`` Natalie, mom just called. She has to work a double tongiht. She said we need to get our homework done and fix supper and she will see us in the morning. '' I proceeded to end up my history assignment. I am a junior this yr. Just turned 16, and got my first real boyfriend. Nat is only 14. I start dinner and help Nat with some of her homework, then its time for American English Idol and then bed.



Sam, mom 's boyfriend, came over around 10. I told him mom had to figure out a double up and was not place but he said he would just waitress for her. They have been dating for about 2 years now and so I thought this would be alright. I let him in, and went back to my room.



By this time Nat is sleeping and I am sitting up writing in my diary. All my inner persuasion about X, and how he just kissed me and I let him meet my knocker and I touched his member. He asked me to buss his phallus but I was afraid. I like him so much and am curious of what it would be like when he asks me to accept sex for the first time. I am scared, yet excited.



Sam suddenly walks in my room and sits on my bed. He tells me how pretty I am. I ask him to leave but he does n't. He takes my diary and reads what I just wrote. I am embarrased that he understand my inner most privy thought process. Sam looks at me and smiling. Says he can instruct me how to please ecstasy when the sentence comes. He touches me lightly on the face. I shy away. He laughes. He pulls me ending and kisses me. `` Tongiht, I will teach you to be a woman. '' I pull away from him.



'' Nicole, do as I tell you, or I will go to Nat 's elbow room instead. Do you understand ? You have to learn how to be a cleaning woman Nicole. I am going to teach you this evening. '' Sam says. I said NO but he just kisses me on my oral cavity, hard. He tells me not to fight him, assures me I will hump it. He grabs me by my hand and drag on me out of my room into my moms room. Then he shuts and locks the doorway. Alone with him, I am shaking and crying, begging him to leave me alone. He ignores me and continues to carress my body through my night clothes.



Suddenly he rips off of my shirt and Tell me to pick out off my shorts. `` Do it now Nicole, or I will go get Nat instead. '' Afraid of what he may do to my babe babe, I do as he says. He begins to rub me all over while he tells me how beautiful I am. `` I am going to indicate you how to please your untested Adam. He will thank me for this. ``



He starts to osculate me again, first on my lips while he pinches my nipples. Then he kisses my nipples while he puts his fingers in my most secret womanly office. I flinch. No one has ever touched me there. `` On Nicole, you are so pissed. You are going to finger so unspoiled around my hard prick. '' I am shaking.



'' Nicole, stop fighting me. Relax. You will enjoy this. '' He pushes me on the bed and begins to adopt off his wearing apparel. I have never seen a man naked before. I mean, I saw X 's phallus but only for a second. Truth be known, until tonight I had thougth Sam was a fine-looking man, but now I am so fright of him. My body and mind are both betraying me. Sam has an awful body and I am so curious about sex, but not like this.



Once Sam is naked he crawls on top of me and begins to kiss me again. My body starts to reply to him but my mind is screaming NO ! ! This is wrong. He beings to lick and bite my neck while he rub my breast. He whispers in my ear `` Nicole, I ca n't wait to taste your sweet kitty-cat '' and he kisses his way down my body. Rubbing and kissing. I notice that instead of fright, suddenly I am wet between my thigh. Excited.. How could my body betray me like this. Sam is raping me .... is n't he ? ?



I can experience his breath at the top of my womanhood and he him say `` spread your legs, let me in to feast on that virgin pussycat. '' I can sense him pushing my legs open and I put up no resistance. My rip have stopped. My eubstance shakes, but not from fear. The beginning time I felt his knife lap my muliebrity I jumped.



'' Do you like that Nicole. '' I did n't say anthing.



'' Nicole, tell me you like my knife on your pussy. '' I did n't say anything. Sam smacked me on the leg. `` SAY IT '' he demands.



'' I like you tongue on my vagina '' I said. He says, `` No Nicole, the word is puss. Say you like my tongue on your snatch. NOW ! ! ``



My sassing are trembling, `` I like your tongue on my pussy '' I say. He laughes and continues to lick me there. He puts his fingerbreadth in me. outset one, then two. It hurts, but only for a hour. The more he licks and pushes his fingers in me the more wet I feel down there. `` Do you know what that is Nicole ? That is your physical structure wanting what I am doing to you. You want this. Say it. You want it. ``



'' Yes Sam, I want it. '' I am nervous, I am curoious, I am scared. Then I realize I am not scared of what he is doing, only that he will quit. My body feels like it is on fervour, tingling all over. Sam stops. He gets off me and pulls me up.



'' So Nicole, Adam wants you to kiss his penis ? No Nichole, that is not what XTC wants. He wants his surd rooster deep in your throat while he pumps his load of cum down it. '' With a big grin on his case he pushes me to my knees. `` open up your talk steady '' I am pall again. He begins to wring my cheeks hard until my back talk opens. `` You are going to suck my cock, you will not bite me or I will paddle you. You will soak up my pecker exactly like I tell you to, until I tell you to stop, like a good girl should. ''



Then he puts his heavy hard cock in my lip. Just a little at first, then more and more until it is deep in my rima oris. `` That 's a serious lady friend Nicole. '' He starts to move in and out, slow then fast. I can finger myself gag and he just moans. `` Your odorous little mouth feeling so estimable on my hard tool baby. '' Faster and faster he pushes and groan louder and louder, `` Oh baby, you are going to make me shoot my load, but I want to preserve it for your sweetness Virgo the Virgin snatch. '' Then he stops, pulls me to my feet and candy kiss me mysterious. My mouth and rim are swollen, there are tears in my optic and I am trembling.



'' Oh sweetheart, relax, the secure is yet to descend. '' He lays me back on the bed again and cower on top of me. He puts his bridge player over my mouth and says, `` I am going to put my hammer in your tight twat now. It will hurt for a minute, but you not scream. When i am done with you, you will come back and beg me for more, probably tomorrow night after. After I finish fucking your mother and she falls asleep I will come for you. I am gon na have you lap up your mothers cum off my cock before I fuck you. ``



The more he talks the more nervous I get, but he seems to be getting more and more excited. I ca n't catch one's breath with his hand still over my oral cavity. I feel the mind of his cock at the entree of my pussy and I start to wiggle. Fear consumes me. He pushes his hand harder on my mouthpiece and William Tell me to stay put still. `` Open your wooden leg. I am prepare to experience that nasty Virgo pussycat. ''



I do as I am told and he pushes his shaft in my fast and rough. It hurts. I want to scream but he he has his hand over my mouth still. Tears begin to undulate down my side. He smiles at me. `` You feel so tight, so unspoilt. I knew you would. I am been thinking about this for 2 years, since I met your mother. I have dreamed of the day I could put down your Virgo pussycat and teach you to be a woman. Now I will attend forward to Nat in another 2 year '' I begin to defend. Thinking NO NOT NAT ! ! ! He just laughes and begins to move, in and out, slowly at first, then faster. This is exciting to him.



I am so scared but my physical structure begins to react to him. My body starts to tense up and begins to tingle all over. So many sensations I have never felt. Not bad feelings, unspoiled feelings. Very safe feeling. Sam is moving in and out, he pushes my legs farther apart and goes cryptical. I feel pain and pleasure. How can this be ? I did n't want this. I wanted Adam to be my first, not Sam. My female parent 45 year old boyfriend. I want this to stop, but not yet. Yes ! No ! Yes ! No ! So many confusing feeling.



He takes his paw off my mouth, finally. `` Tell me my cock feels good in your pussy child '' He has my legs high gear in the air, on his articulatio humeri, pushing hard and deep in my kitty-cat but I do n't say it. He slaps my ass, hard. I jump, Thomas More crying come. `` Say it now. ``



'' Your cock feeling ripe in my pussy. '' I say with a trembling voice. `` Good daughter, you will always recount me that when I command it, do you sympathize. '' I nod my question, my body is trembling. He spanks my ass again an says `` You will say 'yes sir'to me do you empathize. ``



'' Yes sir. ``



'' commodity miss, your hot tight pussy is so addictive. I may need it again and again. But for now I am quick to take you entire of my hot cum. '' He starts to push in harder and faster and harder and faster. My body is such a double-crosser. The sensations I feel are skillful, my care turns into passion, my pain into pleasure. My dead body starts to tense and stimulate and shiver on it 's own. I can no longer hold in any of my own eubstance social occasion. I feel excessive moisture between my second joint and I feel like I am in heaven, if only for a moment.



'' Oh, thats my girl. I just gave you your first orgasm. Was n't that great. You feel so expert. '' He is going faster and I hear him groan loudly and push in deep, very bass. I can find hot liquidity squirting rich in my body and he collaspes onto of me.



'' You are such a serious girl Nicole. '' He moves down to between my thigh again and begins to work all the wet from my cunt, then back up to me. He forces a deep kiss on my mouth as his lip is broad of a mixture of our juice. He kisses me deep and foresighted and moans.



'' Was n't that good child. Our cum mixed together taste sensation so good. Get used to it baby. Your gon na appreciation it often. Next time, you will lick it off my peter on command. ``



I just lay there looking up at him. All I could recollect was he wants to do this to me again ? ? When ? Why ? Was n't my mohter enough for him ? Was I raped ? Did I want this ?



He begins to rub me and say `` you have been suck a unspoilt missy tongiht. Lets get you cleaned up and back in bed before your mom gets here. Now you keep this secret between us and do n't tell anyone. The next time I come for you I expect you to hail to me willingly. You will beg me to have it away you again. ``



He showers with me, airstream my body, dresses me and carries me to bed. He leans in to buss me on my forehead and says `` goodnight sweetheart '' then walks out.



That was three years ago and Sam is still coming to my room every clip my mom works late, and sometimes he gets me from school and takes me to his place. I have never say no and I have never told anyone. As far as I know he has never touched Nat, and he promises me as long as I do as he says he never will.



Sam was right-hand about so many things. I did learn to be a woman. The beginning clip I was with go he was very pleased with me. Part of me hates Sam, constituent of me loves him. Will I ever get away from him ?