The Bed And Topper Friend Prt. Iii


First-Time
Anna was going to stay with me for a month, but that month turned into two. Then three. Now the new year was approaching, and she had not left yet. I did not care, of course of instruction, as I was madly in lovemaking with her, but the uncertainty had consumed me. Was she a roommate ? Friend ? buff ? More ?

The time to have"the lecture"was that commencement calendar week, after she blew me twice. But we did not. She blew me a few more prison term, and I ate her out, and yet we never really discussed the details of our relationship. Anna did not seem to listen - she clearly did not desire it defined - and I pretended not to as well, though it killed me.

Then the window closed. She met Clive at a barter sports meeting in betimes November. They went on a date. Then two. Then three. Soon she was no long sleeping in my bed, and we were certainly not fooling around. She did not even come rest home a few nights a hebdomad. Fucking Clive.

We'd still hang out, and she'd say things like,"God, you're such a smashing guy. You deserve to meet someone."It killed me. I DID deserve it, she was good. And I had met her. Unfortunately, she had met Clive. Fucking Clive.

By December she was talking about finalizing the divorcement from her husband and finding her own place in the new year. She was very exonerate that she felt like she was a burden to me, and that she"owed it to me"to get out. I was JUST as clear that I didn't care. But I knew it wasn't really about me. It was about her. And fucking Clive.

I felt like I had a shot at Christmas. Clive was going to his parent's home in Centennial State. Anna was driving to meet him on Dec. 26, but she had no program for Yuletide day. I blew my own parents off and pretended I, too, had nothing to do. I suggested we stay in and drink wine-coloured and watch TV. She agreed.

I knew the gift I got her was important. I mean, just getting her a present tense was not enough. I needed a financial statement. There's a remainder between a friend gift and a lover talent. I wanted to get her a lover gift. I wanted a fucking content to be sent in big, bluff, cap, thank-the-baby-Jesus letters. No dubiousness. No confusion.

I got her a pair of infield earrings. It was the sort of thing she'd never get herself. I wrote a spoken communication, too. I had facts on how farseeing it takes a diamond to be formed, and how precaution and preciseness and luck had to be exactly right for it to pass off. It was a miracle, really. And just as miraculous, I segued, was how much she meant to me. I explained that I had loved her for most of my life, and I wanted to show her how special she was. I had this memorized and tucked in my air pocket, in case I stumbled. It was my mo. I didn't want it to go wrong.

BBBBUUUTTTTT … just in case, you know, I got a safety gift : Warm socks.

So on Christmastide day, we were finished with bottle two. She got that happy-kid grin on her face and said she had gotten me a introduce. I told her I had gotten her one, too. She asked if I wanted it now. I said yes. She smiled big and popped up and ran in her room. She was woozy. I grabbed her two endowment and put them behind my back, under the cushion, almost certain I would hold her the lover talent, BBBBUUUTTTT … just in subject, I put the windsock back there, too.

Five hour later, she came back to the life room, tears streaking down her human face. Clive had hidden a little wrap up box in her nightstand. She had just found it. It was a twosome of pin-up diamond earrings. She glided around the way, calling him on her cadre to secern him how a lot she loved them. I swallowed my clapper. FUCKING CLIVE.

I opened my giving : A $ 40 talent wit to GameStop. I gave her the socks. I had lost the fight, the conflict and the war.

***

I had very specific plans for New twelvemonth's Eve : I was going to drink heavily. This is how heavily : I went to the hard liquor fund and bought a fifth of vodka. As I was about to check off out, I looked at the 70-proof bottle of punk hooch and though,"Hmm, is this plenty ?"I bought two. And I don't even drink vodka.

I really wanted to black out before Ryan Seacrest showed his screwing tanned brass on the screen. Baron Clive of Plassey looked a bit like Seacrest. blond whisker. high spot. short. Perfect grin. Extremely decent and civilised and bewitch and singular. He had always been sweet to me. A real gentleman, actually. I hated that guy.

I poured myself a gravid glass of liquid poison. When I say I am not a vodka guy, I mean that. I never drank it straight. It smelled like rubbing alcohol. Still, I had a destructive streak that was pointing right at my liver and tum. I tried to ignore the flavor and took a big gulp.

My esophagus was still burning when my cell rang. It was 8:03 p.m. I thought about ignoring it, but I glanced at the phoner ID. Anna.

"how-do-you-do ?"

"Is this a bad clock time ?"she asked. She sounded distant.

"No. Why ? You OK ?"

"Um …"her voice cracked. I could tell she was choking back binge."I, uh. Are you home ? Are you out ?"

"I'm habitation. What's up Anna ?"

"Could you … peck me up ? I mean, I hate to ask. It's just. Robert Clive he, uh … we had a fight. You know ? I just need to get house and I left my debit card at home and I can't get a cab and I don't have anyone …"

"No, shh. facial expression, it's cool. Where are you ? I will leave now."

***

Anna did not talk much on the way home, just a few thank yous. By the meter we got back to the apartment, it was a petty after 10. She looked stunning, even with her makeup running down her cheeks. Her tight green dress hugged her curve. I felt underdressed, what with my jean and a t-shirt.

She went back to her elbow room, only to reemerge a little before 12. Her hair was up, makeup off. She wore her cow PJs and a loaded T. I wanted to kiss her. It was the rig she wore the second night we were together.

She sat down beside me on the couch. She had a wine-coloured ice in her helping hand and motioned toward my feeding bottle of vodka, which I had not touched since we had gotten back."May I ?"

She filled her Methedrine up and sank back, her feet curled under her. Her oculus were red, but she was no longer crying.

"Do you want to talk ?"I asked.

"No,"she said."Yes. Maybe. God. You probably think I'm such a be intimate idiot."

"No. No I don't. I won't."

"First my husband, now Clive. I must have a extra attraction to assholes."

"What did he do ?"

"It turns out he wasn't visiting his parents in Colorado River over the weekend … but his married woman. She called when he was in the bathroom, and I picked up his cellphone. She was as storm to happen out about me as I was to come up out about her."

"Wow,"I said.

"Yeah, well. Anyway, when he got back, I confronted him and he had the face to get mad at ME for ‘ snooping.'He left me there at the club. No money. No ride. Fucking Clive."

She slipped slowly at her drinking, grimacing with every swallow.

"And the matter is … I KNEW it. I knew he was a lying snake. I sensed it. I tried to block it out. There was just something so … fake about him. I don't know. Something dissimulator. God."

"He looked like Ryan Seacrest."

Anna looked at me. kind of stared. Then a hiss. Then a wax laugh. I started laughing, too. She spilt a little of her crapulence on herself and laughed to a greater extent. We were both duplicate over.

"God,"she said, wiping the tears away."You are correct. I was dating Ryan Seacrest ! I am such an idiot. Jesus."

"Anna, you are being too hard on yourself …"

"Stop."

"I mean it. reckon, you WANT to love someone. You want to so badly that you ignore the bad things. There are bad qualities."

"Like what ?"

"Like NOT wanting love. Like being closed off. Like giving up on hope and fortune and all that other fairy taradiddle stuff. Listen, you should never be ashamed about your desire to be felicitous and to desire the substantially in others. We live in a cynical earth. We need More ‘ you,'LE ‘ them.'”

She smiled and curled up beside me, resting her point on my berm."You are a good friend,"she said. My heart sank. I was such a sucker. It was five money box midnight.

We watched metre square toes on TV in silence, Anna taking the occasional sip from her vino glass. Her promontory stayed on my shoulder. We watched the countdown, the happy faces shrieking and yelling. When the clock ticked one instant, Anna turned and gently grabbed my drumhead, kissing me, tenderly. I had kissed her before, but aught was like this. It was sweet and gentle and packed with import. For me.

She pulled away and bit her lip, her hand caressing my nerve. She put down her wine glass and started to act, straddling me.

"No,"I said, jumping up and hopping across the room."No. No."

"What's untimely ?"she asked.

"You can't do that."

"Sorry."

"It's not fair."

"What ?"

"THAT. Again."

"What ? kiss you ? I thought you liked that ? We're friends. It's OK …"

"fuck Anna. We are NOT Quaker. We're not. I mean, we are. But … you HAVE to know I love you, right ? I mean, you are a smart little girl. You are fucking brilliant. You KNOW I love you. I've never said it, but you know. You know !"

"Tom …"

"Don't say it, Anna. Don't say we're protagonist. I can't take it."

Tears were in her center again. I couldn't look at her. I felt myself welling up."But we are."

"Why, Anna ? Why Clive and all the others but not me ? Huh ? Why not me ? You want individual to love you and treat you right and be there for you ? It's me. It has always been ME."

Anna took another sip of her vodka, running her hand through her fuzz and pinning it back. I looked at her, briefly. I could not sustain a gaze. I was embarrassed at my emotions. I was afraid I had changed everything.

"I know you enjoy me,"she said."I'm not blind."

"Then why ? Huh ? Why not me ? Why not us ?"

"I can't …"

"Fuck, Anna. You can. You owe me an explanation."

"Tom …"

"You have never been afraid to say what you feel. Don't start now."

"I guess I was afraid that if I lost you, then I would experience no one left. And I am selfish. OK ? I am the asshole."

I moved to her, sinking on the couch. I folded my hands across my chest.

"Anna, you ARE going to lose me. I am not doing this anymore. I need you in my living, but I can't sit back and sentinel you date guy after guy. Marry them. Then come to me with your problems. I can't. I know I can be the man for you. I know I can kick in you what you want. And I can't sit back and watch this parade of losers. I can't be your rubber net."

"I know."

I covered my eyes with my hand, rubbing them. I had not cried since Tommy Craig punched me in the nose in eighth level. I brushed the fuzz back, off my forehead. It felt wakeless in the room.

"I am disconsolate to do this tonight, Anna."

"No …"

"I could've waited."

"Don't apologize. I should."

Anna reached out, taking my hand again. She pulled it to her chest, against her heart. I turned to attend at her."buss me,"she said."Kiss me. Let's name the respite out later. I promise. I want this. Please ?"

I swallowed hard. Anna was a methadon. She hated painfulness in people. I wasn't for sure if this was real or her way of healing a combat injury. But I was weak. I leaned in and kissed her.

I have had sex great deal, but I am not sure I had ever made love to mortal. I had never connected with someone on a primal layer. But I did with Anna that night. It was gentle and raw and worked up. On my sofa. As Ryan Seacrest spoke in the background.

I stripped her apparel off and gazed at her, drinking her in. She gently stroked my prick as I wrapped her legs around me. I eased into her, slipping my arms around her waist so I could draw out her tight against me. It was the low metre I had been completely inside of her. I tried to prepare the moment last.

Our soundbox responded to each former. When she thrusted, I pumped. When I pumped, she squeezed. Her lips never left mine. I could taste the common salt from her teardrop on her sass. Her glossa was aggressive but soothing. When she came, she sank her nails into my back and kissed me firmly. She said my name and I froze inside of her, fucking her gently as she rose and fell.

I was closed. I asked her where she wanted me to cum. She said inside of her. She said she was on the pill. I looked at her as I got close, pulling my head back so I could see her eyes. She stared back. We connected. I smiled slightly. So did she. A smile of realization. I kissed her as I came, my cock exploding into the abysm of felicity and contentment.

Afterwards, we lay on my lounge, wrapped in a cover. Her legs wrapped around mine, her head on my chest and her fingerbreadth playfully running through my hair.

"I think this modification everything,"she said, looking up at me.

"I am OK with that,"I said, still not fully able to search at her."Are you ?"

She smiled."Yes,"she said.

"And I'm sorry,"she said, a few indorsement later.

"Why ?"

"I was selfish. I was a bad friend."

I smiled, my judgement raced. I squeezed her and pulled her tight."It's OK,"I said .
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