While there 's probably something dirty for everyone here, this is n't a smut account so much trying to keep track of what I 've been up to so far. Like watching a show as I 'm doing now, it 's actually possible to forget how and who you went through to get here. It 's a love-life timeline of me I guess, variety of a cliffnotes thing without bulletpoints. It does n't represent everyone I 've ever been with because some one-nighters are forgettable, and not every time I 've had sex because like most of us not every time was floor worthy and it 's pretty sponsor when you 're in a human relationship. It 's more about the important one where I discovered something new or interesting. I thought about putting it under the `` diary '' category but I think that would be misconstrued as `` dear journal, sneak in porno. ``

My low beau was a guy named fall guy, coincidentally my stream married man 's name. He was controlling and scurrilous in the gamy way, so I accepted it. He did n't like me having guy booster, did n't want me going out without him, easy to piss off, like what girls warn their girlfriend about, but I was a sexually ignorant virgin in the `` slashie fangirl '' sock-in-your-mouth, crying-as-I-tie-you-down-with-more-duct-tape kind of way at the time. Because I guess I was the addict he always wanted he was now justified in not asking if I wanted to try something and just went for it. Alot of guy cable have experience trying to spill the beans young woman into trying thing like anal or even giving head teacher for the tiresome odorous young woman, and it 's usually a atruggle but he did n't care about it. We were n't attached and needy either but he was pretty territorial reserve. We never said we loved each other or anything and he even shared me with 2 of his nicer friends once, one of whom would later go a bf so he was n't terribly in love with me. This sharing 'll become a recurring theme. So Mark was my friend 's fellow before mine, she met him at a political party we went to and I got to bed him through her, and after they broke up he came to me. She tried to warn me like I said but I did n't listen or care, she had become kind of timid since they broke up and it was variety of an embarassed prompting at best. There was a good cause for it. He was never bad to me, or you could say he was but I loved it, like I said, but that was n't the instance for her. Although it turned out alright for me, I did n't know at the clock time ( and she did n't severalize me which is kind of a dick move ), He was the Saami way with her. But she was n't like me. Her first time was in front of his friends crying as she was raped and humiliated, a small party or bbq with his friends or something where everyone was drunk. Remember the controlling part, she had no admirer there because he did n't want them around. If there were more voices saying `` hey what the nookie ? ! ? stop ! '' it might not give birth happened, but they did n't get wind that. I assume to them it was like a rape-porno, something everybody picket but does n't allow to their friends. In that environment though they were all thinking the same thing ; Everyone 's cool with it and I 'm not doing it so I 'm ok with it. He did n't pass on a physical mark where I could see it, otherwise the timing of that and the separation would have been suspect to me and I would n't have become his next girl. From what she told me though during that event he was rough in the way I knew him, he choked and slapped her around during which is where the chagrin came in. She only told me after he and I broke up, which while I understand it being hard to talk about was kind of messed up because it might accept happened to me. apply the fate she has n't been with a guy since as far as I know. I have n't talked to her in a couple years but for a few years after that she was strictly girls, including my offset. More about that later.

Kenny came sec. He was one of Mark 's nicer friends that I was shared with like I was talking about. After the last brakeup he was all over my phone being `` a expert protagonist. '' Basically he knew I was available, what kind of things I was into and had to vex someone else to me. He was alot less well-fixed with just doing what he wanted to me with no apology. But that was the only type of guy I was used to, I so was the one pushing him to try new things. Nothing boring like anal and cock sucking because he knew from experience I was into those and I consider them parts of regular sex. But I wanted to be slapped and choked, tied up and belted like I was used to. He was my first attentive bf, the sort of normal dainty guy who gives fille what they want. We said our `` have it away you '' s, went out places and everything normal yoke do together. There were things I could n't get him to do. One of them was pegging, the other was n't group sex, after all that would be hypocritical since we 'd already done that together. I actually convinced him to let me choose from a group of his friends for a gangbang. We 'd hang out with them one at a metre, person hanging out with his Friend and the friend 's gf basically, casually loosen them up with innuendo while playing biz or what have you while I was laying on the blatant dalliance. When I had private moments with them most would coquet more directly with me, thinking I wanted something on the English and Kenny was totally unmindful. Even guys who claim to be honorable and would never shack up with a friend 's girl will do it if they think they can get away with it. Anyway I would tell them that he was cool with sharing and they did n't have to wait until we were alone to lay on the game. When we were all in the Same room again the conversation could extend Thomas More fluidly. I had 6 recruits lined up pretty fast, a little More than a week I think, sadly only 5 showed up. I 'm only going to namedrop the `` of import nick '' but Curtis deserves a extra mention and made up for the absense. After breaking up with Kenny I did n't see him again, but occasionally I still think about him because ... His dick was amazing. Almost coke-can thick, foreskinned that did n't total all the way around his head, fire up blue veins all the way down the sides, and I could n't even get my fingertips to tinct together at the base. And that was soft, it hung along his second joint almost halfway to his articulatio genus at like 9+ inches when hard like a pornstar. Except for the fact that aside from size pornstars have unremarkable dicks, but this one was stark and inviting, practically delectable. Naturally during the gangbang and probably because I 'd been making constant caper about its size of it, he maintained a monopoly on my arsehole the majority of the meter. The pressure on the spine of my vaginal wall left me hovering around orgasm constantly, the guys who took turns in my pussy made me cum every time. I had a theory that a daughter 's physical structure can take 6 bozo at once. The logistics are hard, not enough room to fit that many people in around a girl at once and they did in fact mostly take turns 2 or 3 at once. But with a coffee mesa the stature is about decent to draw it crop. Curtis underneath me while on my book binding, mortal standing at the foot of the java table to fuck my pussy, one at the headland with his dick in my mouth, one straddling over me and the table titfucking me, and 2 on either side for me to fuck up while they waited for a better parking spot. Only 1 in that lowest illustration though when someone did n't show. Kenny and I were together for awhile after that too. But he personally never shared me with them again. Not that it caused any problems or anything, but as far as I know none of them had ever seen each others'hawkshaw and I probably did n't make him too happy with my frequent thoughtfulness about Curtis 's but he was a effective sport and it, but anyway of class we eventually broke up.

After that was H. I 'll call in her H and she was the one I was talking about in score 's tarradiddle. We 'd been bff 's since we were picayune but we 've drifted apart the net few twelvemonth. It probably had something to do with being friends and then being together for awhile. I can reasonably maintain family relationship with x and stay ally, but the onus is on other people to be capable to do the same. It 's a rarified thing outside of swinger, jealousy comes too easily to some people. I 've never been in a monogamous relationship even now. Anyway, She was the 1st young woman I 've ever been with, and there have been 3 1/2, which will be explained. As soon as my `` single '' window was open she made her move the same way I tried to convert guy cable to volunteer for my gangbang. We 'd always been flirty the way protagonist are, but after him I noticed she started acting differently. She 'd gaze too long or she would need to cuddle all the time, no common sense of personal space. I did n't mind, she was always like that but it was different than usual. So after the innuendo and flirting to facilitate me into it like I 've done, we had that conversation where she said she wanted me, and asked me to facilitate her get off. The way she sold me on it was that it would n't mean anything and would be comfortable, she would put on a dame and no panties for clothed unawkward admittance, laying with her legs hanging over the bed, and I could wear a strapon over my clothes. Then just came rocking together like whenever girls are dancing or giving a mock lap-dance. Basically entirely unoffensive if I was n't into it, not asking much. It did n't turn out that way. I got excited as she was and I did start off wearing it over my knickers, but all of her clothes and my shirt had come off by the prison term we were done. And I was on top of her with my tongue in her mouth. Que serum ... We were living together for almost a twelvemonth, a few calendar month of which were after we broke up. I do n't sleep together why, we were still assuredness with each other and I could give had a relationship with a girl, we were pulling it off, I was just more into guys and she was n't at all. So we broke up but lived together and I started seeing Nick.

Nick was interesting. He was a skinny blonde fem looking guy who had some confutative hoodoo and a matter for older adult female. He had in fact dated a 32 yr old sub PE teacher at his HS before we got together and would n't you have it off it- she became my gf later. In keeping with my heteroicous nature and his guy libido, he introduced me to her one night at his apartment. We talked about how they met, PE shorts, yoga ( which we met for correct away ) and they had previously talked about how she was aegir to try sex with another girl. Naturally the reason he facilitated was he was hoping to be in on it, which never happened. Aside from a shared BJ at a bbq later. ANyway this para 's his so I 'll say he was like my opposite. We had dissimilar fetishes but we were both freaks. Some things even I wo n't do like diaper/shit stuff, when I want to do that it 'll be when I 'm changing an actual baby, thank you. One matter we could both correspond on was pegging. I had strapon experience and he had anal experience so we went together like hot click and doughnuts. I was n't expecting him to wear lingerie but it was unexpectedly welcome too. The part I was n't great about was topping. Not like it made me uncomfortable, I 'm just not the take-charge character and was used to being on the experience end. But I like to establish my men happy so I tied his wrist to his headboard, buttfucked, belittled, and spanked him while he was dressed like a slutty girl. We were n't together for long, maybe 6 month when I found out I was pregnant ! I planned to make for out what to do together with him and I was totally subject to an abortion, we were n't that serious and it was still early in every sense. But he threw a fit and essentially threatened me, I wo n't say what he said but I figured it was over. My roommate was supportive but my other burgeoning yoga acquaintance did n't want the drama at the time. I had n't decided what to do with the gestation but it was decided for me when I went for a `` dame checkup '' and was told I could n't have got a baby yet. I had some uterine scarring that would n't countenance it to get nutrient and air it needed to spring up. It was n't a big hit to me or anything because it was so early and actually fixable whenever I finally found the money for it, which I did n't have at the time ( I 'm now viable ). So after a snaking I went habitation with a sore cooch, which sounds like the darker half of a erotica joke but it 's not funny at all, especially the painfulness and cramping.

So the PE sub. I 'll phone her R, guy wire like shoutouts for bro-fives but girls and adult female probably wo n't. While I was with gouge I actually started hanging out with her and we did Yoga at her theater. I do n't remember the status but that 's not why I was doing it. I looked great in those pants and they were fun to rub against mortal wearing them, which we did. Our first experience was titillating but not sexual, doing stretches together and she showed me how to touch my toes with her lap straddling my ass for `` steering ''. If we were n't wearing panties it could receive been embarassing wearing those pants wet as we were ... I was still living with H while I was with notch, which caused clash because of our history together, then when I left him she found out I had been getting close to a woman that was n't her and how R reacted with my pregnant news, it pissed off H even more. She and R actually almost had some drama when R came to talk about the whole maternity affair with me. After we 'd been seeing each other for awhile and my roomie got another gf the place got a footling crowd, so I moved in with R and her son Dillan. Trouble. Not right away, and the `` mom 's gf '' sounds like a story from Naughty America but they would n't legally be able to upload this form of thing. She was pretty inexperienced for an erstwhile woman, Me being her first missy and we had like narrative. Her husband was controlling, would postdate her when she went out with friends, ect. The only near thing she got from him was his son. She married him before she could legally drink so she missed out on the youth messing around aspect of figuring stuff out and was trying to puddle up for it with unseasoned bozo. After separating with him she burned through a one-half dozen barely legals and one 16 year old notch before me, but she was n't interested in a kinship and after having sex with them would leave them soon after, all besides Nick. Anyway I loved her alot and we were together a couple years before I messed that up. She was accomodating for a woman, she let me have a bf on the side, a single dad of 2 kids who I actually blank out about from metre to time, he 's the guilty reason I 'm getting this stuff down ! She did n't heed sharing either, having me home every dark while I carved out whatever redundant time I could with him, and I taught her the things my previous bfs taught me. Like I said she was pretty inexperienced in the sense that she 'd been in the thrust through stack sufficiency times but always ordered the Sami thing. I made her try anal, thralldom, spanking, ect. again topping against my nature but she needed to try something different. The relationship with her son was well-heeled too. Being a teenager he was into gaming, girls, and being a smartass like me so we got along great, and when she was n't home we would hang out together. But we got too comfortable. We would flirt but it was always a joke, I made sure not to give him the wrong melodic theme pretty much only because of how much trouble I could have found myself in, so I kept distancing myself when it started heating up. But he was the exclusively testosterone in the house and I 'm needy, but it 's not like I made the commencement or any motility and did n't have a bf already so my ass was covered, like how you feel obligated to say `` no '' when you do n't really want to. There was also no `` steady affair '' just the first time I did n't say no like I was supposed to, and the s clip special social function which got me thrown out. That first time, I sat on the lounge across from him and put my legs in his lap like I 'd done a hundred meter before, and he started tickling my animal foot. Not a big mickle, so I struggled a little and he stopped for a instant before stroking my legs. He was getting bold face and tracing high and I did n't say anything, when he got to the hem of my shorts leg I put my ankle behind his cervix and pulled his nous towards me, I could n't avail it then. When he started kissing my thigh I lost it and let him do what he wanted. That was apparently to cleanse out my slit with his clapper, or maybe shine my clitoris with it. Whatever, I played with his tomentum and breathed hard while letting him do both. After that he got more confident and dangerous, things like grabbing my butt while his mom was right there looking the early way, tempting circumstances. The second gear and last time I was taking him out driving for his 16th birthday but he told me what he really wanted and I agreed, it was a half truth I told his mom. We were going out practice session driving but he really wanted what he got a twain geezerhood before, yeah if you 're doing the math you know I 'm a bad individual. I was driving to a `` secure dapple '' somewhere we could practice session driving without the risk of getting pulled over or hitting anyone, with the tot benefits of not getting caught giving him his present. It was just after dark and we were just out of the driveway when he had his peter out, playing with it in one script and massaging the back of my neck with the other. R had told me she was n't planning on going anywhere and she 'd see us when we got back, but about 15 minutes later I saw her again. My faulting for not making it very far and picking a bad billet to stop, the road towards chief street went right by where I parked. He was pushy and eager so I had to pull into a dollar sign storehouse 's filth lot down the street with no lightness nearby, I 'm surprised she could even see the car in the dark from the road, but she pulled in behind us and almost caught me trying to reach his balls with my clapper and I already had a mouthful of his dick. She did n't see anything much the car parked in the lot, but since we were parked in the darkness so soon after leaving there was nada else we could give been doing. But she did probably see us scare like insect along with him riding high in the seat pulling his bloomers up when the sparkle hit us, I thougt she was a cop. I knew it was all my fault but I was still bitter, I got thrown out that Night and went to abide with my mom. That was late in the month a span Nov ago, I had a bunch of bags in her closet, Xmas presents that I still do n't know what happened to. That 's just a weird piffling detail that I would proceed coming back to that made me cry a prospicient time after it was over. Now we 're actually on casual talking price on a mutual confab site we visit and we send each other photo and memes we find online occasionally. She says she realizes it 's hypocritical to hate me for doing what she 's done but we 'll never be close again because of the betrayal of it. I effectively cheated on her with her underage son. How Kraut springer.

While I was with her I had been working on a spread. I 'd worked my way up to director over a bunch of immigrants with varying levels of English, but we had a fun relationship. I rode around in a golf handcart all day yelling mock Spanish people along with the few words I knew and I would get wind things back like `` puta '' with a grin and wave, I think Puta means love ! No we were all jolly cool and loved giving each other shit. Literally, I was the manager so I decided who deloused sawbuck stable, Javier ! Anyway after breaking up with R I quit the job out of depression, sat around at my mom 's all day playing games and moping, a girlfriend of mine made it easier taking me out situation like parties. She 's younger, in fact she was Dillan 's on/off girlfriend around his age and I knew her through the class. I started going to heights School parties with people 5 or 6 years untested than me, not that I was the sole one like I thought I 'd be. One tall bald black guy was chatting with me and pretty soon I was sitting on his lap, and we were talking about what coke does to you and he was trying to talk me into it. He expected it to get me in the temper and get him position, but while I was already in his lap I was n't sure I was in the mood. `` H2 '' I 'll call my Friend, she was putting him on about how much I actually wanted it and he should take me in the untenanted sleeping room and pass me some more. She did n't know it at the time but I 'd been with black guys before ( not a unknown though, between-noteworthyness dating ), because she was n't talking about the nose candy, which she also totally approves of. That candy he did give me got my heart going and I liked the rush, but he followed her hints and said we could only have more if we were alone like she suggested, so I indulged him. I knew where it was going and just figured `` get laid it. '' When we were alone he rubbed some behind the head of his dick with his thumb and I licked it off, and I discovered I did n't like it on my tongue much. Not like I have n't trained my gag reflex for the express intellect of deepthroating but if I had n't it would have killed that too because my pharynx felt benumbed. Side note- smutty peter are n't any large than anyone elevated'. Now in porno everyone 's dick 's big so of course of study every black guy you see 's going to have a big dick, but the myth 's in seat because of the musings of lonesome White person charwoman wondering about the `` taboo '' of BBC who have never had it. Like most agressive cat, especially party guys I 've noticed there was n't alot of kissing and playing around, it was `` turn me around, face lift dress, panties off, push down and drunk doggystyle. '' After about only 10 minute of arc individual knocked on the door looking for him, from the ebonic accent I knew it was the other black guy I 'd seen there hitting on miss and failing so I think if he struck out the whole `` knock and walk in '' thing was programme B. It was the trump I 'd finger in awhile, so I did n't even say anything or look back when he told him he could derive in. It went on for like another 15 minute until both had cum at either end of me and the archetype guy before he left helped me pull my panty back on with an unexpected present. A ziplock baggie tucked by my butt. That gave me an mind how I could get back on the horse.

I browsed Craigslist personals for one of `` those '' submission. If you 've been desperate and horny you know about them, they say `` sensual massage '' or `` amatuer naked photoshoot '' or something standardized. I only had to message one guy back, but did my guard preparation first and bagged a collegiate amatuer photographer. That 's actually stretching it, he had a tv camera and was in college but it was residential area college and a cameraphone that I 'm sure he did n't even roll in the hay how to transfer the settings on. He took plenty of motion-picture show and a couple video recording of me posing bare with prop like his penis and we had a fun metre. I got $ 300 for it which was probably most of a paycheck since he works at at a pizza topographic point rhyming with enigma Cheesers which I say so I do n't get sued or something. From then on I went by referral, he would suggest me to his friend and they would get something similar, but being `` broke burger fin '' as I like to visit them I got frequent-but-unstrenuous work. I became an escort ! But since I was playing it safe and get together by referral the networking pool was limited to guys my age who did n't have alot of money, so I gave alot of head since that was punk and fast. The `` savings over fourth dimension '' logic does n't exploit with instant satisfaction, getting off is getting off whether it 's $ 300 or $ 50 so natually everyone wanted the $ 50 option. Yeah I learned later how little I was charging, I 'm not vain but I get told I 'm hot and hit on plenty, so I think I 'm fairly aphrodisiac. But apparently I could have been charging thousands if I 'd chosen node a little better, I 've talked to other girlfriend that charge that much and they 're like 300lb chainsmoking grandmas, guys will TRULY be intimate anything. Mine were nice guys though, about 6 of them in their group and I got invited to party with them, called to attend out and play secret plan, we were Friend with welfare and $ being exchanged. One client I met at a party was a landscape gardener at a winery and he referred me to `` Mk2. '' I say that as a joke because he 's my secong sucker and the one who 's my husband now. Owning a winery on top of acreage like he does I figured he was rich but I did n't eff how much, that was n't where his Washington came from, it was just where he lays his head, I wo n't say how a lot he makes but It 's a dyad finger above the in high spirits plausable guess. At one point I was spending 2 days a week with him and getting double whole-package value of $ 400 a day. What we did those night was the most fun too, he became my deary in a hurriedness being alot like Mk1 with a meaner streak. When I slept there I actually started worn-out my nighttime tied up on the floor of his closet in between playing handmaid, being belted while hanging from the punching bag eyebolt in the basement ceiling, led around on a collar and swatted with a paper like a dog and more. He eventually got jealous and wanted me all to himself, giving me a Miata and a $ 5000 a month allowance to come live with him and be his alone, which I recently learned someone else is effectively paying nowadays. I would have done it for relieve for the chance to live with him and have that kind of fun every day. We got married in July last year, I loved the ceremonial occasion and thought he did, it was a voyeuristic group sex thing but since then he has n't touched me like that, only wanting the occasional wakeup blowjob and housekeeping. I 'm more like the dirty live-in maid present, but I 've gotten something else from him as a solacement present- a swain who is again a Quaker of his. I stay with him whenever home run 's out of town, which is about 10-12 days a month, and when I 'm over there my girlfriend usually comes to attend out with us and that 's when I get my play time in. He 's the one who 's taken up giving Mark that $ 5000 a calendar month I get as an allowance. As far as I know that was n't always the case, but I wonder if I 'm still in the escort biz and my husband 's now my pimp ... I have in fact entertained one of his wedding guests who was traveling to CA on business, he did n't speak a Word of God of English and had an entourage, and I did n't know he was coming until I got an out-of-timezone textual matter from my husband telling me to expect him and I was to pay him the VIP discussion. I 've learned to cook since I moved in here, there were actually staff on another house on the holding for that kind of thing before he met me but it 's empty now. I wonder if I 'm basically getting their $ to do their chore now since I clean this monster stead and do all the cooking and laundry and stuff.

Before I forget, in the beginning I said I 'd been with 3 1/2 women which I said I 'd explicate. I met a tgirl at a party and have been spending meter with her lately. She 's so womanly and beautiful that she was getting hit on there as very much or more than any former young woman, and the guys have no idea. Neither did I until the subject came up and she whispered it to me nervously. She actually does n't feel comfortable in the open with people knowing who she really is and wants to stay discreet for now. But at some point we got into talking about our experiences and things we still wanted to try and I mentioned miss with cock, I do n't know if she somehow managed to steer the conversation that way but we got a couple joking cheers fron drunk hombre when we went to hang out by ourselves in the garage to `` babble out '' more privately. It 's a developing situation, but she 's not like the common guy rope or girls I like. It 's fitting I conjecture since she 's basically neither gender, but definitely feminine. She 's conciliate and likes deadening sex with alot of holding each former and kissing and gentle rocking. My married man being as ... continuous tense as he is, young woman are allowed and he knows I like to hang out and mess around with H2 but I do n't have it off how he 'd feel about `` T '' if he knew she had a prick. She 's not on the blessing list, I 've told him about her but not the being trans parting.

So that 's where I am right now, I do n't know about my standing in my matrimony and while I love him and it was fun at the start right now I 'm more like the naughty maidservant like I said. He gives me so a lot exemption though which is totally counter to what I was expecting ( I graduated from the closet to a cage in the basement gym when I stopped seeing him as an accompaniment and became sole, now none of that ) and I ca n't see myself with anyone else, so it 's not in risk just totally opposite to what I was expecting. I 'll probably update this eventually as more interest hooey happens so I hope it was interesting .