*So I 'm numb, Yeah that sucks* My first words as a utter person and they 're what I choose, What kind of game cretin am I, I should of said something much better like afters i 'm dead clock time to ingest some fun

Yes I did just kind of accept the fact that I no longer had a aliveness, There was one little niggle that did chafe me then and to this very day ( even though it 's only been a few of them ) still does, The Sami question I keep asking myself over and over again *Why have n't I moved on*, Yeah so that is still something I would like to know but we will exit it for now

I guess you are probably wondering what I did for the next few daytime that would bring us to this portray day, Well I know you will forebode me crazy but I did the solely thing that seemed natural to do at the clip I chose to carry on with my formula life, That of course included going to school, Yes I know it seems pointless for a dead person to attend school but do n't judge me, I spent a lot of meter with Alice even though she had no clue I was there with her, I would walk her domicile then hang around her apartment till she went to bed just so I could hold an eye on her even though I do n't get laid what I could of done if anything had of happened to her, After that I usually went home and walked around the house I lived in with my mother and half sis, Always seemed so tranquil when I would walk in the firm, Probably because my mother and half sister were usually just sat in the living room comforting each other or they were in bed asleep, Well that was pretty a good deal all I did for the past few days which brings us back to the present day.

As I said at the very beggining I will once again say now, Morning I assume, My figure is Alex and this is where the level is about to get a little more interesting. This sunrise, wellspring I as per rule just assume it 's morning began the Lapp as the past few days since I have been idle, I was wondering around the family when I noticed my half sister walking out of her bedroom all dressed for school which meant that it was atleast eight am if not later, Of row I did what I always did at that moment, I ran. You see each first light I would hold back till my sister awoke and was ready for schooling before I would get out the house and would run towards Alice 's apartment, I always walked with her to schoolhouse and nothing would stop me doing it on this day. Five minutes later, Could be longer I do n't be intimate, Time 's meaningless to me as you already know, Anyway 's however long it took me I arrived on time as per rule, I walked into the apartment building and straight up to Alice 's apartment, I would bump but it 's a dissipation of clip, So much easier when I just walk through the door so that 's what I did, Of course I found Alice in the same place I had left her the night before, Bed. I know my next time will sound really creepy-crawly but I just love watching Alice sleep she is just so cute, The way she sucks her pollex, Forget I said that I am pretty indisputable she would pop me if anyone ever found that out even though it would be impossible for her to do it, well I stood there for I do n't love how foresightful before I heard the usual shouting coming from the living way, It of line been her mum shouting for her to get out of bed, That was when I left her sleeping accommodation just incase her sleepwear was a slight inappropriate, I do the same thing every morning to be honest, I walked through her door and went to sit on the living way couch until Alice walked out of her bedchamber in her school uniform and quickly rushed into the can, She does it pretty a good deal every morning, I waited for her to occur out and then I got up and walked to the front threshold only to have her follow me a few minutes later, I began walking with her towards school when she veered away and headed towards the ballpark, Of course of instruction I had to follow her, Ca n't bear her getting in any trouble now can I. Well we walked for..You know what I will try to leave out out the altogether time portion as we all know by now that I have no clue about times or days, fountainhead we walked for a while until we came to the cemetery, Now do n't get me unseasonable I have nothing against them it 's just they give me the creeps, well she walked in and I followed her and I stopped when she chose to only I did n't kneel down when I saw the grave she had stopped at, You know in the short matter of sentence I have been utter it never once occured to me that I might actually have a tomb, I might actually be buried somewhere.

Okay I will be the first base to intromit that seeing my gravestone, The place my body is buried for the first time is kind of Wyrd, It 's like been absolutely does n't really sink in until you realise you are truly gone, wellspring anyway back to Alice been here, So yeah she was kneeling infront of my grave and I was just sort of stood behind her not really knowing what to do, Within those few moments I was sort of paralytic with shock I guess you could predict it I think I might of missed Alice oral presentation, Did catch a few words though

*I fille you* She said to my gravestone although with me been here with her it 's sort of like she is speaking to me which feel 's sort of nice

well I assume with all said and done she will get up and walk to school but she does n't seem to be doing so, Maybe if I could somehow pick her up I could dribble her to schooling, Make sure enough she is n't late..Nope I ca n't plunk her up, Yes before you ask I did just try and it is quite obvious the result, Wait what 's that noise.

*Alex why did you have to die* She asked my gravestone, Her spokesperson does n't sound right though, It sound 's as if she is stuttering the words out, Let 's see why..Yep she 's crying that aint honest, I ca n't wield it when she cry 's it just makes me want to do the Saami

*Do n't cry Alice* Yes I did just secern her not to cry, I know it 's pointless but I seriously do n't wish it when she does

*Wh..Who said that* She asked, I mean she literally just asked me who had just talked to her, She can discover me

*Alice you can get a line me* Yes I know it 's a stunned affair to say but what else can I ask

*Who are you* She asked, I 'm a little distress by that because you think she would know her best friends interpreter

*Who do you think it is* I know it sounds a piddling mean but I ca n't aid it, I mean it 's a niggling upsetting when the only person you care about other than home of class does n't recognise your spokesperson

*A..Al..Alex* She stuttered out, I actually ca n't believe she it, She can listen me and she know 's who is talking, Guess I am two for two

*Who you expecting, St. Nick clause* Yeah I know another foreign choice of watchword, I know I probably do n't have long to talk to her but it 's always fun to mess with her

*Shut up you idiot* She said a petty angrily, Now you think she would be happy to blab out to me but she does n't appear it

*If that 's what you want I will* I wo n't really but like I said, Always fun to mess up with her

*No ! * She pretty much just screamed at me

*Okay I wo n't close up then* I know I could of pick out some better Book 's but meh who cares

*Good, Look Alex this is softheaded weird that I can hear you and I do n't experience if I am just imagining the whole thing or if this is just a crazy dream and any moment I will waken up in my bed and realise that none of this ever happened but I just want to let you eff that I miss you been here* She said to me, I can see the tears streaming down her cheeks, If only I could wipe them away

*I misfire you too, It 's sort of lonely on this side of lifespan, I mean I have nonentity which to be honest is n't lots of a deviation but atleast when I had a lifespan I had you* I know it sounds like some kind of joke but it 's genuine
well she does n't seem to be saying very much, Guess I said something ill-timed, Would n't storm me thats for sure, waiting she has this Wyrd look on her human face, I think i 'm in worry

*Alex I want to aplogise, It 's all my flaw you 're gone, If I had n't had you walk me home you would still be here today* She said, For the first time I actually do n't know how to experience, I mean seriously how can she blame herself

*Alice I do n't swallow your apologia as you have nothing to rationalize for, It was an honour for me to walk you home that day, Every moment I got to spend with you was a consequence I chose to treasure* okeh a niggling soppy but I seriously do mean every word, I loved every moment I had with her

*Al..Alex..* She stammered out before running off, I do n't know why she just did what she did but yes I am going to follow her, Till the end of the world if I so must.

Okay I do n't seriously jazz how long it 's been but I lost her, I managed to piss it to the graveyard gate but then she just dissapeared, I 've checked everywhere I can consider she would be but well as you can guess I did n't find her, I checked the school, library, Her place, The Mungo Park and even came back to the necropolis but she was n't here, How the heck am I going to incur her now .