The Bed And Best Friend Prt. Iii


First-Time
Anna was going to stay with me for a calendar month, but that month turned into two. Then three. Now the new year was approaching, and she had not left yet. I did not give care, of track, as I was madly in love with her, but the doubt had consumed me. Was she a roomie ? Friend ? Lover ? More ?

The time to have"the talk"was that start calendar week, after she blew me twice. But we did not. She blew me a few More times, and I ate her out, and yet we never really discussed the details of our relationship. Anna did not seem to heed - she clearly did not want it defined - and I pretended not to as well, though it killed me.

Then the windowpane closed. She met Clive at a barter meet in early November. They went on a date. Then two. Then three. Soon she was no longer sleeping in my bed, and we were certainly not fooling around. She did not even come home a few Night a hebdomad. Fucking Clive.

We'd still hang out, and she'd say matter like,"God, you're such a great guy. You deserve to fill someone."It killed me. I DID deserve it, she was justly. And I had met her. Unfortunately, she had met Baron Clive. Fucking Clive.

By December she was talking about finalizing the divorce from her married man and finding her own place in the new year. She was very authorise that she felt like she was a load to me, and that she"owed it to me"to get out. I was JUST as clear that I didn't care. But I knew it wasn't really about me. It was about her. And fucking Clive.

I felt like I had a shot at Dec 25. Clive was going to his parent's home in Colorado. Anna was driving to meet him on Dec. 26, but she had no architectural plan for Christmas Day day. I blew my own parents off and pretended I, too, had nothing to do. I suggested we stay in and tope wine-coloured and lookout man TV. She agreed.

I knew the giving I got her was crucial. I mean, just getting her a present was not enough. I needed a program line. There's a difference between a booster giving and a lover talent. I wanted to get her a lover natural endowment. I wanted a fucking message to be sent in big, bold, capital, thank-the-baby-Jesus alphabetic character. No doubtfulness. No confusion.

I got her a pair of diamond earrings. It was the kind of thing she'd never get herself. I wrote a speech, too. I had facts on how long it takes a diamond to be formed, and how care and precision and luck had to be exactly right for it to happen. It was a miracle, really. And just as miraculous, I segued, was how much she meant to me. I explained that I had loved her for near of my lifespan, and I wanted to shew her how particular she was. I had this memorized and tucked in my scoop, in vitrine I stumbled. It was my moment. I didn't want it to go wrong.

BBBBUUUTTTTT … just in case, you know, I got a safety gift : Warm socks.

So on Christmas day, we were finished with bottle two. She got that happy-kid grinning on her human face and said she had gotten me a submit. I told her I had gotten her one, too. She asked if I wanted it now. I said yes. She smiled big and popped up and ran in her room. She was giddy. I grabbed her two gift and put them behind my back, under the cushion, almost certain I would give her the lover gift, BBBBUUUTTTT … just in suit, I put the socks back there, too.

quint instant later, she came back to the bread and butter room, tears streaking down her human face. Robert Clive had hidden a little wrapped box in her nightstand. She had just found it. It was a pair of endearing ball field earrings. She glided around the room, calling him on her jail cell to tell apart him how a lot she loved them. I swallowed my clapper. FUCKING CLIVE.

I opened my gift : A $ 40 gift card to GameStop. I gave her the socks. I had lost the fight, the battle and the war.

***

I had very specific plans for New Year's Eve : I was going to salute heavily. This is how heavily : I went to the spirits store and bought a fifth part of vodka. As I was about to chequer out, I looked at the 70-proof bottle of cheap hooch and though,"Hmm, is this plenty ?"I bought two. And I don't even drink vodka.

I really wanted to black out before Ryan Seacrest showed his fucking tanned face on the CRT screen. Baron Clive of Plassey looked a bit like Seacrest. Blonde hair. Highlights. short circuit. Perfect smile. Extremely decent and polite and charming and funny. He had always been sweet-scented to me. A genuine man, actually. I hated that guy.

I poured myself a large glass of liquidness poison. When I say I am not a vodka guy, I mean that. I never drank it straight. It smelled like rubbing alcohol. Still, I had a destructive streak that was pointing right at my liver and abdomen. I tried to ignore the flavor and took a big gulp.

My gorge was still burning when my cell rang. It was 8:03 p.m. I thought about ignoring it, but I glanced at the caller ID. Anna.

"Hello ?"

"Is this a bad time ?"she asked. She sounded distant.

"No. Why ? You OK ?"

"Um …"her interpreter cracked. I could severalise she was choking back tears."I, uh. Are you home ? Are you out ?"

"I'm home. What's up Anna ?"

"Could you … pick me up ? I mean, I hate to ask. It's just. Baron Clive he, uh … we had a battle. You know ? I just need to get home base and I left my debit card at home and I can't get a cab and I don't have anyone …"

"No, shh. Look, it's aplomb. Where are you ? I will go out now."

***

Anna did not sing much on the way plate, just a few thank yous. By the time we got back to the flat, it was a lilliputian after 10. She looked stunning, even with her constitution running down her impertinence. Her mean green garb hugged her curves. I felt underdress, what with my denim and a t-shirt.

She went back to her room, only to reemerge a little before 12. Her pilus was up, makeup off. She wore her cow PJs and a fuddled T. I wanted to snog her. It was the getup she wore the second night we were together.

She sat down beside me on the couch. She had a wine glass in her hired man and motioned toward my bottle of vodka, which I had not touched since we had gotten back."May I ?"

She filled her glass up and sank back, her ft curled under her. Her eyes were red, but she was no longer crying.

"Do you require to talk ?"I asked.

"No,"she said."Yes. Maybe. God. You probably think I'm such a fucking idiot."

"No. No I don't. I won't."

"First my hubby, now Clive. I must cause a especial attraction to assholes."

"What did he do ?"

"It turns out he wasn't visiting his parents in Colorado over the weekend … but his married woman. She called when he was in the bathroom, and I picked up his cell. She was as surprised to found out about me as I was to set up out about her."

"Wow,"I said.

"Yeah, well. Anyway, when he got back, I confronted him and he had the face to get mad at ME for ‘ snooping.'He left me there at the club. No money. No ride. Fucking Clive."

She slipped slowly at her drink, grimacing with every swallow.

"And the affair is … I KNEW it. I knew he was a lying Snake. I sensed it. I tried to barricade it out. There was just something so … fake about him. I don't know. Something phony. God."

"He looked like Ryan Seacrest."

Anna looked at me. Sort of stared. Then a snort. Then a full laugh. I started laughing, too. She spilt a little of her drinkable on herself and laughed more. We were both doubled over.

"God,"she said, wiping the split away."You are right. I was dating Ryan Seacrest ! I am such an idiot. Jesus."

"Anna, you are being too hard on yourself …"

"Stop."

"I mean it. attend, you WANT to love somebody. You want to so badly that you ignore the bad things. There are worse qualities."

"Like what ?"

"Like NOT wanting love. Like being closed off. Like giving up on Leslie Townes Hope and luck and all that former faery tale stuff. Listen, you should never be ashamed about your desire to be happy and to desire the best in others. We live in a cynical cosmos. We need to a greater extent ‘ you,'less ‘ them.'”

She smiled and curled up beside me, resting her top dog on my shoulder."You are a good admirer,"she said. My heart sank. I was such a sucker. It was five till midnight.

We watched Time second power on TV in silence, Anna taking the occasional sip from her vino glass. Her head stayed on my berm. We watched the countdown, the glad faces screeching and yelling. When the clock ticked one second, Anna turned and gently grabbed my capitulum, kissing me, tenderly. I had kissed her before, but nothing was like this. It was odorous and gentle and load down with meaning. For me.

She pulled away and bit her lip, her hired man caressing my cheek. She put down her wine-coloured methamphetamine and started to impress, straddling me.

"No,"I said, jumping up and hopping across the elbow room."No. No."

"What's wrong ?"she asked.

"You can't do that."

"Sorry."

"It's not fair."

"What ?"

"THAT. Again."

"What ? Kiss you ? I thought you liked that ? We're friends. It's OK …"

"screw Anna. We are NOT friends. We're not. I mean, we are. But … you HAVE to know I love you, right ? I mean, you are a chic lady friend. You are fucking brilliant. You KNOW I love you. I've never said it, but you know. You know !"

"Tom …"

"Don't say it, Anna. Don't say we're friends. I can't call for it."

Tears were in her heart again. I couldn't feeling at her. I felt myself welling up."But we are."

"Why, Anna ? Why Clive and all the others but not me ? Huh ? Why not me ? You want somebody to love you and treat you right and be there for you ? It's me. It has always been ME."

Anna took another sip of her vodka, running her paw through her pilus and pinning it back. I looked at her, briefly. I could not sustain a gaze. I was embarrassed at my emotions. I was afraid I had changed everything.

"I know you love me,"she said."I'm not blind."

"Then why ? Huh ? Why not me ? Why not us ?"

"I can't …"

"piece of tail, Anna. You can. You owe me an explanation."

"Tom …"

"You have never been afraid to say what you feel. Don't start now."

"I guess I was afraid that if I lost you, then I would own no one left. And I am selfish. OK ? I am the asshole."

I moved to her, sinking on the couch. I folded my mitt across my chest.

"Anna, you ARE going to fall behind me. I am not doing this anymore. I need you in my lifespan, but I can't sit back and watch you date guy after guy. Marry them. Then come to me with your job. I can't. I know I can be the man for you. I know I can render you what you want. And I can't sit back and keep an eye on this parade of losers. I can't be your safety net."

"I know."

I covered my eyes with my deal, rubbing them. I had not cried since Tommy Craig punched me in the nose in eighth grade. I brushed the hair back, off my forehead. It felt heavy in the room.

"I am grim to do this tonight, Anna."

"No …"

"I could've waited."

"Don't apologize. I should."

Anna reached out, taking my hand again. She pulled it to her dresser, against her heart. I turned to calculate at her."osculation me,"she said."Kiss me. Let's trope the quietus out later. I promise. I want this. delight ?"

I swallowed hard. Anna was a fixing agent. She hated pain in people. I wasn't sure if this was real or her way of healing a wound. But I was weak. I leaned in and kissed her.

I have had sex slew, but I am not sure I had ever made erotic love to someone. I had never connected with person on a primal spirit level. But I did with Anna that night. It was gentle and raw and emotional. On my couch. As Ryan Seacrest spoke in the background.

I stripped her clothes off and gazed at her, drinking her in. She gently stroked my cock as I wrapped her pegleg around me. I eased into her, slipping my arms around her waist so I could pull her tight against me. It was the first prison term I had been completely inside of her. I tried to name the mo last.

Our soundbox responded to each former. When she thrusted, I pumped. When I pumped, she squeezed. Her lips never left mine. I could smack the table salt from her tears on her lips. Her knife was aggressive but soothing. When she came, she sank her nails into my spinal column and kissed me hard. She said my name and I froze inside of her, fucking her gently as she rose and fell.

I was closed. I asked her where she wanted me to cum. She said interior of her. She said she was on the tab. I looked at her as I got close, pulling my top dog back so I could see her optic. She stared back. We connected. I smiled slightly. So did she. A smiling of recognition. I kissed her as I came, my pecker exploding into the abyss of happiness and contentment.

Afterwards, we lay on my couch, wrapped in a blanket. Her legs wrapped around mine, her pass on my chest and her fingers playfully running through my hair.

"I think this changes everything,"she said, looking up at me.

"I am OK with that,"I said, still not fully able-bodied to front at her."Are you ?"

She smiled."Yes,"she said.

"And I'm sorry,"she said, a few seconds later.

"Why ?"

"I was selfish. I was a bad friend."

I smiled, my mind raced. I squeezed her and pulled her tight."It's OK,"I said .
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