*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to carry the easy way out of this hapless aliveness, As you can reckon by this preeminence I have chosen suicide as the only selection to a life I never chose to live, I hope that the one who reads this musical note can fully understand that I was never happy when i walked the earth, Was never happy breathing, Was never felicitous living a life history I did n't desire, I would rather die and sacrifice someone new a chance to last, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it other than the obvious fact I never wanted to live, Well it all began a shortsighted piece ago when I met a certain little girl who for all intensifier function shall stay nameless for the prison term beign, She was paw on nitty-gritty honest to god my perfect match, No individual alive or perfectly could ever possibly match up to her in any aspect, Although to some the great unwashed she was never considered the most beautiful to me every clip I stole a single glance I saw an angel staring back, Every word she spoke managed to forget my pith beating a little debauched each and every meter, Every time we managed to make a conversation I will honestly admit that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never constitute a utter word, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made petty to no sensation, I guess i have gone a footling off track but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the life I once lived, That missy who shall still stay nameless was one of the few reasons I saw death as the best option, The other ground are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the nameless girl I have spent my sprightliness alone, Nobody knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do need assistant, nobody has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in promise that maybe someone would see the broken image hidden behind the mask of binge, Nobody has ever once had the decency to just hold back and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two reason, A girl who left me relegate, Who left me depressed and for all it 's worth the second reasonableness will always stand that I 'm alone and the world never seems to care, surmisal the next reason could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a simple affair that in my life has become something so major, In most people 's spirit when they are bored they just pick up a Word, A game, Watch the television or go hang out with their friends, With me been bored leads to affair much more dangerous, The tongue is always my preferred past time, See how long it takes for the pain to become too much to deliver, See how practically blood seaps out the cuts I leave on my munition, See how many billet I can leave a scratch without them been noticed, Yeah such fun times, Of course alchol was always fun aswell, Getting sot was always a great yesteryear prison term, So yeah that 's another rationality for this note, I was bored, So bored of life, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the lifetime most people are content with, Okay I guess the terminal reason would take to be that I was tired, I was so tired of living the same day over and over, Yes days passed but to me each and every single day seemed the Lapplander, I was in a rut, I did the Lapplander affair day in day out for even I ca n't think how many age, My lifetime became such a repetition that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the reasons for why I chose to take my life, A girl, existence so alone, boredom and of line being tired, I know they do n't voice like much of a intellect but I want whoever may read this note to empathize that them four nipper reasons combined became one big reason, beingness depressed and alone while also being very threadbare and extremely drill, Such a bad combining, Anyways I guess the whole distributor point of this banknote is to say goodbye and to let you all know the reason I left this life, So adieu and goodluck to all, I wish my fellowship all the best and hope they can forgive my choice, Hope they can empathise that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still love them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the nameless girl can understand that if she ever reads this I just want her to bonk that I do deal deeply about her, I do still lie with her and I doubt that love will ever fade, Even if my heart has no cadence I will still sense a heartbeat everytime I think of her, Hope she can remember the good prison term we shared and commend that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to commemorate that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be well-chosen even if that meant I could never be, O.K. now I know this has gotten a picayune long so I will finish as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with life as if I never existed, Just let me go and blank out about me as so many people already have, sayonara I do roll in the hay you all ( anyone who reads that, those net lines are meant for family line only ), guess I can finally be at peacefulness, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find my body in the place I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the garret where all our retentiveness are stored ) *