Something A Little Different ( Revised Floor List And Report. )


Fisting, Gay
This is the kickoff story of a much farsighted story arc, which is best read in the orderliness of the List at the end.

displacement of German language words or phrases at the end. However, I have tried to piss the meaning fairly sack up in context.


It's almost 2 years after the Battle of the Golden gate span. In increase to being an X-Man, Kurt has recently begun commandment family at the School.



PROLOGUE : MORNING DEVOTIONS
Mein Gott, is the sun coming up already ? ! Yes, it must be. The windows are getting lighter. Pfui ! It would be so nice to stay here in bed, with the passion of Logan's body secretive against my cover. Why did I tell Storm I would learn the German language course of instruction so early in the morning ? I should have remembered how much I hate getting up early, especially after Logan and I spend most of the night enjoying each other in so many different ways.

Oh well, it is almost time for the alarm clock to go off anyway and that would surely accept awakened Logan, who does not demand to get up for many time of day yet to teach his Danger Room class.

Regretfully, I extricate myself from his arms. I would much rather stay right here to wake up him up in a very different manner.

As I struggle out of bed, I wonder, as always, if Logan is just pretending to be asleep. After all this prison term, he knows how grouchy I am in the mornings. adept to avoid me entirely. I must confess to envying him lately, still snug in bed as I get up, shivering in the too soon morning shivering as the air hits my bare skin. Maybe it would be easily if I wore pajamas ? Nein, I know what would find if I did. I can not afford to buy a new pair every night just because he likes to undress me with his claws.

I quietly pull the bathroom room access closed behind me, heading for the rain shower. After I turn on the water to let it warm up, I go to the toilet. As I stand emptying my vesica, I look out the pocket-size window and see the snow-covered Tree on a section of the estate. Being on the third floor of the building, I can see for quite a distance. It would be a lovely view if my eyes were not so blurry. Oh well, a hot cascade will fix that and pull up stakes me more alert.

Has it really been a little less than two long time that I have been living here ? It seems like forever. I can not think that I feel so at home.

I shake my head in wonderment as I shake off the lowest drops of pee, then step into the shower, which has finally gotten around to producing hot water.

Gratefully, I step into the lovingness of the shower and let the body of water rushing over my back while washing my hair's-breadth. I start soaping my chest and the front of my body, then turn around. The sudden impact of water hitting my member makes me puff, as the intimate jerking of desire tenses my muscles and creates that howling smell deeply inside me. I play back the memory of the night that is now ending, feeling again Logan's fingers, his mouth, working on me, opening me with his cock, filling me with pleasure and cum. The ache grows within me. Forget the verdammt category. Let me just go back to Logan. We could -

No, Kurt. Stop it. break off it right now. violent storm will wring you out and bent you up to dry if you fail to come along for your class. nigh especially so since the students will all birth a pretty good idea of why I am not there and what I am doing. Sometimes there are disadvantages to being honest and open about one's sexuality.

Reluctantly, I turn off the shower, wrapping a towel around my waist to deter my stiffening prick's obvious intentions.
I get clip quickly and quietly in the dim bedroom. Suits and standoff have never caught on here, except for professor Xavier himself, thank good ! I do not even have to get into place if I do not want to - and I do not.

Just before I leave the room, I go over to the bed to check on Mount Logan. As long as I am lying beside him with one of his arms draped over me, he tends to lie still. However, when I am not there, he tosses around so much that he either gets tangled in the covering fire or loses them entirely. And let us not even discuss what he does to the covers when he has one of his shop at nightmares !

This morning, he is mostly bare except for part of the cover that is draped artistically over his leg as he sprawls out on his back. The mantle affords him no modesty, as it stops dead just below his genitals, as if it wants to trace attention to them, rather than hide them. Fondly shaking my principal and swallowing my lust at this vulnerable exhibit, I bend forward to grasp the blanket and rend it up over him, only to retrieve myself grabbed by two strong coat of arms and jerked forward onto his chest.

"Gotcha !"he exclaims triumphantly, his mouth covering mine before I can even mean up a retort.

Our knife are soon exploring each others'sassing, as my barely subdued desire asserts itself once again. I have just started to wrap myself around him in earnest using every appendage I have, when I feel a sharp savour against my backside. Mount Logan breaks away from our kiss, a truly evil grin on his face.

"Naughty, naughty, darlin ’. Get going now or you'll be late for class."

"Zum Teufel, Logan !"I curse as I leap off of him as fast as I can, while he laughs heartily."What did you do that for ? !"

"To get a rise out of you."

"Vell, you have certainly done that."I snort with disdain, glancing meaningfully down at the very visible bulge in the front of my jeans."Vhat am I supposed to do about this ?"

"Save if for later, Elf. I guarantee we'll find a use for it then."

He laughs again as he picks up the warning signal clock, pointing a finger at it and ostentatiously showing me the time."better get going, Herr Lehrer, if you expect to make it to social class before your scholarly person do."

Damn the man ! He knows full well how I feel about morning, and still he harasses me like this. Then I shake my head. It truly is quite laughable, the way he is lying there staring naked, an alarm clock in his helping hand and a empty-headed grin on his face that is highly uncharacteristic of him. I start laughing myself, unable to asseverate my anger.

"Later,"I agree, matching his silly grin with my own taste of tooth."And I plan to hold you to that promise."

As I turn to the threshold, I hear him say,"I'm countin'on it, darlin ’. I'm countin'on it."


SOMETHING A LITTLE DIFFERENT


Often I awake in the heart of the dark to the smell of Logan's hands on my body. It is a delightful sensation, really. Still half benumbed and happily drowsy, that intimate thrill runs yet again throughout my being, rapidly focusing inside me, just beneath the base of my stiffening sex.

The warmheartedness of his body fitted snugly against my back fills me with a good sense of security and rubber. Somehow, he always ends up sleeping between me and the door, no matter where we are. I know full well that he does it to protect me from any danger that may enter the room, and it pleases me that he will place his indestructible torso in impairment's way for my rice beer. But we both know without it ever being said that he himself is my groovy risk at night, with the blades that spring out and knife as effortlessly and automatically at the imaginary rage and fear of his frequent nightmares as in the presence of real danger.

Tonight however he is not moaning and thrashing in the traction of his dreams. Tonight his helping hand caper lightly over my breast, tracing the scarred designs I have carved into my flesh, his face nuzzling against the back of my neck, his spit tasting my cutis, and his nose doubtless noting the beginnings of my arousal.

Quickly, before I can get caught up in the toothsome sensations, I say a supplicant of thanks to God for having the man that I love more than anything else in this man here beside me. So what if we have been having a few dissonance lately over the alone missions Mount Logan goes off to do, the I he will not talk about even after he is home ? Even if I have some estimate of what is happening and I dread the day that muteness is broken ? Give me the strength to dispense with this, O God Almighty, as I have dealt with so many things before.

With that petition, I dismiss the worries that have been feasting on me lately, especially when Logan is away on one of those dreaded missions. Somehow, it will work out. I will focus instead on his evident desire for me, here, now.

From hanker experience, I know what he will do next, his hands drifting inexorably down until he reaches my swelling hammer, while his hips move, rubbing his own hard-on against the small of my spine, just above the infrastructure of my bottom. It feels so honorable, but I force myself to remain still, pretending to be asleep.

His fingers graze the scarred design on the light beam of my penis, but that is not his end. He moves on, past my tightening sac, until I feel a finger's breadth sliding between my tail end and rubbing lightly around my anus. The fingerbreadth deserts me briefly, then returns sang-froid and wet and slippery to restart its assigned task. My tail, which has long ago angled itself sharply downwards to occupy the specialize slot of blank along the mattress between our dead body, get-up-and-go down even harder against the sheet in an effort to get out of the way. The tip twitches slightly as the circling finger enters me.

So far, neither of us has said a Scripture. If I continue to feign sleep, there will soon be another finger joining the first. Ja, he does that now. I can not help but smile. He will not expend too much time on this. Soon will total his cock to replace the fingers. And I am easily set for it, ready and eager to sense him inside me.

Logan surely knows I am awake by now, but I play the usual game, pretending until it is unacceptable to guess any longer. It is not really necessary for him to do this much stretching before he enters me. After all, we have been having sex for almost two years and I can easily subscribe to him without the preliminary fingers if I am aroused. In fact, I can and have taken him without lube and from a frigidness start, simply because my body has been trained to relax quickly when necessary. It is not like he has the biggest cock in the humanity, you know, although some citizenry seem convinced that he does.

Contrary to democratic stereotype, all mutant males are not hung like horses, and neither Logan nor I are exceptions to that rule. While my phallus is about average in length when it is raise, it is rather slender. Logan has a slender vantage over me in duration, and he is wider in cinch, but neither of us can hold a candle to the typical pornography star.

Be that as it may, he will still put in those fingers, insisting he only does it to ignite me up. It feels good, so I do not try to break him of the wont. Surely now he is finished with this and his dick will --


Nein, another finger. Not the common procedure. Still, not a problem. My anal sphincter is almost as flexible as the rest of my torso and I learned long ago how to ensure it fairly well.

Logan's finger's breadth are far from being dainty and small, so by the meter he starts probing with his one-fourth finger, I can feel it as a bit of a stretch. I could cause taken his cock easily to begin with, and he knew it. What on ground is he thinking ?

No more biz."Logan, was machst du ?"I ask, becoming impatient.

"Don't concern about what I'm doing, Elf. Everything's OK,"comes the amused-sounding response.

All right, so what comes next ?

He slowly spreads his fingers apart. It hurts, but only a little. However, something else about this touch is beginning to bother me. It reminds me of - of what ?

Logan must have smelled something modification in my scent. His digit become still."Ya OK, Kurt ?"

"Ja. amercement. But vhat are you doing ?"

"Ya acknowledge what handballing is ?"

I wake up very fast at that. With four fingerbreadth up my ass already, he is clearly not referring to the variation."Fist-fucking, nicht wahr ?"

"Yeah, you got it."

The image of being impaled on Logan's large hand and well-muscled forearm photoflash before my eyes. A knife thrust of fear strike unexpectedly through my marrow and terror flood my nous. Every muscle in my consistency jerk to attending."You are planning to do that to me ? !"

"Right again, Elf."

But he sounds a niggling incertain now. He has to have smelled my sudden fear and noticed the way my physical structure has clamped down around his fingerbreadth so hard that it hurts me, not to refer him. He had surely not expected that sort of reaction. Neither had I.

"What's wrong ? It's not like I'm asking you to let me tie you up and torturing you."

And he is compensate. It is not anything truly painful. So why am I so tense ? This is Mount Logan, the man I love. The man to whom I give my body on a regular ground, and not always only for gentle and caring sex. He can be moderately fell, if he is in one of his moods.

"I know. It is just that -"My part dies out. I do not even know the rest of what I have started to say.

"Elf, if ya keep this up, my digit will be going numb existent soon. You can reduce your sphincters harder than anyone I've ever known. Which is usually a serious thing."

I could picture the slightly pained look that he would have on his nerve about now, and the image almost makes me laugh. Determined to stop acting like a terrified Virgo the Virgin, I take a couple of ho-hum, deep breathing space, letting myself relax again.

Logan gives a free sigh as he slides his fingerbreadth out. He could have jerked them release Sooner, but that would have hurt me sorry than it would him, and he knew it.

"I am sorry, mein Schatz. You - took me by surprise, that is all. I over-reacted."I shrug my articulatio humeri as if to make little of it, then turn over around to face him. enough of this nonsense, Kurt, you dummkopf ! True, you have never been fisted, but you have had more than decent sexual experience to be capable to wield such a thing without undue business concern. What are you thinking, to allow yourself to panic so easily ? There should be no question in your judgement that you can do it. But do you require to ? That remains to be decided.

I snuggle up against my darling's side, resting my header on his extensive and very hairy chest.

"You have done it before ?"I ask, suddenly becoming Mr. Practical.

"Yeah. several times."

OK, then at least he knows what he is doing.

"Don't trouble, Elf. I'm not gon na coerce you if you don't want me to. tell me to stop, right now or anytime later on, and I will. I swear it."

Since we have been together, Logan has done many things that have left me contuse and sometimes phlebotomise, but never against my will. There was always a stage where he had asked my permission, even if only in a brief encounter of our center, so I know he means what he says about it being up to me.

But there is a strange intensity in his spokesperson that I have not heard very often.

"This is of import to you, ja ?"

"Very important."

"Vhy ?"

"It's a way for us to get closer. For you to experience something very special."

That was nothing like what I had expected him to say. Logan is not the one usually concerned with getting us finisher, except perhaps physically.

"What is it I am supposed to feel ?"

"If I told you now, you wouldn't understand. Ask me again afterwards."Belatedly, he continues,"If you decide to do it."

Now I am intrigued. Not only fascinate, but rum and interested. Just the mentation is enough to return my drooping dick a new rental on sprightliness. It is more than make to get hard again, if my judgement gives it the go-ahead. In fact, I realize that it is not even waiting for that sign.

The look of focused attention on Logan's case is adequate to make me decide. He has some reason for wanting this. Maybe he thinks it will fix the mistaking that we have been having lately.

"Do it,"I declare firmly, before I can exchange my mind.

He sits up, looking down at me through the shadow and shadows that fill our elbow room. A narrow spear of moonlight peep around one corner of the window, lighting the edge of the bed.

I half-duck my head and glance up at him from under my eyebrows, smiling slightly. He never can resist me when I do that.

"Ya sure ?"

I nod, but that is not enough to convert him. Maybe he can balk me after all, if he feels something is really serious.

"Look at me, Elf. I want to see your eyes. I want to know you mean it."

I do as he asks. I know my eyes have started to glow. They always do that when I become aroused or exceptionally caught up in emotion. Very often it happens even while I am praying. I know, because I can finger it as it begins, like a pleasant warmness behind my eyeballs.

"I am for sure. I vant it."My vocalism now carries the like judgment of conviction that my eyes do. I do need it. Badly. But I am not certain exactly why.

The unattackable digit that had so recently retreated from my ass now begin massaging my neck opening and shoulders.

"You're still frightfully tense, darlin ’. Lie on your stomach and I'll rub your back."

As you can imagine, I do not hesitate to comply. Never refuse the pass of a backrub, especially if Logan is the one doing it.

By the fourth dimension he gets down to my tail, I have practically dissolved into the mainsheet on our bed.

His hand finally reaches between my legs to my hammer, his finger running again over the scars on the dick as they had before. I can usually count on him doing that, as if they fascinate him somehow.

"You keep promising to tell me what sin this represents,"Logan whispers softly against my ear.

I put him off with my common solution."I vill tell you - but not now. Some day."He would just have to be content with that. When the time is right, I will tell him. It just never seems to be right.

He slides my foreskin back as far as it will go, touching the tip of a finger to the exposed glans. I gasp.

"I'm surprised you haven't sliced up this office of it too,"he goes on, sounding one-half amused but also half serious.

"That even I could not do,"I tell him, dead serious.

He turns away from me and I hear him opening the draftsman in his nightstand, fumbling around with something."OK, I'm gon na put on boxing glove to do this, so don't be surprised."

I glance over my articulatio humeri, then have to strangle a laugh when I catch sight of Logan's hand in undimmed atomic number 10 green nitril baseball glove, as he holds them out in the moonlight to point the tawdry color."Vhere did you get those ?"

"Where do you call up ? The infirmary. Can't say I like their alternative of coloration, though. clank with your skin."

I did gag at that."Vhy baseball mitt ? I can not take hold of anything from you anyvay, vith your healing power, and you certainly can not enamour anything from me for the Same reason."

"Yeah. Makes it nice, don't it ? We never have to inconvenience with rubbers."He grinned."But my hired hand ain't exactly soft and suave, Elf, and even filed down, fingernails can do damage to a man's interior. You don't heal like I do, so --"He holds up both bright K hands like a surgeon about to go into surgical operation"— safety precautions."

This time, I feel no impulse to jape, which is probably for the best.

"Now lie down and unwind, darlin ’. You wan na be on your rear or facedown ?"

"Uh - vhat vould you suggest ?"

"I'd suggest a sling, but we don't have one. Failing that, on your spine with your legs panoptic apart. Oh, and the tail off to your left, so it's out of my way. If ya wallop me with it at the wrong time, I won't be responsible for the consequences."

I giggle and duck my head a little. ( Ja, I do giggle, especially if I am nervous. )

Logan smacks me firmly on the outside of one thigh."I mean it, Kurt. Fisting ain't just fun and games. It can be dangerous. Particularly with me."

I comply, no longer even smiling. I know very well what he means.

He surveys the resultant of my assuming the position, commenting only"Damn ! For you, wide apart is really wide. Good."

"Now listen to me,"he goes on sternly, staring into my glowing eyes."If you want me to stop, really arrest rightfield then and there and freeze in place, just say, ‘ matt !'”

"Um - MAH-tay ? Vhy that instead of just stop ?"

"Because it's different. Stop can be used by accident, or if you don't really intend it, or for other reasons. matt is the Japanese bid to stop that's used in the style of warriorlike arts I was trained in. It's a discussion I'll react to, no topic what. Got that ?"

"lustrelessness. Ja, I have it."

"That's your safeword. Don't forget it."

Safeword. I have heard about that being used for S & M activity. But I have never had anyone actually give me one. I swallow nervously. He is not kidding about taking this seriously.

By now, I am staring at his green-gloved hand and having misgivings about all of this. His hook -

He sees the look on my brass."I know what you're afraid of. Trust me. It ain't gon na happen."

Trust him ? That is what it all comes down to in the end, nicht wahr ? And can I do that ? All too often, I have seen him lose control, seen the hurt those scalpel-sharp adamantium blades can do, seen the amount of money of blood dripping off of them when he was finished doing it.

I hear his voice in my psyche."I'm the best there is at what I do. But what I do best isn't very nice."With those few countersign, my lover has often stated the basic conflict that haunts his tortured soul, and our sometimes-tortured family relationship, and I am not sure he even realizes it.

But those hands - with the claw that could eviscerate me in a New York minute - can sometimes be so assuage and tender when we are making dear. I know he would die before he would seriously offend me. I also know I owe my life many times over to the skill and swiftness of his so-dangerous hands.

Ja, he could kill me if something went wrong. But death can hap at any fourth dimension. Is this any different, really ? No, it is not.

"Ich vertraue dir,"I tell him softly,"weil ich weiss, dass ich dir vertrauen kann."

"English language, Kurt. I know some German language, but I don't wan na have to guess. Not now."

"Sorry. I trust you, because I know that I can commit you."

This prison term, he is the one who ducks his head, so that I can not see the look on his side, or perhaps the tears in his eyes.

He comes closer, kneeling on the bed between my open up legs and looking down. I feel obscenely exposed to his gaze, the darkness of the room affording me no natural covering from his acute accent night vision. He cups my genitals in one hand, squeezing and releasing as he speaks.

"Fist-fucking is about the most versed thing one person can do to another. It can get to you in ways you never expected, so don't be surprised or alarmed if you feel strange at fourth dimension. That's normal."

Already I am squirming at his touch, my breathing place catching between my teeth, as I reply,"Me ? Normal ? Not in this lifetime."

He snorts and gives me a sarcastic smile, then sits back onto his knees. My shaft aches to feel his touch again.

"I know it's difficult for you, darlin ’, but try real number firmly to keep your mouth shut for a spell. All you've got ta do from here on out is get fucked."

His voice has changed, becoming depressed and jolting as it always does when he gets aroused. No more squeamish talk or pretty words, and he will tolerate no more fooling around. time to get down to business.

"I'm gon na make you end intellectualizing, Elf. Gon na make you feel it."

His voice is almost a growl now. Definitely not time for any More of my wisecracks.

He leans forward, looming over me. I close my eyes, as I usually do when he starts getting serious about screwing me.

I feel him rub a generous sum of money of lube on my possible action, then he pushes a declamatory glob into me, following it immediately with a brace of slick fingers.

I lean back and sigh, letting him loose me. By the clip his third and fourth fingers join the others, I can feel the reaching as almost pain. He spreads his fingerbreadth slightly. I make an incomprehensible noise oceanic abyss in my throat, something that sounds a lot like the pain responses so beloved of risible Good Book author. pretend what ? Sex sounds the same way.

"I love it when you make those noises for me, Elf. I know you're not practically for screaming and carrying on -"

My mind adds silently,"Because I have been trained to be quiet."I tell it to shut up. Be here, now, concentrate on this, damnit !

"— so the auditory sensation you do pretend are that much more important to me. Do it again. It only makes me harder."

His fingers spread wider, but now I have bother going with them."Nngh !"

"Open for me, darlin ’. yielding to me. I need to get inwardly you."

Just as I need you inside me. Come on, Kurt. You have taken more than this before. Go with it. Let it happen.

"impart it to me, Elf ! Your ass is mine and I want it !"

He has folded his quarter round to meet his script now. The pressure is irksome and careful, but relentless, as he continues to press into me. Each diminutive increment seems much larger than it could possibly be in reality. I can experience his metacarpophalangeal joint against my taut and straining asshole. I am about to be ripped overt. I will myself to relax, but that does no secure. If anything, I clamp down harder. I am not surely how much more of this I can take.

"Bitte, stop ! Just for a bit,"I am forced to gasp, not really dire enough to use the safeword.

"This is the worst part. It gets easier once I'm in."

"I know. give me prison term to adjust."

He does so, holding his manus in property but not forcing it further into me.

"You call the shots, love."His voice is tinged with dashing hopes and firmness."If you tell me to, I'll arrest entirely and pull out."

"I -- do not -- vant that."I am panting now, desperately trying to catch my breath.

For so long, this look of sex with a man has been so loose for me. I could consent into my body what few others could plow, even if there was little caring involved. How can I give out now, for the one I love ? I have to prove to him how much I care. I have to go through with this -- But I can not ! !

No, Kurt, you know better. You know you can. So what is stopping you ? It has been so many years since you last had to consciously center in order to afford your body like this. So very many old age since - since --


A storage echo down those years, like a vox I loved - and loathed.

It was my first time being penetrated by an grownup male. I was six years old and, despite all the readying I had had, I was suddenly very a lot afraid of the immense aim seeking accounting entry into my trunk.

I tried to pull away, but Herr Grüber, having watched us approvingly up until this point, held me down as his representative admonished me gently,"Kurt, Kurt, mein kleines Dämon-Kind, you know better. One may never refuse a paying customer. And this man has paid a very generous price to be your first."

"Nein, nein ! Ich kann das nicht tun ! Bitte, Herr Grüber,"I begged frantically,"Make him stop !"

"You can take him, boy, but you've got to want to do it. retrieve what I taught you,"the voice went on, relentless and insistent.

"Bitte ! Bitte ! Nein !"

"Hush now. Stop fight and relax. take heed to me. You are a cloud, floating through the sky. Feel the sun warming you, expanding you. You are soft, insubstantial, immaterial. You flow from shape to influence as the idle words play around your edges. You can fence in and imbibe anything that penetrates you. It's loose, floating along far above the earth, far above yourself. Picture it, small fry. Feel it."

My torso responds automatically to those words, as it has been carefully taught to do. It works now, just as it had worked then, and so many other times during my childhood. I feel the melting, malleable genius begin to menstruate out from my shopping center. I am a cloud, floating effortlessly along -



"Logan,"I whisper as the tone reaches my groin,"Now. Oh please, now !"

He pushes gently, then harder as he meets my lessening underground, twisting his hand just a little. Harder --

-- and he is in, my relieved sphincter now only encircling his wrist.

At first-class honours degree, he holds very still, as I gasp in a unknown compounding of easement and cristal.

"I'm not going in any deeper, Elf. Maybe when you've had more experience, but not now."

I almost do not get a line him, so caught up am I in the intensity of the instant. His hand is in me. He is inside my body in a way I could never imagine, as if I had never been truly make love before in my life story. The sentiency is so mystifying inside me. Something has been opened in me that has never been opened before.

"Elf, you hear me ?"

"Ja."I have to concentrate and impel myself to answer."I vant more. Deeper !"

"No."Implacable. Discussion ended. My heart sinks a petty."Listen to me. I'm gon na move my fingers a piffling. Tell me if it hurts."

His finger's breadth curl slowly. I can visualize them coming together to form a fist."It palpate too vonderful to hurt."

"That's all I wanted to know."He twists his script just so, and fireworks explode in my gut. So hard do I swallow what should get come out as a scream that it is barely a hamper sob. I feel as if I'm choking on the tortured sounds that power themselves out of my mouth. But this is not even orgasm. Not yet. It is just a legal brief spasm of pleasure that consumes me for a import and is gone, leaving me wishing for more.

"Figured you'd like that, darlin ’. Now clear your eyes."

I do it, thinking he just wants to see how often they are glowing. But that is not it at all.

"spirit down here."

Again, I do as he says. Even knowing what I will see, I am nevertheless astonished. My eyes widen and my mouth falls capable. Seeing the looking at on my face, Logan half-closes his centre and smiles slightly.

"It's not every day you can see a man's arm buried in your ass, is it ? Especially one as great and muscular as mine."

The best I can make out is a nod. I know it, I can feel it, but I do not quite conceive it."Lieber Gott im Himmel !"I gasp."dear God in paradise !"

"Yeah, I suppose one might say that."

His mitt moves again with an in and out, twisting motility. I throw back my chief and sucking in a breather, automatically closing my eyes.

"Ya like that, huh ?"

"Aahh ! Ohh ! Ja ! !"

His voice is all I have to focus on now, as my exhilaration riding horse. He repeats that lowly screwing question rhythmically, over and over, until the brawn in my groin are contracting and relaxing in time with his hand. His quarter round has found my prostate and is running back and forth against it as his hand moves. My insides convulse around that exquisite pressure. My tail is stiff and quivering violently. I am whimpering now, so confining to expel that I can not even constitute words.

I hear Mount Logan speak, in that ragged, gasping way that means he is close down to orgasm also."Come for me, Elf. come for me !"

I am thrusting my rosehip rapidly, in time with that peaking round. There is naught in my world but wizard, only his hand and my trembling viscera and straining penis. The yearning is almost unendurable, my mind blank to any other feeling but the need to fall over this torturous edge. Oh, please ! Almost there. Almost -

His tongue runs up the underside of my cock."Ja ! O ja ! !"The rest of what I have to say comes out as a crown of thorns between a moan and a belly laugh, as I come for him, my muscles clenching convulsively around that hard fist invading my ass as I ejaculate.

Mount Logan is much louder when he comes. As I begin to relax, my noetic nous asserts itself once again. I open my centre and look at him, his body leaning forward over me and his free hand wrapped around his spurting cock, as his cum joins mine on my abdomen and chest of drawers.

I watch my devotee's case as he too recovers. His hand is static inside me now. He opens his middle and meet mine, then gives me that shit-eating grinning that is never seen except at times such as this. We are both pulling ourselves back together after the intensity of the experience, breathing voiceless and covered with sweat.

"So how do ya experience ?"he asks at last.

Good enquiry. How do I feel ? Can I even begin to describe the indescribable ?

"I vish you could reach so far into me that you could support my heart in your hand."

The shit-eating smile got even more smug."Ya see why I couldn't explain it before we'd done it ? It wouldn't mean anything unless you've felt it yourself."

"Vhy, Mount Logan ?"

"Vhy vhat ? I mean, why what ?"

I ignore that firstly component. He often teases me about my accent by imitating it."Vhy did you vant to do that to me ?"

He looks up at the cap, a svelte frown narrowing his dark middle. It takes a while before he can say anything, and the offset is not too promising."Uh - Kurt ?"

"I have not gone anyvhere."

"What we're doing - some hoi polloi say it's a adjoin and meshing of souls."

Mein Gott ! He wanted something that intense between us ? He could have just told me. No, he could not, not him. Not in password, but only in the way he is accustomed to saying such affair : through sex.

At a loss for a reply, I stare at him dumbfounded. When he meets my gaze, I know he can see far more in the fierce incandescence of my eyes than I would ever be able to put into Holy Scripture. Perhaps that is how it should be between us. Words, after all, are limited. Love is not.

"I did not intend you even believed in a soul,"I say softly.

"Probably not the same way you do, Elf. But we've all got something inside us that seems to be the basic reality of the ego. That's what I mean by the word."He smiles somewhat crookedly."Can I get away with using it like that ?"

I nod.

"Good. But enough talking. I'm not done with you yet, darlin ’. Not by a retentive shooting. Lie back, close your centre, and stop thinking. Oh, and catch the prat, will ya ? I've already had to swat it out of the way several times."

"I vill try. But I do not know if I --"

"Shh, Elf. Don't talk. Just feel."

He opens his hired hand and I feel his fingers tickling me deep inside."Ahhh !"

"That's better, darlin ’."

After that, I lose rail of everything. How recollective I laid there impaled on his arm, I do not know. It is all one long flow of unbelievable sensations. All he has to do is be active a petite bit, in or out, up or down, and it strikes new sparks inside me.

It is like a constantly pulsing spasm, but it does not end. Like an orgasm in slow motion, waxing and waning, but always there. Several time it gathers and peaks as I fall yet again into the legal brief ecstasy that is all we can bed of heaven while we are here on earth.

Once I hear the voice of Herr Grüber speak to me out of the retiring. I struggle against it, telling him to be quiet, go away, leave me in peacefulness. But it does not work. He will not be silenced, and I must hear him secern me what a good boy I am, how a lot I have pleased him, that I am his treasured devil-child, who will institute him very much wealth with my body. I want to keep my auricle to keep the vocalism out, but I can not. Instead, I focus on Logan, whose hand is moving untiringly, inflaming the luxuria inside me. Mount Logan, my friend, my comrade, and my lovemaking. The preceding means nothing. It is over. Yes, I know these storage will need to be dealt with, but not right now. I want to scream. Perhaps I do scream."Go avay ! Go back to hell, vhere you belong ! !"

And he goes, Gott sei Dank ! I return to my reflexion of pleasure.

I can not recount where I begin and Logan ends. This incessant sensation becomes my reality and I float blissfully within it. I lose touch with home and time, and exist only in this comfortable and comforting darkness. It pulses around me and inside me, like my heartbeat. At prison term it seems to be the heartbeat of the entire cosmos.

Eventually I give up on words and just grant the belief to wash over me and plunge my senses.


Slowly, I become cognizant of Logan's voice, calling my name.

"Kurt ? Yo, Kurt ! Ya with me ?"

"Ummm. Ja ?"I manage to reply, resenting the disturbance.

"I'm gon na start to pull out now."

"Nein !"

"Ja, darlin ’. You've had enough for your for the first time sentence. I can state from how you feel inside. Don't worry, I'll do it real obtuse. It won't be anything like it was going in. You don't need to promote or anything. I'll do all the work."

But I do not want this to quit. I want him to be forever in me, as he is now. As I feel his hand slipping out by little growth, I do not want it to be over. Yet I know it is no use protesting. He will do as he thinks he must, and he is probably good. Nothing can stopping point forever. But, oh ! if only this one affair could !

And all this because a man has pushed his manus up my ass ? How could such a affair bring this much pleasure ? If it had not been Logan, would it still feel this way ? Yes, but no. The strong-arm hotshot might well be the same, but it is the combine and lovemaking between us that let me give myself to him so entirely, leaving me justify to bask it without veneration or reservation.

Sex can think everything and sex can mean nothing. It can mean your peachy love or it can mean just a way to own some fun. It can be acute forcible delight or something you feel you have to falsify. It can even mean pain and humiliation if you lean in that direction. It can be selfish or selfless. It can be a wearisome duty or an proclaim experience of holiness ; a financial transaction or the entirely affair that gives your life meaning. It can mean life or death.

And all that is only what I have seen and known in just my own lifetime. I am sure there are more meanings I have yet to discover, as well as some I may never find. All I know is that having his hand inside me is the most incredible matter I have ever felt. And I know how a good deal it means to me, on many different storey and in many different ways.

I feel the stretch as his script prepares to allow my body, but it is not nearly as sore as it was going in. Yet I do not want this to happen. My body responds to my emotions automatically, and my muscles clench around his handwriting, as if trying to keep it there.

"Elf, the poop ! barricade it right now ! Relax !"

I realize my tail is trying to lash from English to side in anger and consternation, but since I'm lying on my back and it is angled over on my left side, the closest it can issue forth is whipping back and Forth in front of me. Before I can even oppose, Logan jerks his correctly hand out of my ass, simultaneously grabbing my arse near the end with his leftfield hand, holding it away from him in an implacable grip.

By now, I have opened my middle and begun to squelch the emotions that had clouded my mind. I become aware of the sting in my nether realm, where he had pulled his deal loose despite my tighten up sphincters.

"That hurt,"I start to protest, but then I catch good deal of his right hand, held rigidly down by his side with the blade extended."Uh - never mind. I am fine."

He retracts the sword, wiping his hand across his cheek to get the stock out of his eyes. There is a very cruddy slash across his os frontale. The edge of my tail must have done that.

He shakes his top dog with the little sidelong jerk he uses when he is trying to dismiss some legal injury he has taken.

"tinker's damn ! I'm beginning to remember I'm the one who needs a safeword, not you."

"Tut mir so leid,"I apologize, glancing down."I do not recognize vhat came over me."

"I do, darlin ’. I told ya, fisting could take a man feel really unknown, recall ? No telling what a someone will do under those circumstances."

I know he is trying to build me feel better, and it does assist a little. I still feel pretty dumb though."You can let go of my arse now,"I mumble.

"Ya sure ?"

"I am sure."But my head is still bent in disgrace over what I have done to him. It could as easily have been his eyes.

In the moment of secretiveness that follows, I become very aware that his manus is no longer inside me. Where there had been fullness, I am now only void and bereft. A constituent of me seems to be missing. I feel a unknown compounding of complete satiation and fierce hunger, heartbreak and elation. I am confused. What did I find ? What do I find ? Ich weiss nicht.

"face at me, Kurt."

I force myself to obey that quiet dictation, staring him full moon in the aspect and smiling tentatively. The cut on his forehead is already closing.

"tinker's damn, but I love it when you look at me like that, with your eyes so full of golden light."

I have a sudden urge to fudge my oral sex again, but I push it resolutely aside. estimable thing I did, as he leans forward and osculate me. If I had ducked at the same time, I would probably throw broken his nose. I kiss him back, of course of study, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him down on top of me.

Eventually we break the kiss and decide a shower would be a practiced affair for both of us. By the time we are clean, dry, and again lying in bed together, the sick light of early break of the day appearance at the window, beginning to light up our room. I think about having to get up and teach a course of study, but then I recall that it is Sunday. No classes. No need to get up at all, if we do not want to. And right now, I definitely do not want to. I am not yet ready to present the everyday world outside of our bedroom. I search for the Word to say, to tell apart Mount Logan what this by night has meant to me, but before I can come in up with anything, he clears his throat and beats me to the punch.

"Uh - Kurt, beyond that stuff I said earlier about intertwining souls, there's another rationality I wanted to fist you."

I keep tranquillize, hoping to advance him to go on.

"Like I said, I know what it can feel like. I - I wanted to know if it would be the Sami for you."Uh-oh. He is looking at the roof, not at me. He is going to say something he is not well-off with."I hoped it would be."

Is he saying what I think he is saying ? I had assumed he only knew in the theoretic sensation of the countersign, not from his own experience of being the one on the buttocks. I can not help but try to find out."How vould you know how it feels ?"

"How do ya think ?"He is still staring resolutely at the ceiling.

"I find it hard to think you vould let somebody do that to you. After all, you are only very seldom villing to let me be the top in ordinary sex, much less in anything like this."I add quickly,"Which is usually hunky-dory by me, of course."

There is amusement in his part, and his eyes finally touch mine as he answers,"I have let them. various times."

OK, so I was wrongfulness. That happens sometimes."Really ?"

"Yeah, really."

Even now, Logan can still surprise me. I of all people should know that it is simply unsufferable to guess what a man, or a woman, will do in bed on the basis of how butch, or unmacho, they look or act in their habitue lives.


"I've only done that with a few very special someones, Elf,"he adds as I stare at him, once again too taken aback to come up with a quick or clever reply.

All right, he is in an unusually confiding mood just now. Do I dare to raise the stakes ? Worth a try."Vill you let me fist-fuck you ?"

For once, I have surprised him.

"Um - Well -- It wouldn't be quite the same for me as it was for you, you know, since it's not possible for you to harm me that way."He sounds as if he is temporizing, giving himself fourth dimension to conceive of what his answer should be.

"I realize that."

"You really want to do it ?"

"Ja."For him, the trust would mean something else. I could not anguish his body even if I wanted to, but I could very easily injure his substance with nothing more than than my words. He would have to hope that I would not look down on him for being made so vulnerable. It could signify a threat to his masculinity, that it might somehow switch him in my eye, if I were the one doing such a thing to him. He would give to be willing to foreswear control of the situation to someone else. Yes, he said he had done it before, but he did not say with whom. Whoever they were, they might well have been more"special"to him than I am. Or at to the lowest degree more of a person to whom he would feel comfortable relinquishing ascendance than I am. Say perhaps his soldierlike art Master, or some other much-revered man. Or woman ?

It will not crush me if he refuses, but it will not enjoy me either, so I wait anxiously for his reception. It is a retentive meter coming.

"Don't you think we've both had about enough for one night ?"

No, I am not letting him off the hook so easily."But some day ?"I persist.

"Yes, I will. I'll let you - but not now. Some day."

Again, his solvent surprises me. Perhaps it should not, considering that it is almost the same solvent I always give him, when he asks about the sin carved into my penis.

"But the vay you just did it to me : ve vill do this again also, ja ?"

"Sure thing, if that's what you want."No hesitation there."But not on an everyday basis. This is a limited affair between us."

"And especial things die vhen they become function, nicht wahr ?"

"Ya got it."

We are tranquil again, as the elbow room continues to collect in the Inner Light of the rising sun.

"Uh - Elf ? -- There's another particular thing between us that won't die."

"And vhat is that ?"

"being in your arms and in your eubstance is the closest I'll ever get to God. No matter what happens between us, darlin ’, never leave that."

Astonished, I squeeze my eye closed and try to swallow the tear of joy that threaten to overflow, knowing Mount Logan would not revalue my dissolving into a sodden hysterical fit of euphoria. I can believe of zilch else to do other than wrap myself around him in every way I can, and surreptitiously wipe my tears away on his broad and haired chest.






German rendering

Mein Gott My God

Pfui ! Phooey !

Verdammte damned

Zum Teufel ! To the Lucifer !

Herr Lehrer Literally : Mr. teacher

Was machst du ? -- What are you doing ?

mein Schatz -- my treasure ( my dearest, my darling )

Dummkopf -- Dummy, fool

nicht wahr ? -- isn't it ? ( Literally : not true ? )

Ich vertraue dir, weil ich weiss coney ich dir vertrauen kann. --
I trust you, because I know that I can trust you.

Nein, nein ! Ich kann das nicht tun ! Bitte, Herr Grüber ! --
No, no ! I can not do that ! Please, Mr. Grüber !

mein kleines Dämon-Kind -- my piddling demon-child

Bitte ! Bitte ! ! -- please ! Please ! !

Lieber Gott im Himmel ! -- honey God in nirvana !

Mein Gott ! -- My God !

Gott sei Dank ! -- God be thanked ! ( Thank God ! )

Tut mir so leid -- I'm so drab

Ich weiss nicht. -- I don't know.


STORY ARC - In Order

Something a Little Different
As the branchlet is Bent
Pray for Us sinner
With naught on My Tongue
You Win, Elf
Hell Hath No Fury
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