My First Love


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I was starting my maiden semester of college in 1985 and was frightened and lonely. All my friends had gone to other school day or started working and they all were chasing girls like crazy. I was n't. I had tried desperately to have a girlfriend in highschool but I knew I was living a lie. I just was n't attracted to girls they way my protagonist were. I thought some girl were pretty, but once I look beyond the human face I just was n't concern. I was too scared to draw near any guy wire and went to a very modest rural territory. I did not call up any other guys were like me.


I knew I was gay when my Quaker and I decided to camp one weekend. I was changing into a bathing lawsuit and my protagonist entered the tent and started to change also. He was my most attractive protagonist and I tried desperately not to seem but being in that tent naked with him for a few seconds drive me crazy. I did n't do or say anything. But I thought about that moment a lot.


Spanish was my first class and I sat in the rearward row. I petite Brigham Young man sat beside me and I glance over. He had dark Negro pilus and slightly blanch skin. He still wore braces on his teeth and when he caught my eye he smiled and said `` hi. ``


I said hullo and teacher started attendance. He answered to Sage Conner. I had never met a boy named salvia before. His representative was higher pitched than mine and it sounded lovely. The class went well and when I was walking out I heard a vocalization behind me.


'' What did you think ? '' It was Sage and he moved up beside me and we walked together. I told him my name was Jimmy and this was my kickoff class.


'' Do you go on campus ? '' He asked and kept grinning at me. I was starting to cogitate he was flirting with me but that could not be true. I lived at domicile and commuted to school. I got to the end of the paseo and was hoping he would stay with me, but he had a class and turn the other way. The next class was in two daylight and I counted down the time to see him again. We chatted a little before social class and when the prof told us to split in better half we joined up. He sat across from me and we practice pronunciation. I stared into his eyes and was getting a big crush on him. He was so cute. He had died a very small patch of his tomentum a very dark purple so it was barely noticeable. I notice it. I notice everything about him. How he rolled he eyes after making a mistake and how he held his hand in front of his mouth like he was embarrassed of his braces.


when grade was over he asked for a ride to his residence hall room. I could n't believe my luck. He climbed into my car and i drove him the few block to the campus houses.


'' Thanks, Jimbo '' he said and tapped my knee with my handwriting, then got out of the car. It was the weekend and the mentation of not seeing him for three years made me sick. He stopped, came back to the car and leaned in


'' Hey you want to hangout this Sabbatum dark ? ``


I could n't think it. `` for certain that 'd be nerveless '' I said not trying to vocalise overly anxious.


'' filling me up at 7:00 tart '' he said and winked at me.


'' Okay I 'll be here. '' He walked up the pavement and then reverse to wait at me. We waved and grinning and I think he winked again. I was I love.


When I drove up to the student residence he was waiting outside for me. He had a pitch blackness jacket on and Negro jeans. He got into the car and I felt underdressed. I could smell his cologne and he had styled his fuzz with some moose. He looked a bit effeminate but that turned me on. It made me recollect we were thinking the Lapp matter. We first went to a moving-picture show and I felt proud having this beautiful boy by my position. We set in the dark and our arms touched a few metre. God I wish he admit my hand. When the flick was over we are at a nutrient court in theater. We talked a little about the motion-picture show and out Spanish course of instruction. His foot suddenly tapped mine under the tabular array and I blushed.


'' Let 's get out of here. ``


We got to the car and sat in the dark. I did n't know what to say.


'' You okay ? '' He asked and looked at me.


'' Yea I 'm fine. I. ``. I stopped and salvia moved a little finisher. `` I not sure enough what this is ? ``


sage knew what I was talking about. He looked at me and told me it was whatever I wanted it to be.


'' I 've never done, ''. He stopped me with a kiss. It happened so tight I was in cushion. He backed away and my heart raced. He look gorgeous sitting there and I still tasted him on my lips. I think we wore a piddling lip gloss.


'' Was that okay ? '' He asked.


I nodded. So that what this was. I drove back to the hall and we car a second.


'' I want to kiss you again, but someone might see. '' I understood and nodded. He placed his deal on my leg and chafe me a little. I grew excited.


'' I 'll see you Monday ``. I smiled and said goodbye.


I hated Sunday. I was so wretched I could n't abide it. I had to see salvia. I drove to the student residence and asked the dorm attendant for his room telephone number. sage answered the door and smiled. He was all. alone. His student residence roommate had a girlfriend and was n't around very much. I sat on the bed beside him and he locked the door. I reached out to hold his hand but he kissed me first. This clock time I kissed back. I could n't trust how much I liked it. We kept kissing with short piano soupcon and then he finally kept his mouth against mine and opened his lips. His tongue touched mine and I push it back a little. French necking was new to me so I was doing my ripe. I opened my mouth further and let his whole knife in my sassing. I could groundwork his braces on my tongue and that made me giggle. He then grabbed my head word and he started to make out like stripling after the prom. Our heads moved, our lips touched and our spit wrestled. I could n't conceive the passion. My erection embarrassed me but Sage look at my swell up pants and smile. He rubbed my leg then our sassing parted.


'' Let 's get out of here ''. We left the dorm and went to my car. I asked him where he wanted to go and he said someplace private.


'' halt by a convenience memory board first so I can get something. '' I obeyed and he ran into the memory quickly and came out with a pack of gum. He then asked me to go to hamburger private road through so we could get something to eat. We got cheeseburgers and cokes and ate while I drove. I headed out of town toward the state parking lot close to the lake I lived by. Sage finished his burger and actually rested his head in my lap. I could believe it. I looked down and his beautiful face stared up at me.


When we got to the park I parked on the most secluded area and pushed the sit back a bit. He continued to lay there then finally spoke.


'' Let 's get in the back backside ''


We did and sat close to each early. The olfaction of greasy solid food was inviolable and it mixed with Sages cologne. He looked at me and kiss me softly. We were parked under some heavy cottonwood trees and it felt very private.


He kissed me again, this time on the neck. I ran my finger's breadth through his coarse black hair as he continued to kiss my cervix My erection was unbearable. He stopped and looked at me.


'' Do you want to go further, or wait till another day ? '' I did n't reply but reached out and unbuttoned his shirt. He did the Saame with me. I could n't believe we were undressing each former. We placed our shirts on the breast seat and continued to kiss. Out bare thorax touching each early labor me half-baked. Sage scooted down and lay down on his back. I was on top of him and continued to osculate him. He reached down and unbuttoned his pants. I looked into his eyes with passion. I pulled on his pants and stared at his blue briefs. I could n't breath. He reached down and pushed his brief down. His penis was erect and i could n't consider my eyes off of it. I did n't eff if he was big or norm, I had n't seen any other beside my own. I lowered my headland and put it in my mouth. It was salty and exciting. Sage moaned as I started to suck and suck it. He place his hand on my head and I continued. It was amazing. He pushed my read/write head up and told me to take my pants down. I sat up and agitate my drawers down. sage lowered his school principal and took me in his lip. I could n't believe. This was what animation was about. Sharing pleasure with individual you loved. He continued for a few minutes then stopped. He sat up and took my chin in my hand. Neither one of us had ejaculated so I did n't sleep with why he stopped. He pushed his jeans all the way off and sat there completely defenseless. He put his hand on my impudence and whispering.


'' Do you want to go all the way ? '' I kissed his impudence and answered. I want to do everything you want. I pushed my pants off and Sage lay on his back. He reached down into his drawers pocket and produced the instant matter he had purchased. A little bottle of Lube. He unscrewed the top and tuned the lubricant on my erection. Then he rubbed his prat.


'' Do we demand condom ? '' I asked. He looked at me with a serious glare. He asked if I had ever been with anyone else. Of course I had not.


'' Jimmy we have to be totally honest about this. '' I told him about the two miss I had kissed in eminent school but that was all. He had only been with a little girl but had never had sex with her. He lay there raw and his erecting had softened. I stared at his naked trunk and soft phallus surrounded by a mound of hair. It was so incredible, but I really did n't know what to do. Jimmy grabbed his wearing apparel and pushed them under his ass. He spread his legs and raised them. I got on top of him and tried to guide my erection into him. He rolled back further but we could connect.


'' Hold on '' he said and kissed me again. He tossed the wearing apparel down and rolled over. His bum was inviting me. I got on top and push. Sage moaned a little but slowly accepted it. My tip penetrated the seal then I felt fully connected. I could n't conceive I was one with Sage. I started to move slowly and he moaned a little more. I knew it would n't subscribe farseeing and i was right. I ejaculated fully inside him. I felt like my insides had left my body and entered his. We breathed deeply together and I lay on top of him. I kissed his ear and he turned and kissed me. I whispered in his ear that I loved him and and he replied the Lapplander. I sucked on his ear and could n't believe the pleasance we had together. We sat up defenseless beside each former and kissed. Our penises were both limp and our bodies moist but I could n't demand my eyes off him. We got dressed but substitution underwear. He wanted to keep mine for near luck. We kissed some more than decided it was time to get back. He laid his head word on my lap again and actually find asleep. I woke him two pulley block from the hall and gave him a kiss. I flicked my spit on his and told him I loved him again. I was in lovemaking for the inaugural time.


The next day after year we drove to the closelipped Warren E. Burger Joint and ate a dejeuner. Sage told me he had to get out of the hall because other we 're starting to pester him for being queer. He wanted us to move into an apartment together but we could n't afford that. Sage lived too far away to commute but I told him I had a idea. Maybe he could endure at my planetary house and pay a small economic rent payment. I spoke with my mom that evening.


'' Why is he leaving the dorms ? '' He asked.


'' He does n't like it there. He 's kind of shy and he does n't fit in. He 's my friend, I want to help him for awhile. '' Mom was reluctant at low but I told her he would provide if it did n't work out. We moved salvia the side by side day and I told Sage to act as straight as potential. I was a longsighted way from telling mom the accuracy.


He wore a t shirt and denim and was polite and variety to my parents and younger sister Sarah who was 12. My dad did n't say much to Sage and I was worried he may have suspected something, but I may own been paranoiac. We were tired from moving but played gymnastic horse with my Sister before dinner. We lived in a ranch country home on the border of a belittled lake. We were only minutes from where Sage and I fell in love. Sarah kept looking at Sage when we played and he teased her when she missed a dead reckoning. I was almost fully contentedness. My new young man was befriending my sister. I only wish we could be truthful about everything. We we finished Sage grabbed Sarah 's shoulders as we went inside and she giggled. During dinner party my parents were quietly but Sarah did all the talking. She asked him about his spirit and girlfriend. Sage was true as potential without giving away the obvious. She kept looking at Sage and I realized my sister Sarah had the like taste in son and that made me laugh.


salvia took a shower after dinner and was standing in his room In a towel. Iwalked in and shut the door behind me. I could take my eyes off his wet body. His haircloth was wet also and looked amazing. I was worried that having him around might be tougher than I imagined. sage removed the towel and started to dry his fuzz. I was watching his tail and he turned and he was slightly severely. The doorway opened and Sarah entered abruptly. Her eyes widened as she stared at salvia 's penis.


'' Sarah ! '' I yelled and she screamed"I 'm drab"three time as she ran out.


'' I 'll go public lecture to her ''. I told salvia and I followed Sarah down the hall


She was standing alone and started crying. She was so embarrassed. `` Sarah stop crying you did n't do anything wrong. ''


I told her to always knock before entering my room or sage because she needed to respect our privacy.


sage had the elbow room two room access down from mine and it locked from the outside. That would be handy. He could pull up stakes the room, lock chamber it and slide into my way and no one could curb. That first dark that 's exactly what he did. Thirty minutes after every went to bed I heard salvia shut his door and ignition lock it. My threshold then opened slowly and he walked into the darkness. He was wearing only a t shirt and brief. He carefully shut the door and locked it. He put his room key in my dresser. I was lying in bed naked. I pulled off the piece of paper but he motioned for me to get out of the bed. I did so and he took off his shirt and legal brief. We both sat naked on the carpet in my way in the darkness. I could trust how aphrodisiac it was. We did n't verbalise. I had my back to the bed and he had his back resting against my desk. We were both hard and just stared at each other. His foot was resting on top of mine. That 's the but thing that touch modality. He reach up and started to stroke his erection. I did what he did. He then licked his hand and strtoked it more. I imitated his every motion. We sat there in the wickedness masturbating in sync. The Moon shone in and created erotic tincture of our delight. I was about to follow and back up off just in meter. sage then laid down on the story on his side. I Maneuvered myself over to him so we could take each former in our mouths. We sucked gently as quiet picayune sounds of joy emanated from our sass.
salvia then moved onto his back and I got on my arms and ramification and we continues you suck each other. Then Sage surprised me. His let go of my penis and moved up past my testicles. He licked them on the way to his fair game and started licking my anus. I could n't think it. I had never heard of doing that. I moaned loudly and salvia paused. He waited while me then started again. I was trying to forge up the face to return the favour. I did start to lick his testicle and he seemed to like that. I just could n't get past the taboo of going further. He stopped and stood up. We still did n't speak. He gripped my pillows and tossed them on the story. He layed down and placed his bottom on the pillows. This helped arch his ass up. I reached under the bed and pulled out a bottle of lubricator. I rubbed some in my manus then on on penis. Sage arched further up and I rubbed some on his bottom. The affair was unbelievable. I got between his wooden leg and put my mitt under both wooden leg. I pushed the tip of my erection into him. He moaned and my tip moved past the rim. We were engaged. I started to move carefully and he moaned. I developed a rhythm method of birth control and we seemed synced. It lasted a lilliputian while then I ejaculated inside him. I lowered myself and salvia put the pillows under our heads. We feel asleep on the floor without faces looking at each former.


When I awoke it was already light out and Sage was still beside me. I pushed him waken and we both stood up nude. We dressed quickly and I cracked the doorway. No one was alive and sage slipped back into his room. I went into the bathroom and cleaned up. When I came out Sarah was standing outside looking at me in my underwear. They were Sages Jockey shorts. Fancier than mine. She laughed and I went back to bed.


This became our rule procedure. He would go in my way and we would engage in erotic sex. I could not believe my fortune. The tertiary nighttime sage got on his hand and knee joint and I took him behind. I liked that. It was more comfortable for me. Sometimes we came more than once, but I never pulled out.


The fourth night I finally got the nerve to lick his anus. He whispered to me that he was make clean and I gently touched his rim with my tongue. I enjoyed the involvement of the act and salvia moaned.


The future break of day my mother cornered me when we were alone.


'' Jimmy. I know what 's going on. ``


'' What do you mean. ``


'' Mothers sleep light, beloved. It 's in our DNA. I hear the quiet doorway closing. The piano noise, the whispers. '' She had a tear in her eye. `` I always suspected it. But I should have known comfortably than to let him in the menage. I do n't want you to get gruesome. I do your laundry. Do n't you cerebrate I do n't see and smack it ''


I was so embarrassed. I did n't jazz what to say. `` It 's only the two of us mom. We wo n't get sick. ''


'' Do you want us to leave. '' I made sure I said us.


She shook her head. `` Do n't let your forefather determine out."


That night Sage entered my elbow room and I wanted to try something different. We kissed each other with our backtalk all-embracing clear and knife dancing on other. I lowered myself to his lap and suck him until he came. I swallow well-nigh of the semen but still had the penchant of him in my sassing. I raised up to snog him, but he resisted. I stared at him in the moonlight and leaned in a again and whispered
'' Just a mouthful honey '' and he let me buss him gently at first, then deeper.


I probed his mouth with his flavor in my tongue and he seemed to enjoy it. He laid down and started to raise his ass but I pushed him aside. I laid down in his normal post and I offered my ass to him. He reached down and gently spread the warm tingly lube on me and I realized i was in for something peculiar. He brought his penis to my ass I moaned much too loudly. He crossed the sphincter and I knew we were engaged tightly. and he made love to me gently. I was surprised how much I liked it. When he ejacualted I could palpate the warm semen leak from my anus as Sage held me from behind. I did n't want to leave my way so we slept together in my bed. I woke him up with a osculate and we started to kiss deeply again. We moved to the trading floor and he got on his hands and wooden leg and I took him behind. He moaned deeply and I filled him with my juice. We opened the threshold and Sarah stood there and giggled at us. I could still smell the ejaculate and marvel what she thought. I reached out and tousled her hair and salvia leaned down and kissed her cheek.


'' It 's a secret honey ''. And Sarah blushed. I trusted my baby. We had a thick adhesiveness and she would never cheat on me.


The next dawning before leaving for school Sarah sat on the lounge and sage and I sat close because my parents had left. She watched us in fascination.


She blushed then asked"What 's it like ? ``


'' What do you mean,"sage asked


'' To be in love, what 's it kind. I bet it 's howling ''. We smiled and I grabbed Sages hand.


'' It is dear and thanks for not telling ``


"I want to fall in love some day. '' she said.


"You will honey."I replied and stir her nerve.


Sage leaned over and kiss me and she blushed again. I was totally felicitous and also worried. How recollective can this character of happiness lowest ?