*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to take the easy way out of this miserable life, As you can estimate by this note I have chosen suicide as the simply option to a life I never chose to be, I hope that the one who reads this note can fully interpret that I was never happy when i walked the Earth, Was never happy external respiration, Was never happy living a spirit I did n't trust, I would rather die and give individual new a opportunity to live, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it early than the obvious fact I never wanted to hold up, Well it all began a short piece ago when I met a certain girlfriend who for all intensifier role shall remain nameless for the time beign, She was mitt on inwardness honest to god my perfect couple, No person alive or drained could ever possibly agree up to her in any aspect, Although to some people she was never considered the most beautiful to me every time I stole a unmarried glance I saw an angel staring back, Every Holy Writ she spoke managed to leave my sum beating a minuscule profligate each and every time, Every time we managed to have a conversation I will honestly admit that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never form a complete word, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made little to no sense, I guess i have gone a footling off track but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the life I once lived, That girl who shall still rest nameless was one of the few reasons I saw death as the best option, The other understanding are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the unnamed girl I have spent my life alone, Nobody knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do need help, nonentity has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in hopes that maybe someone would see the go against figure hidden behind the mask of rip, nobody has ever once had the decency to just stop and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two reasonableness, A miss who left me conk out, Who left me gloomy and for all it 's worth the second grounds will always stomach that I 'm alone and the world never seems to care, guessing the next reason could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a unproblematic thing that in my life history has become something so major, In most people 's life sentence when they are bored they just pick up a al-Qur'an, A game, Watch the television receiver or go hang out with their ally, With me been bored leads to thing much more serious, The knife is always my favourite past time, See how long it takes for the botheration to get too much to bear, See how much stemma seaps out the cuts I leave on my arms, See how many places I can entrust a scar without them been noticed, Yeah such fun times, Of course of instruction alchol was always fun aswell, Getting drunk was always a nifty past time, So yeah that 's another reason for this note, I was bored, So bored of animation, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the life-time nigh multitude are content with, okey I guess the final exam reason would have to be that I was tired, I was so tired of living the same day over and over, Yes years passed but to me each and every unmarried day seemed the like, I was in a rut, I did the like things day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many years, My lifespan became such a repetition that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the intellect for why I chose to take my life history, A young lady, being so alone, tedium and of trend being tired, I know they do n't go like much of a reason but I want whoever may register this note to understand that them four modest reasons combined became one big reason, organism depressed and alone while also being very tired and extremely bored, Such a bad combining, Anyways I guess the whole point of this tone is to say goodbye and to let you all know the ground I left this life, So goodbye and goodluck to all, I wish my family all the best and hope they can forgive my choice, Hope they can understand that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still love them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the nameless little girl can empathize that if she ever reads this I just want her to know that I do care deeply about her, I do still get laid her and I doubt that love will ever fade, Even if my heart has no beat I will still finger a flash everytime I think of her, Hope she can remember the thoroughly times we shared and retrieve that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to remember that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be felicitous even if that meant I could never be, Okay now I know this has gotten a little long so I will finish up as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with life sentence as if I never existed, Just let me go and draw a blank about me as so many people already have, Goodbye I do jazz you all ( anyone who reads that, those last lines are meant for family only ), guesswork I can finally be at peace, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find my trunk in the post I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the attic where all our store are stored ) *