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'' A Pussyboy 's level ''

Learning to Submit

by tcs1963

When I was growing up, I was always into girlfriend. I also loved to stroke my cock and determine a lot of heterosexual person porn television. This is back when smut was much harder to come by and came on Vhs and Beta videotapes.

I remember as a teenager seeing my first-class honours degree all-guy gay porn clip. It was at the end of another videotape, as some kind of advertisement, I guess.

I remember being so turned on, watching those guys together sucking and ass, that my picayune tool almost ripped through my jean.

But I was also feeling really confused and kind of shamed about enjoying it. I did n't know or even empathize my reaction, but the seeds of experimentation had been sown, and they stuck with me as I grew one-time.

Afterward, when I watched straight heterosexual porn, I realized that what I was fantasizing about, more often than not, was the charwoman in the panorama and what she was experiencing.

The female porn actresses looked so slavish, and beautiful. They also had the most powerful orgasms. Their experiences seemed far Sir Thomas More intense than anything that the male porn actors experienced.

I was fascinated and very queer by how it would experience to be submissive and experience being taken.

This led to me experimenting with virile assplay, ( by putting things in my ass, mainly zucchini and the like ) and imagining that I was being fucked and going through the same experiences as those gentlewoman.

The same matter with cumming on my face. I would lift my ass against the wall and stroke my cock as it pointed at my cheek. My own hot cum pouring all over my face when I came.

This led to a turn of class of disarray and mild depression from not exactly fitting into established sexual roles. Those feelings lasted well into my late twenties.

I was a fairly in force looking guy, while in school. Participating in a few team sports, mostly football game and baseball. I guess you could say I was a moderately pop teenage boy with the moderately democratic teenage girls.

I know I was definitely attracted to the teenage girl, and most clip I had the swelling in my bloomers to essay it. I had a few girlfriend relationships, even a couple of young woman who helped me be sexually fighting.

I really enjoyed sex with them, fumbling around in the backseat or confidential meetings behind the bleachers. But I still could n't shake my desire to be more submissive, and I continued in individual to play with my ass and cum on my face.

I was generally confused and did n't understand the whole androgyny thing. I made myself very miserable trying to cypher out if I was gay or not.

I continued to savor dating daughter and having straight experiences, and in my early mid-twenties, I went a bit slit crazy. Dating any daughter that would put out.

Needless to say, I still could n't shake the completely homosexual thing. So I decided to actively attempt out a guy on guy sexual experience. Which, once you got past the overplus, was pretty well-heeled back then.

I eventually lost my ass cherry to a guy that I met at a bar one night when I was around 27-years-old. I remember lying on his aliveness room flooring in missionary perspective, with his fair size cock pushing in and out of me.

Truth be known, It was OK but all in all, it was a fairly unsatisfactory experience. What I disliked most was that he was full-on gay and wanted Sir Thomas More intimacy, kissing and cuddling and that really did n't sense right to me.

With women, I absolutely wanted to kiss and cuddle, and be intimate in this way. I did n't want any of that with this guy, I just wanted to get fucked, and live out my fantasy of what it was like to be more subservient.

That first experience taught me a lot. It taught me that I certainly did n't feel any emotional connection or attraction to men.

After that initial experiment for a brief period, I tried to enshroud my feelings about being slavish. I had met and was dating a really beautiful girl and we were having great sex, so I did n't think about my perverted side anymore.

After that human relationship ended, it was what happened with my following girl that made many of the pieces of my sexual jigsaw teaser fall into place. She truly found my true self for us.

Lisa was a very pretty noblewoman, she was a lawyer, who inherited her fathers house. She was a very levelheaded and strong woman, she was also very dominant and just had a natural air of self-assurance. Like everything was naturally going to work out exactly as she planned in her life.

Everything was different about her to former girl that I had been out with. She knew what she wanted and not only took it, she demanded it.

To start with, on our starting time date she insisted that she pick me up, this had never happened to me before. I always did the drive. early things went exactly like that, I had to get used to her taking charge.

Do n't get me wrong, matter started out fairly vanilla but we quickly started to experiment in bed. As I said before, she was very dominant sexually, but she was also very sure-footed and had a huge sexual movement.

As I began to spread up to her about my subservient fantasies, and my legal brief skirmish with homosexual activity. sort of than repel her it served to add her prevalent side more to the forefront of our relationship.

She loved when I would eat her pussy, and I remember I got to do that a lot. She would pass my head into position, and literally grind her pussycat onto my lingua and rima oris.

She got into the verbal humiliation position of things, also. If I was n't licking her exactly the way she wanted, she would labour my head away and slap me across the face.

Then she would say something like, `` Eat my cunt properly, bitch. ''

Then she would rive my headway back into her private parts, grasping my hair firmly and holding me in place. It sounds much worse than it was because no subject what she said, I enjoyed worshipping her pussy.

I remember one even on the ride home from a night out. She made me eat her pussy in the backseat of a taxicab. Truly testing my entry to her authority.

I remember the taxi number one wood asked her what was going on back there, and in her typical surefooted demeanour Lisa replied, `` My bitch is eating my wet kitty-cat. ''

He just busted out laughing and said, `` shag, that 's totally hot ! ''

Early into our FLR kinship, Lisa started breaking me in with her new strap-on that she purchased specifically for me. She liked to do most of the fucking in are sex life, far more than I fucked her.

We tried so much together, sexually and otherwise. I was absolutely in heaven. I cherished her and loved our human relationship. I loved my ever more submissive role too, and I knew from that present moment forward that I loved being dominated by adult female by hard women.

I was absolutely devastated when she moved across the country from me, a couple of twelvemonth later. Although, we still keep in signature, through the cyberspace and telephone set.

fast forward twenty-two-years and I have now been married for 20 years to the most incredible and erotic woman.

For the shoemaker's last ten class, we have been practicing an FLR lifestyle relationship, including male sexual abstention, pegging, domestic bailiwick.

Furthermore, for the past 5 old age, my wife has successfully introduced cuckolding into our relationship, and together we have had three long condition bulls, during that flow.

Our most recent bull, Michealanis an extremely dominant bisexual Male, and I am forced to regularly suck his cock, and he will occasionally eff me.

Unlike my first male on virile experience in my belatedly XX, this time it feels right to me. There is no emotional bond to Micheal, he does n't want intimacy with me, no kissing or cuddling.

As my schoolmistress regularly confirms to me, my bi activity is because I need submission and humiliation. I need to be subservient to her and her Bulls because it helps me be a better pussyboy. It 's not about the sex act, it is all about the context.

When he cums in her pussy and I eat her creampie or I suck his gravid cock and he cums in my mouth. Even when he fucks my ass-pussy, it is not because I am gay, its because I am submissive. My Mistress Lisa knows that my humiliation is what pushes all of my release.

That 's why I am in erotic love with her. That is why I worship her and endeavour to be the better pussyboy that I can be for her every one day of my life.

The End ...