`` Natalie, mom just called. She has to work a double tongiht. She said we need to get our prep done and fix supper and she will see us in the morning. '' I proceeded to end my chronicle assignment. I am a Jr this year. Just turned 16, and got my first material fellow. Nat is only 14. I start dinner and help Nat with some of her homework, then its time for American Idol and then bed.



Sam, mom 's boyfriend, came over around 10. I told him mom had to form a double and was not domicile but he said he would just wait for her. They have been dating for about 2 years now and so I thought this would be fine. I let him in, and went back to my room.



By this time Nat is sleeping and I am sitting up writing in my journal. All my inner thoughts about Adam, and how he just kissed me and I let him bear upon my breast and I touched his penis. He asked me to kiss his penis but I was afraid. I like him so much and am rummy of what it would be like when he asks me to bear sex for the first metre. I am scared, yet excited.



Sam suddenly walks in my room and sits on my bed. He tells me how pretty I am. I ask him to leave but he does n't. He takes my diary and reads what I just wrote. I am embarrased that he take my inner most secret persuasion. Sam looks at me and smiles. Says he can teach me how to delight Adam when the time comes. He touches me lightly on the expression. I shy away. He laughes. He pulls me conclusion and kisses me. `` Tongiht, I will teach you to be a woman. '' I pull away from him.



'' Nicole, do as I tell you, or I will go to Nat 's room instead. Do you see ? You have to see how to be a woman Nicole. I am going to teach you this night. '' Sam says. I said NO but he just kisses me on my mouth, hard. He tells me not to struggle him, assures me I will bang it. He grabs me by my hand and tangle me out of my way into my mum room. Then he shuts and locks the door. Alone with him, I am shaking and crying, begging him to leave me alone. He ignores me and continues to carress my physical structure through my night clothes.



Suddenly he rips off of my shirt and tells me to take off my shorts. `` Do it now Nicole, or I will go get Nat instead. '' Afraid of what he may do to my infant Sister, I do as he says. He begins to rub me all over while he tells me how beautiful I am. `` I am going to show you how to please your Thomas Young Adam. He will thank me for this. ``



He starts to buss me again, first on my sassing while he pinches my nipple. Then he kisses my tit while he puts his finger in my most secret womanly parts. I flinch. No one has ever touched me there. `` On Nicole, you are so tight. You are going to sense so good around my hard putz. '' I am shaking.



'' Nicole, intercept fighting me. Relax. You will revel this. '' He pushes me on the bed and begins to remove off his clothes. I have never seen a man naked before. I mean, I saw X 's member but only for a second. Truth be known, until this night I had thougth Sam was a big man, but now I am so scared of him. My body and mind are both betraying me. Sam has an amazing body and I am so peculiar about sex, but not like this.



Once Sam is naked he crawls on top of me and begins to snog me again. My eubstance starts to respond to him but my mind is screaming NO ! ! This is wrong. He beings to lick and bite my neck while he rubs my breast. He whispers in my ear `` Nicole, I ca n't expect to try your mellisonant pussy '' and he kisses his way down my body. Rubbing and kissing. I notice that instead of fear, suddenly I am wet between my thighs. Excited.. How could my dead body betray me like this. Sam is raping me .... is n't he ? ?



I can sense his breather at the top of my womanhood and he him say `` open your wooden leg, let me in to feast on that virgin puss. '' I can sense him pushing my stage open and I put up no electric resistance. My teardrop have stopped. My trunk milkshake, but not from fear. The get-go clock time I felt his tongue lap my womanhood I jumped.



'' Do you like that Nicole. '' I did n't say anthing.



'' Nicole, secern me you like my tongue on your snatch. '' I did n't say anything. Sam smacked me on the leg. `` SAY IT '' he demands.



'' I like you tongue on my vagina '' I said. He says, `` No Nicole, the word is twat. Say you like my tongue on your cunt. NOW ! ! ``



My lip are trembling, `` I like your tongue on my slit '' I say. He laughes and continues to lick me there. He puts his finger in me. First one, then two. It hurts, but only for a minute. The more he licks and pushes his fingers in me the more moisture I feel down there. `` Do you know what that is Nicole ? That is your body wanting what I am doing to you. You want this. Say it. You want it. ``



'' Yes Sam, I want it. '' I am nervous, I am curoious, I am scared. Then I realize I am not scared of what he is doing, only that he will throw in. My body feels like it is on fire, tingling all over. Sam stops. He gets off me and drag me up.



'' So Nicole, Adam wants you to kiss his member ? No Nichole, that is not what cristal wants. He wants his difficult cock deep in your pharynx while he pumps his lading of cum down it. '' With a big grin on his aspect he pushes me to my knee joint. `` Open your mouth steady '' I am frighten off again. He begins to squeeze my buttock hard until my mouth opens. `` You are going to imbibe my cock, you will not bite me or I will spank you. You will suck my hammer exactly like I tell you to, until I tell you to blockade, like a good girl should. ''



Then he puts his vauntingly hard cock in my rima oris. Just a petty at first, then more and more until it is deep in my mouth. `` That 's a good girl Nicole. '' He starts to motivate in and out, slack then fast. I can feel myself gag and he just moans. `` Your afters little mouth flavor so good on my hard cock sister. '' Faster and faster he pushes and moans louder and louder, `` Oh baby, you are going to make me take my warhead, but I want to save it for your mellifluous virgin slit. '' Then he stops, pulls me to my feet and kisses me abstruse. My sassing and lips are swollen, there are tears in my eyes and I am trembling.



'' Oh peach, relax, the just is yet to come. '' He lays me back on the bed again and creep on top of me. He puts his hand over my mouth and says, `` I am going to put my cock in your tight slit now. It will smart for a minute, but you not scream. When i am done with you, you will amount back and beg me for more than, probably tomorrow night after. After I finish fucking your female parent and she falls numb I will come for you. I am gon na have you cream your mothers cum off my cock before I fuck you. ``



The more he talks the more nervous I get, but he seems to be getting Sir Thomas More and more stir. I ca n't pass off with his hired man still over my mouth. I feel the head teacher of his rooster at the entrance of my slit and I start to wiggle. Fear consumes me. He pushes his hand harder on my mouth and William Tell me to appease still. `` loose your wooden leg. I am ready to feel that cockeyed virgin pussy. ''



I do as I am told and he pushes his prick in my fasting and rough. It hurts. I want to scream but he he has his mitt over my mouth still. Tears begin to roll down my face. He smiles at me. `` You feel so mean, so good. I knew you would. I am been thinking about this for 2 old age, since I met your mother. I have dreamed of the day I could come in your virgin kitty-cat and Blackbeard you to be a fair sex. Now I will look forward to Nat in another 2 years '' I begin to fight. Thinking NO NOT NAT ! ! ! He just laughes and begins to move, in and out, slowly at first, then faster. This is exciting to him.



I am so scared but my consistency begins to respond to him. My body starts to tense up and begins to tingle all over. So many sensations I have never felt. Not bad feel, safe feelings. Very good feelings. Sam is moving in and out, he pushes my legs farther apart and goes bass. I feel pain and pleasance. How can this be ? I did n't require this. I wanted Adam to be my get-go, not Sam. My female parent 45 twelvemonth old boyfriend. I want this to stop, but not yet. Yes ! No ! Yes ! No ! So many confusing look.



He takes his bridge player off my oral fissure, finally. `` Tell me my dick feels practiced in your pussy child '' He has my legs high in the air, on his articulatio humeri, pushing hard and abstruse in my puss but I do n't say it. He slaps my ass, gruelling. I jump, more tears come. `` Say it now. ``



'' Your cock feels effective in my twat. '' I say with a trembling vocalism. `` Good girl, you will always secernate me that when I command it, do you understand. '' I nod my head, my body is trembling. He spanks my ass again an says `` You will say 'yes sir'to me do you interpret. ``



'' Yes sir. ``



'' Good fille, your hot tight pussy is so addictive. I may necessitate it again and again. But for now I am cook to replete you full of my hot cum. '' He starts to push in harder and faster and harder and faster. My body is such a traitor. The sensations I feel are good, my care turns into passion, my bother into pleasure. My body starts to tense and escape from and shiver on it 's own. I can no longer verify any of my own torso functions. I feel inordinate moisture between my thigh and I feel like I am in heaven, if only for a moment.



'' Oh, thats my girl. I just gave you your first orgasm. Was n't that great. You feel so good. '' He is going faster and I hear him moan loudly and push in deep, very deep. I can feel hot liquid squirting cryptical in my body and he collaspes onto of me.



'' You are such a good little girl Nicole. '' He moves down to between my thigh again and begins to bat all the moisture from my pussycat, then back up to me. He forces a deep kiss on my back talk as his mouth is wide of a admixture of our juices. He kisses me recondite and long and groan.



'' Was n't that proficient sister. Our cum merge together tastes so practiced. Get used to it baby. Your gon na predilection it often. Next clip, you will lick it off my peter on bidding. ``



I just lay there looking up at him. All I could think was he wants to do this to me again ? ? When ? Why ? Was n't my mohter enough for him ? Was I raped ? Did I want this ?



He begins to rub me and say `` you have been suck a good daughter tongiht. Lets get you cleaned up and back in bed before your mom gets here. Now you keep this secret between us and do n't tell anyone. The next prison term I come for you I expect you to come to me willingly. You will beg me to fuck you again. ``



He showers with me, washes my physical structure, dresses me and carries me to bed. He leans in to buss me on my forehead and says `` goodnight looker '' then walks out.



That was three long time ago and Sam is still coming to my room every sentence my mom works late, and sometimes he gets me from school and takes me to his place. I have never say no and I have never told anyone. As far as I know he has never touched Nat, and he promises me as long as I do as he says he never will.



Sam was flop about so many thing. I did pick up to be a woman. The first time I was with XTC he was very delight with me. Part of me hates Sam, part of me loves him. Will I ever get away from him ?