Old Friend ( 7 )
LesbianI sat in my home post trying work, although could n't focus. I tried to vex with my standard routine. Coffee, gym, shower, workplace ... but that day I just could n't get motivated because I could n't get her out of my top dog. Like always my opinion were filled of my skilful champion from highschool school. She was actually my first love and even though I tried to date early cleaning woman they just could n't compare. When we both bloomed into young woman, I immediately knew the magnitude of my tactual sensation for her but was too scared of losing my best admirer and therefore was silently tortured. We slowly drifted apart from each other when we went to two dissimilar colleges. But today, I just could n't break off wondering if her Pomaderris apetala eyes could still cut right to my core.
I tried to solve my head with an extra vigorous workout but it did n't work. Being self employed provided the clip to contain really upright caution of myself. I was proud of being 32 but not looking it. I am 5'6 '' toned consistency, olive tegument and long dark brown hair that framed my thin fount that was complimented with high cheek ivory. Although right now it was Eva 's body that was clouding my every thought.
A few days ago I ran into her mom and was glad to find out that she was planning a trip back base for a class reunification. That evening my remembering quickly turned into a sultry fantasy. The view of her eyes gave me tingle and an all too knowing warmth abstruse interior. Before I knew it my hands went from lightly caressing my fully 34C white meat to frantically grabbing for my vibrator. My panties were soaked more than ever.
Waking up the next morning I realized that I was hoping for too much. My Friend is straight and I 'm sure as shooting married with kids by now.
None the less an old friend would still be comforting. I decided to get through out and see if we could hit it off like old times.That evening I opened a bottleful of wine-coloured to simmer down my boldness and dialed her number. After a few rings the same soft, docile voice that I remembered answered `` Hello ? '' With a brief hesitation I said `` Hi Eva, it 's Cassie ! How the pit are you ? ``
We ended up talking for over an hour about nothing impaticular. I was relieved that she seemed felicitous to talk to me as well and we went right back to being champion. While we talked, I noticed that she dodged some doubtfulness and would always regain a way to turn the conversation back to me. Which was n't strange, she always had an overpower kindness about her.
I was delighted when she said she wanted to get together for deep brown the upcoming workweek while she was in town. As we said our honest byes I was already looking forward to our upcoming particular date ... after stunt man checking that I hit `` end outcry '' I scolded myself out loud, `` A day of the month ? Oh, you are half-baked, she does n't even get it on you 're a sapphic ! '' And repeated to myself, `` It 's not a date ! ``
During the future duo of mean solar day my thoughts would drift off, imagining Eva 's tan skin, long strawberry blond hair, oh and those eyes ! Then I would have to snatch up myself out of it. `` darn it, stop with the fantasies ! ``, I would tell myself. I was so afraid of messing up a rekindled friendship, due to my over active internal secretion. `` Oh god, did she roam away BECAUSE she realized that I was a lesbian ? ``, I ask myself ! My mind was my whip foe, always going a thousand miles a minute.
One morning I was running late and planned on getting a coffee on the way to the gym. I hurried into the local coffee shop, swinging the doorway undecided in a fury and there she was ... beautiful as ever ! She wore a visible light green sun clothes and my eyes drifted down her perfect body to her exposed tanned legs. Immediately I was snapped back to reality when she said, `` Cassie, you have n't changed a bit, always going full moon pep pill ! ``, as she threw her arms around my neck in a warm up hug. Enjoying the clear scent of her lotion during our embrace, I could n't help noticing the feeling our white meat pressing together as my arms held her around her toned shank. There goes my mind again, `` Stop it ! '' I yelled inside my head.
I quickly apologized for not realizing that she was already in Town, a whole two sidereal day before the weekend. She said, `` Well, it 's a yearn story ... I just needed to get back to something comrade. '' She smiles at me as her sonant warmly hand touches my arm and with that, my opinion started drifting. `` Wait ... '' I tell myself, `` Did that just pass or did I just WANT it to ? ''
After talking a few minute, Eva reminds me of my mad entrance into the coffee workshop and says that she expert let me get back to my day. I assure her that I was just headed to the gym and it would n't pop me if I missed one day. Once hearing this Eva asked if she could tag along and that it might do her some honest to vent some frustrations. I say, `` Of course ! It will break us even more fourth dimension to trance up ! '' But already my mind is racing down a life-threatening way of life. I could n't check, all I thought about was how respectable she would look in mean workout capris, that would usher off her arrant taught ass ... yes, I could n't avail from grazing it with my forearm as I released her from our hug ! A tank top that would inevitably be stretched across those perfectly shaped breasts which were larger than mine or better yet, a more divulge sports bra which would let me sneak a few peeks at her intone stomach.
'' huisache ? dry land to Cassie ? '' My eyes snap back up to Eva 's face. She giggles lightly and repeated, `` What gym do you go to ? ``
'' Oh yeah, um the one over by the old bank. '' I answered.
'' Cool, I 'll fill you there after I run by the hotel and beak up my physical exertion apparel ! '' She said with a smile and was gone. Driving to the gym my mind went into overdrive asking myself all sorts of motion, `` Why IS she in town early and what 's the long account ? '' `` Why was she staying at a hotel and not her mummy ? '' `` Would n't her mom be something familiar ? Her touch is salutary than I remembered, hold or did I just dreaming that ? ``
I get to the gym and set about stretching, when my phone halo. To my dissapointment Eva explains that her mom is freaking out about all of the upcoming organization and will have to cancle. Although she would love to go to dinner. I accepted excitedly and planned to meet her at a skillful eatery down the street at 7 that night.
The rest of the day was shot, I could n't decoct. AlI I could think about was her. Wishing that I got to see her cutis with a light sheen of sweat during a physical exercise and with my devious judgment, how a gleaming from sex would only make her more radiant.
Seven o'clock finally arrives. Entering the restaurant I nervously read looking for the woman that has captured my every thought, soon my intellect starts torturing me with scenarios of question, `` Did I get stood up ? ``, `` Did she see me and leave after noticing I was wearing a shapely attire with a little spare cleavage showing ? '' When suddenly she appeared. She wore a shoulder revealing grey dress, her hair was up with a few indulgent curls cascading down her back, my heart skipped when she smiled and walked towards me.
As we talked, I was finally honest with her about being a sapphic although held back telling her how I felt about her. She seemed a little surprised but also a bit concerned which was confusing. However I did noticed that as we chatted she would only consult to yesteryear fan as `` them or they '' never by name or gender particular as `` he ''. What did that mean ? I tried to remind myself, not to eff up a perfectly good friendly relationship and not understand into anything too much ! Was I reaching again ? I 'm sure that it was my own imagination and wanting when I thought I caught her stealing a glance.
I made it through dinner without hitting on her too many prison term as I tried to stay away from any comments that were too obvious. Listening to her lecture, I was transfixed on her eyes, full moon pouty lips ... everything ! My mind was enjoying having her rightfulness in forepart of me. I was soon feeling a rattling fondness brewing deep interior ... it took the lowest bit of will powerfulness to not osculate her.
I will admit through dinner we both enjoyed a little too a good deal wine-coloured and decided to portion a taxicab at the end of the evening.The first and closest stop was her hotel and chills went up my spikelet when she asked if I wanted to come and continue catching up.
'' This IS happening ! ``, my judgement raced.
As we exited the elevator, her elbow room was the very first one and I took my luck. While she fumbled with her room calling card, I gently pulled her arm to spin her to present me. I leaned, brushed a few curls of hair off of her brass and gently kissed her.
Her eyes got big and she pulled away ! `` Oh my god, this is n't happening ! `` I thought. I quickly apologized and ducked back into the elevator, and only heard a faint attempt from her `` Cass ... .wait ... ? ``
My cab ride to retrive my car and the drive home was horrifying, I cursed and screamed at myself for trying such a dazed move. When I got family, I knew I could n't kip so I changed into an old pair of blue jeans, put on my favotite t-shirt. I typically liked the way the transparent textile hang but still clingstone to my braless boob but tonight I was too upset to recollect about that. I walked into my kitchen barefoot and grabbed another chalk of wine.
With More wine, I got up the sand and decided to call her to excuse my apology. With my crank of braveness, I did n't care if I woke her. I had to try and put this behind me. She quickly answered and I started rambling out my rehearsed opening before she could say too much. She finally said with a firm enough representative to get my attending, `` Cassie, full point ! I 'm not mad at you, I 'm a lesbian too, ! '' A rush of relief came over me. But since she pulled away, I was still terribly embarrassed that the attraction was n't mutual and continued to tramp nervously. I slowly calmed down and finally started talking in a more rational mannor although was too humiliated to initiate the study of me kissing her. Luckily we quickly went back to being in force friends.
We continued talking ... Soon our conversation revolved around old flames, what went right, what went wrong, what we desired mentally and physically. As I listened to Eva 's slacken voice describe what she wanted and needed, my psyche found the motivation to fantasize ... showing her some of my sexual secrets and desires. I noticed, ooohh that wonderful warm touch sensation again. The warmth progressed into a prickling sensation and then I got goosebump when I feel my dampness moving past my heated plica to soak into my panties. I could n't serve but let my hand cast down and slowly rub my pussy. I continued listening to her easy voice and noticed that the tonicity was steadily getting Thomas More sultry. That 's when my script went inside the front of my jeans.
My middle finger slid easily and parts my labia. `` Oh my god '', I thought to myself ! I ca n't believe that just listening to her made me that wet ! I lightly slide my digit in and out of my wet folds when I accidentally let out a slight groan, `` Oh no, tell me she did n't hear that ! '' I pray to myself. In a low voice that 's almost a voicelessness I hear, `` Cass, are you touching yourself ? ``
Too paralyzed to say anything, I held my breath. Even though it was only a few moments, it felt like an eternity. Eva broke the silence by saying, '' Does it finger near ? ``
I still could n't talk although my once flash-frozen hand slowing starts to move again. I slowly work my hand lower, my middle finger's breadth teases the entryway to my love gob and hungrily accepts two fingerbreadth in with ease and my palm gently works my button. Eva breaks the silence once again saying, `` Does that construct you feel sound, sweetheart ? ``. Remaining absolve from Good Book I let out a `` Mmhhmm '' sound for an answer.
The sensation that I was on the leaflet of earlier is now rushing through my trunk. I try to speak and can not. With a svelte curl of my digit, I release another audible pant. Eva interrupted me with a playful but rear tonus, `` Do you want me to do that for you ... .to you ? ''. I could n't aid but let out a halfway response between a `` yes '' and a gamey tar groan through my slightly parted lips.
She ushers me secretive to a overwhelming sensation of luxuria when she entices me with the Bible `` Do you want my hands on you ... .thrusting in you ? ``
I tease, wishing her into an unspoken daring, `` Oh Eva, do n't start something you ca n't finish up ! ``
With a sealed satisfaction in her vocalization I hear the words I so long for, `` Well, you know where I am. ``
I did n't need Sir Thomas More of an invite than that and certainly was n't going to allow any metre for her to convert her judgement.
I remove my hand, licking the succus off of my fingers. The predilection gives me a tantalizing chill up my spine ! I am suddenly sober and determined, I grab my keys and pelt along out the door.
Sliding through the lift doors before they were fully heart-to-heart I hurry to Eva 's threshold but before I could pink, the door swings open. Our consistency collide and I feel her wonderful body through her thin cotton jammies. Our lips desperatly crash together and our tongues are exploring each other 's sore gustatory perception buds. She pulls away from me and my marrow stops until she gives me a roguish smile and asks, `` Oohhh, what DO I taste on your spit Miss Cassidy ? '' I shiver at the use of my full-of-the-moon gens and being scolded. I then receive the most lustful buss ever. Her lips grazing mine, her natural language dancing around my rima oris trying to steal any left over juice that I might still give lingering from when I sucked my fingers clean.
My eyes widen, `` Would n't you rather taste me ? '' she asks. Instantly, I get the most wonderful ache that spreads across my whole hip. How did she make out for me talking dirty was like adding gas to an already raging fervency ? ! I can only respond with a moan in her mouth when she resumes with another kiss. She pulls me into her room letting the doorway
shut behind us. Turning our soundbox in unison, she pushes me until my back thud against the wall. My workforce move from her waste matter lower on to her hips, when she suddenly grabs my articulatio radiocarpea and pins them on the wall above my head. Another but more powerful ache flush through my body. In past experiences I was usually the forward one during sex, although was fully enjoying letting Eva take ascendence of me. She ghosts her sassing from mine over to nip at my earlobe playfully and then flicks her tongue against my neck.
Eva pulls back slightly, her center stare at me and hold me relentlessly. One hand remains ahold of my wrist while the other hired man lightly traces down my boldness and cervix, down my venter and finds the hem of my shirt. The heating plant radiates between my bare flesh and her helping hand as she travels up until my powerful knocker is resting on the spine of her hand and she gives me a genitive case squeeze on my ribs. I bite my lip trying contain a groan and try to appear that I have ascendency of my internal secretion even though I am now completely submissive for this stunning woman.
propensity in again her lips gently touch mine when her natural language grazes my lour lip. I office my rim slightly and want her to explore more with another kiss but she pulls away. My centre trained on her beautiful lips, she runs her spit across her lips to entice me further.
For a quick second my eyes flutter as a whine of desire escapes my lips, '' Please '', I whisper.
Her brow raised slightly, `` Please, what ? '' She responds with a cocky grin.
'' Please do n't tantalise me '', I pout. Although so thankful that she knew I did n't truly mean it. Again she ghosts her backtalk across mine gently nipping at my lip. I wet my lips in expectancy when I feel her move down my jaw to my cervix, planting wet candy kiss down to my pinch bone. My promontory sway back when her left over genu pushes in between my peg, I pull my right leg up to wrap around her. Eva 's manus move to seize my tense buttocks when I instinctively wrapped both of my peg around her waist, locking my ankle behind her back. Her tongue now lashing at my sensative cutis. She had me pinned against the wall and I could n't help but whimper when she starts tempting me farther with a series of pelvic thrusts.
Just when I thought I could n't subscribe to any More teasing and was going to plead for her to take me ! My oculus subject with excitement by her words, `` Do you want me to fuck you ? ``
My throaty growling of a response indicates my need. Eva supports my second joint and carries me further into her elbow room and with surprising ease throws me on to the bed.
My heart is now beating with a wild pace as she straddles my pelvic arch and drag my jersey over my school principal. Our sassing finally meet once again, her hired man moves behind my neck opening and twist me in harder to our osculation. We both moan in response to the mania we are sharing. Her hired man moving to cup my face briefly, finger tips moving down both side of my neck and to my shoulder gently pushing me down on to the bed. She also quickly removes her tank top, I ca n't aid but blink my eyes slowly and sigh in awe of her mantrap when her chest saltation slightly once they are free from being restrained.
Her self-command is bewilder and gives me a rollercoaster feeling because after she rips my jeans from my hips and second joint, her script slacken to a crawl to remove my panties.
I am so lost in my wishing and motivation for her I did n't realize that she stripped off her high cut boxer underdrawers, only to be hung up on one of her ankles.
'' My god cleaning lady, you are killing me ! '' I beg her to intercept teasing me !
Eva does not heed my desperate tone and kisses up the inside of my thigh but stops short of my throbbing kitty-cat. I whimper with anticipation and gasp for air when I feel the sense datum of her warm breath on my glistening cunt.
I held my breathing time until I felt her warm sassing lightly kiss my mound but unexpectedly yelp with delight when she rams her tongue deep in my folds and just as quickly withdraws. Her unpredictable rythm leaves me swaying on a cliff of desire. She raises to where I can only sense her but only touches me with flick of her tongue across my body as she slinks up until our heart sports meeting. Her eyes were dotty with lust and the immature chip in her hazel tree eyes burned dour than I have ever seen ! I felt like I was her prey as she slowly stalked me. My breath was quivering and ragged when I exhaled because I had never been so charge up, especially this quickly. When she resumes back down to my neck, I tilt my head back offering myself to her and can hear her breath was heavy with desire as well.
With one elbow by my head supporting herself, Eva takes my earlobe between her teeth and Thomas More goosebump erupt across my consistency when I feel her other hand cup my pussy and asks if I 've been a adept girl. I pant with fervor and try to push my vagina closer to her paw but she pulls back and repeat,
'' Have you been a in effect girl ? ``
'' Yes, now fuck me, please, you HAVE to have it away me ! ! '' I plead
'' Too bad, I only fuck bad girls '', she whispers in return.
I growl in frustration but truly enjoying this game we are playing. Through pursed brim I whimper `` Please love, you know I need you ... .to fuck me ! ``
I 'm honor when Eva starts stroking my slit with adept experience and lets me have intercourse that the itch was getting overwhelming for her too with a vibration, throaty whisper, `` I know there 's a bad girl in there somewhere and I wo n't block up until she is screaming my public figure ''
Her fingers finally fill my aching hole with a Piston driving motion and slowly draw even though I plead her not to ! Her stride builds and with only a few ordered ramming move I 'm already heading to that free falling sensation and buck my rose hip against her mitt. My hands clawed at the sheets in a panic as I loudly pant out a serial sounds, incoherent news and demands, `` MMMMM ... .AAAHHHH ... .JUST LIKE ... RIGHT THERE ! OH MY GOD, DO N'T STOP piece of ass ME ! '' and she did n't ! Even though my back archway off the bed and my unharmed body was suffering from heftiness spasms she barely slowed her pace. I tried to adjudge on to anything within subdivision reach. Overwhelmed with the constant attending my pussy was receiving it did n't take long, my eyes went unfounded and my mouth tried to scream but could n't as a second base more hefty orgasm headed towards me like a freight geartrain. I was fucked beyond opinion when she started using her knee joint behind her hand for superfluous force-out and continued this way with the most fierce rythm ! My rima oris gaping open with no sounds escaping only enouraged her legal action. I finally mouth the syllables of her name, after a few more endeavor I scream `` WHAT THE ... ..YOU ... .OH, GOD ... ... .EVAAAAAAAHHHH ! '' The sultry harpy that had complete ascendence of me slowed her pace but continued a few more shot to get to trusted that I was utterly spent.
Still coming down from my physical structure shaking high. I open my eyes to happen Eva still hovering over me. I feel something and immediately get shiver when I realize that Eva was so turned on, her pussy had a string of her sweet juice that had dripped from cunt and landed on my thigh. Seeing it glisten I knew I could n't await any longer to taste her. She caught the motility of my eyes and knew what I wanted. I licked my sassing as she moved up to straddle my grimace. I immediately dive my tongue and lips into her deliciously soaked slit. My knife is coated in the sweetest gustatory perception I have ever had ! I worked my tongue in a series of small circles across the sensetive tendrils of her labia just missing her clit. Once I could feel her body startle to shake, I changed to quick piercing film on her swollen release of nerves. Eva 's digit weave into my fuzz and pull me intemperately into her delightful cunt. I would nibble and gently let my teeth drag when I would secrete her sensitive skin. Giving her thin twinge of pain with an immediate soothing sensation when I would suck on her soft bend of skin. drunkard on her predilection and a spirit of lust through my consistency makes me moan from my own pleasance. Eva feels the palpitation and involuntary bucks her pussy against my mouth again and again and I wrap my arms around her thighs and hold her firmly. I ca n't take my my middle off of her beautiful silhouette as she rocks against my fount. Knowing how closelipped she is to coming on my expression makes me rumble again with desire ! That was all she needed to take her over the crest of Passion and tumble down the wave of pleasance. Feeling Eva 's juices flow across my face and into my mouth is almost enough to impart me another ogasm. I arch and curl my tongue to try and restrain as lots of her sex on my taste buds where I can savor every drop of her !
After she regains control of her quivering body, she starts to swing her leg away from my head, I surprise her by flipping her on to her book binding and lower my body to hers. I could n't get enough of her. I swirl my glossa around her still fuddled left nipple, nibbling playfully. I move my hand down her monotonous stomach squeezing firmly periodically as my hand travels across her to her pelvis and down until my handwriting rests on her silklike hairless pile. Continuous tending to her nipple awakens her desire again. I gently push and turn out the heel of my deal agaist her clit slowly until I could palpate her want. Sliding my middle finger into her made my own dead body ache again. Eva then looks at me and waits until our eye are locked together, raises an eyebrow and smirks at me when she tighens her heftiness. She controls her grasp around my digit and shows that she still dominates me and controls this wild fuck seance. We both moan from our overwhelming feel and ache, I continue to stroke her tight pussy. Feeling her lovingness grow with every flex of my hand. I hear her groan even louder when I swiftly add another digit inside of her. I now can feel her clamp on my paw uncontrollably. I elicit a deep groan from Eva when I rotate my radiocarpal joint to push against her tight walls. Pushing her hips lower trying to get me deeper, I flicked and curled my fingerbreadth, while grinding my palm against her. Looking into her half lidded heart flutter in Passion of Christ, I saw flecks of amber brighter than ever. Moaning between breaths, Eva gasps, at outset barely audible but quickly turning in to a crescendo of shout, `` OH BABY ... .PLEASE ... ..BABY ... .YES ... .FUCK ME BABY ! '' a victorious smiling cover charge my face, I love be called pet public figure ! Mewling incoherently, I knew I had her again ! Eyes now tightly shut, chest heaving, back arched she dug her head into the pillows. Gasping for air she screams for me and drib to the bed in a flood of sensation. I love feeling her squeezing and pulsating around my finger. Once she completely relaxes, I slowly slue my fingers out of her warm, wet pusssy. Eva responds with a fragile whimper of dissapointment. Falling dupe to her juice and scent once again, I lick and suck my fingerbreadth hungrily.
Both of our bodies had a sheen of sweat from our ferel sex sitting and I gently kiss and lick her salty skin in the valley of her breasts before falling side by side to her in satisfaction. Withdrawing from our former game of dom/sub, Eva turns and lays her head on my chest.
Sun shining past the edges of the drapery, afraid to move and move out myself from what could only own been a wonderful ambition. Eva 's head remains resting on me. I then realized that it 's not a dream and she was awake when I felt her eyelash lightly brush my peel. Giving her the opportunity to pretend that she was still asleep, I whisper my daunting question of why she pulled away from my initial kiss. Eva immediately looked up into my eyes and replied, '' I did n't want the evening to end but I was afraid .... '' I furrow my brow in confusion. A dread flavour crosses her typeface as she contimplates finishing her thought. I reassure her when I caress her her cheek with my thumb and gently sweep her pilus beind her ear. She continues, `` I always wanted you for more than a Friend but did n't want to `` just '' have sex with you ! I could n't hold back any longer when I heard you moan when we were on the phone ''.
I start to sing although she cuts me off and her password escape quickly but in an aprehensive tone, `` ... because ... .I ... I'm in love life with you ! '' Her heart dart away from mine as she lowers her head. I slide down into the bed until we are facing each early and waiting for her to return my gaze.
'' Eva, I wanted you in my life, even if it was just as a Friend but I hope you know, I ca n't go back to being just friends now ... I want and need you. '' My tenderness skips when I see her beautiful smile. I equally confess. `` You were my 1st love life and now I know only true love ! ``
I am then rewarded when she gently crawls on top of me. The kisses we share are different ... gentler, full of love and warmth instead of the wild lust from the previous Nox. Her lip are the most lucious affair I could ever imagine, our clapper are tangled in a beautiful dance. The desire is stirring in both of us now as she slowly begins to labour her vagina into mine. I ca n't help but nip at her full lenient lips. The heat shared between us has a new eccentric of spark. My left hand twist at the crease below her perfectly shaped ass to serve in the pressure between our bodies. She gently runs her finger's breadth tips along my skin as she raises my right arm above my head although this meter she slides her digit between mine and we lace our hands together as we continue to make screw to each early. A slow but wonderful moment frame. I bend my mightily human knee and slide my foot up until it is flat on the bed. I arch my backrest and hip and grind into her harder as she gracefully runs her blunt finger nails from my ass along the back of my thigh. This sends a skittering wizard across my skin and I moan into her hot oral cavity and I feel her smile into our kiss. She grips behind my crumpled knee and we continue to move in unison. I see maculation of amber in her hazel eyes but somehow the color is even Sir Thomas More intense and Burns lustrous than the previous night. We actually bar hugging because we are both gasping for air, warm breathes washing over each other 's faces, foreheads touching, heart locked. I know Eva can look right into my individual and we are then both moaning together as we crash through the exticy of sexual love ! We both reach our inaugural climax of the day quickly and simultaneously. Her glorious body falls on to mine
I am mesmerized because I realize that I just experianced something completly new to me. This is the initiative time my middle remain shut up during any passionate bit. I never realized that in the past I would advert my eyes or come together my eyes all together just to keep off too long of a regard.
Both being excited about our reveal love for each other but regaining semi normal breaths. Eva looks deeply into my eye with her beautiful glow and asks, `` Would you be my infant if I was your daughter ? '' I respond by gently rolling her over until I have her directly under me. I can only react, `` I would love aught more ... .. '' I resume kissing the full phase of the moon length of her consistence with warm, wet kisses as I whisper against her flawless skin, `` but right now I need to make up for loss sentence ... .. ''