My First Love


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I was starting my get-go semester of college in 1985 and was frightened and lonely. All my friend had gone to other schools or started working and they all were chasing girls like weirdo. I was n't. I had tried desperately to stimulate a girlfriend in highschool but I knew I was living a lie. I just was n't attracted to female child they way my friends were. I thought some daughter were pretty, but once I look beyond the aspect I just was n't interested. I was too scared to approach any cat and went to a very minor rural district. I did not cogitate any other bozo were like me.


I knew I was gay when my friends and I decided to tent one weekend. I was changing into a washup suit and my friend entered the tent and started to switch also. He was my most attractive friend and I tried desperately not to look but being in that tent naked with him for a few moment drive me softheaded. I did n't do or say anything. But I thought about that second a lot.


Spanish was my first class and I sat in the punt row. I petite Danton True Young man sat beside me and I glance over. He had dark Joseph Black hair and slightly pale skin. He still wore braces on his tooth and when he caught my eye he smiled and said `` hi. ``


I said hello and teacher started attendance. He answered to Sage Conner. I had never met a boy named Sage before. His interpreter was higher pitched than mine and it sounded lovely. The class went well and when I was walking out I heard a part behind me.


'' What did you think ? '' It was salvia and he moved up beside me and we walked together. I told him my name was Jimmy and this was my inaugural class.


'' Do you dwell on campus ? '' He asked and kept grinning at me. I was starting to think he was flirting with me but that could not be true. I lived at domicile and commuted to schooltime. I got to the end of the walk and was hoping he would stay on with me, but he had a class and plough the other way. The next class was in two days and I counted down the time to see him again. We chatted a little before division and when the prof told us to split in partners we joined up. He sat across from me and we recitation pronunciation. I stared into his eyes and was getting a big crush on him. He was so precious. He had died a very small bandage of his hair a very glowering purple so it was barely noticeable. I notice it. I notice everything about him. How he rolled he eyes after making a misunderstanding and how he held his deal in presence of his mouth like he was embarrassed of his couplet.


when class was over he asked for a ride to his dorm room. I could n't consider my hazard. He climbed into my car and i drove him the few pulley to the campus houses.


'' Thanks, Jimbo '' he said and tapped my knee with my paw, then got out of the car. It was the weekend and the idea of not seeing him for three days made me puke. He stopped, came back to the car and leaned in


'' Hey you want to hangout this Saturday night ? ``


I could n't believe it. `` Sure that 'd be nerveless '' I said not trying to vocalize overly anxious.


'' Pick me up at 7:00 sharp '' he said and winked at me.


'' okay I 'll be here. '' He walked up the sidewalk and then rick to bet at me. We waved and grinning and I think he winked again. I was I love.


When I drove up to the dorm he was waiting outside for me. He had a blackness jacket crown on and black dungaree. He got into the car and I felt underdress. I could sense his cologne and he had styled his hairsbreadth with some moose. He looked a bit effeminate but that turned me on. It made me think we were thinking the same thing. We first went to a motion-picture show and I felt proud having this beautiful boy by my side of meat. We set in the dark and our arms touched a few times. God I wish he take my hand. When the movie was over we are at a food motor inn in theater. We talked a minuscule about the movie and out Spanish socio-economic class. His foot suddenly tapped mine under the tabular array and I blushed.


'' Let 's get out of here. ``


We got to the car and sat in the dark. I did n't know what to say.


'' You okay ? '' He asked and looked at me.


'' Yea I 'm OK. I. ``. I stopped and sage moved a little finisher. `` I not sure what this is ? ``


Sage knew what I was talking about. He looked at me and told me it was whatever I wanted it to be.


'' I 've never done, ''. He stopped me with a candy kiss. It happened so fast I was in shock. He backed away and my substance raced. He look gorgeous sitting there and I still tasted him on my lip. I think we wore a little lip burnish.


'' Was that okay ? '' He asked.


I nodded. So that what this was. I drove back to the student residence and we car a second.


'' I want to kiss you again, but somebody might see. '' I understood and nodded. He placed his deal on my leg and rubbed me a little. I grew excited.


'' I 'll see you Mon ``. I smiled and said bye.


I hated Sunday. I was so scurvy I could n't stand it. I had to see salvia. I drove to the dorm and asked the dorm attendant for his way number. Sage answered the room access and smiled. He was all. alone. His dorm roommate had a girlfriend and was n't around much. I sat on the bed beside him and he locked the door. I reached out to hold his deal but he kissed me first. This time I kissed back. I could n't conceive how often I liked it. We kept kissing with curtly voiced touches and then he finally kept his mouth against mine and opened his sass. His tongue touched mine and I push it back a little. Gallic cuddling was new to me so I was doing my best. I opened my oral cavity further and let his whole tongue in my mouth. I could animal foot his braces on my tongue and that made me giggle. He then grabbed my psyche and he started to make out like teenagers after the promenade. Our heading moved, our rim touched and our tongues wrestled. I could n't trust the passion. My erecting embarrassed me but Sage look at my swollen pants and smile. He rubbed my leg then our lips parted.


'' Let 's get out of here ''. We left the residence hall and went to my car. I asked him where he wanted to go and he said someplace private.


'' Stop by a wash room memory first so I can get something. '' I obeyed and he ran into the store quickly and came out with a face pack of gum. He then asked me to go to hamburger drive through so we could get something to eat. We got cheeseburgers and C and ate while I drove. I headed out of town toward the state green close to the lake I lived by. sage finished his burger and actually rested his head in my lap. I could believe it. I looked down and his beautiful cheek stared up at me.


When we got to the common I parked on the most secluded surface area and pushed the sit back a bit. He continued to lay there then finally spoke.


'' Let 's get in the back seat ''


We did and sat close to each other. The smell of greasy food was strong and it mixed with salvia Koln. He looked at me and osculate me softly. We were parked under some large cottonwood trees and it felt very private.


He kissed me again, this time on the neck. I ran my fingers through his coarse disgraceful hair as he continued to kiss my neck opening My erection was unendurable. He stopped and looked at me.


'' Do you want to go further, or wait till another day ? '' I did n't suffice but reached out and unbuttoned his shirt. He did the Saame with me. I could n't believe we were undressing each other. We placed our shirts on the front rear end and continued to osculate. Out bare breast touching each early drove me crazy. sage scooted down and lay down on his backbone. I was on top of him and continued to osculate him. He reached down and unbuttoned his bloomers. I looked into his eyes with mania. I pulled on his pants and stared at his bluish briefs. I could n't breath. He reached down and pushed his legal brief down. His penis was erect and i could n't take my oculus off of it. I did n't screw if he was big or average, I had n't seen any other beside my own. I lowered my head and put it in my mouth. It was salty and exciting. Sage moaned as I started to absorb and fellate it. He place his bridge player on my forefront and I continued. It was amazing. He pushed my top dog up and told me to take my pants down. I sat up and push my gasp down. sage lowered his head and took me in his mouth. I could n't trust. This was what liveliness was about. Sharing pleasure with mortal you loved. He continued for a few hour then stopped. He sat up and took my chin in my hand. Neither one of us had ejaculated so I did n't know why he stopped. He pushed his jeans all the way off and sat there completely bare. He put his hand on my cheek and whisper.


'' Do you require to go all the way ? '' I kissed his cheek and answered. I want to do everything you want. I pushed my bloomers off and salvia lay on his back. He reached down into his pant pocket and produced the second matter he had purchased. A minuscule bottle of lubricant. He unscrewed the top and tuned the lubricator on my hard-on. Then he rubbed his bottom.


'' Do we ask condoms ? '' I asked. He looked at me with a serious glare. He asked if I had ever been with anyone else. Of course of instruction I had not.


'' jemmy we have to be totally honest about this. '' I told him about the two girls I had kissed in high school but that was all. He had only been with a girl but had never had sex with her. He lay there naked and his erecting had softened. I stared at his naked soundbox and diffused penis surrounded by a mound of hair. It was so unbelievable, but I really did n't sleep together what to do. jimmy grabbed his dress and pushed them under his butt. He spread his branch and raised them. I got on top of him and tried to run my erection into him. He rolled back farther but we could connect.


'' Hold on '' he said and kissed me again. He tossed the apparel down and rolled over. His arse was inviting me. I got on top and push. Sage moaned a piddling but slowly accepted it. My tip penetrated the seal then I felt fully connected. I could n't believe I was one with salvia. I started to be active slowly and he moaned a little more. I knew it would n't take prospicient and i was right. I ejaculated fully inside him. I felt like my insides had left my body and entered his. We breathed deeply together and I lay on top of him. I kissed his ear and he turned and kissed me. I whispered in his ear that I loved him and and he replied the Same. I sucked on his ear and could n't believe the delight we had together. We sat up nude beside each early and kissed. Our penises were both limp and our bodies moist but I could n't strike my eye off him. We got dressed but exchange underwear. He wanted to keep mine for good luck. We kissed some more than decided it was fourth dimension to get back. He laid his brain on my lap again and actually sense deceased. I woke him two blocking from the dorm and gave him a kiss. I flicked my tongue on his and told him I loved him again. I was in dear for the first fourth dimension.


The next day after division we drove to the closest Warren Earl Burger articulation and ate a lunch. Sage told me he had to get out of the residence hall because former we 're starting to tease him for being queer. He wanted us to move into an flat together but we could n't afford that. Sage lived too far away to permute but I told him I had a estimate. Maybe he could survive at my mansion and pay a small snag payment. I spoke with my mom that evening.


'' Why is he leaving the student residence ? '' He asked.


'' He does n't care it there. He 's kind of shy and he does n't fit in. He 's my friend, I want to help him for awhile. '' Mom was reluctant at first but I told her he would will if it did n't do work out. We moved Sage the following day and I told Sage to act as straight as possible. I was a prospicient way from telling mom the truth.


He wore a t shirt and jeans and was polite and variety to my parents and jr. sister Sarah who was 12. My dad did n't say lots to Sage and I was worried he may have suspected something, but I may suffer been paranoid. We were tired from moving but played cavalry with my sister before dinner. We lived in a ranch area home on the edge of a small lake. We were only minutes from where sage and I fell in beloved. Sarah kept looking at Sage when we played and he teased her when she missed a shot. I was almost fully capacity. My new swain was befriending my sis. I only wish we could be true about everything. We we finished Sage grabbed Sarah 's shoulders as we went inside and she giggled. During dinner my parents were quiesce but Sarah did all the talking. She asked him about his life story and girlfriends. Sage was truthful as possible without giving away the obvious. She kept looking at sage and I realized my baby Sarah had the same taste perception in boys and that made me laugh.


Sage took a cascade after dinner and was standing in his room In a towel. Iwalked in and shut the door behind me. I could consider my eyes off his wet torso. His hair was wet also and looked dumbfound. I was worried that having him around might be tougher than I imagined. sage removed the towel and started to dry his hair. I was watching his merchant ship and he turned and he was slightly hard. The doorway opened and Sarah entered abruptly. Her middle widened as she stared at salvia 's penis.


'' Sarah ! '' I yelled and she screamed"I 'm good-for-nothing"three multiplication as she ran out.


'' I 'll go talk to her ''. I told Sage and I followed Sarah down the mansion house


She was standing alone and started crying. She was so embarrassed. `` Sarah give up crying you did n't do anything wrong. ''


I told her to always knock before entering my elbow room or Sages because she needed to respect our privateness.


salvia had the room two doors down from mine and it locked from the outside. That would be W. C. Handy. He could leave the room, curl it and slew into my room and no one could check. That commencement night that 's exactly what he did. Thirty minute after every went to bed I heard sage shut his door and lock it. My door then opened slowly and he walked into the shadow. He was wearing only a t shirt and briefs. He carefully shut the doorway and locked it. He put his room key in my chest. I was lying in bed naked. I pulled off the sheet but he motioned for me to get out of the bed. I did so and he took off his shirt and briefs. We both sat naked on the rug in my elbow room in the darkness. I could believe how sexy it was. We did n't speak. I had my cover to the bed and he had his gage resting against my desk. We were both hard and just stared at each other. His foot was resting on top of mine. That 's the only thing that touch. He reach up and started to stroke his hard-on. I did what he did. He then licked his bridge player and strtoked it more. I imitated his every movement. We sat there in the dark masturbating in sync. The moonlight shone in and created erotic tail of our delight. I was about to get and gage off just in time. Sage then laid down on the level on his side. I Maneuvered myself over to him so we could take each other in our mouthpiece. We sucked gently as tranquil piffling sounds of pleasure emanated from our mouths.
sage then moved onto his back and I got on my arms and legs and we continues you suck each other. Then sage surprised me. His let go of my penis and moved up past my orchis. He licked them on the way to his butt and started licking my anus. I could n't believe it. I had never heard of doing that. I moaned loudly and sage paused. He waited while me then started again. I was trying to work up the nerve to recall the favor. I did start to bat his testicles and he seemed to like that. I just could n't get past the tabu of going further. He stopped and stood up. We still did n't speak. He gripped my pillows and tossed them on the trading floor. He layed down and placed his bottom on the pillows. This helped arch his ass up. I reached under the bed and pulled out a bottleful of Lube. I rubbed some in my hand then on on penis. Sage arched further up and I rubbed some on his rump. The intimacy was incredible. I got between his legs and put my hands under both legs. I pushed the tip of my erecting into him. He moaned and my tip moved past the rim. We were engaged. I started to move carefully and he moaned. I developed a rhythm method of birth control and we seemed synced. It lasted a little while then I ejaculated inside him. I lowered myself and sage put the pillows under our heads. We feel asleep on the floor without faces looking at each other.


When I awoke it was already light out and Sage was still beside me. I pushed him awake and we both stood up nude. We dressed quickly and I cracked the threshold. No one was wake and sage slipped back into his room. I went into the bathroom and cleaned up. When I came out Sarah was standing external looking at me in my underwear. They were salvia briefs. enthusiast than mine. She laughed and I went back to bed.


This became our convention modus operandi. He would enter my elbow room and we would pursue in erotic sex. I could not conceive my fortune. The third night Sage got on his handwriting and knees and I took him behind. I liked that. It was more comfortable for me. Sometimes we came more than once, but I never pulled out.


The fourth night I finally got the nerve to work out his anus. He whispered to me that he was clean and I gently touched his rim with my tongue. I enjoyed the intimacy of the act and salvia moaned.


The next dawn my mother cornered me when we were alone.


'' jimmy. I know what 's going on. ``


'' What do you intend. ``


'' Mothers sleep visible light, honey. It 's in our DNA. I hear the quiet doors closing. The piano dissonance, the voicelessness. '' She had a binge in her eye. `` I always suspected it. But I should throw known practiced than to let him in the sign. I do n't want you to get sick. I do your laundry. Do n't you intend I do n't see and smell it ''


I was so embarrassed. I did n't know what to say. `` It 's only the two of us mom. We wo n't get sick. ''


'' Do you want us to leave. '' I made certain I said us.


She shook her pass. `` Do n't let your founder find out."


That night salvia entered my room and I wanted to try something dissimilar. We kissed each other with our mouths wide open and tongue dancing on other. I lowered myself to his lap and suck him until he came. I swallow most of the semen but still had the mouthful of him in my oral fissure. I raised up to kiss him, but he resisted. I stared at him in the moonlight and leaned in a again and whispered
'' Just a taste honey '' and he let me kiss him gently at first, then deeper.


I probed his mouth with his flavor in my spit and he seemed to revel it. He laid down and started to bring up his ass but I pushed him aside. I laid down in his normal status and I offered my ass to him. He reached down and gently spread the fond tingly lube on me and I realized i was in for something limited. He brought his penis to my ass I moaned much too loudly. He crossed the sphincter and I knew we were engaged tightly. and he made love to me gently. I was storm how much I liked it. When he ejacualted I could find the warm seminal fluid leak from my anus as sage held me from behind. I did n't desire to forget my room so we slept together in my bed. I woke him up with a kiss and we started to kiss deeply again. We moved to the floor and he got on his handwriting and branch and I took him behind. He moaned deeply and I filled him with my juices. We opened the door and Sarah stood there and giggled at us. I could still smell the seed and wonder what she thought. I reached out and tousled her whisker and salvia leaned down and kissed her cheek.


'' It 's a secret honey ''. And Sarah blushed. I trusted my babe. We had a deep bond and she would never betray me.


The next sunrise before leaving for school Sarah sat on the sofa and Sage and I sat close because my parents had left. She watched us in fascination.


She blushed then asked"What 's it like ? ``


'' What do you think,"salvia asked


'' To be in honey, what 's it form. I bet it 's wonderful ''. We smiled and I grabbed Sages hand.


'' It is honey and thanks for not telling ``


"I want to go down in love some day. '' she said.


"You will honey."I replied and bear upon her cheek.


salvia leaned over and kiss me and she blushed again. I was totally felicitous and also worried. How farsighted can this type of felicity utmost ?