Hello everybody, I've got a surprise for you this time ! I'm going to continue the same floor course and character etc., but I've decided to swap things up a little…enjoy !

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Mom walked into the kitchen with her white apron on. Her creamy blonde hair was up in a mussy ponytail and her blue eyes sparkled. I have my mom's eyes. I'm proud of it too. Dad is always saying he thinks her middle are gorgeous. But my haircloth is a darker golden than hers and it's below my shoulder, where as hers barely meets her berm.
"Lillian, would you mind helping me with the dishes ?"she asks me. I shrug my shoulder and follow her to the sink. photographic plate fill both corners of the sink and more knockout and utensils crowd the top of the Louis Harold Gray granite counter.
"Oh boy,"I maunder and set to work, heating the water up and soaping up the sponger. As I scrub the plate, I look out the window into our backyard. The above reason swimming pool sits mum and vacant. The H2O is completely still. As I look at it, simulacrum of the boy next doorway flood my mind. Josh was the first-class honours degree person to talk to me when we moved here…and he's drop-dead gorgeous, but I'd never admit it to anyone. We hit it off pretty quickly, I just couldn't help myself. But what surprises me is the forwardness I feel when I'm around him. We've had sex twice already, both metre were great, and I can't ascendancy my demand to be with him. When he isn't around, I could wish less, though.
Fri dark I had been scared to death though. We'd gone to a movie which I found very wild-eyed and I'm not sure what he's up to, and then we found a little back road and parked the car and…we had sex. It was the best too because my parents didn't almost catch us, but a fuddle man pulled up and we could experience gotten hurt. Luckily Josh knocked him out and took off before he could reclaim. I think Josh felt so bad, but it wasn't his declension. I should make been more heedful too.
"Lillian, there's a young woman here to see you !"Dad calls from the support way. I finish the lowest home and plow the urine off. When I reach the doorway I am stunned to see who's standing outside.
"Sasha !"I squeal and leap into my trump friend's coat of arms. We embrace each former warmly, my unspoiled friend since I was ten is here !
"Lillian, totes how are you ?"she giggles and I can't help laughing at the way she talks.
"Haha, great ! You ?"I ask.
"OMG, I have so much to separate you. Wan na go for a drive ?"she blurts out, lifting up the key fruit to her little sports car.
"Yes, let's go !"I jump out the door and run down the sidewalk with Sasha. Her bootleg hair is straightened and down to the middle of her back.
"punter behave, Sasha !"Dad calls from the house. He trusts me, it's Sasha he knows gets into trouble. I flash her a knowing looking and we smile. For whatever grounds, before I climb into the car, I look across the street. My heart leaps when I realize Josh is sitting on the porch watching me. He smiles and I can't supporter but smile back. Then quickly I claim in so Sasha won't notice the disinclination. She did.
"So, who's the babe eyeing you up ?"she asks deviously as she shifts into driving. An embarrassed smile spreads across my lips.
"Oh, just a boy,"but I'm not convincing.
"So you stare at the aphrodisiac city-slicker in Ithiel Town and he's staring back and he's ‘ just a boy'?"she knows me too well.
"okey, so he's Josh. We're just friends."
"Did you fuck him ?"she blurts, catching me totally off guard.
"What ? ! Well, when you put it like that it sounds so dread !"I laugh and she snickers.
"fountainhead it is when your own father thinks you're still a Virgo the Virgin. He sure was checking you out, girlfriend."I roll my eyes but I know she's right. I've never been slutty, or slept around with guys. The first metre was an accident. I let my guard duty down and he was a tot up jerk. I didn't know what was happening and I guess I could say he raped me. I wouldn't have knowingly chosen to sleep with him. He tricked me into it and humiliated me at school day afterward. I've been used a lot. Two other boyfriend got close enough for me to intrust them and they fucked me and left. I've always been so gullible and naïve and I've been taken advantage of for that. Why do I cogitate Josh is any different ? And it's reliable that both my parents still believe I'm the good-girl virgin of the town. The lighter in a dark world, the innocent role modelling. But they don't really know what goes on and sometimes I'm depress myself feeling so shamefaced. But then I get over it. Sasha, however, is the bad influence. She did drugs when she was 14, although she's straightened out…I hope. She always has some kind of colour in her hair, today it's blue streak. And she's slept with every boyfriend since she was 13. I think it's partially because of her abusive founder. He's an alcoholic who goes all out with it and multitudinous times he's made Sasha ticker while he forces her female parent to pay him blowjobs and he's even forced her female parent to fuck when he was drunk. acerate leaf to say, Sasha's mom ran away and now he brings home slutty lady friend.
"So, what do you wan na verbalise about ?"I ask, breaking the silence.
"I want you to meet my new beau,"she explains, a devilish smile appearing.
"No friends right ?"I ask. Sasha always makes sure her boyfriends bring a protagonist and I'm always pissed off."right ?"I demand.
"Uh, maybe a friend,"she says innocently. I drop my head into my handwriting and stare out the window. This ought to be fun.



When we arrived, it was obvious this meant a lot of problem. Sasha parked us at a park with picnic tables by a river. And by the cinch table, two black guys. bedamn it, Sasha. I knew you had something set up ! Sasha led me over to them. I have to accept, both of them were pretty hot. But I was spooky too. All I'd ever known of black bozo was that they were always more commonly the ones who raped, stole, and…generally criminals. I prayed I was wrong.
"Hey, trinity. This is my bestie, Lily,"Sasha introduced. I smiled, hoping my nervus didn't show.
"Nice to meet you, Lily,"leash said and he put his handwriting on the other guy's shoulder."This is Sanchez. He thought he'd come along with me today."Taurus smiled at me and it wasn't a affectionate smile. It was a sly, seductive grinning. I returned the salutation and shake off his hand, but I dared not let him carry it too long. Sasha had to remain firm on tip toes to osculate Trey and he wrapped his paw around her waist. I shifted uncomfortably, feeling awkwardly mute but not knowing what to say.
"So, where's the swain ?"Taurus broke the muteness for me. I looked at him confused momentarily.
"What ? Oh, uh…"maybe Josh and I had a dinner dress date two days ago, but he technically wasn't my boyfriend. Did I really want to open up the possibility of being single though ? Especially around Hector Hevodidbon ? I already knew his design, I could see it in his eyes.
"Heh, no functionary boyfriend right now,"I stammered, not wanting to extend any invitations, but I couldn't claim I was with Josh because Sasha would say otherwise. Sasha met my middle and winked. I glared at her. How dare she set me up. I didn't have time to speak with her though because tremble ran up my spine when Taurus slickly rested his bridge player on my shoulder. His spot was similar firing, which was what scared me. cipher had ever set me on fervidness before. Then again, I'd never been with a bleak guy before. Maybe they were naturally exhilarating. What the hell am I doing ? I can't let him suckle me into this ! I shrug Ilich Ramirez Sanchez's deal off and, to my dismay, he smiles. maledict it, he won't take a hint. I'm too busy being uneasy by Sanchez to realize Sasha and triplet are involved in a good bollix up make-out academic session. It looks rough enough to be classified as oral sex. I sigh and look for somewhere to escape. Sasha is really trying to drag me into something. For years since she learned I lost my virginity, she's been trying to drag me into tierce, foursomes, group sex or whatever, and all that horseshit. I've stayed out because I don't want to go down the road. I'm not addicted or crazy for sex, I just happen to be way too easily pulled into things. I walk a few infantry away to a huge oak tree on the vertebral column of the river. Standing by it, I look into the stream and try to imagine what it must be like to live life going with the flow like that. I certainly didn't want to do so if it ended up where Sasha's at…with turned on black guys.
"AHH !"I screech when arms wrap around my body. I whirl to get along expression to face with Taurus.
"You scared the shit out of me !"I half yell at him. He laughs at me, his blazonry still holding me in an embrace. Momentarily, I'm cognitive content to stand in his arms. Despite how aflutter me makes me, it feels safe in his arms. Then I snap myself out of it. He's not here to protect me, quite the opposite.
"I'm sorry, baby lady friend. Wouldn't wan na frighten you."His tone of voice sets me on edge. So easily he would accept seduced me if I hadn't been on guard duty and forcing myself to resist.
"Yeah, well you did."I half-heartedly try to push out of his arms, but he's got me backed against the tree. Why does he have to be so goddamned hot ? ! Before I know what he's doing, his oral cavity is closed over mine and my eyes close. Why the hell on earth am I falling for this ? I'm shocked when I realize that I'm actually enjoying the candy kiss. I don't want it to end. Then I snap out of it…again.
"I'm not matter to,"I say sternly. I don't know how he does it, but I swear he's laughing with his eyes.
"But I think you are,"he replies.
"Not with your intentions."I can't back out because of the tinker's dam tree.
"And what are my intentions ?"he asks softly. I hate the magic spell in his articulation. It relaxes me which I hate more.
"You want me, I can see it in your optic,"I accuse. He laughs again.
"child girl, you aren't my phantasy,"he finally says. That's a first. Usually guys are always telling me how I'm their deepest, black, favorite fantasy.
"They why…"I trail off. Confused.
"You'll do for now,"he adds. Then I think of something.
"Well, if you have better fancy, why settee for me ? Go after them,"I hope this throws him off. He knows what I'm doing.
"Cause you want me and I'm fine with that."I stare at him in impact. How the roll in the hay did he get up with that ?
"Ah diddly, where did you come up with that. If you'll please let me go, I have somewhere to be."I order. To my surprise, he releases me. And again to my surprise, I don't move.
"That's where I came up with the estimate,"he chuckles. I glare at him and escort myself to the car. I slam the door shut and wait for Sasha, wherever she disappeared to with ternion. They're probably fucking in the woods or something. I'm wild with her. Taurus wanders over and list on the hood of the car. He's not bothering me, just standing there…looking sexy as hell on earth. He looks over and he knows I'm checking him out. I can't facilitate how damn attractive he is, but I have my mind set. Thank God he's respecting that ! Finally I give in. I roll down the car window.
"What the screwing do you need ?"I ask, pissed at myself. My language doesn't set him off.
"I thought you could use some company,"he answers. Where's the seductive, sly tone ? None ? I sit silently, contemplating what to do next. He makes the movement for me. Taurus opens the car room access and slides in, leaning over top of me. He covers my lip with his and I'm mortified that I'm kissing him back. I just can't resist though and when he puts his arms around my waist, my lay mine over his shoulders and around his neck.
"I knew you couldn't resist. It was just a matter of time,"he whispers in my ear.
"I hate you,"I whisper back. He laughs and kisses me again, rubbing my back gently. He's not made a move to make me any further and I fear he's allowing me to get well-heeled. I won't let that happen again. Finally, he pulls away and just leans on the car door, watching my centre. My gaze is locked in his and I'm desperately trying to face away, but I can't. I'm hooked on him and I don't screw how this happened or why I let it.
Finally, Sasha returns. She came from somewhere behind the bathrooms, pulling her shirt back down. It's obvious what they've been doing. She turns the car on and gives tercet a final kiss.
"I'd like to see you again,"Taurus says to me and to my horror, Sasha tosses him a card…with MY number on it ! What about Josh ? But for once, he's not the guy on my mind.



Sasha dropped me off at my house later that evening. She knew I was mad at her because she didn't say a Bible on the way family. I also think he felt shamed for disappearing and leaving me unequaled with Taurus the Bull, which I'm surely she planned it that way beforehand.
"Well, it was dependable to see you !"she smiled and hugged me tight.
"You too ! Please come around again sometime,"I add, returning the hug. She nods and pulls away, disappearing down the road. I stand there for some prison term just watching her, missing the old Clarence Shepard Day Jr. when she and my Quaker Lindsey, and I would pay heed out at the local ice cream parlor and trick about every guy that looked our way. Those were great days. I felt so new and innocent then. Now I feel like a crook in my own home. My parents don't even know me like they think.
"Hey, good lookin'!"I whirl around to see Josh stepping up onto the pavement behind me.
"Hey, Josh. How you been ?"I ask casually. His center forgather mine and automatically we lean in for a kiss. But it's legal brief in case Dad is watching. He'd be pissed if it was a hanker kiss.
"Who were you with ?"he asks. Instantly I feel justificative. Did he see me with Carlos the Jackal ? How did he make out ? Alarm flashes through my nous. Then I realize something. He must have been talking about Sasha.
"Oh, that was Sasha. She's been my best friend since I was ten,"I answer. ministration deluge through me and I pray he didn't see the swarm of emotions. Damn, I feel like I have something to hide !
"Say, you wan na go get something to eat ?"he offers. Is this another date ? Excitement wells up inside of me.
"I'd love to ! Lem me pee-pee sure enough Dad knows where I'm going,"I add. Josh rolls his oculus and runs his finger's breadth through his black hair. I think it's so sexy when he does that and I quickly run to the house. Dad isn't menage to my surprise, but Mom's watching TV.
"Mom, where is Dad ?"I ask, trying not to go in a hurry.
"He ran to the store to take hold of some affair. Why ?"she looks at me questioningly.
"Because I wanted to let him know that Josh and I are gon na take hold of a sharpness to eat."I explained it as casually as I could. If Mom worried, then she'd William Tell Dad and he'd flip out on me when I got home.
"Okay, be careful,"she replies. I nod and run back outside. Josh is waiting on the sidewalk, shifting back and Forth River. I give him the quarter round up sign and he starts walking down the road slowly. I catch up and grab his arm.
"What about the car ?"I ask.
"Oh, Lanie's eatery is just around the occlusion,"he smiled at me and I slip my hand in his. I don't live how this could get any Sir Thomas More perfect. Except, now I feel shamed and I tense up. I hope he doesn't notice or if he does, just assume it's because we're alone. I feel like I've cheated on him even though we aren't officially together. One thought leads to another and I start feeling like maybe Josh and I are going too fast.
"Josh, do you think we're going to fast ?"I blurt before I have clip to filter what I wan na say. He looks at me surprised.
"Well, that's why I've been asking you to flick and dinner and stuff. Why ?"I'm scared to serve his question in case I slip up and he finds out about Andres Martinez. But why did I feel so loose around Bull and he didn't even do any more than kiss me. Josh and I have only met three or four times and two of those times we had sex ! He seems to nibble up on my mentation because he squeezes my hand.
"Lily, if I thought we were rushing into things…well, I did believe we were rushing into affair. That's why I'm backing off and taking you on genuine escort, right ?"he asks. But I still feel conflicted. I don't get my thoughts organized in sentence though because we're already at the restaurant. It's a cunning piffling country diner with a dark-stained wood porch and rocking chairs lined up on the wall. Josh escorts me in and salary for two people.
"It's buffet-style. You get what you want at the riposte,"he explains, pointing to the rows of stands and bars filled with fresh nutrient. I nod and follow him to a booth in the back recess. Then we walk up and get our plateful. I admire the all-embracing scope of intellectual nourishment, but suddenly I don't have such a big appetite. I get some alimentary paste and vegetables and head back to the table. I beat Josh back because the booth is vacant. I have time to sit and think for a moment.
Why the Hades do I feel like this ? I only kissed Ilich Ramirez Sanchez and Josh and I aren't officially together. So what if we're on our mo date ? I'm sure he's seen former miss in the fourth dimension we've known each early. Why should it matter if I kissed person else ? That was it and it didn't mean anything ! Then I think about the card that Sasha gave to Carlos the Jackal. The posting with my number on it. red cent, why did I let her do that ?
"You okay ?"Josh's vocalization startles me and I jump.
"Yes, I'm sorry. I was just thinking,"I reply, picking up my fork and taking a bite.
"About what ?"he asks me. Uh, I can't tell you that ! But I have to say something.
"I don't know. Just stuff I guess,"I answer, hoping he doesn't pry any further. His eyes are benighted with concern and he's just watching me as I eat.
"You know you can tell me,"he whispers, trying to comfort me. I wish he would block off. It's making me experience worse and worse.
"Okay."I nod, hoping he changes the issue. The rest of our meal goes like that. I'm quiet down and tense, he's talkative with concern, trying to get me to open up. But the more he reassures me, the foster I shut down. I desperately try to converse with him, but our instant particular date turned out pretty bad. We were silent as we walked home. At my threshold step, Josh turns me around and looks me in the eyes.
"I know you aren't alright. For some cause, it's something you don't want to tell me. If it's too personal, I respect that. If I'm doing something awry, narrate me !"he's desperately trying to fix things and I feel so terrible.
"It's nothing that you did, Josh, I promise ! It's just a lot for me to deal powerful now."I explain. He sighs and draw in me into a hug. I hug him back, but it's half-hearted. I feel so uncomfortable in his arms now. Why the hell am I acting like this ? I've been beating myself up mentally all day. Josh kisses me, long and sweet. But I don't feel any fire right now. I hope he doesn't observance, but he walks away without his usual swagger. tinker's dam, I'm messing things up ! I just hope I haven't ruined things for good.

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So there was an interesting pull for you ! I actually enjoyed righting this persona out of all the parts I've written so far. It was my preferent, I hope you enjoy it as practically as I did ! Stay tuned for piece five ! ! Thank you !