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'' A Pussyboy 's tarradiddle ''

Learning to Submit

by tcs1963

When I was growing up, I was always into girls. I also loved to stroke my cock and catch a lot of heterosexual person porno picture. This is back when smut was practically harder to come by and came on Vhs and Beta videotapes.

I remember as a teen seeing my inaugural all-guy gay pornography clip. It was at the end of another videotape, as some kind of advertisement, I guess.

I remember being so turned on, watching those hombre together sucking and fucking, that my niggling tool almost ripped through my jeans.

But I was also feeling really confused and kind of guilty about enjoying it. I did n't love or even understand my chemical reaction, but the semen of experiment had been sown, and they stuck with me as I grew old.

Afterward, when I watched straight heterosexual pornography, I realized that what I was fantasizing about, more often than not, was the woman in the scene and what she was experiencing.

The distaff porn actresses looked so submissive, and beautiful. They also had the most muscular climax. Their experiences seemed far more intense than anything that the Male pornography actors experienced.

I was fascinated and very curious by how it would finger to be subservient and experience being taken.

This led to me experimenting with manful assplay, ( by putting thing in my ass, mainly zucchini and the the likes of ) and imagining that I was being fucked and going through the Saami experiences as those ladies.

The Saami thing with cumming on my face. I would countermand my ass against the paries and stroke my cock as it pointed at my font. My own hot cum pouring all over my face when I came.

This led to a numeral of years of confusion and mild depression from not exactly fitting into established sexual use. Those intuitive feeling lasted well into my tardy twenties.

I was a fairly near looking guy, while in school. Participating in a few squad play, mostly football and baseball. I guess you could say I was a moderately democratic teenage boy with the moderately popular teenage girls.

I know I was definitely attracted to the teenage girls, and nigh times I had the bulge in my bloomers to prove it. I had a few girl relationships, even a couple of little girl who helped me be sexually active.

I really enjoyed sex with them, fumbling around in the backseat or secret meetings behind the bleachers. But I still could n't rock my desire to be more subservient, and I continued in secret to play with my ass and cum on my human face.

I was generally confused and did n't empathise the whole hermaphroditism thing. I made myself very pitiful trying to figure out if I was gay or not.

I continued to enjoy dating miss and having heterosexual experiences, and in my early twenties, I went a bit pussy crazy. Dating any fille that would put out.

Needless to say, I still could n't sway the unhurt homophile affair. So I decided to actively try out a guy on guy sexual experience. Which, once you got past the plethora, was pretty well-situated back then.

I eventually lost my ass cherry to a guy that I met at a bar one night when I was around 27-years-old. I remember lying on his living room trading floor in missionary emplacement, with his average size shaft pushing in and out of me.

Truth be known, It was OK but all in all, it was a reasonably unsatisfactory experience. What I disliked most was that he was full-on gay and wanted More liaison, kissing and cuddling and that really did n't feel right to me.

With cleaning woman, I absolutely wanted to kiss and snuggle, and be intimate in this way. I did n't need any of that with this guy, I just wanted to get fucked, and live out my fantasy of what it was like to be more subservient.

That number 1 experience taught me a lot. It taught me that I certainly did n't find any excited association or attractor to men.

After that initial experiment for a brief period, I tried to hide my feelings about being subservient. I had met and was dating a really beautiful girl and we were having capital sex, so I did n't recall about my quirky side anymore.

After that relationship ended, it was what happened with my next girlfriend that made many of the man of my sexual jigsaw puzzle downfall into topographic point. She truly found my true self for us.

Lisa was a very pretty lady, she was a lawyer, who inherited her fathers firm. She was a very intelligent and hard woman, she was also very Dominant and just had a natural air of self-confidence. Like everything was naturally going to exploit out exactly as she planned in her animation.

Everything was different about her to previous girlfriend that I had been out with. She knew what she wanted and not only took it, she demanded it.

To start with, on our first date she insisted that she pick me up, this had never happened to me before. I always did the driving. early thing went exactly like that, I had to get used to her taking charge.

Do n't get me wrong, things started out fairly vanilla but we quickly started to experiment in bed. As I said before, she was very dominant sexually, but she was also very confident and had a immense sexual drive.

As I began to open up to her about my submissive illusion, and my legal brief encounter with gay activity. instead than repel her it served to bring her dominant side more to the head of our human relationship.

She loved when I would eat her slit, and I remember I got to do that a lot. She would direct my fountainhead into place, and literally grind her twat onto my spit and mouth.

She got into the verbal abasement face of things, also. If I was n't licking her exactly the way she wanted, she would push my top dog away and slap me across the face.

Then she would say something like, `` Eat my pussy properly, bitch. ''

Then she would pull my principal back into her crotch, grasping my hair firmly and holding me in position. It sounds much spoiled than it was because no subject what she said, I enjoyed worshipping her pussy.

I remember one evening on the ride house from a night out. She made me eat her twat in the backseat of a hack. Truly testing my compliance to her authority.

I remember the taxi number one wood asked her what was going on back there, and in her typical confident behaviour Lisa replied, `` My bitch is eating my wet puss. ''

He just busted out laughing and said, `` shtup, that 's totally hot ! ''

Early into our FLR relationship, Lisa started breaking me in with her new strap-on that she purchased specifically for me. She liked to do about of the fuck in are sex life, far Sir Thomas More than I fucked her.

We tried so a lot together, sexually and otherwise. I was absolutely in promised land. I cherished her and loved our family relationship. I loved my ever more submissive use too, and I knew from that minute forward that I loved being dominated by cleaning lady by unattackable women.

I was absolutely devastated when she moved across the state from me, a brace of twelvemonth later. Although, we still go along in jot, through the internet and telephone.

fasting forward twenty-two-years and I have now been married for 20 years to the most incredible and erotic cleaning woman.

For the last ten class, we have been practicing an FLR life style human relationship, including male chastity, pegging, domestic study.

Furthermore, for the past 5 years, my wife has successfully introduced cuckolding into our relationship, and together we have had three long full term bulls, during that period.

Our most recent bull, Michealanis an extremely dominant bisexual Male, and I am forced to regularly suck his turncock, and he will occasionally get laid me.

Unlike my first Male on Male experience in my late twenties, this time it feels right to me. There is no emotional attachment to Micheal, he does n't want intimacy with me, no caressing or cuddling.

As my schoolma'am regularly confirms to me, my bi bodily process is because I need submission and mortification. I need to be slavish to her and her Bulls because it helps me be a better pussyboy. It 's not about the sex act, it is all about the setting.

When he cums in her pussy and I eat her creampie or I suck his great shaft and he cums in my mouth. Even when he fucks my ass-pussy, it is not because I am gay, its because I am submissive. My fancy woman Lisa knows that my humiliation is what pushes all of my push button.

That 's why I am in love with her. That is why I worship her and strive to be the best pussyboy that I can be for her every single day of my animation.

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