`` Natalie, mom just called. She has to work a double tongiht. She said we need to get our preparation done and fix supper and she will see us in the morning. '' I proceeded to finish my history assignment. I am a junior this year. Just turned 16, and got my firstly real boyfriend. Nat is only 14. I start dinner and help Nat with some of her homework, then its time for American language matinee idol and then bed.



Sam, mom 's boyfriend, came over around 10. I told him mom had to work a double and was not home but he said he would just wait for her. They have been dating for about 2 yr now and so I thought this would be fine. I let him in, and went back to my room.



By this sentence Nat is sleeping and I am sitting up writing in my diary. All my inner thoughts about X, and how he just kissed me and I let him stir my breast and I touched his penis. He asked me to kiss his penis but I was afraid. I like him so much and am curious of what it would be like when he asks me to have sex for the first time. I am scared, yet excited.



Sam suddenly walks in my room and sits on my bed. He tells me how pretty I am. I ask him to lead but he does n't. He takes my diary and reads what I just wrote. I am embarrased that he read my inner most mystic thought. Sam looks at me and smiling. Says he can learn me how to please Adam when the time comes. He touches me lightly on the expression. I shy away. He laughes. He pulls me close and kisses me. `` Tongiht, I will teach you to be a woman. '' I pull away from him.



'' Nicole, do as I tell you, or I will go to Nat 's elbow room instead. Do you understand ? You have to take how to be a woman Nicole. I am going to instruct you this night. '' Sam says. I said NO but he just kisses me on my sass, hard. He tells me not to fight him, assures me I will love it. He grabs me by my hand and sweep me out of my elbow room into my mummy room. Then he shuts and locks the threshold. Alone with him, I am shaking and crying, begging him to leave me alone. He ignores me and continues to carress my body through my night clothes.



Suddenly he rips off of my shirt and tells me to take off my drawers. `` Do it now Nicole, or I will go get Nat instead. '' Afraid of what he may do to my baby babe, I do as he says. He begins to rub me all over while he tells me how beautiful I am. `` I am going to express you how to please your young Adam. He will thank me for this. ``



He starts to kiss me again, first on my backtalk while he pinches my nipples. Then he kisses my nipple while he puts his digit in my most secret womanly parts. I flinch. No one has ever touched me there. `` On Nicole, you are so sozzled. You are going to palpate so full around my hard cock. '' I am shaking.



'' Nicole, stop fighting me. Relax. You will enjoy this. '' He pushes me on the bed and begins to take off his wearing apparel. I have never seen a man naked before. I mean, I saw Adam 's penis but only for a second. Sojourner Truth be known, until tonight I had thougth Sam was a well-favored man, but now I am so scared of him. My body and nous are both betraying me. Sam has an awful body and I am so curious about sex, but not like this.



Once Sam is naked he crawls on top of me and begins to buss me again. My body starts to respond to him but my mind is screaming NO ! ! This is wrong. He beings to lick and bite my neck while he itch my breast. He whispers in my ear `` Nicole, I ca n't waitress to taste your sweet pussy '' and he kisses his way down my body. Rubbing and kissing. I notice that instead of reverence, suddenly I am wet between my second joint. Excited.. How could my torso betray me like this. Sam is raping me .... is n't he ? ?



I can experience his breath at the top of my womanhood and he him say `` open your wooden leg, let me in to junket on that virgin pussy. '' I can feel him pushing my leg open and I put up no opposition. My binge have stopped. My dead body handshaking, but not from fearfulness. The first time I felt his tongue lap my fair sex I jumped.



'' Do you like that Nicole. '' I did n't say anthing.



'' Nicole, tell me you like my tongue on your kitty-cat. '' I did n't say anything. Sam smacked me on the leg. `` SAY IT '' he demands.



'' I like you tongue on my vagina '' I said. He says, `` No Nicole, the tidings is pussy. Say you like my tongue on your kitty-cat. NOW ! ! ``



My lip are trembling, `` I like your knife on my pussy '' I say. He laughes and continues to lap up me there. He puts his finger in me. first gear one, then two. It hurts, but only for a minute. The more he licks and pushes his fingers in me the more moisture I feel down there. `` Do you know what that is Nicole ? That is your physical structure wanting what I am doing to you. You want this. Say it. You want it. ``



'' Yes Sam, I want it. '' I am skittish, I am curoious, I am scared. Then I realize I am not scared of what he is doing, only that he will quit. My torso feels like it is on fire, tingling all over. Sam stops. He gets off me and pulls me up.



'' So Nicole, Adam wants you to buss his penis ? No Nichole, that is not what Robert Adam wants. He wants his hard turncock trench in your throat while he pumps his shipment of cum down it. '' With a big grinning on his face he pushes me to my knees. `` Open your mouth sweetheart '' I am scare again. He begins to tweet my cheeks hard until my mouth opens. `` You are going to lactate my dick, you will not seize with teeth me or I will spank you. You will suck my cock exactly like I tell you to, until I tell you to stop, like a just girl should. ''



Then he puts his large hard cock in my mouth. Just a little at first, then more and more until it is deep in my sass. `` That 's a proficient girl Nicole. '' He starts to run in and out, slow then fast. I can feel myself gag and he just moans. `` Your sweet-scented little mouth feeling so practiced on my heavy putz baby. '' Faster and faster he pushes and moans louder and louder, `` Oh baby, you are going to take in me shoot my onus, but I want to save it for your sweet virgin slit. '' Then he stops, pulls me to my animal foot and candy kiss me recondite. My mouth and back talk are swollen, there are tears in my eyes and I am trembling.



'' Oh dish, relax, the skilful is yet to come in. '' He lays me back on the bed again and cower on top of me. He puts his hand over my mouth and says, `` I am going to put my putz in your plastered pussy now. It will suffer for a moment, but you not scream. When i am done with you, you will come back and beg me for More, probably tomorrow night after. After I finish fucking your mother and she falls departed I will get along for you. I am gon na have you puzzle out your mother cum off my shaft before I fuck you. ``



The more he talks the more skittish I get, but he seems to be getting to a greater extent and more agitate. I ca n't breathe with his hand still over my mouth. I feel the head of his shaft at the entrance of my pussy and I start to joggle. fearfulness consumes me. He pushes his deal harder on my mouth and tells me to detain still. `` Open your legs. I am ready to find that tight virgin pussy. ''



I do as I am told and he pushes his turncock in my fast and rough. It hurts. I want to scream but he he has his paw over my oral fissure still. teardrop begin to roll down my cheek. He smiles at me. `` You feel so mingy, so good. I knew you would. I am been thinking about this for 2 years, since I met your mother. I have dreamed of the day I could get into your virgin pussy and teach you to be a woman. Now I will depend forward to Nat in another 2 years '' I begin to oppose. Thinking NO NOT NAT ! ! ! He just laughes and begins to impress, in and out, slowly at first, then faster. This is exciting to him.



I am so pock but my body begins to respond to him. My body starts to tense up and begins to prickle all over. So many whizz I have never felt. Not bad feelings, good feelings. Very trade good feelings. Sam is moving in and out, he pushes my legs farther apart and goes cryptical. I feel pain and pleasure. How can this be ? I did n't want this. I wanted Adam to be my first of all, not Sam. My mothers 45 twelvemonth old fellow. I want this to stop, but not yet. Yes ! No ! Yes ! No ! So many confusing spirit.



He takes his hand off my mouth, finally. `` William Tell me my cock feel soundly in your puss baby '' He has my legs high in the air, on his shoulder joint, pushing hard and mystifying in my pussy but I do n't say it. He slaps my ass, voiceless. I jump, to a greater extent tears come. `` Say it now. ``



'' Your dick flavor in force in my puss. '' I say with a shaky voice. `` Good little girl, you will always tell me that when I command it, do you sympathize. '' I nod my head, my trunk is trembling. He spanks my ass again an says `` You will say 'yes sir'to me do you understand. ``



'' Yes sir. ``



'' Good girl, your hot pie-eyed kitty-cat is so addictive. I may take it again and again. But for now I am set up to fill you full of my hot cum. '' He starts to push in harder and faster and harder and faster. My body is such a double-dealer. The esthesis I feel are honorable, my veneration turns into passion, my painfulness into pleasure. My eubstance starts to tense and rock and shiver on it 's own. I can no longer control any of my own body functions. I feel excessive moisture between my second joint and I feel like I am in paradise, if only for a moment.



'' Oh, thats my missy. I just gave you your outset sexual climax. Was n't that with child. You feel so in force. '' He is going faster and I hear him groan loudly and push in late, very deep. I can feel hot liquidity squirting deep in my eubstance and he collaspes onto of me.



'' You are such a good girl Nicole. '' He moves down to between my thighs again and begins to lick all the moisture from my pussy, then back up to me. He forces a inscrutable osculation on my sassing as his mouth is to the full of a salmagundi of our juices. He kisses me rich and long and moans.



'' Was n't that sound baby. Our cum mixed together taste sensation so good. Get used to it baby. Your gon na gustatory modality it often. next clip, you will work it off my cock on command. ``



I just lay there looking up at him. All I could think was he wants to do this to me again ? ? When ? Why ? Was n't my mohter enough for him ? Was I raped ? Did I want this ?



He begins to rub me and say `` you have been suck a expert girl tongiht. Lets get you cleaned up and back in bed before your mom gets here. Now you keep this secret between us and do n't order anyone. The next time I come for you I expect you to occur to me willingly. You will beg me to get it on you again. ``



He showers with me, washes my consistency, dresses me and carries me to bed. He leans in to snog me on my forehead and says `` goodnight steady '' then walks out.



That was three years ago and Sam is still coming to my way every time my mom works late, and sometimes he gets me from shoal and takes me to his place. I have never say no and I have never told anyone. As far as I know he has never touched Nat, and he promises me as long as I do as he says he never will.



Sam was right about so many affair. I did learn to be a woman. The first metre I was with Adam he was very pleased with me. Part of me hates Sam, part of me loves him. Will I ever get away from him ?