Demise By Desire ...
Erotica, MasturbationThe thought started in one of her psychological science classes, a seminary on human sexuality. The professor had discussed asphixia, and how low oxygen point often caused intimate stimulation. Inspite of the risk the professor had mentioned, Jennifer was curious and had to try it. `` Just once '' she told herself.
That good afternoon she was alone in her dorm way. She took a pliant bag from the box of trash can liners she had boughton the way place and placed it over her pass. Then she tied a scarf around her neck to harbor it in berth and lay on her bed to see what would happen. In a light metre, she began to suspire faster, a surely sign that the oxygen was going. sure enough, she began to feel strongly aroused. Her brests, already business firm with young, tensed further. Her nipples felt like soft pebbles beneath her silk blouse as she gentlestroked them with one paw. With her other hand she stroked her vagina which was tightening ecstatically as she approached orgasm. Her breathing got faster and faster as the oxygen was used up. Her stroking keep on time ; faster and faster. The bag sucked against her face with each futile gasp for air. Then, just when she felt like she could digest it no longer, the coming swept over her similar giant moving ridge. At last she pulled off the bag and drank in the assuredness sweet air. Jenny collapsed on the bed, feeling exhausted and fullfilled.
She used asphixia for sex often after that. She always found the experience as pleasurable as any technique she had tried, but increasingly she found the experience to a lesser extent fullfilling. It seemed that something was missing to make her pleasance perfect and complete.
It was several calendar month before she discovered what was needed to achieve pure satisfaction.
Kathy died in an accident at the lake. She and Jenny had been more aquaintances than close friends, yet Jenny still felt a need to pay her deference. Jenny arrived at the Funeral Home near the end of the visitation time listed in Kathy 's obituary. A few people stood in the parlor, speeking in hushed tones.
The entrance to the tribulation elbow room was hung with heavy curtains of satin and gold brocade. A man in a dark causa with a lasting reflection of concern stood at the ingress to the room where Kathy lay. As Jenny approached, he parted the curtains and beckoned her to get into. Jennifer stepped through the curtains and, it seemed to her, into a dream. The room was dimmly lit. Along the opposite bulwark, a row of glare illuminated Kathy 's open casket. The air was heavy with the sweet sweetness of the fragrance of rosiness and lilies which occupied almost all the available wall space.
Kathy lay as if peacefully asleep. She was dressed in a T. H. White gown of fluid silk that accentuated the gracefull curves of her youthful physical structure. Her farseeing dingy whisker flowed down over her berm and lay at the slope of her perfect breasts. The white silk of her burial gown, draped over those hone breasts, left just enough to the imagination to be truly cover girl and desirable. Her close hand held a 1 stark white lily. The expression on Kathy 's typeface was one of perfective tense peace and contentment.
Jenny gazed at Kathy 's beautiful dead organic structure and found herself wishing that she were lying there in that perfect repose. She imagined the satin casket lining close all around and the white silk burial gown draped over her own young body. The opinion aroused her like nothing since the experimentation with asphyxia.
Looking around, she saw she was alone. She reached out and gently touched Kathy 's breasts. They felt sang-froid and firm beneath the fluid silk. Then, almost involuntarily at first, she began to stroke her own breasts and began to jack off. She imagined that she was the one in the casket instead of Kathy. She imagined lying in shadow, surrounded by smooth cool satin as the globe was falling on her grave. This meter the coming came slowly, rising from her fork up through her breasts, then carrying her away as on a placate but irresistable current that went on, and on and on. After the orgasm, she stood for a few moments and collected her thoughs. She realized that it was not Kathy 's suddenly consistence that had aroused her. It was the idea of being laid out like Kathy that she found exciting. The thought of the fluid silk inhumation gown draped over her firm chest and the poise smooth satin of the casket close all around she found to be strangely and powerfully erotic.
William Le Baron Jenny had n't planned on attending Kathy 's funeral the following day, but she found the draw too firm to stay away. As she watched Kathy 's casket being carried into the church building, she imagined herself lying within, feeling the appease swaying as the pallbearers stepped in time to the processional music. In her mind, she substituted her own public figure for Kathy 's each sentence it was mentioned in the service and the erotic tone began to come up. It was all she could do to avert starting to wank in the church service as she imagined herself being carried from the church and placed in the hearse. At the cemetary, as she watched Kathy 's flower covered casket being lowered into the grave, she closed her eyes and imagined being in the coffin. She was being lowered slowly down. The sweet fragrance of blossom motley with the musty odor of earth. Then the worldly concern was falling on the casket, her casket. She was being buried. The air was going, going, gone. Without any stroking the orgasm swept over her.
Jenny knew what she wanted. She understood what was required to accomplish idol. Asphixia alone lacked completeness, elegance, finality. Jenny now knew how to accomplish them, but the plan would require longanimity and a bit of luck.
Two week later the 1st step in her plan fell into place. The notice she had waited for appeared on the jobs board at the financial aid office. A local funeral home needed a night attendant. Jenny applied for and got the job.
Her job was to repel the utility van to the hospital to collect organic structure. She was require to be on birdcall at the funeral home from 6:00 in the evening to 7:00 the play along morning. When she did n't have to make a run, She was dislodge to do what she wanted. The funeral theater director warned her that former employees had left out of ennui. Jenny was n't worried.
As soon as she had been left alone on her offset night of body of work Jenny set out to search. She quickly found the exhibit room good of casket. With a little more than geographic expedition she found the storeroom where the burying scrubs where kept. From then on she spent much of her free time dressed in a inhumation night-robe, lying in a casket imagining her own funeral. Sometimes her erotic draw would charter detainment and she would stroke her breasts and clitoris until she the orgasm came. Other multiplication she would just lie quietly, feeling perfectly contented.
It was six months before the next step fell into billet. Through the translucent plastic Jennifer could see the woman 's naked consistence as the infirmary orderlies loaded her into the van. The records identified her as a 22 year old female who had died from accidental atomic number 6 monoxide toxic condition. Her figure was Jennifer Bates.
Jenny could hardly believe it. After all the waiting it was finally time to complete her design. She could not slumber that evening or eat the side by side day she was so drop dead. Out of Ithiel Town serving would destroy the design. Open coffin services would yield her away. Body donation or cremation could also force her to wait for another namesake ( how long ? six calendar month two twelvemonth ? there was no way to tell ) The following eve she checked the case file. The tribulation would be the following afternoon and evening. The category had specified a closed casket funeral in a local church with burial to follow. Yes ! It was a dream coming true. Jenny could hardly believe her good fortune.
The following evening she had two pick-ups to crap. It was just as well. William Le Baron Jenny doubted that she could feature slept anyway. It was 3 in the cockcrow before she had the last customer safely tucked away in the cooler. She was exhausted, but thought to herself, `` Just a little more, then heaven ! ``
She rolled one of the gurneys down to tribulation room where the other Jenny lay. The Edward D. White casket had been closed and the flowers removed in preparation for transfer to the church in the morning. William Le Baron Jenny opened the casket and looked at the young woman within for the first time since she had rolled her, wrapped in a plastic dead body bag, into the body computer memory way. Just like Kathy, she seemed to be peacefully assleep. Her face showed the Lapp face of almost devine contentment as Kathy 's had. jenny thought that it seemed a shame to disturb her, but she knew that it was the only way and that she was beyond caring.
As gently as she could she lifted her trunk onto the gurney and rolled her to the store room. There, she placed her on one of the back shelves and covered her with a stack of surplus body bags. She would be found in a few days, but by then Jennifer would be well beyond anyones reach.
Jennifer succeeding went to the garment room and ***********ed a white silk wearing apparel from the rack of inhumation surgical gown. She removed her own clothing and put on the clothes. From the shoe rack she ***********ed a pair of blank satin skidder and slid them on. She took her own cloths and added them to a bag of clothing removed from `` clients '' in the body formulation room. thus arrayed, Jenny returned to the visitation room where the casket she would claim as her own lay open and empty, like a well made and welcomed bed. Jennifer removed and discarded some luck of the natural rubber gasket that would make the casket air tight. Then, with only a moment 's indisposition, she climbed in, lay down, and pulled closed the lid.
Jenny had not slept significantly in three days. Now, in this narrow satin bed, she suddenly felt perfectly safe and relaxed. In a few minutes she was go asleep.
Jenny was awakened by a saccade. It took her a moment to remember where she was. Thin diaphysis of light penetrted the gaps where she had removed slice of the sealing gasket and dimmly illuminated the satin casket lining finale about on all English. She was being moved. From the sound she could judge where she was. number one to the lift, then down one floor to the garage. She was being lifted into the hearse for the head trip to the church service. She heard the backdoor close, then the driver 's door openned and closed, and the engine started. No turning back now she thought.
The trip to the church required only a few moment. She began to experience the erotic pleasance rise as the threshold openned and she felt herself being lifted out. There was a slow up rhythmic swaying as the bearer carried her into the church service. It was just as she had imagined it during Kathy 's funeral so many month ago. She heard tranquil sobbs from some as she was carried up the gangway to the bier. She was lifted slightly then set down. The light dimmed as the pall was spread over her casket. The sweet aroma of bloom quickly filled the casket. She lay quietly, dreamily, listening to the beautiful funeral medicine and the words of the funeral service. This clock time she did n't need to imagine her name in place of someone elses. Her gens was there. It was her own funeral, and she was here, listening to it all ! The ravisher and wonder of it filled her with a joy such as she had never known before. As her sexual impression intensified, she began to massage her breasts without thinking. They felt so business firm and perfect beneath her silk gown. It took a concentrated sweat to halt before she climaxed. `` No '' she thought, `` the consummate clock time is not yet ''.
How long did this hold up ? Logically she knew that funerals lasted about 45 proceedings or an hr. But in her dreamy drifting she lost all horse sense of prison term. Before she knew it she was being carried again. The Same rhythmic swaying, only this time the medicine grew fainter as she was carried out of the church and placed in the hearse for the trip to the cemetery. The head trip to the cemetery was not much longer than the head trip from the funeral home to the church building. In seemed only a short fourth dimension before the hearse came to a plosive consonant, the keister door was opened, and she again felt herself being lifted and carried, and then set down.
It was almost done. Her exitement grew as the brief grave-side service was completed. At last she heard the non-Christian priest 's words `` We now commit Jennifer 's body to the earthly concern - ash to ash, detritus to dust '' Again, she had to fight the urge to masturbate.
She felt herself being lowered, slowly, into the sang-froid moldy land. For a while all was placidity. Then she heard the the first rattle and thud of world falling on the coffin lid. One after another the shovelful of terra firma fell, soon they blocked the little Light Within that had penetrated the casket. Then they grew gradually faint-hearted as the earth filled her grave, sealling her destiny and assuring her final ecstasy.
It did n't take long. Her breathing got faster and faster as the air in the jewel casket was quickly used up. With each breath her pleasure and stimulation grew. William Le Baron Jenny knew she was dying, and the cerebration filled her with ecstasy. She was gasping for air now. Her heart was pounding. Her feeling of arrousal had been rising all day. Now, in final here and now of life, she let the sexual climax sweep over her until her completely body convulsed with pure heavenly rapture. Again and again the delight came embroil over her ; the devine convulsions sweeping upon her one after another as fasting as her racing breaths.
Then it was done. jenny held a last sweet breathing space and felt a perfect composure enfold her. She gently ran her hands over her silk burial robe and then folded her hands over her breasts. Slowly she let the air escape and smiled contentedly as she thought `` at death ! I 'm dead ! ``
As William Le Baron Jenny had guessed, it was a few years before the mortician discovered the `` misplaced '' physical structure. Inorder to correct the erroneous belief, the grave was excavated and Jenny was discovered. The distinction she had placed with the other Jenny 's body explained all, and the funeral director was cleared of all ill-timed doing. None-the-less, William Le Baron Jenny 's family unit had a different funeral rest home handle the arrangements for her `` proper '' funeral. Three days after she was found Jenny lay in her own subject casket in the funeral dwelling, dressed for burial, surrounded by flowers.
Karen could not help but note the smile of devine contentment on Jenny 's case as she gazed at her consistency laid out in the coffin. Karen found herself imagining that she, not Jenny, was lying there, dressed in white silk, surrounded by seraphic flowers. She found the thought filled her with erotic joy. She was alone in the elbow room. Imagining her own funeral, she began to masturbate ...
The end ?