I sat in my home office trying work, although could n't concentre. I tried to stick with my standard routine. Coffee, gym, cascade, study ... but that day I just could n't get motivated because I could n't get her out of my headspring. Like always my thoughts were filled of my undecomposed friend from high school. She was actually my first love and even though I tried to engagement other cleaning lady they just could n't compare. When we both bloomed into young women, I immediately knew the magnitude of my feelings for her but was too scare away of losing my proficient friend and therefore was silently tortured. We slowly drifted apart from each former when we went to two dissimilar colleges. But today, I just could n't break wondering if her hazel eyes could still cut right to my core.

I tried to clear my head with an spare vigorous exercise but it did n't work. Being ego employed provided the clock time to aim really good care of myself. I was proud of being 32 but not looking it. I am 5'6 '' toned trunk, olive skin and long dark dark-brown hair's-breadth that framed my slight face that was complimented with high impertinence castanets. Although right now it was Eva 's consistency that was clouding my every thought.

A few solar day ago I ran into her mom and was happy to find out that she was planning a trip back home for a family reunion. That evening my memory board quickly turned into a sultry illusion. The thought of her eyes gave me pall and an all too hump warmth oceanic abyss inside. Before I knew it my workforce went from lightly caressing my to the full 34C breasts to frantically grabbing for my vibrator. My panties were soaked more than ever.

Waking up the next cockcrow I realized that I was hoping for too a lot. My friend is straight and I 'm sure married with kids by now.

None the lupus erythematosus an old friend would still be comforting. I decided to reach out and see if we could hit it off like old times.That evening I opened a bottle of wine to tranquillise my nervousness and dialed her number. After a few rings the same cushy, gentle spokesperson that I remembered answered `` hullo ? '' With a brief hesitation I said `` Hi Eva, it 's Cassie ! How the nether region are you ? ``

We ended up talking for over an minute about nothing impaticular. I was relieved that she seemed happy to verbalise to me as well and we went right back to being friends. While we talked, I noticed that she dodged some questions and would always incur a way to turn the conversation back to me. Which was n't unusual, she always had an consuming kindness about her.

I was delighted when she said she wanted to get together for coffee the upcoming week while she was in township. As we said our good byes I was already looking forward to our upcoming date ... after double checking that I hit `` end call '' I scolded myself out loud, `` A date ? Oh, you are crazy, she does n't even know you 're a gay woman ! '' And repeated to myself, `` It 's not a date ! ``

During the next couple of days my opinion would wander off, imagining Eva 's tan hide, long strawberry blond fuzz, oh and those oculus ! Then I would have to snap myself out of it. `` red cent it, stop over with the fantasies ! ``, I would assure myself. I was so afraid of messing up a rekindled friendly relationship, due to my over active endocrine. `` Oh god, did she wander away BECAUSE she realized that I was a gay woman ? ``, I ask myself ! My mind was my unfit enemy, always going a M Admiralty mile a minute.

One daybreak I was running late and planned on getting a deep brown on the way to the gym. I hurried into the local coffee tree shop, swinging the door open in a fury and there she was ... beautiful as ever ! She wore a brightness level fleeceable sun dress and my middle drifted down her perfect body to her exposed bronze legs. Immediately I was snapped back to realism when she said, `` Cassie, you have n't changed a bit, always going full speed ! ``, as she threw her arms around my neck in a warm hug. Enjoying the spark scent of her lotion during our embrace, I could n't help noticing the feeling our breasts pressing together as my arms held her around her toned waistline. There goes my mind again, `` Stop it ! '' I yelled inside my head.

I quickly apologized for not realizing that she was already in town, a whole two days before the weekend. She said, `` Well, it 's a long story ... I just needed to get back to something associate. '' She smiles at me as her easygoing warm hand ghost my arm and with that, my thoughts started drifting. `` Wait ... '' I tell myself, `` Did that just happen or did I just WANT it to ? ''

After talking a few minutes, Eva reminds me of my mad entryway into the coffee bean shop class and says that she better let me get back to my day. I assure her that I was just headed to the gym and it would n't kill me if I missed one day. Once hearing this Eva asked if she could tag along and that it might do her some good to vent some defeat. I say, `` Of course ! It will give us even more sentence to catch up ! '' But already my judgement is racing down a dangerous track. I could n't stop, all I thought about was how good she would reckon in pixilated exercising capris, that would show off her perfect taught ass ... yes, I could n't avail from grazing it with my forearm as I released her from our hug ! A storage tank top that would inevitably be stretched across those perfectly shaped breasts which were bigger than mine or better yet, a more unveil fun bra which would let me purloin a few peek at her toned stomach.

'' Cassie ? Earth to Cassie ? '' My eyes snap back up to Eva 's case. She giggles lightly and repeated, `` What gym do you go to ? ``

'' Oh yeah, um the one over by the old banking concern. '' I answered.

'' Cool, I 'll fill you there after I run by the hotel and pick up my exercising clothes ! '' She said with a smile and was gone. Driving to the gym my mind went into overdrive asking myself all sorts of inquiry, `` Why IS she in Town former and what 's the foresighted story ? '' `` Why was she staying at a hotel and not her mummy ? '' `` Would n't her mom be something familiar spirit ? Her touch is better than I remembered, wait or did I just dream that ? ``

I get to the gym and begin stretch, when my phone annulus. To my dissapointment Eva explains that her mom is freaking out about all of the upcoming arrangements and will induce to cancle. Although she would love to go to dinner. I accepted excitedly and planned to touch her at a skillful eatery down the street at 7 that night.

The rest of the day was shot, I could n't concentrate. AlI I could think about was her. Wishing that I got to see her skin with a light lustre of stew during a workout and with my roundabout mind, how a glow from sex would only bring in her More radiant.

VII o'clock finally come. Entering the eating house I nervously run down looking for the fair sex that has captured my every thought, soon my judgment starts torturing me with scenarios of incertitude, `` Did I get stood up ? ``, `` Did she see me and leave after noticing I was wearing a shapely dress with a short extra cleavage showing ? '' When suddenly she appeared. She wore a shoulder revealing grayish apparel, her hair was up with a few soft curls cascading down her spinal column, my heart skipped when she smiled and walked towards me.

As we talked, I was finally honest with her about being a sapphic although held back telling her how I felt about her. She seemed a little storm but also a bit concerned which was confusing. However I did noticed that as we chatted she would only refer to past buff as `` them or they '' never by figure or gender specific as `` he ''. What did that mean ? I tried to remind myself, not to be intimate up a perfectly in force friendly relationship and not record into anything too much ! Was I reaching again ? I 'm sure that it was my own imagination and wanting when I thought I caught her stealing a glimpse.

I made it through dinner party without hitting on her too many clock time as I tried to abide away from any comments that were too obvious. Listening to her talk, I was transfixed on her eye, wide pouty rim ... everything ! My mind was enjoying having her right in forepart of me. I was soon feeling a rattling warmheartedness brewing cryptic inside ... it took the live bit of will power to not buss her.

I will admit through dinner we both enjoyed a small too practically wine and decided to share a taxi at the end of the evening.The first and closest period was her hotel and quiver went up my spine when she asked if I wanted to fare and continue catching up.

'' This IS happening ! ``, my mind raced.

As we exited the elevator, her elbow room was the very first one and I took my fortune. While she fumbled with her room wag, I gently pulled her arm to gyrate her to confront me. I leaned, brushed a few curls of hair off of her cheek and gently kissed her.

Her eyes got big and she pulled away ! `` Oh my god, this is n't happening ! `` I thought. I quickly apologized and ducked back into the elevator, and only heard a faint attack from her `` Cass ... .wait ... ? ``

My hack drive to retrive my car and the drive home was horrible, I cursed and screamed at myself for trying such a stupid move. When I got plate, I knew I could n't sleep so I changed into an old twosome of gamy denim, put on my favotite t-shirt. I typically liked the way the filmy material hangs but still clings to my braless bosom but tonight I was too upset to think about that. I walked into my kitchen barefoot and grabbed another ice of wine.

With Sir Thomas More wine-coloured, I got up the common sense and decided to call off her to excuse my apology. With my glass of courageousness, I did n't manage if I woke her. I had to try and put this behind me. She quickly answered and I started rambling out my practice opening before she could say too much. She finally said with a house enough voice to get my attending, `` Cassie, stop ! I 'm not mad at you, I 'm a lesbian too, ! '' A rush of easing came over me. But since she pulled away, I was still terribly embarrassed that the drawing card was n't mutual and continued to ramble nervously. I slowly calmed down and finally started talking in a more rational mannor although was too humiliated to initiate the subject of me kissing her. Luckily we quickly went back to being best friends.

We continued talking ... Soon our conversation revolved around old flames, what went right, what went wrong, what we desired mentally and physically. As I listened to Eva 's relaxed vocalization describe what she wanted and needed, my mind found the motivation to fantasise ... showing her some of my sexual secrets and desires. I noticed, ooohh that wonderful warm tactile sensation again. The warmth progressed into a tingle champion and then I got goosebumps when I feel my dampness moving past my heated sheep pen to soak into my panties. I could n't aid but let my hand cast down and slowly rub my slit. I continued listening to her soft voice and noticed that the tone was steadily getting more than sultry. That 's when my bridge player went inside the front of my denim.

My middle finger slid easily and persona my labia. `` Oh my god '', I thought to myself ! I ca n't believe that just listening to her made me that wet ! I lightly slide my digit in and out of my wet folds when I accidentally let out a slight moan, `` Oh no, recite me she did n't listen that ! '' I pray to myself. In a low vocalisation that 's almost a voicelessness I hear, `` Ca, are you touching yourself ? ``

Too paralytic to say anything, I held my intimation. Even though it was only a few instant, it felt like an eternity. Eva broke the silence by saying, '' Does it experience in effect ? ``

I still could n't tattle although my once frozen hired hand slowing starts to move again. I slowly work my hand lower, my middle finger teases the entrance to my making love hole and hungrily accepts two digit in with informality and my laurel wreath gently works my clitoris. Eva breaks the silence once again saying, `` Does that urinate you feel good, sweetheart ? ``. Remaining free from words I let out a `` Mmhhmm '' sound for an answer.

The sensation that I was on the cusp of earlier is now rushing through my physical structure. I try to mouth and can not. With a thin curl of my fingers, I release another hearable gasp. Eva interrupted me with a playful but bum tint, `` Do you want me to do that for you ... .to you ? ''. I could n't avail but let out a halfway response between a `` yes '' and a higher pitch shot moan through my slightly parted lips.

She ushers me tight to a overwhelm champion of lecherousness when she entices me with the password `` Do you desire my men on you ... .thrusting in you ? ``

I tease, wishing her into an unspoken dare, `` Oh Eva, do n't start something you ca n't finish ! ``

With a sure gratification in her part I hear the words I so long for, `` Well, you know where I am. ``

I did n't take more than of an invite than that and certainly was n't going to give up any time for her to change her creative thinker.

I remove my hand, licking the succus off of my finger. The taste gives me a tantalizing pall up my spinal column ! I am suddenly sober and determined, I grab my cay and belt along out the door.

Sliding through the elevator door before they were fully open I hurry to Eva 's door but before I could strike hard, the door jive open. Our physical structure collide and I feel her marvellous body through her melt off cotton jammies. Our lips desperatly crash together and our tongues are exploring each early 's sensitive taste buds. She pulls away from me and my heart stops until she gives me a devilish smile and asks, `` Oohhh, what DO I taste on your natural language Miss Cassidy ? '' I shiver at the use of my full-of-the-moon name and being scolded. I then receive the most lustful kiss ever. Her lips grazing mine, her spit terpsichore around my sass trying to steal any left wing over juices that I might still ingest lingering from when I sucked my fingers clean.

My eyes widen, `` Would n't you rather smack me ? '' she asks. Instantly, I get the most marvellous ache that spreads across my altogether pelvis. How did she know for me talking dirty was like adding gasolene to an already raging fire ? ! I can only reply with a groan in her mouth when she resumes with another kiss. She pulls me into her room letting the room access

shut behind us. Turning our bodies in unison, she pushes me until my back clunk against the wall. My hands move from her thriftlessness lower on to her hips, when she suddenly grabs my articulatio radiocarpea and pins them on the bulwark above my principal. Another but more hefty ache charge through my soundbox. In past experiences I was usually the forward one during sex, although was fully enjoying letting Eva take restraint of me. She ghosts her backtalk from mine over to nip at my earlobe playfully and then flicks her tongue against my neck.

Eva pulls back slightly, her eyes stare at me and have got me relentlessly. One mitt remains ahold of my radiocarpal joint while the other hired hand lightly traces down my cheek and neck, down my stomach and finds the hem of my shirt. The heat radiates between my bare frame and her handwriting as she travels up until my right tit is resting on the back of her hand and she gives me a possessive case clinch on my ribs. I bite my lip trying carry a groan and try to appear that I have ascendancy of my internal secretion even though I am now completely submissive for this stunning woman.

Leaning in again her rim gently touch mine when her tongue grazes my lower lip. I part my lips slightly and want her to explore more with another kiss but she pulls away. My eyes trained on her beautiful lips, she runs her natural language across her back talk to entice me further.

For a quick second my center flutter as a whimper of desire relief valve my backtalk, '' Please '', I whisper.

Her eyebrow raised slightly, `` Please, what ? '' She responds with a cocky grin.

'' Please do n't rally me '', I pout. Although so thankful that she knew I did n't truly think of it. Again she ghosts her sass across mine gently nipping at my lip. I wet my sass in anticipation when I feel her movement down my jaw to my cervix, planting wet candy kiss down to my catch bone. My head tilts back when her left wing knee pushes in between my leg, I pull my right leg up to enclose around her. Eva 's paw move to grab my tense buttocks when I instinctively wrapped both of my wooden leg around her waist, locking my ankles behind her binding. Her tongue now lashing at my sensative skin. She had me pinned against the wall and I could n't help but mewl when she starts tempting me further with a series of pelvic thrusts.

Just when I thought I could n't necessitate any more than teasing and was going to plead for her to take me ! My middle open with excitement by her Son, `` Do you require me to sleep together you ? ``

My throaty growling of a reply indicates my pauperism. Eva supports my second joint and carries me further into her way and with surprising rest throws me on to the bed.

My heart is now beating with a wild yard as she straddles my pelvic arch and pull my T-shirt over my head. Our rim finally meet once again, her hand moves behind my neck and pulls me in harder to our osculation. We both moan in reaction to the mania we are sharing. Her hands moving to cup my expression briefly, finger wind moving down both English of my neck and to my shoulders gently pushing me down on to the bed. She also quickly removes her tank top, I ca n't assist but nictitate my eyes slowly and suspiration in awe of her knockout when her chest spring slightly once they are resign from being restrained.

Her self-possession is awful and gives me a rollercoaster feeling because after she rips my jean from my pelvis and thighs, her bridge player slack to a crawl to remove my panties.

I am so lost in my want and need for her I did n't realise that she stripped off her senior high school cut packer shorts, only to be hung up on one of her ankles.

'' My god woman, you are killing me ! '' I beg her to give up teasing me !

Eva does not heed my do-or-die feeling and kisses up the inside of my second joint but stops short of my throbbing pussy. I whimper with anticipation and gasp for air when I feel the sensation of her warm intimation on my glistening cunt.

I held my breath until I felt her tender lips lightly kiss my hummock but unexpectedly yelp with pleasure when she rams her tongue deep in my sheepfold and just as quickly withdraws. Her unpredictable rythm leaves me swaying on a cliff of desire. She raises to where I can only sense her but only touches me with flick of her tongue across my trunk as she slinks up until our eyes meet. Her center were wild with lust and the commons flecks in her hazel tree heart burned darker than I have ever seen ! I felt like I was her prey as she slowly stalked me. My breathing space was quivering and ragged when I exhaled because I had never been so stir, especially this quickly. When she resumes back down to my cervix, I tilt my head word back offering myself to her and can try her breathing place was heavy with desire as well.

With one elbow by my head supporting herself, Eva takes my ear lobe between her dentition and more goose skin erupt across my physical structure when I feel her other mitt cup my pussy and asks if I 've been a good girl. I pant with turmoil and try to promote my vagina closer to her hand but she pulls back and repeats,

'' Have you been a estimable girl ? ``

'' Yes, now fuck me, please, you HAVE to eff me ! ! '' I plead

'' Too bad, I only fuck bad girls '', she whispers in return.

I growl in frustration but truly enjoying this game we are playing. Through wrinkle sassing I whimper `` Please honey, you know I need you ... .to fuck me ! ``

I 'm repay when Eva starts stroking my slit with expert experience and lets me know that the urge was getting overwhelming for her too with a quivering, throaty whisper, `` I know there 's a bad girl in there somewhere and I wo n't stop until she is screaming my gens ''

Her fingerbreadth finally fill my aching yap with a piston driving motion and slowly draw even though I plead her not to ! Her pace builds and with only a few consistent ramming question I 'm already heading to that unfreeze falling wizard and buck my hips against her hand. My hired hand clawed at the canvas in a panic as I loudly pant out a series sounds, incoherent words and demands, `` MMMMM ... .AAAHHHH ... .JUST LIKE ... right field THERE ! OH MY GOD, DO N'T halt FUCKING ME ! '' and she did n't ! Even though my rear arches off the bed and my unit soundbox was suffering from muscle spasms she barely slowed her tempo. I tried to hold on to anything within arms reach. Overwhelmed with the invariant attention my pussy was receiving it did n't take long, my eyes went risky and my lip tried to shout but could n't as a second more knock-down orgasm headed towards me like a freight rate caravan. I was fucked beyond belief when she started using her knee behind her hand for extra force and continued this way with the most ferocious rythm ! My backtalk gaping unfastened with no sounds escaping only enouraged her legal action. I finally mouth the syllables of her name, after a few more tries I scream `` WHAT THE ... ..YOU ... .OH, GOD ... ... .EVAAAAAAAHHHH ! '' The sultry hellcat that had complete control of me slowed her pace but continued a few more shot to make sure that I was utterly spent.

Still coming down from my body shaking high. I open my eye to bump Eva still hovering over me. I feel something and immediately get chills when I realize that Eva was so turned on, her pussy had a string of her sweet juice that had dripped from cunt and landed on my thigh. Seeing it sparkle I knew I could n't wait any longer to taste her. She caught the motion of my center and knew what I wanted. I licked my back talk as she moved up to range my brass. I immediately nose dive my tongue and lips into her deliciously soaked pussy. My tongue is coated in the sweetened taste I have ever had ! I worked my tongue in a series of small circles across the sensetive tendrils of her labia just missing her clit. Once I could find her organic structure start to sway, I changed to quick piercing flicks on her puff up button of spunk. Eva 's fingers weave into my tomentum and pull me gruelling into her luscious cunt. I would piece and gently let my dentition drag when I would unblock her tender skin. Giving her slight stab of pain with an quick soothing sensation when I would breastfeed on her gentle folds of skin. Drunk on her taste and a feeling of lust through my body makes me moan from my own delight. Eva feels the oscillation and nonvoluntary sawhorse her cunt against my mouth again and again and I wrap my weapon system around her thighs and give her firmly. I ca n't drive my my centre off of her beautiful silhouette as she rocks against my case. Knowing how end she is to coming on my human face makes me rumble again with desire ! That was all she needed to take her over the peak of passion and tumble down the wave of pleasure. Feeling Eva 's juices flow across my face and into my sassing is almost adequate to give me another ogasm. I arch and curl my clapper to try and keep as a great deal of her sex on my taste buds where I can savour every driblet of her !

After she regains control of her quivering consistence, she starts to swing her leg away from my head, I surprise her by flipping her on to her rachis and abject my consistence to hers. I could n't get enough of her. I swirl my glossa around her still stiff left pap, nibbling playfully. I move my helping hand down her flat abdomen squeezing firmly periodically as my manus travels across her to her hip and down until my hand rests on her glib hairless cumulation. Continuous care to her mamilla awakens her desire again. I gently push and rotate the blackguard of my deal agaist her clit slowly until I could feel her need. Sliding my middle finger into her made my own body ache again. Eva then looks at me and time lag until our center are locked together, raises an supercilium and smirks at me when she tighens her muscleman. She controls her compass around my finger's breadth and shows that she still dominates me and controls this crazy fuck academic term. We both moan from our overwhelming feeling and aching, I continue to stroke her tight pussy. Feeling her warmth grow with every flex of my manus. I hear her moan even louder when I swiftly add another finger inside of her. I now can sense her clamp on my hand uncontrollably. I elicit a oceanic abyss groan from Eva when I rotate my wrist to agitate against her tight rampart. Pushing her hips lower trying to get me profoundly, I flicked and curled my fingerbreadth, while grinding my ribbon against her. Looking into her half lidded eye flutter in heat, I saw speckle of gold brighter than ever. Moaning between breath, Eva gasps, at first barely audible but quickly turning in to a crescendo of war cry, `` OH baby ... .PLEASE ... ..BABY ... .YES ... .FUCK ME BABY ! '' a victorious smile covers my cheek, I love be called pet public figure ! Mewling incoherently, I knew I had her again ! heart now tightly shut, chest heaving, back arched she dug her fountainhead into the pillows. Gasping for air she screams for me and drops to the bed in a flood of sense impression. I love feeling her squeezing and pulsating around my fingers. Once she completely relaxes, I slowly slew my fingers out of her warm, wet pusssy. Eva responds with a slight whimper of dissapointment. Falling victim to her juices and aroma once again, I lick and suck my fingerbreadth hungrily.

Both of our bodies had a sheen of sweat from our ferel sex academic term and I gently kiss and lick her salty skin in the valley of her breasts before falling next to her in atonement. Withdrawing from our earlier game of dom/sub, Eva turns and lays her head on my pectus.



Sun shining past the sharpness of the mantle, afraid to move and take myself from what could only have been a wonderful dream. Eva 's head remains resting on me. I then realized that it 's not a dream and she was awake when I felt her eyelash lightly brush my skin. Giving her the opportunity to profess that she was still gone, I whisper my daunting doubtfulness of why she pulled away from my initial candy kiss. Eva immediately looked up into my eyes and replied, '' I did n't need the evening to end but I was afraid .... '' I furrow my supercilium in confusion. A fearful look crosses her facial expression as she contimplates finishing her mentation. I reassure her when I caress her her impertinence with my quarter round and gently sweep her hair beind her ear. She continues, `` I always wanted you for more than a friend but did n't want to `` just '' have sex with you ! I could n't agree back any longer when I heard you moan when we were on the phone ''.

I start to blab although she cuts me off and her Good Book escape quickly but in an aprehensive pure tone, `` ... because ... .I ... I'm in passion with you ! '' Her eyes dart away from mine as she lowers her mind. I slide down into the bed until we are facing each other and wait for her to return my regard.

'' Eva, I wanted you in my life, even if it was just as a friend but I hope you know, I ca n't go back to being just booster now ... I want and need you. '' My fondness skips when I see her beautiful grin. I equally confess. `` You were my first love and now I know only dependable lovemaking ! ``

I am then rewarded when she gently crawls on top of me. The kisses we share are unlike ... gentler, full of love and passion instead of the wild lustfulness from the late nighttime. Her lip are the most lucious thing I could ever imagine, our lingua are tangled in a beautiful dance. The desire is stirring in both of us now as she slowly begins to grind her vagina into mine. I ca n't serve but nip at her full cushy lips. The heat shared between us has a new case of spark. My allow hand pulls at the seam below her perfectly shape ass to attend to in the pressure between our eubstance. She gently runs her finger's breadth backsheesh along my tegument as she raises my right arm above my head although this fourth dimension she slides her fingers between mine and we lace our bridge player together as we continue to make have a go at it to each other. A ho-hum but howling moment builds. I bend my right knee and slide my foot up until it is flavourless on the bed. I arch my back and hip and dweeb into her harder as she gracefully runs her blunt finger nails from my ass along the back of my thigh. This sends a skim sensation across my skin and I moan into her hot mouth and I feel her smile into our buss. She grips behind my dented articulatio genus and we continue to move in unison. I see speckle of gold in her hazelnut eyes but somehow the people of colour is even Thomas More acute and burns brighter than the previous night. We actually hold on kissing because we are both gasping for air, warm up breathes washing over each other 's faces, foreheads touching, heart locked. I know Eva can look right into my somebody and we are then both moaning together as we crash through the exticy of passion ! We both reach our world-class culmination of the day quickly and simultaneously. Her glorious dead body falls on to mine

I am mesmerized because I realize that I just experianced something completly new to me. This is the first clip my middle remain locked during any passionate moment. I never realized that in the by I would hang my oculus or conclude my oculus all together just to fend off too long of a regard.

Both being excited about our revealed love for each early but regaining semi normal breath. Eva looks deeply into my centre with her beautiful lambency and asks, `` Would you be my baby if I was your girl ? '' I respond by gently rolling her over until I have her directly under me. I can only reply, `` I would eff cypher more ... .. '' I resume kissing the full length of her consistency with quick, wet kisses as I whisper against her flawless skin, `` but right now I need to make up for personnel casualty time ... .. ''