The Jack Kennedy, 2.7 : Interview With Kiki .
This hebdomad's industry movers and shakers is Dr Kiki John Fitzgerald Kennedy of Kiki JFK output, one of the most successful production houses to come along recently.
AVN : So,"Dr"Kiki President John F. Kennedy ?
Kiki : Yes, I have a doctorate, in particle cathartic no LE. You can look up the exact championship if you want, but it's to do with saw-tooth instabilities in plasma wakefields. And, if that made any good sense to any of your reader, I invite them to join our"physics nerds"division of the discussion forum on my website.
When I founded the company, I thought that having the title"Dr"would add a certain gravitas to my being CEO. Before that I'd only been known as a performing artist, and I'd hid the severe side of my personality from my fan, I didn't think it would enhance my repute. But, there is a certain section of my fan pedestal who does find it very sexy, especially when I discuss something really technical and end the post with a description of what I 'm wearing. ( Which seldom includes panties. )
AVN : How did you get into adult entertainment in the first berth ?
Kiki : In high school, I had a much older fan ; he liked"barely legal"pornography. He had a enceinte collection of it, and I was curious. So when I turned 18, I contacted one of the production house, and they snapped me up.
I must say, I was surprised at that, I didn't think I was attractive, but with a little hair, makeup, and closet, they worked marvel on me. That validated what my lover had told me and I'd never believed. You know the report of the ugly ducking ? That 's what I felt like, an ugly duckling, and I had n't noticed that all of a sudden I 'd suit a Swan. I never liked dressing sexily in high school ; I always dressed for practicality.
The porn was also very empowering. I was not a democratic lady friend in high school ; the dyke chicks would nibble on me. Most of it was probably resentment as I'd have a leaning to throw off the leveling curve. ( In other words, my being smart, led to them having blue score, its bad use of statistic on the teacher's part. )
Now, I had output companies wanting to hire me for my looks, and I had fans writing to me, wanting to get laid me. After I spent the summer before college being fucked, all day, everyday, I found myself sitting on a pile of money. It made college life history much more easy. I could afford a comely car, and the good accommodations, and picayune luxuries.
I carried on working while I was at schooling, though I separated my lifespan into erotica and not erotica. In the not erotica human race, I was much like my old self, but now I had assurance. In the erotica world, I tried to make myself as worthy as possible. I'd do porn on the weekend, I'd fly down to the Valley to shoot, then fly back for the calendar week. My personality sort of schism as well, I felt like two unlike people.
I earned enough from the porno, that I thought I could set my own production company and run it in my way. So just before I got the doctorate, I legally changed my name to Kiki John Fitzgerald Kennedy. Before that, Kennedy was my first figure, and I made up Kiki for the beginning rhyme when I got that world-class job. In my husband 's professional circle I'm President John F. Kennedy McAuliffe, but legally I'm Kiki Kennedy.
So after I became Dr Kiki Kennedy, I set up the company with adulteress, a blighter performer and one of my lovers. I still act in some productions, but not so many these days. I was doing so many productions, I was worried about damaging my brand, so I cut back on the acting.
AVN : That brings up the interrogation of what is your sexual predilection ?
Kiki : I think I'm"Lesbian with exception,"but my fans shouldn't panic as I love getting fucked by men, and giving blowjobs. I suppose that makes me bi-sexual really, but I'm not really attracted to men, with a few exceptions, I just like the sex. That should stimulate me more attractive, I want the sex, but not the dedication. My husband is one of the obvious exceptions.
AVN : You've mentioned your husband a couple of times now, secern us about him ?
Kiki : lustrelessness is my husband, he's the most healthy person I know, and also one of the dumbest. Do n't forget, I 'm comparing him to college staff and doctorial students, so that 's saying something. If you want to chance the eigen transmitter of a complex wavefunction, he's your man. He even understands GR and can obtain interesting solvent to the stress-energy tensor, he's a total braniac, and that's so sexy. But, when it comes to people, that's not his strong point.
He has very simplistic worldly concern view when it comes to char,"sex salutary"probably just about sums it up. It makes him very easy to shell out with, you know you're always getting the genuine flatness, he just doesn't have any guile to conceal anything. He's shy, he used to be painfully shy ; it took him about a week before he could actually speak to me in a reasonable fashion. He's a lot better now, but I do my best to protect him from harsh realities.
He also has no concept of possession or green-eyed monster when it comes to sex, as I said,"Sex good."Sums him up. There was one sentence I orgasmed on set, thought of him, he asked for the outtake and said I was `` cute, '' coming like that on individual else 's dick. When we first worked on the doctorate together, I didn't want a relationship, and then I discovered he was a fan, at to the lowest degree a fan of Kiki's. So I, as John Fitzgerald Kennedy, showed him I was Kiki as well. I didn't want him getting into something he couldn't handle. Most boyfriends outside the industry can't handle you being fucked for a job, so I took him to a shoot to show him what it was about.
He didn't mind me performing on set, he said the shooting was somewhat boring really, so that pointed to the right stuff. Then, I arranged for a few of my champion in the industry to fuck him ; he was a virgin at the metre. It's not unusual to set a fellow up with another performer, they treat it sort of like a job. I expected them to fuck him and broadcast him back to me, instead he fucked them to a stalemate, and they stayed the dark. I was left alone and horny.
That did show he's an downright dynamite buff, the best I, or any of my friends, know. And the practiced function is he doesn't even know it himself. You'll be flat on you back after being knocked out by the sex, and he asks you if that was any commodity. He is catching on a bit now, even he couldn't be that oblivious, but it doesn't affect him. He's still just thinking,"Sex trade good, more than sex better."
That backfired on me somewhat, as I fell in love with him. I never meant to, and I'd made it quite clear-cut to him that I didn't want anything like that. So I never realized he did have feelings for me, he was just hiding them because that's what I'd told him I wanted. That 's about the merely metre he 's ever been anything less than totally transparent about his feelings, he thought it was the way to carry on having the sex. Like I said, he thinks, `` Sex effective. ``
That 's how he acted when I tried to be more loving towards him, I set up a romantic weekend away, and he was `` disappointed '' we did n't make for any of my friends with us for once. He did a good job of acting like he wanted just sex from me, and being used like that does become me on, doubly so because I loved him. So I gave him what I thought he wanted, just sex.
He also liked there were two of me. Kennedy would be rife, and I, as Kiki, would be submissive to him and do anything he wanted. God, both of those are such a turn on. I kind of proposed to him as Kennedy Interrnational, and he said he'd prefer Kiki, but would care Kennedy as his mistress. I'm more integrate with my personalities these daylight, some of the hard edge of Kennedy is needed to be successful in this biz, but there is still some of her I only bring out for Matt. I, as Kennedy, am his mistress, both in the cheat sentiency and the predominant sense. I suppose you could prognosticate it role play, but that 's not how he sees it. Though, I think it 's about clock time JFK retired, I as Kiki, should be able to live up to all his desires.
He's really sweet, and a submissive really. I'm more naturally a subservient myself, which is probably why I can bask sex with men so much. I really revel it when lustrelessness takes me, I love doing anything he wants. But, I channel my inner bitch as Jack Kennedy for Matt, and he really gets off on that. I don't think he likes it as such, but that's not the point. He really likes me claiming him as my place, I have that inscribed on his wedding ring. He loved it when I said I was marrying him so I could keep him for myself. I 've occasionally just kept him at home, defenseless, as my personal sex striver, that 's his favorite.
When I fell in love with him, I tried to realize myself more than myself, and he basically begged me to abuse him. To do things I thought he only agreed to because I, as Kennedy, was taking my foiling out on him. So I carried on as the rather heartless JFK for his benefit. It's probably very therapeutical to have someone you can pervert like that, and not be arrested. I 'd `` take my employment home '' as he calls it. That 's the other prison term he 's not gossamer, he 'll very clearly communicate why he does n't like something, but send early signal that he wants you to do it, like buying me a show and begging me not to use it on him. Really the more he protests about something, the more he wants it. If he really does n't want something, he 's Sir Thomas More muted on that point.
Like most talent in porn, I 'd really like to have loving vanilla sex in my fourth dimension off, but Matt has other sake. Like, the more impersonal I made the sex, the more he seemed to like it, so I 'd set up random brush between us just for his benefit. I must say, both of us liked the idea of the `` driveway by fuck. '' I pop over to his topographic point on the way to the lab, just to get one, or both of us off and get out without saying anything.
I'm not the jealous type either, which is handy so matt can enjoy himself ; I send daughter his way. He's my secluded weapon, his reputation as a lover draws in performer who want to try him out. He gets wad of opportunities around here. When we were setting up the company, Jade made a joke that he should be the"fluffer,"at least for the women. So we actually did officially hand him that job, at least when he's around the production business firm. He has a full time job as a researcher, but does find time to come down here to act percentage time. I think he'd do it full phase of the moon fourth dimension if I let him, but I couldn't let that gorgeous mind of his go to waste. His number one job as fluffer was my bachelorette party, he was the amusement, and got raffled off at the end of the night.
AVN : My mind is boggling at what presents he buys you.
Kiki : Just some BDSM gear, like a whip, a shoulder strap on dildo, or a leash with a arrest which goes around his ballock. He 'll protest that using them is too atrocious an musical theme, and I believe that 's what he believes, but there 's a percentage of him which wants me to use them. A component part that he does n't wish admitting to. He certainly gets turned on when I do that form of matter. He also bought me some thraldom paraphernalia, but he 's enthusiastic about me using that on him.
That was when I first realized how transparent he was, we had a scene and he really played up how much he hated everything I was doing to him. It gave me such a power trip. Then at the end of it I found he was n't playing, and just had n't thought to use his safeword. He just does n't suppose like that. spill about a sedative, I had to school him in the use of the safeword so we could do it properly.
AVN : And you have a child by him as well. How does that shape ?
Pretty much the Saame way it's worked for millions of years, but I 'm not a biologist, so I wo n't excuse the inside information. [ Kiki bursts out laughing at this point. ] Sorry, a little dweeb humor. We left it to chance, on our honeymoon. We had a month of honeymoon when we were exclusive, and we agreed if we got pregnant, then so be it, if not then back to formula. I 'm not for certain I 'm generate stuff, but he liked the idea. I did get pregnant, so we had Mark as the result. That gave me the chance to do pregnancy and lactation porn yield, a rather recess market.
Once the baby was born, I realized it was the outdo thing that ever happened to me ; I would n't be the Saami person without being a mother. Now I 'm the milfiest MILF there is. We have a full time nanny to help, but I 'm always there to get him up in the morning, and put him to kip in the evening. I 'm the party boss, so I can make my own ruler and hours.
AVN : You said you had a rent personality, what do you mean ?
Kiki : When I was in college, getting my point, and then my doctor's degree, I was working as a porn performer, that was paying my way. The two existence I inhabited were so different, academia and smut, I had to keep them disunite. I did n't think that being a college bookman, and then a doctoral pupil, was sexy for my lover. I may have been wrong about that, there are a lot of my fans find it sexy, who knew ? On the other hand, in academia, being in porn would cause ruined my credibility, or at least made it very difficult to work with men.
The study I was in, atom physics, is very manly dominated, so I was enough of an unusual person just being female. Being female and seen as useable ( as a porn actress ) would have made it difficult for a lot of men to pertain to me seriously. So I disguised myself in both places, as the air headed nymphette in porn, and as the grave academician nerd in academia. In reality, I 'm both intelligent and horny at the same time. I may have it away fucking slightly more than using my brain, but I would n't want my brain to atrophy from want of use.
The get thing is it worked. I did the Kennedy as Clark Kent routine and took of my glasses, and suddenly I was ace porno actress Kiki. No one realized I was the same person, until I told them. None of my friends in the business suspected I was a genius, and I used that word technically, a genius is classified as someone with 140 or gravid IQ. The last time my IQ was measured it was 147. ( And matte 's 165 by the way. ) I play an airhead really well it seems. In this occupation you 're going to get screwed one way or the other, so why invest any learning ability in it.
In academia, no one suspected either. I did my full to be frumpy and unlikable, so no one guessed I was a sex goddess. I did n't feature much of a social life at college, I was working too hard, both academically and on my back. That made it easier to prevent the secret. I worked with Matt, as Kennedy, for several months before I found out he was a fan of Kiki 's, I had to do the trick with the chicken feed to express him I was Kiki as well. He was really surprised to find out that out.
He was even more surprised, but really pleased when I suggested that we would n't just be friends, but friends with welfare. But, no one else in the department guessed, or at least everyone expressed surprise, in the last few weeks when I became Kiki. I started dressing more like a typical educatee, less frumpily, in the department, not like a porn star, but I was now much more attractive, both physically and emotionally to a lot of the men. I got a lot of aid those last few workweek, not all of it welcome.
AVN : You mentioned running a company your way ?
Kiki : Yes, I got really frustrated as a performer, no one ever listened to the girls or valued their sentiment. I wanted to create an atmosphere where everyone 's legal opinion are heard and respected. Of form, now I 'm running a society, I appreciate that you ca n't always act on everyone 's opinion, but I wanted them at least considered.
I also have peculiar curriculum for college educatee, they have to proceed up a B average to get on the syllabus. The `` College grind '' series is so popular now, I can be really selective about the endowment I use, they 'd cause to be a very exceptional person to get on with only a B ordinary these daytime. We also have the `` Naked billet '' serial, we make serious instructional videos, except that we use the College Nerd talent, and they try to be as distracting as possible. They 're some of our most popular lines. I 'm not sure if anyone ever learns anything from them.
AVN : Why did you get going your company, rather than continuing your faculty member calling ?
It pays better. Seriously, the opportunity of even getting a postdoc position are reduce, less than 10 % of new doctors are likely to get a postdoctoral. Less than 1 % will become tenure. I could let gone into industry, but if I 'm going to prostitute myself, I might as well do it my way. [ Kiki grins saying this. ] Porn is one of the few businesses where female person are paid more than men, maybe ten times as much as the men. Men are actually favorable to get paid in porn.
In my life history, I 've had a constant quantity chorus of `` girls do n't do stalk field of study. '' [ fore means : `` Science engineering technology math. '' ] All the way from in high spirits shoal on, I was basically told that girls do n't do the things I wanted to do, and after XV year, I just got sickish of it, particularly when the alternative was so wanton, that is porn. My parents had been naught but supportive of me in physics, and matt may be my gravid cheerleader, but he is a bit biased. Everyone else did n't think I belonged, my department had three women in it ; I was the only American woman.
If I 'd known then what I know now, I 'd have come out as a flake earlier, the fans they 're so supportive. They might have given me the motivation to contain on, but blending a life history in erotica and academia would be difficult. I also wanted to be myself. To get ahead in academia, I had to be hard headed and belligerent ; I had to be JFK. I wanted to be Kiki ; I wanted to be womanly. In the US, that 's just the kiss of death. If you go to conference, you 'll see womanhood scientists from say, Italy or France dressing sexily, it 's accepted there. But, the American language women all apparel dowdily.
AVN : You mentioned your fan site a few times.
Kiki : Yes, I set that up myself, I did a lot of software development during my inquiry, setting up a website was wanton. Again, there 's a certain set of fans who find that very hot. I have undivided subject there, and it's a way to retain in contact with my fans. There 's a lively discussion forum there and I 'll join in some discussions, particularly in the `` physics nerds '' plane section I mentioned earlier. If they can impress me with their intellect, they might find themselves being invited down here to keep an eye on a production. Who know 's what else might find, obviously I find a good judgement very sexy .