*If you are reading this then it must intend I have chosen to learn the easy way out of this wretched life, As you can guess by this note I have chosen suicide as the only option to a biography I never chose to live, I hope that the one who reads this note can fully interpret that I was never happy when i walked the earth, Was never happy ventilation, Was never happy living a life I did n't desire, I would rather die and ease up someone new a chance to live, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it other than the obvious fact I never wanted to live, wellspring it all began a short while ago when I met a sure girl who for all intensive purposes shall remain unknown for the time beign, She was hand on heart honest to god my perfect match, No soul live or beat could ever possibly match up to her in any prospect, Although to some people she was never considered the most beautiful to me every time I stole a single glance I saw an angel staring back, Every Logos she spoke managed to leave my heart beating a picayune debauched each and every time, Every clip we managed to have a conversation I will honestly admit that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never form a complete word, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made little to no sense, I guess i have gone a piffling off track but still I hope you understand one of the ground I chose expiry over the life I once lived, That lady friend who shall still remain nameless was one of the few reasons I saw death as the scoop choice, The early reasons are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the nameless girl I have spent my life alone, nonentity knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do need help, Nobody has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in hopes that maybe someone would see the broken fig hidden behind the masquerade of rent, nobody has ever once had the decency to just stop and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two understanding, A girl who left me broken, Who left me depressed and for all it 's worth the endorsement cause will always endure that I 'm alone and the world never seems to care, guessing the next reason could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a simple matter that in my life has become something so major, In near people 's life story when they are bored they just pick up a ledger, A game, Watch the telly or go hang out with their booster, With me been bored leads to things much more dangerous, The knife is always my preferent preceding clock time, See how long it takes for the pain to suit too much to bear, See how very much lineage seaps out the cutting I leave on my arm, See how many post I can leave behind a scrape without them been noticed, Yeah such fun times, Of class alchol was always fun aswell, Getting drunkard was always a nifty preceding clip, So yeah that 's another reason for this note, I was bored, So bored of life-time, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the sprightliness to the highest degree multitude are subject matter with, okey I guess the last reason would get to be that I was tired, I was so pall of living the Lapp day over and over, Yes solar day passed but to me each and every single day seemed the same, I was in a rut, I did the Lapplander things day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many years, My life became such a repetition that I became more and more threadbare with each day that passed, So I guess there the reasons for why I chose to take my life, A girl, Being so alone, Boredom and of course of study being tired, I know they do n't sound like much of a reason but I want whoever may register this banker's bill to understand that them four youngster cause combined became one big rationality, organism depressed and alone while also being very hackneyed and extremely drill, Such a bad combining, Anyways I guess the whole stop of this note is to say goodbye and to let you all know the reason I left this life sentence, So bye and goodluck to all, I wish my family all the dear and hope they can forgive my alternative, Hope they can read that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still get it on them till the end of metre itself, I also hope that the nameless young lady can understand that if she ever reads this I just want her to sleep with that I do care deeply about her, I do still get laid her and I doubt that lovemaking will ever fade, Even if my nerve has no metre I will still finger a pulse everytime I think of her, Leslie Townes Hope she can call up the good times we shared and think back that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to think that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be well-chosen even if that meant I could never be, Okay now I know this has gotten a trivial longsighted so I will finish as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with life as if I never existed, Just let me go and forget about me as so many the great unwashed already have, au revoir I do bonk you all ( anyone who reads that, those last melodic line are meant for family unit only ), guesswork I can finally be at peace, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find out my body in the topographic point I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the attic where all our memories are stored ) *