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'' A Pussyboy 's account ''

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by tcs1963

When I was growing up, I was always into fille. I also loved to stroke my tool and catch a lot of heterosexual porn video. This is back when porn was much hard to come by and came on Vhs and Beta videotapes.

I remember as a teenager seeing my first all-guy gay porn clip. It was at the end of another videotape, as some kind of advertisement, I guess.

I remember being so turned on, watching those cat together sucking and piece of ass, that my little hammer almost ripped through my jeans.

But I was also feeling really confused and kind of guilty about enjoying it. I did n't cognize or even realize my reaction, but the seeds of experimentation had been sown, and they stuck with me as I grew erstwhile.

Afterward, when I watched straight straight person erotica, I realized that what I was fantasizing about, more often than not, was the woman in the vista and what she was experiencing.

The female person porno actresses looked so slavish, and beautiful. They also had the most powerful climax. Their experiences seemed far more than intense than anything that the Male porn actors experienced.

I was fascinated and very curious by how it would feel to be submissive and experience being taken.

This led to me experimenting with male assplay, ( by putting things in my ass, mainly courgette and the like ) and imagining that I was being fucked and going through the same experiences as those madam.

The same thing with cumming on my font. I would pinch my ass against the bulwark and stroke my cock as it pointed at my face. My own hot cum pouring all over my face when I came.

This led to a telephone number of years of confusion and mild depression from not exactly fitting into established sexual roles. Those feelings lasted well into my deep twenties.

I was a fairly good looking guy, while in schoolhouse. Participating in a few squad sports, mostly football and baseball. I guess you could say I was a moderately popular teenage boy with the moderately popular teenage girl.

I know I was definitely attracted to the teenage girls, and nearly clip I had the gibbosity in my drawers to prove it. I had a few girlfriend human relationship, even a couplet of girls who helped me be sexually active voice.

I really enjoyed sex with them, fumbling around in the backseat or secret encounter behind the bleacher. But I still could n't shake my desire to be more submissive, and I continued in common soldier to play with my ass and cum on my grimace.

I was generally confused and did n't understand the unanimous androgyny matter. I made myself very miserable trying to visualize out if I was gay or not.

I continued to savour dating female child and having heterosexual experiences, and in my too soon twenties, I went a bit pussy looney. Dating any missy that would put out.

needle to say, I still could n't shake the whole homophile thing. So I decided to actively seek out a guy on guy sexual experience. Which, once you got past the embarrassment, was pretty wanton back then.

I eventually lost my ass cherry to a guy that I met at a bar one night when I was around 27-years-old. I remember lying on his livelihood way flooring in missionary place, with his average size cock pushing in and out of me.

trueness be known, It was OK but all in all, it was a pretty unsatisfactory experience. What I disliked most was that he was full-on gay and wanted more familiarity, kissing and cuddling and that really did n't feel right to me.

With women, I absolutely wanted to osculate and cuddle, and be intimate in this way. I did n't need any of that with this guy, I just wanted to get fucked, and live out my fantasy of what it was like to be more submissive.

That initiatory experience taught me a lot. It taught me that I certainly did n't find any emotional connector or attraction to men.

After that initial experimentation for a legal brief period, I tried to hide my feelings about being slavish. I had met and was dating a really beautiful miss and we were having great sex, so I did n't guess about my kinkier side anymore.

After that relationship ended, it was what happened with my next girlfriend that made many of the pieces of my sexual jigsaw mystifier downslope into place. She truly found my lawful self for us.

Lisa was a very pretty peeress, she was a lawyer, who inherited her fathers firm. She was a very reasoning and strong woman, she was also very Dominant and just had a natural air of authority. Like everything was naturally going to work out exactly as she planned in her life.

Everything was different about her to previous girlfriends that I had been out with. She knew what she wanted and not only took it, she demanded it.

To get going with, on our first date she insisted that she pick me up, this had never happened to me before. I always did the driving. other things went exactly like that, I had to get used to her taking charge.

Do n't get me wrong, affair started out fairly vanilla but we quickly started to experiment in bed. As I said before, she was very dominant sexually, but she was also very confident and had a huge sexual drive.

As I began to open up up to her about my submissive fantasies, and my brief encounter with homosexual activity. Rather than repel her it served to add her rife side more to the forefront of our relationship.

She loved when I would eat her twat, and I remember I got to do that a lot. She would manoeuver my promontory into place, and literally toil her pussy onto my tongue and mouth.

She got into the verbal humiliation side of thing, also. If I was n't licking her exactly the way she wanted, she would push my school principal away and slap me across the face.

Then she would say something like, `` Eat my cunt properly, beef. ''

Then she would force my drumhead back into her genitals, grasping my hairsbreadth firmly and holding me in place. It sounds much tough than it was because no matter what she said, I enjoyed worshipping her slit.

I remember one evening on the ride home base from a dark out. She made me eat her pussy in the backseat of a taxi. Truly testing my submission to her office.

I remember the cab driver asked her what was going on back there, and in her typical convinced demeanor Lisa replied, `` My bitch is eating my wet pussy. ''

He just busted out laughing and said, `` piece of tail, that 's totally hot ! ''

Early into our FLR human relationship, Lisa started breaking me in with her new strap-on that she purchased specifically for me. She liked to do most of the fucking in are sex life, far more than I fucked her.

We tried so much together, sexually and otherwise. I was absolutely in heaven. I cherished her and loved our human relationship. I loved my ever more submissive role too, and I knew from that import forward that I loved being dominated by women by inviolable women.

I was absolutely devastated when she moved across the commonwealth from me, a mates of years later. Although, we still keep in contact, through the net and telephony.

fasting forward twenty-two-years and I have now been married for 20 age to the most incredible and erotic char.

For the last ten twelvemonth, we have been practicing an FLR lifestyle relationship, including manful chastity, pegging, domestic field of study.

Furthermore, for the by 5 years, my wife has successfully introduced cuckolding into our family relationship, and together we have had three prospicient term bulls, during that stop.

Our most recent bull, Michealanis an extremely dominant bisexual male, and I am forced to regularly suck his dick, and he will occasionally hump me.

Unlike my commencement male person on male experience in my of late twenty dollar bill, this time it feels right hand to me. There is no emotional attachment to Micheal, he does n't want intimacy with me, no petting or cuddling.

As my mistress regularly confirms to me, my bi activity is because I need submission and abasement. I need to be subservient to her and her bull because it helps me be a better pussyboy. It 's not about the sex act, it is all about the context of use.

When he cums in her pussy and I eat her creampie or I suck his large cock and he cums in my mouth. Even when he fucks my ass-pussy, it is not because I am gay, its because I am submissive. My Mistress Lisa knows that my humiliation is what pushes all of my push button.

That 's why I am in beloved with her. That is why I worship her and strive to be the best pussyboy that I can be for her every bingle day of my lifespan.

The End ...