So there Alex laid, Broken by a bingle hit, His trunk twisted in shipway no body should, Too late did Lily realise why Alex had pushed her away from him, Too late did she realise the car was speeding and would of hit her had it not been for Alex, Had she known what lot was about to deliver she would of never been so insistant on Alex walking her cover home, He had just saved her animation at the toll of another, His very own..

So back to where it all began or shall we say where it all ended, Alex had just been hit by a speeding car, He laid broken in the middle of the road, Lily was kneeling by him while hoi polloi flocked around to see the devastating accident. Lily knew that Alex was fading, His eye 's were one of the big breath 's, She could see them clearly closing ever so slowly, His breathing had become shallow, He was fading into nothingness yet he was still smiling, Lily on the other hand could do nothing but cry, She was watching the one person in her spirit who mattered slowly fade away and it was all her fault

*Do n't cry, snag do n't do anything for your beauty* Alex whispered, He was using his last few breathing space to try to make her flavour better

*But..* Lily sobbed, The tears were flowing freely, She could n't avail crying

*No but 's, I want you to always call back that you are beautiful to me, Always have been and always will be, You are the skilful Quaker I could of ever asked for* Alex again whispered as he slowly raised one hand to her cheek to wipe away a snag

*But..* Lily once again sobbed, She seemed unable to say anything else, The shock of what had happened seemed to be taking over

*Lily if this be my last breath then may I ask for one net thing, Come closer* Alex asked in a breathless tone
Lily did as she was asked, She could tell Alex 's clip was nearly up and for what he had done for her she would of given the Earth if he had asked her to at that very moment

*I love you* Alex softly whispered in her ear, Just three little Holy Writ that he wanted to say for so long
Lily was a short taken back by what Alex had just said but deep in her heart she felt the same way, Since the day they had met Alex had always plow her like a princess, He always did anything she asked him to no matter how dullard it seemed, He always did anything he could to realize her smile, Even now in his conclusion moment 's he had used them to try make her smile one hold up sentence

*I..*Lily cut her judgment of conviction short, She noticed Alex had closed his center, She could tell within a mere second that it was too former, He was gone, He had given his final breath to distinguish her the word she had always wanted to hear

Guess it was all too much for Lily once she heard the femme fatale from the ambulance nearing, She desperately wanted to run away from the panorama, Run away from all the pain she was feeling, All the guilty conscience, All the unhappiness, All the hurt, But she could n't, She could n't just entrust Alex there all alone, Could n't will the but soul who she had ever loved, She had to stay even if it was just till the paramedic took him away, She had to atleast say arrivederci to him

*Okay I have to do this quick, Alex..* Lily broke down once again ineffectual to finish her goodbye, It should n't of been like that for her, She should n't of had to be saying goodbye

Too late did Lily recognise the ambulance had arrived at the scene, The paramedics were on handwriting within bit trying to dispense CPR to Alex to no avail, He was gone and the paramedic knew that, One paramedic stood up and walked over to Lily

*I 'm sorry miss but he is gone* The paramedic said to Lily though what she heard of it is beyond any of us, She already knew he was but somehow hearing it from a paramedical seemed to produce it all seem much more real to her, kind of like until that very here and now it all just seemed to be a dream

*He..He's..No ! * Lily screamed *He ca n't be*

Although she knew it to be admittedly she still had a punishing fourth dimension accepting the fact, She had known for a piece before the paramedic spoke that Alex was gone but been told it just seemed to cook her feel wild, She felt as if the paramedic could of saved him, Should of saved him even though oceanic abyss down she knew they could n't

*I 'm blue miss but there is nil more we can do* The paramedic said a short nervously, He seemed a niggling afraid of Lily, He variety of felt that she might bend all her anger on him and attack

*There must be, Please do something, Anything* Lily begged, She was on the verge of another breakdown, She was also on the verge of letting her anger assume over

*There is cipher we can do, He has passed on* The paramedical said trying to hold back Lily calm

*But..* Lily managed to stammer out through bastard, It was all too a good deal at that peak for Lily, She knew she would never forgive herself but at that moment there was nothing more she wanted to do than what she did, She turned away from the paramedic, Away from where Alex laid and she ran, Ran from the scene, Ran from her best friend

troika hours Lily was on the run for, Trying to run away from her problems, Did n't act, No thing how hard she tried she could n't do anything but hurt, She was hurting for Thomas More than one ground at that point, With everything that had happened she had used all her pent up anger and ended up punching a lampost or two, Probably not the smartest affair but I guess it is much easier to feel physical pain rather than aroused painfulness, Anyways three 60 minutes was getting too much for Lily, She was exhausted, Both mentally and physically, At that point all 's she wanted was a warm bed and a goodness nights sleep, Least then she could deal with all her trouble the following morning, disgrace affair never work out that way though

*Ugh, Why ca n't I sleep* Lily moaned to herself, She had made it home over an hour ago and yet there she lay, Wide awake, unable to flow at rest

It was around four in the morning before Lily finally got to sleep, Bet she wished she had n't though at that pointedness, From the instant her eye 's closed the incubus began, She was standing alone in a night elbow room, Voices were chattering in the distance, She could n't see anything but the body laying on the floor beside her, She did n't desire to look down as she could already guess who the body belonged to but against her will she looked, Of line her suspicions were adjust, The body laying beside her was none of than Alex 's, The way he had looked the moment he had been hit by the car, All broken, She looked up to recognize she was no foresightful alone, All around her were phantasmal figures, They were all chattering to each early it seemed, All saying the same thing though, All saying *Your mistake he died*

*No ! * Lily managed to scream to the ghostly digit, Of course that probably was n't her smartest motion, Nor could she control it, She was losing ascendance of herself

Of course the ghostly figures stopped their chatter, All eye 's in one swift motion focused on Lily, Lily was pretty very much frozen in place, The ghostlike soma for the outset time seemed to acknowledge Lily 's comportment, They all stared at her for what seemed an eternity before one ghostly name stepped forward from the ease of them, For the firstly time Lily realised they were n't ghosts as such, They had the see through figure of a trace but they had os, Actual clappers in their bodys

*Wh..What are you* Lily asked a piddling afraid of the beast standing infront of her

*What am I, I am a purport of the damned, A lost soul who spend 's timeless existence trapped here* The anatomy said matter of factly, I guess he was tired of answering that question

*But why am I here, Why is alex* Lily asked a little nervously, She was definetly afraid that the resolution would be something she would hate

*But your not here, Neither is your niggling champion, Not yet atleast* The figure answered, He seemed to fuck something that Lily probably did n't want to live

Lily was about to ask the one question she was completely dreading asking, The one about what he have in mind by not yet atleast, The Scripture 's were almost out of her sassing when she heard a noise in the background, A faint knocking interference which sounded like it was coming from every direction

*Ahh seem 's like it 's metre for you to part, sentence for you to waken up, Do n't worry though we shall forgather again very soon* The figure said a little coldly, What followed next probably frightened Lily more than anything, The figure began laughing, Not a funny laugh but a insensate, Evil laugh, If that was n't bad enough the rest of the anatomy ( The lost souls if you would like ) Joined in, All with the Lapp common cold, evil laugh

*I don't..* Lily did n't get to finish her judgment of conviction, She was waking up and her dreaming self was slowly fading away
A few seconds was all it took for Lily to fully awake from her nightmare, She was drenched in a cold sweat, She was shaking, Was she actually scared of a nightmare, She could n't be could she..

A few mo passed before Lily managed to calm herself down enough to atleast sit up in her bed, The nightmare had been too a lot for Lily, Atleast one good thing for her was that morning was fast approaching, A prompt glance out of her confirmed that as she could see the sun slowly rising. It was another time of day before Lily decided to get up and face the day, Of grade from the present moment she woke her judgment overflowed with the memorys of the day before, She saw every little item of the day as each and every retentiveness slowly passed through her judgment, Of course of instruction the More she thought about it the more painful sensation she caused herself

*I ca n't believe he 's gone* She said outloud to herself *After all this time..*

That was more than than enough to cause her to break down, They had been Friend since the day they had met and now Alex was just a memory, He would never be there for Lily again, One pudden-head little fault had taken him away from her

*My demerit, Alex I 'm sorry, I need you back* She sobbed, Of course no matter how many bout she shed she knew Alex would never descend back, He was gone for all of fourth dimension

Lily spent the adjacent half an hour getting sorted out for schooltime, She did n't want to attend but she knew that is what Alex would want, He would never want her to lay around beating herself up over what had happened, He would just want her to get on with her life as if nothing had ever happened, Of course he would always want her to call back him but only the honest affair

By the time Lily was set for school she was already running late, Of course breaking down every two seconds while trying to get ready is a big misunderstanding, It took her a slight prospicient than common and because of that she had to miss breakfast, I guess missing breakfast was n't the biggest affair but missing the bus was, Missing the bus just meant a nice long walk to school

*It would have to be such a nice day out* Lily moaned to herself *Does n't seem fair with everything that has happened*

With that she was gone, She arrived over an 60 minutes late to schoolhouse and ended up getting herself a nice tenacious detention, She missed a dyad of classes and to top off her bad day she ended up laying face down in the school yard as two former lass repeatedly kicked and stomped on her, Yeah I know you think I 've missed out a big division so here is what happened to get to this full stop

get-go example : - Missed
Second lesson : - Missed
one-third deterrent example : - mathematics

That would be the point where things went from bad to worse for Lily, By that metre probably 90 % of the school day had heard what had happened to Alex, Of trend Alex was a piffling popular with a few of the lasses around school, He had that bad habit of been one of the angelical guy 's you would ever have met, Every girl in the schooling knew of him and sooner or later befriended him, Anyways with the whole school day knowing what had happened to Alex the finger of blame soon turned to the only somebody he was with that day..Lily, Of course as soon as the finger was pointed the unscathed school blamed her for his death which meant a lot of angry young girl, Well break time came and of track thats when matter got a little rough for Lily, She was walking through the school yard when she was hit from behind, She tried to get up but that just ended with a swift boot to the rib, That kept her down long enough for the genuine thrashing to begin, She felt hoi polloi kicking her repeatedly and anytime she tried to move she ended up having somebody stomp on her spinal column or caput, After the third stomp on the backbone of her question she must of passed out, When she awoke she was alone, Still facedown on the ground, She tried picking herself up a few multiplication only to end up collapsing from sheer pain, It took her quite some time to finally get up off the ground and onto her feet, She took one step before she fell to her knee 's in pain in the neck

*Wh..Why me* Lily managed to stammer out though there was nobody around to see her, Of course of study at the time she was probably really glad there was n't, She could n't look at anymore painfulness, Although if she ever wanted to travel she would possess to lose a lot more pain sensation

It took her a few minute before she managed to once again get back on her human foot, Of course during the meter it took her to do it there was raft of crying and silent screaming due to the annoyance she was in ( Pretty sure there were a few torment tossed in there aswell ), Once back on her feet she knew what she needed to do

An hour later she had managed to throw it to the merely office she wanted to be, The cliff she and Alex had once spent an afternoon looking out at the sea, The first place she had ever really felt like she was n't alone, The first of all place Alex had taken her, His dearie place to be. Of class Alex really loved topographic point like that due to the peace he could get while been there, He would spend hours there just relaxing with his scrapbook, Drawing weird things, It was like his inspirational place, But of grade Lily had n't gone there just for the memorys, She had one goal in nous. After a little bit of back and forth arguing with herself she finally got up the braveness to step to the cliff 's sharpness, Of course she did the pillock affair and looked down, She knew anyone that fell from that tiptop would never last

*Do n't do it* A vocalism seemed to come from everywhere at once asif it was travelling on the wind

Of course she had to disregard it even if it did sound so conversant, She had struggled all that way for one reason, She did n't need to sense anymore pain, She took one last wait down before she finally did what she wanted to do, She stepped forward, heterosexual person off the cliff, Too late did she realize why the part had sounded so comrade

*Alex..* She said as a rip rolled down her brass *Forgive me*