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YoungI was a 5 animal foot 25 girl, small for my age and also a chubby girl, as you can imagine I wasn't popular at schooltime, and suffered intimidation for a few long time. I was very very very shy, tremendously shy. I lived alone with mom, she was a nurse, and worked in different shimmy. My dad never loved me he always showed scorn at me and snubbed me when I talked to him, he always told me my parentage was a mistake, but he left us and we never knew from him anymore. My mom was a good mom, but because of her shifts I used to be alone more often than pattern kids.
The intimidation I talked about were always the like 4 daughter and one boy who walked the first of all mile and a half with me who used to push around me. I had a 4 mile base on balls to school, and back home after school again.
One of those days in which they again walked the beginning Roman mile and a half with me, it started again, after calling me thing and I ignoring them, they throwed my Scripture on the ground and while I was picking things of the ground one of them pushed me and trying not to fall I twine my ankle.
It happened in front of and apartment building and soon a man of about 60 years rushed towards me who saw it all happen. They ran away, he helped me pick up my matter and helped me up, but I couldn't standstill so he offered me to put a bandage on my articulatio talocruralis and I decided to take because I didn't want my mom to fuck what was happening at school. I had never told her about the bullying. So that day I went with him and he took charge of my ankle with a bandage.
He watched out for me the next mates of days, but as soon as he wasn't there it all happened again. So one time he offered to wait for me when school ended so he could walk me close to home base. I liked that because at least I went domicile fearless, and he enjoyed doing it. After a calendar month of knowing him and walking me plate we talked about raft of things and I felt very confortable when he was around, I guess I saw him like a form of father anatomy. He invited me to his apartment the days that my mom had afternoon break and wouldn't be home after school, and I had gone a few times, we watched movies and I even did my homework there sometimes. I was convinced after almost two months now of knowing him that he was very kind to me and that I liked going to his apartment.
We talked about everything. He asked me one fourth dimension about my dressing style. I can still call back our conversation, all the affair that happened in that period I have them burned in my nous, everything, sometimes I still hear our conversations in my mind.
- Why do you always wear panoptic jeans and sweaters ?
- I'm not thin ... I am chubby and those clothes don't suit me.
- You're wrong, there are male child who like chubby girls and therefore also like chubby girls dressed sexy.
- Not on my schooltime ... nobody likes fat girls at my school.
- You are not fat, just a footling chubby like you say, but definitely not fat. And you have a very somewhat face.
- You are lying, I am fat.
- You know I could tell of somebody who likes you a lot ...
- Sure ...
- Me.
I blushed immediately and didn't dare looking at at him anymore. I was a very very insecure young lady and very very incredibly shy. I was feeling a little uncomfortable so I told him I had to go family that day. He didn't stop me. But before I left he asked me if he could plunk me up after school tomorrow. I said yes.
When he picked me up I felt so often shame for what he said the day before that I talked less than usual, Ii didn't want him to bestow that conversation up again. He asked me if I would like to go with him to his apartment again and I said yes. We talked about lots of thing like always but 2 hours before I had to leave he suddenly said :
- I mean what I said yesterday Lisa. I like you very much, the way you are and I like your very pretty nerve. But I am not able-bodied to tell how your soundbox looks like wearing always those wide wearing apparel. I'm not asking you to register me your body but at to the lowest degree you could take off your jumper if you are wearing something underneath it. Are you wearing something ?
- Yes, a tanktop ...
- Only a tanktop ?
- Yes ...
- No bra ?
- Oh yes, also a bra ...
- You see, at your age you are already using a bra, you should be proud. You would make me very happy if you would deal your sweater off ...
I felt very ashamed of my breast, I had very big breast for my age, and later in my life I underwent surgery to reduce my breast sizing because of my cervix and upper back pain, and the weight was leading to kyphosis. Also a lot of bullying from the boys at school started always because of my breast, so normally I wore clothes that didn't appearance anything of my breast, and when people started to utter about knocker I always felt very very uncomfortable.
- So Lisa ? You want to do that for me ?
- I don't know ... it embarrass me so much ...
- Why ?
- because of my breast, I feel very abashed because of them, and it's always a motive to bullyrag me at school ...
- I won't bully you because of that, you can be trusted about that. I'm sure they're just jealous.
I thought that it would make no departure if he saw me in perspirer or armoured combat vehicle top and it would make him glad, and because he had been so good for me and helping me with the bullying trouble I felt like ‘ OK I do it for you ’. So I took of my sweater and there I was standing in my jean and tank top.
- You are so beautiful Lisa. I feel so pillock to severalise this Lisa, and I know you probably will not want to talk with me anymore or maybe even see me anymore but ...
- But what ?
- Please assure you don't be mad at me OK ?
- No ...
- promise me ...
- I promise ...
- I think you are so tinker's dam beautiful and um ... I have fallen a little bit in love with you in these two months ...
I immediately started to redden, I didn't know what to think because I liked the fact that mortal at least thought process I was beautiful and I liked the fact that I was wanted by somebody but he was 59. I didn't know what to say so I kept muteness, and was hoping he continued to sing, but I could notice he was not feeling confortable with having told me that.
- I'm so sorry Lisa, I didn't want to make you uncomfortable with this, and if you do not want to reelect here I understand ... I just ... I know I am 59 and you ... but I ... it's just the way I feel, sorry.
I didn't know what to say. I felt so ashamed. It was an uncomfortable situation so I think that's why he changed suddenly.
- I can tell you are wearing a red bra, am I right ?
- Yes.
- That is so sexy Lisa ! Can I see the bra ? I mean just by lifting your top ? Please Lisa ...
I didn't know what to do, I could palpate my face flush. I blocked and didn't know what to do or say, I took the bed of my storage tank top, but wasn't sure if I should uprise it.
- Don't be afraid Lisa cipher can see it, it's only you and me, it's like being on the beach in a bikini, except there is no sand and water, and at to the lowest degree I, am going to keep on my sass shut. I haven't seen Lisa's bra.
- ok ...
I lifted my tank top and was showing my bra to him.
- You are making me very very happy Lisa, you are such a beautiful girl ! Would you consume your tank top of for me ? You don't have to OK, but I would care to see you like if you were in bikini and imagine how you would look like if we were on the beach.
I thought it would do no harm if he could see me like when I was on the beach with my mom, and I took it off.
- You are making me the most felicitous man on the universe Lisa, I mean this. Do you like making me happy Lisa ?
- yes ...
- Is your scanty the Lapplander people of color as your bra ?
- yes ...
- Can I see that too ? Like a bikini ?
- I don't know J ...
- Lisa no one sees you, only you and me here ...
I could only think of the two calendar month we knew each other, he had always been commodity to me and I thought to myself that this was like thanking him for that.
- but I only get down my jeans a little bit ok ?
- That's fine Lisa, thank you.
I lowered a footling bit the waste of my jeans.
- So beautiful Lisa, but I want to see your total panty OK ? Lower your jeans a little bit more ...
I lowered a little bit more until my total step-in was visible.
- Please Lisa lower your jeans to your knees OK ? Then you can dress again OK ?
I lowered my jeans until my knees, and there I was standing while he was sitting on the sofa. He took a polaroid instant camera.
- Lisa, you mind if I take a few pics of you like that ? I'll do it with this camera OK ? So you can see it right away, I just want you to see how beautiful you are.
I thought that there was nothing wrong if he did it like he said so I said yes. He took a presence picture of me and I had to wrench around and he made one of the cover and then he asked me to bend over and made another one.
- You can dress Lisa. Thank you very very much. Please sit next to me when you finish OK ?
- ok ...
I did. He showed me the pics.
- You see ? You are a very pretty girl.
- No I am chubby.
- Maybe you are chubby for little girl of your age, but for me you have a perfective little ass.
- Why you want these painting ?
- Because I can not stop thinking of you and this way I will always induce a aphrodisiac view of you.
- But delight don't show them to cipher, please !
I blushed a lot.
- Who are those kids that are bullying you ?
- Thomas Kid from another family. Why do you want to know who they are ?
- Lisa, tell me, what do you think would happen if I would show them those three moving picture ?
I immediately blushed again and felt dusty and very nervous, just by thinking he would do that.
- Well my beautiful Lisa ? What do you think would happen ?
- I think I could go no more to school ! ! ! ! !
- And you don't want that ...
- NO ! ! !
- I don't want it either but you know ...
- ... what ?
- I will not depict it to them OK ? But I want something in return OK ?
- what ?
- You sitting on me Lisa ...
- Sit on you ?
- Yes ...
I sat on his lap.
- Not like that Lisa. Open your pegleg and sit on me facing me.
I sat on him like he told me. We were dressed so I felt lay aside in that way. He grabbed my ass and pulled me in high spirits towards him. I hadn't done anything with a man in my life and I hadn't even imagined anything with a man, but I could separate he wanted to hug me and that he had pulled me up and wanted me to sit on his phallus. He then started to move my rosehip with his two hands back and Forth over his member I didn't know what to do or how to behave so I just flow my sleeve on the position while he kept me moving me back and Forth River. I remember"that"felt very hard in his jeans.
- This is our undercover Lisa, I like you so much.
I could feel he started to breathe heavily and with one arm he hugged me and pulled me hard against him while he kept moving my hips back and Forth River. His mouth was in my neck and I could find him kissing my cervix and licking my neck opening to my ear.
- You are so fucking hot Lisa.
He whispered in my ear. Then he hugged me with one hired man around my neck and the early around my waist and pulled me hard against him, and I could find his body shake and he pulled me down while his rose hip pushed hard against me and he started to groan very hard. I didn't know then what was happening but I remember I got very scared because it first was as if he couldn't get air and right wing after this came the shaking and very firmly moaning. He kept hugging me for a few minutes, then he started to talk.
- Oh bullshit, oh fuck, oh shit, o shit ...
- are you ok ?
- Yes Lisa, but This is so ill-timed ! ! ! I am 59. Don't ever tell this to nobody please ...
- But what you mean with so damage ?
- Lisa I just came in my dungaree because of you. I just got an orgasm because of you.
- Orgasm ?
- You don't know what that is ?
- No.
- Well an coming happens when a man is in love with a girl and the miss gives the man a very in effect feeling back ... but you are too young for this to happen to me, this is so so wrong.
- But you are in love with me ?
- Yes Lisa but I feel so ashamed for it.
- I never thought any boy would like me ...
- I like you very a great deal Lisa but this is way too wrong !
- You didn't like it then ?
- It has been the Charles Herbert Best tactile sensation I have had in my whole know ! But Lisa I have to pick something now, so delight if you let me resist ...
- clean ?
- Yes Lisa I have to clean everything down here ...
When he came back from cleaning he said :
- You probably don't want to see me anymore Lisa ...
- Why you say that ?
- Because of what just happened ... I understand if you don't want to see me anymore Lisa.
- I do want to see you J ...
- Please don't Tell this to anybody Lisa ...
- I promise.
- Do you heed wearing the Sami bra and panties tomorrow ?
- ok ...
I went home that day not really aware of what had happened .