Dayner & Jake
GayJake is a very sensitive person, he noticed straight away that I was having a very hard time so he rented a post near my campus so that I could at least come home to him after a foresightful day of studying. It was honestly the most thoughtful affair anyone has ever done for me and I was extremely grateful. He did n't stimulate to do all this, he could have just lived his new liveliness without going out of his way for me but he didn't. I 'm glad he chose me above all else.
I naturally felt inclined to spend even more than time with him than I used to and exhibit my making love and gratitude for him in unlike ways.
I was never a very affectionate someone, I always thought I had to keep my distance from men so that there would n't be any misunderstandings about my sexual orientation, but now I see myself doing things quite out of character for me. I don't know if the divorce brought back some insecurities or if Jake has really warmed my essence even further with his decision to support me through this difficult fourth dimension. The strange thing is, they feel so natural. It 's like there 's something pulling me towards Jake. When we 're at home, I ca n't help but be near him and affect him every chance that I get.
I think he started to notice this change and has started to squeeze it or so I 'd like to cogitate. I have become a nail diffuse boy, a whore for Jake 's attention which makes me nauseous to my stomach and at the same time eager for more.
Now, whenever I get plate, I search the whole flat for him just so that I can hug him and render him a osculation on his cheek. The first meter I did this, Jake was very surprise since I had never kissed him before and only hugged him on special occasions. I think the shock has completely blown over because now he has been kissing me back. He holds my cervix in his two workforce and office an acute, retentive candy kiss on my cheek. Every meter he does that I just feel like hugging him squiffy and not letting go.
This somehow has evolved into us cuddling on the lounge every day after dinner. We usually finish cleaning up the kitchen, since I 'm a little lazy I leave Jake finishing it up by himself and lay on the sofa with my ramification still hanging trying to choose something to watch. Jake will then make out and sit next to me only to see me scoot to oblige him laying behind me. As soon as he lays completely down, he wraps his arm around my shank and pulls me into him in a unwaveringly stroke. This always brings butterflies to my stomach and that 's why I keep on doing it in the arithmetic mean Jake will react like this every time. I think he noticed my pant when he first did it and has continued to do it recognize what he might have been making me feel.
He knows I 'm straight and I think he 's straight too. At least he was married to my mom for so many years.
I seem to not be able to be without this `` us time '' anymore. Whenever we don't get to do it for some reason I get to craving it to the extent of feeling physically hurt. It's like I need to find his touch, his scent. Once I caught myself going through his dirty laundry just so I could feel his scent. I feel a bit of shame admitting this but that night I slept holding on to one of his t-shirts. I could experience a little bit of his sweat and a hint of his cologne but his smell was there and it was so hard that it made me sense whole at every deep breathing time that I took. I think I might be addicted to him.
We decided to watch a horror movie tonight. It 's a movie Jake has been meaning to ascertain for a while and I comply even if I 'm not into this kind of genre. I keep holding on to Jake 's arms all throughout the motion-picture show and covering my eyes with them during the scary parts. Jake ca n't help oneself but chuckle every once in a while which makes me feel embarrassed. When the movie ends, Jake gets up to head to bed and places a candy kiss on my os frontale as if to like goodnight to incur a pouty son with pup dog heart still embarrassed that a picture got him this scared. Jake halt and holds my face in his manpower and asks :
'' What 's the matter kiddo ? ``
'' I 'm scared '' I mumble.
'' Awww, I did n't know you 'd be this sensitive to this kind of motion-picture show. I promise I wo n't observe them anymore with you. Are you gon na be OK ? ``
'' Yeah ... it 's just that it 's dark. Maybe next time we can watch over them during the day ? ... ``
'' OK, kiddo. Are you heading off to bed ? ``
'' Ye.. yeah.. hmm.. I should, should n't I ? ``
'' Yeah, you should ! heed, if you 're that `` apprehensive '' maybe you could kip with me tonight. I do n't want you losing any nap and affecting your carrying into action at school. What do you say ? ``
'' Ahmmm.. o.. OK… I 'll go get my pillow. ``
I'm a bit excited but uneasy to be sleeping with Jake so I give supererogatory thought to what I'll wear to bed with him. I usually sleep in unloose gym shorts and a T-shirt and that 's what I decided to fatigue today too. I think I should n't convert my habits or he might get shady that I might be uneasy for the faulty reasons. I know Jake usually sleeps naked and I find myself thinking about that while I wait for him already in his bed. He comes from the privy wearing boxer short pants and lays down next to me, maybe he thought it was n't reserve to catch some Z's naked beside me. I really wouldn't mind if he did. Wow, that thought is a bit start, if I'm having these kinds of thoughts, maybe it 's for the ripe that he decided to exchange his nightly attire.
We settle down and he, instinctively, puts his arms around my waist and pulls me towards him just like he does when we 're on the sofa. He lifts his head a bit and whispers in my ear `` Is this OK ? ''. To which I vigorously nod and accommodate myself to his body.
Jake is enceinte than me, it's clear we don't contribution the same DNA. Growing up I always wanted to be like him. Right now, being in this perspective makes me just want to be with him. things are just as they are.
I wake up in the dawning to the honest Nox's sleep I've had since my parents'divorce and an empty incline of the bed. I lift my head and notice the smell coming from the kitchen. Jake is preparing breakfast. I'm really a lucky guy.
"Morning, kiddo. How did you log Z's ?"
"Morning… I hadn't slept this well in a hanker time."
"Wonderful, wonderful. You can log Z's with me whenever you want. Don't feel shy about it. Now come eat your pancakes."
Obviously, I get shy about it. I really want to go nap with Jake but I can't get the best a cold-shoulder sentience of pity I feel about it. I want Jake to nurse me all Nox, I want to find his warmth and his hint on my neck opening but something Tell me it's unseasonable. I shouldn't be feeling like this about a man, I'm a directly guy anyway, aren't I ? And Jake is my Padre. I shouldn't be feeling like this about my father.
After a few days, as we're having dinner party,
'' What 's wrong ? You almost did n't tinge your intellectual nourishment. '' Jack says.
'' It 's embarrassing… My tum hurts…"
"Is it indigestion ? need me to get some medical specialty for you ?"
"No, it's fine, it's just that… Hmm… I have n't been to the toilette in 5 mean solar day. ''
'' Hahaha, nothing to be embarrassed about ! You used to be same that as a fry when something was bothering you. Your mother used to facilitate you with that and used to vary your diet a little. If you want, you can lay down on the bed and I 'll go fetch the stuff to do what your mother did when you got like this. ``
'' What did she do ? I do n't remember. ''
'' She had to loose up your shy bowel. She used the thermometer's end and you 'd normally go after one or two academic session of that, it was the MD who recommended it since you could n't claim any laxatives. We do n't make any laxatives at home, I can buy them tomorrow or we can try this technique if you want. I 'm your father so that is something that I should be able to do for you. It 's my job ''.
'' Wo n't it be weird or 144 ? My body does feel uncomfortable, the Oklahoman I solve this the better. Are you sure as shooting you 're ok with it ? ``
'' Listen, you 're my son. zip that comes from you can flagrant me out. Did you forget all those times I cleaned up after you 've vomited ? You always had a sensitive stomach."
"Hhaa… TMI ! ! !"
"Hahaha ! Go on, jump on the bed and we 'll pack care of it. ``
Jake comes with a thermometer in his hand, a vaseline container in the other and a towel on his arm. He sits down next to me and says `` go on, turn around ''. I do as he says and I can feel his script touching mine as he helps me slide down my shorts. He rolls over the towel and shoes it under me as to get up my backside. I feel extra exposed as if being naked in figurehead of him was n't enough. It does arrive at me feel tingly inside which is rather contradictory.
He starts by applying some vaseline on my hole and rubbing it thoroughly. He 's very gentle but business firm at the same sentence, I ca n't avail but get a bit startled by noticing my cock twitching at the touch of Jake's fingerbreadth on my mess. Just by rubbing my asshole this man can make me have a sexual chemical reaction. I think I'm in big trouble.
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