*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to take the sluttish way out of this miserable life, As you can guess by this bank note I have chosen suicide as the lone option to a life history I never chose to live, I hope that the one who reads this note can fully empathise that I was never happy when i walked the earth, Was never happy breathing, Was never happy living a life I did n't desire, I would rather die and apply someone new a fortune to live on, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it former than the obvious fact I never wanted to live, wellspring it all began a short while ago when I met a sealed lady friend who for all intensifier purposes shall remain unidentified for the time beign, She was hand on centre honest to god my perfect match, No person alive or dead could ever possibly gibe up to her in any facial expression, Although to some people she was never considered the most beautiful to me every time I stole a single glance I saw an angel staring back, Every word she spoke managed to leave my philia beating a little truehearted each and every sentence, Every time we managed to have a conversation I will honestly include that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never form a complete word, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made little to no good sense, I guess i have gone a little off track but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the life I once lived, That girlfriend who shall still remain nameless was one of the few reasons I saw death as the best pick, The other reasons are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the nameless girl I have spent my life alone, nobody knows me, nobody has ever once cared that I really do involve help, Nobody has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in Leslie Townes Hope that maybe someone would see the broken figure hidden behind the masquerade of tears, cipher has ever once had the decency to just stop and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two grounds, A girl who left me erupt, Who left me gloomy and for all it 's worth the bit reason will always stand that I 'm alone and the world never seems to like, shot the adjacent reason could be classed as tedium, Yeah such a simpleton thing that in my animation has become something so major, In nearly people 's spirit when they are bored they just pick up a book, A game, Watch the television or go hang out with their Quaker, With me been bored leads to things much more unsafe, The knife is always my favourite past clock time, See how hanker it takes for the pain to turn too much to bear, See how much origin seaps out the stinger I leave on my sleeve, See how many places I can leave a scar without them been noticed, Yeah such fun clock time, Of course of action alchol was always fun aswell, Getting inebriate was always a bang-up preceding time, So yeah that 's another cause for this note, I was bored, So bored of life, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the life most people are mental object with, okey I guess the final reason would have to be that I was tired, I was so wear of living the same day over and over, Yes days passed but to me each and every I day seemed the same, I was in a rut, I did the Lapplander things day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many long time, My spirit became such a repetition that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the reasons for why I chose to submit my living, A girl, Being so alone, Boredom and of course being tired, I know they do n't vocalize like much of a reason but I want whoever may read this bill to understand that them four minor rationality combined became one big reason, Being depressed and alone while also being very tired and extremely bored, Such a bad combination, Anyways I guess the unanimous point of this note is to say goodbye and to let you all know the reason I left this sprightliness, So so long and goodluck to all, I wish my class all the best and hope they can forgive my alternative, Hope they can understand that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still love them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the nameless young lady can understand that if she ever reads this I just want her to know that I do care deeply about her, I do still love her and I doubt that passion will ever languish, Even if my middle has no beat I will still finger a pulse everytime I think of her, Bob Hope she can remember the good times we shared and remember that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to retrieve that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be glad even if that meant I could never be, Okay now I know this has gotten a slight long so I will finish as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with lifespan as if I never existed, Just let me go and forget about me as so many people already have, goodby I do love you all ( anyone who reads that, those last lines are meant for folk only ), shot I can finally be at heartsease, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find my consistence in the place I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the noodle where all our memories are stored ) *