*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to make the well-fixed way out of this miserable life, As you can venture by this annotation I have chosen suicide as the only choice to a life I never chose to exist, I hope that the one who reads this note can fully see that I was never glad when i walked the terra firma, Was never happy external respiration, Was never glad living a life sentence I did n't hope, I would rather die and give someone new a hazard to dwell, Anyways as I can probably suppose you are all wondering why I did it former than the obvious fact I never wanted to live, fountainhead it all began a short spell ago when I met a certain miss who for all intensifier purposes shall persist nameless for the time beign, She was hand on heart honest to god my perfect match, No someone alive or beat could ever possibly match up to her in any aspect, Although to some mass she was never considered the most beautiful to me every time I stole a undivided glimpse I saw an Angel Falls staring back, Every discussion she spoke managed to result my core beating a little faster each and every fourth dimension, Every metre we managed to feature a conversation I will honestly admit that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never form a complete word, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made little to no sensation, I guess i have gone a petty off track but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the life-time I once lived, That young lady who shall still rest nameless was one of the few understanding I saw dying as the best option, The other reasons are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the unnamed girl I have spent my aliveness alone, nobody knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do require assistance, Nobody has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in hopes that maybe soul would see the broken digit hidden behind the mask of rip, Nobody has ever once had the decency to just halt and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two reasons, A girl who left me broken, Who left me demoralize and for all it 's worth the endorsement grounds will always bear that I 'm alone and the world never seems to worry, hypothesis the succeeding reason could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a bare thing that in my life has become something so major, In most people 's life story when they are bored they just pick up a Good Book, A secret plan, Watch the television or go hang out with their friends, With me been bored leads to affair much more unsafe, The knife is always my favourite past fourth dimension, See how retentive it takes for the pain to go too much to bear, See how a good deal blood seaps out the cold shoulder I leave on my arms, See how many lieu I can leave a scar without them been noticed, Yeah such fun meter, Of course alchol was always fun aswell, Getting drunk was always a nifty past times time, So yeah that 's another reason for this note, I was bored, So bored of animation, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the life near people are subject matter with, OK I guess the final rationality would have to be that I was tired, I was so tired of living the same day over and over, Yes daylight passed but to me each and every I day seemed the same, I was in a rut, I did the Saami affair day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many class, My life became such a repetition that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the reason for why I chose to train my animation, A girl, Being so alone, Boredom and of course being tired, I know they do n't vocalize like much of a reason but I want whoever may understand this bank note to sympathise that them four minor reason combined became one big reasonableness, Being depressed and alone while also being very tired and extremely bored, Such a bad combination, Anyways I guess the totally breaker point of this note is to say goodbye and to let you all know the cause I left this life, So goodbye and goodluck to all, I wish my menage all the best and hope they can forgive my choice, Hope they can translate that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in death I will still have it off them till the end of meter itself, I also hope that the unknown girl can realise that if she ever reads this I just want her to know that I do care deeply about her, I do still love her and I doubt that love will ever fade, Even if my heart has no musical rhythm I will still feel a heartbeat everytime I think of her, Hope she can remember the good fourth dimension we shared and remember that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to think that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be happy even if that meant I could never be, Okay now I know this has gotten a petty long so I will end up as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with sprightliness as if I never existed, Just let me go and blank out about me as so many mass already have, Goodbye I do love you all ( anyone who reads that, those shoemaker's last crinkle are meant for kinfolk only ), guessing I can finally be at peace, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find my body in the place I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the dome where all our memories are stored ) *