*So I 'm suddenly, Yeah that sucks* My first word of honor as a numb person and they 're what I choose, What sort of lame idiot am I, I should of said something much better like sweet i 'm deadened time to have some fun

Yes I did just sort of accept the fact that I no longer had a life, There was one little niggle that did gravel me then and to this very day ( even though it 's only been a few of them ) still does, The same enquiry I keep asking myself over and over again *Why have n't I moved on*, Yeah so that is still something I would like to know but we will pull up stakes it for now

I guess you are probably wondering what I did for the following few twenty-four hours that would bring us to this give day, Well I know you will call off me crazy but I did the lone matter that seemed innate to do at the time I chose to carry on with my formula life, That of class included going to school, Yes I know it seems pointless for a utter someone to attend school but do n't judge me, I spent a lot of time with Alice even though she had no clue I was there with her, I would take the air her home then hang around her flat cashbox she went to bed just so I could keep an eye on her even though I do n't know what I could of done if anything had of happened to her, After that I usually went household and walked around the theatre I lived in with my mother and half sister, Always seemed so tranquility when I would take the air in the house, Probably because my female parent and half sister were usually just sat in the living room comforting each former or they were in bed asleep, fountainhead that was pretty very much all I did for the retiring few mean solar day which brings us back to the award day.

As I said at the very beggining I will once again say now, Morning I assume, My gens is Alex and this is where the story is about to get a little more worry. This morning, well I as per normal just assume it 's morning began the Saami as the preceding few day since I have been abruptly, I was wondering around the house when I noticed my half Sister walking out of her sleeping accommodation all dressed for school which meant that it was atleast eight am if not later, Of trend I did what I always did at that mo, I ran. You see each daybreak I would wait till my sister awoke and was ready for school before I would leave the household and would run towards Alice 's apartment, I always walked with her to school and cipher would stop me doing it on this day. Five hour later, Could be longer I do n't hump, fourth dimension 's meaningless to me as you already know, Anyway 's however long it took me I arrived on prison term as per formula, I walked into the flat building and straight up to Alice 's apartment, I would knock but it 's a waste of clock time, So much comfortable when I just walk through the door so that 's what I did, Of course I found Alice in the Sami place I had left her the night before, Bed. I know my next time will fathom really creepy but I just lie with watching Alice sleep she is just so cute, The way she sucks her pollex, Forget I said that I am fairly for certain she would toss off me if anyone ever found that out even though it would be impossible for her to do it, wellspring I stood there for I do n't be intimate how retentive before I heard the common shouting coming from the support way, It of course been her mum shouting for her to get out of bed, That was when I left her bedroom just incase her nightwear was a little inappropriate, I do the Saame affair every morning to be honest, I walked through her door and went to sit on the living elbow room sofa until Alice walked out of her chamber in her shoal uniform and quickly rushed into the bathroom, She does it pretty much every morning, I waited for her to come up out and then I got up and walked to the front door only to take her follow me a few bit later, I began walking with her towards schoolhouse when she veered away and headed towards the parking area, Of course I had to follow her, Ca n't take in her getting in any difficulty now can I. Well we walked for..You know what I will try to miss out the whole metre part as we all know by now that I have no clue about fourth dimension or twenty-four hours, Well we walked for a while until we came to the cemetery, Now do n't get me wrong I have nil against them it 's just they give me the weirdo, Well she walked in and I followed her and I stopped when she chose to only I did n't kneel down when I saw the grave accent she had stopped at, You know in the short matter of metre I have been numb it never once occured to me that I might actually ingest a grave accent, I might actually be buried somewhere.

Okay I will be the first to let in that seeing my gravestone, The billet my body is buried for the first clip is kind of weird, It 's like been dead does n't really slide down in until you realise you are truly gone, Well anyway back to Alice been here, So yeah she was kneeling infront of my tomb and I was just sort of stood behind her not really knowing what to do, Within those few moments I was sort of paralyze with cushion I guess you could call it I think I might of leave out Alice speechmaking, Did catch a few quarrel though

*I young woman you* She said to my gravestone although with me been here with her it 's sort of like she is speaking to me which feel 's sort of nice

fountainhead I assume with all said and done she will get up and walk to school but she does n't seem to be doing so, Maybe if I could somehow pick her up I could carry her to schooling, Make sure she is n't late..Nope I ca n't beak her up, Yes before you ask I did just try and it is quite obvious the consequence, Wait what 's that noise.

*Alex why did you have to die* She asked my gravestone, Her vocalization does n't sound rightfield though, It sound 's as if she is stuttering the words out, Let 's see why..Yep she 's crying that aint right, I ca n't handle it when she cry 's it just makes me need to do the like

*Do n't cry Alice* Yes I did just assure her not to cry, I know it 's unpointed but I seriously do n't like it when she does

*Wh..Who said that* She asked, I mean she literally just asked me who had just talked to her, She can hear me

*Alice you can get wind me* Yes I know it 's a stupid thing to say but what else can I ask

*Who are you* She asked, I 'm a short detriment by that because you think she would know her best friends interpreter

*Who do you believe it is* I know it sounds a niggling mean but I ca n't help it, I mean it 's a little upsetting when the only person you care about other than sept of course does n't greet your vocalism

*A..Al..Alex* She stuttered out, I actually ca n't believe she it, She can see me and she know 's who is talking, Guess I am two for two

*Who you expecting, Kriss Kringle clause* Yeah I know another strange choice of words, I know I probably do n't experience long to talk to her but it 's always fun to mess up with her

*Shut up you idiot* She said a little angrily, Now you think she would be well-chosen to talk to me but she does n't look it

*If that 's what you want I will* I wo n't really but like I said, Always fun to mess with her

*No ! * She pretty very much just screamed at me

*Okay I wo n't shut up then* I know I could of select some respectable word 's but meh who cares

*Good, flavor Alex this is crazy weird that I can pick up you and I do n't know if I am just imagining the whole thing or if this is just a crazy aspiration and any moment I will rouse up in my bed and realise that none of this ever happened but I just want to let you hump that I miss you been here* She said to me, I can see the tears streaming down her cheeks, If only I could wipe them away

*I miss you too, It 's sorting of lonely on this side of life sentence, I mean I have nobody which to be fairly is n't often of a departure but atleast when I had a living I had you* I know it sounds like some sort of joke but it 's true
well she does n't seem to be saying much, Guess I said something wrong, Would n't surprise me thats for indisputable, Wait she has this weird look on her face, I think i 'm in worry

*Alex I want to aplogise, It 's all my fault you 're gone, If I had n't had you walk me home you would still be here today* She said, For the first clip I actually do n't have it away how to feel, I mean seriously how can she pick herself

*Alice I do n't live with your excuse as you have nothing to rationalise for, It was an purity for me to walk you home that day, Every moment I got to pass with you was a moment I chose to treasure* O.K. a piddling slushy but I seriously do mean every word, I loved every here and now I had with her

*Al..Alex..* She stammered out before running off, I do n't know why she just did what she did but yes I am going to follow her, trough the end of the humanity if I so must.

okeh I do n't seriously eff how long it 's been but I lost her, I managed to wee it to the cemetery logic gate but then she just dissapeared, I 've checked everywhere I can reckon she would be but well as you can gauge I did n't find her, I checked the school, subroutine library, Her habitation, The park and even came back to the cemetery but she was n't here, How the heck am I going to recover her now .