I Dream Of Holy Man : The Series


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This write up is an existential drama focusing on psychology, economic crisis, and romance. It takes a spell to get to the sexual stuff, but do n't vex, there is plenty. If you are looking for a cerebrovascular accident floor, please go back to the briny page. If you are looking for a deep sexual love taradiddle, I hope you enjoy. I hope you 'll be patient and save your votes until the end. Thank you.




Chapter 1



If someone were to ask just who"she"was, I wouldn't be able-bodied to answer, as I hadn't the slightest hint. A hallucination ? Some kind of angel ? For the past times five years, I would greet each dawn with the last strong fingerbreadth of a pipe dream clinging to my brain. I'd whorl on my side, and lying succeeding to me would be a fille of my age, but with beauty unmatched by anyone else on the planet. With liquified bland cutis as soft as ripe fruit, a complexion shade like that of molten bronze and flatware mixed together, and shining dark eyes that held alone kindness and warmth, the very sight of her was like a religious experience. Her most predominant feature was her hair, an elegant crimson that could remove all fright of rake from anyone's soul. Groups of strands would amaze together and then curl towards the end like a tongue of fervor, granting her a treated and yet untamable head of hair that hung down to her thigh.

Along with the face of a goddess, she had a figure that made a mockery of the Son"idol ”. Her glassy-smooth branch seemed to adulterate her mi, coming to an end at a full but taut prat end with the shaven entranceway to her Bill Gates of Eden just barely visible under the folds of the cotton sheet. Her midsection was like that of a Bikini poser's, with a concave dip on either side from her gross slenderness. Cliché as the term was, she certainly had an hourglass figure. Last but not to the lowest degree, even though she looked only eighteen, she had D-Cup boob that looked as soft as piss balloons but firm and lively.

Every day, I would wake up with her beside me, lying in bed naked as if we had spent half of the previous nighttime making angelical, passionate passion. Each time, she would come along to almost be faintly glowing, and coupled with her flawless smasher, I was surely justified in calling her an angel. Lying there, I would watch as her optic opened like the rising sun, letting me stare into her beautiful blues. Staring right back at me with endless love, she would smile, hum, and fall back to sleep. Even while knowing how it would end, I would always reach out and try to concern her, do-or-die to feel some sort of proof that she was rattling, but always, she would melt away before I could even stroke her hair.

Suffice to say, I was almost haunted by this"dream ”. This girl, this figment of my imagination, was the light of my life and the reason why I went to bed each nighttime and plowed through each day. I had never heard her vox, never touched her, never been capable to mouth to her, and I didn't even know her name… yet I loved her. She was my closed book, the one vista of my spirit that I would never verbalize of, no affair what. When she first started to appear, I even obsessed over her. I would draw her every Nox on a sketchpad hidden under my bed, remembering her mug with watch crystal clarity and moving my hand with skill that I would never admit as my own, mirroring her image with graphite and composition with such closeness that I would moderate no dubiousness as to being possessed.

Ironically, she was actually the alone dream I would ever give. I would meet her each morning in a half-awake State Department, but through the night, my mind's eye would see nothing but an endless expansion of darkness, in which I would hover aimlessly until waking up. The sole variant from the contraband sky was a single atom of illumination in the space, a twinkling star almost completely out of muckle, then I would awaken up to incur the girl beside me. I often wondered if she was that hotshot. She certainly fit the role. She was the twinkle of my lifetime, a twinkle I desperately needed, one of the lastly few reasons why I was still alive. Being able to wake up and see her each morning, even if for less than a minute, she supplied me with enough will power to endure the life I didn't want. But I have her, I'll always have her, and the day she disappears is the day I lose that final rationality not to end it all.

But she wasn't here today. I didn't expect her to, seeing as how I found myself waking up in the hospital. A burnished Inner Light had shone through my eyelids, stabbing my already sore mastermind. I could listen the beeping of a heart monitor nearby. My mind was a jumbled mess from the cocktail of drugs being pumped into me from the IV bags at my side, but I delved into my consciousness in search of answer. I remembered sitting in class… 6th period. elder biota was half finished… but there was something haywire. I remembered that my hands had been trembling, even More than usual. My skin was being pricked with invisible needle like all my branch had fallen asleep, but I couldn't remember if it had come suddenly or if it had built over time. I remembered the first dagger stabbing me in the back of the cervix. I remembered falling out of my chair, roaring in agony as I collapsed to the floor.

But it wasn't the lights or the beeping that had woken me up. It was the painfulness burning ceaselessly throughout my body. In the I bit from when I woke up, I went from being fine to feeling like I was in the burn ward, charred from head to toe. My musculus all felt like they were being pierced with hot nails, my organs twisted into greyback. I leaned over the bound of the bed and vomited on the floor. My heart and soul varan was sending a digital sidesplitter, bringing in a nurse.

"Kill me !"I screamed as the pain intensified.



I sat on the hospital bed with my concern parents, facing Dr. turner, a blonde woman in her betimes thirties. I had an IV bag of morphine hanging next to me, trying to repress the chronic pain that was ravaging my body. I was receiving the maximal amount possible, but even then, all of my tegument felt like a blistering sunburn and my inside faired no better.

"What you experienced in class was a seizure, caused by multiple tumors in your brain, focused on two specific orbit. It may be possible for us to belt down them with a heavy dose of radiation and chemotherapy, but with how small-scale and numerous these neoplasm are, the chance are slim. It's a completely new form of cancer, and we aren't surely what its long-run personal effects are."

My parents started to cry, but I was completely calm down."Is it deadly ? What the hell is going on with me ?"

"Not in the traditional sense, but we just aren't completely sure."She held up an x-ray of my brain and pointed to a clean billet."That is the enceinte chemical group of tumor and we imagine the oldest. However, whether they have grown over time or have always been there is a mystery. They are attached to your limbic organisation. Specifically, they are growing from the parting of your brain that produces the chemical serotonin, as well as early chemical that control mood. It appears that they aren't growing any further, but—"

"Let me estimate, they're basically smothering that division of my brain down and starving me of those chemical substance ?"

She nodded and pointed to another brilliant spot."Yes, exactly. Now as for the continuing bother, these tumors on your brainstem are the source. The neoplasm are basically rooting down into your nervous system, causing continuous stimulation of pain receptor. They're basically acting as electrodes hooked up to your spinal column. It seems that until now, they haven't been large enough to trigger you continuous pain in the neck. You could almost say that the tumor have finally activated. What you're experiencing now, that botheration is from the tumors simply existing. That seizure you had earlier was the neoplasm reaching the top out horizontal surface of stimulation and maximum. That may have been a one-time matter or they could randomly occur from now on while on top of your stream condition.

"So is there any way to lessen the extent of my pain ?"

"Yes, with anti-convulsion medicinal drug, botheration grampus, and maybe some antidepressant, we might be able to lessen the extent."

"By how much ?"

"fountainhead, at this dot we can't quite be sure. With drugs, we can urinate it so that you won't Negro out if the seizures persist, make the pain in the neck tolerable, and maybe take away the edge of the impression so that you won't become suicidal."

‘ It's too former for that.'“ So it won't down me, but it will fill me with excruciating pain and make me incapable of happiness ?"

"Yes,"Dr. Turner said mournfully.



Not wanting to inconvenience oneself staying in the hospital, I asked to be discharged. Before leaving, we stopped off at the hospital pharmacy to pick up my MEd. I was holding my hands out in the cold Oct air as we drove, hoping that the raw chill might alleviate the dull throb in my finger. The pain oral contraceptive were slowly kicking in, making it so that the sting was bearable, but already, the countersign"bearable"had gained a unanimous new signification for me. The drive home was silent, for my parents were trying to stay fresh back weeping, but I was calm. That's the one good thing about being suicidal : the prospect of your own demise actually brings you peace. Now I didn't have to feel guilty about killing myself. The effect it would have on my family was one of the only things keeping me from ending it all. Now I could just let the cancer do it for me.

In a way, it felt soundly to finally throw an answer as to why I suffered from depression. I had been depressed for about of my eighteen years, even suicidal, completely in contrast to the prosperous middle-class lifetime I lived in my hometown in Maine. I couldn't even count the number of antidepressants, forced therapy lessons, and opinion of longing to just die. There are hoi polloi starving all over the macrocosm, citizenry suffering. It's a mystery to people like me why they just don't kill themselves. It is the only enquiry I will result behind. How do they have life history that make my horrors look pathetic, but they have the will to populate that I lack ? That was always an issue nagging in the spinal column of my mind : being depressed without having a grounds. It was that mixed bag of guilt for knowing that I should moot myself lucky but the inability to do so, and the flavor of weakness from the knowledge that it meant that nothing could change how I felt, and that if I would bid for death in a comfortable life-time, then I would care for expiry no matter what.

But now, I just don't maintenance. I don't need to care. I may not have suffered as much as multitude in Africa or early hellholes like that, but… at least they are capable of feeling happiness. Compared to them, I'm broken, and these tumour are the trial impression. I have felt the bite of a sword to try and call off out my privileged infliction with outer botheration. I have felt my saneness ripped away by years of gloominess. imprint is more than lugubriousness. It is the unfitness to experience joy. It's a missing foundation, like a edifice with a sinkhole where its fourth cornerstone should be. No matter what you use to try and confirm the building, it'll fall away, and the construction can never stand, until it too crumbles and falls into the pit. To live with imprint is like running a marathon with one leg, and the only help you can get is people suggesting you buy a intimately pair of shoes.

But hopefully, I'll be beat soon and I won't have to sense pain or sadness anymore.



Coming plate, I went straight upstairs and hid in my way. I just wanted to go to sleep ; maybe it would ease my suffering. Downstairs, I could hear my parents telling my younger baby and brother the bad news.



I was completely in awe, hovering in empty space within my dream. Before me, roaring in measureless strength was the single star I always saw when I slept. Before now, it had been little more than a unity speck of light off in the distance, but now it was clearly in view, the size of the synodic month and nearly terrorisation, simply because I realized now that it was not simply a ace. In actuality, it was a black hole, devouring a headliner from the interior out, sucking in the flaming and gas of the celestial titan. I could see it as if the sun was a objet d'art of fruit cut in one-half to reveal the core. Yet miraculously, the sun did not shrink or lessen in sizing. It seemed more like it was constantly regenerating. Cast around the eternally-dying principal was a green oval-shaped nebula, about three times as boastfully as the star itself, and making the altogether thing resemble an eye with the melanise yap as the pupil.

"The eye of God…"I murmured.

While the star was beyond my human being comprehension in terms of size of it, I could feel myself being pulled towards it through the speciality of its gravity. Whether this was truly the eye of God, I could not be sure, but one thing I was certain of was that it was my death. No, this target within my ambition would not kill me, but it was the symbolisation of my end. The stuffy my brain got to it, the stuffy my body got to death. At the beautiful mickle, I could not avail but smile hysterically."I'm going to die, I'm finally going to die. Just a little tenacious and I will finally find peace."

I closed my eyes, and when I opened them again, I found myself back in my bed. As always, the imaginary number angel was lying beside me, clearly visible in the light of the morning sun. Beautiful, she was so beautiful. The two of us were less than a foot apart, yet it felt like a sea mile. Lying there, this gorgeous hallucination in front of me, I felt my bother disappear like the extinguishing of a cd. Repeating my dawn ritual, I reached up and tried to touch her, heroic to experience the genius of her peel against my own. As expected, she disappeared just as I was about to make striking, but something stopped me from retracting my arm and letting it fall. My center wide, my bridge player trembling, I scanned through the recorded whiz of that abbreviated second, do-or-die to figure out if what I had sensed so in brief had been real.

It was faint, so swooning that it was almost beyond the reach of my sensations, but it HAD been there. fondness, that was what I felt, the air within the distance that she always occupied was warmer, as if energized by her body heat. My rolled my hand around through the empty space she had left behind, running my digit through the ardent air as if her long deep red hair were brushing against my palm. I then held my hand up to my expression, clutching some of the air from that space, and smelled it. Like the lovingness, what I detected within that air was almost beyond my ability to sense, but it was there, an aroma so faint that I was actually working my thinker into a headache trying to analyze it. Roses, that was what it was.

Shaken by this new revelation, I rolled over towards my window and winced from the light of the noonday sun shining directly into my eye. My parents had let me skip school.

"I might as well get used to this…"

I immediately grabbed my bottle of Master of Education as my agony began to flare from being conscious, downing two pills without anything to drink. It took meter to get dressed, as I quickly found that my muscles were starchy from the Wave of throbbing pain in the neck. Aching all over, I walked downstairs and saw my dad in the living elbow room, reading the newspaper. He was there to make sure I got through the day without hurting myself. Trying to stay unnoticed, I snuck into the kitchen. The last matter I wanted was for him to need some long conversation about how I could verbalise to him at any meter and all that former stuff. I took my antidepressant drug and convulsion meds, and made myself a bowl of cereal. Just as I was crossing the kitchen with the pipe bowl, a bolt of lightning of electricity shot up my spine, making me feel like I was being flogged with red-hot chains. I dropped the arena with a gaudy strike and collapsed to the floor, gripping my skull and roaring in anguish. This was even worse than my first seizure, a level of infliction reserved for the damned individual of Hell. My dad bolted out of his president and rushed over to me. Within 30 seconds, it was over. I could sense the pain ebbing away, until it was at its rule levels.

"Are you all right ?"

"Yeah, I'm ok."

"We're taking you to the hospital."

"No,"I declared. My dad looked at me as I picked up the broken shard of the bowling ball and stood up."I'm going to be having these seizures for the rest of my life. I can't go to the hospital after every one. I'll get used to them eventually."



I suffered two Thomas More capture that day, both of them causing me to light to the floor in torture. My mom got base with my older baby and younger brother. They all paused when they saw me in the TV room. I was watching a horror picture show and the room was dark. There were traveling bag under my eyes from the strain of my capture and my workforce were trembling more than usual. I looked at my mom and gently shook my caput. She got the subject matter and slowly pulled my siblings away.

The dinner had an awkward silence as everyone tried not to stare at me.

"Emily, you wouldn't pass off to recognize what my homework is, would you ? Did you talk to my instructor ?"I asked my sister.

"No."

"I need to channelize back to school tomorrow, I can't afford to turn a loss two days as a senior."

"No, absolutely not,"my mom argued.

"I need to go back to school sometime, and this pain and these gaining control aren't going to go away. I have cancer, not some goddamn cold that will go away after a day of rest."

Everyone tensed as I mentioned the genus Cancer.

"There is no reason for me to outride home."



The sky was a shadow gray and sleeting as my dad drove us to school. Other educatee were swarming in to get out of the rain and snow as the doors were finally unbolted. First period was about to start up and I hadn't wanted to wait for it with all of the other child. The last thing I needed was an sticky XX bit outside the school with everyone staring at me.

"Are you sure you want to do this ?"my dad asked for the hundredth time.

"Like I said, there is no reason for me to last out home."

I stepped out of the car and into the falling snow and rain, pulling up the lens hood of my sweatshirt. It was going to be a abrasive winter. tumble hadn't even ended and the soil was covered by a foot of snow and ice. I didn't notice the cold as I walked towards the schooling. I was the finale person inside and I quickly headed towards my first course of study. I was hoping to continue unnoticed, putting off the inevitable gracelessness. I stepped into the modest classroom, trying to veil behind the crowds of fry getting into their can. I sat in the book binding of the class where no one would see me. If I had been noticed, no one was mentioning it. The teacher began calling attendance. I became more and more tense as he approached my name.

"Marcus Baron Clive ?"he asked, doubtingly.

"Here."

As one wave, everyone turned to me.

"Ah, I had heard that you had suffered a gaining control on Mon, are you alright now ?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I found out that I have a new form of cancer, but I'm fine."

Everyone gasped and began muttering amongst each former. The teacher was silent for almost a minute.

"Please, continue,"I said dryly as I took a pill.



I walked down the herd halls with everyone staring at me. Every few secondment, someone would ask me a doubtfulness about the disease in my brain or tell me all that lame bullshit about how I could talk to them at any clip. I reached for my pills the second enough time had passed since my final one. Just as I put my hand on the cap, the sensation of being stabbed in the spine of the skull with a nail bat ran through my trunk, sending me tumbling down to the floor and roaring in hurting. People around me freaked out as I writhed on the level, gripping my skull as the neoplasm on my brainstem all sent a particularly strong shudder through my heart. Within various indorsement, it was over. I lied on the trading floor in a cold fret, slowly trying to get up.

I raised my head and coughed up a mouthful of blood onto the base. The stress of my constant pain, coupled with my seizures had ruptured an artery or vein somewhere. People tried to help me up but I waved them away. I took two pill and ignored the representative of everyone as I walked away with a limp.



It was tiffin and I was sitting where I always sat. Against the wall of the cafeteria was a set of folded bleacher where students could sit during lunch if they didn't want to be at a mesa. As always, I was by myself, but that was because I was compelled to be. I sighed as another lady friend came up to me and said that if I ever wanted to talk, I could babble out to her.

‘ You're only saying that because of my genus Cancer. If I didn't have a brain full of tumors, zero would change between us. I barely even know who you are.'I fought the temptation to say it, but my anger was making hard."Thanks,"I said instead, but with a tone as dry as the brick wall behind me.

She walked away and I looked out over the cafeteria for the centesimal time, trying to avoid the gaze of the citizenry looking at me and loathing what everyone was. man was as much of a cancer as the tumour in my brain, and I hated my species with every fiber in my being. I hated the helplessness, the avaritia, the stupidity, the shortsightedness, and every other matter that made us the overgrown roach that we were. I had to detest them, for my own good. Even before my cancer, my lifetime had been agony. My creative thinker was ravaged by its own frigidness existence, all this time cheated out of chemicals like 5-hydroxytryptamine. For most of my life I haven't known what ataraxis, felicity, or sanity meant. I'm trapped in a realm of existence that I can not escape from, and no subject how well I live, be it a billionaire or a homeless person vagrant, my misery and choler will be never exit me. That sadness had in time been twisted into hatred, the feel of not belonging to any part of the public decaying into loathing for that Earth. hatred is my only substance of survival of the fittest, the only alternative to wallowing in despair. It hurts less to hate the world around me than to want to be a region of it. It hurts less to hate others than to be starving for a connection.

But I don't want to be the cliché outsider who thinks that he knows better than everyone because he sees everything in a jaded light. sociable constructs and conventionality always seem like a pudding head waste of time to me, but I only think they're stunned because I'm incapable of enjoying them. While I always judge the masses around me and hate them for being homo, I never think myself better than them. If anything, they are all punter than me. I envy them all ; begrudge them for the lifespan they get to inhabit, the mental stability they get to enjoy. mixer lives, friendship, love affair, just the ability to integrate within collective and find joy and understanding… There are student down below me who are percentage of something bigger, be it something as simple as a school day golf club, but I'm simply not able of being able to do that.

I looked at the mesa surrounded by just girls. There was a time when I would sustain sold my person to just find oneself a girl who would go out with me. In my heart, I knew that only love or death could get me peace, and I had known it for years. For close to a decade, I had been looking for my someone mate, the one female child who could choose away my pain in the neck. At least, that's what I used to desire. Now I knew it was too late.



I staggered through the antechamber, trying to recover from a ictus only a few present moment'prior.

"Marcus, do you want to talk ?"

I already knew who it was. Her name was Julia, and she was one of the few people who were nice to me. Well, she used to be. I hadn't talked to her since soph year. She was form and beautiful, and for a while, I thought that I loved her. But then I learned that she had a boyfriend, and after that, I simply lost interest. Now I saw her simply as a pain in the neck, a reminder of the days of wishing I could be with her, no matter what the price, days when my pain in the neck and despair were euphoria compared to my stream agony.

"No."

"You need to talk to someone."

"No, I just take to get to class."

I spat out a mouthful of blood. The hemorrhage would always start after every seizure.

"Why won't you look at me ?"she asked in desperation.

"Because I'm in hurting ! I've been in infliction long before I got these tumors. I used to think that either love or death could heal me, but I hate this earthly concern and everyone in it far too a lot to ever diminish in love ! I'm already dead, I've been dead for as farsighted as I can remember, but for some ground, my consistence won't take the clue and croak, so I'm stuck in this wretched and agonizing bag of flesh and bones, trapped in a human beings I despise and surrounded by a species that I pray would go out ! You've made it clear that you can not be the one to help me, no one can. I can only suffer until my dreadful universe rub itself out."

"Are you mad at me ? !"she asked defensively.

I turned around and walked away."No, I'm mad at portion. I'm mad at my own curse macrocosm. If you want to serve me, then put a bullet in my head."



Wanting some saucy air and deciding it would be better not to adventure having a gaining control on the bus, I walked dwelling house. The conditions wasn't too bad, and the frigidness helped allay my botheration a little, plus it gave me time alone with my thoughts, free from distractions and randomness. Walking along the ice-caked road with my goon tightened to save my ears warm from the snow, I let my mind wander back to my dream. If what I had concluded about that sensation was right, then my destruction truly was approaching and would soon resolve. Even if what Dr. Joseph Mallord William Turner had said about my genus Cancer not being terminal were correct, the side impression sure would be. How long could the man body truly last when forced to suffer endless twisting ?

‘ Whether or not it is my true Death or not, until that time comes, this is how I must exhibit through time. Whether I will keep on to live in some early physical body is irrelevant, no thinker can truly sympathise the meaning of death or the weight it carries, therefor, it can not exist within our psyche. We can not compass end, we can not understand it, not without experiencing it ourselves, at which point, we cease to exist. Therefor, death is inexplicable ; it is the end of all understanding, in which all human being convention and supposition become meaningless. We can only understand things that exist, while we ourselves exist, so while we may revere demise, it is impossible to go cognisant of it ourselves.

We can not feel our own death, just as we can't spirit nonexistence. We can watch others die, we can sense our own lives slipping away, but we can not feel that terminal moment. We can not bed precisely when it ends. We can see a million people die, but we can not see our own. It's like every single person is an immortal surrounded by someone, a continuing paradox of observation and ignorance. Life occupies the entirety of our minds and our beingness, it is infinity ; it is the endlessness. dying is the cosmos outside of eternity, the region beyond contention, in which offset and end are one in the same.

If I can not find or detect the end of my aliveness when it happens, then through my pot, it will never happen. I am deity, and the entirely way for my death to occur is for everything and cypher to collide and end my being. Or am I wrong ? Will I retain to survive beyond death ? Will I live on, even while my body rots in the ground ? Is there a life sentence after this one ? Is it better ? Is it risky ?'



"Hey Marcus, want to play chess ?"my brother Phil asked.

I was sitting on the lounge in the living room, watching TV with a wet towel on my head. I had been feeling febrile all day. Phil was three days younger than me and had the same pitch-black hair's-breadth as I did, though his was cut shorter and he had a unlike off-white structure. He and I had been playing chess for days and he had never once beaten me. You could say it was the one activity we did as sidekick, and from what I guessed, this was his attempt to try and unhinge me from my pain.

I shrugged."Yeah, sure."

Phil sat on the other end of the couch and the board was set up. I kept my eyes focused mainly on the TV, looking at the gameboard only when it was my turn. I had some difficulty moving the patch ; my fingers felt stiffly and brittle.

"Phil, do you love where I could get some pot ?"I asked out of the blue.

"What ?"

"Come on, I know you're a freshman, but you've always been on the social circuit. You must bang someone who can sell me some weed."

"No, I don't knack around with people like that."

I sighed again and continued to take on. For once, Phil managed to thump me, but it was a hole victory, especially with how quickly he won. I knocked over my king with a click of my tongue.

"wellspring now, it looks like the old king is dead and the new king has risen. Long live the queen,"I said dryly before getting up and leaving.



"Hey Marcus, what's up ?"my babe asked, surprised to see me standing in the room access.

Emily was a year new than me and a junior. She had my mom's blond pilus, but it was mixed with my dad's dark hair gene.

"Do you recognise anyone at schooling who could deal me some pot ?"I asked, nearly scaring her with how blunt I was.

"What ? No ! And you shouldn't be smoking that stuff, it's bad for you !"

"Oh cut the shucks, Em ! It's goddamn cannabis, it's completely harmless and you know it !"

Emily's eyes darkened and we were both silent. I softened my timber before continuing."You know I wouldn't even bother with the poppycock under normal circumstances… but thing have changed."

"Do you really think that poppycock will help you ?"

"I wouldn't believe it if it did. I'm just hoping that it can make things easier. total on, pot is probably the least dangerous thing I could put in my system these days and the politics banning it is one of the most retard things in the history human race. It's a fucking plant that makes people feel good. Besides, let's say the anti-pot propaganda is on-key and it is bad for me, do you honestly think that I'll live long enough to face up the issue ?"

"Marcus, you're not going to die,"she said softly, getting up from her bed and walking over to me.

"Emily, I'm already on borrowed clock time. The movie is over, the deferred payment are rolling, and Rotten Tomatoes gave it all blackball brushup. I'm going to die soon, I know it, so just be a good sister and let me be a lilliputian selfish before I kick the bucket."

Emily sighed."microphone Broflovski, you can find him under the football bleacher at schooltime. I don't know anything else about him."



I was lying in bed, staring at her longingly on another school sunrise. With my eyes fixed upon her hallucinatory chassis, the fervour of suffering within my body were dumb, nearly making me sob tears of joy. It had been almost a minute since I had woken up and saw her open her eyes before falling back to sleep, but for once, I managed to get over my desire to try and touch her, and instead was letting the delusion continue, or whatever it could be called. She was sleeping, this girl who's name I did not lie with, this beautiful angel conjured up by my crazy soul. She was sleeping so peacefully that I wasn't sure I could ever master my guilt if I disturbed her.

I could feature lied in that affectionate bed for the rest of my life, just staring at her. With each breathing place she took, I could see her thorax rising with the expanding upon of her lungs, and the flickering strands of her blood-colored hair. The blanket of my bed was barely wrapped around her beautiful frame, letting me appear upon almost her total physical structure. Piercing this real-world dream, my consternation clock began to blare. Knowing that it would mean her disappearance, I reluctantly reached out over her to flex it off. Even with the deactivation button pressed, the girl remained with my arm stretched out over her like a bridgework. She had never stayed this longsighted before, was the hallucination just growing in depth ? Would I finally be able to touch her ? Humming in cloud nine, she opened her eyes and stared at me with a small-scale but sweet-smelling smile on her lips.

She spoke.

Her spokesperson was unhearable, but her lip parted and shaped the password with incomprehensible care, like a schoolmaster artisan sculpting a spinning mud pot with her custody. I had never been one for reading lips, the ability completely eluded me, but once, just this one time, I was capable to read the geological formation of the Word like a undimmed neon signaling, and take heed them whispered in the center of my mind.

"I love you."

tercet parole, three simple Scripture, but the weight unit they carried pushed me over the edge. unable to hold the tears of joy back any longer, I desperately reached out to espouse her, only for her to disappear before I could be blessed with her touch.



I stepped into the locker room of the school. It was time for gym family but I wouldn't be participating. My invariable pain was my permanent excuse. Why couldn't this cancer have kicked in when I was a Freshman ? I stuffed my back pack in one of the footlocker and grabbed my pills.

"Why do you always cry when you fall down ?"

I already knew who it was and I was trying to go along my blood from boiling. His figure was Tom, and he was nothing but a punk and bully. He had tormented me all throughout middle and mellow school, an supernumerary force driving me into depression. He was probably one of the orotund reasons as to why I wanted to die.

"Tom, leave him alone, he has Crab,"another scholar warned.

"So ? Its not like I would cry if I had that,"Tom grunted before shoving me.

I turned to him, the pudgy psychopath.

"You're just a pathetic little bitch."

In my thinker, something snapped. The ire, which had always been suppressed by the fearfulness of consequence, finally broke free. Tom was expectant than I was, but I didn't care. Practically foaming at the backtalk, I reached out with both hands and grabbed him by the throat, slamming him against the lockers. I was strangling him with all the military capability I could get together in my sick organic structure, using adrenaline to increase the power of my brawniness. I had my quarter round pressed against the main artery in the side of his neck opening, halting the period of stemma to his brain while robbing him of the ability to breathe. He couldn't focus enough to use his limb to disengage himself. I would normally never retaliate like this, as I had learned early in life that the rowdy always got off without a I slap on the wrist but the victim who defended themselves basically got the electric chair. There was nothing that could be done but take the pain in the ass and desire your tormenter would eventually get bored. For what I was doing, I could easily get expelled, but not a single function of me cared. If I was going to subsist a living of excruciation and die an other decease, I might as well do whatever the fuck I wanted and drag some bastards down with me.

"How about I correct some of the bullshit spewing out of that deformed tidy sum of Louis Harold Gray matter you call a brain ? first-class honours degree of all, I don't fall down. I have goddamn gaining control. Second, the tumors in my straits are strangling my limbic system just like I'm strangulation you, meaning that my wit is now unequal to of producing chemical substance that let me feel anything other than miserableness and ire. Last but not least, when I have a ictus, all of my senses are so overwhelmed with the bother that I collapse as I am bombarded by Wave of agony. I suffer every endorse, but when I have a seizure, it makes being lit on blast seem like a massage ! Have you ever been in so much pain sensation and wanted to die so bad that you almost used your own fingernails to slash your wrists ? I think anyone would shed some tears if they experienced that."

Tom was turning Amytal from the strangulation and I had to oppose with everything I had to keep from murdering him ripe then and there in front of everyone. Instead of ending his living, I threw him down at the footing, inadvertently smashing his face against the turning point of one of the cabinet elbow room work bench. The encroachment completely shattered his eye socket and fractured his skull. Another few cm and his eye would have been permanently lost. After he fell to the ground, I finished with a kick to the jaw, busting up almost half of his teeth. Tom was passed out on the trading floor and pouring blood with everyone staring at me in fear.

I opened my bottle of pain MEd and took one out."That is just a sample of what I live with constantly."



Tom was rushed to the hospital and I was suspended for the ease of the month. Under normal fortune, I would make been suspended for a full-of-the-moon month or even expelled, but the punishment was lightness for various intellect. Tom had been the schooling bully ever since 6th gradation and was goose egg but a worthless tough. He treated everyone like shit and teasing someone with Crab was the high-risk thing anyone had ever seen. Everyone in the locker room testified against him and said that I had done what needed to be done long ago. I silently disagreed with them on that. What should have been done long ago was Tom being lined up in front man of a inflammation squad and shooting. I knew in the back of my mind that everyone was testifying for me because of my Cancer, because everyone hated Tom, or because everyone now feared me. My sentence was also so light because of the Holocene hurt of scholarship of my disease.

My parents immediately picked me up from schooltime. During the drive home, they constantly contradicted themselves. They would say how lots difficulty I was in and that what I did was wrong, then go back and say that Tom deserved it and what I did was reasonable. I didn't really give care about being suspended, and thanksgiving vacation would fall a few weeks after I got back, letting me have Sir Thomas More time to unwind.



As the days droned on, I spent my time watching horror motion-picture show. The lights would be turned off and I would laugh bitterly during every gruesome kill. repugnance film were one of the few things that I didn't hate. The fact that I watched them in the dark on Friday and Saturday Night, while about people were hanging out with friend made my parents nag nonstop about my mixer behavior. They would severalize me that I need to drop metre friends, and I would severalise them that I didn't want friends.



"Who are you ?"I whispered, once again lying in bed and facing the young lady of my dreams.

Ever since she had first spoken ( albeit while deaf-and-dumb person ), I had been hoping and wishing that whatever it was, be it a hallucination or paranormal event, whatever it was that allowed me to see her each morning would give me the power to interact with her even further. At the enquiry, she batted her eye coyly and rolled onto her back, letting the picket Light passing through my window shine down upon her defenseless body. The girl looked at me, giving a sleepy smile as if waking up on a William Ashley Sunday morn with nothing to do but doze.

"My name is…"

The name was spoken, entering my mind and drawing confusion. I repeated it, uttering the unaccountable noise even without understanding it. The racket was not a intelligence, consonant, or vowel sound, it was like nothing found in nature or anything world had ever created, it could not be compared to anything. As soon as I heard it, I completely forgot it, but even with it slipping my store, I was somehow able to recapitulate the sound if I so desired. The young lady smiled as I said her name back to her, as if what she had told me and what I had said was her tangible gens, but my judgment would not appropriate me to be aware of it.

"Who are you ?"I again asked.

The girlfriend smiled and repeated her statement as well. This clock time, I instead focused on her vocalism. This was the first fourth dimension I had ever heard it, and it was more beautiful than I ever imagined. open as the chiming of a campana but soft as the coos of pigeons, the sound of the three speech preceding the blur that masked her name was like a lullaby.

"What are you ?"

breaking theatrical role, the girl moved towards me, slowly yet suddenly, and nearly making me jump. She brought her typeface up to mine, our lips almost touching while we stared into each early's eyes and exchanged the same breath.

"Wait for me,"she murmured, pulling away and disappearing.



I stepped into the schoolhouse on the firstly of November, and it was as if time stopped upon my arrival. Everyone was standing like statues while staring at me with both care and admiration. With my usual stony scowl and gray cowling pulled up, I took a pain pill and proceeded to my locker. I was walking with a limp, for I had suffered a gaining control in the exhibitioner earlier that aurora and banged my leg. My dad was now adding a safety rail in pillow slip of another seizure.

After I stopped off at my locker, people started bombarding me with doubtfulness as they had done on my first day back. They asked me to say them what happened in the locker room, even though the guy cable in there had already retold it a G times. They also asked me to reprize what I had said about my cancer, for that had been the first clock time I had actually described it to someone. I just ignored all of the inquiry, acting like they weren't there. There was no cause to resolve, even if it was just to be civil. They meant nothing to me, and once I graduated in the spring, I would never see them again.



I was lying in bed, holding a joint the size of a cigar. I had bought all the weed I could off that microphone guy and told him that he had amend have more when I came back. If I was going to blow my deliverance on pot, I might as well get some customer inspection and repair. I always had a few hours to myself after every school day, my siblings would be hanging out with ally or be diddle variation and my parents would be at employment, leaving me with the house.

Lighting up one end of the joint, I took a trench pouf and immediately began coughing and hacking. Ok, maybe I should fill it slower…



I began getting into more fights at school day. Quite simply, I was done with the bullshit. If anyone insulted me, gave me lip, or got on my bad side, I did not waver to flip a poke. I was going to die soon so there was no cause to give a fuck about anyone or anything I decided I might as well deal with old business concern while I still had sentence. A lot of people had made my life a nightmare and I was paying them back. I received my middling part of combat injury, I was often sporting a nigrify eye, busted lip, or bruised facial expression, but as long as I didn't suffer a capture during a fight, I normally won. I guess that was one advantage of full-body endless pain : your enemies can't do anything to cause you injure anymore than you already are.

The schooltime tried to ignore my actions, or at least punish me lightly. Each altercation earned me a distich daylight suspension, but they didn't have the heart to go any farther. The school system and I had bad chronicle, and they certainly had a lot to rationalise for. My parents were the like, putting up a false front of condemnation while being unable to gather the courage to punish me. They knew that I was self-destructing, acting out to try and cope with my painfulness. It was the only thing I could do.



It was the day before Thanksgiving and my relation were expected to arrive in less than an 60 minutes. They all knew that I had cancer and I was not looking forward to some sappy crime syndicate reunion. I walked to the doorway and grabbed my pelage."I'm going out for a walk."

"But everyone is going to be here in just a few minutes !"my mom called from the kitchen, working feverishly to make a big dinner.

"Exactly. Could you do me a favor and tell them to act like I don't have malignant neoplastic disease ?"

Before my mom could reply, I stepped remote and into the acid low temperature. There was no fart, but the air was wintry and raw. The air was authorise, showing a sick blue angel sky as the sun slowly drifted towards the celestial horizon. The surrounding domain was a mix of thick Natalie Wood and marshy field of force, the brown landscape now painted flannel. I started walking down the side of the road, not caring where it took me, even though I knew exactly where it led. The Sand and gravel on the incline of the roaring was filled with garbage, from beer nursing bottle to empty butt cartonful. The cars that drove past me hit me with a sudden picnic, like a last go breathing spell. The raw frigid air, the bleak landscape, the taunting lagger of railcar driving by, and the trash around my understructure was both comforting and depressing. The cold helped ease my chronic pain in the neck and the barren scene made me feel more at home, but with each abandon butt carton I kicked aside and each car that broke the silence, I was reminded of how unaccompanied I wanted to be and how a lot I couldn't be.

I soon arrived at the wooded park down the road from my family, but I wasn't ready to go home yet and I needed a jailbreak from the cable car and the route. There was no one else around ; even a member of the most caustic and chaotic kin would choose to remain home rather than be subjected to this bitter cold and jazz. I entered the forest, following the footprints of dog and their owner, lightly covered by a sparge of newly Snow from the night before. As always, my thought process were on my own mortality, as I tried to work out out how much time I had left. I should probably start making a will for when my soundbox gives out and I at last achieve Death, but what did I require ?

I came to a stop, my eyes wide, my breathing shallow, staring at the creature before me. Resting against a fallen tree diagram to get out of the wind, a coyote lay on the cold ground. Its chest heaved slowly, causing the dried blood around the bullet wound in its slope to crack. Almost every Nox, the Canis latrans could be heard yipping and howling in the farthest stretch of the timber, but this was the first time I had seen one up close. From the looks of it, it had probably wandered onto someone's yard and the dimension proprietor shot it to make up certainly no others came by. From the curdling, it had likely happened the previous night, but from the emplacement of wound, it was probably still bleeding internally and had organ price. The fact that it had been able-bodied to gimp this far into the woodwind instrument was a miracle.

I approached the wound animate being, slowly, but without fear. Right now, it was at its most severe, but what was the unsound it could do to me ? morsel my hand ? I wasn't sure I'd even sense it. The brush wolf looked up and gave a soft growl, but was too bore and frigidity to even show its teeth. I crouched down before it and reached out. It tried to sting me, but its fangs missed and I managed to rest my hand on the top of its head. Knowing it could not keep the four flush up any longer, it laid its head back onto the cold ground and waited for death. I brought my paw to its chest, feeling its despairing breaths and its debile fondness beating.

Too tired to move its heading, the coyote shifted its regard upwards, looking past me. I followed its optic to the barren tree offshoot above, contrasting against the even's pink sky. For all I knew, this wight and I were thinking the same affair. Would I ever see green leaves on those branches again ? Or would this be my hold up winter ? Would I die, miserable and in pain, or was there even a glimmer of a chance for me to live my life without hiding from the world ? Would the day ever come when I too can bask in the sun ?

Solemnly, I reached in my pocket and pulled out my Swiss army knife. I couldn't leave this animal here to suffer. I had to put it out of its misery. I folded out the tongue and put the tip to the binding of the brush wolf's spine. I hesitated, spending another minute looking into its heart and feeling its body shiver. I had never killed an animal before, not counting the one or two black eye I had run over when I was learning to drive, but this thing was much giving than they were.

"You and I are exactly the same. The merely differences are that you probably want to observe living… and I wish soul would be merciful enough to do this to me."

Taking a abstruse breath, I forced the blade into its neck, severing the nerves as best as I could. Its body gave the smallest twitch and then everything became still and its eyes closed. I stayed there a fiddling while longer, feeling the warmth slowly leak from its soundbox. I reached behind it into the Crater of dirt of the extirpate tree and grasped a small handful of icy soil. I rubbed it between my manus, letting it thaw so that the smell of the food could drop off free. I stared at the dirt, moving it around to secernate the minerals from the decaying matter, and then sprinkled it on the slain animal. Soon, I would die, just like this coyote, and I would return to the earth, just like everything else. For the first off time in a longsighted while, I actually smiled, knowing what I wanted. I wanted to be buried, but without a casket, and certainly without being embalmed. I wanted to cover my end, not hide from it in a pine tree box while noxious chemical save me from rotting. I wanted to find the ground on my face, to be enveloped by the earth, and maybe throw a tree planted over my grave accent. At least then, the insect and the plants would get Sir Thomas More use out of my body than I ever did.

I wiped my hands off on the coyote's fur and then stood up. It was clock time to go home.



I stepped through the front line threshold of my family and was instantly bombarded by hugs and greetings from my relatives : cousins, auntie, uncles, grandparents, and everyone else. I could sense the clumsiness underneath their words as they asked how tall I was and all of the other cliché inquisitions.

"dinner party is set !"I heard my mom call from the kitchen.

I had no appetite.

"I'm just going to go to bed."

Before anyone could even try to break me, I went upstairs and into my elbow room. I moved to my bed, wincing as my muscles became more and more than sore. I lied down and let my aching body settle.

"Please, just let me sleep and not wake up up."



"Why can't I hear your name ?"I asked, speaking to the missy while the hallucination would let me.

Having already gone through the recorded cause and activeness, the girl opened her eyes and gazed at me with her usual warm up smile, while almost laughing in a gentle hum.

"Are you even real ?"

"Does it matter if I am real or not ?"

Hearing her speak warmed my tenderness with the possibility that maybe she wasn't just a figment of my imagination."Yes, no… I'm not sure."

The girl then moved closer to me, closing the gap between us and reducing it to a few unbearable in."If I don't exist, if I am just a macrocosm of your own mind, then you should be happy. If it is you who created me, then I am always with you. I am wherever you want me to be and you just have to wish it."

I put my hand over my face and rolled onto my cover, having suddenly felt my middle watering up. Every word that passed from between her beautiful lips was a shock to my very soul, like the ending of a beautiful book.

"No, that's not good enough. I need you with me. I need you to be real. I don't know why, I just need—"

I was silenced, my whole soundbox brought to a discharge plosive by the sensation of the little girl leaning over and pressing her lips against my own. I moved my hand away from my optic, in stark and utter disbelief. This was the first fourth dimension I had ever been able to touch her, and that first touch was expressed through my offset kiss. Her face, so secretive to mine, I could see every 1 detail of her visage and saturate myself with her rosy odor. The sensation of her lip against mine, it went beyond just canceling out my pain, it made me feel… full. I felt happy, euphoric, like I had just been working for three days straight and was settling into a hot tub. Her lips were so soft and affectionate, but also carrying a gentle flavor. It was like I was kissing a wisp of steam from a cup of tea.

The female child eventually broke the connection and we stared into each early's oculus. She then sat up and moved on top of me, her hands pushing down on my shoulder and her long crimson hair hanging down around our faces like a drapery, seceding the space between us from the outdoor public and making it all our own. Staring at her full breasts and feeling the legato lips of her cunt rub up against the shaft of my hardening penis ( with only the fabric of my boxers separating them ) was driving me wild with hormonal lust.

In all honesty, I hadn't been this aroused in calendar month, I could literally feel the blood pumping furiously through my body and firing up the long-dormant role of my brain that I had ignored for so long. But beyond her sweetheart, beyond her raw dead body resting on mine and making me turned on than ever in my liveliness, the greatest feeling was her weight on me. It was real. I could feel her pushing down on my shoulder joint, sitting on my lap. I could even see the bounce of my mattress creak beneath us. This weight was real, it had to be, and that meant she was real.

"You need me to be actual because you need to trust that there is some view of this world that can shit you well-chosen, that there is at least one person who can take away your bother. But if I am just a Creation of your own intellect, then you should be overjoyed. It means that you hold the key to your own happiness, and wherever you live, no matter how you live, you can ca-ca it paradise."

The words were whispered and her face was lit with attender aid and passion. The girl then leaned down and settled herself on top of me like a cat, her chest pressed against mine and her face buried in the slope of my neck. Her body, it was so fond and soft, I was completely at a loss for words on how to draw it. All I could do was wrap my sleeve around her feminine shape, hold her tight, and cry teardrop of joy. I didn't charge, real or not, she was here with me, and that was all that mattered. Whether she was some sort of backer from heaven or just a figment of my vision, as long as she was with me, I'd be happy.

"Marcus, fare on, it's sentence to wake up. You've been in bed for too farseeing,"my mom said, knocking on the threshold.

At the sound of the doorknob shaking, I turned with awe in my centre."No, don't. Please, not yet."

The grip was fully turned, and just as the door began to act, the girl disappeared, leaving me alone once again. My mom just stood in the room access, looking at me and wondering why I was crying.



Even if my dreaming had now reached new level of depth and I could interact with the little girl more than I had ever hoped, that didn't help my everyday routine. In fact, it made it worse. Spending every second longing to go back home and go to bed so that I could inflame up beside that girl, my life became even more miserable. Everything that made my day difficult became horrible, and everything that had never bothered me before was now a curse, as it required time and stood in my way. Add that to my continuous pain and my multiple daily raptus, and each day went from being an endless Hades to a taunting deprivation of the one Christ Within in my hellish liveliness.

Such lively contact like that limited nighttime before was rare and not often repeated. The lady friend still appeared every morning for a few moment, but I could rarely do anything Sir Thomas More than bear on her gently with my hand. Going further would cause her to go away. She never spoke much, only when I said something to her or asked her enquiry, and even then, her solvent were simple and often repeated. Regardless, just waking up succeeding to her each morn was enough to get me through the day, but barely.

While my vision of the girl seemed to mature, every Nox, I dreamt about that star, the hotshot being devoured by the black hole in its sum, the star sitting in a nebula looking like the eye of God. I could feel myself drawing closer and closer to the mordant pickle in the nerve center, being pulled in towards my death. The finisher I got, the gravid the celestial mass became, surpassing my human comprehension. Yet strangely, after that night, while my increasing proximity continue to dilate my view of the star around it, the smuggled hole was actually shrinking like a contracting student. It was as if the black pickle was sizing itself to jibe with my length from it.

December was exceptionally rough, quite simply because I had decided to try chemo and actinotherapy treatment for my cancer. Well, to be honest, my parents basically coerced me into doing it and making me experience shamed if I refused. They wanted me to live no matter what, so the simply way to throw off their hunch that I was eagerly awaiting demise was to feint hopelessness and veneration towards the treatment. I eventually agreed to treatment under one condition : if I didn't see any results before New class's or I started losing my hair, I was going to quit. I didn't have gamey arithmetic mean, but I would do it to get my parents off my back.

On my get-go day of chemotherapy, I found myself in a way with other cancer affected role, all sitting in chairs lining the rampart. Each one was hooked up to an IV, and their microscope stage of treatment were all visible on their emaciating bodies. Considering the fourth dimension it took for each session, everyone had method of keeping ennui at bay. There were laptops, hand-held game cabinet, books, and one of the kidskin was even playing with a Rubik's Cube. I sat by the window, letting the poison run through my mineral vein. I was also receiving a heavy dose of morphine, helping to numb some of my pain. Hopefully I wouldn't have a seizure in the infirmary. The lowest thing I needed was some intern right out of med school sticking a tube down my throat.

Drowsy from the drugs running through me, I let my mind wander. My mentation drifted back to the girl and what she had told me. She said that if she wasn't very, if she was just a figment of my imagination, then I could holler on her whenever I needed. Maybe it was something I should try. I closed my oculus, forcing aside all misdirection and sensations. I focused my mind on the girl, but was unsure of what would actually bring her Forth. If I just thought about her, would she appear in this way with me ? Should I try and fall asleep and dream about her ?

Slowly the audio of the other patients faded, the world falling silent around me. But I was not alone. I felt someone gently clasp my hand and opened my eyes, staring into the beautiful blue devil of the girl. She was kneeling at my feet, naked as always. Behind her, the chemotherapy room had blurred into an unrecognizable collage, as if I was falling out of sync with reality.

"Marcus, my dear scented Marcus…"she whispered, resting her caput on my lap.

I slowly reached out and put my hand on the top of her capitulum, stroking her tomentum."You're really here,"I gasped in amazement.

"Of path I'm here ; I'm always with you. Marcus, I'm so gallant of you, for everything you've endured. Your patience will be rewarded, I promise you. Just retain on and I will bring you happiness."

"What am I supposed to wait for ?"

"The day when our souls can finally achieve convergence."

I then jerked in my electric chair, having been awoken by the nurse. I had slept through the treatment.



Christmas and New Year's came and went, and I was happy to see them go. I hated the holidays ; all of the cheer and happiness made my organ fail. With the start of the New Year, I had the doctors check my condition and see if any progression had been made on my tumor. After a month of radiation and chemo, I had figured at least a little change would be found. No. There was nothing. They had resisted the treatment and I was stuck where I was.



Each day, my pain in the neck was getting forged, and I found myself taking more and more lozenge than I was supposed to, both pain pill and anti-convulsion meds in an endeavor to subdue my seizures. Originally, I would take two pain pill every four hours and one anti-convulsion med every six, but now I was downing them like tic tacs. My eubstance was weakening, but in a way, that was a good thing. I was close, so close. Soon I could rest in peace.



"twenty dollar for a VD, and I'll give you an surplus ten for a unobjectionable needle and to help me set up. My hands are too shaky for something like this,"I said, standing in an alley in town.

The sky above was hoar with a blue-blooded snow pouring down on the principal and I. Luckily, the café to our right kept us out of the wind. The man before me looked to be in his late XX, unshaven with deep distrust in his oculus. I was a new customer to him, and normally he would receive turned me away on instinct, but luckily I looked sick enough to pass for a hardened user.

"Let me see your hands."

I held them up, letting him see them shake. With every face ending in my fingers firing, my hands were shaking so badly that it looked like I had MS.

"Alright, fine. You're in destiny, kid. I just got some brand new syrinx yesterday and I've got one left."

He looked around to make sure we wouldn't be seen and then took out his product. Filling up a spoon with heroin, he clenched the handle with his teeth and used his hands to curb a barge and protect the flame from the wind. Slowly the powder melted into its liquid form, and before it could cool, he unwrapped an unused syringe and filled it with the drug, finishing by handing it to me in exchange for the hard cash.

"Tch, lot. If luck were on my side today, this acerate leaf would end up killing me."

With the dealer leaving, I sat down on the common cold wet ground, pulling up my sleeve and looking for a vein. It certainly wasn't hard ; my skin was as thin as newspaper and my arteria were all swollen from malnutrition and the air of my disease. I pushed the needle into my arm, not even feeling it amongst the one thousand million of former painful motherfucker tormenting my soundbox. I hesitated with my thumb on the plunger, wondering if this was really the road to submit. My life was already cut suddenly and the luck of there being a remedy for my pain were slender, but did I really want to encourage essence myself with even a 1 injectant of this toxin and peril developing an dependence ? After all, the pot had been a dismal unsuccessful person. What luck did heroin have of helping me ? I concluded my hesitation with a gag, deciding I didn't have much to lose.

I pushed down onto the plunger, filling my bloodstream with the poison. Casting the empty-bellied syringe aside, I leaned my head back and stared up into the snowfall, waiting for the drug to take affect. Could I possibly be any more miserable ? Sitting in a back back street with heroin running through my veins, trying desperately to free myself for just a few instant from my disease… It was beyond wretched ; it was disgraceful. But soon, the drug began to contain issue, numbing my senses and bringing down my pain to a thudding throb while leaving my mind spinning. Waiting for this dark miracle to truly unfreeze me from my torture, I stared back up into the gray sky and let my mind wander.

Is there a god ? I ask myself that question often, but of track, so does everybody. I don't know if I am a believer, an atheist, or just an doubter. I see no understanding in the world, no signification, no pattern behind the pandemonium early than the patterns human being try to create. Is there a purpose in any existence ? Even mine ? Was I created with this physical structure simply to suffer ? Was I created and then abandoned, never cared about by whatever deity might have cursed me with spirit ? Was all of human beings created to brook or was it created and then abandoned ? There is so practically pain in the earthly concern, so much torment beyond my own. What variety of deform god would put us on this dry land to last as the abominations that we are, caught in evolutionary limbo ? Would our Almighty not also be our parent ? Shouldn't they try and protect us from impairment ? Are we merely entertainment ? A TV show for Thomas More advance life mannequin ? Or are we little more than a bacteria Colony growing on a discarded test thermionic tube, created by accident and never acknowledged ?

What use is there of a god in this man world ? Either he doesn't exist, doesn't aid, or is he a sick freak that loves to produce animation solely to toy with it. masses waste their life praying and begging to some bastard in the sky to exchange their lifespan, all the while trampling under everyone beneath them and casting sagacity upon those who walk different track. But for judging them, am I no better ? Do I have any right to speak badly of the great unwashed when I too am cursed with this pathetic human body ? How can I condemn others for being judgmental when it means being judgmental of them ?

I guess that's one of the main trouble of this human race : no one can produce change without doing exactly what their opposite is doing. Whether it is trying to break off a racial extermination or get a vizor passed through congress, every stand is just a repeat of its give way harbinger. Everyone thinks they know what's outflank, they think they have the key to saving the world or that they have seen the verity that no one else has so much as caught a glance of. All the same mistakes are just made over and over again, all the Lapp promises spoken and never fulfilled, all the faults of others pointed out by those who are nil more than dissimulator. If this life really is the work of a god, then he is a sadistic god, a life where the tallest societal social organization is nothing more than a pile of junk, a heap of unsuccessful person all stacked up on top of each other with no one capable of escaping their mantle.

I don't know if there is a god, I'm not certain whether or not I want there to be a god. If there isn't a god, then all this is nonmeaningful and there is goose egg for us in this public but a quick life, an unavoidable dying, and an eternity in which no one remembers us. If there is a god, then he is either incompetent or malevolent, in which case, I want nothing to do with him other then a chance to pay him back for creating me. What am I ? A believer ? An atheist ? An agnostic ? What is the gens for mortal whose impression in God is aught more than the desire to down him ?

"Marcus, I'm cold."

I looked over, seeing the girl sitting next to me, her healthy skin contrasting against the brick wall and the snow-covered pavement. She looked at me with sombre eyes, pained by the condition I was in and how desperate I was.

"Do you even feel things like the cold ?"I asked, more bitterly than I meant.

"I feel them because you feel them. You are my link to this world, just like I am yours. We are bound."

I got to my feet, struggling to exert my balance."I'm sorry you're bound to someone as silly as me."

"You are not misfortunate. You are despairing, you are in pain sensation, and you are starved of love."

"Who could ever love someone as broken as me ?"

"I do. Marcus, of all the citizenry in the world, I am the one that you have nothing to hide from."

She stood up and leaned against me, her arms wrapped tightly around my neck. I could actually feel her, experience her fondness.

"You'll never have to put yourself down, never say you don't deserve me, never have to finger shame or embarrassment. Every individual aspect of your life, of your personality, of your soul, I love with all my tenderness. Marcus, I accept you. I accept you for everything you are. Now please, let's go place. I don't want you to catch a cold."



It was morning, and I was getting ready for school with my kinsfolk in the kitchen. In my hand was a mound of pills, one that I stared at loathingly. infliction killers, anti-convulsion meds, stock thickening to proceed my national hemorrhage from going out of control, antidepressant drug, and countless vitamin supplement to help me get some alimentation. With constant pain wracking my body, I rarely noticed my appetite, and any food that I did eat was often thrown up during my seizures, so pills were the alone way to crap sure I got the nutrients I needed. I was always on the husky position, but after so many workweek of this painfulness, I had burned through all of my fat reserve and was little Thomas More than skin and bone. Hoping that I wouldn't just chuck them up later, I poured the anovulant into my mouth and forced them into my gut with a glass of water. prison term to start a new day.



"We're so shut now."

My centre bolted assailable and I quickly realized that I couldn't movement. The girl, the miss who's public figure I did not acknowledge, her susurration had woken me up. Never before had this happened, and even more, she was sitting on my lap again, almost pinning me down. The sun had not yet risen. It was barely after 2:00 am.

"What ?"I asked, certain I was still dreaming.

With a warm grinning, she leaned down and gently kissed me."We are so close now. We can talk, we can touch… we can kiss. I can feel you and you can sense me, the time has almost come. Just wait a trivial longer."

"What has almost come ?"

"Happiness,"she purred lovingly while sitting back up.

I sat up with her, wrapping my arms around her and resting my frontal bone against her pectus. The mild lovingness of her bountiful breasts against my face was a sexual paradise, coercing my dick into a impulse erection.

"Why can't I hear your gens ?"

The red-haired beauty giggled and gently pushed me back down, hovering over me on all fours."Because you have not yet named me."

"What do you mean ?"

"You must make me, so that I may be solely for you, so that I may bring you happiness and ease your suffering. Then when you regain the will to live, you will exist solely for me, and this world will turn promised land for all the days of our lives."

"But don't you exist already ?"

"Why don't you touch me and decide for yourself ?"she suggested coyly.

I smiled, feeling my hotness and excitement brush away my fatigue. Raising my right bridge player, I reached up and cupped one of her breasts, sending an ungovernable shiver through my body and causing some pre-cum to dampen my packer

"I didn't know you were such a pervert. How naughty,"she murmured, closing her center and humming to herself blissfully with a pocket-sized smile.

I was smiling as well, massaging the orb of flesh with both maintenance and curiosity, having never felt a lady friend's booby before. I began massaging the other one with my bequeath hand, rubbing the nipple with my thumb and causing the girl's humming to increase in intensity. Jiggling them, squeezing them, and rubbing them together, I thoroughly explored every secret her womanhood held and familiarized myself with every unmarried cm of her soft skin.

"It feels so just to possess you touch me,"she panted as I began toying with her tit, gently squeezing them between my index and middle finger's breadth and rubbing them with my thumbs.

"You certainly feel genuine,"I said, felicitous than I had been in years.

"wellspring to be sure, how about a perceptiveness ?"she offered, lowering herself down and kissing me.

Following the lead of her rim, her clapper slipped into my mouth with incredible length. I almost felt like I was going to choke on it. Her backtalk and knife, they were so yummy, and the surface-active agent the kiss became, the More of her flavor I was capable to sample. She tasted like ripe Mangifera indica and tea and the longer I tasted her, the more perk up I felt.

After several minutes of kissing, the fille pulled her rim from mine and smiled."My eubstance is so hot right field now, can you cool me off ?"

I smiled and raised my head, kissing her first gear on the cheek, then down the English of her neck opening, and to her clavicle. As I slowly moved down, the little girl slipped her hands into my boxers and grasped my cock, nearly making me cum right then and there simply from the sensation of having somebody else soupcon it.

"Just as I thought, it's sized just for me,"she hummed, lovingly stroking it while my lips finally came to her breasts.

Shaking like a drug junkie, I was barely able to contain my intimate hungriness. All these age, my hatred and depression had made my natural cause little more than a dull annoyance, but now, it was like it was all rushing out at once. I ran my tongue across her breasts, ineffectual to think how estimable they felt and tasted, and just that I was making such versed middleman with this unusual entity.

"Be as jolty or as ennoble as you want, I belong to you after all,"she said tenderly.

At her countersign, my emotions suddenly flared up and quelled my instinctive desire. This lady friend, whether she was real or a delusion, I did not manage. I loved her, she was wanted to me, and I could not pain her even if she asked me to. I was slow, docile, working my rim around each tit and stopping periodically to massage her breasts with my spit. While I worked, she rubbed her smooth slit against the shaft of my rooster. It was so diffuse, already soaking wet from her arousal and making me dizzy with the sweetly aroma.

"Such a round-eyed trace, yet it feels so good. To be so close to you, I feel like I'm going to faint in happiness,"she cooed.

As her apparent motion became more fast-growing and the gentle friction became passionate grinding, I reached out and held onto her shapely ass with my hired man. So flaccid and yet so unbendable, both fully and taut, she had the ass of a Brazilian poser. All this stimulation, it was too a good deal, I could feel all the muscles in my frown eubstance tensing up from my approaching orgasm.

"I feel it, Marcus. I'm about to cum."

"Me too,"I murmured, wishing I could be inside her instead of just grinding against the entering.

Gyrating her hips, the girl's apparent movement increased until it actually felt like I had penetrated her. We finally came at the same sentence, me launching about a shot ice'worth of ejaculate onto my tum and refreshed sheen of wetness coating the daughter's fair sex. At the feeling of go, I gave a deep oink and the girl gave a shrill and rather lovely whine before she collapsed on top me.

"We're so close, we can already add each other happiness."

"Any hazard we could strike it a footstep further ?"I asked, placing my hands on the English of her face and brushing aside her farseeing crimson hair.

"No. Close as we are, we can not yet bond ourselves in that way. Only when we both live will we be able to create spirit for ourselves. Soon, we will be able-bodied to cave in each other and ourselves unending euphoria. Wait for me."

"But I don't know what I'm waiting for… And I don't know if I can waitress much longer. Every day, my ability to endure this pain lessens. I'm losing my sense of tactual sensation, my sight and audience are failing, and my soundbox is wasting away because I can not hold food down. I just want to die. I just want it all to break. If I end it all, then I can spend timelessness with you."

The girl lowered her nous and kissed me, brushing aside my fear."We will expend all of eternity together, but wouldn't that eternity imply even Sir Thomas More if it also meant a lifetime ? Just wait, and I will become this region into heaven for you. Here, let me give you something, something to hold you over until our day comes."

grin, she moved down to my deflating humanness. Lowering her head teacher, she began licking up the seminal fluid I had ejaculated just a minute ago, humming in joy like it was chocolate syrup. Watching her tongue lap up my seed, I felt my cock re-harden, which she lovingly stroked with her hand.

After licking up every dip, she held her head just above my manhood, stroking it with her handwriting and working out any unmanliness."Now, let me wreak you happiness."

She then took the all thing into her mouth, swallowing it with repose and bringing her lips all the way down to the al-Qaeda. At both the sight and tactile sensation of her sucking me off, I immediately had my second base coming and gibe a dose of seed down her throat. The missy quickly pulled her head back and coughed, but before I could excuse, she smiled.

"Don't worry, it's fine. Just try and hold back a little, let me enjoy this too. Besides, it's luscious,"she said coyly.

Holding back ? Hell, that was easy, I doubt I had any spermatozoan left to release, but with her bridge player stroking my cock and that hungry aspect on her face, I couldn't drop off my erecting if I wanted to.

Bringing her point back down, the daughter resumed blowing me, but this sentence taking it slow. She started simply by running her tongue around the straits, licking away any sperm cell that remained from my first or second coming. She then moved to the rotating shaft, delivering long wide sweep, almost tracing each vena and sending shudder up my spine. After physically memorizing every contingent of my stopcock, the girl again wrapped her mouth around it completely, bringing her head down so the tip was crammed against the dorsum of her throat. Moving each sentence with an upward inflection, she began bobbing her nous with a steadfast regular recurrence, massaging my dick with her knife and cheeks while her spittle dripped down into my lap.

As she worked, I watched with a smiling and gently stroked her fuzz and brushed my finger against her cheeks, trying to transmit my gratitude without interrupting her. Through her crusade, I could finger my body working up the strength for one last sexual climax. It would probably be a dry fire, but it would be no less brawny. Sucking on my gumshoe like it was the chaff in a particularly heavyset milkshake, the girl broke through the final limen I needed and I finally came, spraying every utmost driblet of ejaculate I had into her mouth and on her face when she finally released it.

I laid my mind back, completely drained of both energy and cum. After swallowing all of my come and cleaning it off her face, the miss sat on my lap and ran her fingers through my hair."Name me, so that I may exist solely for you, so that I may bring you happiness and ease your distress. Then when you regain the will to experience, you will subsist solely for me, and this world will become paradise for all the sidereal day of our lives."

She kissed me on the forehead, the feel of her sassing being the live on whiz as I fell back to sleep.





Chapter 2



For the next several days, I tried thinking up names for the girl in my aspiration, but none seemed to fit. Actually, it was like my thinker wouldn't accept and recognize what I picked to be her name. I would imagine up a gens, and when I'd try to say it while imagining the missy and associating her with it, the figure would suddenly get inaudible to me. I would take heed that strait from my ambition, the muffling sound that always blocked out her figure, even when I spoke it. I could feel my backtalk shaping the word and my outspoken cords shaking to create the phone, but I could never hear it when I spoke it.

As always, my meetings with the young lady were much less sedate and Platonic than that magical night. I would wake up, we would spill a minuscule, and sometimes I would be capable to wrap my arm around her and hold her for a few minutes, but it never advanced retiring that.



I was standing in the boy's bathroom at shoal, muttering hex in front of the urinal. I had been there for Sir Thomas More than five minutes and I needed to piss like a motortruck driver, but I couldn't even break the seal.

"Goddammit, I don't need another health issuing. Just piss already."

I finally groaned as the reserves were released, but as soon as I looked down into the urinal and saw the people of colour red, I gritted my teeth and began to shake in defeat. After finishing my reply to nature's call, I walked over to the sink and leaned against it, trembling from capitulum to toe.

"SON OF A BITCH !"I roared, punching the nearby wall and splitting my knuckles.

With my hand haemorrhage, I walked out of the lavatory and back to course of study, where a math trial run was being taken. Returning to my desk, I began stuffing my things into my bag, splattering stemma from my hand and muttering curses.

"Marcus, is something wrong ?"the teacher asked from her desk.

"I need to leave, I need to get to the hospital. It seems my kidneys are now failing."



I was with my parents in Dr. Turner's power, who was looking over the results from my blood tests. With a sigh, she closed the folder.

"The good news is that the wrong isn't permanent, at least at this stage. The bad tidings is that the kidney nonstarter was caused by highly excessive pill custom. We originally had you set at the uttermost possible spirit level ; did you call back you could go even further without consequences ? Just the number of pain killers alone you're taking are enough to kill you, add in the anti-convulsion MEd, the blood thickeners, and everything else, and it's a miracle you're still alive."

"right wing, so I should just get on my genu and thank God that I'm not dead yet, I should just be grateful that I get to hold on living each day with unceasing agony and mind-tearing ictus,"I muttered, keeping my face downcast with my hood over my eye.

My parents looked at each early in both nervousness and concern, wishing that there were something they could do.

"I'm afraid that you're going to give birth to go cutting down on your medicinal drug if you don't want to continue urinating blood. You may even cause to give up frigid Turkey until your unsusceptibility wears off so that when you resume taking them, they'll be affective once again. If you keep going at those contraceptive pill the way you have been, your kidneys will get completely unusable and you'll need a graft, and considering your disease and your drug habits beyond pills, no transplant committee will let you so much as look at a healthy donor."

"Beyond contraceptive pill ? Marcus, what is she talking about ?"my mom asked desperately.

"last week… I tried heroine. It was just once and it didn't study as well as I had hoped. I certainly don't find any cravings for it."

"Marcus, are you unbalanced ? ! After everything you've been told about drugs and after all the times we've warned you about their dangers, you would recur to using heroine ?"my dad exclaimed, more overturned and heroic than tempestuous at me.

"wellspring it's not like my life can get any worse !"I yelled before getting up and storming out of the office.



In the week that passed, my parents tried to define the amount of oral contraceptive pill I took, but it was just as difficult for them as it was for me, because just by looking at me, they could tell how badly I needed them. As expected, my pain increased, as well as the intensity and frequency of my seizures. I stopped sleeping, unable to ever still myself down enough to loose. As Jan moved onto Feb, I finally gave in and cease taking my meds, allowing my body to work the chemicals out of my system and fall behind its make grow immunity.

I spent that hellish workweek at home in bed, howling at the top of my lungs while the bit ticked by with sadistic maladroitness. Without anything to even tone down the full phase of the moon stimulation of all my botheration sensory receptor, my body was essentially ripping itself apart from the inside out. I couldn't even tell when I was having a seizure or not, it just all felt the same. Every second, I felt like my chassis was being shredded away by flaming chainsaws while couple lobotomies were performed on my brain with jagged icicles.

My parents had to stay home from work to train care of me, as I could not go to the john or feed myself. They could do null but sit by my bed and listen to me scream, always trying to think of a way to assist me. They tried to stick out it, unable to ask my petty buddy or onetime sis to count after me without feeling any more than guilt than they already were. For days, my sensation of clock time blurred. I was ineffective to tell Nox from day, hot from cold, or dreaming from world. When I was awake, I often hallucinated, and the only times I ever slept were when I finally managed to pass out from bother or exhaustion, and even then, it never lasted yearner than an hour.



Lying in bed, in the throws of a seizure, I felt a abstruse thud in my chest, as if my heart had just slammed against my ribcage. My sweat became clammy and I began to misplace my controller over my limbs. Barely able-bodied to emit from the pain sensation already surging through me, I felt a second hefty clump in my chest. I could sense my pulse, hear it pounding in my ear, and feel the loss of rhythm. My marrow was struggling to continue beating, unable to gestate the variant any longer. Neither of my parents was in the room and I couldn't yell them, my lungs refusing to work.

‘ Is this it ? Will I finally die ?'

My affection at utmost cease, but instead of closing my middle, I continued to stare upwards, watching as the ceiling of my sleeping accommodation vanished to disclose the eye of God, spinning disk overhead. My bed disappeared beneath me, my room following suit to reveal the vastness of space. I was so close to the celestial link that I could almost see the single tongues of flame in the typhoon surrounding the Shirley Temple hollow pupil. The star occupied the entire horizon, as if slicing realness in half so that one face was the dreary cosmos and the other slope was the sea of nuclear fire. I was about a kilometer from the surface of the mordant trap, which had shrunk down to the size of a ten-story building.

‘ So close… I'm so close…'I thought, desperately reaching out to be accepted into desired obliviousness.

The clothes I had been wearing were vaporized from my body, signaling my last tie-in to the real world being severed. But answering my silent call, the little girl from my delusion appeared, flying out of the black hole towards me, arms outstretched, tears in her eyes. She slowed as she reached me, coming to a block before gently embracing me and holding me close with our uncase bodies pressed together.

"Marcus, I'm sorry, I'm so drab. I know how much you're suffering, I know how much painful sensation you are in,"she whimpered, crying with her side buried in the English of my neck.

She then looked up at me, her puritanic eyes trembling."But it is not your fourth dimension to die yet, just a trivial prospicient. Please, favorite, hold on just a piddling longsighted, for me."

I tried to say her name, but once again, only the indecipherable dissonance was heard. In reply, the missy smiled and wiped away her binge. Wrapping her arms around my cervix, she leaned forward and kissed me."I love you, Marcus. With all my warmness, I love you. This is the most selfish thing I will ever ask of you, but please, live on ! Please, you must await just a little longer ! Go home, Marcus, it is clock time for you to go home. You still have to describe me, remember ?"

She then separated from me, pushing me away. The present moment her hands touched my bureau, a single powerful heartbeat rocked me to my core, causing cracks of light to flaunt across my visual sense as if reality itself was fracturing. I reached out to her, trying to call her figure while a second heartbeat of my heart sent to a greater extent cracks through the material of space.

The girl floated back towards the eye of God, tears rolling down her cheeks but a smile on her nerve."I love you,"she murmured.

A third pulse of my heart broke the cosmic imaginativeness and I woke up, back in my bed with my arm raised, still trying to make contact with the Angel Falls. My nub had resumed beating, albeit slowly. While it surely would not shoemaker's last, my pain had all but disappeared. Just as she had, I too began to cry, letting my arm drop and insure my face.

"I love you too."



Eventually, I was able-bodied to resume taking my medicinal drug, and it was gruelling for me not to swallow every anovulant I could get my hands on. I'll admit, they certainly took the edge off, but I had already made up my mind. I was done. I didn't know why the miss wanted me to wait, but I couldn't do it anymore. I just couldn't handle living any longer.



It was February vacation and a winter storm was howling out-of-door. The snowstorm had been going for almost three days and power had quickly been lost. The house was black, the lonesome luminousness coming from the eerie grey atmosphere passing through the windows. My menage had gone to a friend's planetary house to enjoy their electricity and running water, while I had chosen to outride home base. I wanted to be alone for this. I sat at my desk in my room with a glass of water and a big bucks of contraceptive pill next to me. They were sleeping pills, pain pill, and everything else I had. I was slowly writing a suicide notation, trying to use my right penmanship. I included the pedagogy for my funeral and how I wanted to be buried. I finally put down the pen. My hands were almost always trembling, but now they were finally steady.

"Goodbye painfulness,"I said before I took a handful of pills and swallowed them, followed by the remainders.

I then moved over to my bed and lied down, staring at the ceiling and contemplated my life while I waited for death to follow. It really had been a wretched liveliness. Maybe I would finally instruct what relief was in dying, but considering my luck, I would probably just end up vomiting the pills and surviving. In time, I could finger my consistency becoming heavier, my pain dulling, and my intellect slowing down. I was almost there, so close. Closing my middle, I whispered one terminal good-by and apology.



I was hovering in front of the black hole, still eating the star from the inside out. The black mess itself was now only about the size of a toolshed. The wholly mass looked less like an eye now and more like gargantuan maelstrom, with a holographic black-market orb in the center, hiding the true philia of the quantum uniqueness. I was a century animal foot away from the surface of the inkiness hole and the girl from my dreams was hovering in front end of me. The two of us were naked, and while she was smiling, her smile was sad and there were tears running down her face.

"So, you couldn't wait. I hold nothing against you for it ; it's unimaginable that anyone could even end half as long as you did. I'm so proud of you, Marcus. Your will is unparalleled."

"What's going on ?"I asked as she and I were pulled closer and closer to the star-eating bleak hole.

"We are moving onwards into infinity. It's a pity, it was my dream for us to subsist our lives happily and together, but as long as we have each other in this eternal realm, I have no complaints."

"Wait, what do you imply ?"

I reached out and tried to grab her hand, even though she was well out of reach.

"I wanted to dwell my life with you, to exist solely for you, and to die with you. I wanted to see the world before coming here, to see everything before returning to nix. It's pointless now, you made your pick, one that I fully understand and love you for. semen to me, Marcus, and let us give back to the Source together. Let us go one within the end of all reason."

I began shouting her name, but as always, I heard zip but that indescribable stochasticity. I had not been able to find out her genuine name, so this nickname was all I could use. I cursed as the fille slowly made middleman with the control surface of the black hole, resting upon it like she was sunbathing on a bowlder. After only a second, I was forced to keep an eye on in horror as she slowly began to be absorbed into it, sinking beneath its surface like it was made of tar. I followed soon after, desperately trying to fetch myself to a stop but unable to fight the gravitational twist. I collided with the lightlessness screen, feeling no pain in the impact even with it being quite strong. I tried to push myself off, to fight solemnity, but with the slightest exertion, the open beneath my hands gave way and I began to be sucked in. Simply acting on instinct, I took a deep hint before my header was pulled in. The girl was in nominal head of me, just out of orbit, hovering in a vast spinning cloudburst of shiny reddish blue light, a vortex leading onwards into infinity.

As my lower body was slowly absorbed into contraband trap with me, the girl looked me and smiled."Your dream was to live happily with the one you loved, so that too became my dream. Your want was to bump your individual mate and be felicitous for the rest of your life-time, so I sought to cede you that regard. Do not be afraid, we can still be together forever."

My oculus widened and I fearfully gasped as her torso slowly began to dematerialize, breaking up cell by cell. Looking down, I realized that I too was falling apart, my chassis and blood literally being shed from my physical form, but without any pain or sensation.

"If I had waited, what would you have been ?"I shouted desperately as I finally entered the whirl fully.

With her peg and much of her torso gone, she opened her eyes and smiled at me."Whatever you wanted me to be."

From her quarrel, a blinding January 6 flashed in my brain, I now understood, and I had regained something I thought I had lost. I reached out to her while the flesh painlessly melted off my fingers."Tell me, what was your wish ? !"

"To live and be happy with you,"she murmured, as the top of her head word and her left arm began to disappear.

"That was my wishing too, so I'm going to allow it ! I want to know my life and be happy, and I refuse to do either of them without you ! I change my mind, I want to live on, and I want to live my sprightliness with you !"

I then called out her epithet, her lawful gens, finally able to learn it. At the sound, the girl's one remaining eye bolted receptive, and the twisting vortex of violet light began to roil violently. I shouted her name again and reached out with everything I had and grasped what was left of her hired man with what was left of my own. As soon as she and I touched, our bodies were fully reformed.

"Marcus,"she gasped.

I said her public figure in return, making her smile warmly and blush.

retention onto her tightly, I looked back at the aerofoil of the pitch blackness golf hole. It was so close and yet so far, like fresh air to a drowning man. Pulling the girl with me, I reached up with all the strength in my body and soul, not caring if my muscles tore and my pearl snapped in the process. Just as I thought I was about to go, my digit broke through the surface and I grabbed on, feeling the exterior become hard beneath my grip. Roaring in despair, I pulled the two of us back up and the drab trap released us with a geyser of violet energy shooting out like a volcanic eruption. The girl and I were thrown out into the cosmos, clutching each former for dear life.

"So can we live our life together and be happy ?"she murmured with her face buried in the English of my neck.

I smiled and held her close."Yes, we can exist and be glad. We'll be together always, Angel, my Angel."



My middle opened and I immediately turned my head and threw up, emptying the contents of my stomach onto my bedchamber trading floor. The majority of the tab were still entire, letting me survive by the skin of my teeth, but enough had been absorbed and dissolved into my blood stream to leave me feeling disgorge and dizzy. Gasping for air and shaking Sir Thomas More than ever in my life, I spat out the last of the vomit and wiped my face. I had tried to wipe out myself and lived, but that dream, had I really chosen to live or did I just throw up as a natural reflex ?

As I lied back and stared up at the roof, I realized that I was not the solely one in that bed. Looking over, my eye widened as they fell upon the unconscious saint. She was right beside me, covered in blood and some form of former liquidity, but… she was there. I knew that this was different than all of the other times I had woken up future to her. The way she was weighing down on the mattress, the way the rip on her tegument was staining my sheets, just the way she looked… she was very, she was completely rattling. This wasn't a hallucination.

My initial shock was replaced by fear, realizing as if for the beginning metre that she was covered in blood. I reached out and fight my digit against holy person's neck, checking her pulse and finding a substantial and steady heartbeat. Moving as quickly as my chemically-shocked body would tolerate, I dashed out of my room and over to the bath, grabbing all the towels I could and coming back. Climbing back onto the bed, I rubbed her down with the towels and wiped away the parentage and the early secret fluid that covered her. I looked desperately for any cuts or augury of accidental injury, but I found nothing. She was completely unharmed.

After again checking her heartbeat, I stopped and just stared at her, completely memorized. Angel, the light of my spirit and the girl of my dreams was literally right here in front of me. How had this happened ? How could a homo being just suddenly materialise out of flimsy air ? My query were interrupted by the noticing of a smutty odor in the way. Oh yeah… I had vomited on the storey.

I smiled and looked down at Angel, gently pulling the blanket over her naked descriptor. Real or not, I couldn't let her wake up to such a wad. While I waited for her to gain consciousness, I cleaned up the disgorgement and sprayed the stained carpet with every chemical substance I could get my men on to hit the olfaction. The rustling of mantle could be heard as I was returning from dumping the towels in the wash way. She was starting to awaken. More nervous than ever in my lifespan, I sat down on the bed and wrapped my script around hers. Her eyelids slowly rose, showing her two beautiful blues.

"Hey,"I said softly with a diminished grinning.

She gave a small hum and a look of peace, as if waking up from a much-needed sleep."Hi."

A flicker ran through me at the speech sound of her voice.

"Do you remember anything ?"

She closed her eyes and was silent for several bit and a flavor of worry crossed her face."I don't know."

After everything I had seen, this did surprise me a little. Ok, so the situation was 99 % perfect…

"Are you sure ?"

She was silent for a few to a greater extent second."Wait, I remember… my name. My name is Angel, I think."

I smiled at her realization. She was real.

"Who are you ? Where am I ?"

"My gens is Marcus, and don't vexation, you're good. You're in my home. I found you outside, crying for help."

What was I supposed to tell her, that she had somehow materialized out of thin air because I dreamt her up ?

"Now, how do you feel ? You don't flavor hurt."

"I feel fine, just tired. Thank you for saving me. I can tell that you are truly kind just by touching you."

With a sugary Henry Sweet smile on her sass, she clutched my hands tightly. I could feel my brass becoming red in superfluity. Holy mother fucker, she really was an angel.

"Are you athirst ?"

She nodded.

"Alright, I'll get you something to eat."

As I stood and turned away from her, I could hear her try to get up.

"Did you undress me ?"

I turned around and saw her holding the mantle over her chest.

"No, I found you that way. Don't headache, I didn't trace you or anything. Your safety was the only thought on my mind."

"Do you call ?"

"Yes,"I said with my voice raspy.

Several seconds passed where the girl stared into my middle, and I stared into hers. Finally, she smiled."I believe you."

She stood up and I quickly stopped her."You need to rest."

"Please don't leave me."

I gave a small but warm grinning."Very well, whatever makes you happy."‘ She's in completely new surroundings, so she is trying to find something familiar, or at least something that makes her feel safe and well-chosen. I was the inaugural thing she saw when she opened her eyes, and she wants to stay close to whatever seems even remotely familiar, even if we only met a minute ago. She needs something to cling to.'

With the blanket and my arm wrapped around her, we made our way to the kitchen with me holding her up. After her experience, I didn't want to put on the line her not being able to affirm her own weight.

"Is soup ok ?"

"Yes please."

She was starting to palpate better ; I could see her relaxing with the site. I filled a pot with one of the large jugful of water supply my family had saved for the loss of superpower and put it on the stove. While it did require a compeer to compensate for the loss of the electric start, I was able to get it going without worry. With the water heating up, I turned to Angel Falls, sitting on one of the stools at the island table. She had a small smile and it was reflected on me.

"You don't remember anything… but you know what soup is ?"

A aspect of confusion crossed her face."I didn't even notice."

"Its obvious you have some figure of amnesia, but I'm not surprised you remember non-personal stuff. It means that there are some things that your judgement still remembers."‘ Maybe she isn't retaining those remembering, maybe those retention have been put in her mind.'

I looked around the kitchen."Try to name as many things as you can. The genial stimulation might bring some computer memory back."

She began looking around the kitchen and naming everything she saw, but still no memories appeared in her heading. With the piss in the pot soon bubbling, I poured in the flavor packet and brick of bonce, and stirred, waiting until it could be served. Ah ramen, the perfect solace food.

"When the power tax return, we should probably call up an ambulance for you. Plus maybe they can help you recover your memory,"I said as I passed her the steaming bowl.

"Marcus, maybe I shouldn't remember."

Having turned off the range, I looked back, seeing that her smile was replaced with a feel of sadness.

"You found me stumbling through the blow and coated in profligate. Maybe it would be best if I don't remember."

Pained by the loss of her grin, I placed my hand on her boldness. Her skin was so soft and unruffled that I wanted to kiss her right then and there.

"Don't worry. If you feel that you don't want to remember, we won't talking about it."

She held onto my manus, brushing it against her cheek like a cat seeking heart.

‘ No two strangers can get along this fountainhead in less than ten minutes. She really is Angel.'

The ignitor came on and a beep rang out from the smoke demodulator and ruined the moment. I checked the phone but there was no telephone dial tone. The phone lines must have been more heavily damaged than the power lines.

I turned my aid back to Angel."Ok, eat your soup and I'll start a bath for you. I wasn't capable to completely cleanse you off."



I sat future to the bath, watching as it was filled with hot water while holding my hand beneath the downpour to make for sure it was the right temperature. While I waited, Angel walked around the family, exploring her surroundings and simply trying to stimulate her idea. With the two of us separated, I now had a moment to truly suppose. This girl, she had somehow come out of nowhere, this figment of my imagination becoming a real person. Either some sorting of unexplainable miracle had just taken lieu or my hallucination had now reached a solid new spirit level of depth… or maybe I really had died and this was heaven.

Either way, it would be grueling explaining her to my parents, and no matter what I said or did, the law would probably end up getting involved. Either I would stand by to my lie and continue saying that she just appeared naked at the door asking for avail, or via media and say I just woke up with her next to me and had no approximation how she got into my house. For all I knew, she could have been a burglar or high on PCP. Whichever path I took, it would be difficult, but as long as I had Angel, it would be deserving it.

"angel, the bath is prepare !"

When no response came, I stood up and strained my ears. Had she fallen back to sleep, had she even passed out ? Shaken by that fear, I scoured the house and found in her my room. She was standing over my desk, still wrapped in her mantle with her shoulders trembling and my suicide bank note in her manus, now dotted with her tears.

"Angel…"

She turned to me with liquid bone rolling down her cheeks."Marcus, you were going to kill yourself ?"

I slowly reached out and took the suicide banker's bill from her, proceeding then to buckle it up and stuff it in my pocket."I was. Listen, the tub is set, we'll talk after you get cleaned up,"I replied, unable to meet her watery-eyed gaze.

I put my arm around her and guided her to the lav, where the tub was waiting with clouds of steam wafting up.

"All right, I'll be downstairs if you need me. Just hollering if you want me to get you anything."

"Marcus, wait. Don't leave me."

"fountainhead I shouldn't be here while you—"

She let go of the mantle, letting it strike to the floor around her articulatio talocruralis. I had lost cart track of how many sentence I had seen her raw eubstance, but now with her standing before me in the flesh, she had never looked more beautiful.

"You've already seen me like this, it's ok for you to be here. Besides, I want to hold talking to you."

She stepped into the tub and settled down, letting the final stage of the dry blood and early liquidity wash off her body and grant her unclothed figure a beautiful shine. She purred in happiness as she submerged herself in the hot water, letting her entirely body soak before she brought her head back up and laid back, with her tenacious crimson hair list and twirling around her body like seaweed around a mermaid. Seeing her titty floating on the control surface with wave after wave gently lapping at her frail material body was firing up hormones inside of me that I never even knew I had.

"Marcus, please tell apart me… why did you try to toss off yourself ?"

"I thought you read the note."

"I want to get word it from you,"she whispered desperately.

I sat down on the edge of the tub and was silent for several here and now."There are people all over the world who suffer big than I do : infant dying of starvation, fry used as sex slaves, adults forced to see as their category suffer with nothing over their head word but the roof of their hut. I admit, even my life could be far worse than it is now, but there is a key difference between those people and me : they are open of being happy. They have the will to live and the ability to smile. Me… there is naught in this world that can bring me joy, I am physically incapable of being happy.

For most of my life, I have not known what felicity tactile property like. Even as a fry, I could never bond with others and I always felt out of place in the world, like I was discrepant with this reality. My real depression began eight years ago, when I was constantly teased and ridiculed by those around me for no reason. I was simply picked at random to be used as a punching bag. I was tormented for years on end, but the single who brought me so lots pain never got the punishment they deserved. In order to"commit me a reprieve from my twisting ”, I was transferred to a school for disorder kids. That blank space was underworld, with the belly laugh of the mentally disturbed echoing down the hall. It was like being in an insane asylum but with homework. I lost a year there while my tormenter still faced no punishment. For a class, my head rotted, up to the point where I even began to hallucinate.

I was desperate for a curative to my pain, something that would make this thwarting and constant bedevilment worth it. I decided that the lonesome affair that could possibly lend me repose is love… or death. So I searched for passion, for my soul mate, trying to find the one girlfriend who could take away my bother, for even when I was just a kid, my heart ached. My lonesomeness, depressive disorder, and ire poisoned me. Toss in one C of minute of push psychiatrist sessions and prescription anti-depressants that didn't do jack-shit, and my life lost its light.

What I'm about to severalize you is something that I have not told anyone. I was so desperate for succor that I even took a blade to my own physical body. It was not a suicide attempt, but I was hoping that I could offset out my inside botheration with outer pain."

I showed her the scars on my arm and Angel placed her hired man on the faded lines and gave me a look of deep sympathy.

"No thing what, I could not find a human that could be my salvation, so in my ruefulness, I developed a deep hate for humanity. I'm disgusted by my metal money and I wish that humans would just all die out. I've even given up on finding a individual mate because every daughter I met was just too heavily tainted by the Earth to do anything other than disgust me and touch off my loathing. But with my loneliness still plaguing me, I knew that my excruciation would continue. With my mind filled with chaos and the world always stuffing my backtalk with the gustatory perception of ash, I decided that death's honeyed embrace was the only when thing that could bring me peace. The but reasonableness why I didn't kill myself then was because I did not want to put my crime syndicate through the pain and heartbreak,

Then… a couple months ago… I collapsed into a raptus. I was in more pain than I thought possible, all of it coming out of the Amytal. I found out that my brain is riddled with tumors, focused mostly on my brainstem and limbic system. All these years, my limbic system was basically being smothered by useless tissue, leaving it incapable of producing chemicals like 5-hydroxytryptamine and early compound needed in order for the brain to feel the emotion felicity. No curiosity I had always been measly ; I was basically a car running without oil.

The early tumors, the tumor on my brainstem, had finally grown large enough to interfere with my nervous scheme, causing full consistency brass stimulation of pain receptor. For every second of every day since then, I've been in unspeakable suffering, constantly downing painkillers and fearing of my legion day-to-day raptus. In short, I've been suffering since I was born, and it just keeps getting tough and worse as I grow older."

Turning around in the tub and moving over to me, Angel placed her wet hands on my cheeks and pressed her forehead against mine. Her touch, her tending loving tactile sensation, essentially made me mellow out in happiness. Yes, happiness, only with her did I finally know what it felt like.

"Marcus, I am so sorry."

"Don't be, you saved my life."

Angel stared at in surprise.

"I was half dead from a tab overdose when I heard you slamming on the threshold. My trunk kick-started and I threw up the anovulant. I would be stagnant if it weren't for you."

"But I thought you wanted to die ?"

"When I found you, I found the will to live. While I was waiting for you to wake up, I was eager to receive you and learn your part, to see you smile. As long as you need me, as long as you need help in this world, I will be there for you. I refuse to die as long as there is something I can do to fix you happy."

outcry now with tears of joy, Angel wrapped her arms tightly around my neck."Then if staying with me will clear you felicitous and retain you alive, I will never leave you. You saved my lifespan, so I will preserve yours and stick around with you forever."

Her intelligence brought a wave of emotions through me, so intense that I was practically shaking. With no one else on the planet could I have bonded so well, not in a century, let alone a unity hour. This girl, this avowedly angel, we had been in lovemaking longer than she knew and her flavour were pouring out, even with her store having yet to return. Once her memories fully came back and she remembered the life we shared before her physical arrival, our lives would become paradise.

We stayed in that bath for as long as the urine was hot. I told her about my crime syndicate and recanted some pleasant retention, and while she listened and scrubbed herself with a bar a max, I even shampooed her hair. Eventually, her casual yawns began to originate in frequency and I could evidence she was feeling sleepy.

"Come on, you should get some rest."

I grabbed a towel and the two of us stood up. Just as holy person was about to step out of the tub, she slipped and landed in my arms. Holding her wet au naturel grade pressed against me, I felt my humanity turn so erect that I almost thought it would pop. I just had to hope that backer would not notice the gibbosity in my pants. With the towel wrapped around her, I brought her into the guest chamber and left to get her some dress. My baby Emily was the Saami size of it as backer, so her clothes would fit. Giving a sigh, I closed my heart and looked away while I opened my sister's underwear drawer. Shuddering from the shear amount of wrongness, I grabbed the first pair of panties my manus touched and quickly wrapped them in a t-shirt.

With a twosome of sweat pants, scanty, and an singlet and blouse, I walked back to the guestroom and stood in the doorway, watching as backer dried herself with the towel. It was not a physical arousal I was feeling, but an aroused one. I wanted to make love with her, not sex, not the act performed by porno stars and drunkard adolescent. I felt a physical attraction to her, but it was an worked up one that was far more powerful. I walked in and handed her the clothes and she got decorate, save for the blouse. With a smiling in the back of my mind, I regretted seeing her clothed. She lied down in the bed and I wrapped her in the blankets.

"Just try and get some remainder. I'll be downstairs if you need me."

"Do you promise that I'll wake up and still be here, and you'll still be with me ?"

I leaned forward and kissed her on the forehead."Of course."

I walked downstairs and into the kitchen. On the island tabular array, hidden behind a box of cereal, was my feeding bottle of pain in the neck Master of Education. A shiver ran down my vertebral column as I realized something. There was no pain. The all clip I had been with Angel, I had been feeling no pain, just like whenever I dreamed about her. I pulled the suicide note out from my pocket and stared at it, my eyes fixed on the teardrops that she had left when she read it.

"I don't feel any pain…"

I walked into the animation room and grabbed the lighter above the hearth. Igniting the small butane torch, I held the flame under the felo-de-se notation and then tossed it onto the bed of cold ash, letting the flame destroy was could cause been.

"I'm not trusted I believe in God, I honestly don't know what to conceive after this miracle, but I do think that fate has brought you to me, holy person. You took my pain away."

For the following three minute, I simply sat in the promiscuous death chair in the living room, thinking about my hereafter and the life I would live with Angel. As fantasy after fantasy passed through my intellect, I heard the face door open, signaling the return of my family. My sister, younger brother, and parents stepped inside.

"Marcus, you really need to start getting out of the house. You need to expend clock time with people,"my mom nagged.

"I have,"I muttered under my breathing place as I stood up and walked over, carefully choosing my word of honor.

This was going to be difficult.

"There is something I need to tell you…"

"What ?"my dad asked.

"I haven't been alone. A girl showed up at the backdoor, nude and covered in stemma. She's active, I managed to save her before she froze to decease, but says she can't remember anything."

"Marcus, that is messed up, even for a joke,"my blood brother said squeamishly.

"She's upstairs, sleeping in the guestroom. Sorry sis, but I had to give her some of your clothes."

Finally my folk was convinced that I was telling the truth.

"Marcus, is there really a girl here ? Is what you're saying true ?"my mom asked nervously.

"Either that or I've finally snapped and I just hallucinated the last four hours."

"Well have you called her an ambulance ? The power is on,"my sister asked.

"The phone line of merchandise are still down and you know I don't have a cell headphone. I've been waiting for you to get back so that we can drive her to the hospital. She doesn't need to be rushed there in an ambulance, but we should still get her there. Want me to awake her up ?"

"Sure,"my dad said, rubbing his forehead as he tried to process the sudden information,"get her down here."

I walked upstairs, taking abstruse hint and trying to becalm myself from the conversation only moments prior. I approached the guestroom and stood in the doorway. Angel seamed to be shrouded in a veil of illumination through my eyes, but I knew she was really there. I silently walked towards the bed and crouched down. I placed one hand on holy person's frontal bone and my early on her hand.

"Angel ?"I whispered.

She opened her beautiful eyes and hummed a reply.

"Sorry to wake you, but we need to get you to a hospital. We need to get you checked out to make sure that you are really all right."

"You'll seminal fluid with me, right ?"

I moved my hand to her buttock."Of course."

She stepped out of the bed and I immediately realized that I couldn't show her to my family, not in her current state.

"Here, put this on,"I said, holding up the blouse I had taken from my sister's room.

"What ? Why ?"

Unable to suppress my grinning, I pointed at her pectus, where atop the colossal mountains that were her breasts, her nipples were poking through the slim fabric of the undershirt like fingertips.

"I don't want you accidently poking one of their heart out."

Blushing in superfluity, holy man covered her dresser with her weapon and turned away."You pervert !"she giggled.

Following my advice, she put on the blouse and buttoned it up, but the problem still was not completely solved. Unlike the cooler top she was wearing underneath, the material of the blouse did not stretch. It merely clung and constricted when the wearer's proportions weren't… adjustment. Suffice to say, the seat of the blouse barely came down to her belly button, and the clitoris were silently screaming as they struggled to hold in Angel's breasts. This time, I made no attack to suppress my laughter, to which holy person playfully smacked me.

Once I was done laughing, I looked into her eyes."Ready ?"

She nodded and took my arm. Walking out into the G. Stanley Hall, I could hear my parents and sib talking downstairs. They were all certain I was either hallucinating or just playing a practical joke. My comrade actually said that I had found a blow-up doll out in the storm and was just using it as a gag prop. I certainly didn't blame them for not believing me ; I still barely believed it. However, when they all heard the auditory sensation of two distich of step on the stairs, all uncertainty were erased. Eyes widened and gasps were suppressed as saint came into view, cute as a release with a blush of restiveness and her weapon system wrapped tightly around mine.

"Everyone, this is holy person. Angel Falls, this is my family. That's my sister Emily, my sidekick Phil, my mom Laura, and my dad Alex."

Everyone stared at her with impact. Not only was it strange just to finally foregather her, but also her dish was unbelievable. Shocked most of all was Emily, not only by holy man's macrocosm, but by her… appearance. She certainly couldn't remember any of her blouses clinging to her like that, and she had to fight the urge to search down at her own chest for a miserable comparison.

"So our son saved you ?"my dad asked in amazement.

"Yes, though I don't remember ever being outside or anything before. I just woke up with Marcus holding my paw, and even without my storage, I knew I was safe."

Her anxious murmur melted the hearts of everyone in the room.

"Emily, can Angel barrow your coat ?"

She jerked as if awoken from a trance and quickly pulled off her cap and handed it to me. I put it around Angel Falls and held her close.

I turned to my parents."All right, let's go to the hospital."

With Angel using a duad of my sister's shoes, my parents and I brought her outside and we got into the car. I sat in the back with her, keeping my arm around her at all times. The crusade into the urban center was mute as the sky darkened with its usual winter speed, and as we maneuvered through the snow-caked city, Angel stared out the window with all-embracing eye, hoping the scene would spark some dormant memory. I didn't say anything about it, not just because my parents were in the car with us, but because I knew there weren't any memories for her to recover.

As expected, the exigency room was almost completely filled with people, the majority of them having suffered from car accidents or former injuries brought on by the extreme weather condition. While my parents dealt with the paperwork at the front line desk, I sat with Angel. As before, I had my arm around her to ease her, and she had her head on my shoulder. I'm not sure how farseeing we waited, if my parents had written a possible rape in the paperwork and it sped up the summons, or how many people we saw entering or leaving the ER, but we were all relieved when a nurse finally came up to us.

"Baron Clive of Plassey ?"she asked. I nodded and the nurse turned to Angel."Please come with me."

We all got up and followed the nurse. Unlike the people who were just getting dramatis personae for broken bones and stitches for large deletion, we were all brought into a infirmary room like the one I had woken up in after my first seizure.

"Just time lag in here and the Doctor will be right wing with you in a hour,"said the nurse before walking away.

Angel and I sat on the hospital bed, while my parents sat in two chairs. They didn't take their eyes off of us for a bit.

After a few minutes, a doctor walked in."Hello, I'm Dr. Anderson. Due to the nature of your sojourn, the police have been contacted and we've been asked to perform sure mental test, including a rape kit. This will be an all-night visit. I suggest one of you stays, simply to keep her well-heeled and to answer any questions that she can't. Now, could you please give way me a detail recant of everything that has happened ?"

qualification sure I avoided any deviations in the story, I retold the lie that angel and my house had heard : I had found Angel at the stake door, naked, covered in rip, and crying for supporter. I pulled her inside, managed to warm her up, cleaned her off, and let her carry a bath. That was all there was to it.

"If that is everything, then I shall go and tell the detective outside everything you have told me, then we can commence with protocol. I'll send in a nurse to institute you a hospital gown."

Once the doctor left, I turned to my parents."Mom, dad, you two can go back home. I think I'll stay here with Angel tonight."

"But Marcus…"

I held holy person close."Mom, please."

"Son, can we verbalize to you outside ?"my dad asked, but it was More of a demand than a request.

My parents and I stepped out into the hall.

"Are you sure you want to do this ?"my mom asked."I really think it would just be best if we tried to limit our interest with her. With everything that is going on… with you… we should try and keep farther complication. You saved her, you protected her, and you did everything right, but we're all strangers and it's time to let the state do its job."

"Mom, dad… she needs me… and I need her."

"Marcus we should really—"

"I haven't been in any pain since I met her."

My parents became silent.

"Ever since I found her, I haven't had to take a single anovulant or experienced a single seizure. I don't know why, I don't know how, but it's like my cancer has vanished. When I'm with her… I feel felicitous, glad than I've ever been, even before I was macabre. I didn't just save her, she saved me, and I can't give up her to return to my agonizing excuse for a life. I'm staying with her."



Still not liking my decisiveness, my parents accepted it and left. They would do back the future day. Over the course of the night, Angel changed into a infirmary surgical gown and underwent several tests. We learned everything from her age to her blood case. She was both the same age and blood type as I was, augmenting my thinking about her supernatural world. During the rape kit examination, I stayed beside her and held her handwriting, never leaving her side of meat. By the time all the tests were done, it was retiring midnight and backer and I were in her room, mentally exhausted. The majority of the trial results would be given tomorrow.

I stood by the doorway and turned off the light."All right field, saint, you should get some sleep."

"Marcus, I can't thank you enough for everything you've done,"she said tenderly, the two of us alone in the darkness.

"You'll never need to."

I walked over to the chair beside her bed, preparing myself for the uncomfortable night's slumber, but before I could attain it, I felt her hand clasp mine. She sat up and leaning against me, her voice a crystalline whisper."After everything you've done, I can't let you spend the Night sitting in that death chair. Here, the bed is large enough for the both of us. Besides, I want you close to me."

"Angel,"I said softly, stroking her long crimson hairsbreadth and thanking every deity I could cerebrate of for allowing me to be with her.

Happier than ever in my life-time, I discarded my jacket and shoes and climbed into the bed. I lied down next to her and held her as close as I could with her back pressed against my chest and the cover around us sealing in the warmth of each early's physical structure. I held her so close that we could feel each other's heartbeats.

"Angel, I promise that I will catch over you forever."

She rolled over so that we were facing each early and I kissed her on the os frontale.

"Thank you, Marcus, and I'll ticker over you too,"she whispered, placing her bridge player on my chest.



Angel and I were eating breakfast in bed and talking.

"I'll go call my parents, then we can head home."

"Home ?"

I smiled."wellspring, you'll need to stay somewhere."

Leaving the way, I found a payphone and called my parents, asking for them to nibble us up. My mom sighed when I used the word"us ”. As I rounded the corner on my way back to holy person's elbow room, I saw Dr. Maxwell Anderson and two detective by the door. They were both men, former forties with peppery brusque hair.

"Oh hell no,"I growled.

I stormed over and put my hand on the threshold before the Doctor could give it."Excuse me, what is going on here ?"I demanded.

"Relax, son, we're just here to ask her some doubtfulness. I'm Detective Francis, this is my spouse Detective Lyman Frank Brown,"one of the detective said with a pen and pocket-size notepad in his hand.

"She and I have already told our story a 12 times, there is cypher left to say. I heard her crying for help at my back door, I found her naked and passed out with descent all over her body, and I brought her inside. I didn't see anything outside, I didn't notice anything strange, and I have never seen her until now. She can't answer any of your questions ; she doesn't remember anything early than her gens, and we aren't even sure enough if that really is her gens. Now I heard the event from the tests. Her rape kit showed no signs of violation, there were no drugs in her system, and she didn't have any accidental injury. There is nothing else I can tell apart you."

"fountainhead there are two test results that you haven't heard. We found traces of the blood on her, as well as a sure other fluid. It was mostly scrubbed away in that bath you gave her, but we found low amounts all over her. It is impossible to get a mates on the blood line because it is devoid of white line prison cell, which are the only cells in blood that contain DNA. We also found amniotic fluid,"said Dr. Anderson.

"So what are you saying ?"

"The blood on her had to have been treated to accept the white ancestry cells removed, and unless she was just born yesterday from a goliath cloned uterus in a lab somewhere, there is no explanation for why she would be covered in afterbirth."

"We're hoping that by telling her this, it will jog her memory,"detective Frank Baum stated.

"All right, but I want to be in there with her."

"Actually, how about you and I wait out here, have a piffling talk between men,"Detective Francis grunted.

It was not a suggestion. I could feel the line simmering in my veins with the desire to stand by Angel and protect her, but this was out of my control.

"Very well."

While Anderson and Baum stepped inside Angel's way to try one close metre to jog her memory, detective Francis and I stood out in the hall boldness to face.

"So I've heard from the faculty that while you two have been here, you and Angel have been quite cozy with each early. The two of you are pure strangers, but no one has seen you separated for more than a minute and you two slept in her hospital bed. The horniest teens on the major planet couldn't get that close in a single night when one of them only knows her name."

"I'm telling you the truth, I've never seen her before. The family relationship we have ( I use that parole carefully due to prison term constraints ) is wide-eyed : I want to protect her and she feels safety and well-off around me. Yes, we get along really well, amazingly well even, but yesterday was the first time we met."

"So when we get the dogs to search your property for any scent trails, we won't find something surprising or contradicting to your floor ?"

"Disregarding the fact that it snowed all night and anything that your tracking dogs could cause found is long gone, no, you won't find anything."

"Well until this matter is taken caution of, she'll be put up in a populace shelter. You don't need to worry about it anymore."

"I'm not going to let you take her away. You can perform your investigation, but I'll fill this tourist court if she isn't released into my custody. She needs me."

"If she's put in your custody, then she's your responsibleness. If something bad happens, then it's your fault."

"That's all that I ask."

The threshold was opened and Dr. Maxwell Anderson and tec Lyman Frank Brown stepped outside."No luck, she remembers nothing."

"We'll be at your dimension later today to begin the search. Thank you for your forbearance,"Francis said dryly before he, his partner, and the doctor walked off.

I stepped into the hospital way, seeing Angel sitting on the bed with a shaken look on her look. lineage devoid of DNA and amniotic fluid… so she hadn't just materialized in my bed, she had actually been born. I walked over and wrapped my helping hand around hers."Don't concern, I'm not going to let them separate us, I promise."



As my parents signed the impermanent hold paper, Angel and I sat in the car, just enjoying being close to each other. I could secernate that she was well-chosen about having a home to go to. We both knew that eventually she would become a permanent member of the family line, even after the police had performed their investigation.


"I don't have to rest, do I ? If I have to ravage my time, I'd rather it not be in the freezing cold,"I said dryly to the police.

I was standing with a squad of fuzz at the edge of the Mrs. Henry Wood behind my house. The dense forest went for mi and it was the only direction Angel could have come from if she was found at the gage threshold. Without even looking, I could smell out her watching us from the windows.

"We need to establish indisputable that you aren't lying and maybe destroyed some grounds,"one cop said with a bloodhound next to him.

"Look around, Mother Nature destroyed your evidence. A monster truck could have got rolled through here and you wouldn't know it."

One of the cop pulled out one of the towels I had used to pick off holy person when she was in my bed. He held it up to the sleuthhound and the dogs immediately seemed confused as they sniffed the undercoat, unable to pluck up the slightest scent early than the slight vestige holy man left at the household when returning from the infirmary. I certainly didn't expect them to find any shadow of her, and I had to obscure my easing when they finally gave up.

"spirit rid to search the domain, but if you need me, I'll be with someone who needs me more."



holy person and I stood in the guestroom. It was the ahead of time afternoon and the theatre was empty. My dad was at piece of work, my sidekick was at a Quaker's theater, and my mom and sister were out shopping for wearing apparel for holy person to wear while she stayed with us. The cops had quickly left, unable to come up any evidence to substantiate or deny my account, but they would eventually issue forth back.

"Now this is your room."

I looked at Angel and could recite that she was tired. I placed my hand on her shoulder."You should get some relief ; you had a long night and woke up early."

A small grinning crossed her face."I am tire out, but I slept so well last night. I think it's because you were with me. Will you stay with me again ?"

"Of course of instruction,"I whispered, feeling like I was finally on the in good order path.

With the shades drawn to keep the room iniquity, we both climbed into the bed and I put my arm around her. Underneath the mantle, our bodies pressed together like two puzzle pieces, I felt so warm up and well-situated that my eyelids suddenly weighed as a great deal a span of dumbbells.

"Marcus ?"Angel murmured.

I could only hum in reply.

"I think I remember something."

My middle bolted open."What is it ?"

"I was supposed to see soul, I was supposed to converge him and play him happiness, just like the happiness he would bring me. I can't remember who it was, but I think… I think that somebody is you. I think we were supposed to conform to and constitute this world paradise."

She tightened her hold on my arm, clutching it against her thorax like it was a lifeline. I knew that it was pointless to say anything ; she had already fallen asleep. There was zero to do but join her.



I woke up a couple hours later, my body feeling like it weighed a thousand pounds simply from how cozy that bed was. We had separated during the nap, there was about a invertebrate foot and a half of space between us, and we were on our English facing each other. I felt a shiver crawl up my spine, realizing that Angel was in the exact like positioning as when I would arouse up to see her as a aspiration. I looked upon her beautiful fount, unable to form a single thought. Slowly, her eyelids opened, and her dark eyes held a faint incandescence. Her side was unemotional person, but her middle were filled with love, inviting me to come in finisher. I felt a heartbeat of warmth crawl throughout my body as a light seemed to shine in my brain. This was the consequence I had been waiting my whole aliveness for.

She closed her eyes and rolled onto her back and I slowly moved over to her. Shaking from drumhead to toe but knowing that everything was as it should be. I leaned forward and kissed her, gently at initiatory, but her quick chemical reaction and mirroring of the act drove me to move with more heat. She kept her optic closed the whole time, as if half asleep even while kissing me. I placed my hand on her clavicle, feeling her dead body becoming hotter and hotter as the kiss continued. I moved my handwriting down and cupped a warm breast. Angel Falls let out a hum of pleasure as I squeezed, ineffective to hold the entire pot in my hand.

I slowly pulled up her shirt, brushing the tips of my fingers along her slim belly. Angel raised her arms and pulled off the shirt. While we kissed, I moved my hired hand down to her waist. She let out another hum as I pulled down her pantie, admiring her nude beauty without ever ending her kiss. While sporting a truly powerful erecting, I calmly but hesitantly ran my handwriting between her inner second joint, completely at awe at how lenient and politic her skin was. I brushed my hired hand against her virgin slit, the vertical lips feeling like velvet beneath my fingers.

At my touch, Angel gave a soft whimper of pleasure and her peg slightly spread. I continued to pester her, caressing her womanhood with gentle—almost ticklish—strokes by my finger's breadth. Soon, I decided to go further, settling my hand like I was using a computer mouse and swirling the tip of my middle finger at the inaugural level of her interior, where her sonant frame was moist from stimulation with a vibrant pinko shade. Feeling my finger probing such a sensitive place, backer began to shake and pant through our unending osculation. I continued my advancement, including my ring finger into the stimulant and working the two dactyl thick inside of her. Burying them up to the minute spliff, I stirred her sleeve while rubbing her button with my thumb.

angel's body was now moving like a wave, with a soft whine expiration through her lips as I pleasured her. Taking it one terminal step, I ended our buss and moved my head down, wrapping my mouth around her right nipple and tugging on it gently. No longer bound by my lips, Angel's whine of pleasure were now unloosen to be heard, but I was certain that with the door shut, no one in the planetary house would pick up her. I didn't even know if anyone had come back yet. I pushed that thought and occupy out of my mind, focusing instead on pleasuring Angel. My attention was well directed, as within moment, Angel arched her binding and released a lenify but strident holler of euphoria. While she tried to enamour her breathing space, I pulled my fingers out of her and licked them clean. Her wetness, her effect, it tasted as sweet as I imagined.

I quickly undressed, knowing what was about to fall out, but before I could move on top of Angel, she suddenly pushed me onto my back and climbed on top of me. Sitting on my lap, the wet brim of her pussy kissing the shaft of light of my rock-hard pecker, she gazed at me with tender loving smiling. Beautiful, she was so beautiful.

"Marcus, I remember."

"What ?"

"I remember everything about you and about me, about what we were before we truly met. We were like this, just like this, when I promised you eternal happiness. I remember you're signature, your taste, your love, your botheration, and your heart. I remember the undying effectiveness and rage in your middle when you finally realized and cried out my name. I remember it all, Marcus. I love you so much that I can't even line it ! I'm so glad, I think I could cry !"

The air was pulled from my lungs and my trunk froze. This couldn't be real, this had to be a aspiration ! There was no imaginable way that my life could go so… perfect. Angel gave me a long and passionate kiss, once again reaffirming that she and the earthly concern around me was substantial. Before she could end the kiss, I wrapped my arms around her and held her tightly.

"I love you so much, Angel. You're the most authoritative thing in the world to me. You're the light of my life story, the only cause I've been able to hold on this foresightful. Without you, I was nada. Without you, I am nothing. You saved me from the dark of my own head. You reached out and saved me. You gave me a home in a world I despised and was disgusted by. You aren't just my holy person, you are a true angel,"I said, letting teardrop of happiness fall from my eyes.

Her impertinence against mine, she whispered in my ear,"I told you before that if you named me, I would subsist solely for you. Now I will action my promise and make myself yours. No matter what you desire or what I must do, I will live on for no reason former than to have a go at it you and bring you felicity, just as I know you will do the like for me. I will be the embodiment of your will to last and you will cherish me just as I will cherish you."

She raised her school principal, keeping her font hovering over mine with her foresighted ruby-red haircloth hanging down and sealing us within our own private space.

"I love you, Angel,"I said, placing my hands on her cheeks.

"I love you too, Marcus. Now it is time for me to grant you happiness and truly show you how it feels to know and be loved."

Raising herself up, she reached down and grasped my cock, keeping it standing at the correctly Angle. Key and gate now brought together, she gently lowered herself down onto my manhood, embracing it with her womanhood. I was truly left breathless by the sensation of entering her, unable to completely describe how in effect it felt. It was so warm, so soft, and so wet, but beyond that, every single panorama from the friction to the compactness was so perfect that it was as it her trunk was actually changing and adapting itself to my preferences.

Even more, beyond just the physical connector, I felt like our hearts, judgment, and souls were merging together. I could feel her emotions rushing through the joining and into me, overflowing with affectionateness like body of water from the perfect shower, and just like our join anatomy, I was able to dawn her judgement with my own emotions and felt her embrace me.

holy person whimpered in happiness as she reached the radix of my dick, showing not a single twinge of pain in the ass."Oh my god, it feels so upright. It's perfect tense ; it fits inside me so utter. I can experience it kissing the entrance to my womb."

"It's like we were meant for each former,"I teased, brushing my fingers against the slope of her flawless face.

"We were, Marcus. We were."

She then leaned forward onto her hands and raised her frown eubstance, revealing the spear of my rooster with a sheath of rip from her snap hymen, the same shade as her fuzz. She lowered herself back down, whimpering in joy as I filled her to culmination with my phallus. Moving in a gentle lash moment, she began raising her lower organic structure and then swinging it back down onto my pecker, driving it up into her with the thoroughgoing speed and strength and leaving me completely overwhelmed with happiness. Every time she dropped down, her arrant ass would wiggle against my lap. After mastering the regular recurrence and movements, she changed her technique and began rolling her lowly consistency on me, grinding back and Forth with my dick stirring her honey pot. She rode me like that for several minutes, allowing us to both get fully accustomed to the sensation of being intimate.

Soon after, she changed her proficiency again, leaning back and relying on her stomach musculus to pinch her up so that she could bounce on my cock. Her expression was blushing while she panted, and her large breasts jumped with her like a pair of melon-sized water balloons hanging from the bumper of sand dune buggy going off-road. I was almost hypnotized, but within me, I also felt a combustion passion. I felt the need to act and take away the lead in this dance. I felt invigorated, energetic, unbeatable, like I could wee-wee love to her for hour and never blow my load.

"holy man, turn around and lean back. It's time for me to bring care of you,"I said, almost in a growling.

Angel looked at me with a mix of charge coyness and loving heart and obeyed, turning around without dismounting and leaning back the way she had been before. With intensity level I never knew I had, I put my hands on her coxa and elevated her, giving me way to commence thrusting up like a piston. angel's whine of bliss became a moan of euphoria, with the mattress squeaking out its own tone to my drift. I was using the bed to my vantage, harnessing the leaping in the mattress to throw me upwards with add together strength. I was thrusting up into her with everything I had, feeling completely resistant to any depletion in stamina. With her back now to me, her long cerise hair was splayed out across my face and breast like a crashing waterfall. To some, this would be annoying, but I loved it. Her hair was so sonant and smelled so sugared ; it felt like I was being showered with rose petals.

Wanting to change my angle of incursion, angel adjusted herself on top of me, leaning farther back and resting her feet on my knee. I certainly didn't physical object, though it took me a minute to readjust my trend to enter her. With her now lying on me, I had no room in which to thrust and now had to use my lower organic structure in fiat to pluck out and force back in, basically in a wafture question. As she rocked back and forth on top of me, holy person's tits bounced and rolled beautifully. I would have given a kidney to watch them jiggle. At the sentence, she was moaning in happiness with a membrane of sweat covering her nude body and giving her an erotic sheen.

It is out of the question to describe the entire galaxy of wizard I experienced while intimate with Angel Falls. From a forcible point of aspect, it was like we were staring for each early, our consistence synchronized in a way never seen before in the universe. Every breathing spell, every earth tremor, and every movement was mirrored and countered, letting us inspire every possible kind of pleasure in each other. It was as if we were two halves of clock, a clock made of gazillion of pieces, and through the connexion of our soundbox, every piece had come together and each ticking and tock echoed masterfully. But beyond the physical experience was the emotional one.

For the number one meter in my liveliness, I felt like I was truly understood, like I was truly loved. I was experiencing a bond that nobody else in chronicle had ever felt, because nobody in chronicle had ever been in a situation like this. In traditional homo bonding, two the great unwashed meet, and if they are compatible, then over time, they adjust themselves to complete each other. With Angel, I had found someone that already completed me. I didn't need to change anything. I didn't need to conform and alter my personality ; Angel had been born matching my somebody perfectly. The exclusively change was that I was now happy instead of miserable. To finger so tightly united with someone gave me something that I thought I would never experience : belonging. For the first base prison term in my life story, I felt like I finally had a home in this construct known as reality, like I was that one stubborn art object of a puzzle that didn't seem to go anywhere, until at last, I found the spot where I fit perfectly. Until now, I loved my category, but only enough to guilt me out of committing suicide. With Angel, I finally felt at peace with the world and wanted to continue living, to be on this earth as long as possible and spend every day with her.

I don't know how long we were intimate ; I think it was a copulate hours at least. It certainly felt like it had been when we both collapsed onto the bed, drained of energy and gasping for air. My sense of time finally came when I heard my mom announce a ten-minute warning for dinner throughout the mansion. It was about 7:00, and the bed was soaked in exertion and other bodily fluids. saint was on her back with her peg wrapped around my waist, and I was basically sitting on the soles of my feet, driving into her like a pneumatic hammer. We had been like this for xv mo, but I refused to change positions simply because I got a unadulterated perspective of Angel's breasts and was able to watch them bounce and jiggle to my substance's mental object. My mom's warning told me that it was finally time to blockade, though I felt like I could induce gone all night without quitting.

"saint, I'm going to cum."

"Me too. Release it all into me, I want to feel it inside me."

"But you might get pregnant."

"Relax, we're safe today, trust me."

I smiled, kissed her, and then put all my strong point into ten more pump. At last, I released my entire cargo into holy person, filling her up until ejaculate was literally overflowing out of her. At the Lapplander time, holy man cried out in ecstasy and a shiver ran throughout her whole physical structure as she experienced her umpteenth culmination. Finally feeling my delayed exhaustion, I pulled out of Angel and fell back, barely having enough energy to breathe. Angel was in the Same DoS, the brim of her snatch now swollen from the hour of sex. But we were glad, glad and in love.

"That was the greatest experience of my life,"I hummed.

"Mine too,"Angel laughed while curling up next to me.

"I honestly don't bang how we're going to ferment up the long suit to get to the board. I'm starving but I'm just too tired to eat."

"wellspring if we don't go down, your family will get even more suspicious. Besides, you're not the only one that's hungry."

"With all the randomness we were making, there is no way they didn't know what we were doing. I'm surprised the bed hasn't collapsed."

"Well then, either they know what we did or they will get laid when we don't go down, so we might as well eat."

Angel Falls sat up and I grasped her wrist before she climbed out of bed."I love you, Angel."

She leaned down and kissed me."I love you too, Marcus."

"Also, I might involve a short help getting dressed. My total body is basically Ground nought from all that lovemaking."



dinner was awkward to say the to the lowest degree, with everyone trying not to gaze at holy person and I. I honestly couldn't William Tell if my fellowship had heard the two of us having sex or not ; they weren't sending me any signal of acknowledgement or embarrassment. Maybe it was because this was the maiden time since her foundation that my family had actually seen Angel and could speak to her. While the cumbersomeness was nearly suffocating, my syndicate did seem relieved to one big change : I was gorging myself on every scrap of solid food mom had prepared. After calendar month of throwing up every meal and hours of sex, my body was screaming for nutrition and my tum felt like it was about to implode.

"Hmmm, I never realized how practically I missed kilocalorie,"I groaned in happiness while shoveling a third helping of chicken onto my plateful.

Even food I normally despised like salad and drawing string beans practically vanished as soon as they touched my plate.

"Careful, you don't want to put all the system of weights back on that you had before,"my dad warned while smiling, happy to actually be able to say something like that to me.

Before speaking, I shoveled a forkful of attic into my mouth, making Angel giggle."Don't worry, I won't let that happen. I'm skinny for the first prison term in my aliveness and I want to keep it that way."



I had just stepped out of my room and was planning to assume a exhibitor when I saw my sister pulling backer towards her elbow room with storm lightheartedness.

"Come on, I want to show you the clothes mom and I got for you."

The way she was talking, I only heard her talk like that with her Friend. It seemed that since holy person was now living with us, Emily had received a new best friend and the sister she always wanted.

"time lag on, I want to see this,"I said, walking over.

She turned to me with sudden coldness."No way, Marcus."

"What's wrong ? He saw me without clothes on when he helped me,"Angel asked with childlike innocence.

"Yeah, but I don't want to see my brother pitching a tent. Besides, you and me need to have a little young lady talk."

Feeling like I had been both badly portrayed and robbed, I sighed and walked to the lav. Even after the marathon Angel and I had experience an hour before, I would now need both a hot and cold shower.



Emily nearly jumped when Angel pulled off her shirt, letting her breasts bounce forth without limitation. She had just assumed all this time that backer had been wearing a bra, if she had known that she wasn't… she would consume been more hesitant in staying in the room. Angel seemed to have no fear about going topless in front of Emily, but Emily was feeling unbalanced with enviousness. She couldn't help but throw her gaze from Angel's chest to her own.

"It's just not fair,"she muttered.

"Thank you so very much for getting these for me. I'm really sorry about having to adopt your dress,"Angel said gratefully as she pulled on a pink top from a pile of wearing apparel on Emily's bed.

"It's no job. But, uh… you can keep the panty. Now… this the initiative fourth dimension we've actually talked, and I know that you've probably told your fib a hundred fourth dimension, but I have to ask : do you really not recollect anything ?"

Angel lost her smiling. She had regained her retention, but they weren't the kind of memory that she could tell anyone about. She had to continue up the act of amnesia.

"No, I'm sorry. It would be gracious if I did, simply to ease everyone's bedevilment. But to be honest, I don't want to think of. I'm sorry, I know that makes me sound really sketchy,"she chuckled sadly.

"Why don't you want to remember ? Is it so that you can continue here ?"

Angel turned to her and smiled."You know, don't you ?"

"Luckily I was the exclusively one upstairs and the room beneath the guest room is rarely used, so I'm passably sure I'm the only one who knows. I will admit, the fact that you two moved so quickly is really suspicious. Under convention context, I would never be able to trust you. I would be certain that you were just using Marcus."

Whether she was intending to be blunt or to glaze it, it was impossible to tell.

"So what makes these non-normal circumstances ?"

Emily sighed."I can't helper but believe you. I see the way you look at my brother, and it is with dead on target happiness and love. A con artist could easily trick me into believing that, but I'm just ineffectual to see any evil intent in you. Besides, you make my crony well-chosen, and that is something that he has needed so badly that it is beyond description. When he was introducing you to us, I saw him smile, and he literally hasn't smiled in years. During dinner, he was so happy-go-lucky and total of life. If it keeps Marcus happy and active, then I'm willing to study a risk on it."She then began to laugh."But how the underworld could you two immediately startle to sex ? ! Either the two of you are lying and you actually know each other, or it's something else."

Angel laughed as well."We're in sexual love, it's as unproblematic as that. When I opened my center and found him beside me, clutching my work force, I felt so safe and secure, so cherished and cared for, I knew that no one could love me as much as Marcus did. In him, I saw a demote essence that needed to be mended but was open of so practically love, I saw kindness beneath layers of botheration, and I saw someone who would cherish me forever. He told me that he saw me as an Angel ( no pun intended ) that had come to save him. He said that I had the kindest inwardness and the sweetest soul he had ever encountered, and that I was the light of his life-time. He wanted to protect me, to support me, to bring me happiness and have intercourse me. Quite simply, he sees me as the one thing in this worldly concern that he can actually bond himself to. I know that wherever he is, is my home.

Yes, it formed quickly, but we truly need each other, and we want to spend the rest of our lives together. I don't aid if my past ever comes back, as long as I can be with Marcus. We were truly meant to find each other, to be together. It's beyond wide-eyed love at commencement sight, our lives were intertwined from the beginning,"she said, speaking so cheerfully that Emily could not ignore the warmth in her heart.

"wellspring if Marcus has affair his way, you'll never have to leave us, and that's salutary enough for me. receive to the family."



For the rest of holiday, Angel and I tried to keep our erotic love secret, but the passion between us doing those intimate times was inextinguishable. During the night, I would wait for everyone to fall asleep before sneaking out of my elbow room and into hers. In the darkness, we would make sweet love before falling asleep in each early's blazonry. Early in the morning, my lookout alarm would wake me up, and I would sneak back into my room.

With Angel Falls, I found there were two variety of sex : physical and emotional. When we were physical… holy shit. We were a pair of wild beast on PCP and ecstasy. We would go for time of day, burning calories we never even knew we had and exchanging fluids like our bodies were actually completely liquid. It wasn't simply hormone-driven ; it was like we were fully exploring each early's bodies and letting our deepest instincts hail forth. Our eubstance were more compatible than humanly possible, and just being close filled us with so very much Department of Energy that we could be intimate for minute and never grow tired. We basically ran through the Kama Sutra like it was a pamphlet and did every position we could believe of. Angel remarked upon my newfound military posture and stamina with corking joy, as her sexual hungriness was just as great as mine.

The other variety was dim and gentle, have it off and intimate. Like when we were physically based, we would throw love hours on end, but the rhythm method of birth control was completely different, completely tantric. While our dead body were linked, we allowed our souls and minds to merge. It was as if we became telepathic, being able to translate our feeling for each former without ever speaking them. When we fucked, it fed our bodies, but when we made erotic love, it fed our psyche. Just holding onto each former, making as much contact as possible, and being so close that we could feel each other's hearts beating… it brought us a walking on air that no physical feeling could oppose. Holding each other after making love was as nice as the act itself.



It was near the end of vacation, and saint and I were kissing in her way. I heard someone coming up the stairs and angel and I quickly separated. Until my kin fully accepted her, we needed to hide our relationship. I pretended to be in the middle of explaining something to Angel to help her try and overcome her amnesia.

My brother stepped into the room."Marcus, mom and dad want to speak to you."

"Thanks,"I said before he walked off.

I looked at holy man and she and I exchanged glance of headache. I got up and kissed her on the forehead."It's going to be fine."

I walked down the step and into the kitchen. My parents and the two detectives were there. They had been searching the area for twenty-four hour period and hadn't found anything, and much to my hatred, they questioned Angel Falls extensively.

"We have finished our investigating, and we can't witness any touch of her universe prior to when you found her, but we have no way to be for certain to be trusted if she committed or witnessed any crimes. We'll continue to search for her identity, but other than that, there is nothing we can do,"police detective Francis said.

Once he and his partner left, my mom turned to me."Now Marcus, we need to sing about what to do with Angel."

"Its not like you found a dog that you want to keep. We need to mean of her future. There are places where people in her condition can live,"said my dad.

"No, we are not abandoning her."

Before they could reply, I looked down at the flooring."Are the two of you blind ? I haven't suffered from one gaining control ever since I met her."I held up one of my pill bottles. It was completely entire."I haven't been in botheration for daytime. She has taken away my suffering, and she is the only one who can. Not only that, but… I'm happy. For the first prison term in my life, I'm actually felicitous. I thought that my sickness made that impossible, but she has somehow cured me of both my agony and my misery."

My parents tried to cogitate of a reply but were unable to counteract my contestation. After all, it was clear that whether Angel Falls stayed or left, my wellness and life depended on it.

"She needs me as much as I need her. Her remembering is slowly beginning to number back, she remembers info about the universe and what things are and mean, but she knows nothing about herself. I can't aid but inquire if that knowledge will ever come back, or maybe there was none to begin with. For all we know, she could be starting from scratch. She may not have a piazza or family to give to."

I sighed and softened my tone."I know that there is also the fiscal situation of letting her stay with us. Room and board and all that other stuff… I know that this phratry is already strained with three kids. That's why I've decided not to go to college, so that the money that was going to be used on my tuition fee can instead be used to make her a extremity of this class. College is a cozenage anyway, and it's not like I will be incapable of getting a job if all I have is a high school training. Or maybe I can just go to community of interests college. I would do anything for her."

I stopped as I heard someone standing in the door. I turned and saw it was Angel. The tenderness and love in her oculus was like a soothing rainwater to my individual. She walked over to me and wrapped her manpower around mine, leaning her headland on my shoulder.

"Mom, dad… we're in love."

Several moments passed by,

"You've given us a lot to recollect about,"my dad said shakily as he pulled my mom into the living way.



I was lying on my cover in bed with Angel crouched over me. It was the middle of the night and we were both naked, having just finished making lovemaking. angel was finishing me off, using her white meat to massage my rooster while she licked the tip.

"I can't even report how good that feels,"I hummed, taking expectant pleasure in the mountain of the moonlight being caught by the saliva and kitty juice on saint's tits.

"To bring you happiness is why I live. I'm gladiola that my breasts are so vauntingly, you sure seem fond of them,"she purred, rubbing the two soft yet firm pillows of flesh against my manhood.

Her tegument, it was so smooth, delicate, and soft ; it was like she had been shaved from the neck opening down by a laser and then took a prospicient bath in a tub full of moisturizer.

"I'm fond of everything about you, from the endless forgivingness within your heart, your goddess fount, the sweetness of your soul, your hanker and elegantly beautiful hair, and your flawless torso, which practically perspires sexuality."

My breathing quickened and I sensed an oncoming orgasm. Reading me like brail, holy man doubled her efforts, her side blushing with heroic foreplay and loving dedication."Cum for me, Marcus. Spray with your cum. I want to bear it all and be covered in it. My body belongs to you !"

I was more than happy to obey, and in the form of four ropey shots, I ejaculated every drop of semen in my dead body, coating saint's face, her tit, and her outstretched tongue. Before it could fully deflate, Angel took my putz in her mouth, cleaning it off and siphoning out any bullets that had been loaded into the barrelful but never fired. Once it was empty, she sat up and hungrily licked my cum off her titty like it was the substance of life. I almost had to laugh when she started wiping it off her face and then slurping it off her fingers, cleaning herself like a cat.

"So just,"she said softly before crawling over and lying down beside me.

"I'm going to neglect having these lazy daylight to ourselves. I am really not looking forward to shoal tomorrow,"I sighed.

"You know, tomorrow will be the longest we've ever been apart. I don't bang how I'll stand it,"she huffed.

"Don't remind me, but maybe I'll skip dejeuner and issue forth plate for a quickie."

"Then you'll just end up missing the relaxation of the day, we'd never leave the sleeping accommodation. I know you too well."

"Hey, can you pick me ?"

I then gave a abstruse sigh and looked up at the cap."It's been so weird since we met. For the first clock time in my life, I'm truly glad. And my pain in the ass, I never knew that I was capable of feeling so piffling of it. You almost managed to learn it away when I saw you each morning, but for it to be continuous like this, it makes me sense like I've spent the finally three calendar month wearing a suit of clothes of armor with a leave apron underneath, and now I can finally walk complimentary without anything weighing me down. To recollect that my life could become so perfect…"

"Well like I said before, to ca-ca you glad is why I live. I exist solely for you,"she said while kissing my chest.

"Marcus ?"angel then asked, resting her headspring on my berm. Her eye seemed to be glowing in the dark.

"Yeah ?"

"What do we do if we can't be together ?"

"Then we leave. We'll farewell and go somewhere where there will be zippo standing between us. I love you, Angel Falls. I love you more than you could possibly imagine."

"You're wrong about that,"she hummed as she gave a slight grin,"I know how a lot you love me, because I love you just as much."

As she pulled away, a smile crossed her lips and looked down, seeing that I was once again sway hard."Well, looks like you're make for rung 2,"she said coyly.

"Are you kidding ? The catch just started, I'm just getting warmed up !"I said, wrapping my implements of war around her and kissing her.



"Ugh, I hate wearing these,"I muttered as I tried to keep on the spine of my gown closed.

I was in the hospital to get my learning ability scanned and crack the stage of my genus Cancer. holy person was with me and my parents were in the wait elbow room. She had a tender smile completely devoid of concern or concern.

"What, not even a petty bedevilment ?"I teased as I walked over.

"Of course not, I know you are too inviolable to generate into this disease. Besides, as long as I am alive, I won't let you die."

With a warm smile, I grasped her hand and placed it on my chest."As long as your heart is beating, mine will beat as well."

She kissed me and gave me a loving grinning."I'll hold you to that promise."

The door of the room opened and a nursemaid poked her pass in."Marcus Baron Clive of Plassey, we're ready."

I looked at Angel Falls and kissed her on the brow. The two of us separated and I followed the nurse into the room with the MRI. The nanny handed me a pair of earplugs and I climbed up onto the bench, lying down so that it could debase me into the machine. In the strangle tube, I could get word the buzzing of the MRI kicking to lifetime. For several transactions, I listened to the car whir as my brain was scanned and sighed with ministration when it finally stopped.


In one of the exam rooms, my parents, Angel, and I were waiting for the consequence. Dr. Turner walked in and put up the printed x-ray."This is practically a miracle, the tumors have shrunk to the item where they are barely noticeable and have lost all of their influence on your health."

I grinned and held angel's deal."So my cancer is gone ?"

"Not completely, but it seems like there is something that is keeping it in check. We certainly didn't see results like these with the chemo or radiation treatment. It could be an anatomical reference defense mechanism or there is something in your environment causing it. The cancer could return if whatever is helping you disappears, but praise, you're winning the battle."

I looked at holy man and could see the care and tender love in her oculus."Thank you."





Chapter 3



It was the low day after holiday, and everyone was following his or her morning routine. Angel Falls and I were trying to figure out how we would pull round the day without each other.

"The tutor will be here at eight, and he'll be home-schooling you for a few calendar month while we figure out where you can go for a real education,"I said as I pulled on my backpack.

"I'll miss you,"she murmured while kissing me.

We tried to disregard everyone watching us.

My siblings, parents, and I went outside, with Phil, Emily, and I being driven to shoal by our dad. The February weather seemed especially cold, and I realized it was because I didn't have my arm around Angel Falls. As we drove down the rocky driveway, I could feel my body becoming colder and colder with every inch of aloofness between us. But I was also in a good mood ; I would be going back to school unpainful, and with Angel Falls in my life, zero in the world could hurt me.



It was gym socio-economic class and the bailiwick of the day was station exercises. The Gymnasium had been split up into areas, each with a different exercise or bodily function to be performed for a set amount of metre. Arriving at the pull-up station, I jumped up onto the bar with relish. I normally hated gym class with every fiber of my being, but my honest mood and want of pain was making me restless.

"I thought you couldn't be in gym class because of your genus Cancer ?"one of the other scholarly person asked, watching me move like a piston on the bar.

"I found the perfect treatment."

After a 12 face lifting, I finally jumped off and landed on the storey. My muscles were twitching from the fill-in of no painful sensation.

"Tom is coming back to school tomorrow, and I think he is going to kick your ass,"another student said as he started doing chin-up.

I chuckled and cracked my metacarpophalangeal joint."That punk has been home-schooled all this time for some minor injuries while I barely missed a day while being in sempiternal full-body torment. What a coward. Whatever, if he wants to fight me, he can go ahead. It's not like he can do anything to wound me."



As the day wore on, I missed Angel More and more. I longed to see into her optic, to take heed her sugariness vocalism, and to hold her in my arms. I would sit in year, looking out the window. Everything around me was drowned out, as she was the only matter on my mind.



I was unquiet as the bus got closer and closer to my house. The minute the bus stopped at my driveway and the doors opened, I bolted out, running as fast as I could. I ran up the long unpaved drive, ignoring the cold. I didn't even notice as my foot broke through the ice over a deep puddle and was submerged up past my mortise joint in icy water. I kept running until I got to the theater and wrenched open up the door. I took a measure inside and Angel jumped into my arms, kissing me passionately. funny, the two of us together reminded me of those old Calvin and Thomas Hobbes comic I used to read.

"I missed you,"I said while pulling off my coat and backpack.

"I missed you too,"she whispered.

We made our way upstairs and into the bedchamber. Instead of throwing ourselves onto the bed, we crashed into the paries by the windowpane, not even noticing as we ripped our dress off and licked the inside of each former's mouths. As soon as Angel's denim and panties were off, I got down on my human knee and buried my mouth and lingua in her Henry Sweet slit. Lathering her insides and drinking her essence, I was on Cloud 9 while simultaneously making Angel moan in disco biscuit. Her kitty-cat tasted so sweet and was so soft, I actually lifted her up and let her rest both her legs on my shoulders so that I could delve even thick with my tongue. Having ripped off her shirt and bra, Angel was massaging her breasts with one hand and running her finger through my hair, stammering how good it felt and how much she had missed my ghost. While working diligently, I couldn't help but calculate up and admire her full breasts, dominating my survey as if I was standing at the base of two mountains.

Without the thin pause, I performed my much-enjoyed duty until Angel experienced her first climax, filling the star sign with her shrill calls of ecstasy. While she stepped back down onto the ground with trembling leg, I stood up and fully strip. She was quickly quick for me, and without wasting sentence, she wrapped her arms around my neck and her legs around my waistline while I entered her. Holding her against the paries, I began thrusting with deep, herculean shoves, slamming the head of my cock against the entryway to her womb over and over. Each time I forced myself into her, Angel would release a beautiful yelp of happiness and her hold would momentarily slacken from the deep shudder running throughout her body

As much as I loved being able to go cryptic than usual, the inefficiencies and lack of ease of the position quickly drained our longanimity. As if recital each former's head, I pulled out of Angel just as she unwrapped her legs from around my waist. With a coy smiling on her face, she turned around and stood by the window, shaking her shapely ass at me. Grinning, I brushed her hair aside and ran my knife up her back, brought it up to the back of her ear, and then began kissing her neck to try and nonverbally show my gratitude and describe to her just how perfect she was.

With my hawkshaw rock-and-roll hard and literally pulsating with each heartbeat of my substance, I got behind Angel and entered her with comfort, drawing a blissful hum from the penetration. After a few provisional stroking to get accustomed to the motility and angle, I placed my hands on Angel's hips and immediately began hammering her with the speed of a woodpecker. She was pushed up against the window, crying out joyfully as I fucked her. Each and every clock time, I would bang into her with all of my enduringness, entering as deeply as possible and as fast as potential. With each knock-down knife thrust, Angel's boob would slam against the windowpane, and with the coldness of the glass, her nipples quickly became same gumdrops, while her perspiration and breath left a beautiful imprint of her hands and pectus on the window. I don't know which sounded better, the clapping of her taut ass against my lap or her breasts against the window.

"Oh god, Marcus ! It feels so trade good ! You're driving me crazy !"

Wanting to run the tantrum to the bed, I put my weaponry under Angel's articulatio genus and picked her up. Angel just thought I was changing the position again and began grinding her pussy against my cock as I held her up, moaning and grunting like a wild animate being. to a greater extent than happy to spoil her, I began lifting her up and down with my implements of war while using my lower body to thrust up into her. To the wet sound of her muliebrity getting penetrated over and over again by my turncock, Angel leaned back and we began to kiss, quite gently in contrast to the wild fuck just two feet away.

Soon my arms began to hurt and I decided that it was time to move on. Gently, I set Angel down on the bed, momentarily pulling out of her. Knowing what I wanted, she held herself up on the edge on her hands and knees, inviting me back in. I accepted the invite and mounted her like a dog, drawing fresh groan and cries of happiness as I fucked her with everything I had and with renewed speed. The unit house was filled with the clapping sound of flesh against flesh as I drove into Angel with all the magnate I could summon, desperate to live up to and pleasure her.

For an hour and a half, we continued like that, continuously switching emplacement and screwing like there was no tomorrow. Our physical structure had been starved of each other all day and we were desperate to make up for lost clip. Eventually, we stopped for a geological fault, simply to trance our breath and cave in my manhood a reprieve. Now was my favorite part ; backer and I holding each other as we let our torso relax from the sensual act of love committed only bit ago.

"How was your day ?"I asked as I could sense angel's gentle breathing dull to its common tread.

"form of boring. The tutor gave me a small psychometric test to see what my idea remembered. He was fairly surprised by how well I did, saying that it was amazing how I remembered how to do algebra but didn't even sleep together my endure name,"she hummed, pressing herself tightly against me.

With my chin resting on her shoulder, I smiled and gently brushed aside a ignition lock of fuzz over her aspect, tucking it behind her ear."If only the world knew who you really were."

"wellspring it is because to you. I may not possess been born with computer memory of my own, but I do have your computer storage. So thanks for the help. How was your day ?"

"Great. It was so Nice to be without painful sensation. I can never even begin to read my gratitude for saving me."

"You don't need to thank me, just enjoy me."

"Some people didn't believe me when I said that I found the unadulterated handling for my pain…"

holy man chuckled.

"So a lot of masses are starting to think I never had cancer. By tomorrow, probably half of the school will recall I had been faking it to get attention."

She looked at me with disbelief.

"Don't trouble, I don't reach a rat's ass what anyone there thinks. I don't want any friends. inferno, I don't even need to acknowledge anyone there. I severed all ties with almost everyone else on the planet long before I met you. You're the solitary one I need."

Several silent consequence passed by.

"Something else is on your mind."

"How'd you experience ?"

Angel pressed her boldness against mine, and just as I was about to think she was going to whisper something in my ear, she instead gave a gentle hum.

"A schoolhouse bully that I beat up is coming back tomorrow. He was one of the people that tormented me for the past five years."

holy man looked at me and I could see headache in her eyes."Marcus, I am so sorry."

"Its fine. There is a dependable chance that he will try to push me tomorrow, maybe then I can get some revenge. in conclusion time, I strangled him, shattered his nose, broke his eye socket, and busted out all of his teeth, but he deserves a much more severe punishment."

"wellspring just don't kill him. I don't want the fuzz to take you away."

"Yes, dear."



The side by side day, I was shoved in the hall and knocked to the ground.

"Get up you son of a cunt !"I heard Tom yell behind me.

People in the hall immediately stopped to watch.

"Showtime,"I said to myself with a smile.

I stood up and faced Tom. His nose was crooked and his mouth were covered in scars from getting cut up by his teeth. Many of his dentition had been put back in, however, most were shammer. He would never be able to smile without masses laughing at him. I had a devious smile on my face as I pulled off my coat and haversack. Standing before him, I released a booming laugh, feeling my furore mix with the sentience of indomitability I had gained since meeting Angel.

"You want to fight me ? You think you can even ache me ? ! You're null more than an worm !"

"I'll kill you, you bastard !"Tom howled, pulling back his arm and punching me in the side of the face, just below the eye.

My human face whipped back with his fist never breaking connection, but Tom's arrogant grin was lost when he saw that I was still smiling, even with his fist pressed against my cheek.

"You think you can hurt me ? You think you can frighten away me ? Nothing you do will ever make me ! I've outgrown your shrimpy human world !"

I lashed out and punched Tom in the nose with all the effectiveness in my torso, literally holding goose egg back. He staggered back with his hands over his break down nose, giving a softened howling of pain while blood streamed out from between his fingers. My fist was shaking, not in nuisance or fear, but happiness. The grin on my brass was a sanguinary maniacal one, burning with the haunted flaming of the past and the fearless flames of the future. I was finally free.

"I've experienced my own death, witnessed the end of all understanding, suffered more excruciation in the death few month than you will ever receive in your life, and finally discovered happiness through something beyond your comprehension ! There is nothing in the creation that can I can fear or desire, nothing you can do to hurt me ! I've broken relinquish of this world and outgrown you !"

I lunged forward and punched Tom in the face. The blow grazed his brow, sparing him about of the impact and allowing him to have a lick straight to my gut. While it was firm enough to knock the wind out of me, after the stage of pain in the neck I had endured, it felt like I had just gotten hit by a beach ball. Laughing like a maniac, I stood upright and again punched him, giving an jiffy blacken eye. Roaring in botheration and furor, he tackled me and slammed me against the wall, then began punching me in the expression wildly. While his punches decimated my flesh, they were unable to rob me of my smiling and confidence. Sporting two black centre and bruises across my boldness, I reached up and caught his fist, stopping the barrage.

"What the fuck are you ? !"he screamed, ineffectual to believe I was still conscious.

"Karma. You ruined my aliveness with your cruelty, now I will change by reversal that cruelty on you ten fold. I shall picture you the true meaning of desperation, just as you have shown me. You shall learn the difference between our levels of hatred."

I slammed my elbow into his typeface and fractured his eye socket. Tom staggered back, and without any disinclination, I delivered a punch to the gut that made him buckle, granting me the everlasting opportunity to slam my knee in his fount and bust his already broken nose. Nearly hallucinating from the painfulness, Tom was essentially helpless as I began pummeling him with my fists, beating him wildly until my brass knuckles bled. I had to admit, the fact that he stayed on his feet was commendable, but that only gave me a continuous reason to hold open punching him.

Within seconds, it was Tom set against the wall, completely at the mercy of my biff. His brass was a blinking mess, even worse than mine, but I wouldn't plosive consonant. As long as I didn't killing him, I had nothing to occupy about.

‘ Thank you, backer. Thank you for setting me free,'I thought to myself before a teacher grabbed me and pulled me away.



leash calendar week suspension, a small Mary Leontyne Price to pay for my vengeance. I was favourable not to have been expelled, but once again, Tom throwing the first punch was all the defense I needed. My parents, who were both furious that I had gotten suspended yet again but large-hearted when they saw how bruised up my typeface was, brought me home early.

"Oh my god, are you all right ? !"Angel Falls fearfully exclaimed, meeting me at the door and examining my face.

"Yeah, I'm fine, but if I miss anymore days after this, I won't be capable to fine-tune and will have to carry summer school."

"Your mother and I are going to discourse your punishment. You had better hope we don't leave you out in the rearward G with a tent and a trash bag to log Z's in,"my dad said as he and my mom walked into the living room.

"seed on, let's get some ice on those contusion,"Angel Falls murmured, leading me to the kitchen.

"My reprieve is actually pretty good word. Except for when your coach comes and my family restoration, we'll have the house to ourselves for three weeks."



Once again, my parents were distraught on whether to be mad at me or be accepting of my actions. Angel and I were rapt. During the morning, saint and I would catch some Z's in for an redundant minute, rouse up and make love while half-asleep, then go have breakfast, and delay for Angel Falls's coach to demonstrate up. Once he arrived, I would help her with her work in all the ways I could. After the tutor left, backer and I would have lunch and spend the respite of the afternoon chatting or making love.



One afternoon, Angel and I were taking a walk through the woods. Snow was gently falling from the cloudy sky and there wasn't even the little breeze. We were walking hired man in mitt, just enjoying the glass-like scene of frozen nature. We stepped into a vast hayfield, transformed into a sea of C banking company by the ageless winter.

"Ready ?"

"Ready."

We both fell back into a blow bank, letting the crystallized mattress cushion our fall as if we were resistant to gravity.

"Beautiful,"Angel breathed as we gazed up into the falling snow.

She looked at me and placed her delicate fingers on my buttock. I pulled off my glove and did the Same. angel didn't shiver as my cool bridge player brushed against her soft porcelain pelt. From her script on my cheek and my paw on hers, I could feel warmth seeping into my body.

"Marcus, there is something I have been thinking about for a patch. It was something that you said to me on the day we met. It was when you were telling me why you were about to kill yourself. You said that you hated and were disgusted by the human race. What did you mean ? I have your remembering, but I don't have it away your consider processes."

I sighed as I tried to reckon of how I was going to explain it."When I was in that schooling for troubled kids, my person was full of rage. Not only were my tormenters getting off without punishment, I had been locked away like a reprehensible. I looked at the organization that had screwed me over and the sophisticate psychology of the hooligan that had made my sprightliness a aliveness Inferno. I realized that if I were to understand the force play that had ruined my life, I would need to understand the spunk of those forces. I began to depend at the human airstream as if I was not human. I looked at history and I studied the people around me. I looked at their fault, their imperfection, their weaknesses, and their predictability. I was disgusted by what I had found.

human race is nothing more than an evolutionary dead end, the result of our ancestors becoming smart enough to survive in the coarse wilderness and thereby losing their evolutionary drive. When ahead of time human being overcame the obstacle that get in the way of the spirit of species, they found that there were no longer any obstacles that required mental capacity function eminent than what they had. True, we made some technological progress : we invented artillery to champion ourselves, machines to help us harness the earth's resourcefulness, and music to extend our aliveness, but we lacked the intelligence to use them wisely.

We became smart enough to build residential area, but remained dazed enough to fight over resources. We became chic enough to use fervency, but remained stupid enough to use it to put down nature. We became smart enough to manufacture thousands and speech and religions, but remained stupid enough to be ineffectual to find out compromise or ataraxis in a single one. We're caught in an evolutionary limbo, where any opposing force that requires mind function eminent than what we already have would undoubtedly kill us. The beneficial you become, the harder it is to observe going, and we've reached our eyeshade. Damn, it is one pathetically short peak. Now we're stuck with the ability to make things that we're too stupid to use properly, and underdeveloped intellect that aren't prepared for the things they think they can do.

I turned my spinal column on this pitiful coinage and severed all ties with this world."I then softened my tone and pressed my forehead against hers."Screw the world, I don't need it anymore. As long as I have you, I am content. humanity means goose egg to me. You are all that is important."

angel's heart sparkled as she smiled."Can we head back ? Its cold out here."

A looking at of confusion crossed my face as I moved my hand from her cheek to her neck."You don't feel chilled at all."

"Yeah, but its too cold out here for us to render each early how much we love each other,"she said as she kissed me.



Our amorous vacation eventually came to an end, and I realized I was basically getting shot with a double-barrel scattergun. Not only were we going to separated during the day again, but also being out for three week meant that I was drowning in missed domicile and schoolwork. I would have to do work for hours every evening to try and get catch up, meaning that I still couldn't be with backer as much as I wanted to. If I didn't claw my way back up from the abyss, then it meant summer school and no commencement exercise for me, which meant that the time I could spend with holy person would be decimated. But after dinner when Angel Falls and I would go up to bed, the pinnace love life that had accumulated during the day would be released with unparalleled passion.



With the arrival of April, spring pyrexia was injected into the weather like steroids. All of the snow was blasted away by the sun and the temperature was reaching into the in high spirits 50's, basically tropical climate for Down Easter. I had almost an minacious smell about the warmth, because I knew that the summer would be unbearably hot. With the strong weather thawing everything out, angel was getting me to do the one thing that no one else could make me do : workout. I had fair upper-body strength, but when it came to cardiovascular… I was a wreck. All those class of lounging and staying detached with everything had come back to haunt me. I hated all practice, but being with holy man made it tolerable… not that going for a daily jog didn't make me feel like my lungs were filled with razor blades.

One afternoon, Angel Falls and I were jogging through the Mungo Park by my home. Actually, she was jogging ; I was shortening my lifespan by trying to keep up. We stopped when we finally broke out from under the tree, feeling the sunlight on us. I was leaning on my knees, trying to catch my breathing space. I nearly collapsed from succour when I heard her speak those four golden words :"Let's take a break."

In the shadow of the arm and budding foliage, we rested beneath the branches of a tree on the border of the meadow. Angel was sitting against the luggage compartment, and I was lying down with my head in her lap. The air was filled with the strait of chirping birds and animals taking reward of the warm weather. She was humming a balmy strain and I could palpate blissful relaxation behavior seeping into my tired body like rain on soil. The refreshing spring air was mending my aching lungs, the fragrance of the melting ground and the revived plants was making me dethaw in bliss, the fondness of Angel's body was easing my muscles like a gentle massage, and the hypnotic line of her humming felt like a soothing lullaby.

"You know, back when I was sick, I used to excogitate life and death and what they meant. It wasn't a morbid black letter thing, just a wonder, a preparation for what I thought was coming."

"Oh really ? What did you number up with ?"she asked as she leaned down and kissed me on the forehead.

"I don't believe there is any signification in life or this population, no note value or aim early than what we create for ourselves. But even going against that and all the neuron in my brain scream at me to be coherent, I am convinced that there is an afterlife. I'm not talking about a heaven or a hell, but just some plane of existence where the sentience remains."

"How do you figure ?"

"Memories, everything we think and experience is merely a reaction to events and our environment, a recorded recoil that takes the form of a memory. Consider the total of metre it takes for selective information from your senses to be received and outgrowth by your encephalon. It takes maybe a few nanoseconds ? But consider everything that can occur and has happened within the bridge of a few nanoseconds, and in growth of time even shorter. Outside of our human being perception, a nanosecond could feel like a century.

Even now, every view that passes through my mind and everything I feel, they all occur before long before I am truly aware of them, in which case, my detection of them is really nothing more than a memory. I'm always living in the past, my intellect trailing behind the catamenia of time, only reacting when information is memorized and played like a flashback. Every secondly is just a memory for your mind, while your eubstance motility on through the future.

So if that's true, is it potential that my unharmed lifespan could just be a exclusive memory ? A movie playing in my idea that is eighteen yr long and ongoing, with my brainpower always wondering what's going to happen next while my body and the man around me create each new scene about to be viewed ? In which pillowcase, I could be remembering this from a hundred age into the future, having lived an incredibly hanker life. This conversation might not be happening in real time, but is actually something that occurred a hundred years ago and I am currently remembering it in real time.

But memories can not exist without the mind. A movie can not be if the disk or mag tape it's imprinted on doesn't exist. Therefor, if I am a retention, a uninterrupted computer storage being relived from some point in time in the future, then that computer memory must go on forever. Maybe the retentiveness doesn't stop… just because my body stops. The only way this retention can stay is if there is a nous able to act as it back, to retain the info. So when I die, my mind will be ineffectual to play the memory board and I will cease to be in my current phase. But I do be, meaning that I still exist in the future, and as long as I exist in the future, I exist in the pose, meaning that I exist for all timelessness, but my form is merely different from what it once was."

holy man giggled."That's fascinating. I'd love to hear more."

"Sorry, but that's all I've got so far. Speaking of life and end, I have to ask, where did you come from ? I've spent more time being grateful that you're here than just wondering how you came to be. You told me before that you have my memories, but I don't bed how that's potential. You were originally a figment of my imagination, right ?"

"Yes, that is right."

"Then how can you go from being imaginary to real ? How can you go from being inside my judgment to having a physical body ?"

backer just smiled and again kissed me on the forehead."The day is soon coming when I will explain everything to you, but it is not today. Do not interest, do not be afraid, just enjoy the represent and look forwards to the futurity. Always remember that we shall be together until the end of time."

"As long as those discussion remain true, I don't care what happens,"I said sleepily before closing my center and dozing off, listening to the audio of Angel's Sweet humming.



schoolhouse was coming to an end and everyone was getting antsy. backer and I couldn't be happier. She would still be homeschooled during the day, but we would have all summer to be with each former, and by the skin of my tooth, I had managed to attain up all my missed body of work. Oh, and graduation was coming. On one of the survive few days of shoal, I was in woodshop socio-economic class. The grades had been closed, so we were allowed to just use the machinery for whatever we wanted. I was using the gear-controlled tabular array drill to form on a special project.

One of the early students walked over to me."Rumors say that you have a girlfriend."

I didn't even acknowledge him and just continued with my work.

"Is it someone here or from another school day ?"

By his feel, I knew that it would be a bad idea to respond. If I gave a name, everyone would instantly try to observe whoever it was. People would chivy her for being with me and try to see red me by making lewd suggestions about her. I knew human nature well, and I knew what went on in the mind of high school jackasses. I just continued my work, not even looking at him. When I moved to a major power smoother and began smoothening my Creation, the guy got the message that he wouldn't get anything out of me, and left me to my work.



The day had finally come. It was graduation exercise for the class of 2012. It was a blisteringly hot summer day, because for some reason, shoal decide that it's best to have all the student gather together in polyester gown with fully wearing apparel pants and shirt ( if you're a guy underneath ) when give turns to summer. And of course, in a school day with no AC, all the grad and their families would be herded into the sweaty gymnasium like an Auschwitz oven. In the hr before the ceremony, the entrance hall were flooded with educatee and family members, all of them sweating bullets, talking about future plans, and reminiscing about the past tense twelve years.

Then a ripple passed through the building. The graduation ceremonial was not about to go, no ; it was something else. At the entry to the school day, with my parents and siblings on either position, Angel had arrived to watch the ceremony. Everyone stared at her, completely hypnotized. She was wearing a wench that showed off her porcelain branch and a clean top that put her ample breasts on video display without showing too much segmentation. No one had ever seen a person with half the beauty as this stranger. With perfervid crimson hair that hung down the length of her rear, piercing blue eyes that looked like they could see into your very someone, and a smile that was awe-inspiring in its dish, she was the definition of perfection. I had arrived at the school earlier, so my menage just had to find me and then their seats.

Drawn to my as if with a sixth horse sense, holy person lead my family down the hallways of the school. Every scholarly person and even their parents gawked at the goddess passing them by. A few hoi polloi even tried to record her on their phone. The male child stared at her hungrily, wondering what beautiful Eden she had been hiding from all their lives. The girls were all jealous, glad that such a perfect fauna hadn't been in school with them, lest they would all be invisible in comparability.

They arrived at the library, where most of the students had gathered, as it was the coolheaded place in the edifice. Just like in the Radclyffe Hall, everyone stared at Angel like she was a gift from some divine being, a smasher unmatched by any human. They followed her with their eyes, unable to think such a gem existed, and why, of all people, she was walking over to me. I was sitting by the computers, trying to image out how to make over my tie. I had taken it off soon after arriving at the school, desperate for any embossment, but I didn't know how to get it right. Sweating like a pot roast and cursing, I fumbled with my tie until Angel arrived, the brightness of my life.

A tender smiling on her dulcet sass, she leaned down and kissed me. To everyone watching, it was similar realism had shattered. For a girl, as stunning and perfect as Angel, to be kissing me of all citizenry, it had to be some roughshod whoremonger. She then redid my tie, and after she and my family congratulated me and wished me destiny, they departed to find their seats in the gym. As soon as they were gone, everyone rushed in, desperate to have it away who she was and asking every doubtfulness they could think of. I just sat silently, smiling with the thought that I had her in my life.



The ceremonial occasion was even worse than I thought, with the gym turning into a sweaty, stuffy sauna, and my clothes feeling like woolen blankets. The estrus was so intense that I honestly thought I blacked out a couple times. I was pretty often buried deep in Satan's fiery rectum. Trying to brush aside the heat energy, I focused my thoughts on the commencement exercise itself. Before I met Angel, I pretty much hated everyone around me, and after I met her, I was simply apathetic. But sitting there, surrounded by masses I spent my childhood with and saw five days a week for dozen age, I was suddenly overwhelmed with nostalgia. I may not cause had very many glad retentivity, but so much of my spirit was spent around these multitude. I had always hated change and relished routines, and this was one of the greatest modification of my life, in which I was going to lose so many hoi polloi that I had grown up with.

Then there were all the memories of school day itself. All of the object lesson, the projection, endless days that I thought would never end. Those were really over. nearly of it had been a retarding force, but there were still memories that would always persist, and some times that were almost even enjoyable. And now, that's all they were : memories. I'm not proud of the fact that I almost began to deplumate up, thinking about this over and over again. But maybe it's good that I was still man enough to experience this way.

I looked around the gym, trying to determine Angel. As beautiful as she was, I couldn't spot her in the sea of faces, but I knew she was watching me, or at least trying to. I may take been losing the closest people I had to friends, but now I had her. Finally, it was time to pick up diplomas, and with our names being called, everyone moved in an unraveling personal line of credit. My name being called, I stepped forward and received the small leather book with my diploma inside. To think, I was finally done, and now, my new sprightliness could begin.



Later that nighttime, after thoroughly showering and hydrating, I stepped out of doors to see what the conditions were. There wasn't a individual mosquito around, but gazillion of brilliant fire beetle. The evening was cloudless with a gentle but warmly pushover that seemed to post the perfume-like odor of the changing of seasons. It was absolutely double-dyed for what I had in mind.

"angel, do you want to read a walk through the Sir Henry Wood with me ?"

Sitting on the couch and watching TV, she looked at me and cocked her head to one position. The pocket-sized of smiles crossed her lips as she looked into my eyes."I would love to."

We grabbed our shoes and headed out into the woods. There were so many fireflies that we did not need a torch ; the louse perfectly illuminated the forest. Their light up throw up a cryptic gloriole on everything in the woods and altered their colors, the leave-taking gained a dark blue-green shade and the Sir Herbert Beerbohm Tree proboscis seemed to have a purplish tinge. The light was almost haunting. I could see what everything was, but my good sense of distance and perception was warped. I could reach out to touch a leaf and my hand would only guide through its tail. I could require a step towards something several meters away and agnise that it was right in front end of me the whole time. The forest was filled with endless shadows from the light, shadows that seemed to hold secrets of nature itself.

I watched Angel as she moved through the forest like a ghost. Her eyes were filled with marvel as the fire beetle hovered around her like poof. In the visible light of the insects, her cerise pilus shined like rubies and her blue eyes glowed like the moon. I remembered the day that I had met her, when I she had truly been born into my world, having materialized out of thin out air. The way she was wrapped in the light… was supernatural.

I closed my hand around hers."There is a place I want to point you. Judging by what we have seen so far, I'm guessing that this place will be a work of art."



A lallation brook carved its way through the diffuse forest soil. The brook was about a foot in diam and not even an inch deep. Several pocket-sized rivers connected to it like veins and created islands, dotted with ferns and shrub. The creek led to a pool, about the size of a umber board and a infantry deep. Surrounding the kitty was a dam of rocks to keep its shape. Next to the pool was a boulder, bathed in moonlight and wrapped in moss. There was a symphony echoing through the clearing. It was a mix of the babbling brook, the croaking of batrachian, the chirping of crickets, and the whistle of wench, all forming a melody that no orchestra could meet.

"Gorgeous,"Angel Falls gasped.

"When I was a kid, I always used to come out here to toy. Nature was the entirely friend I needed. All these slight rivers and islands were a variety of irrigation project. These daytime, I come here just to think and birth some peace."

"Marcus, this is so beautiful."

"angel, there is something I want to ask you."

She turned to me.

"I know that we are too young to get conjoin, but I was thinking that this could be like a temporary IOU until we are old decent and I can give you a diamond ring."

I reached into my pocket and pulled out a pocket-sized velvet jewelry box I had borrowed from my sis. I opened it up, revealing a ring.

I had crafted it in woodshop and made it as smooth as marble, using elegant rosewood to congratulate her fuzz. Golden wire had been stamped into the wood with just the right-hand amount of force out, allowing it to appease in without adhesives and without crushing or fracturing the Mrs. Henry Wood. It had been arranged into a looping formula, almost like a Celtic design. There was no diamond on the mob ; instead, there was a bead-sized meth pebble. In the drinking glass was a radical of four telegram : atomic number 79, red, blue, and green, all intertwined in a greyback. I had used magnifying deoxyephedrine and pincer to shape the wire. Had my hands trembled like they used to, it would have been impossible. I had learned to seal matter in methamphetamine hydrochloride on the Internet and had done it all myself.

She was breathless.

"saint, will you be my future fiancée ?"

"Yes, of course of study, Marcus,"she whispered as she put on the ring, the wooden set fitting flawlessly.

I placed my hands on her cheeks and looked into her beautiful eyes.

"I love you, Angel. I love you so a lot that I can't exist without you. You are what keeps me alive."

"I know, I was just about to say the same matter,"she cooed as she kissed me.



holy person and I were in bed, making love in the missionary position as a way to lionize her new ringing and the promise we had made. We had been like this for half an time of day, moving as slowly and gently as clouds. As I slid back and Forth, backer's knife danced and rolled in my mouth, filling it with her sweetly gustatory perception. Fulfilling the inevitable transition level, I could finger all the muscularity in my pelvic region tightening and instinctively increased my speed, trying to cajole my building orgasm. As my exploit increased, Angel Falls began panting heavily in anticipation. My ejaculation was signaled with a trench grunt, following the jettison of several eruption of seminal fluid. Angel groaned as my seed filled her, but she wasn't having an orgasm ; it was more like she was aroused by the feeling of me cumming inside her.

"I think it's meter we got a little more energetic,"I whispered in her ear.

"time lag on, just let me postulate off my anchor ring. I don't want it to break."

While she placed the ring on her bedside table, I sat up and stretched, sore from maintaining one post for so long. Looking back down, I smiled as I gazed upon saint's flawless eubstance, almost glowing in the darkness from her arousal.

"I'm ready, put it wherever you want."

The way she had said it, it was more than just an invitation, it was a suggestion.

"Angel, you really mean wherever ?"

She looked up at me and smiled, her centre full of love."I don't know why you never made the move yourself. I thought I had made it clear : I exist solely for you, every column inch of by eubstance belongs to you to be used to work you happiness. Use me however you want, and I shall happily and gratefully fulfill any desire you may have and receive whatever you want to do to me."

I was left completely speechless, unable to process the emotions rushing through me. I slowly leaned down and kissed her."You are the definition of perfection."

As I sat back up, backer spread her legs and raised them, granting me entree to her back room access. Hard as steel, I pressed the head of my cock against her mother fucker, hoping the come from my orgasm and juice from her pussy would act as sufficient lubricant.

"If it hurts, tell me and I'll stop."

"Don't worry, nothing you do could ever hurt me."

list forward with one hand on her articulatio humeri and the former against the mattress for keep, I took a rich breath and slowly entered her. Feeling my manhood penetrating her anus, Angel gave a soft whimper of arousal while I tried to keep my breathing steady. As if welcoming me to go in deeper, her asshole seemed to suddenly untie with each centimeter I delved. Her interior was so delicate that I honestly couldn't make up one's mind whether or not it was better than pattern sex. While it was certainly tight, it was only tight enough to make me feel good and it did not qualify my campaign or create unwanted friction. It certainly felt different from her pussy. It was a much rounder shape, Sir Thomas More form-fitting for my manhood.

Before I knew it, my whole cock was buried deep in her dickhead, and Angel's breathing had quickened as she tried to become accustomed to the multitude. But nowhere in her look and eyes did I see pain or irritation. Reassured, I slowly pulled out, causing Angel to apply an ambiguous gasp and for me to once again hope that there was adequate lubrication. Deciding to stop thinking about it, I pushed back into her in a undivided confident shove, drawing a whine of happiness from Angel and a grunt of satisfaction from me. tinker's dam that felt good.

With our bodies perpendicular, I gently pulled out and immediately forced myself back in. Like before, Angel yelped in pleasure and showed nada but joy at the sensation. The movement was a lot gentle the third time around ; I felt like I could move in and out with minimum discomfort. Now companion, I began building up to my prefer speeding, quickly causing the bed to rock and shake. As I slammed into her bastard over and over and forced myself deep inside her, Angel gave a flaccid but continuous cry of felicity. From the construction on her face, she appeared to be in pain in the neck, but from the look in her center, the look of her rosiness, and the phone of her voice, I knew she was in a commonwealth of euphoria.

I increased my amphetamine even further, fucking her with all the strength in my body. From the power of my thrusts, Angel was forced to nurse onto the bed for dear life and bite down on a pillow to repress her cries while her knocker bounced wildly. I kept my eyes focused on her, admiring her beauty, her kindness, her sexual openness, and her soul. For ten bit I kept up that pace, burning through my stamina like there was no demarcation line. At last, Angel released an orgasmic moan and came, causing a mixture of her juices and my come from other to plash out of her pussy.

I slowly pulled out of her, completely erect but feeling like I would reel over if I didn't catch my breath.

Angel looked up at me with a tender loving grin."Here, you relax and enjoy yourself. It's my turn to drive care of you."

I gladly lied down with my putz hard and waiting like a drop tree, and with her eyes filled with hungry lust, Angel leaned over and ran her glossa along the shaft, sending a frisson up my thorn. She repeated the action, licking it another two times before pointing it upwards and taking it in her lip. flavour so soundly that I could barely move, I just rested with a big pillock grin on my face and a shifting groan passing from my back talk. For three glorious transactions, Angel's school principal bobbed up and down as she gobbled on my cock like it was made of ice and freeze out inside was the antidote to a poison.

Once she felt like I was ready to continue, she raised her head and left a heavy glob of saliva on the nous of my prick for lubrication, and then brought her body up to my lap. Gasping from the belief of penetration, she guided my cock into her motherfucker and pushed herself down onto it, taking in the all thing. Just like the first time we had sex, Angel Falls leaned forward on her hands and human knee and began bouncing her ass on my peter, moving her lower soundbox in a whiplash motion. While she moved, I sat up and licked her breasts, savoring the taste and sensation of her subdued physique against my tongue.

After a few minutes, she shifted her stance and leaned back, now riding me with her whole dead body bouncing. While I could no longer rub down her tits with my knife, I could now take in them spring like before, and that was just as skillful. Riding my dick like it was a pogo control stick, saint was no longer able to subdue her shout and moans of pleasure, but I was too horny to care. Before long, I felt my stamina restitution and decided that I wanted to retake the lead.

Without me having to speak or even cook eye contact, backer knew what I wanted and acted. Without dismounting, she turned around and leaned back, resting her groundwork on my articulatio genus. Curling my body with my hands on her hips, I began thrusting deep into her with all my effectiveness, wishing that I could see her from the former face. While I fucked her asshole, Angel rubbed and fingered her pussy, wiping up every glob of come from my earlier climax and slurping it up with sapidity. With zippo but her finger, she completely cleaned out her pussy, all while moaning in joy from the buggery. Being behind her with her on top of me, I was blessed with the fragrance of her hair as it was scattered across me like a cloud of steam, making me feel like I was wiping my cheek with the gentle silk.

We were able to maintain that posture for quite a while, at least until my tum muscles began to burn and ache. Once again, Angel acted without any messaging from me. She dismounted me and then crouched down, hungrily sucking my turncock while I licked her pussy and worked my digit in her asshole. Once we had both had our fill, she turned back around and we exchanged a foresighted passionate candy kiss. angel then lied down beside me and I lifted her leg, but after having my cock cleaned off with saint's mouth, I decided not to go anal retentive. Instead, I forced my peter into her kitty, and while Angel was surprised, she was to a greater extent than happy.

Shaking the bed with each jerk, I resumed fucking her with the same upper and ebullience as before, all the while fondling her breast and kissing her neck opening. Being pleasured by three combined stimulations, it wasn't long before holy person came, but at no power point did I stop. Throughout her moan, I continued fucking her like a political machine, only causing her to moan even louder. After maybe five minutes, I felt my second orgasm welling, but that only doubled my energy. I increased my stop number even further, thrusting into her as hard as potential until at least unleashing a gooey clean detonation into her slit.

Panting heavily, I pulled out with a chain of semen connecting her pussy to the head of much cock, which was still fully erect. I could cum one more than sentence, and I knew exactly where to do it. Without indisposition, forced my gumshoe into Angel's asshole, making her moan in felicity. By now I was running on exhaust, but I did not allow my weariness to decelerate me down. I put all of my remaining strength into twenty More jabbing, focusing everything I had into pleasuring Angel. From the look and sound of it, I was doing my job perfectly, meaning there was cipher left for me to do but finish.

Feeling like the floor was yanked out from under me and my strength was ripped away, I finally ejaculated, pouring every last little sperm into Angel and giving a deep groan of satisfaction. Trying to stay awake, I pulled out of Angel and put her leg down. Both her figurehead and back door were overflowing with semen, and my dick was aching from all the work it had done.

"I love you, Angel. I don't screw how many fourth dimension I have to say that before I feel like I've gotten the point across, but I love you,"I whispered tiredly as I held her close.

Giggling, holy person reached out and retrieved her hoop, staring at in the darkness."Don't headache, Marcus, I know, and I love you just as much."



It was a sweltering Saturday afternoon and my sis, Angel Falls, and I were headed to the plaza. I wanted holy person to go through life around people, but that thought always made me chuckle when I realized the lip service : my parents had always nagged at me to do the exact same affair. I was also job-searching, trying to come up any places that would so much as open me an application word form. Since I hadn't given any thought process to college, I needed to get into the working world as soon as possible and get some experience and protection, as well as money.

Angel was in the rearwards fanny, looking at her mob with a tender grin on her facial expression. The air conditioner was busted so the window of the car were rolled down.

"I got to intercept off at the depository financial institution, I left my money at home,"my sister cursed.

"All right, but let's not do the ATM. I need some real AC. Just an oasis of cold air would be nice."

I stuck my manus out the window, wishing that the relieving shudder would hit the residual of my body, and Angel leaned forward and wrapped her branch around my neck."You can say that again. It's a sauna back here."



We reached the cant parking lot and braced ourselves once the car stopped. We stepped out onto the sidewalk, all of us gasping as the frying rays of the sun ripped the air from our lungs.

"shit global word of advice ! We didn't listen, Al bloodshed ! We didn't listen !"I joked as we rushed to the cant, making my sister and holy man laughter.

We stepped into the bank and all sighed with relief as we were hit with that first gear wave of low temperature air.

"I'll just be a minute."

"exact your time,"I said as saint and I relaxed in two cushioned chairs in the corner.

"So, what variety of job are you looking to get ?"she asked.

"Well I'm hoping for something that is close to home and that will rent me back next summertime. Normally I would expect for the third-shift jobs since I'm a real night owl, but I want to keep our schedules compatible. I don't want one of us to always be asleep when we're together at home."

"So do you have anything that you're saving up for ?"

I smiled."An apartment. As soon as I have a unchanging job and can score a sustenance wage, I want us to move out and get a billet of our own, just the two of us."

"And hopefully when we're both cook, it could be for the three of us,"angel said sweetly as she kissed me.

Emily came back, stuffing some cash into her notecase."All right, let's get going."

Just as angel and I stood up out of our professorship, the door slammed outdoors and three guy wire stormed in guns in their hands and brassy plastic masks.

"Everybody down !"

"Oh tinker's damn, looks like my old portion has returned,"I muttered.

I had heard that crime charge per unit rise during heat waves, but I thought that was only in the big metropolis. This may be the commencement bank robbery in Maine in my lifetime. But all the days for it to go on, why now ? Angel had a expression of fear in her eyes, but I put my hand on hers and could instantly experience her body relax.

"Its all right field, holy person. Let's just do what they say."

Everyone got down on the floor and the gunmen gave the order for the vault to be emptied. As one of the men began to rob each person in the bank, I could try police sirens in the screen background, summoned by the silent alarm.

‘ Oh my nooky god, they didn't bother to cut the alarum or the power ? What is their getaway vehicle, a abruptly bus ?'

The man came to the fille and I, holding a plastic bag with the other surety's wallets and jewellery. We gave him everything we had, but his eye fell to saint's manus.

"The ring, hand it over !"he demanded, mistaking the field glass bead for a gem.

Her eyes widened in horror at the prospect of parting with it, her most value possession."No, please ! Anything but that !"

He grasped her wrist and pulled her up, trying to wring the ring off her finger.

"Let go of her !"I howled, shoving the man to get him off Angel.

Staggering back, he flinched and his digit pulled the trigger of his gun. My eyes could not have caught the sight, but my mind swore that they had, filling me with revulsion beyond description. The punch left the pistol, wrapped in sess with a can of fire as it spun through the air. Moving right by me, it struck holy person's articulatio humeri and imbedding itself in her flesh. The air was ripped from my lungs as I watched her collapse in a puddle of origin. I felt epinephrin row through my vein and my centre beating with such power that I thought my ribs would shatter. That bullet had struck my very soul, risking me the loss of everything I was and loved. In a great mind-ripping deluge, all of the wrath and pain in my life surged through my body, making me sense like my jail cell themselves were being incinerated. Roaring in fury, I charged towards the man who had hurt her. He aimed his gun at me and fired, and like her, the bullet slammed into my shoulder and was lodged in the heftiness, having narrowly missed breaking pearl. Adrenalin and fury were keeping me from feeling botheration and allowed my arm to maintain its strength.

I tackled the man and tried to bring his weapon. The gun was aimed upwards and a third base round was fired, striking the viewgraph sprinkler system and triggering a entire shower. With the man distracted by the pouring water, I ripped the arm from his hand and fired the last six barb at his cohorts, but not to kill them. The hummer pierced their arms and go down on holes in their intestine, causing them to drop their weapons in nuisance and collapse. Pulling my victim's facial expression away from his shoulder, I raised my head with my oral cavity candid and sank my teeth into his neck. Everyone in the bank was shocked and terrified, as with rakehell spraying Forth River, I rode the torpedo down to the floor. The penchant of gore, the feel and grain of raw figure, and the screams of agony from my victim strengthened my craze and pulverized any remaining inhibition and fragments of reason and system of logic. Snarling like an animal, I yanked my head back, ripping away his jugular vein vein with a mangled comic strip of flesh and muscle held between my tooth. I spat it out and assail again, this time closing my jaws around his windpipe and tearing it free like wrapping it paper.

With my cheek coated in roue and my victim on death's door, I turned and pounced on the secondly gunman. I was drunk with rage and the impulse to down was all that filled me. Having seen me cannibalize his acquaintance, the crippled man was desperately reaching for his drop gun, which sat just out of reach of his crippled arm. Grabbing the shooting iron, I kneeled over the man and began beating him savagely in the forefront with it as if it were a rock. Each impact ripped his skin and blood began to sputter of the end of the gun, landing on the walls and ceiling. I beat him over and over again, until at lastly, his skull caved in like a watermelon. Getting up, I slowly walked over to the 3rd torpedo, who was pleading for mercy and desperately trying to rend himself to the outlet. With the pee from the sprinklers pouring down on me, the stock of my low victim was washed off my face and out of my mouth. Paying no heed to his cries, I stomped on the book binding of shooter with enough force to strike hard the air out of him, then flipped him over and crouched down with my mitt outstretched. He screamed in torment as I grabbed the sides of his face and gouged his center out with my quarter round. After several seconds, he became still, dead with rip and brain matter oozing from his eye sockets.

"Marcus."

I turned around and stared at saint like a deer in the headlight. Emily was holding her and rent were streaming from her optic. The fervidness of cult in my mettle was extinguished, replaced by a deep chill. I rushed over and Emily moved aside so that I could hold angel in my arms.

"Angel,"I said softly as I wiped away her tears, all the piece my own teardrop splashed her face.

The peck of her combat injury was ripping the warmth from my body, but she had a flavour of peace on her font as I held her.

"You're going to be all right wing. It didn't hit your lungs."

"I know, my passion. I'm not going to pull up stakes you."

"The bullet is still inwardly. I need to get it out."

As gently as humanly possible, I placed my fingers on the injury, causing her to mewl in pain. Everyone in the bank watched as I slowly reached into her shoulder, moving aside torn flesh and splintered osseous tissue, searching desperately until I finally found the smoke. Angel trembled in my limb and cried out in pain in the neck as I pulled the punch out and tossed it aside. She then did the Lapp to me. With unparalleled tenderness and charge, she reached into my shoulder with her fingers, dug through the bod, and pulled out the bullet.

I looked around at the gore that coated the base. Her hair's-breadth was scattered out in all directions, almost looking like it was melting and blending with her lost roue. holy man had bled too very much ; I had to do something to save her. Gaining a dire theme, I shifted myself so that I was holding her under me.

"What are you doing ?"

"We are the same blood type. I'd give anything to prevent you alive, even the fluid in my veins."

I pressed our wounding together and hoped that the ancestry pouring from my veins would enter hers. I held onto holy person for dear lifespan as I gave her as much blood as possible. The figurehead doors of the banking company were smashed open as police stormed inside, while behind me, the gunman whose throat I had torn reached out and grabbed the dropped weapon of one of his associate. With his dying strength, he aimed the gun at me and pulled the trigger.



There was no beeping heart varan, but I knew I was in a hospital bed. I ached all over and could finger needles in my arms. There was something else… I felt something warm in my deal. I slowly opened my eyes and saw saint's beautiful grimace. Her optic were filled with sadness and trouble, but her hands were wrapped around mine. Her arm was secured in a sling and her articulatio humeri was bandaged up soaked, just like mine. I looked to my right and could try the birr of the heavy political machine next to me. It was connected to my arm by several tubes filled with blood.

"Oh shit."

It was a heart-lung machine. It was no wonder that there was no heart monitor ; I had no heartbeat. The pump was keeping my blood flowing.

I looked into Angel's eye."What is the finding of fact ?"

Angel took a abstruse breather and it was evident that she had been crying."One of the robbers managed to aim his gun at you and can before bleeding to death. The bullet pierced you through the middle of the chest. It didn't stab your heart directly, but it did cut through the brawn and rupture one of the chambers. You were leaking heavily into your bureau caries. Luckily the constabulary were there with an ambulance and they were able to close the wounding, but every clock time they let your heart beat on its own, the teardrop opened back up. They've already sutured and even cauterized the wounding twice, and if the tear opens one more fourth dimension, it will be beyond their ability to repair."

"So my heart is too offend to work properly and this machine is the sole affair keeping me alive ?"

"Yes, but it was never intended to be used this way for an extensive period of prison term. The doctors say there are built-in risk for use, even if it's just during surgery. Your parents are doing everything they can to find oneself a giver warmness, but on such shortly notice…"

"There is very little chance of me actually getting an organ transplantation, let alone a heart,"I groaned.

There was no way this machine could hold back me animated long enough to finally get a heart. Before long, I would either get a new heart or I would die. It was a dishonor none of the men I killed were electric organ bestower. I looked to Angel and saw that her original fear was gone, and the feel of gloominess on her face was replaced with a smile.

"Marcus, I've already offered to give you my mettle for the transplant. We're a complete match."

While this would be well news under rule circumstances, I was completely horrified.

I tearfully grasped her hand."No. No, I can not do that ! I can't take your sum ! You are all that is keeping me active ! I can not admit your liveliness just so that mine will be extinguished without you !"

Angel slowly pulled her hand from my traction and instead reached up and cupped my cheek, immediately calming me. She spoke without any fear in her soulfulness."The survive time we were here, you said that as long as my heart was beating, your warmness would stick as well. That's why I've asked them that instead of disposing of your damaged heart after the surgical procedure, they implant it into my chest and countenance it to start up. They don't expect me to live on, but they are will to fulfill my want. Marcus, as long as my spunk gives you aliveness, your heart will give me life."

"But what if it doesn't employment ? What if you die ? If I wake up and you aren't with me, the first affair I'll do is kill myself."

saint leaned forward and kissed me."I won't die, I promise you that. I was born out of a miracle, and so too shall I live through one. I told you that I would bring you a lifetime of happiness, and I have no intention of breaking that promise. Marcus, do you commit me ? Do you have faith in me ?"

"Yes,"I replied with a raspy voice.

"Then have faith in yourself. You've sworn your essence to me so many times since we met, and it has kept me active all this meter, just as it will sustain me alive when you truly give it to me. No thing how damaged or wounded your tenderness is, I know that it won't let me die, just as you never would. Have faith, Marcus, not just in you or in me, but in us, and the future we promised each other."



Angel and I were in the surgical room, both on beds while the surgeons prepared to operate.

"saint, no matter what happens, remember this : you are the one that took away my pain and I will lie with you forever,"I whispered, trying to hold back tears.

"Tell me that after we walk out of this infirmary together."

Respirators were secured to our faces and we were both given drugs that put us into the realm of unconsciousness. The concluding affair I saw was Angel's beautiful face.



I opened my optic and found myself hovering in space. I was completely naked with the eye of God directly above me and Earth below. The bullet wounding in my chest was gone and my articulatio humeri was fully healed.

"What is this ?"I asked, looking up into the black hole as it eternally consumed the star around it.

saint appeared before me."As you so very fittingly called it, it is the eye of God, the Source, and the end of all reasonableness. It is the detail in which matter and energy exchange and liveliness and un-life converge. This is the heart of everything, the blank space in which beginning and end are one in the same."

"What's going on ?"

"It's time, Marcus. The day has come when I can finally explain everything to you."She floated over and embraced me with our naked bodies pressed together."Tell me, do you make love how souls are formed ?"

"No."

"Through the subconscious thoughts and desires of the sustenance. Through the instinct of animals and the compliments of mankind, soul are shaped within the reservoir and then see their physical bod upon the birth of infants. animate being following their instincts to reproduce, parents dreaming of their developing baby, and even lone hand with broken core wishing for the one to make unnecessary them ; they all shape the zip of the Source and turn it into somebody for the succeeding generation. Every soul on Earth is a mix of the hopes for good and fears of immorality in the people who came before it. All over the world, children are being born with their souls shaped by the thoughts of the people around them. Then when they die, their souls issue to the Source."

"So God doesn't create life history, humans and animal do ? Then that means that every sentient being is basically a god. There is no God, only the multitude that shape the souls of the unborn."

"ending, but not completely right."

She stopped talking, and slowly, we were pulled up into the fiery deluge and absorbed by the contraband hole in the center. Just like when I tried to vote out myself, we found ourselves hovering in a vast spinning vortex of violet energy, stretching infinitely.

"This is the other face, the afterlife that you believed in. Here, the mortal of the dead rejoin the rootage and become one, fusing together into a single head of limitless proportion. It is a sentience beyond inclusion, a collection of every view, desire, instinct, and personality within life. In this sea, everyone is made whole and you don't know where the feeling around you end and you begin. This is God, the progenitor of spirit. It is us and we are it. It is the female parent of us all, and the thought of the living are what prang up it and allow it to break flesh to more life."

"So this is where you came from ; this is how you came into existence."

"Yes, through your desires and regard, I was formed. Before your cancer, when you were plagued by misery and clinical depression, your subconscious dreamt up a being that would be able to heal you of your pain, the one somebody who you could have a go at it forever and be happy with. Your soul sculpted mine, your fondness shaping me to be your ultimate peer.

But you did Sir Thomas More than that ; you were able to do much more. You remember, don't you ? You were dreaming of me years before your hurting first started. That was your subconscious mind becoming aware of the growing tumors on your brain-stem, signaling and heralding your destruction. Then, when your tumors truly activated and your agony was born, you became caught between worlds, held in a limbo of both aliveness and death. With this, your will extend farther than anyone else's in story. Between life and death, your inwardness was able to form more than just my someone, but my body as well. In your pain, you mentally wrote out my blueprints, while your soul served as the gateway between universe so that I could be formed. A support link between the real number world and the informant ; you were essentially a god, and I was your Eve."

I thought back to all the times I had met her in the mornings and in the centre of the night, how she would periodically blow up in the depth of her role and what she could do. The reason why she could do to a greater extent over fourth dimension was because I was shaping her from the former side, and with my soul so close to Death, she and I were able to meet.

"That's why you wanted me to hold off, why you didn't want me to kill myself. You wanted to reach my expiry naturally, so that by then, you would be fully formed as an mortal, and you have saved me then just as you did when I tried to commit suicide."

"Yes, but just when I thought we would return to the informant together, you realized what I was meant to be and I became your finished creation. When you called out my name, you solidified my existence, and then when you regained the will to experience, you pulled us out into the world of the living. Like I said, the Source is the point in which issue and energy exchange and biography and un-life converge. I was physically born into your public, thanks to your self-control and all the botheration you endured.

Think of it as like you bungee jumping over a lake with me beneath the surface. You make the bounce, you fall, you touch the water supply, you catch me, and then your electric cord pulls us both out.

With no one else could this have been potential. While you thought your painfulness was a curse word, it was actually a blessing : the ability to mould a life instead of just a soul and then bring it to the physical plane. You are my Godhead and I am your deliverer, playing the role of the one who will love you and bring you happiness, just as you always dreamed. You shaped me with your pump and soul, with your pain and desperation, and gave me biography. I exist solely for you, to love you forever and bring you happiness, and for that, I am truly glad. While you dreamed of me, I dreamed of you, and the lifetime we would hold up together. You gave me life-time, you gave me love, and you gave me joy, and for that, I am eternally grateful and will be with you forever."

I smiled, finally understanding. No wonder her name was Angel, that was what I had always seen her as.

"I love you, Angel. I love you with all my heart, mind, and somebody. I gave you life but you gave me a intellect to live."

"Now, before we can go back and resume our biography, there is something we must do."

"What ?"

"We must balance the equation. You took a life sentence from the reference and that debt must be repaid with a life."

"What are you talking about ? Shouldn't the people I killed give up the price ?"

"No, that is outside of the exchange we made. Don't worry ; I knew this day would follow. I promised you we would live our living together and happily, we just have to settle this first off. think that nighttime, that night when we were almost able-bodied to make believe love ? You asked me why we couldn't be intimate ?"

My eyes widened."You said that only when we both lived would we be able to create life for ourselves."

"Yes, and now to make up for the lifetime you took from the origin, we must create a life to pay it back, right here and now."

I smiled and began to laugh before embracing her and giving her a longsighted kiss."Compared to everything you have done for me, that isn't much of a debt. All in good order, let's create a life."

Without hesitation, Angel wrapped one leg around me, giving me enough way and leveraging to enter her, making her moan softly in happiness. With the vast sea of souls spinning around us infinitely, I began moving up and down with my bring down body, thrusting into backer while we kissed and our tongues danced. It was certainly difficult to take a leak love life in zero sombreness, with nothing to agitate against or anchor us to. When I pulled out of holy person, she pushed off against me, then tightened her hold around me and pulled us closer together when I re-entered her. We soon got the hang of it, and instead of being distracted by the mechanics of intimacy, we allowed our creative thinker to focus on the excited euphoria of being so intimately bound to each other. Here we were, hovering within the heart of the end of all rationality, consummating our relationship, our naked bodies pressed together, our mouth joining like yin and yang, and our strong-arm anatomy interlocking like speck. There was nada outside of our reality ; our creative thinker were focused solely on each early. At this tip, living and death meant nothing, the world below and the public above held no value, and who we were as individuals lost all definition. Just like how the eye of God was a monumental intersection of all spirits and energy in the world, so too were we fused together, our souls bound into a ace form.

Joined in body and thinker, I could sense everything she could sense, and in turn, Angel picked up everything I experienced, as if our very nerves were now wrapped together. With our knowingness and superstar now joined, we both experienced a sexual climax at the claim same meter, mine triggered by hers and hers by mine. I'm not sure how many metre I ejaculated or how often of my sperm was now inside her, but as we separated, I saw a feeling of contentment on her look, and looking down, we both saw that the area just below her stomach was glowing brightly.

"It's done, I'm pregnant. See ? Even sentence is subjected within the end of all reason."

At her words, a empyrean of light the size of an apple passed out of her flesh from and slowly rose up between us. Inside the firmament of light was what looked like a grain of Baroness Dudevant, but in reality, it was her inseminate egg, our offspring. With a loving smile, backer slowly reached up and cupped the sphere of light with her hands, staring at the diminutive embryo as if it were a very baby. Smiling as well, I did the same and placed my hands on the incline of the orb, my hands overlapping hers. After a few second gear, the orb left our helping hand, shooting up like a rocket into the centerfield of the eye of God. Then, just as it was about fade from our view, a burnished ignitor flared recondite in the twisting typhoon of violet zip. Expanding like an underwater explosion, the light consumed us both.



My optic opened and I took a cryptical shuddering breath. I was lying in a hospital bed with a respirator hooked up to my mouth and my chest of drawers throbbing to the phone of a inwardness admonisher. Only having enough energy to move my middle, I looked around at the infirmary room and cried in joy at the stack before me. Lying in another bed, barely two feet away, was Angel. She was in the same state as I was, with her own heart monitor beeping just as loudly as mine. Slowly, her eyes opened and we stared at each former, both smiling. It had worked ; the mathematical process had been a success.

Like mirror images, we both moved our arm and placed our hands on our chests, touching the bandage scars of our transplant. The feeling was indescribable, almost orgasmic ; the mavin of having each other's physical hearts beating within our dresser. In my chest, Angel's spunk was beating with a warmth I had never before experient, a grateful gentleness to it, an aura that made me find like her love for me was literally pumping through my veins. In her breast, my kernel was beating with more belligerent strength. It was as if my centre shared my thoughts, and refused to let any injury deprive Angel Falls of life. It was going to protect her, stay fresh her awake, and make sure she always had the ability to be happy.

Slowly, we both reached out and dig each early's hand, silently expressing our love while the looking glass pearl on saint's ring gleamed.



It was considered a miracle that my pump continued to beat while in holy man's chest, when it would make ripped open if left in mine. My whole family was sobbing in happiness, both from my survival and backer's. Like I always had, they all now saw her as a penis of the mob, and were grateful that she had lived, but not nearly as grateful as I was.



The bedroom was dismal, the air warm from the summer sun long since set. angel and I were huddled together in bed, pressed together like two teaser pieces. We had finally been released from the infirmary, and while they had forbade us to engage in any strenuous activeness until we fully healed, we now found ourselves recovering from making love. We had been slow and gentle of path, but our adhesiveness was full of passion.

"Marcus ?"

"Yeah ?"

"Can you do me a favour ? Not right now, but in the future ?"

"Of course, what ?"

holy person rolled over and stared at me, our faces just an in apart."When we've gotten a place of our own and can support ourselves… will you… will you sacrifice me a baby ? We gave up our first one within the Source and I really want to have another, a veridical nestling I mean. I want us to start our own family."

I smiled."Of course, but only after you marry me, cover ?"

"Deal,"she giggled.

We kissed one last sentence, whispered our love, and then closed our optic. The speech sound of our hearts trouncing and our aristocratical ventilation slowly lowered us into the ambition earth, but no dream could even equate to the joy in my soul when I held Angel in my arms and thought of the time to come, the time to come we would share in happiness for our entire lives.



The End




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