Monica ( 1 )
Cheating, WifeMonica, what can I say about her ; she 's my good Quaker, a constant companion, and my recollective term press. She also happens to be gorgeous and full of zip, being a geek and dancer she has a unequalled blend of down to earth along with an unabashed fit body. She 's around 5'6''' or something not penny-pinching with soft babe fat over intemperate muscular tissue from her dance and recitation. She has sinister thick hair which she kept shortly around shoulder length, her center are hazelnut, and her lips are so toothsome and full always in a smile or laugh. Her raw and oft times crude sense of humor always with the sexual undertone makes her a quiver to let the cat out of the bag with. As I mentioned she was always with me as a 'friend', one of the only young lady I allowed to go on me in the friend-zone willingly. I think I was just content with what I had, possibly I was too afraid to ever try for more. That was when we were in our 20s. That was before she met 'that'guy, the one that she eventually married and had nipper with, the one I never really gave my blessings too. Of form I would n't, not with my underlie motive and intimate desires clouding my friendship.
I eventually stop trying and we drifted apart. This was n't a surprisal as these type of friendly relationship often ends up this way and I 'was'a willing participant in it. During the X following I dated and log Z's around but I always seemed to be comparing them to Monica. Small matter I would nitpick and pull down from my relationship ; those that got that far. More often than not I settled into my brutally honest persona and slept with woman I tell honestly that I am just after a good fuck. It 's a piddling jarring that some of these womanhood would take'I just want to sleep with you'and translate that into 'save me with lovemaking'. NO. On a face greenback I knew that some adult female love the challenge of trying to change a man but honestly, just stop.
After thirteen years of this one day I happen to have a textual matter message from an obscure turn.
( unknown figure ) Hey Scott ? This is my new phone number. Not certainly if this is you.
( Me ) Umm hi, who is this ?
( stranger number ) It 's Monica, it 's been a while but Hi !
I am dazed at the figure, all that time of trying to live my own life and now all of a sudden I feel like I might cast from my anxiety from one text content. I quickly grew angry at myself for being so frail against her. I thought to myself'I 'm the conqueror of slit old and immature, ugly and hot, I can deal with an old friend rightfield ? ! ?'As it turns out I could n't so I ignored it.
About a hebdomad go by, it 's Saturday now and I have stared at my telephone every day since trying to bring in sentiency of my own feelings, I knew I could easily infix her life again and it will be just as it was before but worst because I would give to constantly be reminded that someone else is enjoying that organic structure. But I was deathly rummy and I hate not knowing and regretting so I picked up the phone and brought up her chat :
( Me ) Hey, I 'm sorry for not responding I was occupy with work.
( Monica ) For a week ? ( before I could respond )
( Monica ) Haha anyways what are you up too ? Are you busy ? Wan na grab lunch today ?
( Me ) Umm trusted I 'm free. Want to play at that Bistro on Fifth near the coffee shop ?
( Monica ) The new Italian one ? OK give me about two hours ? I ca n't waitress to see you !
As I put the phone down I knew I could n't escape this urging inside of me. It was excitement and trepidation roiling all through me. I could n't aid but guess of her last command 'ca n't wait to see you'. I oddly found myself smiling as I went about taking a shower and getting ready. I decided to dress my age and brought out my nearly stylist blazer, blue jean, plain Elwyn Brooks White wearing apparel shirt, and thrill. I was out the door in an 60 minutes, I figured I get java and calm my nerves a little.
She was late about thirty minutes but as I watched her walk up in movement of the Bistro from my umber shop vantage full point I nearly forgot everything I have been mulling over for the time of day I waited. She was wearing Negro leggings with knee joint highschool black iron heel with a white top that definitely showed her shapely mother physical body. I do n't say that in a bad way at all, I can state she kept up her work out even after her pregnancy because she was full figured but tincture in a way only a soul who moved around a lot can be. Her once small A cup breast were at least a couple cup size big ( thank goodness for breastfeeding ). Her hair was foresightful and wavy and came down to her ass which at the instant was facing towards me, it looked soft and perky in her rigorous leggings. I was getting a strong on just looking at her.
I went out to fulfill her and as I was approaching from behind I could n't help oneself but feel nervous and disquieted. Worried that I would torment myself again with fantasies of her to the point that I would rather be alone if I could n't be with her. This feeling kept getting stronger up until the point she turned around with her up-and-coming smile and embracement. She smelled so good being this close, like battlefield of Lavenders. She was so diffuse and warmly as she held me, melding into my blazonry perfectly as if we were two share of a mold. `` Hey handsome ! '' she exclaimed happily.
Before I could help myself I blurted out `` Holy shit you look amazing ! '' I saw her registry what I said in shock than her face soften and slowly she began to blush a little as she held me at arm 's duration. My eyes leering all over her body. I felt helpless and a minuscule greasy but I could n't assist myself, she was gorgeous ! Her already curvy body gained definition and swell, I did n't realize how dramatically until I was up following to her.
'' Thanks, you are looking great yourself ! '' She responded with big eyes and a big grin. I wanted nothing more than to grab her and snog her deeply.
'' Let 's go grab a tabular array and fascinate up. '' I suddenly felt unlax. I had a Revelation as I stood watching her while waiting for a board ; I realized I have never truly been honest with her about my look and that in turn reflected on how I acted towards her. After we were apart and I began my methodical honest heartbreaking I was brutally honest with all those girls. I swore to myself as we were seated that I would be honest with her no matter the cost.
As we ate we caught up on our life story. She has two kids and has been a lady of the house and mom. She said she misses me and that she 's beaming that we could see up because she was moving to New York. Apparently her husband got a advancement and will have to work in NY, he and the Thomas Kid are already there settling in while she finishes some matter here and will be flying in a couple Clarence Day. Needless to say I was somewhat foiled in hearing this but at the Saame fourth dimension I realize she is alone at the moment without having immediate responsibilities. She loves her nipper and I knew I could n't compete with them with her time. I began to plot my move, I needed her to recognize exactly how much she makes me looney with lust and love.
As we were finishing up I asked if she had any pressing business left today. She responded with a immense smile and told me she did not and that I should keep her party as she is alone and misses her family. I responded with `` of course I will keep you party, just treat me like a backup anything ... ..anything you need. '' I 'm not indisputable if she caught on to my logical implication as she just smirked and said 'ok'.
After tiffin we went and got coffee and then to the moving-picture show. We caught a former slot for a love story comedy. I did n't really pay care as I kept looking at her and trying to hold open my manpower from touching her. Halfway during the movie I notice that the armrest was up and her aphrodisiac legs were fairly close to my hired hand so I carefully leaned over rustling in her ears `` that 's totally me '' while patting my hands on her thighs in sync with the friend telling a gag on screen. I kept my hands there and she tightened up but did n't really gave any implications to her discomfort. As I already promised myself that I would just say whatever I thought I leaned in again after a match minutes and said `` does it rag you that my manpower are on your legs ? I like the feel of your pants. I can propel them if it makes you uncomfortable. ``
It took a distich arcsecond as she continued to stare at the screen but she finally responded `` I do n't mind. '' I could n't think it, I was about to blow my freight just from touching her second joint ; how could I even have sex with her I thought. After a patch I wanted to crowd the edge so I began to rub her a picayune and to the inside. I felt her tense up but she continued to keep an eye on the pic. I got a little more bold and with my little digit I began to slew it up into her fork almost touching but not. I could finger the heat coming from her and it drove me sick. Embolden with my new found honesty I leaned in again.
'' She is really hot ( oral presentation of the actress on screen ), but I still think the way you look today ... ..you are way hotter. '' I watched her shocked reaction and furtive glances at me.
'' I do n't think so but thanks anyways. '' she responded. I smiled and watched the relaxation of the motion-picture show while my hands gently rubbed her upper flop second joint. After the moving-picture show was over it was already dark. The picture field of operations was full and hoi polloi they were walking every which way. I thought it was a good opportunity to grab her hands feigning that I did n't want to get split up. Her work force were delicate and warm as I pulled her along towards the exit. It reminded me of the past when we would give hands everywhere, the curse Base of the friend zone : holding hands.
Outside the air was nice and cool with a rebuff walkover, I looked over and saw that her haircloth was gently blown over her face. It was the emasculated affair as she brushed her hair out of her eyes, sadly this made her break our postponement to do so. She caught me staring and asked `` why are you just smiling looking at me ? '' I caught a intimation of fun in her voice.
'' I was thinking that we should go catch dinner and beverage so I can continue to tell you how beautiful you are. '' I said with a jot of fear that I might give birth scared her off.
I could n't quite read her face through her pilus but I think it was surprise with a touch of amusement. `` Ok, do you know a place ? ''
'' I do, let 's go ! '' I said and led the way. Lucky that this shopping block/plaza has a bar located conveniently near the theater. The bar was a small pub that you would retrieve anywhere that has a business district. We sat furthest away from the big concealment TVs so we could hear each other while still able to see the whole bar.
We settled into our comfort geographical zone well-off as the crapulence kept coming. We decided on sharing a bunch of starter since we were still full from dejeuner. We joked and gag, talking about everything and anything. It was easy to draw a blank that we have n't seen each former in so long when the synergy was so palpable. As we got to our fourth round I remembered that we use to joke about Robot sex of all things. It was a long inside joke about the future when we would be able-bodied to put our head inside robots. I would say that I if I could, I would have the most get along robot penis ever being able to move in every which way with shakiness settings and lots of Equus caballus power for thrusting. She would always importune that it would be obsolete at that point because anyone not in a automaton would be dead from all the STD 's due to masses like me, we would agree and laugh.
As the conversation lulled a bit I asked `` so give you changed your thinker about my robot member ? '' She almost spat her imbibe out while laughing so hard from the sudden question. This led to a long debate on semisynthetic lubrication or organic lubrication, then it went into a debate on firmness of a penis ; if too hard can be a bad thing. Before I knew it the time read almost midnight and the conversation veered into personal illusion.
'' So what is/was your ultimate fancy fille and what did you do ? '' She asked with a mischievous smirk, eyes only slits leaning over with her teat resting on the table. My idea went clean as I stared at her not so covered cleavage.
After a minute of arc I took a sip of my drink and leaned over until we were almost nose to nose which brought a bout of bird from her. I composed myself and with a rear end font said `` My fancy dream young lady is staring me right hand in the eye right now. She has always been so and I believe always will be, as for the act I would first please her with every extremity I have. I would eat her pussy until the slop dripped down to her toes, I would clean every inch of her cutis with my knife and then some. I would use my fingerbreadth, toes, elbows, genu, mouth, and body to generate her such joy that she would blank out her own figure. When she 's lying drained from all her wet orgasm I would fuck her in every hole until my body happy chance and I am no longer able-bodied to displace anything ! '' I said the final with an iniquity grin and settled back to take a drink.
By the time I finished her eye were as big as saucers and her mouth hung exposed slightly, I reached down and puzzle a Saratoga chip into her mouth from the nachos. She jerked back and chewed on reflex still staring at me unblinking. I think she was pondering how to reply or maybe formulating an escape architectural plan. When she opened her mouth and was finally about to say something I cut her off ...
'' Whew that was a dinner party, did you like the nachos ? '' I said changing the guinea pig, at to the lowest degree trying to. She did n't seize with teeth. I almost said 'just kidding'but I decided that the truth felt just to let out.
She scrunched her fount a little and let out a `` WHAT THE inferno ! ? ! no you do n't get to not explicate ! '' When I played deaf for a pair of s she almost shouted `` WELL ! ``
'' Well what ? What I said was the truth. I 'm sorry you do n't want to hear it but I 'm certainly you knew, you can not not know ... ... right ? '' I said mildly.
'' I ... ... uh ... .um ... ... I kind of figured so, I guess. '' She seemed to deflate a little as she pondered what to do next. Finally she said quietly `` for how long ? ``
I decided to be a fresh ass and responded with `` I 'm willing to go all night and through the week if that 's what it takes ! '' She finally let out a laugh and smile and swatted me on my head.
'' Ass ! You know what I 'm asking. '' She exclaimed.
'' Well pretty much since the first time I met you at that party I guess. It ... ..I mean the touch sensation never left, it dulled a little but it was n't gone. When I saw you today, it was if we were back at the party so long ago and I saw you in that 'cute black piece of tail me dress'. I never forgot how aphrodisiacal you are ; age and motherhood did n't appear to have diminished your looks. If anything I think you are many level more sexy now, especially those ... ( here I cupped my hands on my chest and pretended to wedge ).
She looked exasperated at this and started to laugh so hard that she almost spilled her deglutition. `` Oh my god, you 're so still the Lapplander ! fountainhead thanks but I do n't sense the way you explained about me, me with milk and god knows what over my clothes all the fourth dimension. '' She says while shaking her head in submission. I think the boozing are definitely making both of us more honest because she does n't seem to be pushing me back from all this ego stroking.
I came to a decision that I should definitely hit my move, it 's now or never. I have zippo to drop off, and the alcohol is making me far more confident than I should be. I leaned over again with a pitiful expression on and said `` look, I really enjoy you. ( I paused for striking affect and hoped to catch her nerve string ) When we stopped talking I was really unfrequented I lost my fantasy and best friend. I know you needed to hold out your life with your class and I respect that but my animation was n't the same. '' I looked down and sighed deeply hoping she would find guilty. I pushed forward `` I know you are leaving soon and I might not ever see you again and that sucks you know ? I was wondering if you could ... ... maybe ... ... ..stay with me tonight so that I might at to the lowest degree get to know what heaven feel like. '' It was the most disgusting and bum matter I have ever said but she is Worth depraved actions
I think the alcohol is doing its obligation because she seems to be considering it. She was looking down at the tabular array for a spell and finally looked up. `` What do you signify ride out with you ? '' She knew damn well what I meant, I guess she wanted me to specialise before she conceded or denied my request.
In an inexperienced person vocalisation as not to sound too tidal bore I said `` I just want you by my face tonight, I need you in my weapon system like we are in beloved. We use to catch some Z's together all the time remember ? '' It was true that in the past we sometimes slept in the same bed but I did n't mention that those multiplication it was because we were too drunk to care or fuck.
'' Just sleeping ? With clothes on ? '' She asked with brow up skeptical.
'' Clothes, no apparel ... ..does it matter ? '' I said trying hard not to smile.
'' Walter Scott ... ..I do n't cerebrate my hubby would apprize it either way. '' She said almost firmly.
I had to intend fast, I needed to convert her, short of pouring snapshot down her throat. `` He does n't cause to know, besides he hates me and he was the one who took my friend away from me. I think he owes me some retainer. I just missed you so much and I ca n't remember the last metre I had so practically fun. '' The live on persona was convincing as it was genuine. She finally conceded that we should drop more time tonight to peach. We took a taxi to the hotel she was staying at since she was closing on the sale of her house here. When we got to the room I was trying to not look to happy, keeping a neutral face on. She excused herself to go to the wash room to change and what not.
An time of day past before she came out but what she had on almost made me forget the anger and curiosity at why she took so long. Her face was newly scrubbed and I can see how soft and glazed her brass was without make up. Her hair was pulled back into a knot and it looked damp. She was wearing an oversize T-shirt with no bra, I could n't tell if she wore panties or not but her legs were goddamn sexy. As I was staring at her overtly I realized my legs were starting to feel wet from pre-cum. I wanted nothing more than to rend it out and let off the imperativeness. She must consume notice as she settled on the top of the blankets. I pulled my shirt over my head forgetting it had push and undid my pants. I did n't pull in my pants down yet as my raging heavily on was in to the full firmness. Finally she turned off all but one lighter and I turned around facing away from the bed and pulled my pants down and off along with my socks. I was just in boxer Jockey shorts as I sat on the edge.
'' Why are you sitting that way ? '' She asked laying down.
'' Because my hammer is in full salute and it 's your error. '' I said honestly. She seemed to chuckle and expressed with a suspiration why she was doing this.
I finally lay down side by side to her with a bit of accommodation and stared at the ceiling wondering what she was thinking. She was turned away from me and I can see from the niche of my eye that she was widely awake like me. Finally after a few minutes of secrecy she pulled the concealment over her and settled in. I did the same matter still looking straight up. I can experience the warmness of her so near me and I can reek her sweet citrus fruit face cream. I slowly turned towards her and turn over if I could spoon her, I longed to feel her ass on my bulge. After a het up debate in my head I decided that I should push her as far as I could, maybe I 'm still drunk at this point.
I slowly slid my body closer to her and gently put my arms around her stomach. She immediately placed her manus on top of mine, the motion was n't lost on me ; it meant do n't touch anywhere but here. I put my font at the back of her neck and pulled her to me, she allowed this but it meant that my hard pecker was pressed between her ass. As soon as I felt this I almost came right there. I think the mental strain on my hormones was too much for me because I pulled her tighter and grinded a little. She did n't look to detest this as she started to grind her ass into me. Thinking in hindsight I think she had a footling bit too much to drink as well and it 's surd to hold these things once your already one-half defenseless and pressed together like Lego blocks. My respiration hasten and it was right against her neck and I can see goose bump forming over her let out hide. Her handle on my hand slacken and I quickly brought it down to her thighs right where her shirt ended. I began to slowly rub her thigh while discreetly pushing her shirt up. I can feel her body tense up and originate to fidget. I inched my way up to her hips around her ass and squeezed a little, this prison term she once again brought her manus on top of mine. I was n't deterred this sentence, my lust was boiling over at this occasion so I reached around quite determined to get between her legs and put my hands on her pussy. To my surprise she was n't wearing panties and I instantly felt her wet, wet slit. I used my thumb to subdue her button as my former four fingerbreadth worked their way between her slippery sass and began to rub.
She let out a moan and execration as her work force once again shot on top of mine and her ramification closed over my bridge player. This actually worked against her as my fingers were already trapped inside of her and all she did was put pressure onto herself. She began shuddering and contorted into a more fetal position pressing her ass hard into me. I was driven at this point, closed legs or not I kept my fingers working deeper into her and side to side. The Lapp meter I was full on grinding into her with my hard bulge. This kept on for five minutes and then fifteen, finally she moaned and convulsed into her orgasm. Her walls were crushing my fingers and soaking them in an minute.
Once she subsided in her throes I slowly pulled my fingers out and brought them to my mouth sucking all of her Sweet juices up. She was laying there panting with her boldness pressed into her pillow, my movement had pulled the cover off of us except our legs. Her rose hip were so sonsie laying on her side like that with her shirt pulled up and bunched at her stomach, I can see her smooth perfect ass and the tail between them that hinted at the most rattling experience if I were to mystify my prick there. As I reached to take out my packer down she suddenly threw cold water on my fantasy.
'' No Sir Thomas More please. '' She said shakily. My pugilist were right at my stifle when I stopped what I was doing, tool shooting straight at her ass.
'' You seemed like you liked it. '' I stated simply.
She seemed to draw more into her pillows because I barely heard her. `` I did, and I really am sorry that you did n't get to do your matter but this is wrong, I 'm married with kids ! ``
'' If you like it, you like it. Do n't justify cheating with stopping now. '' I said testily. I was very angry and very horny. Two things combined can either go very skilful or very, very wrong.
'' I 'm so sorry. '' She said almost tearful.
Seeing her almost in rent made me go a little soft, just a little. `` Can you at least tell me honestly that you would it if thing were dissimilar ? '' I said in an exasperate voice.
She turned around and looked me in oculus and flickered down to my cock and up to my chest of drawers before settling on my face. `` Yes, of trend. I am a char first and foremost. In a different situation I would have sex your robot penis until it broke ! '' She chirped with a smile.
I could n't decide if she really meant that or just took shame on me. As I concentrated on her fount I saw that her expression switched from guilt feelings to lust and back. I decided to allow it at that instead of saying something snide I said `` I 'm going to take a cascade and go home. '' I then walked towards the bathroom kicking my underwear off and walking butt naked into the convenience before she could say anything. As I showered I replayed everything that happened tonight in my header. The way her body moved and felt, the way she responded to my contact like she loved it. The more I thought about it the more angry I got, the figure of her ass and leg kept playing in my mind. My cock responded in turn, getting hard again. As I stood there under the atomizer of weewee stroking my dick I snapped.
I turned off the water and patted myself as dry as I can and saunter out of the lav. Monica was laying on her cover with a arm resting on her foreland. I could n't record the blank shell look on her font but she seemed to be deep in thought and did n't acknowledge me standing there naked looking down at her. I walked up and jumped on top of her straddling her rosehip, articulatio genus on either side. I leaned down holding myself up with both blazon I kissed her deeply. She did n't reply for a couplet s but then I felt her buss me back. We laid there kissing for a distich minutes until I broke off breathing heavily. Her center were still closed. `` I do n't buy your bullshit guilt, if you want me take me. We do n't accept to see each other ever again when you leave yet again ! ``
Before she could reply I pushed myself down and dove face first between her legs, at the Saami time my men swept up her shirt. I began sucking her clit almost instantly upon physical contact, she let out a moan and a `` oooooh diddly-squat. '' It drove me to tongue fuck her snatch as deep as my lingua would go. As I pulled my tongue out and over her clit I replaced them with my fingers and began to milk her G-Spot. With my hands I reached under her shirt and began to play with her nipples which were hard as diamonds. I tweaked them between my fingers and she let out a yip. My anger kept building the more I pleased her that I did n't even wait until she came before I got up pulled her to me by her hips and placed my cock just inside her. I reached and snap up a leg in each arm and rammed my cock to the hilt into her. The pain in the ass of entering her so fast just added to my ira and I began pumping in and out furiously. She let out a hard breather but did n't say anything but you can see it in her nerve that she felt the pain too.
pull her legs further into her in a fold and lifting my bollock began to smack into her asshole. I never let off a second as I pounded her pussy as hard as I could, face in a grimace. She began to ease up from the pain in the ass and I can recite from her groan and face that she was starting to feel good. It was unmistakable from the amount wetness that was coming out of her, running down her ass crack and cheeks. After what seemed ages ( when in world was seven moment or so ) I pulled out. I turned her over by effect but she realized what I wanted and completed the bit on her own onto all fours. I placed a pillow under her and quickly adhere my peter back into her, hard. She was moaning incoherent watchword as I began to pounding into her ass. After a bit I stuck a fingerbreadth into my mouth to get it wet and started to tease her whoreson which was a cute little pucker. She tried to make for a hand around and stop me but I brushed it aside and cleave a fingerbreadth in. She let out a scream of pleasure or botheration, I do n't know. I leaned down and began to kiss her elbow grease soaked back and neck while thrusting late and putting my weight down, alternating between leaning over and leaning back and smacking her ass red.
After a couple min of wild hammering, I could n't hold out anymore and said I was going to cum soon. She told me not to cum inside her because she was n't on the oral contraceptive right now. I said it 's either going in her sassing or her kitty-cat and that she needed to break up fast. Right after she moaned out to cum in her mouth I was already starting to shoot. I got off and reached down to her shoulder to riff her and did n't take a crap it to her mouth but shot ribbon of cum all over her whisker, look, and neck. Some got on the pillow she was laying on. After the last spurt convulsed out of me I collapsed on her half turned body and gave small kisses on her stomach. There was no lyric spoken as I got off future to her. She got up and went into the bathroom and the cobbler's last affair I heard before iniquity took me was the swallow hole running.
I woke up early the side by side morn around six, I 've always woke up early when drinking the Night before. It seems like a savage trait to have as my oral sex was pounding into a hangover. I looked to my left and saw that Monica was laying right up to me with her header buried into my sides. The computer storage of my raging ass with my married Quaker came rushing in and I smiled. My hanker sought after obsession finally came to realization in a most conclusive explosion. I gently sat up and just stared at her sleeping chassis, ass out to the side, jersey pulled up to knocker exposing her cushy body and sensational peg. After a while she murmured something lost in the grogginess of eternal sleep and rubbed her centre. She seemed to be struggling with her electric current place nestled next to me one-half naked and me fully naked. She had this startled deer expression on her precious nerve and I could n't help but let out a little laugh as I got up and started to seek for my clothes. Just as I was done pulling on my shirt and socks she was just about to say something when her headphone started blaring.
'' hi ? '' She said sleepily.
'' Hey hun ... ... ... yea I just got up. '' Listening. `` No it 's OK, I should have gotten up already. '' I can only hold that it was that dastardly husband of hers. I quietly put my shoes on grabbed my keys and looked at her.
'' How are my sister doing ? ... ... ... ... ... ... .... Are they driving you crazy yet ? '' She looked up and I can see that she wanted to say something to me but I was already moving to the threshold smiling.
'' Yeah ... ..yeah ... .really ? She said that ? '' She looked up again and gave me a besotted smiling as if saying 'this is my life and you made me Lolium temulentum'. I gave her my most charming apologetic smile and went out the threshold.
I did n't need to try her say 'sorry'or 'it was a misapprehension'so I left without saying anything. In realism I did n't want to discover myself try to cling onto her, I did n't require to see me try to express how one night could never be sufficiency and that I wanted all of her. As I got into the cab I gave a quick glance up at the hotel and wondered if I would ever see her again. In idea I thought evilly about how I always wanted to go to NY and maybe I should visit one day ...