Before we begin, near readers, I would like to remind you that my interviewee, the controversial grownup performing artist Mona Dee, insisted on being naked throughout the interview. What 's Sir Thomas More, she insisted on pleasuring herself while we talked. She was somewhat foiled that I was not bequeath to link her. yell me old-fashioned.

Q : It 's become a touchstone for you to always do audience naked and masturbating. How fall, pun intended ?

A : ( laugh ). I do n't know. I just ... I just like to roleplay with myself when others watch. And I do n't pick you for not joining me, but sometimes they do. Last spring I did this radiocommunication show, no adult radio, very mainstream, late in the Night and I masturbated on air and convinced one of the manly hosts to unite in. It was radio, there was no video or photos, but still they got a fucking ton of detest mail. The guy had to make a public apology to keep his job. And his two colleague, they were absolutely grossed out when this man, this middle-aged balding man, stripped out of his clothes, jerked off on the air, was moaning on live tuner and shot a huge fucking shipment on the floor. I thought it was hot. I would 've sucked him off if they only let me do that.

Q : Is this idea of you being hyper-sexual, in a near-constant land of arousal accurate or exaggerated ?

A : I mean, I 'm not having sex or masturbating all the time. But yeah, I 'm a horny slattern. I have sex at rest home, I have sex at work. I am hyper-sexual. I used to fight back it when I was much younger. I even went to some fucking Sex Addicts anonymous confluence, but even then I just ended up piece of ass half the members. Doing porn was a way of accepting who I was. I 'm so golden. I make a living by doing what I would be doing anyway.

Q : What was that summons like, that route to being yourself ?

A : It was shivery at first. I remember this one sentence, I was nineteen back then and an exchange bookman in Italian Republic. There were these nude statue beaches and I went there and I took it all off, and it was cracking and all that. But there were others naked, it 's not like people were staring. So it was a bit of a disappointment, but I 'll tell you what I did. I went to this early beach and it was n't clothing-optional. I pretended that I thought it was. I laid there raw and was thrilled when some hombre were checking me out. This old cleaning woman spoiled the fun by telling me it was n't clothing-optional. So, I pretended to be horribly stymy and got dressed and left. When I got back to my room, I spent like three minute masturbating, just thinking of those looks I got. That time in Italy was a transubstantiate experience. I was more relaxed after I got back home. I quickly developed this reputation, because I was always fucking wasted at party, always stripping down. Like, if there was a piece of ass Jacuzzi or a sauna, I went naked even if others did n't. I was always the one going near dipping. And I was sleeping around a lot, with hombre at first and then I started experimenting with girls. I developed this subprogram, they 'd get me inebriated and boost me to do a niggling striptease. They were clapping and chanting and it ended with me completely naked. So yeah, people started to see me as a slut.

Q : Was porn something you always wanted to do ?

A : Ever since I became an exhibitionist. There were a dyad of student parties where dozens of people saw me naked and it was such a fucking thrill ! Someone at schooling asked me if I had considered modeling and of course of study I was interested. The commencement shoots were just bikini, you know, intimate apparel stuff, but then the guy told me he knew this other guy who might have jobs for me if I was bequeath to go topless. Of course ! So my teat were now a topic at school. Not much later, I got a job as a stripteaser and never went back to school. The shoots quickly progressed to full-frontal nudity. Then there was this brief geological period where I was hooking, you know, before I got into porn. Like, on the streets, sucking hawkshaw in some back up back street. I still do that sometimes, by the way. Gets me real nostalgic. I recently did this underground low-budget thing where I was selling pussy in Barcelona, working glory gob and so on.

Q : You have a reputation of being a grave juicer and center user. You 're sipping whiskey as we speak. How do sex and gist fit together ?

A : I am definitely a heavy drinker, have been for many, many year. Am I an soaker ? I 'm not trusted what that word of honor means. But I am operative. I 'm not drink in all the time. It 's a part of being a slut. Being a drunk makes this even spicy, not just being drunk, but being a drunk. When I was Whitney Young, it was an excuse to be wild, you know, sexually. Nowadays I do n't need excuses, but it can provide some more juice to fucking. But I have lots of sober sex as well. I do n't require to be drunk to enjoy sex on camera, or on stage. The other drugs, they 're just occasional. I never break the law. When I travel, if the laws are more make relaxed there, I 'll have some. Of course of study, weed is now sound, but I 'm not that big on dope. I have a joint on uncommon occasions. I work often in Portugal, because they 've decriminalized everything. So I stay a few week and do all sorts of stuff and nonsense. I pop some pills, huff a ton of coke, even inject heroin sometimes. But I 'm careful, with the phonograph needle and so on. And I had my factor find reliable bargainer. I need to roll in the hay what I 'm using, how strong it is. And I do n't mix thing that should n't be mixed. I 'm useable. Not gon na overdose. ( Laughs ) I guess a lot of people were surprised I made it past twenty-seven, you know, the rock champion age.

Q : What are some of wildest substance-fueled sex experiences you 've had ?

A : If I remember them, they were n't that state of nature, were they ? ( Laughs ) No, seriously, stimulant are always better than sedatives. That 's a good world-wide principle, in my experience. Alcohol is a adept excitant. Weed, heroin, Xannies, codeine, they just slow me down, but they 're all right afterwards. Like if you just had an orgy and then smoke a join or take a couple of pills. You know what 's a good excitant ? caffeine, sometimes I do n't take in anything intoxicating. I just have a shitload of caffeine. coffee 's too sluggish for that, you need energy drinks and you need to wassail them debauched to get your ticker racing. But yeah, I 'd say coke and chicken feed are the best sex drugs, really inviolable stimulants. crystallization meth and crack, and also because they 're like the lowest of drugs. Like, can you get any down in the mouth than being a fucking whore on crack ? back breaker and shrooms are too uncanny, I 'm not really into the psychedelics, though I 've experimented. The wildest, obtuse drug experimentation were probably sniffing affair, you know, like glue, paint, fucking gasoline. I did that only a couple of metre, it was ... it was n't bang-up. I just wanted to try it. Ca n't say I remember a whole lot of those nights. As I said, the other drugs are just for commonwealth where it 's legal. When I 'm in the States, I just drink. I used to drink in Lot of beer, but then I was gaining weight and you ca n't be a porno maven with a beer belly. So I mostly have backbreaking liquor now. The margin goes up over the years, so what I do nowadays is drink on an empty tummy. Just like now, I woke up late today, so have n't even had any breakfast yet and already started on the whiskey. I 'll tell you what my risky drunk sex pipe dream is like. For yr, I 've wanted to do this video where I drink until I pass out and then a bunch of guys fuck me. Nothing talk through one's hat, I would really be unconscious mind while they picture show it. My attorney 's advised against it and I always take away his advice. There 's a line you ca n't cross and then there 's a hoary field that you should abide away from. But if I had to choose just one substance for the rest of my life, it would be alcoholic beverage. I 've grown so customary to the gustation, sure drinks taste so good while giving a buzz. Like this whiskey. Meth and coke are neat, but ultimately whisky is even better. I guess it 's partly nostalgia. I started drinking way before I started using anything else. So if I had to overdose, I 'd salute myself to death with whiskey.

Q : Your life-style does n't seem to chew over on your coming into court. Do you have any especial health or physical fitness routines ?

A : I do, I do lick out regularly and try to eat a certain way. This takes it 's toll, you know. Not just the drinking and drugging, but these damn cigarettes. ( She takes a break from masturbation to light up a cigaret. ) And I do have my sober menses, as well. Like not that long ago, I was sober for two workweek. I had been working in Portuguese Republic and it was like a fucking haze. I was snorting coke off the prick, popping pills, everything, crystal shabu, smoking a freaking wisecrack organ pipe. Not all of that at once of course of instruction ! ( Laughs ) It was a sick three workweek and I had to lay off all the stuff afterwards. Felt like I needed a lilliputian detox. But yeah, back to the interrogative. ( Laughs ) I do make an crusade into looking ripe. And of course, it 's not like everything 's raw anyway. I 've had a lot of employment done.

Q : Do you consider body modification to be another addiction, like drinking or smoking ?

A : I do, it for sure is, for me it is, there 's just a thrill about being so damn vain. I do n't wan na overdo it. Like, if you know Jessie Waley, she got obsessed with tattoos and now she 's almost completely covered in them, barely any hide left. I never took it that far. I have ... 53 tat, I think is the electric current count. I 've had some scarring done, piercings, plastic surgery, piece of work on my dumbbell ( She jiggles them and kisses the nipples for exemplification. ), employment on my ass, all sorts of things. Hair remotion as well, not from the pussy. Usually I trim it or shave it all off, but sometimes you want the furious bush. But peg and arms, I do n't desire any hair there, so they did some things there and I never have to shave. And there 's a lot musical theme I would care to get done, but they 're probably too extreme.

Q : Even more extreme point than becoming a man for a abbreviated time period ?

A : I would n't say that I was a man. I did n't go the wholly path, I did n't get all the hormonal things and I never got rid of my bosom. Did n't desire a beard or null. I just wanted to see what it was like to have a dick. Some said it would put down my life history, but I bounced back, did n't I ?

Q : Was it purely a negative reaction or did some hoi polloi like it ?

A : Of form some did, there 's always some out there. But it 's a niche thing, chicks with dicks. I took metre off for the surgical operation and then released the reveal video of me jerking off and the internet exploded in anger. So many masses hated it, even though I assured them it would n't be permanent. And the trans people attacked me for belittling them.

Q : Was there any desire to not transition back ?

A : Absolutely not. I love being a chick. I love having a pussy. ( She spreads her legs as far as possible for illustration, then resumes masturbation. ) But it was an interesting six month. And the haters were incorrect, my career recovered. It was like that thing with New coke. When I got my pussy back, I held a special event, spine to the Pussy, a celebration and there was like a million multitude watching. Many of the bad epithet in the biz came, pun intended. ( gag )

Q : Talk about these body qualifying ideas. What are they like ?

A : Well, I 'm interested in all kinds of extreme point, like being super skinny or really, morbidly obese. I ca n't do all of those thing, so what I do is find others who have, how do I put this, limited bodies. I 've done tons of voodoo television with fat multitude, or really anorectic people, marvellous people, nanus, really muscular, like body-builders. And disenable citizenry. I love the melodic theme of being disabled. At one point, I really fantasized about having my legs amputated. I 've had sex with wheelchair the great unwashed, amputees, paralyse hoi polloi. Blind the great unwashed, deaf hoi polloi. Most extreme experience was having sex with this girl who did n't have got any limbs. I had steamy lesbian sex with her and a couple of guys joined us. I do have some theme of torso change that are n't even potential. They 're just pipe pipe dream. I make drawings and send them to operating surgeon who say it ca n't be done. hellish things, bat extension, tails, horn, so on.

Q : holy place shit ! How do you mean multitude would react to that ?

A : Most would n't get that. Career-wise it would be a bad move. I 've been thinking about getting my lingua split. Like, some missy I know make that look real good. I do n't know. It might be off-putting to some, but you ca n't please everyone. It 's hardly mainstream.

Q : Is n't it the typesetter's case, though, that instead of following the fashions, you instead set them ? It 's often been said that very few people, if any, in the porn industriousness have done more to to normalize the extreme than you have.

A : I guess that 's true. But I do n't take the credit. It 's all been there, for a long sentence, in some form or another. I studied the pioneers and I 've had the honor of working with some of them. I 'm More of a popularizer myself. You ca n't be good at everything. Like Ellie Fontaine, she 's like the poof of piss. nonentity can piss more than that beef, it 's like a Imperial gallon of water. She 's pissed on me a few times and I swear it was like a fucking gal. She 's a specialist. I 'm a generalist. I do all sorts of things, but I ca n't get to that story in any of them.

Q : Was your gestation also about body modification or were there other motif for that ?

A : ( Stops masturbating ) That certainly was part of it. I wanted to be super-feminine and what could be to a greater extent womanly than that ? And they say great things about meaning sex and there 's really no other way to experience it than to go through it yourself. I certainly had a fun time being pregnant even though I was white-knuckling to stay sober. And those videos were very democratic. It 's a niche, but a fairly big one. Some multitude did n't like that, but they knew it would be over soon. I got meaning at that tip in my career, because I already had the sex alteration idea in my heading so I figured I need to get pregnant first if I 'm gon na do it. I honestly do n't know who the baby papa is. There 's 17 nominee. Everyone shot a load inside of me that night. Who knows ?

Q : Is it dependable that after giving nativity you seriously considered quitting porn ?

A : At that point I had signed all the paperwork. I had told my lawyer to find a soundly family for that baby girl. I would 've been a terrible mother, I 'm certain. And they would 've taken her away anyways, with my career and the crapulence and the drugs. ( teardrop up. ) But yeah, when I was pregnant, especially the final stage couple of months, I really realized how lucky that couple would be, that they actually get to heighten that small fry. But it was too late for me. I 've crossed too many line of products a yearn time ago. That 's ... that 's really a share of why I do these matter, why I 'm so utmost. It 's to wee sure there 's no going back. ordinary aliveness is not an alternative. ( Long suspension ) After I had given giving birth, I took some meter off. That was really the only break from porn I 've ever taken. It was n't just physical, it was more mental. i rented this picayune cabin for a month and just sat on the porch, walked in the woods, listened to the birds. When I was there, I was all alone the totally time, celibate. ( joke ) Can you imagine me celibate for a month ? I had no sex, did n't even jack off, did n't follow porno. And I was sober too. Just like being meaning, I never, when I was fraught I did n't pledge or use drugs or smoke. I did n't wan na hurt the baby. Some parental instinct kicked in. Anyway, when I was in the cabin I thought about what former paths were available to me, but there did n't seem to be any. I knew I would go back to the porno. I did n't stimulate the money to crawl in, I had made zero investiture, I was fucking terrible with finances. And the sex was still good. After a month in the cabin I returned to civilisation and went back into porn and prostitution, started drinking again. There was zero else to do.

Q : I 'm dismal for being so deaden, but do you deliver any contact with your daughter ?

A : No, I do n't even know her name or where she lives. My lawyer tick in on them, just letting me know she 's fine. And I send a check to her adoptive parents every calendar month, through my lawyer. There 's a corporate trust fund for her when she 's grown up. I do n't want her to know me. I would n't need to ... I 'd be ashamed if she knew.

Q : How would you respond if you found out years from now that she chose the same life history as you did ?

A : I 'd hate that. Of course, I 'd be devastated just like my folks were when they found about me. I did n't get them at the fourth dimension, but I understood when I was holding that baby in the maternity Aaron Montgomery Ward. I was so do it tired, feeling like I was half-dead, but I wanted to hold her just once before they took her away.

Q : Do you possess any contact with your home ?

A : No, not for a few years now. Dad was furious when he found out back in the day, mom was more sad. We still saw each other for a couple of old age, not often and every sentence we did, they tried to talked me out of it. They asked me to move back there, they offered to pay my bills. You know, they 're quite well off. I 'm not from a pathetic family. I did n't get into this because I was desperate for money. When I started getting into more extremum porn, my ethnic music wanted less and less to do with me. After I started making incest porn, fake incest, I think that was the last straw.

Q : There was something about your full cousin ?

A : Oh, yes, that thing. I do n't have any siblings and I desperately wanted to make genuine incest porn instead of the talk through one's hat one. So I reached out to my cousins. None of them agreed to do it on the tape measure, but my cousin Jared did fuck me, a few times. And I mentioned this in some fucking interview and it was a scandal in the mob. I have no idea how Jared is doing. They all probably pretend that I never existed. Then I did something incredibly stupid. I got wino and wrote this letter to my folks and I asked them if they wanted to make incest porno with me, I asked if daddy wanted to fuck me. I was n't being awfully serious, but at the meter, I think I would 've done it if they had said yes. But of course I knew they would n't respond. It was just my way of burning bridge. Like I said, I make for sure there is no going back. That was quite a thing to realize back in that cabin, that there was no going back, no one to go back to. I had burned all the bridges by then. It 's kind of funny and kind of sad. Like, I 'm really popular, millions know me, but there 's basically no one who sees me as anything early than a whore. That 's what I realized in that cabin, that everybody I hung out with was only there for the sex or the money or both. I 'm a fucking patch of pith, but I started embracing that.

Q : Earlier you mentioned not being good with pecuniary resource. Being so hugely pop, it might do off as a surprise to many that you are you as not deep as they might cerebrate. Could you excuse why this is ?

A : ( Resumes masturbation ) fountainhead, in the early days I had this obsession with trying every possible frailty, of having every possible addiction. So I gambled away fucking lot, like over a million fucking bucks, two million, I do n't even know how much. I spent like two hundred grand buying useless shit that I did n't want. I bought, like, these paintings, expensive fucking picture, and then I destroyed them when I was rummy. Bought these Ming-vases and threw them off the balcony. Later on, as I got deeper and deeper into the uttermost side of things, I decided not to form a lot of money. I never ask for that much money for myself anymore. The only thing hotter than being a whore is being a very tawdry whore. You buy me a bottleful of score and I 'll jerk you off. Like, literally, I 've done that, not that long ago. Nowadays to the highest degree of the money goes to Polemonium caeruleum. I have this system, it 's like balancing karma. I try to do good thing to balance out all the abusive dirt I inflict on others. And there 's that money for my daughter. There 's not much left after that. Like my recent halt in Portugal, I made almost no money off of that. They paid for adjustment and travel disbursal and the shitload of drugs that I did, but that was it. They donated a lot to Polymonium caeruleum van-bruntiae, but I made like a yard Pearl Buck, for three weeks of hardcore shag. That 's partially to keep me from leaving the industry. I have to cultivate constantly. The money in my bank account, I could wassail all of that in a couple of week. So I need to prevent blowing and jerking off hombre and getting dicks rammed into both holes and all of that. Like my attorney, he 's one of the best in his business. I could never afford his usual fees, so he asks for a nominal fee and then we have sex. Every clip we meet, I start by sucking him dry. He 's such a engaged man, I 'm sure he appreciates not having to chase the kitty. Of course, our manufacturer could pay him but I prefer it this way.

Q : You mentioned opprobrious shit. Could you briefly explain what this sound abuse business organisation is about and how you came up with the concept ?

A : It 's not exactly my concept. The producer, microphone Chavez, came up with this idea. He had been sitting on this conception for a long time, not really sure as shooting whether to go ahead. But he had gotten to a stop where he had a billion dollar bill in the bank and nothing to recede, so he called me and I was thrilled instantly. The canonic estimation is that, yes, you need to give consent. We 're not raping anyone. But, what if you gave consent for very bad intellect ? Like you were desperate for money, for whatever reason. So our team search for these kinds of people. We do n't take applications, some of them would be dissimulator, who really wanted to do porn. So the basic musical theme is that we find people who do n't want to do porn, but reluctantly agree to it anyway. I 'm a big worshipper in the rule of law. This is the snug you can get to raping someone without actually being a rapist.

Q : And is that a turn-on for you, that they are very loath to perform ?

A : Absolutely ! I 've now had sex with like a two hundred multitude who only do it for the despair. The sex is awkward because they 're not really into it. And especially if it 's a be show, in battlefront of an audience. They 're so ashamed to be there and we humiliate them, take a shit them masturbate or piss on stage or something. We have these impotent guy rope and we laugh at them. Even though I 'm normally more into guys than girls, for whatever reason, I prefer girls for sound insult. Especially the shy girls, or if they 're a bit fat, or have little boobs, you know, something to mock them for. Like that limbless miss I mentioned. She needed that money, she did n't like it one bit.

Q : I gather that so far you 've managed to evade all the sound challenges ?

A : Yes, we get sued every now and then, but the suit never stick. We are careful like that. There 's always a contract, a ***********, to assign what we 're gon na do. We never deviate from that. It 's all signed, documented. They consented. If they had bad reasons for that, not our problem. A mates of months ago I was in court and we won, of course. This judge gave us this Brobdingnagian moral lecturing on how wicked we were and so on and how he wished he could put us away and blah blah blah. He was mad he could n't disturb us. There 's no law against being sadistic. We always have the last laugh. Like with this girl, when she had lost the subject, we highlighted her picture on the website, put them on the front varlet. Just wanted to make sure everyone sees me eating her pussy.

Q : How would you respond if your own daughter was ever recruited for that form of performance, for sound insult ?

A : ( halt masturbating. ) I 'd be mad. I 'd want revenge, I 'd probably need them all in. I know I 'm a total hypocrite for saying that. You know, I get why they sue, why they 're so mad. We get demise threat sometimes. I do n't blame them. But they consented and we paid what we said we would.

Q : Was n't your pal Nicky Schultz recruited through this legal abuse ?

A : ( survey masturbation. ) Oh, yeah, he was. Could n't pay the bills. He had been fired for watching porn on the job, heap of smut. He 's a porn addict, a chronic tosser, if there ever was one. So we had him jerk off in front of a resilient audience. We did n't even give him any Viagra or anything. The plan was to throw him there, voiced as can be, stroking that tiny cock, with everyone laughing. He surprised us all by getting it up and rock hard. And being erect, it was much bigger than I thought it would be. He 's a agriculturalist. It turned out he was a kind of masochistic show-off. Yes, it 's all humiliating for him. Whenever we perform, he jerks off and he 's on top of the existence. It comes crashing down right after he shoots his load. He 's filled with disgrace. He always tells himself this is the last time, after every nookie cum shot. He 's not gon na chuck up the sponge, though. He 's addicted to that thrill of masturbating for a life. He 's addicted to the disgrace. Funny affair about Nicky, he 's actually trying to funk his cock. I gave him that estimate. Like, what could be even more humiliating than pleasuring yourself for a bread and butter ? Well, how about doing that with a really small cock ? So, he 's in the process of doing that, steroids, internal secretion, that sorting of thing. All effectual stuff. We 'll have to see how that goes. We do n't desire him to grow boobs or anything. We 're not even paying him duplicate for doing that. He wanted to ! When I told him the approximation, there was this flavor of revulsion in his eyes, like `` What have you done to me ? ''. It was so funny. He was horrified, but he was so appal because he knew instantly he would go through with it. He 's addicted to the disgrace.

Q : Do you palpate shame ?

A : ( Laughs, masturbates furiously for a duet of s, then pisses on the floor a fiddling. ) Do I look like I feel shame ? No, I do n't, not anymore. But it took a piece to get there. I could help Nicky achieve that same mindset, but he does n't want that because for him, it 's the shame that turns him on. So he has this moral conflict, but that struggle makes him so horny that he ca n't terminate beating his nitty-gritty in front man of a thousand mass, on degree, on live flow. He 's like me in the sense that he 's gone too far to quit. He 's known to millions as that guy who wanks for a living. right luck trying to find another job. But it 's coolheaded. He 's making a living by doing what he would doing anyway. The guy is a porn junky and even in the old days could spend a few hour a day just pleasuring himself. It 's looney. He masturbates more than I do.

Q : Is there some misconception about you that you would like to clear up now ?

A : I 'm actually quite bright. I 'm not a dumb bimbo, just cause I have a prick up my ass or I eat twat or piddle on the floor. I 'm ahead of the curvature in fact. What I 'm doing is just the consistent end power point for intimate liberation. I 've talked about this with some philosophers, but they did n't hold with me. But, yeah, I 'm impertinent than hoi polloi think. Like even in school, before I dropped out, I was getting good degree. I read books. I talk to philosophers.

Q : Do you think people appreciate the effort you put into your work ? I mean, you also direct, compose, design sets and costumes, those sort of things.

A : Oh, yeah. Like, I 've always been very optic, always was good at drawing. A lot of work goes into it. I do n't just suck in a dick in front of a tv camera. I work a lot on the camera angles, readiness, costumes, lights, all of that. band of thought goes into it.

Q : What are some of the fetishes you 've been getting into lately ?

A : Bodily secretion. I 've been into water supply mutation for a long time and I 've experimented with scat singing relatively early on, but only now I 've been really getting into it. It 's so demeaning to be pooped on. I do n't care the taste, I never get used to it. It 's always atrocious, but that 's precisely why it 's so humiliating and degrading. Now, in these degree show, I have guy cable shitting on me. I swear, they always have like a shitload of chili pepper beforehand or something. They do it on purpose, to get like this explosive fucking diarrhoea so they can cover me with me poop. vomit is another. I get a thrill from puking on someone. It 's not only exciting to retch, but I 've found it 's a great way to not get fat. I mean, I usually eat super-healthy and exercise a lot. Like, I live this anorexic lifestyle much of the fourth dimension, where I starve myself. Every now and then I give in and binge on junk food. Then I discovered how much fun bulimia can be. So I always puke after binging. The anorexia and the bulimia cancel each other out, so on intermediate my weight stays the same. I have n't eaten anything today. I 'm performing tonight, so I ca n't be there all bloated and dickhead. I starve myself a bit before all the big shows. The alcohol takes issue quicker, too, when I do n't eat much. Not gon na lie, I 'm already a bit tipsy.

Q : What about vehemence ? Have your carrying out become more violent over the years ?

A : Oh, yes, for indisputable. I 've liked cutting myself for years. Like, I do n't get it on if you can see them so well under the TAT, but my arm are wide-cut of scars. ( Raises her arms towards me to instance. ) I might cut myself a minuscule when I perform, but I also do it sometimes just by myself. Like, when I masturbate alone I sometimes cut myself. And when I plan my performance these years, I turn to real savage horror movies for breathing in. So I have guys choking me. I might have a gin around my neck. They hit me and I 'm not talking about no light spanking. I mean, they really punch me in the grimace and give up me in the belly. They burn me with cigarette or candle wax. I 've had acid poured on my skin recently. ( Points to a suntan mark on her tum. ) I 'm not sure as shooting whether to hold on that burn mark or have it covered with a tattoo. I have n't broken any bones yet, but I 'm sure I 'll get to that someday.

Q : It 's often said that porn performer have been victim of sexual wildness themselves and the hurt drove them to the industry. What are your thoughts on that and is it like that in your pillowcase ?

A : I ca n't speak for anyone else, but I was never a victim. Of class, I 've had experiences that some others would deal harassment or something. Like in schooltime, when I developed that repute. Guys said a lot of things, but I found them flattering deep down. Especially after my bosom were out in magazines, they thought they were giving me the shit, but I enjoyed that attention. And yes, I 've been groped sometimes, in a bar, at some party. I take it as a compliment. There was this one occasion where I was really drunk at a party and this guy was touching me and I pretended to be passed out. He fucked me and he really thought he was raping me. There was a alike situation with that underground thing we did in Barcelona. These two cat thought they were raping me. I pretended to defend back. Our team was ready to rescue me if they needed to. We had a safe word, but it never came to that. I was scared shitless, but it was hot, as well. I came after like two minutes. But yeah, those guys thought they were raping me and it was hot. I 'm not sure I can be raped, like for material. Cause, if it was like a degrading experience, then I 'd probably like that.

Q : Is there any limitation, any air you would never cross ?

A : For sure. Like, I would never do anything with kids. I would never have sex with animals, either. And I do consider in consent, even if I kind of manipulate mortal to get it. No means no. But there are things I would do if I had the chance.

Q : Like what ?

A : Like some extreme body modifications. Or have them done to mortal else. We 've talked about this, in fact, microphone Chavez and me. We 've paid some of our legally abused hoi polloi to get Thematic Apperception Test or piercings, but what if we got them to do some more base stuff, like a sex change operation ? I 'd have sex to see some desperate guy get a pussy and become a daughter. Another is incest. I 've never had the pleasure of doing actual incest porn, because my shtup cousin Jared chickened out. The people who get to do that are very prosperous. Like, I 've worked with Jenna and Jason Barr. They 're a real-life incest duo, brother and sister, and I really envy that close bond. Like, they even live together and have incest sex everyday. They 're always naked, always fondling each other all the fourth dimension and seeing that makes me wishing I had a brother.

Q : What can we expect from tonight 's performance ? Will you have any legally ill-use performers on stage ?

A : No, and here 's the reason why. I 'm gon na get absolutely fucking wasted tonight. You ca n't mix reluctant performers with booze. With effectual revilement, there 's always a ***********, a contract bridge that is followed one hundred per centum. So I need to stay sober, to establish sure I do n't accidentally do something. Like, if I had an accident, if I puked on one of them and it was n't in the ***********, they could say there was no consent. They might feature a legal case. It happens, you know. When I perform wino, I have accidents. I wet myself sometimes or I puke. If you see me throw up tonight, it might not be intentional. We have a great show coming up. Some newcomers, some more experienced. Nicky will be there as my hype-man. You know, just wanking on the side. All sorting of things going into my yap, into all three of them. Stuff will add up out of all three trap. Lots of bodily secretions, wild group sex, really red group sex. I do n't do arrange shows that often because they 're so demanding physically. I need time to recoup after each one. So I try to make each show unforgettable, always pushing the limit a bit. So I imagine it will be a lot for you to treat, if you 're not used to watching that eccentric of thing.

Q : What are your plans for the future ?

A : I try to stay in the award, as a lot as I can. Like, the folks in the biz who overdose or kill themselves, I think they did it cause they looked too much into the future. I 'll be thirty-three in a couple of months. I do n't know how farsighted I can continue this up. With all the violent sex and self-abuse and crapulence and drugs and smoking and eating disorders, something 's gon na impart in eventually. I talked to this head-shrinker a few times and she said I have a last wish. Maybe. I 'll retain going as long as I can. Like, so far I 've played, when we 're doing fake incest erotica, I 've been playing daughter part and Sister role. Maybe in a few eld I 'll be doing mommy use. Maybe I 'll get milf condition. I do n't know, but I ca n't call back too a good deal of the future. It 's serious. For the almost futurity, I plan to have a bit of a detox after tonight 's appearance. I 've been drinking like a roll in the hay hobo this week, straight whiskey for fucking breakfast. And lay off the cigarettes for a bit. When I do n't booze, I get to eat more. My boozer phases go hand in hand with my anorexic form. When I 'm sombre, I go back to the binge-eating syndrome. I have this one matter, a long-term design, ca n't be done yet. It 's sorting of a shrill dream, but that would be like an end goal.

Q : What 's that ?

A : Doing snuff, like real sniff. I 've done false snuff. We hired some people who work on horror moving picture, doing special effects. So I 've been killed on motion picture, but it 's all been phoney. But to do it for real. Like, I 've lived for sex and smut for the last twelve years. So might as well die for sex and porn. I 've envisioned the wholly thing. First of all, they 'd abuse the hell out of me, like cutting, maybe amputations, mutilation, whatever, to the point where I 'm barely active, but still conscious. And then some big stud poker would fuck me with my top dog in the guillotine. When we both climax, they drop the leaf blade. You know, they say the heading might live on for a couple of minute. I would like my last-place moment to be like that. Being just a severed top dog on the floor, looking at my decapitate remains being fucked and that 's it. Obviously that 's illegal and I always obey the law. But that would be the lucid stopping point to my career, the logical end distributor point of sexual sacking. ( She climaxes at this point and squirts on the floor, some of the juice spilling on my dress. )

This seemed like the logical end point to our interview, as well. As we said our sayonara, she gave me a VIP pass to tonight 's performance. What can I say, I had to look into it out.

It was billed as a ninety-minute show and I had to admit, I was skeptical such a thing could carry the altogether fourth dimension. She started with a terpsichore number, elaborately dressed, but stripping to her underwear during the song. After the second song was over, she was already completely naked. I was truly surprised of how dandy a social dancer she is, when she is relatively sober, that is, which would n't hold up long. She was joined on degree by various performers, some of them obscure, some of them the biggest names in the adult industriousness. Her `` hype man '', Nicky Schultz, joined in on the group sex only briefly, preferring to pleasure himself at the side of the stage. If I counted right, Anglesea Dee was penetrated by a total of fourteen men during the show and enjoyed assorted variety of sapphic natural action with five womanhood. The sex got increasingly abusive and vehement, with the main star becoming increasingly intoxicated. She was choked during intercourse, punched in the facial expression various times, kicked in the rib, stomped on, cut with razors, burned with candle wax and had ice water poured on her. In addition she swallowed an terribly lot of semen, had gallon pissed on her - and most disturbingly, she was defecated and vomited on by some of the performers. She wet and soiled herself and threw up various times during the display, a couple of them seemingly unintentional. Around the half-time, she had sot her whole nursing bottle of liquor. She proceeded to smash it on her head teacher and was cutting her arms with the field glass shards while two men were double-penetrating her and two charwoman were urinating in her rima oris. In the final climax all of the male person performer, including Nicky, ejaculated inside of her, two or three at a metre, while the cleaning woman offered bukkake activeness by ejaculating on her font. The encore was a solo act. She concluded the night by masturbating on her own, ejaculating one final prison term. During the solo sex she tried to get up several clip, but was evidently too fatigued and/or intoxicated. She was n't even capable of speaking coherently. She mumbled something, sounding like a thank you and upright night to the consultation. It was quite a great deal to watch her slowly grovel off the level amidst a roaring clapping, covered in a variety of semen, female come, water, blood, faecal matter and vomit.

Being offstage, I witnessed her wetting herself before losing knowingness, after which paramedics rushed to lap her and took her to a medical way. The functioning was bizarre, direful, disgusting - and arousing. I will admit, there is something fascinating about this adult female and how she has turned her unharmed life into a pornographic performance. At the same time, you can not help touch sensation sorry for her and wondering when her obituary will be in the newspaper. Do n't worry folks, the next day she texted me, saying `` THX again for a skillful audience hope you liked the show i do n't retrieve too much have to see the tape. making love, Anglesea Island. : D ''