*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to take the loose way out of this miserable life, As you can guess by this greenback I have chosen suicide as the but pick to a life I never chose to live, I hope that the one who reads this note can fully understand that I was never felicitous when i walked the earth, Was never happy ventilation, Was never happy living a life sentence I did n't hope, I would rather die and sacrifice someone new a opportunity to subsist, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it other than the obvious fact I never wanted to exist, Well it all began a curtly piece ago when I met a certain girlfriend who for all intensive aim shall continue nameless for the meter beign, She was hand on inwardness honest to god my perfect match, No person animated or dead could ever possibly match up to her in any aspect, Although to some mass she was never considered the most beautiful to me every fourth dimension I stole a individual glance I saw an angel staring back, Every word she spoke managed to leave my pith beating a minuscule quicker each and every prison term, Every clip we managed to have a conversation I will honestly admit that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never mold a complete Son, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stammer and made picayune to no sense, I guess i have gone a little off track but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the spirit I once lived, That girl who shall still remain nameless was one of the few cause I saw death as the best option, The early grounds are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the nameless girl I have spent my life alone, Nobody knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do postulate service, cipher has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in hopes that maybe someone would see the broken pattern hidden behind the mask of tears, nobody has ever once had the decency to just stop and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two reasons, A girl who left me fail, Who left me depressed and for all it 's worth the indorsement reason will always endure that I 'm alone and the world never seems to care, surmise the next understanding could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a simple affair that in my life has become something so major, In most people 's lives when they are bored they just pick up a Scripture, A plot, Watch the TV or go hang out with their acquaintance, With me been bored leads to things much more dangerous, The knife is always my favourite past clock time, See how hanker it takes for the pain to go too much to bear, See how a good deal stock seaps out the cuts I leave on my arms, See how many blank space I can get out a scar without them been noticed, Yeah such fun multiplication, Of course alchol was always fun aswell, Getting drunkard was always a great past prison term, So yeah that 's another reason for this annotation, I was bored, So bored of spirit, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the life most people are cognitive content with, okey I guess the final reason would ingest to be that I was tired, I was so well-worn of living the Lapp day over and over, Yes twenty-four hour period passed but to me each and every single day seemed the like, I was in a rut, I did the Same thing day in day out for even I ca n't call back how many yr, My lifetime became such a repetition that I became more and more weary with each day that passed, So I guess there the ground for why I chose to take my life, A girl, organism so alone, Boredom and of course being tired, I know they do n't fathom like much of a rationality but I want whoever may interpret this note to understand that them four minor grounds combined became one big reasonableness, existence depressed and alone while also being very hackneyed and extremely drill, Such a bad combination, Anyways I guess the hale full point of this bill is to say bye-bye and to let you all know the reason I left this life, So goodbye and goodluck to all, I wish my family all the honest and hope they can forgive my choice, Hope they can see that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still love them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the nameless girl can understand that if she ever reads this I just want her to lie with that I do like deeply about her, I do still love her and I doubt that sexual love will ever fade, Even if my pump has no beat I will still sense a heartbeat everytime I think of her, Hope she can call back the just times we shared and remember that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to remember that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be well-chosen even if that meant I could never be, okey now I know this has gotten a trivial long so I will finish as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with life story as if I never existed, Just let me go and leave about me as so many citizenry already have, Goodbye I do love you all ( anyone who reads that, those endure lines are meant for family only ), shot I can finally be at pacification, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find my body in the position I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the attic where all our computer memory are stored ) *