me swaying on a drop-off of desire. She raises to where I can only smell her but only touches me with movie of her clapper across my body as she slinks up until our eyes sports meeting. Her eyes were wild with luxuria and the jet bit in her Pomaderris apetala center burned drab than I have ever seen ! I felt like I was her prey as she slowly stalked me. My breath was quivering and ragged when I exhaled because I had never been so shake, especially this quickly. When she resumes back down to my neck opening, I tilt my head back offering myself to her and can hear her breath was weighty with desire as well.
With one human elbow by my principal supporting herself, Eva takes my earlobe between her teeth and more pilomotor reflex erupt across my physical structure when I feel her early hand cup my pussy and asks if I 've been a good young lady. I pant with exhilaration and try to push my vagina closer to her hand but she pulls back and repeat,
'' Have you been a good miss ? ``
'' Yes, now fuck me, please, you HAVE to fuck me ! ! '' I plead
'' Too bad, I only fuck bad girlfriend '', she whispers in return.
I growl in frustration but truly enjoying this game we are playing. Through pursed lips I whimper `` Please beloved, you know I need you ... .to fuck me ! ``
I 'm rewarded when Eva starts stroking my twat with expert experience and lets me know that the urge was getting overwhelming for her too with a palpitation, throaty whispering, `` I know there 's a bad girl in there somewhere and I wo n't stop until she is screaming my name ''
Her finger's breadth finally fulfil my aching hole with a Piston driving apparent movement and slowly pull away even though I plead her not to ! Her pace human body and with only a few consistent ramming motility I 'm already heading to that unloosen falling wiz and buck my hips against her script. My mitt clawed at the tack in a panic as I loudly pant out a series sounds, incoherent words and demands, `` MMMMM ... .AAAHHHH ... .JUST LIKE ... right hand THERE ! OH MY GOD, DO N'T STOP piece of ass ME ! '' and she did n't ! Even though my back arch off the bed and my entirely organic structure was suffering from muscle spasms she barely slowed her pace. I tried to hold on to anything within limb reach. Overwhelmed with the unremitting attention my pussy was receiving it did n't withdraw long, my eyes went unwarranted and my mouth tried to scream but could n't as a moment more powerful coming headed towards me like a freight rate train. I was fucked beyond notion when she started using her knee behind her hand for duplicate force and continued this way with the most ferocious rythm ! My mouth gaping open with no sound escaping only enouraged her actions. I finally mouth the syllables of her name, after a few more try I scream `` WHAT THE ... ..YOU ... .OH, GOD ... ... .EVAAAAAAAHHHH ! '' The sultry vixen that had complete controller of me slowed her footstep but continued a few more strokes to make sure that I was utterly spent.
Still coming down from my body shaking in high spirits. I open my optic to find Eva still hovering over me. I feel something and immediately get chills when I realize that Eva was so turned on, her pussy had a string of her sweet juice that had dripped from cunt and landed on my thigh. Seeing it glisten I knew I could n't wait any longer to taste her. She caught the movement of my eyes and knew what I wanted. I licked my rim as she moved up to range my face. I immediately dive my knife and lips into her deliciously smashed pussy. My tongue is coated in the sugared taste I have ever had ! I worked my spit in a serial publication of small circles across the sensetive tendrils of her labia just missing her clitoris. Once I could find her body offset to carry, I changed to quick piercing picture show on her well up push of nerves. Eva 's digit weave into my tomentum and pull me harder into her delicious pussy. I would pick and gently let my teeth drag when I would turn her sore skin. Giving her slight twinge of hurting with an contiguous soothing sensation when I would lactate on her soft folds of peel. Drunk on her taste sensation and a feeling of lust through my trunk makes me moan from my own pleasure. Eva feels the trembling and unvoluntary bucks her cunt against my sassing again and again and I wrap my arms around her thigh and hold her firmly. I ca n't hire my my optic off of her beautiful silhouette as she rocks against my face. Knowing how close she is to coming on my face makes me growl again with desire ! That was all she needed to take her over the crest of passion and cotton on down the wave of joy. Feeling Eva 's juices flow across my face and into my backtalk is almost adequate to grant me another ogasm. I arch and curl my tongue to try and go along as much of her sex on my taste sensation buds where I can savour every drop cloth of her !
After she regains control of her quivering body, she starts to swing her leg away from my head, I surprise her by flipping her on to her back and lower my body to hers. I could n't get enough of her. I swirl my tongue around her still stiff left nipple, nibbling playfully. I move my hired hand down her flat stomach squeezing firmly periodically as my paw locomotion across her to her pelvis and down until my hired man sleep on her crafty hairless hammock. uninterrupted attention to her nipple awakens her desire again. I gently pushing and splay the blackguard of my hired man agaist her clitoris slowly until I could feel her motive. Sliding my middle finger into her made my own consistence ache again. Eva then looks at me and waits until our eye are locked together, raises an eyebrow and smirks at me when she tighens her brawn. She controls her grasp around my finger and shows that she still dominates me and controls this wild fuck session. We both moan from our overwhelming intuitive feeling and ache, I continue to stroke her tight puss. Feeling her warmth grow with every flex of my hand. I hear her groan even louder when I swiftly add another digit inside of her. I now can feel her clinch on my hand uncontrollably. I elicit a trench groan from Eva when I rotate my carpus to push against her tight bulwark. Pushing her hip joint lower trying to get me abstruse, I flicked and curled my fingerbreadth, while grinding my palm against her. Looking into her one-half lidded eyes flutter in passion, I saw bit of gold brighter than ever. Moaning between breathing spell, Eva gasp, at first barely audible but quickly turning in to a crescendo of call, `` OH child ... .PLEASE ... ..BABY ... .YES ... .FUCK ME infant ! '' a victorious smile covers my face, I love be called pet names ! Mewling incoherently, I knew I had her again ! Eyes now tightly shut, breast heaving, back arched she dug her school principal into the pillows. Gasping for air she screams for me and free fall to the bed in a floodlight of sense impression. I love feeling her squeezing and pulsating around my fingers. Once she completely relaxes, I slowly slither my finger's breadth out of her warm, wet pusssy. Eva responds with a slight whine of dissapointment. Falling victim to her juices and smell once again, I lick and suck my fingerbreadth hungrily.
Both of our consistency had a lustre of sweat from our ferel sex session and I gently kiss and lick her salty skin in the vale of her white meat before falling next to her in atonement. Withdrawing from our sooner game of dom/sub, Eva turns and lays her head on my chest.
Sun shining past the border of the curtain, afraid to proceed and remove myself from what could only give been a wonderful dreaming. Eva 's head remains resting on me. I then realized that it 's not a dream and she was awake when I felt her eyelash lightly brush my pelt. Giving her the opportunity to make believe that she was still at rest, I whisper my daunting interrogative sentence of why she pulled away from my initial kiss. Eva immediately looked up into my eye and replied, '' I did n't want the eventide to end but I was afraid .... '' I furrow my forehead in confusion. A frightful look crosses her cheek as she contimplates finishing her mentation. I reassure her when I caress her her cheek with my thumb and gently sweep her hair's-breadth beind her ear. She continues, `` I always wanted you for more than a friend but did n't want to `` just '' have sex with you ! I could n't deem back any longer when I heard you moan when we were on the speech sound ''.
I start to verbalize although she cuts me off and her dustup escape quickly but in an aprehensive tone, `` ... because ... .I ... I'm in dear with you ! '' Her eyes dart away from mine as she lowers her head. I slide down into the bed until we are facing each other and wait for her to return my gaze.
'' Eva, I wanted you in my lifetime, even if it was just as a friend but I hope you know, I ca n't go back to being just friends now ... I want and need you. '' My heart skips when I see her beautiful smile. I equally confess. `` You were my inaugural love and now I know only unfeigned love ! ``
I am then rewarded when she gently crawls on top of me. The kisses we share are dissimilar ... gentler, full of love and passion instead of the wild lust from the previous night. Her lips are the most lucious matter I could ever imagine, our tongue are tangled in a beautiful dance. The desire is stirring in both of us now as she slowly begins to grind her vagina into mine. I ca n't assist but nip at her to the full flaccid lips. The heat shared between us has a new case of spark. My leftfield hand twist at the furrow below her perfectly shaped ass to aid in the pressure between our bodies. She gently runs her finger tip along my skin as she raises my right arm above my head although this clip she slides her finger's breadth between mine and we lace our hand together as we continue to make roll in the hay to each other. A dense but wonderful consequence bod. I bend my right knee and slide my foot up until it is flat on the bed. I arch my backbone and hip and grind into her harder as she gracefully runs her blunt digit nails from my ass along the backrest of my thigh. This sends a skittering mavin across my skin and I moan into her hot sass and I feel her smile into our kiss. She grips behind my crumpled knee and we continue to move in unison. I see dapple of Au in her hazel tree centre but somehow the color is even more vivid and burns smart than the former night. We actually block kissing because we are both gasping for air, warm breathes washing over each other 's faces, frontal bone touching, eyes locked. I know Eva can seem right into my somebody and we are then both moaning together as we crash through the exticy of love ! We both reach our first climax of the day quickly and simultaneously. Her glorious consistence falls on to mine
I am mesmerized because I realize that I just experianced something completly new to me. This is the first time my eyes remain locked during any passionate moment. I never realized that in the preceding I would cite my oculus or close my eyes all together just to avoid too long of a gaze.
Both being excited about our revealed love for each early but regaining semi rule breaths. Eva looks deeply into my eyes with her beautiful radiance and asks, `` Would you be my babe if I was your girl ? '' I respond by gently rolling her over until I have her directly under me. I can only answer, `` I would bonk cipher more ... .. '' I resume kissing the entire length of her dead body with warm, wet kisses as I whisper against her unflawed skin, `` but right now I need to fix up for loss time ... .. ''