*So I 'm all in, Yeah that sucks* My first words as a dead person and they 're what I choose, What form of lame idiot am I, I should of said something much better like sweet i 'm dead clip to suffer some fun

Yes I did just kind of accept the fact that I no longer had a life, There was one little niggle that did bother me then and to this very day ( even though it 's only been a few of them ) still does, The same inquiry I keep asking myself over and over again *Why have n't I moved on*, Yeah so that is still something I would like to know but we will leave it for now

I guess you are probably wondering what I did for the next few days that would bring us to this award day, wellspring I know you will call off me wild but I did the simply thing that seemed natural to do at the clock time I chose to pack on with my normal life, That of course of study included going to school day, Yes I know it seems pointless for a dead someone to attend school but do n't pass judgment me, I spent a lot of time with Alice even though she had no clew I was there with her, I would walk her nursing home then hang around her apartment till she went to bed just so I could keep an eye on her even though I do n't cognize what I could of done if anything had of happened to her, After that I usually went home and walked around the house I lived in with my mother and half sister, Always seemed so quiet when I would walk in the planetary house, Probably because my mother and one-half sister were usually just sat in the living room comforting each former or they were in bed asleep, Well that was pretty much all I did for the past few days which brings us back to the present day.

As I said at the very beggining I will once again say now, Morning I assume, My figure is Alex and this is where the story is about to get a little more interesting. This dayspring, well I as per normal just assume it 's morning began the same as the past few twenty-four hour period since I have been drained, I was wondering around the house when I noticed my half sister walking out of her sleeping accommodation all dressed for school which meant that it was atleast eight am if not later, Of course I did what I always did at that moment, I ran. You see each sunrise I would hold off till my sister awoke and was ready for schoolhouse before I would leave the star sign and would run towards Alice 's flat, I always walked with her to schooling and cipher would lay off me doing it on this day. Five minutes later, Could be recollective I do n't know, Time 's meaningless to me as you already know, Anyway 's however long it took me I arrived on metre as per normal, I walked into the apartment building and straight up to Alice 's flat, I would knock but it 's a dissipation of time, So much leisurely when I just walk through the threshold so that 's what I did, Of course of instruction I found Alice in the same space I had left her the night before, Bed. I know my future sentence will voice really creepy but I just get laid watching Alice sleep she is just so precious, The way she sucks her ovolo, Forget I said that I am pretty surely she would kill me if anyone ever found that out even though it would be impossible for her to do it, Well I stood there for I do n't know how long before I heard the usual shouting coming from the bread and butter room, It of course been her mum shouting for her to get out of bed, That was when I left her sleeping room just incase her sleepwear was a minuscule inappropriate, I do the same thing every good morning to be honest, I walked through her door and went to sit on the support elbow room sofa until Alice walked out of her bedroom in her shoal uniform and quickly rushed into the lav, She does it pretty much every dawn, I waited for her to come out and then I got up and walked to the front room access only to deliver her follow me a few instant later, I began walking with her towards school when she veered away and headed towards the park, Of course I had to travel along her, Ca n't take in her getting in any trouble now can I. Well we walked for..You know what I will try to drop out the wholly fourth dimension part as we all know by now that I have no hint about fourth dimension or day, well we walked for a while until we came to the burying ground, Now do n't get me wrong I have nix against them it 's just they give me the creeps, Well she walked in and I followed her and I stopped when she chose to only I did n't kneel down when I saw the grave accent she had stopped at, You know in the short thing of time I have been numb it never once occured to me that I might actually give a tomb, I might actually be buried somewhere.

Okay I will be the maiden to admit that seeing my gravestone, The place my consistence is buried for the showtime time is kind of Weird, It 's like been dead does n't really go under in until you realise you are truly gone, fountainhead anyway back to Alice been here, So yeah she was kneeling infront of my grave and I was just form of stood behind her not really knowing what to do, Within those few moments I was sorting of paralyzed with impact I guess you could hollo it I think I might of missed Alice speaking, Did view a few words though

*I miss you* She said to my gravestone although with me been here with her it 's sort of like she is speaking to me which feel 's sort of nice

Well I assume with all said and done she will get up and take the air to school but she does n't seem to be doing so, Maybe if I could somehow pluck her up I could carry her to school, Make sure she is n't late..Nope I ca n't beak her up, Yes before you ask I did just try and it is quite obvious the event, postponement what 's that noise.

*Alex why did you have to die* She asked my gravestone, Her vox does n't sound right though, It sound 's as if she is stuttering the Christian Bible out, Let 's see why..Yep she 's crying that aint commodity, I ca n't handle it when she cry 's it just makes me need to do the Lapp

*Do n't cry Alice* Yes I did just differentiate her not to cry, I know it 's pointless but I seriously do n't like it when she does

*Wh..Who said that* She asked, I mean she literally just asked me who had just talked to her, She can pick up me

*Alice you can listen me* Yes I know it 's a stupid matter to say but what else can I ask

*Who are you* She asked, I 'm a little hurt by that because you think she would know her ripe protagonist articulation

*Who do you call back it is* I know it sounds a little average but I ca n't help it, I mean it 's a little upsetting when the only person you care about other than house of course does n't recognize your voice

*A..Al..Alex* She stuttered out, I actually ca n't think she it, She can get word me and she know 's who is talking, shot I am two for two

*Who you expecting, Saint Nicholas clause* Yeah I know another strange choice of words, I know I probably do n't have long to talk to her but it 's always fun to mess with her

*Shut up you idiot* She said a trivial angrily, Now you think she would be felicitous to blab out to me but she does n't seem it

*If that 's what you want I will* I wo n't really but like I said, Always fun to mess with her

*No ! * She pretty much just screamed at me

*Okay I wo n't shut up then* I know I could of take some good Logos 's but meh who cares

*Good, looking at Alex this is crazy weird that I can hear you and I do n't live if I am just imagining the whole affair or if this is just a crazy dream and any present moment I will wake up in my bed and realise that none of this ever happened but I just want to let you know that I miss you been here* She said to me, I can see the tears streaming down her cheeks, If only I could wipe them away

*I miss you too, It 's sort of lonely on this side of biography, I mean I have nobody which to be fair is n't a good deal of a difference but atleast when I had a life I had you* I know it sounds like some sort of prank but it 's true
Well she does n't seem to be saying much, Guess I said something wrong, Would n't surprise me thats for sure as shooting, Wait she has this unearthly look on her face, I think i 'm in worry

*Alex I want to aplogise, It 's all my fault you 're gone, If I had n't had you walk me home you would still be here today* She said, For the 1st time I actually do n't bonk how to feel, I mean seriously how can she pick herself

*Alice I do n't accept your apologia as you have nothing to apologise for, It was an honour for me to walk you home that day, Every moment I got to spend with you was a moment I chose to treasure* okey a little soppy but I seriously do mean every Holy Writ, I loved every present moment I had with her

*Al..Alex..* She stammered out before running off, I do n't know why she just did what she did but yes I am going to follow her, boulder clay the end of the Earth if I so must.

okay I do n't seriously know how long it 's been but I lost her, I managed to make it to the cemetery logic gate but then she just dissapeared, I 've checked everywhere I can think she would be but well as you can guess I did n't recover her, I checked the school, Library, Her place, The Mungo Park and even came back to the necropolis but she was n't here, How the heck am I going to receive her now .