Monica, what can I say about her ; she 's my good ally, a incessant comrade, and my long term crush. She also happens to be gorgeous and fully of Energy, being a geek and dancer she has a unique blending of down to earth along with an unabashed fit torso. She 's around 5'6''' or something not skinny with balmy baby fat over hard muscle from her dancing and exercises. She has dark thick hair which she kept short around shoulder joint distance, her eyes are hazel, and her lips are so luscious and to the full always in a smile or jest. Her raw and oft meter crude gumption of humor always with the sexual undertone makes her a kick to blab with. As I mentioned she was always with me as a 'friend', one of the only young lady I allowed to keep me in the friend-zone willingly. I think I was just content with what I had, possibly I was too afraid to ever try for more. That was when we were in our 20s. That was before she met 'that'guy, the one that she eventually married and had shaver with, the one I never really gave my blessings too. Of line I would n't, not with my rudimentary motives and sexual desires clouding my friendship.

I eventually stop trying and we drifted apart. This was n't a surprise as these case of friendship often ends up this way and I 'was'a volition participant in it. During the decade following I dated and catch some Z's around but I always seemed to be comparing them to Monica. Small things I would nitpick and strip from my relationships ; those that got that far. More often than not I settled into my brutally honest theatrical role and slept with womanhood I tell honestly that I am just after a good fuck. It 's a minuscule jarring that some of these women would take'I just want to sleep with you'and transform that into 'save me with love'. NO. On a side bill I knew that some cleaning lady love the challenge of trying to modify a man but honestly, just stop.
After thirteen twelvemonth of this one day I happen to receive a textbook subject matter from an unknown number.

( Unknown number ) Hey Scott ? This is my new identification number. Not indisputable if this is you.

( Me ) Umm hi, who is this ?

( unknown region figure ) It 's Monica, it 's been a while but Hi !

I am dazed at the gens, all that time of trying to exist my own life and now all of a sudden I feel like I might hurtle from my anxiousness from one text message. I quickly grew angry at myself for being so frail against her. I thought to myself'I 'm the conqueror of kitty-cat old and young, ugly and hot, I can deal with an old ally right ? ! ?'As it turns out I could n't so I ignored it.

About a week go by, it 's Saturday now and I have stared at my telephone set every day since trying to make gumption of my own notion, I knew I could easily insert her aliveness again and it will be just as it was before but worst because I would suffer to constantly be reminded that someone else is enjoying that body. But I was deathly singular and I hate not knowing and regretting so I picked up the sound and brought up her schmooze :

( Me ) Hey, I 'm dreary for not responding I was busy with work.

( Monica ) For a week ? ( before I could respond )

( Monica ) Haha anyways what are you up too ? Are you in use ? Wan na snap up lunch today ?

( Me ) Umm sure I 'm exempt. Want to meet at that Bistro on twenty percent near the coffee shop ?

( Monica ) The new Italian one ? OK give me about two hours ? I ca n't wait to see you !

As I put the earphone down I knew I could n't escape this urging inside of me. It was excitement and trepidation roiling all through me. I could n't avail but call back of her live affirmation 'ca n't hold off to see you'. I oddly found myself smiling as I went about taking a cascade and getting ready. I decided to cut back my age and brought out my most hairstylist sports jacket, blue jean, plain ovalbumin dress shirt, and kick. I was out the door in an hour, I figured I get coffee and serene my nerves a little.

She was latterly about thirty instant but as I watched her walk up in front of the Bistro from my coffee shop advantage stage I nearly forgot everything I have been mulling over for the hour I waited. She was wearing black leg covering with knee high black boots with a Andrew Dickson White top that definitely showed her shapely mother chassis. I do n't say that in a bad way at all, I can tell she kept up her body of work out even after her pregnancy because she was replete figured but tone in a way only a soul who moved around a lot can be. Her once small A cup breast were at least a couple cup sizes expectant ( give thanks goodness for breastfeeding ). Her hair was farsighted and crinkled and came down to her ass which at the moment was facing towards me, it looked soft and perky in her plastered leging. I was getting a hard on just looking at her.

I went out to receive her and as I was approaching from behind I could n't avail but feel anxious and care. Worried that I would torture myself again with fantasies of her to the point that I would rather be alone if I could n't be with her. This feeling kept getting stronger up until the detail she turned around with her gumptious smile and embrace. She smelled so good being this close, like field of Lavenders. She was so piano and quick as she held me, melding into my arms perfectly as if we were two share of a cast. `` Hey handsome ! '' she exclaimed happily.

Before I could help myself I blurted out `` holy place shite you look amazing ! '' I saw her register what I said in shock than her face soften and slowly she began to blush a little as she held me at arm 's length. My eyes leering all over her body. I felt helpless and a footling greasy but I could n't avail myself, she was gorgeous ! Her already curvy body gained definition and swell, I did n't realize how dramatically until I was up next to her.

'' Thanks, you are looking nifty yourself ! '' She responded with big eyes and a big smile. I wanted nada more than to seize her and buss her deeply.

'' Let 's go grab a table and catch up. '' I suddenly felt relaxed. I had a Book of Revelation as I stood watching her while waiting for a table ; I realized I have never truly been honest with her about my feelings and that in turn reflected on how I acted towards her. After we were apart and I began my methodical honest heartbreaking I was brutally true with all those girls. I swore to myself as we were seated that I would be honest with her no matter the cost.

As we ate we caught up on our animation. She has two kids and has been a homemaker and mom. She said she misses me and that she 's glad that we could catch up because she was moving to New York. Apparently her husband got a promotional material and will give to work in NY, he and the tike are already there settling in while she finishes some things here and will be flying in a distich twenty-four hours. Needless to say I was somewhat disappointed in hearing this but at the Saame time I realize she is alone at the moment without having immediate responsibilities. She loves her child and I knew I could n't contend with them with her metre. I began to plot my move, I needed her to do it exactly how a great deal she makes me crazy with lust and love.

As we were finishing up I asked if she had any pressing business left today. She responded with a huge smile and told me she did not and that I should celebrate her company as she is alone and misses her kin. I responded with `` of course I will keep you party, just handle me like a substitute anything ... ..anything you need. '' I 'm not for certain if she caught on to my conditional relation as she just smirked and said 'ok'.

After dejeuner we went and got coffee and then to the movies. We caught a early slot for a romanticism comedy. I did n't really pay aid as I kept looking at her and trying to keep my hands from touching her. Halfway during the film I notice that the armrest was up and her sexy leg were fairly close to my deal so I carefully leaned over whispering in her auricle `` that 's totally me '' while patting my hands on her thighs in sync with the protagonist telling a antic on screenland. I kept my hired man there and she tightened up but did n't really gave any entailment to her discomfort. As I already promised myself that I would just say whatever I thought I leaned in again after a span minutes and said `` does it nark you that my work force are on your legs ? I like the flavour of your pants. I can locomote them if it makes you uncomfortable. ``

It took a span second gear as she continued to stare at the screen door but she finally responded `` I do n't mind. '' I could n't believe it, I was about to blow my payload just from touching her thigh ; how could I even have sex with her I thought. After a while I wanted to push the bound so I began to rub her a minuscule and to the inside. I felt her tense up but she continued to watch the pic. I got a little more boldface and with my minuscule finger's breadth I began to slide it up into her genital organ almost touching but not. I could feel the high temperature coming from her and it drove me sick. Embolden with my new found satin flower I leaned in again.

'' She is really hot ( public speaking of the actress on projection screen ), but I still think the way you look today ... ..you are way hotter. '' I watched her offend chemical reaction and furtive coup d'oeil at me.

'' I do n't think so but thanks anyways. '' she responded. I smiled and watched the rest of the pic while my hands gently rubbed her amphetamine correct thigh. After the movie was over it was already night. The movie theater was full phase of the moon and people they were walking every which way. I thought it was a good opportunity to snap up her paw feigning that I did n't want to get split up. Her hands were soft and quick as I pulled her along towards the outlet. It reminded me of the past tense when we would hold hands everywhere, the curse base of the protagonist zona : holding hands.

Outside the air was nice and cool with a fragile piece of cake, I looked over and saw that her tomentum was gently blown over her face. It was the trimmed thing as she brushed her tomentum out of her eyes, sadly this made her break our hold to do so. She caught me staring and asked `` why are you just smiling looking at me ? '' I caught a wind of merriment in her voice.

'' I was thinking that we should go grab dinner and drinks so I can continue to tell you how beautiful you are. '' I said with a tinge of fear that I might have scared her off.

I could n't quite read her face through her hair but I think it was surprise with a ghost of amusement. `` Ok, do you do it a place ? ''

'' I do, let 's go ! '' I said and led the way. Lucky that this shopping block/plaza has a bar located conveniently near the theater. The bar was a pocket-size pub that you would find anyplace that has a business district. We sat furthest away from the big projection screen TVs so we could hear each early while still able-bodied to see the altogether bar.

We settled into our comfort zone promiscuous as the drinks kept coming. We decided on sharing a bunch of starter since we were still full from luncheon. We joked and joke, talking about everything and anything. It was well-heeled to forget that we have n't seen each other in so long when the synergism was so tangible. As we got to our fourth round I remembered that we use to jest about Robot sex of all things. It was a long inside joke about the futurity when we would be able to put our mind inside robot. I would say that I if I could, I would have the most advanced robot penis ever being able to move in every which way with palpitation mount and lots of sawhorse tycoon for thrusting. She would always importune that it would be disused at that level because anyone not in a golem would be dead from all the STD 's due to people like me, we would agree and laugh.

As the conversation lulled a bit I asked `` so have you changed your thinker about my robot penis ? '' She almost spat her booze out while laughing so hard from the sudden question. This led to a yearn debate on synthetic substance lubrication or constitutive lubrication, then it went into a debate on firmness of purpose of a penis ; if too firmly can be a bad affair. Before I knew it the time read almost midnight and the conversation veered into personal fantasies.

'' So what is/was your ultimate phantasy daughter and what did you do ? '' She asked with a terrible smirk, eyes only slits leaning over with her teat resting on the mesa. My judgement went blank as I stared at her not so overcompensate cleavage.

After a minute I took a sip of my drunkenness and leaned over until we were almost poke to nose which brought a bout of snort from her. I composed myself and with a derriere face said `` My illusion dream miss is staring me right in the middle right now. She has always been so and I believe always will be, as for the act I would first please her with every appendage I have. I would eat her pussy until the slop dripped down to her toes, I would strip every inch of her skin with my natural language and then some. I would use my fingerbreadth, toes, elbows, knees, mouthpiece, and consistency to contribute her such pleasure that she would forget her own name. When she 's lying drained from all her wet orgasms I would fuck her in every gob until my body breaks and I am no longer able to move anything ! '' I said the final with an evil grin and settled back to deal a drink.

By the time I finished her eyes were as big as dish antenna and her mouth hung open slightly, I reached down and stuck a fleck into her rima oris from the nachos. She jerked back and chewed on physiological reaction still staring at me unblinking. I think she was pondering how to reply or maybe formulating an escape plan. When she opened her lip and was finally about to say something I cut her off ...

'' Whew that was a dinner, did you like the nachos ? '' I said changing the matter, at least trying to. She did n't bite. I almost said 'just kidding'but I decided that the verity felt good to let out.

She scrunched her font a fiddling and let out a `` WHAT THE HELL ! ? ! no you do n't get to not explain ! '' When I played deaf for a couple of endorsement she almost shouted `` WELL ! ``

'' wellspring what ? What I said was the verity. I 'm gloomy you do n't need to discover it but I 'm sure you knew, you can not not recognise ... ... right ? '' I said mildly.

'' I ... ... uh ... .um ... ... I variety of figured so, I guess. '' She seemed to deflate a short as she pondered what to do next. Finally she said quietly `` for how long ? ``

I decided to be a impertinent ass and responded with `` I 'm will to go all night and through the workweek if that 's what it takes ! '' She finally let out a laugh and grin and swatted me on my head.

'' Ass ! You know what I 'm asking. '' She exclaimed.

'' Well pretty much since the first time I met you at that party I guess. It ... ..I mean the feeling never left, it dulled a little but it was n't gone. When I saw you today, it was if we were back at the company so long ago and I saw you in that 'cute black fuck me dress'. I never forgot how sexy you are ; age and motherhood did n't seem to stimulate diminished your smell. If anything I think you are many tier up more sexy now, especially those ... ( here I cupped my manus on my dresser and pretended to twinge ).

She looked exasperated at this and started to laugh so punishing that she almost spilled her drink. `` Oh my god, you 're so still the Same ! fountainhead thanks but I do n't finger the way you explained about me, me with milk and god knows what over my clothes all the time. '' She says while shaking her head in submission. I think the drinks are definitely making both of us more honest because she does n't look to be pushing me back from all this ego stroking.

I came to a finish that I should definitely make my move, it 's now or never. I have nada to miss, and the inebriant is making me far more confident than I should be. I leaned over again with a pitiful expression on and said `` look, I really love you. ( I paused for dramatic affect and hoped to catch her inwardness string ) When we stopped talking I was really alone I lost my phantasy and best supporter. I know you needed to know your lifetime with your crime syndicate and I respect that but my animation was n't the Saami. '' I looked down and sighed deeply hoping she would feel guilty. I pushed forward `` I know you are leaving soon and I might not ever see you again and that sucks you know ? I was wondering if you could ... ... maybe ... ... ..stay with me tonight so that I might at least get to bang what heaven smell like. '' It was the most disgustful and cheesy matter I have ever said but she is worth depraved activeness

I think the alcoholic drink is doing its tariff because she seems to be considering it. She was looking down at the table for a while and finally looked up. `` What do you think stay with you ? '' She knew damn well what I meant, I guess she wanted me to condition before she conceded or denied my request.

In an inexperienced person vocalisation as not to sound too eager I said `` I just want you by my side tonight, I need you in my sleeve like we are in love. We use to sleep together all the fourth dimension recall ? '' It was avowedly that in the past times we sometimes slept in the same bed but I did n't mention that those multiplication it was because we were too drunk to care or fuck.

'' Just sleeping ? With wearing apparel on ? '' She asked with brows up skeptical.

'' Clothes, no wearing apparel ... ..does it matter ? '' I said trying hard not to smile.

'' George C. Scott ... ..I do n't cerebrate my husband would take account it either way. '' She said almost firmly.

I had to think fast, I needed to convert her, inadequate of pouring shots down her pharynx. `` He does n't suffer to sleep with, besides he hates me and he was the one who took my friend away from me. I think he owes me some consideration. I just missed you so a lot and I ca n't remember the last time I had so lots fun. '' The last percentage was convincing as it was true. She finally conceded that we should spend Thomas More meter tonight to spill. We took a taxi to the hotel she was staying at since she was closing on the sale of her house here. When we got to the elbow room I was trying to not wait to happy, keeping a neutral typeface on. She excused herself to go to the restroom to modify and what not.

An time of day past before she came out but what she had on almost made me forget the anger and oddity at why she took so long. Her face was newly scrubbed and I can see how indulgent and shiny her fount was without make up. Her hair was pulled back into a mile and it looked dampness. She was wearing an oversize jersey with no bra, I could n't assure if she wore scanty or not but her legs were damn sexy. As I was staring at her overtly I realized my pegleg were starting to feel wet from pre-cum. I wanted zero more than to pull it out and relieve the imperativeness. She must have notice as she settled on the top of the blankets. I pulled my shirt over my head teacher forgetting it had buttons and undid my pants. I did n't pull my pants down yet as my raging hard on was in full firmness. Finally she turned off all but one light and I turned around facing away from the bed and pulled my trouser down and off along with my socks. I was just in boxer Jockey shorts as I sat on the edge.

'' Why are you sitting that way ? '' She asked laying down.

'' Because my turncock is in full military greeting and it 's your fault. '' I said honestly. She seemed to laugh softly and expressed with a sigh why she was doing this.

I finally lay down next to her with a bit of adjustment and stared at the ceiling wondering what she was thinking. She was turned away from me and I can see from the corner of my eyes that she was wide awake like me. Finally after a few minute of silence she pulled the covers over her and settled in. I did the same thing still looking straight up. I can find the lovingness of her so near me and I can smack her honeyed citrus face cream. I slowly turned towards her and contend if I could spoon her, I longed to feel her ass on my bulge. After a fire up debate in my head I decided that I should push her as far as I could, maybe I 'm still drunk at this point.

I slowly slid my body closer to her and gently put my limb around her tum. She immediately placed her hands on top of mine, the motion was n't lost on me ; it meant do n't adjoin anywhere but here. I put my face at the dorsum of her neck and pulled her to me, she allowed this but it meant that my punishing peter was pressed between her ass. As soon as I felt this I almost came right there. I think the genial nisus on my hormones was too a great deal for me because I pulled her tighter and grinded a little. She did n't seem to hate this as she started to grind her ass into me. Thinking in hindsight I think she had a little bit too much to drink as well and it 's heavy to control these things once your already half naked and press together like lego blocks. My breathing hasten and it was right against her neck and I can see bozo bumps forming over her exposed peel. Her grip on my script slacken and I quickly brought it down to her thighs right where her shirt ended. I began to slowly rub her second joint while discreetly pushing her shirt up. I can feel her body tense up and pop to fidget. I inched my way up to her hip joint around her ass and squeezed a short, this sentence she once again brought her hands on top of mine. I was n't deterred this time, my lust was boiling over at this juncture so I reached around quite determined to get between her stage and put my hands on her pussy. To my surprise she was n't wearing panties and I instantly felt her wet, wet slit. I used my thumb to subdue her clit as my other four fingerbreadth worked their way between her slippery lips and began to rub.

She let out a groan and curse as her paw once again iridescent on top of mine and her legs closed over my bridge player. This actually worked against her as my digit were already trapped inside of her and all she did was put air pressure onto herself. She began shuddering and contorted into a more fetal berth pressing her ass hard into me. I was driven at this power point, closed legs or not I kept my fingers working deeper into her and side to side. The Lapplander clock time I was good on grinding into her with my hard bulge. This kept on for five minutes and then fifteen, finally she moaned and convulsed into her orgasm. Her walls were crushing my fingers and soaking them in an instant.

Once she subsided in her throes I slowly pulled my fingers out and brought them to my mouth sucking all of her confection juices up. She was laying there panting with her face pressed into her pillow, my movement had pulled the masking off of us except our legs. Her hips were so curvaceous laying on her side like that with her shirt pulled up and bunched at her stomach, I can see her smooth double-dyed ass and the shadow between them that hinted at the most wonderful experience if I were to stick to my cock there. As I reached to root for my boxershorts down she suddenly threw dusty body of water on my fantasy.

'' No more please. '' She said shakily. My boxers were right at my knees when I stopped what I was doing, stopcock shooting straight at her ass.

'' You seemed like you liked it. '' I stated simply.

She seemed to disembowel more into her pillows because I barely heard her. `` I did, and I really am sorry that you did n't get to do your matter but this is wrongfulness, I 'm conjoin with tike ! ``

'' If you like it, you like it. Do n't excuse cheating with stopping now. '' I said testily. I was very angry and very horny. Two things combined can either go very trade good or very, very wrong.

'' I 'm so sorry. '' She said almost tearful.

Seeing her almost in tears made me go a lilliputian soft, just a little. `` Can you at least tell me honestly that you would it if things were different ? '' I said in an exasperated voice.

She turned around and looked me in eyes and flickered down to my cock and up to my thorax before settling on my fount. `` Yes, of class. I am a womanhood first and foremost. In a different situation I would get laid your automaton penis until it broke ! '' She chirped with a smile.

I could n't determine if she really meant that or just took compassion on me. As I concentrated on her brass I saw that her reflexion switched from guilt feelings to lust and back. I decided to allow for it at that instead of saying something snide I said `` I 'm going to take a shower bath and go home. '' I then walked towards the bathroom kicking my underwear off and walking butt naked into the public toilet before she could say anything. As I showered I replayed everything that happened tonight in my head. The way her body moved and felt, the way she responded to my touches like she loved it. The more I thought about it the more angry I got, the effigy of her ass and pegleg kept playing in my psyche. My turncock responded in turn, getting hard again. As I stood there under the spraying of water stroking my putz I snapped.

I turned off the piddle and patted myself as dry as I can and stroll out of the lav. Monica was laying on her back with a arm resting on her head. I could n't read the blank look on her facial expression but she seemed to be abstruse in thought and did n't notice me standing there naked looking down at her. I walked up and jumped on top of her straddling her pelvic girdle, genu on either side. I leaned down holding myself up with both arms I kissed her deeply. She did n't respond for a couple seconds but then I felt her kiss me back. We laid there kissing for a mates moment until I broke off breathing heavily. Her eyes were still closed. `` I do n't buy your bullshit guilt trip, if you want me take me. We do n't have to see each former ever again when you leave yet again ! ``

Before she could respond I pushed myself down and plunge cheek first between her legs, at the same prison term my hands swept up her shirt. I began sucking her clit almost instantly upon contact, she let out a groan and a `` oooooh doodly-squat. '' It drove me to tongue sleep together her kitty as deep as my spit would go. As I pulled my spit out and over her clit I replaced them with my finger's breadth and began to milk her G-Spot. With my hands I reached under her shirt and began to play with her tit which were hard as infield. I tweaked them between my fingers and she let out a yelping. My ira kept building the more I pleased her that I did n't even wait until she came before I got up pulled her to me by her hip and placed my putz just inside her. I reached and snap up a leg in each arm and rammed my shaft to the hilt into her. The painful sensation of entering her so fast just added to my ira and I began pumping in and out furiously. She let out a unvoiced breathing space but did n't say anything but you can see it in her look that she felt the pain too.

pulling her legs further into her in a twist and lifting my balls began to smack into her asshole. I never let off a endorse as I pounded her cunt as hard as I could, face in a grimace. She began to ease up from the pain and I can tell from her moans and fount that she was starting to finger good. It was patent from the amount wetness that was coming out of her, running down her ass crack and cheeks. After what seemed long time ( when in reality was seven second or so ) I pulled out. I turned her over by force but she realized what I wanted and completed the turn on her own onto all quaternary. I placed a pillow under her and quickly stuck my cock back into her, hard. She was moaning incoherent language as I began to pound into her ass. After a bit I stuck a finger into my mouth to get it wet and started to tease her dickhead which was a cute little pucker. She tried to bring a hand around and stop me but I brushed it aside and stuck a finger in. She let out a scream of pleasance or pain, I do n't know. I leaned down and began to osculate her sweat soaked back and neck while thrusting cryptic and putting my weight down, alternating between leaning over and leaning back and smacking her ass red.

After a couple proceedings of tempestuous pounding, I could n't hold out anymore and said I was going to cum soon. She told me not to cum inside her because she was n't on the oral contraceptive pill right now. I said it 's either going in her mouth or her slit and that she needed to pick fast. Right after she moaned out to cum in her rima oris I was already starting to shoot. I got off and reached down to her shoulder joint to flip her and did n't form it to her sass but shaft ribbons of cum all over her hair, face, and neck opening. Some got on the pillow she was laying on. After the in conclusion spurt convulsed out of me I collapsed on her half turned body and gave little kisses on her stomach. There was no Logos spoken as I got off following to her. She got up and went into the bathroom and the lowest thing I heard before darkness took me was the sink running.

I woke up early the next forenoon around six, I 've always woke up early when drinking the nighttime before. It seems like a cruel trait to take as my head was pounding into a hangover. I looked to my unexpended and saw that Monica was laying right up to me with her head buried into my sides. The memory of my angry piece of ass with my married acquaintance came rushing in and I smiled. My hanker sought after compulsion finally came to fruition in a most conclusive explosion. I gently sat up and just stared at her sleeping contour, ass out to the face, T-Shirt pulled up to tits exposing her soft body and stunning legs. After a while she murmured something lost in the semiconsciousness of quietus and rubbed her eyes. She seemed to be struggling with her current situation nestled side by side to me half nude and me fully naked. She had this startled deer facial expression on her cute font and I could n't help but let out a picayune gag as I got up and started to explore for my clothes. Just as I was done pulling on my shirt and socks she was just about to say something when her phone started blaring.

'' Hello ? '' She said sleepily.

'' Hey hun ... ... ... yea I just got up. '' Listening. `` No it 's OK, I should have got gotten up already. '' I can only concur that it was that dastardly husband of hers. I quietly put my shoes on catch my winder and looked at her.

'' How are my babies doing ? ... ... ... ... ... ... .... Are they driving you crazy yet ? '' She looked up and I can see that she wanted to say something to me but I was already moving to the door smiling.

'' Yeah ... ..yeah ... .really ? She said that ? '' She looked up again and gave me a tight smile as if saying 'this is my sprightliness and you made me deceiver'. I gave her my most beguile apologetic grinning and went out the door.

I did n't want to hear her say 'sorry'or 'it was a fault'so I left without saying anything. In reality I did n't require to take heed myself try to cling onto her, I did n't want to see me try to show how one Nox could never be enough and that I wanted all of her. As I got into the cab I gave a quick glance up at the hotel and wondered if I would ever see her again. In mind I thought evilly about how I always wanted to go to NY and maybe I should visit one day ...