A Broken Substance Gets Mended .
First-Time, LesbianIt was early good morning as I strolled along the beach, sandals carried in my hand. Lazily, I kicked at the sand, it was the finest and softest guts, I had ever seen.
The sun had already begun to warm.
There was not another soulfulness in sight, except for one sportfishing boat, way off the shore.
This is Mauritius, one of the most beautiful places in the macrocosm. I should be feeling rapturous to be in a berth like this.
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The teardrop rolled down my cheeks, as I sniffled. It wasn't fair, why had she dumped me ? What had I done wrong ? The opinion tumbled through my mind.
I came to a fallen coco palm tree, collapsed down onto it, and wept. My body shook, my grief was overwhelming me. The deep flavour of loss and loneliness. The girl I loved was gone.
She'd only left a note, she hadn't faced me."Sorry sister, I'm outta here, got ta relocation on,"was all it said. No account, naught, it was cruel, and it hurt. I didn't even sleep together where she'd gone.
Vaguely, I saw a crab, climbing a coconut tree. It only got about five feet, then it fell, to put down on its back. It wriggled, a claw pushed, and it was over.
Then it was scuttling, up the tree once more. This time, to disappear into the foliage up above.
dolt, I know, but it brought a glimmer of a smile to my face.
"Fuck it !"I called out loud, but I wiped my weeping, getting up, to go back for breakfast.
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My brother Dave was on the gallery, I giant cuneus of a bacon sandwich in his mitt,"Hi sis, you okay ?"He cheerily said as he waved at me with his free hand.
"Yeah, amercement,"I mumbled.
He shrugged his shoulder joint, as I went inside. womanhood, he thought, a strange lot !
Mum glanced at me, as I entered the kitchen. She saw my puffed, red eyes, but she didn't ask. Only a woman had that intuition, of when it was better to say nada."Bacon, or egg sandwich, Liz ?"
"No, just a coffee tree will be delicately, thanks."
... ... ....
Dad had flashed up the barbecue and was occupy with chicken patch, sausages, Warren Burger and steaks. Mum was frying up onions, heating baked dome, making a salad, and whatever.
The neighbours were coming one shot. They seemed okay, although, I'd only met them briefly.
Not much later, the music was playing, the beer and wine were flowing, the ambience was good. Just not for me !
The neighbours had three children, all centre to former teen, or thereabouts.
The boy, Stu was probably the onetime at around 19 or XX, I guessed. The other boy was the new, by quite a bit.
Becks, they called the girl, she was XVIII to nineteen, pretty, but not in a gimcrack way, I barely noticed her, but I had caught her looking at me a couple of time, quickly, turning her eyes away, when I saw her.
Stu seemed to ingest every opportunity to get talking to me, oblivious to the fact, that I quite clearly made it complain, that I didn't want to talk to him. Nor, did I want, to peach to anyone.
Three, four, maybe five Methedrine of vino later, with a feeding bottle in my hand, I sort of, weaved my way to line up my coco palm tree. I'd had enough of their jollity, and anyway, I didn't want to spoil their fun.
I saw dad, cost increase to fall out after me, but my wise mum shoved him back in his rear."leave-taking her passion, she just wants to be alone."
Half a nursing bottle later, I wondered, what was the affair with the beach, it was moving, I could see the sands shifting. My head began to spin, I felt hot, my forehead was sweating.
I rose unsteadily, I found myself staggering toward the sea. The urine was warm, although I didn't placard it.
A wave nearly took me off my base, but somehow I kept going. It wasn't anything witting, I was on autopilot.
I waved wash away rightfulness over my psyche, tumbling me. Floundering, my brain telling me to notice the surface. I realised I didn't care, I couldn't be bothered, I'd had enough.
black engulfed me, I knew I was drowning. My bodies reflexes took over, whether, I wanted or not. A understructure touched the bottom, and I pushed.
My hair was hurting, being pulled hard, I struck out with my hand, and connected with something,"Shit, that hurt !"A hand came beneath my arm, and I could feel individual was pulling me up.
I gasped for air, at the same prison term, choking on the piss I had swallowed. Two deal now gripped me, pulling me. I tried to help, with my feet pushing at the shifting Sand below.
Then, I was lying, face down on the sand, a weightiness on my back, as manpower pressed down hard. I choked, a gush of water flowing from my mouth, then I was breathing cryptical lung-fulls of air.
The weight eased from my backrest, firm hands helped me stomach, to flounder back up the beach, to the outer boundary of grass beneath the coconut tree trees.
A hand raked the hair, stuck to my face, another round my shoulder, holding me, as I began to tremble. The flood-gates opened, as I cried. A soft girl's voice,"Shush, you're dependable now."She gently rocked me, a finger wiping at my tears.
Slowly, I calmed, the trembling went, as the evening air warmed me. For the start time, I looked up at my saviour. I was surprised to find, it was the girl from the barbecue, Becks, the neighbour.
I flinched when she touched my nerve. And went rigid, when she kissed my forehead. I pushed her away from me, I didn't want to be touched, not by anyone. She didn't complain, made no comment, as she helped me to my feet.
In silence, we walked back to the bungalow. At the back room access, I briefly touched a digit to her manus, I just said,"Thanks,"and went inside.
A hot shower later, I felt a little recovered, although my top dog was pounding from the wine I had guzzled down.
In my bed, I fell straight into a deep sleep.
The sun was blazing through my chamber windowpane when I woke.
Mum was there, picking up my wearing apparel."Whatever happened to these, they're wet and covered in guts ?"
"I tripped, and fell in the sea, too often vino probably,"
She stood looking at me,"If you want to talk, I'm here. I know you're hurting, but sometimes it helps to sing it out."
Somehow, I managed a smile,"I'll be fine mum, but thank you."
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That good afternoon, I returned to the pasturage patch, where I had sat recovering, the eve before. I wanted to think about what had happened. Was it something I had intentionally done ? Had it perhaps, just been an chance event ? I knew it had scared me, I was shaking again, with just thinking through it.
My thoughts were interrupted."Hi there, Liz, I wondered if I might come up you here."
Becks took a step back, perhaps, shaken by the withering feel I gave her. She stammered,"I ... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to intrude, I'll just go."
I felt disgusted with myself, what was I thinking. This girl had saved my animation cobbler's last night.
I stood,"No, it's me that should apologize, I didn't mean to be rude just now, it's just that, well, I was wrapped up with my trouble. You startled me."I held out a hand,"seminal fluid and sit with me."
She smiled back, if I had been in the climate, I might have realised how beautiful the smile was."I want to thank you for last night, you know you saved my life history, I would stimulate drowned."
"Can I ask ? Was it an chance event ? It didn't tone like it. Or maybe you should just recite me to mind my own business."
For a minute a kept my eyes to the sand, then, looked at her,"I honestly don't know, that's what I've been sitting here pondering over."
"But if it was not an accident, then that would mean you tried to kill yourself, why would someone as beautiful as you want to do that ?"She turned lustrous red."I'm doing it again, aren't I, being too personal I mean, I shouldn't have asked."
"Its okay, but I'm afraid I can't lecture about it, it hurts too much."
She reached her bridge player out, and laid it my arm,"You've been let down, some guy, I suppose ?"She coloured again,"You see, there I go again, with the questions."
My eyes were locked to her hand, it felt as though my flesh burned. I glared with spite at her, she jumped up in fright, turned and ran. God ! What are you doing, bitch ? You just scared this endearing girl, half to death.
I ran after her, calling her public figure,"Becks, where are you ? I'm sorry, I didn't mean anything against you."
I could hear her now, she was close by, then, the former face of a Tree, and there she stood, crying softly. I put my arms around, and quietly,"I'm sorry, I'm so grim. It's not you, I'm just angry with the unanimous earth at the moment."
She stood snug to me, as she calmed. I took her script,"semen on, let's go back and sit."
She shook her head,"No, perhaps I should go back, and leave you in peace, I can tell you need to be alone."
All of a sudden, I didn't want to be alone, that's exactly where I had been, just feeling hurt and scared. So, I pulled her hand,"Come with me, please. I need some caller,"
We sat again, Becks asked,"Only if you want to, do you want to order me about this guy."
"Becks, it wasn't a guy, it was my girlfriend."She looked jump, but slowly I began to tell her until it just seemed to pour out of me. I told her how we'd met, fell in making love, and moved into our own place.
By now, I was crying, not hard, the odd tear trickling down my boldness. I told of how glad we had been together, how everything seemed stark. Until one day, my cosmos fell apart. The note. A blinking note, not even a missive. No explanations, nothing.
I rolled to the earth, curled in a ball and cried. I cried, like never before in my life. The sobs racked my body, my fists pummelled the ground.
I hadn't heard her speak, not at first, but then her words broke through, inane nonsense mostly, but sort and comforting, as she held me in her blazonry, with her face pressed to me, her helping hand caressing my hair.
The sobbing stopped, a few split still ran.
With a jounce, I felt her backtalk kiss them away. One of her hands stroked my hair, the early gently stroking my arm.
She saw my optic unfastened wide, but not glaring at her this clock time. A smile crossed her face,"That's better,"she said, her stroking didn't stop.
"Becks, your hands, please stop."
Her hands paused but didn't leave me."Why ? '' Was all she said.
I simply stared at her, a thousand emotions tormenting me."Becks, I can't, I don't want to, you've been kind and it has helped me, and for that I thank you, can we just go now, as acquaintance ?"
Becks looked down at me, lying on the ground, a vex look on her face. I could see that she was trying to run something through her thinker. I saw her nod to herself, then she was pushing me matted onto my back. I resisted, but she was substantial, and in any guinea pig, I didn't have the energy to fight, as her sass descended to mine.
She held my wrist joint, flat to the basis alongside my head. Her body moved over me, lying on top. I rocked my head from side to side, as her lips followed mine. Then, I just lay still, and let her kiss, I didn't respond, I didn't want to. I could see her eyes, urging me to return the kiss, but I didn't
Suddenly she threw herself off me, stood and looked at me for a few moment, then with a shake of the head, she walked away. She got a short length, before turning to look back,"Liz, if you want to talk or something, you know where to discover me,"
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The adjacent couple of days just seemed to drag by, I couldn't get into the holiday swing.
At the breakfast table, my mum said,"Why don't you get the bus into townsfolk, have a browse around the shops. You'll like Curepipe, it's a lovely town. Anyway, it'll get you out for a bit."
So, a couple of hours later, I found myself wandering aimlessly. In and out of a few shops, cypher grabbed me. Then, I found the securities industry. I was immediately struck by all the brilliant people of color of the Indian dress and material stalls.
I picked out a blouse, even though I knew it was too brightly coloured for my gustation, always a piffling on the sombre side. I held it up to me, looking in the recollective mirror,"It does look nice."I had spoken aloud, without realising.
"That looks totally gorgeous on you."It was Becks stood behind me.
"Oh, hello there, do you really think so ? It 's not too undimmed ?"
"Believe me, it case you just perfectly, you'll be stunning in it, a genuine lady killer."
What did she just say ? I thought. ‘ peeress Killer.'
On an impulse, I decided to buy it. After I had paid, Becks asked me,"fantasy a coffee tree or maybe something stronger ? I know just the place."
"Why not."I found myself saying.
It was a lovely bar, really old-fashioned, in a Gallic colonial style, but spotlessly clean and tastefully decorated.
We chose an bay ass that had a window overlooking the gardens.
Becks didn't sit opposite, as I would throw expected, but instead, pushed in next to me."Is it burnt umber, or do you visualize rocking the boat ?"She laughed, it was an infectious laugh, suddenly I felt at relaxation in her company.
We had local gabardine rum and coke, branded creative thinker you, not some of the rough emotional state, sold in the back streets.
It became easygoing to chat, nothing serious, just where she came from, that form of trivial stuff. By the third round, I had completely relaxed.
I'm just a niggling tiddly, I thought, as I giggled at something she said.
Her manus was on my arm, strange that I hadn't noticed it there, I think had actually been there quite a while. I looked down at her hand, when I glanced back up, she was looking at me, straight into my eyes.
A fleeting frown, then I shook my head and smiled."Another one shot ?"I asked her.
"Maybe just one more, then I think we've had quite enough for one day,"
My bag fell to the floor, on my leftfield, I reached down for it, as I leaned, her hand fell from my arm and landed on my thigh. She didn't move it away. Feeling flustered, I grabbed my glass and swallowed half in one go.
Did her fingerbreadth just squeeze my leg ? Maybe I imaged it, my sozzled brain said.
This fourth dimension, I definitely felt it, the slightest squeeze, her deal inched just a tiny bit lower, toward the inside of my thigh. I looked at it, puzzled, where'd that semen from ? I wondered and giggled again.
I raised my crank to my lips, and as I tilted my mind back, I felt a nudge against my crotch.
The mitt was still there when I looked, but now it was pressing my skirt between my thighs, a slight pressure sensation at my front line. My gaze followed the arm up,"Becks, you're touching me."I accused.
"I know I am, I've been trying to ever since I first saw you. You don't mind, do you ?"
I tried to think, nothing seemed to make any sense, except the fact that the manus felt good. I lowered my own hand, covering the other, then pressed it into me. It did find good.
I saw Becks look around the bar, before reaching for my bird, she didn't clout it up, just raised the side by my thigh, and her paw disappeared.
I thought, now where did that go ? Then, I jumped, fingers were at the strawman of my panties, rubbing into my pussy. I took a deep breathing time. Oh, Wow, that's dainty. I could sense a finger, edging the genital organ of my panty aside, so I spread my legs wider, to make it easier.
My panties eased over, for finger to dance along my snatch slit. I could now feel the familiar tingle between my stage. I felt naughty, my slit aroused in a public position. Then, a jolt, that hit the spot, my clitoris responded to the sudden touch. I gave a moan.
"Shush."I heard.
I looked for the interpreter, it was Becks,"Is that you, playing with my kitty-cat Becks ?"
"You got it,"She replied,"You like ?"
Pure lust erupted in me,"Yes I do fucking like, finger me, babe, inside, I want to sense you inside."I lifted my hand to my breast.
"Here, let me."As she reached her early manus over and moved mine aside. Her fingerbreadth squeezed me, through my blouse and very lose weight skimpy bra.
She twirled around my nipples, they were already like soldiers stood to attention. The esthesis were driving me wild.
Her fingers, more than one, maybe even three, were now groping inside between my brim. A thumb worked my button,"Shit ! Becks, I'm gon na cum any here and now, straightaway put your deal over my sass to retain me quiet."
My ass writhed on the rear, my own mitt pressing hers into me, as I thrust my pussy onto her. The climax was vivid, a release of all the pent-up tension I had been feeling. I tried to scream, but somehow Becks covered it.
I came down from my swarm, I was still holding her finger inside me. I looked at her aspect,"Becks, you dirty bastard, you just wanked me off in a bar, for christ's sake."I leaned and gave her a small kiss.
"Aw, is that all I get ?"She asked, with an pixilated grin.
"Tell you what, let's get the screw out of here, go find somewhere better,"
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We got the bus, I wanted to bear upon her, as she had me, but the bus was way too crowded. I made do with just rubbing the side of her thigh.
We went two point passed our normal stopover for home, I knew it wasn't far from a very jolting area, no beach, so no people. I was feeling a bit better by now, not quite as pissed as before.
I took handgrip of Becks'mitt, telling her,"seminal fluid on, it's not far, this way."
The undergrowth was a bit thicker than I expected, but with only a little vexation, there was the sea, right in movement. Mountains of boulders were everywhere, I could see why no one ever came here.
We found a pin-up little-secluded spot, still with a view of the sea, a patch of grass, ready and inviting.
I stood, admiring the undulation crashing on the Rock, Becks'arms came round me from behind. She cupped my bosom and gently rolled them in her hands. I leaned my head back into her neck. She bent, a little awkwardly, and kissed me. It was a unclouded, kind of, exploratory kiss.
But I savoured it. My lingua teased against her mouth until she opened to me, our spit danced against each other.
Now I had sobered somewhat, I was once again wondering at my spirit. I didn't know this girlfriend, in fact, I knew almost nothing about her.
I knew that there was still a feeling of desolation in my gist. There was still bang there, for the person I had lost. But I also knew that this girl had breathed a piffling clean air into me, a bit of Hope for release from the pain I felt. For a second, I felt hangdog at my betrayal, then wrath surged through me. How dare she have done this to me, and then I realised, she couldn't have loved me as I had believed. Had she done so, then she would never possess ditched me aside, the way she did.
I felt a release, a realisation that I owed that person nothing, we'd had our fourth dimension, and it was over. I turned to look at Becks, I held her at arm 's distance, just looking into her eyes.
She herself, looked a little apprehensive.
"Becks, have you ever been with another woman ?"
She lowered her center, the confidence from earlier now gone.
"No, I haven't, but then I haven't ever been with a boy either. I have no mind what it was, but when I first saw you, I recognised the nuisance you were in, and my heart went out to you. It was the first time that I have ever felt anything for another girl, my feelings frightened me at low gear, but I was drawn to you, that's why I followed you until I saw you go in the water. What happened in the bar, would never receive occurred without those rummy, I found I couldn't help myself, I wanted to rival you, I never thought for one instant, that I could ever feature gone as far as I did. When I saw you getting excited and responding to my signature, then there was no stopping, I just wanted to please you in any way I could."
"Oh Becks, you're just fabulous, and I tell you what, you found me just at the decently clip because I was drowning in self-pity. You've somehow, forced me to look it. I feel live again, come here my beauty."
She fell into my munition, her smile brighter than the sun. I kissed her, perhaps more tenderly than I've ever kissed before.
She gazed into my eyes, the desperation clear to see,"Liz, will you bonk me, teach me to be your lover."
I felt the tears brimming in my eyes, how did I deserve this fresh young missy. For the moment, I loved her. I kissed her again, pulling her tight, my hands lifting the binding of her shirt. I felt her skin under the touch of my fingers, it felt so good.
I caressed her back, then I hit the clutch of her bra, and snapped it apart, my hands now coming round her sides, to the front, and then to hold her chest. They felt divine, I had to see them. Her shirt lifted easily to her shoulders, then she raised her branch and I lifted it clear.
I was stunned the most beautiful breasts. They were different, they were sort of, conical in physical body. Jutting proudly from her body, the cone condition, topped with large areola, and not long, but the panoptic puffy nipples I had ever seen.
There was a worry look on her case,"They're, ‘ em, strange aren't they, I guessed, you might detest them."
"Oh Becks, they're gorgeous, they're fantastic, I love them."And I plunged my back talk to a nipple, my other hired hand greedily groping another.
Her hands rested on my shoulders, her lip kissing my hair.
The tit enlarged under my cutaneous senses. I could feel her body tightening, her hands now digging into my shoulders.
Her skirt was elasticated at the waste, I grabbed a cargo hold, panty band as well, and pushed them down. She was now there in strawman me, she was so beautiful it almost hurt. Her shape was pure, below those beautiful titty was a body to die for, a lightly muscled stomach, a lovely slim waist, not much wide hips.
But my heart were drawn to her mound, it was clean-shaven, her pussy incision was exactly that, no sass to verbalise of, just a hanker thin slit.
I didn't waiting for her to ask. I almost ripped my blouse off, undo my bra, to let it fall, then wriggled my skirt and panty down. OK, so I was a few years older than her, but I was in corking physique, I played for my local hockey squad. I knew my shape wasn't quite up to the standard of Becks ’, but I had always been complimented.
Becks looked at me like a kid with a new preferent toy. Her center flickered backwards and forwards, all over me, one moment to my breasts, the next down to my pussy.
I put a digit to her chin, raising her eyes to mine, I tried to be cool down, like in the film,"So whaddya think babe, like what ya'see ?"I held out my arms.
She almost flew at me, our tit smashed together, our brim met again, then I was grinding my pussy into hers, as I grabbed her ass to pull her tight into me.
We kissed, as we stood there, mounds rubbing hard. She was gasping into my mouth.
We dropped to the grass as one, first kneeling, then falling together, my knee between her thighs and hers between mine.
We rubbed against each former, our pauperism rising, I could palpate her body reaching for a climax, so I pulled away, pushing her branch wide of the mark, and dropped my cheek to her slit. I probed my clapper between and licked up. Her paw pressed hard on my nous and she moaned aloud.
I found her clitoris, only diminutive, almost laborious to find, but my clapper centred on it, to tease and tickle. Now she bucked her hips, hard to my mouth, as I sucked. I pushed a finger in between that small cunt, she was much loaded than I expected, so I easily moved my finger in and out.
I could experience her passion rising fast, I added another finger's breadth and pushed harder and deeper, increasing the pep pill of my thrusting.
I sucked hard on her clit, with a lamentation, she shook, her trunk convulsing, as she climaxed. The coming ripped through her.
We lay together, enfolded in each other's limb, she still trembled, as I held her. Until I asked,"Did you like that Becks ?"
"That was just, totally, the most amazing cum I've ever had, I never realised just how mind-blowing it could be."She answered."Can I do that to you, with my sassing, I mean ?"
"Never thought you'd ask, c'mon and get your head down here."
... ... ....
My depression was over.
I had another week with Becks before it was back to the UK.
I knew she didn't live too far away from me, so to start with, we had already planned to meet every weekend.
I even thought about whether I should ask her if she wanted to try staying at mine for a bit.
But then I thought, it's other Clarence Day yet girl, be sensible, let's suction it and see.
We did ! If, you get my meaning.
The end .